#gosh im petty today
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i'll write more on this later but i've been thinking of an Ever After AU 😌 ofc i've never seen it hehe but i always feel like she should have been more bitter about Henry rejecting her the moment her stepmother outed her real identity
so what if, instead of being sold to Pierre Le Pieu after the ball, you end up being taken in by the Grand Duke Andrew, otherwise known as Uncle Andy to a certain prince 😗 and he believes you, he's so sympathetic to your situation. he'll do everything in his power to gather evidence and put together a case to get your inheritance back as well as your title since you do have to be a lady for him to wed you 😌💕💕
#i built this around a dramatic courtroom scene wherein your tragic circumstances and the Countess' villainy is revealed#all in front of the prince 😌 who is pelted with one sinking realization after another 😌#gosh im petty today#anywaysss come into my inbox lets talk#andy barber x you#andy barber x reader#andy barber headcanon#my writing#ever after AU
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hi!! i saw the event post and immediately i was interested. nanami kento + angst prompts 9 + 11, gn!reader pls! (could u also maybe include reader being hurt and him comforting reader? if u want ofc) anyways i'm looking forward to this, and take ur time!!
the picture - nanami kento
summary: you looked around the shared house, different pictures of the two of you together from graduation up till now, but none of them stood out to you except the one where nanami proposed to you in.
tags: angst but there's comfort at the end, marriage, fighting, pet names (baby, love), overthinking
notes: it was so hard to not cry while writing this like gosh but im glad i could get out of my writers block bc of this
"kento, all i'm asking is that you help me with the wedding planning. i understand that you are busy and so am i. i just need-" you paused yourself, trying to carefully pick out words that won't set off your fiancé. "i just need you to be here with me. you even missed our kimono and dress fittings today." for a to-be-wife, you knew you shouldn't be this hesitant to touch nanami but as your hand went in to graze against his, it shook anxiously.
"if you understand then why don't you just leave me alone when i'm working? let's have this conversation later." nanami retracted his hand from under yours before brushing you off as if you weren't anything important to him. "you always say that and i'm tired of being ignored like this every time i try to talk to you." fighting with nanami was nothing new. petty fights, serious ones, or even jealous fights, the two of you knew that if you didn't calm down and communicated your concerns, you wouldn't get anywhere.
however, now, you felt as if you were just a lousy bug, flying around and about nanami's ear. "just talk to me please. you can't expect me to take care of this on my own. it's our-" the shakiness of your hands only worsened when you felt your heart rate increase. the pounding against your chest felt as if it was in your throat. no matter how many deep breaths you took, it just wouldn't ease the feeling in your throat. it squeezed and squeezed until it could choke a sob out of you. crying wouldn't get your way, you knew that, but somehow you couldn't stop yourself from letting tears fall down your face. "please, for the love of god, shut the fuck up for once. im busy so please leave." you were used to it. used to the monotone of his voice. yet his voice was laced with nothing but annoyance for you at the moment which shocked you to the core. you didn't need to turn around to know that nanami's own words didn't register in his brain yet.
without saying another word, you quickly left his home office. you looked around the shared house, different pictures of the two of you together from graduation up till now, but none of them stood out to you except the one where nanami proposed to you in. a smile subconsciously snuck a way onto your face before you quickly shook it off. you felt as if you were betrayed, no, mistaken by his words. nanami promised that no matter what, you were together, a team, that would help each other through the most difficult days and the easiest. and yet, here you were overthinking, on whether or not nanami truly meant his words. no, nanami never goes back on his promises. especially to you. but you couldn't help but to second guess yourself on if it was worth it to go back in there to try again and apologize but there was nothing to apologize for. you never did anything besides support him throughout his work. how come he didn't do the same?
your eyes wandered until it landed on your keys dangling from a rack near the front door. you doubted yourself. you doubted nanami's love for you in that second. you shouldn't have, really, but recently his actions weren't proving you wrong. hesitantly, you looked down at your engagement ring before looking back at the picture. no, you can't, you said to yourself before grabbing your keys and leaving the house. you didn't have a clue as to where you wanted to go but as long as you didn't have to be around nanami at the moment, anywhere was fine.
just somehow, somehow, your subconscious followed the same familiar path. the same roads that felt like home as they were leading you to the place in the picture. as if you wanted to relive the moment, not wanting to face reality. the bright half-moon that accompanied the twinkling stars in the sky did everything they could to comfort you, in some way. the picture was taken a little bit earlier in the night however you could see the soft glowing moon in the sky up above the love of your life kneeling before you. oh how you wished that nanami was there to hold you in his arms as he swayed along to the sound of the rushing river down beneath you. his chest pressed firm against your back as his face was cradled in your neck. your welcoming scent filled his senses as he basked in your love. nanami pressed soft kisses onto your neck, claiming that he's only trying to warm you up from the chilly summer nights. "yeah, whatever." you rolled your eyes clearly not annoyed as you quietly chuckled to yourself. "mm turn around." nanami said as he removed himself from out your neck, placing his hands on your hips loosely. "i love you." nanami whispered as he dived into your lips. "i love you too, future husband." the two of you laughed, flustered at the new name he held for you.
that moment was nothing more than two months ago. you sighed as you leaned against the same railing, hearing the same river flow down the stream, seeing the same moon that shined above, smelling the same occasional whiff of a nearby street food cart, and tasting the same chap-stick off your lips. it felt all too familiar but felt all the more distant. the feeling was comfortable but awkward as you stood there alone. though all you needed was time alone, time to calm yourself down before trying again. but that time was cut by the soft tap on your shoulder. "kento?" you nervously called out, your voice wavering as it filled the silence. "what are you doing here?"
"i could ask you the same."
"how did you know i'd be here?" you slowly but surely removed yourself off of the railing. the comfortable atmosphere faded out to be uneasy. the once comfortable silence came to be suffocating as you felt yourself being torn apart in nanami's gaze. "where else would you be?" nanami spoke after taking a deep breath. if nanami was being truthful, he saw your eyes linger on the picture before you left. the dejected expression that filled your eyes as you turned away towards the door made his heart drop. he didn't know where he stood with you at the moment, so he refrained from touching you. but all you wanted was for him to embrace you in his arms and hold you there like he did two months ago. it seemed as if the world was plotting against your desires. however, nanami took a step forward, shortening the distance between you two. you took a sharp breath in before looking away, pretending as if anything was more important than the overwhelming presence of your fiancé. and at that nanami felt daggers shooting into his chest. it was his fault entirely but he couldn't help but feel hurt at your reluctance to meet his eyes.
"please look at me." nanami pleaded as he took one step closer. you let out a breath that you didn't even know you were holding in as you turned back his way. your eyes were glistening in tears yet looked dry in expression as you met his. the ones that would be lighting up with love as soon as you laid eyes on him now were the ones that offered nothing more than a look of somberness. "i wish i never acted the way i did towards you, i'm sorry." your nails dug into your palm as you fought back the tears that threatened to fall once more. one step closer. that was all it took for him to only be mere inches away from you. "i should have never said those things to you and i am so sorry, my love." you truly couldn't stand it. being so close to nanami and yet his hands were placed by his side. but you were mad at him, you felt so displeased with yourself and him that you didn't know, you didn't let yourself be comforted by being in his arms. however, nanami couldn't let you stand there, fighting yourself in complete silence as he watched the victorious tears fall down your cheek. he carefully brushed back strands of hair behind your ear before slowly bringing you in his arms.
and upon impact, you softened. your tense shoulders dropped but the sound of your crying only got louder into his chest. his work shirt was getting drenched but he didn't care. not when your muffled cries were the product of his actions. nanami stood silently as he ran his fingers through your hair, petting it calmly as an action to soothe you. "baby?" he called out when he noticed your cries started to get quiet. you hummed as a response, too scared to trust your voice. "look up at me." you pulled yourself from his chest, looking up at him with tearful eyes but nanami only took his thumb to wipe away the stray tears. "i love you" nanami softly smiled as he witnessed your first smile of the night. "i love you too, future husband." though the two of you weren't bashful of the nicknames as before, it was used as a way to ground yourself. that after everything, nanami was still here, ever so hopelessly in love with you. "i'm sorry i've been so caught up in work recently. but let's go home and figure something out, okay? we are a team and i'll make sure it feels that way." you nodded as laced your hands around his torso. "okay."
#crying sobbing throwing up#its okay im okay#AAAAA#nanami fluff#nanami kento fluff#nanami x you#nanami x reader#nanami kento x you#nanami kento x reader#jujustu kaisen fluff#jjk fluff#jjk nanami fluff#nanami imagines#omgjumin#nanami angst#nanami kento angst#jjk angst#jujustu kaisen angst
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Hunter foolishly being worried how willow n dariuses relationship will play out ( sińce they destroyed his ship n he scared her n teammates)
but gosh HE WAS SO WRONG they become besties n obviously both treasure him dearly but sometimes he cannot wrap his head around over their banter/inside jokes. He s glad tho
Also i d love to have Hunter go for advice what prezent to give to willow (he somewhat knows just needs to put his ideas in order) and it ends up with darius picking out the sweater/jacket/dress n Hunter sewing patches/adding on personal details
Hdhdhd adore them being pentagram buddies imagine it starting as missclick on willows part n sending him a dumb meme but they keep chatting from time to time
//you will be the end of me lolly im supposed to be responsible not looking thru your huntlow tag/lh also happy lolly tagged her posts everyone 🎉/lhj
THEYRE SO FUNNY
Like Darius and Willow's relationship is definitely tumultuous and antagonistic and this initially had Hunter very nervous. He had to attempt to be the mediator when the two are about to go at it like feral cats. He's in the middle like "Okay, okay, okay, okay. How about we all just relax?" Only to eventually realize that he does NOT have the social skills to curb whatever the fuck is happening here. If his girlfriend wants to scalp his weekend father, she is far too stubborn to be talked out of it and vice versa. So he has accepted that this is just how its gonna be.
But its so strange because while they bicker constantly, they also seem to have this overly familiar relationship that Hunter doesn't quite understand. He honestly feels pretty locked out of the loop whenever hes with the two but he isn't so much upset by that as he is INSANELY CONFUSED. Like??? What the fuck is going on??? Usually when the three of them are together, Hunter is occupying all his brain power to figure out what the FUCK these two are talking about.
Willow: Boscha keeps vagueing about me on her fensta and it's honestly kinda funny.
Darius: Uck. Well don't just tell me about it. Show me the screenshots. I need to see how petty she's acting.
Hunter: Whats "vagueing"? What's "fensta"? What's a "screenshot"? Why can't you people just use real words?!
Willow: Oh honey, I'm sorry. Well "vagueing" means--
Darius: Google it, gramps.
Willow: Be nice to him.
Hunter: Yeah, be nice to me.
Darius: I am! I just helpfully suggested a place to find answers!
And its shit like. Hunter will show up at Willow's doorstep for a date and just as he's about to knock on the door, Darius will swing it open and stride past him.
Hunter: Darius?!
Darius: Hunter.
Hunter: Wh-you-I-....why were you just in Willow's house?
Darius: Because she's hopeless, that's why. The little purple haired girl is busy today and she needed someone to set her on the right path. Wanted to impress you. Isn't that so very cute? Hair, make-up, outfit, etectera. Of course she didn't care about my plans for the day. Just demanded I get my butt over here and be her little fairy godmother. Real bossy, that girl.
Hunter: Wh--
Darius: Anyway, I did a fantastic job obviously. You're welcome. *Winks and struts away before Hunter can get another word in*
And yes. Yes absolutely. Willow's sixteenth birthday rolls around and Hunter panics big time. Because not only is this her first birthday that he gets to celebrate with her, it's her first birthday he spends as her boyfriend. He knows he wants to patch up a whole dress but it's simply the matter of picking out a dress. And god, if there's one thing Hunter doesn't know shit about, it's fashion.
I feel like, while Hunter is still new to this whole tailoring hobby, Darius is a pro and can probably make some excellent quality clothing. So he makes Willow a dress himself. Hunter helps to the best of his ability.
Hunter: Sorry I think we're just gonna have to buy one. I don't....know her exact measurements.
Darius: That's fine. I do.
Hunter: What?
Darius: I've resized plenty of clothes for her before. That reminds me, I need to teach you to do that. She's only gonna get buffer after all.
Darius makes Hunter promise to not tell Willow who made the dress. ("We can't have her incorrectly assuming I like her.") But Hunter is a SHIT liar so he's just very awkwardly explaining how he just happened to stumble upon it at the market and thought "huh. That would look nice on Willow. Haha....ha."
And of course Willow knows the patches are Hunter's handiwork. But when it comes to the dress itself....
"Wow. It fits me perfectly. It flatters me perfectly. It's my exact style. The colour matches my skin tone. It's...like it was made for me. What a coincidence, huh?"
And Hunter, sweating absolute bullets is like "HAHAH. Yeah. Coincidences are crazy, right?"
Willow decides to let Darius get away with this one. For now. She'll put it in the pocket of her beautifully crafted dress (he put POCKETS in it, holy shit!!!) and use it as leverage once the opportunity arises.
