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sigewinne doodles for the soul :)
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more-better-words · 4 months
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Questions yoinked from @iamstartraveller776 (hope you don't mind! ☺️)
1. Do you have a word-count goal for the upcoming year?
I don't tend to pay attention to word count so much as completing chapters. So my goal is to finish chapters.
2. Will you participate in any fandom exchanges or fic challenges, etc? 
I never have before, but @talshiargirlfriend is planning to do a small-ish one, so hopefully that won't be too intimidating!
3. Do you anticipate writing for a new fandom this year? Which one?
Only if some new-to-me media grabs me by the throat, which always a possibility.
4. Do you think you’ll stop writing for a fandom this year? Which one?
Well, once I complete The Place We Call Home, that will likely mark the end of me writing longform ST:ENT fic. I'm sure I'll still write shorter pieces and one-offs, but completing the Built to Last series will be a capstone for me.
5. Which WIP is first on your list to complete this year? Will you post a snippet?
The Place We Call Home!
She slumped back, her energy suddenly and absolutely depleted. Then Doctor Jimenez was handing her a very small form, placed against her chest. The baby whimpered, unaccustomed to this huge new world, and she lifted an exhausted arm to cradle her daughter. It's all right. Everything’s all right. I'm here, just like I said I would be. She looked up at Trip, whose eyes were huge and bright with tears. “Oh my God, T'Pol,” he murmured, swallowing hard against the lump in his throat. “She’s here. She’s perfect.” “She is,” she agreed. She reached up, brushing at the tears on his cheeks. “You should hold her.” With infinite care, he tentatively took their daughter in his hands, a marveling, awe-struck smile on his face. “Hi,” he whispered. “It’s me. Do you recognize my voice?” T'Pol looked at them, her mate and their child, and suddenly her entire being was filled with a triumphant, roaring love like a fire in her veins. She would do anything for them, because they were hers. Trip felt her eyes on him, and shot her a tiny, tearful, adoring smile. “You did it,” he said. “We did,” she replied. “We three.”
6. Which yet-to-be-started fic is first on your list?
The one that hasn't occurred to me yet. 😅
7. Will you change anything about the way you interact with other writers?
I don't think so? Do I need to?
*frets*
8. Is there a story idea in your mental vault that you’ve never been brave enough to try writing? Is this the year? Can you tell us about it?
Mostly followups to (much) older fic that never made it out of the outline/draft stages. But I doubt I'll ever return to them - not a lot of interest in the world of Baldur's Gate 2 when we have Baldur's Gate 3.
9. Short term goals… what do you hope to complete this week or in January?
By the end of January, I may have The Place We Call Home fully drafted. Maybe. Hopefully.
10. Will you keep a record of all the fics you write and/or post this year?
Other than my AO3 stats, no.
11. Would you like to try any new fanfic genres or tropes this year?
I finally took the plunge and tried my hand at writing...well, we'll call it smut adjacent. I think I'll keep at it, and we'll see how it evolves.
12. Will you change anything about the way you edit or rewrite this year?
I don't think so...my current system works fairly well. At least I think so.
13. Aside from fanfic, are there any other fan works you’d like to try creating? Fanart, or fanvids, gifsets, or podfic? 
I write because I'm no good at any of that other stuff! I'd LOVE to be able to create visual art, but...I'm just not wired for it.
14. Have you ever lost large chunks of your work in the past, due to not backing up your work? Will you change your methods this year?
I thought I'd lost two whole chapters a couple of weeks ago and I was distraught! Fortunately, I was wrong and my backups were still there.
15. Do you foresee any personal or professional obstacles this year, that would keep you from creating fanworks? 
Unfortunately, yes. But I shall soldier on!
16. Do you have that one fanfic that you wrote a ton for, ages ago, but never posted? Will this be the year, come hell or high water, that it WILL get finished and posted?
The aformentioned Baldur's Gate stuff, and no. I just don't feel the compulsion, really.
17. Do you typically answer all comments/reviews individually? Do you plan to change the way you interact with your readers this year?
I try to! I absolutely treasure every comment and reblog - why would I change that?
18. Do you typically post multi-chapters as you write, or finish it all and then start posting? Would you like to change your posting method? 
I keep a buffer of chapters - like I published chapter 13 of TPWCH a few days ago, but I've got chapter 14-16 basically complete, and I'm working on chapter 17 right now as of posting this.
It's a system that works pretty well for me, though sometimes I am left dying wanting to just share it all! Now! I want everyone to see it!
19. Would you consider non-fandom writing events, like NaNoWriMo or writing contests? 
Probably not.
20. Any plans to work on original fiction this year?
I toyed with the idea of writing original fiction years ago, and I had a few ideas, but...I find it much more stressful that fanfic. Fanfic is my hobby. I like to tell stories for fun. I don't think I want to turn it into a job.
21. Will you try writing software, like Scrivener or those programs that won’t let you stop writing?
I use Word - I've tried more specialized software, like Scrivener and Focus Writer, but I just didn't get anything out of them.
22. Do you plan to take writing classes this year?
I have never taken anything that might be even in the neighborhood of a creative writing class, and I'm scared that if I did now, they'd tell me I'm doing it all wrong!
