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paintaboveyourbones · 2 days

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David fighting for his life during his date night dinner with Lestat.

David : Leatat, no

Lestat: Lestat, OUI

Forget AMC IwtV Daniel, book David was the original old man fighting for his life against a manic gay vampires

I laugh so I can also process the fact that underneath the usual Lestat ass-clownery this is also a really good depiction of what it’s like to be in a relationship where the other person is spiraling or not regulating and their partner doesn’t catch it.

Lestat is fresh off an attempt at ending his life in the desert and - hey look at that he survived! Just like that, he’s back to being good ole’ Lestat. And, some of this misunderstanding we can write off to David being So Terribly British (stuff upper lip, don’t talk about your feelings too much), but the other part is understandably just Lestat always kind of being a mess.

So if someone’s basic personality is Clown everyone around them just kind of gets to a place where …. Oh that’s just Lestat, I guess? Lol

So what do you when the other persons usual level of manic energy begins to go into over drive? Again, there’s no way David can know because Lestat isn’t communicating to him about the Claudia dreams, and how weird he feels post-Akasha about his new powers and how he doesn’t even feel human anymore. He’s just spent the last 6 months traveling the world and killing serial killers because they’re a convenient symbolic stand in for how Lestat sees himself at this point. Killing them again and again he has the opportunity to live out his fantasy of self harm and destruction.

But again, David’s in the dark. So to him it’s just another case of Lestat typically being messy and not having his shit together and he’s getting more and more irritated.

Which is familiar to anyone who went through their unmedicated period in a relationship.

Can’t you just listen to common sense?

I’m getting sick of your BS

Can’t you just be normal for once?

Why are you acting like that?

And then just a few pages later there's this interesting contrast with Louis where the opposite is happening. Louis might not know that everything is going off the fucking handrails, but he's showing up. He's being present in their relationship, but because he's not engaging in any of Lestat's love languages (words of affirmation, gift giving) and Lestat is going through it, he's missing all the signs and viewing Louis' care for him through this super distorted lens.

Hahah, it's not like Louis is actually showing up because he might actually want to spend time with me or anything. Lollll that would be super weird right? Because, like, I hate myself. Haha I'm literal TRASH LOLOLOLOL Like, no one could ever just want to spend a night watching movies all of which are about ordinary people being elevated through their love of what is monstrous or anything. Louis must just really like my apartment and my TV and my shower because all of these things and the things I could buy for him just have so much more intrinsic value that the presence of my being 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲

everything is pain

And then when Louis DOES realize how deep in Lestat is, he deflects. Absolutely can not handle it.

#tvc #anne rice #iwtv #lestat #totbt #tale of the body thief #lestat de lioncourt #david talbot #Lestat/david #david/lestat #loustat #louis de pointe du lac #louis/lestat #lestat/louis #tvc reread #vc meta

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librafeedee · 1 year

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Who’d help me eat wayyy to much and pop the button off these in no time?!

Piggy 🐷 needs to eat good and fattening to bust these … 😉😉

#feedee girl #fat girl #feeding kink #gaining weight on purpose #growing belly #female feedee #i love being a feedee #porky little piggy #feed me #feedee encouragement #guess i’m going to have to stuff myself #stuffing #stuffing encouragement #stuffed fatty #feed me until i can’t breathe and walk

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kohakhearts · 1 month

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theres a really. special kind of despair in the uncertainty brought about by moments of success and achievement. the inevitable “what now” of reaching your goals. and i kind of wish someone had warned me how hollow graduating university would feel, tbh

#taylor.txt #im miserable primarily for other reasons right now but i dont think i appreciated how much this just…wouldnt feel like anything #i think especially in my case as someone who so desperately needed ‘going away to college’ to get out of my childhood situation #and now for the past 5 years everything ive done has been for the purpose of getting my degree and finishing school #like im fine i guess i just kind of wish i could feel proud of myself or happy its over instead of like dreading the ceremony and feeling #like everything i have to do for grad is just one more thing i have to check off a list. getting my grad photos done felt nice but idk #it kind of feels like no one really cares which. idk why i would expect it to NOT feel that way. but yeah #tl;dr im around Kinda…need to finish stuff up but im over the really busy part of this all. kinda just coasting to the end here tbh #when this is over i’m gonna get to my request fics. prommy. wanted to do them over the long weekend but i was sick :(#anyway like to be clear im fine. people have been pointing out today i seem down and i think embarrassingly a collection of my students #noticed me crying on the bus today but thats life i guess you make do. im sad and thats ok. tbh

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star-girl69 · 10 months

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the way that i’ve already read all of the lottie x reader fics on tumblr CMON im at work on my break and i just wanna read smth 😔😔

#guess i’m going to have to do it myself #does this mean i’ll finally start writing my lottie fic? maybe #lottie matthews x reader #addie says stuff!!!