#delighted you enjoyed the new hunlow tag#THANK YOU for rbing so many of them and tagging them#i would not have found at least half of them if it werent for your blog#you really saw my terrible system of not tagging shit and took matters into your own hands#youre a hero
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j your girl is currently haha living her best life. bc some of the T’s old teammates’ gfs that i used to hangout with at school sent a pic of T’s ex that she posted with one of her friends. she captioned it hanging with T (her friends name does start with T though) and posing with kissy faces and middle fingers so thats haha so funny 🤪 idk if anything is meant by that but yeah. and then T posted a photo on ig and some girl commented being all flirty on it. not the first time that’s happened usually i ignore but that had to happen today and now im feeling insecure. and it doesnt help that yesterday the girl im now friends with who lives in my building came over for some class stuff. and she brought this other girl we started talking to in class. they come in and we start setting up our stuff and this girl not the one in my building starts talking about how we were lucky living here bc they just saw a really hot guy downstairs and he greeted my friend. and my friend looked at her like 😳 and said “girl, no that’s her bf…” bc they saw T on his way out from my place 😭 the world is really testing me and my levels of jealousy
Oh my gosh the urge to fight that girl would have been through the roof if I were you! Luckily we know T is head over heels for you so there’s no reason to worry. The fact his ex is even being that petty shows she knows she lost out on a good one. Apparently you’ve landed yourself a very hot commodity lol. But for real, you know he’s in love with you so the jealousy can be hard to stomp out but we know you’re his #1 🥹
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are you feeling any better??? i hope you are ♡
how about karasuno’s first years or seijoh 4 for the ask game (๑ᴖᴗᴖ๑)
aaaaa im feeling ok! kinda feverish but actually ate something besides Rice Krispies today so perhaps things are looking up lol!!! also oh my gosh. seeing this ask im realizing maybe I should've made the game "reasons why these people won't date me" so many of them are way out of my league sheeeeesh hahaha. but I'll try to stick to the prompt lol. I wrote an explanation for everyone but I'll just post the first years ones rn bc the post was getting LONG lol. if you want to see the seijoh ones :):):) just lmk :) lol
kageyama does not have much between his ears poor man. I think id like him at first and find him interesting and mysterious but once we got to the point of lots of conversations he might be kinda bland and like, very straightforward and maybe not super imaginative? and id be like ohhh noooo. im sorry. lol.
Hinata kinda same. he's also very extroverted and I feel like despite the fact that he's very sweet there's a chance our personalities could be too similar and we'd have the same weaknesses or insecurities and clash, or we'd somehow be vying for the same position in our social groups if that makes sense?
Yamaguchi is kinda a perfect man but I think in my mind I'd tell myself he's too soft or boring or has too small of goals for me or something lol. i feel like i do this too much with actually good guys i interpret them as like not my type bc they're not overly intense or emotionally unstable lol. rip me ig. can we get a ceceyama au where we're bffs and I constantly kinda unwittingly friendzone him until one day I turn around and realize he's actually wonderful partner material???
tsukki is lovely and amazing he's my fave. I love his snark and wittiness but honestly I feel like he's more abrasive than I give him credit for and I really don't like when people pick fights or act petty over nothing. so I feel like Id initially be super into him and find him cute and intellectual etc etc but I would get tired of him acting kinda pretentious and annoying people too much just to get a rise out of them lol.
yachi im canonically straight :( sorry wonderful girl <3 lol.
all that being said like, I hope it would work out w most of them lol but I did what I had to for the sake of the game hahaha
#ask#asks#arquitecturadelanada#lol this game was kinda PAINFUL#I also 100% wrote the seijoh explanations too and then just didn't put them in here bc the list was getting extremely LONG#so if you want to see them. just holler <3 :) lol#karasuno#haikyuu!!
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Im sure ur getting a lot of messages like this bc ur a wholeass fucking sweetheart but I literally cannot process why people feel the need to drag ur name into shit?? literally all u do is create some good ass content and vibe in ur part of the fandom and support other content creators. more people need to be like that. if they're just bringing up ur name to be petty and try and start shit, then i think we all know who the real problem is :)
Ahhh gosh, thank you! That’s all I’ve ever done: just hang out here on tumblr talking to people who enjoy my writing, and still I get attacked over and over again. You’d think I start the conflict, but I never do. What happened today doesn’t really bother me because the OP is just being an asshole who’s trying to deflect criticism. I’m mostly rolling my eyes at it rather than anything else. But thank you for being so sweet, I’ve just followed you back!
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Mid-crash bawling
hey so i have absolutely no one to talk to about this
so im just going to rant a bit about something that happened to me today
i live on a border city, that is, mexican-United States border
i live on the mexican side, but i travel to and from several times a month
usually, there are three tolls and one lane before and after crossing
so because those three tolls merge into one single lane, common sense would say that we move forward one by one: one from the left toll, one from the middle one, and then one from the right lane
but this wasnt the case this time
the center and right lane were attempting to follow this rule, but the left lane wasn’t letting us, they were trying to follow their lane back to back
and then this other old ass dude in a truck from the left lane tried to get in front of me
fact about me #1: i have some anger issues, i am feisty, and i almost always try to make things go right
so i stayed put, basically glued to the back of the car from the center lane
but this asshole was doing the same
so the dude
has the fucking audacity
to fucking break my fucking side mirror
and i know for a fact he did in on purpose
fact about me #2: i cry. a lot. about everything. yes, everything
so in my mind i was thinking “i should fucking put this car on park, get out, and calmly explain to this guy that hey, thats not right and civilly come to an agreement because, again, hey, you broke my car, or at least a part of it
but by the time my brain came to this conclusion (which, mind you, did not take long at all, maybe 2 seconds) two things were already happening
one, the line was moving, so we were no longer on the U.S. side of the bridge, we were on the Mexican side
two, i was crying. and not even discreetly any more, i was full on bawling
i look through my review mirror and there wasm Mr. douchebag laughing hiss ass off because he made a fucking kid cry!!!
dude was easily 3 times my age, laughing at the fact that my dumb ass couldnt react the way i was supposed to
and oh my gosh
i am so pissed off
at him, mainly
because what kind of asshole just decides to fucking crash into me because they are doing the wrong thing?! and it wouldnt even make a difference, its just one car in front of you
and secondly, at myself
because i let this dumbass get the better of me
because if i had just let him go first, this wouldnt have happened
because i have never learned to actually calm myself down, and that would have at least getten the justice my dear daisy deserves (thats my cars name btw, please dont judge)
because i realize that there are so many things wrong in this world, with us humans: that there is not enough justice, even for small things like this; that there are people out there who live for making others feel miserable and hurting them
i cried for maybe two hours straight
because i really cannot believe
just how far people will go defending their own wrong decisions, even when they are petty and inconsequential, such as waiting your turn to get in line
and i might be asked “if it was so inconsequential, if it was just one car and it did not make a difference, why couldn't you just let him go first?
so let me answer that
because it was my turn, it was my right to go
i should not have to give up my turn, my right, just because someone else feels like taking it from me
and i am a strong believer in that
whatever the case might be, i should not have to “give in” or “be the bigger person” when i am in the right mind just to avoid a problem or an issue, just because some asshole thinks they can get away with tormenting me
and maybe i should have, because then my car would not have suffered, maybe i would just be angry at him for going first, not angry because he broke my mirror and felt super proud of himself for it
so congratulations, Mr. I-made-a-20-year-old-child-in-a-corolla-cry, you have only increased my conviction and strengthened my belief that we should fight for what is right, and should not give in to bullies and their pride
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Tagged by @gosh-im-short
Have you had a good day so far?
Yeah! Today’s the first day in a while that like I’ve actually felt good rather than numb. Think I finally closed out the wallowing in despair chapter of this quarantine shit. Feeling pretty damn good.
What’s something you wish you could tell your younger self?
Run. Let them go because all they do is bring you down. You’re stronger than they make you feel. Being their friend isn’t a reflection of bad judgement on your part. But some people don’t deserve your kindness in all it’s intensity. Continue to be kind, but when you feel like you should run, run. You’re not a fuck up, you’re human. Take a breath and take your time.
If you could share one song with someone for them to understand you, what would it be?
Oh god... I’d like to say something badass or heartbreaking, but honestly (as dorky as this is) Introducing Me from Camp Rock 2 nails me pretty much on the head minus the “trying to grow a mustache” line because I’m a girl, so that’s a thing I’m actively NOT trying to do.
A song people maybe wouldn’t expect you to like but you do?
Uh... Maybe American Girl by Tom Petty only because a lot of people either think I like country or more modern era music. Which is totally correct, but I also like other forms of rock music.
Describe your go-to pair of shoes.
Red and off-white checked slip on Vans
Do you have a picture/poster in your room?
Nope. My bedroom walls are rather bare and plain. Should probably fix that...
What’s your favorite software?
What? I literally just use my computer for writing and school stuff so... Google?
Do you own nail polish/fave color of nail polish?
HA! Yeah, that’d be a no my dude.
Favorite herb/spice?
Garlic.
Do/can you lucid dream?
Nope.
Summer or winter?
Summer. Always gives me a sense of adventure and youth. That feeling of invincibility that comes with hours of sunshine.
If you could relive a day of your life, would you? When?
Probably the day I met my husband. Just to soak it all in better. Give proper appreciation to a moment that seemed so inconsequential at the time you know?
Favorite historical era?
Probably the 1940s. And it’s not a romanticism of the past type of feeling. Like, I’m a history major. All eras of time have had their shittiness. But there was so much positive change happening in the midst of utter destruction which is rather inspiring in a way.
A common misunderstanding people have of you?
Hmm... I’d like to think I’m pretty easy to pin down. Maybe that I’m not as quiet and shy or loud and obnoxious as I can come across as being. Like I’m definitely more solidly in the middle and it depends on the energy of who I’m around. Like if we’re chill and quiet, so am I. If we’re chaotic and full of energy, so am I. Also, I’m not nearly as tomboy either. Like yes, my hair’s short and I live almost exclusively in jeans and sneakers, but I also own dresses and skirts and cute boots.
Well, that was fun! Anyone wanna join me?
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thank you so much for sending sdcjnskjdn i uhhhh recorded all of these basically immediately after you sent them but then i listened back and felt like i suonded so annoying and went on too long and my pronunciation wasnt very clear so i postponed posting them sdjnvdjs i decided to transcribe what i said (under read more) cause that makes me feel better abt it.
5. I’ll talk about what I did today
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0z7uDDcKzjQ
6. I’ll talk about something I’m obsessed with/currently interested in
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0iLq52dlB1y (the very good video i talk about: https://youtu.be/-6lMD9h_ix4)
19. I’ll talk about something I’m proud of
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0lPPvmwbvbI this ones the most ebarassing cause i decided to have fun and try switching to my alternative, vaguely british-inspired “accent”,,,, also the cohesion ... she just wasnt there.
5. today i went to college. i was really late and i missed the first class. i only attended one class today, cause i only have two classes per day rn - thats definitely gonna change next semester but anyway - the class was really good, the subject is Introduction to Literary Studies (i took a while cause i had to translate it from portuguese) but um yeah the class was about why humans create fiction. why humans.. you know.. how humans...... Human Nature is such that we are unsatisfied with reality and we create other lives and other experiences through fiction. and it’s not necessarily that we don’t like our reality, it could just be that it’s not enough; like, you could rly like your reality but you still have an innate, like.. NEED for experiencing Other Things that you couldnt in your own life. thats basically what the argument was, it was really interesting. and i rly like the teacher, she’s rly cool. so after that class i just had some lunch DELICIOUS the food in my college is so good ugh i love it so much and it’s just 2 reais for for lunch when you’re a student there and it’s so good i’m.. ugh it’s the best part of college cause its rly rly rly cheap for us students and it’s really good like It didnt even have to be that good cause it’s so cheap but it’s REALLY GOOD hh um... yeah i love it AND THEN after having lunch i went to the library which is a luh--another thing i rly like about my college cause it’s the biggest library in my university. so.. i study in the universtiy of são paulo which is one of the biggest universities in brasil .... so.. the campus is like rly huge and .. [i realized i was just explaining what a university is fsr?????? ] uhhhh yeah i went to my library. [????? MY LIBRARY??? i dont own a library.] and i love my library theres like. i love to just walk around and see. The Books cause theres like.. so such interesting books. and like books in so many languages... ugh it’s amazing so i went there to actually find some english learning books and i did , cause im trying to teach my sister english andt.. yeah i found this session-- Section. where theres all these language learning books so theres like a couple shelves that are like just english learning books and then theres a shelf thats just like japanese learning and then a couple shelves for russian thens ome korean some frickin SANSKRIT latin ancient greek just everything . theeres also like indigenous south american languages which i was really happy to see and im definitely gonna check that out eventually but for today i just took the english ones cause .. yeah i cant really i dont really that much time and everyone for all that right now with college .. AND THEN the rest of my day was that i left my phone!! cause i went to take the bus and i left my pjhone on the bus stop. i feel like my entonation is really annoying right now but yeah.. so yeah i left my phone on the bus stop and i was so scared. i went back to the bus stop got off the bus [wrong order] and it wasnt there , i went in the building - my college has 3 buildings for the different courses - i went in one of them cause i assumed it would be there because it was the closest to the bus stop so if somebody found my phone on the bus stop they wouldve taken it there and left it there with the recepcionist or whatever so i went there and it wasnt there so iwas like “oh no its not here . maybe i left it in the bus instead of the bus stop and i just didnt notcie that it like fell from my pocket or sth.” so i took the bus again and went to the terminal which is where it would be if somebody found it in the bus and gave it to someone responsible for that stuff. but it obviously wasnt there. so i went home, very sad, This whole thing lasted like 2 hours and then its like over an hour for me to come home from college cause yk i live in a neighbouring city which is pretty close but its still an hour to an hour and a half everyday to go and ..... to go to and fro. is that how you say that expression idk . ... and then when i got home!!!! i wnt in the facebook group of my college [course] to see if somebofy had posted something about a lost phone and Yes They Had they posted a photo of my phone and i was like oh thank god so im gonna get it back tomorrow. now im home im looking at my cat. occasionally looking after my nephews and my niece. and thats my day
6. i was sitting here thinking.. trying to think of something and i remembered that--.............. Cause its rly hard for me to answer these questions where itsj ust one thing and i just.................. i just draw a blank whenever i get these questions but im just gonna say something that happened recently cause it was like : yesterday i found this video on youtube of a an .. anemone? Swimming like this starfish touches it and it like Changes Form it Elongates and just starts shaking to like get away. and its amazing it reminded me of how much i like Cnidarians(????) the phylum . the group of animals that includes jellyfish and corals, basically. its just so cool like they alternate like one of the.... oh my gosh my house is so loud uhh... yeah they like its really crazy i dont actually know a lot about it but i just think its so cool like the corals .. they.. reproduce.. and like.. their offspring sometimes is A Jellyfish . and then the Jellyfish sometimes produce Corals. cause you look at the two things and they dont rly look that similar but they Are basically one and the same, and theyre Animals both of them just the same. theyre just like inverted when you think about. its really cool and i didnt know that corals could MOVE like that just Get Out like... DeTach . from their thing and just start Swimming!! i had no idea that was a thing but yeah basically something that im obsessed with is um animals like that. the animals that arent chordates. so like sponges, cnidarians, frickin ummmm echinoderms. You Can look at My Tags Page i have that stuff listed. i love it cause its so fun when you think about how theyre animals so theyre like closer to us structurally and cellularly than to other things.
