not to be that bitch but :/

i can’t believe i’m ranting again. it’s probably bc i got my period this morning and my back hurts and my stomach hurts and i want to cry and die and i feel like i have no strength to carry on at all and it’s just a pile of shit at this point.

it’s now less than 2 weeks away from my thesis deadline and i genuinely want everything to just fucking stop so i can breathe for a goddamn second or else i’m gonna burst bc everything is so tiring and you’re probably tired of me making this my entire personality for the past couple of weeks but i am honestly so exhausted and unwell physically and mentally, it feels like i’m gonna snap any second now. i’ve never felt this much stress in my entire life like everything is just looming over me like a black cloud following me wherever i go and it feels like no one gets it and i’m just- idek anymore

god the weight that’s just sitting on my chest is so suffocating and overwhelming and how am i supposed to do this when there’s so much shit happening. i woke up this morning to the news of roe v. wade possibly being overturned and i’ve been wanting to cry ever since but i can’t bc it’s gonna drain me of whatever energy i have left for this thesis and so i’ve just been holding it in which is equally as draining. literally brought up the issue of extending my studies by a few months so i can have more time w the thesis and not want to die and my family already yelled at me and told me to just get it tf over with lol as if i don’t want to just be done w everything. i wasn’t gonna extend anyway since there’s only 13 freaking days left i’m just gonna somehow suck it up and soldier on but haha they could’ve asked me why or if i’m stressed or whatever but i guess not lmao okay

i can’t believe my friend had to (jokingly but not really) tell me yesterday that she hopes i don’t k word myself before my deadline bc it looks like i was gathering a lot of willpower not to do that and honestly that’s never been more true than rn lol :///

to anyone who’s actually reading this, sorry if i’m annoying with all the lol’s and lmao’s that’s just my coping mechanism lol i need to schedule a good cry in the middle of the night or else i will honestly combust

THEY PLAYED PLANETRARY>?????????????????/////??

kinn theerapanyakul is a certifiable ass + tiddie™️ man

something something always an angel never a god

mark couldn’t help it. he couldn’t help but to place his hand over his pants, palming himself when the only thing racing through his mind was how pretty u looked today, ordering a coffee from the cafe that he worked at. he thinks about how u pursed ur lips, reading the menu in concentration, the way ur chest heaved up and down when u came running into the store, escaping the rain. a groan catches in his throat, knowing that this was so wrong, getting off to someone he’s never even talked to, but oh god did it feel so right when his hands slipped past his waistband, fingers curling around himself. the outline of his hardening dick was too prominent thanks to the plaid pyjama pants he wore. he bit his lip, inhaling deep breaths as his hand started stroking himself. he remembers the spark he felt when ur hands brushed his as u handed him ur credit cared, he imagined it was ur hands that were rubbing against his skin right now, ur hands that were playing with the warm pre-cum that was dripping out of his swollen tip. the little voice in the back of his head was still telling him that it wasn’t too late to stop, but all he could hear was how silky smooth ur voice was ordering a drink, he wished he could listen to all the pretty sounds u would make if he was buried inside u. his pace quickens at this fantasy, imagining that he was fucking u right now, not his right hand. groaning at the thought of how good he would feel surrounded by ur warmth, his hips thrusting up into his fist harder and faster. his grip tightens when he remembers how ur white tshirt had gone slightly see through from the rain, how he must’ve been the only one who had the honour to see the traces of ur blue lace bra before u threw a crewneck on top. he couldn’t help but smile at the fact that u were wearing his favourite colour. his deep breathing now morphing into shallow whines with how long the pleasure has been building up inside. it’s the thought of ur pure, innocent smile that pushes him over the edge. the orgasm causing a string of swears being grunted out. his hips sputtering at the thought of cumming all over ur sweet face. his hands continue stroking, milking himself for everything he has. the clarity starts to settle and shame creeps over him at that fact that he really did just get off to a total stranger. but the shame didn’t last long when he discovers that none of his cum spilled and he doesn’t have to change his sheets, grateful for the fact that he was so horny, he didn’t even bother to take off his pants.

ngl smoothie dance practice mark has me in such a chokehold i had three other scenarios i started writing for him but they were all getting SO long i had to stop myself 🧍‍♂️ mark pls hmu i want u so bad 🙏