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itspileofgoodthings · 22 days

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The strategy with which I planned this day off fills me with joy.

#I don’t mean what I’m going to do today. I have no idea lol #but I mean at SCHOOL #I didn’t tell a single student #and I booked the retired English teacher as a sub because she used to teach these classes and knows the material #and she will have the energy and the presence to carry them through stuff I want them to know but am too tired to teach #lol #like I really pushed myself all week with my high schoolers especially #and now she gets to step in and tag team #it is NOT a do nothing day #also she’s old school strict and they love to complain about that but the joy I felt in my heart #every time they were annoying this week. to think of the ace up my sleeve #and then!!!!! I did it on a Friday!!! so guess WHAT. by Monday most of them will have forgotten #and I won’t have to hear about it #I love to scheme in this way lol #a true joy of being a teacher #I know this is ridiculous blathering but I love to see it

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pessimisticprincess · 7 months

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today is feeling very panic attack

#ive had a couple the past week guess its time for round 4 #i’m not even going in for an actual shift bc i’m scheduled off today i’m just going in to talk to my manager at 9:30 #i think they won’t fire me because i have a hospital note and stuff but #right before i did all this they had a whole thing about attendance and they did my one coworker dirty so who knows #i have laughably bad luck and i dont have another job locked in yet so i’m just gonna assume the worst to protect myself l

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feelslikegold · 11 months

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#so #I guess I need to vent bc I can’t handle my anxiety and isolation any longer ig #my mother has been in the hospital for a week now #she had pneumonia but then they found all these things #like a blood clot in the lung and stuff #and they said it was symptoms of long covid bc me and her got hit hard in 2021 with covid #and they put her on a lot of medication and ran a bunch of tests #and they said that from long covid #she has some damage to her heart #idk anything about medical stuff and she’s waiting on the cardiologist to go talk to her #but I am 2000 miles away #and feel so helpless and so hopeless #and i’m really close with my parents/the baby of the family #and I have had severe anxiety since she went in #and each day it gets worse bc tests show something new #and I literally do not know how to handle it #I also have obsessive repetitive thoughts that are god awful and they have not stopped in a full week #so I have made myself ultimately SO sick from anxiety like I have my own chest pains rn #and then the hypochondriac in me is like…I had covid when she did and we had the same lingering symptoms so like. is my heart damaged too 🙂#and yeah like. I have had severe panic attacks daily now like I just had one in a parking lot and had to go home and now I just feel?????#so numb and so????? I genuinely hate this I cannot handle shit like this

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arthur-r · 19 days

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what’s really embarrassing is my roommate on the phone with his mom saying “yeah i’ve been getting really sloppy i haven’t cleaned in a week it’s terrible” and my side of the room is just like that. all of the time. and i feel guilty but he also hasn’t ever said anything to my face he moved my stuff some at the beginning of the year but has never talked to me about it and i’m also so fucking ill that i just cant really handle adding that to my list while trying to also not fail school. so here i am being a terrible person i guess. did i tell you guys about turtle-person. have i showed my bracelets. i’m gonna go to sleep but in the morning i need to show my bracelets