19. you know. when people are mad at me for doing something not as fast as one possibly could or somethin like not understanding what they said or doing something a little bit wrong like following instructions a little wrong and you know when its not rly that important and people get mad and me for that and stuff.. i just.. i feel really happy that i'm not like that. cause i feel like most people around me.. they ARE like that like they just get so mad.. they allow themselves to get so mad about small things.. and i dont know i like that im pretty patient and i dont mind having to wait or to instruct someone a few times and correct them until they get it right and teach them and... all that. i dont know like i feel like.. idk im proud of myself for not like picking fights and getting mad at people for things that dont rly matter cause.. idk people around me do that a lot it makes me rly sad like... idk thats something i like abt myself i think i can like I'll feel angry sometimes and dont get me wrong anger is very necessary and its a very good thing when it is like... whats that word? its like... freakin.. deserved [i think the word i was looking for is "warranted"] like be angry at freakin capitalism or sth freakin racism you know set people on fire for that kinda stuff. but for small things on daily life i think people let it get to them too easily. and just create.. idk. it makes me sad so im happy that i dont have a lot of these impulses in these situations and when i do feel peeved from something petty im able to hold back cause im like.. its not worth it its just... this is so small. i'm.... you know? its not worht it.
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Would you hate me if I asked for all 200?
I could never hate you my darling !
200: My crush’s name is: ohhhh I’m not posting that here XD
199: I was born in: hell
198: I am really: average 197: My cellphone company is: stupid 196: My eye color is: brown 195: My shoe size is: inconvenient 194: My ring size is: 7 on my ring finger, 8 on my middle finger 193: My height is: 5′5″192: I am allergic to: according to my most recent rescan, egg yolks, corn starch, and ... something else 191: My 1st car was: a windstar 190: My 1st job was: ice cream shop! 189: Last book you read: Pride and Prejudice. loved it 188: My bed is: blue, green, purple, and pink 187: My pet: obi, who is so cute 186: My best friend: amazing wonderful beautiful incredible 185: My favorite shampoo is: maui vanilla 184: Xbox or ps3: nintendo 64183: Piggy banks are: for collecting cool money 182: In my pockets: scrunchie and box cutter 181: On my calendar: seeing @dangerously-human asap! 180: Marriage is: unlikely 179: Spongebob can: die 178: My mom: cool beans 177: The last three songs I bought were? these boots were made for walking, 9-5, idk probably something by kelly clarkson 176: Last YouTube video watched: steven crowder on the catholic boys. worth the watch 175: How many cousins do you have? oh gosh. so many. i was gonna add them up, but honestly? there’s at least 40, and aint nobody got time to mentally run through the whole family 174: Do you have any siblings? yes 173: Are your parents divorced? no 172: Are you taller than your mom? lol yes 171: Do you play an instrument? piano 170: What did you do yesterday? worked :/[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: nope 168: Luck: i joke about it, but not really 167: Fate: no 166: Yourself: heck no 165: Aliens: nope 164: Heaven: of course 163: Hell: definitely 162: God: absolutely 161: Horoscopes: absolutely not 160: Soul mates: yes 159: Ghosts: no 158: Gay Marriage: nope 157: War: yes 156: Orbs: ? 155: Magic: cats are magic [ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs 153: Drunk or High: neither 152: Phone or Online: phone 151: Red heads or Black haired: ahhhh. both 150: Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes 149: Hot or cold: cold 148: Summer or winter: nether D:147: Autumn or Spring: autumn 146: Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla 145: Night or Day: night 144: Oranges or Apples: apples 143: Curly or Straight hair: curly 142: McDonalds or Burger King: ew neither 141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk140: Mac or PC: pc always 139: Flip flops or high heals: both!!138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: ugly and sweet are not mutually exclusive 137: Coke or Pepsi: pepsi 136: Hillary or Obama: haahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha135: Burried or cremated: idk i wont be there 134: Singing or Dancing: singing 133: Coach or Chanel: walmart 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: taylor hicks!!!!! 131: Small town or Big city: in between 130: Wal-Mart or Target: both 129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: adam sandler 128: Manicure or Pedicure: manicure 127: East Coast or West Coast: east coast 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: neither 125: Chocolate or Flowers: both 124: Disney or Six Flags: disney 123: Yankees or Red Sox: Indians [ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: a necessary evil 121: George Bush: i was like 12 so 120: Gay Marriage: wicked 119: The presidential election: ridiculous 118: Abortion: murder 117: MySpace: useless 116: Reality TV: depends on the show 115: Parents: not really sure how to answer this 114: Back stabbers: dump them 113: Ebay: sneaky 112: Facebook: another necessary evil 111: Work: the most necessary of the greatest evil 110: My Neighbors: enigmas 109: Gas Prices: too high 108: Designer Clothes: why?
107: College: not for everyone 106: Sports: baseball is the best 105: My family: wild104: The future: D: [ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: my coworker hugged me yesterday 102: Last time you ate: got shish tawook earlier 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: havent really seen anyone 100: Cried in front of someone: i dont do that 99: Went to a movie theater: couple weeks ago 98: Took a vacation: went to see stell and danger 97: Swam in a pool: a looong time ago 96: Changed a diaper: longer ago 95: Got my nails done: never have 94: Went to a wedding: probably a cousin? so also a long time ago 93: Broke a bone: never 92: Got a peircing: ears 8 years ago 91: Broke the law: i do not do that either !90: Texted: stell just now [ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: @identityconstellations88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: solitude 87: The last movie I saw: far from the madding crowd 86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: seeing danger 85: The thing im not looking forward to: work on monday 84: People call me: boring 83: The most difficult thing to do is: exist 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never 81: My zodiac sign is: nothing 80: The first person i talked to today was: my mom 79: First time you had a crush: high school 78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: i can hide from anyone ;) 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: usually do 76: Right now I am talking to: stell 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: uhhhhhhh74: I have/will get a job: hopefully never again, but thats not my luck 73: Tomorrow: bible study! 72: Today: shish tawook 71: Next Summer: who knows 70: Next Weekend: sleep 69: I have these pets: obi, walker, punky, daisy, loki, and lady 68: The worst sound in the world: nails on a chalkboard 67: The person that makes me cry the most is: no one 66: People that make you happy:my friends 65: Last time I cried: idek 64: My friends are: amazing 63: My computer is: dependable 62: My School: over and done with 61: My Car: adorable 60: I lose all respect for people who: give up their pets , especially for petty reasons 59: The movie I cried at was: oh goodness i dont know 58: Your hair color is: red 57: TV shows you watch: so many 56: Favorite web site: i dont think i like any of them 55: Your dream vacation: paris 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: 53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium 52: My room is: purple 51: My favorite celebrity is: oh goodness i have no idea . tom hiddleston probably 50: Where would you like to be: ireland 49: Do you want children: yes48: Ever been in love: no 47: Who’s your best friend: stell 46: More guy friends or girl friends: girl friends 45: One thing that makes you feel great is: being with cats 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: any of my friends 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: no 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: no 41: Have you pre-named your children: no 40: Last person I got mad at: my boss 39: I would like to move to: ireland 38: I wish I was a professional: nothing. i dont want to be a professional anything. i hate working for other people. they suck. every single one. [ My Favorites ]37: Candy: reeses pieces36: Vehicle: corrola 35: President: RAND PAUL 202034: State visited: hawaii 33: Cellphone provider: they all suck 32: Athlete: jason kipnis 31: Actor: tom hiddleston 30: Actress: sandra bullock 29: Singer: lea salonga 28: Band: needtobreathe27: Clothing store: walmart 26: Grocery store: walmart 25: TV show: the office 24: Movie: so many 23: Website: already asked 22: Animal: cats 21: Theme park: not really a theme park fan 20: Holiday: reformation day 19: Sport to watch: baseball! 18: Sport to play: bowling 17: Magazine: none 16: Book: madman 15: Day of the week: friday 14: Beach: the one in jersey stell and i went to last year 13: Concert attended: tobymac and brandon heath together 12: Thing to cook: snickerdoodles 11: Food: shish tawook 10: Restaurant: idek 9: Radio station: majic 105.7
8: Yankee candle scent: cinnamon 7: Perfume: honeysuckle 6: Flower: roses 5: Color: pink 4: Talk show host: regis philban XD 3: Comedian: probably john mulaney 2: Dog breed: pitbull 1: Did you answer all these truthfully? yiss
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Kissing Booth Fun
Tyrus Kissing Booth Fic
inspired that an ask that @im-trash-bye got
It was the annual Jefferson Middle School Halloween Fair. There were rides that were maybe not incredibly safe. Booths with food from healthy to not healthy at all. Games with your usual carnival prizes. Lastly, three kissing booths set up near the back. Buffy was working one with another girl from the basketball team to raise money for their charity. Jonah was working one for the Space Otters to go to a competition in another city. Then there was TJ and Marty working the boys basketball booth to raise money for a girls and boys end of the year party and charity as well.
“So where should we go first? Food? Games?” Cyrus asks Andi as they walk into the fair.
Cyrus was dressed as Clark Kent slash Superman. He was wearing black pants, white collared shirt unbuttoned to show his Superman shirt and complete with glasses. Andi was Willow from Buffy the Vampire Slayer to match with Buffy. She was wearing a long black dress, black combat boots, and a red haired wig.
“Let’s go say hi to everyone at their kissing booths first then we can go have some fun.” Andi replies.
“Sounds like a plan Andi Man!”
They make their way to the back. They pass all the delicious food and games. They see Amber at The Spoons booth and wave saying they’ll be back for sure. They both make it to the kissing booths where there’s actually lines for all three booths.
“Well then, I didn’t think it would be so popular?” Andi says crossing her arms.
“Yeah I mean I wonder how many people they’ve kissed so far?”
Andi shoots him a look.
“What! Besides you think I like the idea of TJ, new found crush, kissing a bunch of rando’s?” Cyrus replies grabbing her hand and leading her to the front.
They find their way to the front and go to Buffy and her teammate Max’s booth first. Max had slowly become part of the friend group. Now she would never become part of the GHC but she was close to it. She was tall with short beach blonde hair and her personality was similar to Buffy’s. She was dressed up as Killer Frost from the Suicide Squad comics.
“Hey Buffy! Hey Max! How’s the kissing going?” Andi asks going to hug Buffy.
“It going. We’re about to take a thirty minute break, all of us, if you guys wanna stick around.” Buffy says motioning to her booth and the other two.
“Sounds great! I’m just gonna go say hi to TJ real quick.” Cyrus says slipping out of the group.
Buffy and Andi giggle at their friend being the worst flirt and obvious crusher ever. Cyrus makes it to TJ and Marty’s booth where Marty is the one kissing girls at the moment. TJ notices him and immediately stands up to hug Cyrus. TJ was dressed up as Luke Skywalker while Marty was Han Solo.
“Hey Underdog I love the costume!. You look good.” TJ said breaking the hug.
Cyrus blused.