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GODDDDD WHY MEEEE... perv mark who doesn't even realize he's being a little perv... i need him. 🌱 anon get in line bc i need him FIRST!!!!!

he would tell himself it wouldn't matter that he got off to you. it was probably just a one time thing that you came to the coffee shop he worked at. if he doesn't have to see you, it doesn't matter that he came in his pants because he'll probably never see you again anyways.

except, there you are again, pretty smile on your face as you enter the cafe. you're not drenched this time, but you are wearing a low-cut top. you're quick to order this time, same order as last time. mark tries so hard not to stare too hard at your chest, but when you hand him your card, he takes a moment too long to grab it, too busy staring at you. you clear your throat, and you're met with a sheepish look as his face turns red.

he's trying hard not to mess up your order, hands fumbling all around in embarrassment. he's also trying very hard not get a boner at his job where quite literally anyone can see him. when he calls out your order, he swears that your hand lingers on his for a while, and he swears it's on purpose. he watches you walk away, saying goodbye to him as you go about your day.

he waves goodbye to you. although he said it was a one time thing, he might just have to fuck his fist again tonight because of you.

im so Normal. totally not shaking and crying rn

betrayal has to happen before redemption

Enjoying the summer breeze

"Why would you play it all on something as hollow as trust? What if you gave it all to find that it wasn't enough? What if, under the gaze of all, you come short when the going gets rough? Why would you be loving? [...] And, hey, why would you be loved?"

HOZIER ???? OH MY GOD ????

“i decided early on that aziraphale just loves crowley.”   — michael sheen, no. 1 shipper, nycc 2018

bonus:

also how in the fuck are we already halfway through Only Friends like people are already theorizing about the finale and meanwhile I'm still stuck on episode 2 [4/4], 09:55--

Once again thinking about Naruto (because it’s just making me sad that I’m not dating a sweet extraterrestrial who can hold me while I’m sick) and scenarios only I like:

Kid Naruto finding out he has chakra chains and mokuton but instead of getting to use them to be a badass ninja, he quickly gets caught up in politics because Tsunade’s like “fuck yeah” and makes him her “heir” (because she doesn’t wanna hear anymore of that “continuing the senju line” shit from clan elders)

So now they just have this overpowered kid doing incredibly mundane things like learning “tea etiquette” or whatever clan stuff they got and making him regret that he unlocked these wild magical ninja powers

Also I really want this because nothing’s funnier to me than the idea of people suddenly treating Naruto the same way you’d treat a sickly sheltered princess (because you just know they’d be worried about assassination and kidnapping attempts) and the whole time it’s just. Naruto. still acting like himself. and is now overpowered.

JUST ANOTHER FUN DAY ON THE INTERNET….

Some random psychopath decided to post this nasty comment about Placide on my mod page.

😒humm… well

I’m fully aware that the majority of people in the cyberpunk 2077 community don’t like Placide, but simply disliking a character is one thing.. what this person stated in their very stupidly obnoxious comment above is way beyond the context of just “character-hate” .. there’s obviously more to that. And do not tell me that this is a normal healthy behavior of an individual who is actually mentally stable.. or that this has nothing to do with racial discrimination.

this is one the reasons why I didn’t want to make the mod public in the first place.

After all the effort and love that i invested into making this mod.. now i have to witness these weirdos goin to my mod page comment section to say that they will dress up Placide so that they can go and butcher him in-game.. this is actually sickening.

This person is not solely disrespecting the respective character ..this person is also disrespecting me as a mod author..

Honestly I’m so tired of this .. just cut this man some slack for fukk sake.. Placide might have his flaws.. pure truth .. BUT .. There’s so much more to him then what just meets the eye. He is such a complex character that is vastly underrated and is just extremely miss-understood .... i wish people wouldn’t rush into instantly condemning his actions in such a harsh judgmental way while refusing to look at that particular situation that involves him, V and the voodoo boys from a different perspective.

I don’t think Placide deserves all this perpetual hate that he so often gets from people in this fandom.

I love nergals gay little poses, death and destruction ain't the only things hes serving!!!

‘ Arthur, oh, Arthur. I was just starting to dream the silliest and softest of dreams ‘

Two words. Neck. Vein.