#help i have work tomorrow. i also feel sick and strange. wish me luck #the sun was around today which was incredible but also i think it gave me too much mental energy #cause for the first time in forever i had the brightness of spirit to go for a walk. but that’s not the same as having the blood flow for it #so i think i overexerted myself cause of being finally happy and mentally energized i forgot about being physically disabled #i also had to explain POTS to somebody today and she was literally like ‘oh is that the thing where you need to have salt’ and NO like #i do have a really high salt intake to cope with POTS. but that’s not the fucking thing yknow?? like no that’s not what the thing i have is #it has nothing to do with salt. salt is a fun little coincidence that it can help with water retention which in turn helps with POTS #and it raises blood pressure is i think the other reason? but anyway idk i would honestly rather she just not know about it than have like #that very particular tiktok version of it like i am so glad for internet knowledge being spread and stuff and i mean. i guess even the posts #that i’m about to complain about are good for making people feel like they’re not alone. so maybe it’s fine. but i was going to complain of #the videos that are like ‘‘that one POTS friend’’ and it’s just like. salty food. instead of like. having to sit down?? BEING FATIGUED??#and like whatever. whatEVER but i wish it wasn’t getting conflated with one particular little way of treating it. even though i use that way #i don’t have needs-a-lot-of-salt-disease. like that’s not the point. that’s not the issue. it’s not a salt deficiency. salt just helps #and it doesn’t FIX it. it just helps. that’s all #ANYWAY EVERYTHING IS FINE. i feel sick though. but i’m gonna sleep and i’ll be fine #i miss before i had a job cause then i could sleep all day if i skipped class and it would be really nice. but now i have a job i would be #missing on my responsibilities for. and I don’t actually have accommodations. but im gonna sleep i’ll be fine #and library book cart is actually so rollator. like as far as being able to walk the library situation is such a win #anyway i’m gonna go to sleep now. but yeah idk i’m sick and a mess what else is new. but i have something whatever i’m good theres something #unrequited love for life or something like that. ok im gonna go to bed sorry for being weird and strange all the time!!!!#me. my post. mine.#delete later

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jjhonanana · 9 months

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Trans Confession #9173681

My biggest fear when I was younger was somehow becoming the Virgin Mary because my period was late.

My second biggest fear was my period.

#transgender #ftm #I hated my period so much but the relief I would get when it finally came was nice I guess #a little reassurance that I wasn’t cursed and doomed to have a baby against my will #literally have only been in one real relationship in my life and that was after realizing I was trans lol #so you can imagine how dumb it was for young me to be afraid of being pregnant suddenly 💀💀#either way I’m still afraid of getting pregnant so I’ve fully committed to be abstinent until I get a hysterectomy #which won’t be super long because I’m finishing school soon so I can come back home and get surgeries and stuff #yk before I go out into the adult world again and have to live on my own #I’m so excited to be flat chested and completely infertile #like I won’t even donate my eggs bc I do not want any copies of myself getting out into the world fr #it’d be funny for like a minute but absolutely not #trans confession

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librafeedee · 1 year

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oh no i lost weight 😭😭

if i’m being honest my CW in my bio was an estimate since don’t weigh as often as i should

but i was 9 LBS ?!? off from what i thought 😨

definitely gonna have to gain that back

#feedee girl #i love being a feedee #fat girl #feed me #feeding kink #oh shit i lost weight #that’s not good #guess i’m going to have to stuff myself #gaining weight on purpose #growing belly #fatty

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couldbebetterforsure · 9 months

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What on earth are the other routes of Jack Jeanne like??? Because I had seen so many comments and reviews say this game is super light on the romance and all that…

But I’m going through Suzu’s route and it’s literally so fucking romantic??????????

I’m over here acting like a damn blushing maiden watching Kisa and Suzu interact over the course of the whole game, and that’s only ramped up now that I’m out of the common route and into Suzu’s specific route!

#story time with me #jack jeanne #jack jeanne spoilers #willow takes center stage at univeil #is it me???? do I just have way lighter standards about what is romantic than I thought?????#cause I am someone who very much prefers romance heavy otome games #don’t get me wrong I REALLY love the plot heavy ones!!!!#I just love me some….well love 🥰🥰🥰#but the stuff I read before I played jack jeanne told me it’s very plot heavy and super light on romance #which made me so confused when I started going after suzu and the boy had me swooning and giggling #in all his interactions with kisa…like I’m sorry but two of them are super romantic to me!#I mean heck they still haven’t outright confessed to each other yet where I’m at in suzu’s route and I think that!!!!#did I just luck out and my sweet boy suzu just happens to have the most romantic route of the game????#I mean I guess I won’t know for sure until I get through the rest of the routes myself

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be-gay-do-crime-ahaha · 2 months

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Holy fucking shit the dysphoria is dysphoria-ing right now. I feel physically nauseous oh my fucking god. I’m gonna fucking kill someone maybe myself rn I’m gonna lose my shit holy hell.

Doesn’t help that I’ve been incredibly overstimulated the past few days every sound is like a fucking cheese grater in my ears oh my god.