“Thanks! I love the Luke Skywalker costume. It definitely suits you.” Cyrus compliment nudging TJ’s arm.
They stayed standing there staring at each other until someone tapped TJ’s arm. They both turned to look and saw Marty looking at them confused.
“Hey Captain it’s your turn. You have to take the last two before our break.” Marty says pointing to the chair.
TJ goes to sit down and takes the girl in fronts money. Marty slides next to Cyrus putting his arm around the boys shoulders.
“So you gonna get in any of the lines and help out with our cause?”
“Maybe in a little bit. I wanna get some baby taters and maybe go on the ferris wheel.” Cyrus answers with a blush coming on his face.
Marty was just about to say something when a bull horn sounded. They turned and saw Dr. Metcalf.
“Alright that’s thirty and then we’ll resume the kissing booths!” He yelled in the bull horn.
The crowd quickly dispersed with moans and groans. TJ and the others turned to Cyrus seeing that Marty still had his arm around Cyrus. TJ made a confused look along with Buffy. While the others were just kind of ignoring it.
“So guys we gonna get some food? I am starving!” Marty suggest.
“Yes please!” Max replies grabbing Andi by the arm.
TJ was now looking disinterested and annoyed to say the least. Buffy noticed and felt a similar feeling growing in her stomach as well. Buffy intertwined her arm with TJ and rolled her eyes. Marty was still on Cyrus, Jonah was in between Max and Andi, and TJ was with Buffy.
“So um has Marty said anything about me? Oh God that sounded girly and I don’t even know. Never. Never Mind don’t answer!” Buffy says shaking her head.
TJ smiled and laughed a little to himself.
“No it’s cool and honestly he hasn’t. But that being said I see how he looks at you. I think he still likes you. You should talk to him.” TJ says slightly bumping Buffy.
“Yeah well I would if he wasn’t wrapped up in Cyrus. Which is weird right? Right?”
“Uh yeah I’m confused about that. But whatever.” TJ says with a deep sigh.
“Um TJ tell me if I’m overstepping but can I ask you something...something personal?”
TJ looks down. They are now waiting for the others to get their baby taters. He looks back up with a face like someone kicked a puppy.
“Yeah…” TJ replies.
“Do you like Cyrus. Like maybe a crush. If not tell me I just…” She was stopped by TJ turning his back.
He turned back and looked Buffy in the eyes.
“Yes. I do. But it’s not worth saying anything. I don’t think he feels the same.”
“Why?”
“I’m not what’s right for him. Plus I’m not sure Cyrus even likes boys.”
Buffy looked at him as if wanting to say something but knowing not to. The others came up to them all laughing and with food and drinks.
“Hey Buffy I got you a burger and soda.” Andi says handing it to her.
“Thanks!” Buffy says smiling and side hugging Andi.
“TJ! You like the baby taters with bacon and cheese right?” Cyrus says showing TJ what he got.
“Yeah...why?” TJ asks looking at the basket of taters.
“Cause I got us some to share and a chocolate shake too if you want?” Cyrus replies with a smirk.
TJ smiled back at him and again they stared at each other. They only broke their gaze when Marty cleared his throat. The boys broke contact and headed back to the booths. They all sat in a circle near the booths. TJ and Cyrus were laughing while throwing tots at each others mouths.
“Cyrus you have to make it into my mouth or we are wasting baby taters.” TJ says
“That’s what she said.” Marty says across from Cyrus and TJ.
The group all laughed minus TJ.
“So Marty are you still with Rachel?” Jonah asks putting his head on Andi’s lap.
“Nah, it just didn’t work out.” Marty says taking a bite of his burger.
“Hey Buffy can we talk? And Andi.” Cyrus asks standing up.
Buffy looks at the time.
“Buffy don’t worry I’ll cover us till you get back.” Max says smiling.
Cyrus, Andi, and Buffy made their way behind the stage where a band and a DJ would be playing later.
“So what’s up?” Andi asks.
“I have a dilemma. I want to tell TJ but I don’t think it’s worth it” Cyrus says nervously.
“Oh my Gosh yes it is!!!” Andi smiles.
“What about Marty?” Buffy says dryly.
“No! Oh my God! Is that why you’ve been in weird mood. I don’t even know why he was being all nice and buddy buddy.” Cyrus exclaims.
“I wasn’t the only one feeling weird.” Buffy says rolling her eyes and then making a face realizing what she just said.
“What?!” Cyrus and Andi both yell.
“No I shouldn’t have said anything. I was being petty. I’m sorry I’m sworn to secrecy.” Buffy replies pretending to zip her mouth.
Andi gives Cyrus a knowing look and they all head back to the kissing booths. Buffy takes her place next to Max. Jonah is talking to Marty who had let TJ take over. The lines start up again.
Cyrus looks at them and takes a deep breathe.
“Andi Man I’m gonna do it!” Cyrus yells grabbing his wallet.
“Go for it Cy! YOU GOT THIS!” She yells as Cyrus walks towards TJ’s booth.
Buffy and Max look up and smile while clapping. Jonah lifts his head to look at Cyrus. The boy then walks right up to the Boys Basketball kissing booth. TJ’s eyes widen as Cyrus slams his money down. A whole ten dollars is on the table being put in the jar by TJ who barely puts the money in before Cyrus pulls his shirt. The boys’ lips meet with a smash. TJ takes a deep breath in. Cyrus gets on his tippy toes to deepen the kiss while TJ pulls on Cyrus’ collar. They keep kissing which ends up knocking off Cyrus’ glasses.
They break apart and all Cyrus can hear is whooping and hollering from not only his friends but the crowd around. TJ looked and saw all eyes on them. Cyrus became red looking at the crowd.
“I’m sorry I didn’t think about how you’d feel.” Cyrus says nervously.
“No this is all I wanted for months. I was gonna ask you out today.” TJ says.
“Really? Yes.” Cyrus says smiling ear to ear.
“Ummmm are you done?” a girl says behind Cyrus.
“Oh wow I’m sorry.” Cyrus replies.
“Ferris wheel later...Underdog?” TJ says smirking and winking at Cyrus.
Later on, on the ferris wheel there were nothing but kisses and laughs. And it didn’t cost Cyrus any money.
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better better 💛 🐻 🍯
너의 그 사랑만이 멈춰있던 날 다시 뛰게 해.
[ Only your love could make the me who was stuck run again. ]
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TW: if you squint, there's very mild mentions of child abuse, physical and verbal
↪ group: DAY6
↪ member: Yoon Dowoon
↪ genre: idk its not really fluff either, (IM SORRY ANON IT GETS VERY FLUFFY AT THE END) but its 90 percent angst free LOL ??? this story is too out of the ordinary to categorise lol ☀️
↪ request: hey admin n! can i have a fluffy day6 dowoon scenario where he cheers you up from a bad day in school? thank you!
↪ A/N: I really wanted to write something for Dowoon, thank you so much, anon who requested this!! I somehow thought of the spiritual love I receive everyday from God (I'm christian to all of y'all who dk, haha) so I think this story will hold a special place in my heart!!! also, the story plot is largely inspired by the story by 九把刀 - 等一个人咖啡，so if u understand Chinese please give it a read, its a nice story uwuwuwuuwwu
edit i am SO SORRY THIS WAS WAY LONGER THAN IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE the word count will probably be like idk 8000 by the time i finished this when u requested for a scenario lolz i got way too invested I apologise...I wrote almost everyday for a whole week I regret getting carried away oh my gosh, but I hope you enjoy this, I really worked very hard on this!!!
ps im sorry if jihyo is ooc, never written nor know twice well but id say I'm a fan of their music hehe
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It was about 7AM in the morning when all of your batch gathered around at the assembly place in your school, and between occasional yawns that slipped off your mouth (thanks, end of year exams), you and your friends were talking about the happenings of yesterday as you walked there, laughter often breaking out in your little group when there were bits of humour in the story.
You all made your way down the stairs and into the assembly grounds, resembling a large, aquamarine blue quilt that took up an obnoxious part of the school-where the netball competitions and other important events were held.
Seemingly following suit with the shade of blue on the ground, the lack of sun in the morning painted everything with a small hint of lighter, sky blue itself, such that it all looked like one entity but distinctive in its own individual colours.
Realising this with your own dark ringed, half opened eyes, you couldn't help but feel the ends of your lips angle up slowly-the world was so beautiful, you couldn't help but think as you knelt down to sit onto the rugged surface of the big, enveloping area-whoever had created it for all its small but still amazing features was exceptionally genius.
As your eyes scattered around the place, still immersed in a world of your own-a shrill screech of a whistle pulled you back to the boredom of school life, and with a slight, but petty annoyance you shifted your back to face the PE teacher who had just walked over, and subsequently, so did the other students around you.
He stood in front of your whole batch, clad in a black, torso hugging sports shirt and fluorescent pink shorts-which immediately, triggered a few giggles for your batch, but the spoilsport of a whistle just had to ruin the fun again, motioning for everyone else to shut up.
You sighed when you saw the creases in his forehead, and the unmistakeable hint of a frown on his tan, oval face-this was not going to be too good of a day.
You just hoped that he wasn't going to make all of you do 4 rounds around the school today. Running, needlessly to say really was not something a person like you liked to do-sweat all over your face, springing pimples on your face, grasping for breath and literally collapsing in front of the whole class like a dead fish because of how energy deprived you were? You were going to pass, thanks.
"Now, class!" his low baritone rasped out to the class, carrying a strong sense of dominance in it like he was speaking to a platoon in the army, "We have a group of alumni today, coming back to visit and help all of you train for your Physical Education Examinations next year." At that, his outstretched wrists flicked backwards loosely, gesturing for the alumni to come, and he continued again, "They are alumni that were our top students from last year, and did exceptionally well. They have all took time out of their 4 month break after examinations to train all of you, so please be nice, and don't be so unruly."
As soon as he had said that, the class started breaking out into applause as the five students stepped into everyone's field of vision.
Your eyes widened when you saw the bones, standing out like rocks in the their toned, fit arm and leg muscles-even the girls' thighs that was supposedly, the most unattractive part of everyone's body had 'walls' lining their lean, hourglass figure. Confident smiles were plastered to most of their faces, with a few tired exceptions-heck, one even had a smirk playing on their face as he scanned the class below him.
Inwardly, as you heard the laughs of the alumni that had aroused from the awing of their juniors below them, you couldn't help but shudder inside-there was no, freaking way that you were going to look like that after training with them.
You didn't want to, anyway-that meant rigorous hours of training and stitches 'basking' under the unhelpful, boiling cover of the sun.
Just then, as you were contemplating the choices of schools you were going to transfer to to abstain from the torture that was soon to come, the guy with the playful smirk on his face had already grabbed a microphone, and was preparing to speak. Translucent frames for glasses hid his small, almost demure but yet somehow condescending eyes-you weren't getting that great of a vibe from him.
"Hello, Class 3D9, I am your senior, Park Jaehyung, and I'm here to train all of you for the exams, since all of you don't seem that excited for it, judging by your expressions." His features softened considerably from a look of mirth to one of gaiety as he started to speak in a 'half air half voice' kind of way-rasping yet not quite, and you rolled your eyes.
It wasn't really that you disliked him much, but you could already picture him being the heartthrob of the girls in class-the gleam in their previously irritant, but now smitten eyes was so undeniably revolting.
They all nodded furiously at the last sentence, and he began to laugh a bit (attracting more squeals from the girls, much to your dismay) before speaking again, this time with the narrow of an eyebrow and a more serious, raised voice. "I know all of you might be thinking that this is very pointless, and stupid. I know. None of you really want to be an athlete in the future, and I understand. But I really hope all of you can treat this seriously, because health in the long run is really very important, and I want all of you to take not only the PE finals but the entrance exam to college confidently, and healthily. Are all of you with me?"
Like how any motivational speaker would have done, there was an applied pressure at the last line, and soon, a long, unenthusiastic 'yes' drawled out of everyone's barely parted mouth.
You snickered a bit at the frown on Jaehyung's face when he heard it-he really should have known beforehand, that encouraging a class didn't consist of just one pathetic speech, and you started to doubt if he had really been from this school.
Let's face it, motivation really wasn't this generation's thing.
"Are all of you with me!" he rasped again, this time yelling into the microphone obnoxiously and poking a hole in your eardrums.
"YES!" the class shouted with increased volume to appease him.
Just please, don't shout into the microphone again, you whimpered inwardly.
At this, Jaehyung looked more or less satisfied (thank God), and with the small hint of a smile, he passed over the microphone to another guy, whose eyes first caught your own. They were delicately angled into the eyes of a fox, emanating a half elegant aura that still seemed to hint 'Let's have fun, everyone!' They fell into small crescents when he started to laugh at Jaehyung's incapabilities to lead the class, and the circles in his lean, rosy cheek bones spelt attractiveness at its finest.
With a sweet smile on his face, he held up the microphone to his mouth and started to talk. "Morning, class! Sorry if Jaehyung sounds like a bit of a drag. I know he has that student leader aura, but you can't blame him, he's always been burying his face in a book during recess-HEY!" The class, including him, started to erupt into waves of giggles when Jaehyung flicked his forehead, a faux anger playing on his arched eyebrows and widened, now not so small eyes. "FINE, fine, I'll stop! Anyway, hello Class 3D9, this is your cooler senior, Kang Younghyun, and I hope to train all of you to success in the exams. Thank you!" Younghyun proceeded to bow with the shy lift of his eyebrows, and everyone clapped.
"His real name is actually Brian, please ignore him." Jaehyung added in with a wink, earning a loud slap on the shoulder from Younghyun (with a subsequent yelp from himself) and more laughter from the juniors, yourself included. Your seniors seemed pretty chill and friendly, not like how you thought they would be.
But sadly, as they were supposedly goofing around too much, the PE teacher blew that stupid, ear-wrenching whistle of his, causing you to jump up in shock again. "Okay boys, lets finish this up quickly." he said curtly, strict gaze fleeting past the two boys and causing their playful charm to melt like ice in front of him.
As Jaehyung and Younghyun simultaneously did a long, 90 degree bow, mouthing 'sorry' repeatedly, you and quite a good majority of your other classmates sighed, inwardly feeling a tad deflated-looks like the rest of the introduction wasn't going to be that fun after all.
The introduction seemed to move past like rusted cogs, at least for just one part of it-the first girl who had greeted all of you sported two round, neat buns at the sides of her hair, complimenting her big, double lidded eyes and her elegantly curved, brightly smiling lips. The corners of her eyes bore a small fragment of the brighter sky above her, gleaming with confidence as she bowed politely, introducing herself to everyone in a more reserved way than the other two. Her name was Park Jihyo, and she had been in dance-which was quite a great feat, since dance was a niche co-curricular activity in your school, but not surprising at the same time, looking at her beautiful figure and slender, well toned arms.
As she talked, she slipped a few jokes there and then mid-conversation, not too much that the PE teacher had to cut in, but attempting to keep the class' attention on her afloat. Jihyo had an unmistakeable pleasant aura that seemed to infect everyone with her laugh, and from the bottom of your heart, you really wanted to befriend her-someone approachable and easy to talk to.
There was another girl next to her who was called Chaewon, with demure, yet youthful brown eyes and a serene smile. Similarly, she too was very friendly and talked with a very laid-back tone-but the problem was, that she talked a lot.
You didn't really mind it much when people talked a lot, but when they overdid it, it got kind of...boring.
Seemingly one hour later, your eyes struggled to remain parted mid-sentence as she went into a trite monologue about how grateful she was to stand here. By the time she was done you felt fatigue wrap around your head like a snake, till a deeper voice was suddenly amplified into the mic.
"H-Hello, I'm Yoon Dowoon, and-"
"I ate ants as a kindergartener." Jaehyung's unmistakeable airy voice cut in annoyingly, causing Dowoon's face to flush a big, rosy red whilst all of you chortled with a louder, more extreme laughter than before-and instantly, you became alive again as the mental image of a small boy swallowing the poor insect with the brightest smile sent you rolling onto the floor.
"He even gave a whole box to his teacher." came a rather unhelpful snicker from Younghyun, further fuelling the laughter and the blush on Dowoon's face.
You couldn't help but admit, that he was sort of cute when he was embarrassed, though-Dowoon had the small, but believing eyes of a child, with two pretty, but not 'big enough that it protruded' kind of bags attached below them delicately. The gentle up curve of the sides of his big button nose was really attractive, and he had semi-big lips that pouted out like the small petals of a daisy.
Seeing Jaehyung's joking, almost condescending smirk resurface onto his face and look down onto Dowoon's expressionless eyes, which now refused to concentrate on anywhere but the floor was maybe, just maybe-sort of sad.
Unlike Jihyo, you couldn't see even a small fragment of the sky in his eyes-it was as if someone had just painted his eyes brown and decided it would stay that way for the rest of the day.
Dowoon was too embarrassed to do anything else, and without even looking up, he passed the microphone to the PE teacher, whose nonchalant expressions didn't seem to care much either.
Inside, a pang of guilt rose up to your chest, and you unconsciously started to frown along with him as you noticed how uncomfortable his hardened features had looked, amongst all the giggles thrusting through his gentle heart.
Being known by 'the guy who ate ants as a kindergartener' to everyone, instead of who he really was mustn't have been a very nice feeling, especially to his juniors-who was supposed to look at him as a superior and a leader figure.
Just as you were debating on whether or not to ask them to stop, a scream broke out through the assembly grounds, shutting everyone up with a magic swipe of its hand.
Of course, it had to be the stupid whistle.
"Are we here to joke, or train? Get up, all of you! We're going to run today." the PE teacher's obnoxiously booming, demanding voice rang into everyone's ears unpleasantly, the catalyst to the small groans of dismay breaking out amidst the class that was already preparing to stand and walk to the field.
"Can you believe he actually did that?" your friends approached you in a fit of giggles as all of you approached the running track, with a new topic to revolve your conversation around.
Just that, this time, you didn't really want to join in.
It wasn't the best of days after all, you thought with a small hang up in the side of your chest. Out of all things, after seeing a poor boy getting bullied by his own friends, you had to do the stupid 4 rounds that all of you did practically every week.
As you braced yourself painfully for the sweating and fatigue that was to come, taking your rightful place behind the white tape attached to the floor marking the starting point- an unusually low cough brushed by your ears briefly, and instinctively, you whirled around.
You saw the big, believing eyes of a child again as you did so-it was Dowoon, and to your surprise, those eyes noticed your gaze and looked back.
Crap, he's really, very cute. you could feel your head lose some of its gravity and your heartbeat accelerating as he proceeded to smile after, the lift of his plump, daisy lips showing off his round, marshmallow-like cheeks.
"You okay?" his deep voice asked you gently, and you nodded with a small laugh, realising how much of a mess you must have looked in front of him for him to ask such a question.
"I should be the one asking you that. I'm sorry for laughing at you earlier."
With that, his smile angled further into a laugh of his own, and Dowoon replied, "It's okay. I'm used to it already."
You could already feel your forehead crease in slight disbelief, as you stared at the sheepish falter in his smile and recalled how unhappy he was earlier on.
"That's not true-"
BEEP!
The PE teacher's whistle had already gone off, and Dowoon, much to a top runner's expectations, was already speeding far ahead of you with a steady, confident pace as his brown curls bounced gently under the force of his movements.
Looking at nowhere but the front, he looked determined to finish what he had started-something you could probably only dream of having.
"What's taking you so long? Hurry up!" the PE teacher yelled at you, averting your attention away from your senior and back to your miserable plight.
You sighed with a slightly defeated energy, giving him a perfunctory nod as you too, began to move towards the finish line.
That is, if you could even make it.
As you ran, you made a mental note to never use that stupid whistle ever again.
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31st December, 2018.
"Se-second place in class? No way, you must have heard wrongly. Second place girls-wise, maybe..." you insisted disbelievingly, feeling the air brush against your throat as you inhaled sharply, hardly able to fathom the news that had just been broken to you.
Contrary to what your stubborn mentality refused to accept, your deskmate Sungjin just nodded again, the smile on his face laced with a small hint of amusement-he too, probably foresaw that you wouldn't believe such a thing.
"I'm serious, man. It came as a shock to everyone yesterday as well." he said, hiding a gentle, but knowing giggle in 'serious'. "You really have Dowoon to thank, look at you go."
You stared at the suggestive crease in Sungjin's big, pretty eyes, not bothering to hide the sarcasm dripping from your smile (very well knowing that someone like Sungjin was capable of playing such pranks on you).
"And where can I get more reliable information?" you demanded, refusing to tear away your gaze from his, and noticing the added pressure in 'reliable', Sungjin couldn't help but break into a more relaxed smile as he lifted his hands up in surrender.
"Fine, go see for yourself, just don't hit me, please."
He pointed a finger at the notice board, littered with numerous sheets of construction paper from all the projects your class had been assigned this year, almost like a peacock's feathers unfolding.
However, there was one paper that stood out from the rest, dull, white and boring-but maybe not so, once the truth was revealed.
In big, bold letters, it spelt:
PHYSICAL EDUCATION EXAMINATION RESULTS: CLASS 3D9.
The thought of knowing your results had thrown all thoughts of replying to Sungjin out of the window as you could hear the squeak of your shoe soles speed across the classroom towards the notice board.
Frantically, as the long table of students revealed a clearer picture of itself to you, you decided on looking at all the names from the bottom to the top-no better way to set yourself up for disappointment than to face it sooner.
It had been a while of panning up, and your squatting legs were getting tired; though knowing full well that you looked the part of an idiot while doing all this. You couldn't find your name anywhere on the board, and as your legs slowly broke its position to ascend further, the anxiety in your chest seemed to rise along with it-what if you had done so bad a job, you couldn't even get a position?
What if Dowoon had seen it and would never talk to you ever again? What would your parents say when they knew...
Just as your imagination was trailing all the way off from your real goal, the truth imprinted in cold, black ink debunked all of the scenarios in your head.
Your name was right next to the position, second place.
"So you weren't lying!" was the first thing you did as you shouted out of instinct from the opposite position of the classroom. As many other students turned their heads to you in slight frustration, you could hear Sungjin's sniggers direct back at you in response, which was yeah, albeit sort of annoying-but nothing could really smother the joy you were feeling at this moment.
Your eyes lingered for a long time onto the placing that you had gotten, and you recalled all of Dowoon's practice sessions with you-how he had drawn out almost 90% of his 4 month break just to train with you after school, how you had nearly tripped over a hurdle on the running track and causing both of you to laugh, how he had made you draw out a meal plan for him to monitor your food intake everyday-you'd never thought you'd say this, but you really, really missed it.
As you thought back to the believing eyes of a small child, looking up at the boundless sea of a sky-the clouds floating past resembling well his sweat glazed cheeks, you realised-how much you'd miss his presence that pushed forward, reaching out to the you who couldn't be bothered with most things, his care that reached out to the you who didn't care for yourself-not necessarily in a romantic way.
The thought of getting Dowoon's number had very stupidly, slipped off your mind amidst all the joy he had brought you, and your good mood was surprisingly diminished by a small tinge of guilt as you returned to your desk.
You regretted it. A lot.
"All those training sessions with her partner must have helped a lot, huh? The one who ate ants in kindergarten, I have to laugh." Suddenly, the silent, but tangible hiss of a group of girls fluttered past your ears, and without thinking, a small sense of anger blazed up in your heart as you stood up with a jolt.
How dare they say such a thing about such an amazing person.
Your chair did a loud, ugly screech against the floor as it happened, and the girls looked to you, slightly perplexed-that was, until you grabbed onto their wrists, and locked eyes with them-with a fire in your eyes that you yourself hadn't recognised.
"Don't talk about your senior like that." you deadpanned, with the motivation of anger that had backed you up well.
Just then, you noticed the arch of your eyebrows, and the anger in your movements reflected in their cowardly gazes, and for a second, you wondered-if the you that was acting like this, was really you.
"Sorry." was all they could manage awkwardly, a sheepish, yet somehow insincere smile dripping from their lips as they slipped away to their own desks-people nowadays just loved to talk about others behind their backs, and you sighed.
Only your love could make the me who was stuck in a rut run again.
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"You got second place in the finals? Okay. Well, good for you, but I don't think you'd come to me just for that." the PE teacher slurred his words sharply, suddenly looking up at you from the bend of his glasses with a dull expression in his eyes. He seemed way more fascinated in the papers lulled over by his wrists than your dumb questions, and in all honesty, it was getting sort of annoying.
The lazy whirr of the fan spun over your head, fitting perfectly into the awkward silence between you and the teacher as you twiddled your thumbs awkwardly, trying to figure out a way to paraphrase such a stupid request-not daring to meet his steely gaze that somehow, stubbornly refused to tear away from yours.
He was right, however; the last thing you'd ever do was to go into the lion's den without an ulterior motive.
No one really dared to talk to the PE teacher about anything else besides school.
Plus, you could already imagine all the worst case scenarios if he was in a particularly bad mood today, and...let's just say that detention would potentially be the second best option.
He really wasn't the best person to talk to.
But in this case...
You looked up at the spinning blades of the fan again, and felt the swirl of cool air blow through your hair gently.
Maybe he was.
At such a comforting touch, you tried your best to ignore the pounding headache dragging you down; and with painstakingly mustered courage, you spoke.
"T-Teacher, do you have Dowoon's number? Like, the one who was our senior?"
Regret kicked in the second you had spoke of Dowoon's name, and you could literally feel your temples and limbs lose all sense of gravity as your reputation crashed to the floor. You could feel your heartbeat go into allegro, pounding onto every organ in your body as the PE teacher looked up with the most unreadable expression on his face.
Sweat emitted disgustingly from your scalp as your chest rose and fell back in waves, failing terribly to compose yourself. This is it, you dreaded your indelible fate that was to come as the PE teacher raised his eyebrows-you were barely standing up already, and you could feel your kneecaps wobble unhelpfully under the tendrils of anxiety.
I'm doomed for life, Dowoon's gonna think I'm a stalker, and-
"Hahahaha."
Laughter rolled out in the depth of that intimidating voice, like coffee spilt over a cleanly lacquered table.
You felt your eyes widen as you looked up at the teacher again, still grasping for breath as your heart refused to stop beating-after all, collapsing on the spot seemed like the best path in such an awkward situation.
Especially when he looked at you with amusement twinkling in the corners of his slit-shaped eyes.
"So, what next? You're asking, me? To help you with your half baked attempt of asking a senior out on a date?" he snarled sarcastically, getting out of his seat and approaching you. The corners of his mouth tugged at a smirk, baring his set of sharp teeth; the jaws of a wolf, that spelt warning at its finest, and in all your shock, you recoiled back.
You didn't think this was how it would end up; no, not like this.
Just then, you felt a hand arrest your wrists tightly, digging holes in your skin.
The pain from the wolf's claws amplified your vocal cords as you screamed, causing all the other teachers out there to look at you from their desks, and inside, you wanted to cry; you had never been humiliated so bad in your entire life.
"In your dreams."
Just like that, with the help of a brute force you were mercilessly thrown out of the staff room, and before you could even put a foot on the floor to stabilise yourself you heard a loud bang behind you-followed by the even more painful sound of the lock seizing the entrance of it.
You got up, slightly blank, slightly hollow, slightly lost-as you walked a bit further, heart feeling heavy with all the baggage in your chest-before the feelings got hold of your throat, and tumbled out through your eyes unashamedly.
You were way too sad to hide any further.
Pathetically, to do all you could to mask the feelings that had crept up onto you, through the not so fair play of fate; you held a wrist to your face as you sprinted back to class, with a scar zipped across it, just as it had done for your broken heart.
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"I'm sorry for what happened today...but I'm happy that senior was able to bring you so far." he barely managed, with his smooth, soft voice that seemed to skim lightly over the atmosphere of the café; just like the soft cream that had been drizzled meticulously over the cup of coffee on the table.
You weren't taking it, the coffee that he had made for you not too long ago. Not really that you had anything against him, no-definitely not your caring, gentle coworker, but you didn't really have the mood to drink anything as of now...You sighed briefly, dusting your apron to keep yourself preoccupied, but still not managing to let off all the steam in your body.
The incident had very admittedly, left you scarred; very literally and mentally. Leftover embarrassment was still tugging at the corners of your heart, begging to be attended to while you tried your best to shrug it off, and walked to the counter to unlock the cashier; the cheery ring of the bell above the door had struck at a rather unconventional time, and a customer was already walking in.
It wasn't very fair that they'd have to put up with your emotional baggage when they were here to get a drink, maybe even to destress and wind down for the day.
"Pil-ah, it's okay, I don't really want a drink as of now." you played it off as calmly as you could, slotting the key into the box and letting it slide open with a click. "You can drink it or something, you don't look too energised yourself."
A disappointed whine echoed back in response to your lousy excuse; there was no way Wonpil was going to believe such a stupid reply, and you could already anticipate his nagging voice as he opened his mouth.
"Heyyyyy, come on...don't be like this, I've known you for so long already. You've got to take care of yourself, even when you're sad."
The last line got you hard, and as you saw the customer's eyes widen in judgement behind her mop of ashy bangs, you couldn't help but glare back at him.
"Wonpil, I said I was okay." you deadpanned with added pressure, however, subsequently feeling guilt crawling onto your nerves after realising how mean that had sounded. His features had softened considerably, with a slightly hurt look in his big, innocent eyes, and you didn't really want to hurt anyone else when you yourself had been hurt enough.
"I'm sorry, just-I'm tired from today." you sighed helplessly, having been pushed into a corner, and being his understanding self, Wonpil nodded back with concern laced in his seemingly nonchalant smile.
After making sure everything was more or less alright, you hastily attended back to the customer, who was looking slightly frustrated with how long you were taking-and after she had ordered her iced americano, she looked a little more satisfied as she took a seat by the table nearest to the window.
It wasn't surprising; the weather today was warm. Lances of golden sunlight had dropped by the café, gracing its interior in its crisp, evening glow, and very miserably, laughing at your bad mood that contrasted with it.
"Are you okay now?"
You turned around to see Wonpil, eyebrows raised, hands rested in the pockets of his apron; and a rare, but serious look in his eyes as he prepared to listen to you.
As much as you didn't want him to worry over you, you knew how stubbornly insistent he was with getting things off your chest, so nevertheless, you opened your mouth-wondering what you had done to deserve his grace at the back of your mind.
"I-It's nothing really, it's just-" you exhaled, breaking into a nervous box smile as you ran a hand through your hair, barely having the right state of mind to continue, "I really wanted to thank him for his kindness and how he cared for my growth so selflessly, but apart from being so embarrassed by the teacher, not being able to do that anymore-it makes me feel so, so bad, knowing that I was never able to do anything for him, because I really, really miss him, and-"
"Don't say anymore. I understand."
You felt Wonpil's hand descend onto your back, like the touch of a small, but pretty little butterfly as it fluttered over the expanse of your spine, caressing it gently and hushing your shaking nerves.
All the thoughts had miserably, coaxed your feelings forward, and without knowing, you had started to cry again as you held your palms to your face-trying your best not to cry too loudly as you let out small, uncontrollable sobs.
"T-Thank you so much." you choked awkwardly, not knowing any better way to express your gratitude, and even in the darkness of your closed eyes, you could already picture Wonpil's relaxed, comforting smile playing on the sides of his face as he chuckled softly.
Just then, a cough cut in, putting a halt to your sobs and causing both of you to turn to the customer.
"Um...I'm sorry to interrupt this moment, but can I have three iced lattes? Please?" he said, carrying a half air, half voice tone-and with the guidance of your instinct your head immediately shot up from your palms.
There was only one person you knew with such a voice-the one you heard when you had first met the school alumni.
"P-Park Jaehyung?" you yelled instinctively, and your own eyes revealed the truth to you quickly-lean, rosy cheeks, big lips, small, droopy eyes, that were now widened into large circles as they stared back at you, with equally as much surprise in his gaze.
"Ohhhhh my! Y-You're the junior that trained with Dowoon a lot, right?" In his hearty voice, he exclaimed almost disbelievingly, but causing you to blush furiously; it was rather weird being so closely associated with him. "And hey, don't be rude-how dare you call a senior by their full name." he added on teasingly, and both of you laughed.
"I think I'll make the drinks for today-you definitely need to catch up with him, someone might be there waiting for you." Wonpil's voice said behind you understandingly, and you said a quick thank you with a smile before walking over to Jaehyung's seat.
"Oh, sorry for my impoliteness, Your Highness, Park Jaehyung, my queen-does this make it better now?" you retorted quickly, with a cheeky smirk on your face and triggering a gasp from him.
"Excuse me? Your audacity? Oh, and by that guy's sound, you sound like you're only here to see Dowoon, how sad-he isn't here, because I'm the most significant out of everyone there." he snickered back, laughing even harder when you stuck out your tongue back at him pettily-but to your surprise, it didn't last very long.
"Jaehyungie-hyung, don't be so mean! I'm here, hi! I haven't seen you in so long, are you doing okay?" a deep voice exclaimed, causing your jaw to drop even further, if that was even possible-and your feelings seemed to arrest all the air in your chest, just for a second-when you once again, saw the big, believing eyes of a child and his kind, untainted smile.
It was the boy that had spent countless hours under the sun, pushing you towards your goals endlessly.
It wasn't just any person, a random school alumni that had came to their transit stop for a while to leave again-it was Dowoon, Yoon Dowoon, of all people that you could have seen on that miserable day of yours.
It seemed almost intangible, yet so palpable as you ran to him, calling his name, as your hands managed to even hug his taller figure again-you could have nearly cried when you felt his bigger palm crash against your back with sincerity, and while you heard Dowoon's deep voice roll out a long string of laughter, commenting jokingly, "Man, I never knew a girl would miss me so much," you sort of wanted to smack him-yet was definitely in awe of the fact that you could hear that laughter again.
You'd never think that you would have heard it ever again.
"Shut up, I'm just here because you got me a second place position in running, loser." you giggled it off coolly, but failing terribly to hide the happiness stupidly written all over your face as Dowoon's smile angled up further, wearing his pride proudly on his sleeve as he gave you a high five.
"Really? Oh my gosh, that's so amazing! I'm so proud of my student." he laughed, childlike eyes widening in happiness and amplifying his innocence. "You deserve it man, you trained so hard for the test-definitely more commitment than I think you would have had."
"Ow, thanks a lot for the last comment, jeez, alright, I know I suck." you jutted out your lips in faux sadness, clutching your heart to your chest-but quickly remembering why you were so happy to see him again, you hastily added, "But thanks anyway, for guiding me. Couldn't have done it without you, taking so much time off your break."
There. I finally said it, you thought happily, allowing yourself a small grin when Dowoon rejected your praises quickly, hurriedly saying, "No, no, I didn't really do anything," and starting to ramble on about how you had done so much more to deserve it-his eyes got even bigger when he was in slight shock, and he looked the part of a small, innocent child more than ever.
"And oh, right." Dowoon suddenly spoke up amidst the topic of running, grabbing your attention. You couldn't help but giggle when he was about to open his mouth to speak, but instead-shut it again and started tugging the edges of his hair, mouthing things to himself with eyes squeezed together tightly-probably a long string of Jaehyung's 'motivational quotes.
A part of your heart fluttered at the purity his very being exuded-he was really, very cute.
But in all your mirth, you couldn't help it-you absolutely had to smack him.
"Yoon Dowoon, hurry up!" you snapped quickly, however with a cheeky smile that showed your real intentions. Dowoon was momentarily taken aback-but his features quickly softened after, when he realised you were joking.
"Sorry for being such a big mess, it's just..." he barely smiled softly, breaking out into further nervous laughter when Jaehyung and Younghyun started to beat his back repeatedly.
"Do you want to go out with us today? We're going to my place further out from the city, and uh...we're setting off fireworks and having a picnic around there and playing our instruments and stuff-" There was probably going to be no end to his rambling if Younghyun hadn't gave him a loud slap on his back-at this point, the creases in his eyes and sheepish box smile showed it all; he was incredibly, incredibly flustered, and to your dismay-also incredibly endearing.
But still, you couldn't miss grabbing the opportunity to tease him. You lifted your lips into a smirk, rocking your shoes against the foot of the table as you cooed, "Aww, is my senior asking me out on a date? I'd love to go with you, aww, Dowoonie..." Everyone in the place, yes, including that grumpy female customer; broke into fits of giggles, raising the atmosphere of the previously still, 'cultured' public place as you chased after Dowoon, who was currently running away from you and ducked his head to hide under the table.
"Haha, why are you genuinely scared? I was only joking, you're so adorable." you grinned cheekily as you saw the blush dancing above his round, squishy cheeks and the embarrassment in his semi opened eyes, "I'll come with you. It's quite timely as well, since I've had quite a bad day at school...You know what, I'll say later. I gotta finish my shift first, Wonpil can't possibly do everything for me." you quickly added when you saw his eyebrows widen in slight concern, and with a good-natured, outstretched wrist you helped Dowoon up from the table; who was quick to stick out his tongue when he saw that Jaehyung and Younghyun were still unable to contain the mirth written across their faces.
"So, I'll see you at 7 then?" he smiled awkwardly, trying his best to ignore them, and you nodded back eagerly as you walked him out of the shop, and into the embrace of the outdoors again.
It seemed so coincidental, that even as Jaehyung and Younghyun had simultaneously tagged along behind the two of you and out into the open, the sun was only blazing through the gaps in Dowoon's curls-girdling the ridges of his shoulders, slicing through the sides of his face and oozing into the crevices of his warm, faith-filled eyes.
You smiled.
The world was so beautiful.
"See you later! Don't miss me too much!" you yelled out to Dowoon jokingly, as he and the other boys got into the small scooters they shared-and after he had yelled back with equal gusto, "Back at you!", the three scooters sped in the other direction; hopefully, anticipating the time where they came back the other way again, because you sure were.
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unknown: It's 7 lol have you ended your shift yet?
you: Yeah I have! Are you Dowoon or...?
unknown: No I'm Brian #sike
unknown: Please ignore that, Jaehyungie-hyung took my phone, I don't know what he's doing with his weird hashtags again TTTTTTTTT
you: HAHAHAHA TELL HIM HE SUCKS
you: It's nice to have your number though...it sucked not being able to contact you :( How did you get it anyway?
Dowoon: Yeah hhhh Wonpil told me earlier :) I didn't think you would mind...so
you: Haha of course not! Anyway, are you on the way?
Dowoon: Wouldn't dare to be late, I'm already here hehe ^^
Your head shot up with excitement, nearly screaming as you saw three headlights blaze at you, from the curtain of darkness that had shrouded the city not too long ago. It was around autumn right about now, and you were rather sensitive to the cold-so seeing their warm presence was quite comforting.
Noticing that you were already hanging up your apron and practically bouncing to the kitchen to clean up, Wonpil couldn't help but throw a good-natured laugh at you. "Someone's excited for their first date." he remarked suggestively, cleaning the used table under the illumination of the light bulb hanging above him, and if it wasn't for the distance between both of you you would have probably kicked him in response.
"Shut uuuuup, there's literally 2 other boys goiiiiing." you whined, taking one of the leftover plates scattered across the sink and soaping it,"-The chances of you and I dating just about now is probably way higher than Dowoon...well, at least, I've known you for about a year plus right now, and him, 6 months at most." Wonpil couldn't help but giggle again at the uncertainty in your voice, and pettily, you stamped your feet on the floor.
"There's no way my future partner will be someone as mean as you, I take all my words back." you pouted jokingly, and subsequently, starting to laugh at yourself too-this conversation was going absolutely nowhere.
"Hey, but in all seriousness, I think you should just go. Don't make them wait too long, after all, one of them is your future boyfriend. I'll take care of wrapping up." Wonpil spoke up again, approaching you as he hung the cloth by the arch of the sink, and took the plate from your hand kindly-gesturing for you to wash your hands as he pointed to the tap.
With unmasked gratitude you smiled back at him, washing your hands briefly before taking your phone from the counter, "Thanks again, Pil-ah; and one more freaking thing, before I have to repeat it a second time, there is no way Dowoon is going to be my boyfriend." you remarked strictly, taking your school bag from the seat close to the door and slinging it over your shoulder excitedly-the events of tonight sounded incredibly fun.
"Thank me by inviting me to your future wedding!" Wonpil screamed in his high pitched voice when you opened the door, with the silvery chime of the bell above it-and this time, you really, really wanted to kick him, because outside, in the cold of the night Jaehyung was literally having the time of his life laughing at you and nodding back to Wonpil in agreement (one of the rare times where he actually sided him).
"Boys suck." you groaned pettily as Dowoon, with unmistakeable redness on his face gestured for you to get onto the back of his scooter, and Younghyun laughed.
"Doesn't seem that way with our Dowoonie, am I right?" his unmistakeable fox eyes shot you a small wink, which was sort of annoying-till he yelled smugly, "Good luck on being the first there with extra baggage! Not like anyone ever manages to triumph me anyway."
With that, Younghyun's scooter whizzed off, black coat and black locks fluttering behind him care freely, like how his very personality was-and soon, Jaehyung's scooter whizzed off too, the only thing behind him being his screams of "I'm GONNA BEAT YOU THIS TIME, BRIAN!", and you couldn't help but giggle a bit-the antics of those two were always so stupidly humouring.
"Sorry, they can be a bit of a public embarrassment." Dowoon laughed helplessly, shaking his head, and with a small smile you too shook your head; you were totally fine with them, and you'd even say that having them around was enjoyable. "-Jihyo and Chaewon are actually joining us later, but they weren't comfortable on the scooter, and we need someone to drive our instruments."
He paused for a bit to catch his breath, expelling a small puff of white before explaining, "I hope you're okay with it too-the scooter can feel very unbalanced at first, but I think you can handle it. This sounds incredibly awkward, but you gotta hold onto my waist, or you'll probably fall off within a second of me accelerating. Alright? Don't want to be responsible for your medical fees." Dowoon ended off with a joking crease in his smirk before he tossed you a neon yellow helmet from the basket of the scooter, and you nodded before putting it on.
He thrusted the key into the slot rather vigorously, and soon there was a dull roar from the engine behind you, and at his command, you awkwardly positioned your hands at his waist area. Admittedly, it felt pretty good, however-the coat that hugged his waist was made of soft, thick brown fabric, and it reminded you of your honey scented sheets back at home.
"Ready to ride?" he suddenly piped up, happiness laced in his deep, comforting voice, and you shot him a thumbs up sign.
"Always ready." you answered eagerly, and with a louder roar from the engine than before, both of you sped out towards the moon, that lay on the horizon of the shimmering sea.
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You felt like you were riding on the brim of a cloud as the wind zipped through your hair and your jacket, starting to take flight and flutter violently behind you like kites in the sky. The feeling of being so close to land, yet so far up into the sky was so indescribable-gravity accelerated the thrill in your heart as Dowoon let out a long, unceremonious scream, cheering for the destination that wasn't too far from where you were.
"We're almost here!" he broke into a small gummy smile beneath the mop of his fluttering curls-they seemed to run across the border of his forehead, like running waves crashing beautifully onto the shore of a beach.
However, contrary to your imagination, the river that surrounded all of you in its big embrace was especially quiet-only letting small dribbles of light from the lighthouse float gently above the surface of the waves as both of you moved past, like bioluminescent lily pads that had descended from the glow of the moon. Mountains foreshadowed the road ahead mysteriously, painted in a darker shade of navy than the star speckled-sky above both of you, and the road to the picnic area was long and windy, snaking out into a canopy of trees relaxedly.
"You'd never get anything like this in the city." you said in slight awe, hands slowly finding themselves crawling up to Dowoon's broad shoulders as you dared to hoist yourself up, breaking up from your posture a tad bit, and as you felt one of his curls brush past your wrists, he laughed his slow, deep laugh in response.
"You're cute. I had a friend that didn't live in Busan as a kid, and he lived in the more country area-he would probably protest if he heard what you just said..." His deep voice trailed off softly, seeming to follow the snaking nature of the concrete road ahead of you. "-Nevertheless, I'm happy we're here. It's nice to ride out here with someone."
His eyes, which had now stopped displaying the light of the sun to catch the glow of the moon, was still as warm as ever in the cold weather. With undeniable faith tinting the light that ringed his eyes, half opened submissively and bringing out the semi rosy tint in his bags, the carefree smile on his lips and the uplift of his cheeks resembling floating clouds didn't fail to bring you back in awe again; it was as if all laws of astronomy tailed after his presence, and followed in the footsteps of his unbreakable belief.
"You're really very beautiful." the words left your lips through an airy whisper, and you were too busy staring at him again to even notice what you said until Dowoon spoke up again.
"U-Um...Me? R-Really? Thanks, I guess..." his eyes bore a different spark to it as they drooped shyly, like a mimosa recoiling at someone's touch-and as the truth dawned onto you slowly, mixed feelings of embarrassment and self-blame kicked in a little too fast-you really, really wanted to kick yourself for saying that.
Trying to salvage the situation, you quickly spoke up upon seeing his tilted eyebrows and the embarrassment written on his face. "I-I didn't mean that in a weird way, I'm sorry, not that I don't love your looks-or not that I don't love you any less, i-it's just-" you stuttered awkwardly, brain stupidly failing you at this crucial moment-but being a nice guy, Dowoon just shook his head briefly.
With a small smile breaking onto his face, not fully suggestive; yet not fully chaste, he responded in awe, big eyes widening with more faith than before.
"No, no, please don't apologise, because..." Dowoon spoke with the smile of reuniting with someone again, overly excited to articulate his words properly, "B-Because, I-"
"Dowoon! What's taking you so long, can you drive faster? You're almost there already, hurry up!" Jaehyung's voice suddenly broke through the world that only both of you shared, halting the climax of the story. He and Younghyun were on a higher end of a cliff, where the destination was, and you could already see their hands waving vigorously in your direction. Jihyo and Chaewon had arrived too-you could see two figures with long hair sit on a big red mat.
"What was that you were going to say?" you asked, as the scooter started to move again; both of you had been so immersed in conversation that you hadn't even realised that Dowoon stopped the vehicle to talk.
However, contrary to what you thought he was going to say, Dowoon shook his head almost nonchalantly, losing a bit of the faith in his gaze as he looked down with baggy eyes of dejection.
He squeezed his lips into a textbook version of a smile and talked at a slower pace, this time more scarily composed than before. "I-It's nothing. I don't know if I'll have the courage to tell you again."
The entire trip to the cliff went downhill in a veil of awkward silence, both of you knowing full well in your hearts why such a thing had happened. Wind rocketed past your ears silently, blowing against your ears and hitting against your hair-as if coaxing you to speak, but right now, you didn't know if you had the courage to say anything to him when you had made him sad.
In less than a minute, the scooter had surfaced up the flatter parts of the cliff, and you decided that this was the best moment to speak up.
"I'm sorry if I made you sad or anything." you mumbled awkwardly, stepping out of the scooter and nearly losing your balance-having your feet on the ground after 2 whole hours seemed like a foreign concept to your legs right about now.
Dowoon shook a hand at you almost instantly. "You've made me more happy than I could ever imagine." he said unhesitantly, and this time, smiled at you with a more genuine smile. For a second, you could see the faith of the crescent moon resurface back on the ring of his eyes as he continued, "Just have fun tonight, that's all I ask for."
You nodded back, returning his smile; and with a new, strangely fluttering feeling in your heart you followed Dowoon to the picnic mat, where Jihyo and Chaewon were sitting, dressed in casual clothing-you felt slightly out of place, decked out in your sloppy, mud-speckled school uniform as you greeted them shyly, sitting yourself onto the mat. But thankfully, the girls initiated conversations well-definitely way better than you did, and within seconds, you hadn't even realised that Dowoon had slipped away to somewhere else.
"So, how's life after finals?" Jihyo asked cheerily, or rather, the way she usually talked; it wasn't rare to see that consistent, bright smile of hers plastered on her doll like face.
You didn't exactly know how to answer. "I don't really know. After school today I have that 4 month break that most have, so what happened after your break?" You started to laugh as you realised how you had redirected the topic back to them, and both of them started doing the same.
"Hmm-hahaha-I'd say that college life is still manageable, I've been doing it for about 2 months plus." Jihyo answered, failing to contain her laughter at one point as she squeezed her eyes together endearingly. "Chaewon is entering a polytechnic, so she has about 2 months more to break, same with Dowoon, Jaehyung and Younghyun want to go to a uni, so they're going to college too, but I don't know...like. I really don't know what I want in life yet..."
Her voice trailed off awkwardly, with the fading smear of her chirpy voice, and you couldn't help but relate. Sure, you had a subject combination and you had did pretty good in finals, but you didn't have a certain passion you would shirk everything to chase; not like many of the people in your class, who were already able to aim their arrows towards their target.
"It's okay. I'm sure you'll find it soon when the time arrives, I'm looking for what I want too." you said with empathy, and in response Jihyo nodded politely.
"I suppose."
All of you talked for a while longer, on less serious topics-occasionally breaking out in laughter when Jihyo came up with one of her silly, yet timely antics, and going soft hours when Chaewon showed all of you pictures of her labrador-it was a he, with a slender, healthy body and adorable marble eyes.
After a while of staring, you had only come to realise that the mahogany, soft brown shade of his fur was the same colour you saw, inked intricately in the depths of Dowoon's eyes.
Just then, there was a very coincidental, but hesitant tap on your shoulders.
"Can you come with me?" a low voice spoke up amidst the cooing over the dog, and you looked up, despite already recognising who it was.
This time, his gaze looked a little different; you couldn't help but feel slightly excited as you noticed the enigmatic sparkle that stood out amidst his gentle, brown eyes, taking his outstretched hand and standing up.
"Yoon Dowoon, I'm warning you, if you don't bring her back safely, we will tail after you with bats and split your head open." Jihyo suddenly spoke up with a glint in her big, doll eyes, voice cracking menacingly at the last line-and again, both of you laughed at her antics.
"Don't worry, I won't." he laughed awkwardly, voice faltering at the last line. You couldn't help but notice that Dowoon's cheeks were starting to heat up, but quickly ignored it when he gestured at you to follow him.
Contrary to what you thought it would be, the walk to the destination wasn't very long, unlike earlier on. From the angle of the picnic mat, a loudspeaker in the distance was clearly visible. Next to it were two other figures, Younghyun and Jaehyung-with a bass and electric guitar slung around their chests respectively.
Needlessly to say, you were shocked. "They can play those?" you exclaimed, and with a small nod, Dowoon chuckled gleefully, "Look to your left."
Without a moment of thought, you turned your head.
Cymbals, glinting on the cusp of its dully golden surface like the rings of Saturn, with two smaller drums and a large bass drum positioned at the bottom-it seemed like you were exaggerating, but...
"Dowoon, you can play that? " you cried out, faltering a little at the last word, but unlike how you had reacted, he just smiled like it wasn't that great of a feat to play the drums.
"Not just that, I'm going to play you a song." he responded triumphantly, as he approached the spinning chair behind it and sat down. A smug smile remained on his face unwaveringly as he bent down to pick up his drumsticks, humming a gentle tune between his lips-and you couldn't help but smile, wondering if that was the very song they were about to play.
"This is all for you by the way," Younghyun cut in, a malicious smirk playing on the sides of his lips as you turned to him, "-We have a school recital tomorrow, and we've practically practiced this song till we could play it with closed eyes-but our naughty youngest absolutely insisted on playing this instead of anything else, just because of his-"
"OKAY, OKAY, I think that's about enough." Dowoon shouted obnoxiously, with a slightly annoyed, slightly red look on his face, and everyone started to laugh.
"Take it away then, drummer boy." you said enthusiastically, remaining rooted to the ground in anticipation.
You definitely weren't ready for the moment he started to position those drumsticks of his.
As the guitar kicked off the song, while layered by the low consistency of the bass, you smiled unconsciously as you let the melody hum in your voice softly. It was in A major, a nice, steady rhythm; and more so when a string of clashes echoed from the cymbals, not too far away from where you were-before there was another silvery tap, followed up by what sounded like the rustle of leaves.
Then, as the melody descended down a few keys, Jaehyung rasped gently into the mic, like the soft blow of the night breeze surrounding you.
Every day
I lived like I was dead
But you
Became the reason
For me to get up
Once more
You made me wanna open my eyes
In sync with the bass, your heart thumped against your chest-and you stared at Dowoon, who gave you a small smile, before going into a rapid flurry of beats yet again.
Just your smile alone
Makes me breathe
Because of you, I'm
Better better
Better baby
Only your love
Makes the frozen me
Start to run again
Higher higher
Higher baby
The reason for all this looked back at you knowingly, with the same spark of faith spinning confidently in his eyes; as if he understood what he meant to you, and then, the night sky seemed to tear down from the face of the earth, and enclasp itself in the centre of his eyes.
I used to never wait for tomorrow
But you
Became the reason
For me to take one more step
Not too far ahead
You held out your hand to me
Just your smile alone
Makes me breathe
Because of you, I'm
Better better
Better baby
Only your love
Makes the frozen me
Start to run again
Higher higher
Higher baby
The bass suddenly made no more sound, and soon, the music stopped with your heart.
"You must be confused now." Dowoon's low voice suddenly whispered at a distance awfully near where you were standing, and startling you; yet resonating so comfortingly in your ears while he spoke.
As he locked eyes with yours, the light promisingly dancing on the sides of his pupils held the lights of the stars in them-still the ones of a child, maybe even believing more than ever; and in all your awe you began to speak hastily, not knowing what to do.
"I-I don't know, I'm happy-and these words are what I've been meaning to say to you for the longest time, you mean a lot to me, and heck, I don't even know if I could have survived running without you, there's no way you could have known-"
"These words are the words I want to say to you too."
Your eyes widened as he said those words hopefully, taking your wrists-and all the signs of red surfacing across his cheeks, with the smiles that only he could have made you smile with; to the unsure, dull gaze you had seen at your first meeting, to the beautiful, starry sky you could barely fathom in the depth of his big, believing eyes.
"I wanted to drop by your school to visit, but I heard from your friends that you were hurting a lot today, so I didn’t end up going." he said quietly, now holding up the wrist with the thin, ugly scar zipped across it and kissing it; at that moment, you could barely believe the warmth that was withheld between every fibre in the soft, pillowy surface as Dowoon looked up at you again. "And I don't want to leave you like that again. Thank you for understanding me with that kind heart of yours, when I could barely have the willpower to train the batch, and bringing me so much happiness."
He paused for a bit, and as if his voice was a conductor, your breath halted simultaneously-before he opened his mouth again, and eagerly said the words that would change your life forever.
"I want to run with you forever."
You could barely contain yourself from crying again when the feelings gushed to your head, came raining down from your eyes as tears, and through all your emotions, you nodded vigorously.
"I want to do the same, Dowoon," you sniffed, barely stabilising yourself as you felt his callused hands land on your shoulders gently, holding you close to his chest, rising and falling in waves-he too, was crying; and you never wanted to leave that place again.
Just your smile alone
Makes me breathe
Because of you, I'm
Better better
Better baby
Only your love
Makes the frozen me
Start to run again
Higher higher
Higher baby
From that day on, both of you ran not only across the running track in your school, but in the race of life, hand in hand-smiles being the breath in each other's lungs, and love being the reason to keep going.
Only your love could make the me who was stuck run again.
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HECK THIS WAS SO CRINGEY AND CORNY IM SORRY ILL EDIT IT WHEN I HAVE TIME LOL!!! ugh I had sm fun tho lol Dowoon is really so precious and amazing aaaa ;;; also, I feel like I was only able to write this so well because of God, who plays the character of Dowoon and way more than that in my life-being the breath in my lungs and the reason to keep going, so really, all the glory be to Him, I have never wrote with such understanding of a concept like love and He really is so omnipresent and amazing in even everything I write even if I don't mention Him directly!!!
hehe I really like this story uwu its not the best and its way too long than it should have been but it will hold a special place in my heart!! to the anon that requested this I'm sorry if u expected a short read with a much more light hearted topic to 'cheering you up after a bad day at school' JHDSJKFHS HAHAHAHA gosh anyway I hope y'all enjoyed this if you even finished it, thanks for your support!! I'm writing this on my birthday so I gotta go sleep now, happy 2019 to everyone!
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maybe thisll help
Dr appt today at the pain clinic. i dont even like saying i go to one of those places. anyway, i have an mri on thurs of my lower spine and go back to the dr on friday to discuss the results and do some med changes. im not super excited about it all. the med changes are probably going to be adding an arthritis type of medicine for inflamation. even though it isnt arthritis. and then maybe upping the neurontin. he mentioned last time that im on a very low dose. the weird addict in me should be happy but in all honesty, as much as the gabapentin helps, it also makes me feel very weird and flighty ...cant concentrait... its def a strange feeling. my blood pressure was super high also, and my brain is feeling extra weird today. maybe thats why. i rechecked when i got home and its a little better but my brain isnt. it just feels like it wants to come out of my skull. not even the headache pain that i get, just crazy crazy pressure and ringing in my ears. i feel like if someone just squeezed my head constantly, id feel better. i went to the used bookstore afterwards to try and decompress. i got very anxious and upset and the dr appt for no good reason. the nice quiet store did help. i didnt find quite what i originally went in for, but still got two books that were four bucks each, which i should not have spent. but i did. ive been having a hard time with money. its been weighing on me. last month i literally had one cent left before i got paid. i admit, im not used to living on such a tight budget. all my bills come out at the first of the month so no worries on that. its just by the last week of the month, im really struggling. ive not been shopping, i dont go anywhere but i still have nothing left. to the point where my sister pays me to clean her house at the end of the month so i can get petty things like coffee and bottled water or smokes or just..whatever. im actually going tomorrow. bc i have 1.50 left in my account. i know im not going to physically feel like it ...but mentally, it gives me some purpose. it gives me a sense of feeling important. so its a struggle. it always is.
so... theres this daily inspiration thing that i bought... mind you, i was reading the law of attraction while in the dr office waiting room. 3 ish hours later im home and i open this book up. i somehow opened it to todays exact date. i was like oh my gosh. then, the daily reading was about financial struggle. i shit you not.
so.. my brain wants out of my skull, my ears are ringing, my hip is killing me, i cant concentrait.... but i still feel like these signs are telling me that im on the right path. my thoughts are leading me in the right direction, as long as im trying and realizing this as i go along. its just so hard bc all i wanna do is close my eyes and squeeze my head. i have to be hopeful, no matter how exhausting it is by the end of the day. no matter how discouraged i want to get, i cannot. i cannot let myself not see the beauty of the sun, the beautiful color of the sky and the turning leaves around me. dogs barking and birds chirping, lawn mowers in the distance, the cool breeze of fall. i just have to close my eyes and keep appreciating what i have around me. i have all i need. i have love.
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hiii! i’m back!! i hope you’re all doing well, and you too dream!!
it’s been a couple of days, i got my grade back from that physics exam and did better than expected so yay! (considering the fact that i perform like shit under pressure and that i was feeling sick, partly because i was stressed and tired, and partly because i had taken a gravol, two advils and two caffeine pills to get me through the day. that’s a combo i do not recommend btw, it’s terrible, and i couldn’t even think about food until 5 pm because my body is not used to both the stress and the caffeine 🥴) but i’m back and better than ever! (sort of) so chapter 8, let’s go!!!
that jaw thing that ben barnes does when he’s kinda annoyed, or biting down on emotions is so hot. think ‘fine. make me your villain’. THAT jaw thing. i love this man.
billy’s text made me snort. they’re adorable. i love when they fight like this. it’s cute. i also love that billy purposefully doesn’t remember carter’s name and it’s more and more fucked up each time he names him. also, can we appreciate the fact that she’s more interested in getting krista’s number (ok, i know it’s to scare her off but still) than her own fucking wedding? girlie, you need to get your man and stop leading carter on.
not cotillon night 😭 you’re telling me skittles had a debutante ball? skittles, darling, im so sorry for you. my condolences.
‘magical five seconds’ boy, i know i’ve defended you, but i can’t defend this. i sure hope there was improvement, cause that ain’t charming (see what i did there dream?? i’m hilarious)
‘that’s because it’s not you and you’re marrying a man you’re not in love with’ OK HONEY, PUSH THAT CONCLUSION FURTHER. WHAT ARE THE NEXT STEPS!? SPOILER : THEY DON’T INCLUDE MARRYING SAID MAN! but skittles is right, it feels very much like her mom and that should be an immediate turn off.
ok the reoccurring napkin joke is funny. i like it. i like that everybody finds it absolutely ridiculous too. but to be fair, i’m the kind of ‘old soul’ barely adult who likes those things. setting up a nice table with nice napkins and fine cutlery makes me happy. we have to appreciate the small things in life
‘oh honey, you’ll have to try a little harder that that to rub it in my face’ oh skittles, to rub what in your face? seriously woman, take a hint. krista’s fucking annoying either way. billy would dump her ass in a heartbeat if you ask him to
oh oh oh, i can’t wait for the coffee shop meeting. the perfume trick she does is so low but gosh i love it. i might use it someday
‘and then you and me forever baby’ oh carter, that statement won’t age well, i can tell you that much already…
PETTY SKITTLES. I LOVE HER. BE AS PETTY AS YOU WANT. TAKE THE LOWEST ROAD, I’LL SIT BACK WITH POPCORN.
sweetie, darling… if y’all know what shampoo brand the other uses on the regular…. y’all already acting like a married couple. can you not put two and two together????
YES SKITTLES, USE THE PERFUME TRICK!!!!
also, thank god skittles is bringing up how fucked up billy’s relationship with krista is. that kind of relationship is so many red flags you’d think it’s a may day parade! that shot is highly against psychology/psychiatry work ethics and she should have her license revoked asap!!!
not krista lying to herself about how acceptable it is because he’s not her patient anymore. bitch, you should be blessed by a jail sentence.
‘oh t, you know. living with billy is actually pretty easy. he’s pretty tidy, right?’ OMG SKITTLES, fuck yeah girl!!
‘i don’t think we’re in the same social circle, but maybe?’ the shade never stops. skittles is plain disrespectful and i admire her for it.
skittles giving the ‘you’re temporary. i’ll always be in his life’ speech always hits. i wish i could’ve had that and that my childhood best friend didn’t end up to be a backstabbing asshole (i saw him today btw, not cool)
‘run along, puppy’ the disrespect never stops. i love you, skittles.
billy seeing right through her game AAAAAAAAAAH boy if you don’t dump that failed psychiatrist, ima drag your ass so hard. you’re being so fucking blind
CARTER MET BILLY HEHEHEHE the war is on and it’s gonna be so entertaining. they really do give as good as they get huh?
‘game on, skittles’ boy oh boy do i enjoy this
I LOVE THIS CHAPTER AND THIS PART OF THE FIC SO MUCH! i hope you had a good day and that you’re feeling well rested! love ya!!
Omg congratulations on the exam love, but please take care of yourself! ❤❤
The jaw thing 😂
Billy damn well knows his name but refuses to use it lolll😂
Skittles hated that ball so much 😂
I DID SEE WHAT YOU DID THERE LOVE! 😂❤❤
I think Skittles is so ready to get the wedding over with, and she's basically blaming napkins for it 😂
She already decided to hate Krista 😂
Carter is a naive puppyyyyy 😭❤
THE PERFUME TRICK❤😈
I feel like Skittles wanted to bring that up with Billy too but then decided she'd hit Krista with it first 😈
"blessed by a jail sentence" LOLLLL OMG 😂😂😂
Aw I'm sorry to hear about your childhood friend 💔
Skittles went like "no survivors, how about that" 😂
Love you too, you're so sweet honey, thank you! ❤❤❤
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thanks for tagging me allison :’) @darkbeasts
Age: 16
Birthplace: Brooklyn, New York
Current Time: 4:24 PM
Drink You Last Had: water with a lil lemon , why am i not a skinny legend yet
Easiest People To Talk To: savannah and megan oof they get all the tea
Favorite Song: gosh idk i guess a day in the life by the beatles ?
Grossest Memory: when i saw videos of pimple popping but it was just rly bad
Horror?:im such a chicken i could never watch alone i need someoe there so i can make sarcastic comments
In love?: maybe so
Jealous of People: i get jealous over the most,,, dumbest things its rly bad but im working on it trust me
Killed Someone: i once asked my friend if she would bury the body i killed (hypothetically) and she laughed so i dont think i could do that lol
Love at First Sight: could happen !
Middle Name: im middle name less :/ i feel left out
Number of Siblings: 2 :)
Person You Last Called: my dad bc my mom wasnt picking up her phone rip
Question You’re Always Asked: uhh ‘how tall are you’
Reason to Smile: my brother :”)
Song You Last Sang: Cleopatra by the lumineers
Time You Woke Up: 8 am bc my sister had her communion early today
Underwear Color: white with lil flowers noice
Vacation Destination: peru, thailand, china literally anywhere tbh
Worst Habit: being selfish or petty
X-Rays?: ya i had to bc braces and my orthodontist was like ‘u got a steep jaw’ and tbh i cant stop thinking about that
Favorite Food: empanadas and sushi
Zodiac Sign: virgo thats why im a bitch
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