23. Would you like to go on a writing retreat?
That sounds fascinating, but I don't even know what that would entail lol
24. By the end of this year, you want your fandom to think of you as “that author who _______.”
Wrote the best darn post-Terra Prime Trip/T'Pol fic out there. The one you recommend to anyone suffering post-TATV trauma.
25. If you answered questions from this list last year, find your answers and compare your goals to your results. How’d you do?
N/A
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visualheresy · 10 months
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Ten Songs, Ten People
Thank you for the tag @frozen-fountain!
Rules: Put a wip/character/etc playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs that come up. Describe how they relate to your WIPs or worldbuilding.
My current WIP focuses on Ada Wong so I’ll be using this playlist of mine.
Cheap Ring by Miserable
I adore Kristina Esfandiari’s vocals--that guttural scrape does things to my soul. Anyway! I love this song for its cynicism and the sliver of vulnerability running through it: Dull men, long nights, or a peculiar fire I wouldn’t know how to extinguish.
I wonder about that peculiar fire, what or who it used to signify for this speaker, but maybe it’s just the promise of casual sex they’re looking to fill in for the loss. I think it speaks to the way Ada sees romance, particularly as a tool or a weapon.
2. The Culling by Chelsea Wolfe
Ahh. The Culling. It is the quintessential Ada song for me. Volatile, vengeful, hurt, a ghost clawing hand over hand to haunt the living. I listen to this whenever I need to access that darker current of Ada’s psyche, which has been shaped by a life steeped in violence.
Died too young, the culling then, it was obscene I am depleted by love
3. Heir by Public Memory
The clanging bell chimes make this feel like a dream. It’s nostalgic and hazy, the lyrics impressionistic and too cryptic to parse. It’s a sound I associate with Ada now, the far-off tolling of bells, and a breeze running soft through the wind-chimes.
4. Arms I Know So Well by Emma Ruth Rundle
Please deliver me from all the evil I did to myself And deliver me to arms so open, arms I know so well
This is Ada with her heart gashed open. Underneath the posturing and indifference, a role she has perfected over a lifetime, here is what she can’t bear to feel.
5. 忘記他 by Teresa Teng
There’s a line in my WIP that references this song, after a fraught encounter between Ada and Leon. When she sings from here to eternity, I can't. I'm in shambles.
6. Never Land (A Fragment) by Sisters of Mercy
In the Ada-centric film that does not exist, this plays during a scene of transit, or some liminal space (hotel room? elevator? low-lit corridor?), as she prepares herself for another deadly mission.
7. Marching Song by Esben and the Witch
(cw for the video: blood)
The mounting dread in this song evokes a scorched bloodied battleground. It’s a memory, among others, that Ada tries hard to suppress.
8. Needed Me by Rihanna
Fuck your white horse and a carriage. I know on the surface this is a song about refusing the burdens of romance. But I hear the vengeance in it too. There's a little subplot in my WIP that explores the dynamic between Ada and Wesker. In one of her field reports from RE4, translated from Japanese, Ada writes: "Both he and I are swimming and being swept along by each other. There is still time to enjoy it."
9. Movie Screen by Chelsea Wolfe
This is the only song on my Ada playlist that could apply to Leon as well. It’s a memory they share. The lyrics read in full:
Don't you ever cross that bridge in your mind again It's like a movie screen
I always have this on repeat as I’m writing Ada's POV. It helps me focus during the surreal dreamlike parts of her narrative, where the unspeakable trauma she’s endured threatens to break through the boundary of the real world. If you listen closely, you can hear the bridge folding in on itself before it collapses.
10. Cosey Mo by Subrosa
THE VIOLINS my god. I will lay my life down for this song. It’s devastating in how it captures all parts of Ada, her grief and fierce love and terror and longing. Her rage. I listen to this and there’s the image of her rising out of the flames in Resident Evil 6.
I promise you that I will find you I'll dig up every unmarked grave
This makes me think of us Aeon or Ada writers. Every story we write about her is an act of love, in a way. At least for me it’s a way of trying to understand her (despite Capcom’s narrative attempts to bury or shunt her to the side) and uncovering new things, each time, that I’ve missed.
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poetsdepartment · 11 months
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Review: Crying in H Mart by Michelle Zauner
Genre: Memoir
Rating: 5/5
Synopsis: Michelle Zauner, known more famously as the lead singer behind the band Japanese Breakfast, recounts her relationship with her mother through her adolescence until her early adulthood, when her mom died from cancer.  Being half-Korean on her mom’s side and born in the U.S., her mother’s death also causes Zauner to fight for cultural self-understanding. 
Content warnings: child abuse, death, racism
Review under the cut | More reviews & my 2023 reading list  
If you are looking for a sign to read this book, take this review as that sign!!!
Okay, I get the hype.  This book was piercing, funny, full of love, and full of hope.  I had a grandmother pass away from cancer when I was 10; spending lots of time in the hospital with her, I learned just how much chemotherapy could deplete a person’s body and spirit.  Zauner’s ability to capture that was just as impressive as the bravery I am sure that it took her to write the words down. 
More than anything, I really enjoyed how Zauner didn’t tell all of her story chronologically.  She has a masterful way of alluding to a big dynamic in her life (for example, her relationship with her dad), then cutting to a specific memory (despite the laws of chronology) to prove how that dynamic came to be, then going back into her chronological retelling.  It allowed everything to come to the surface at the perfect time for the reader to need the information without loosing the artistic craft of writing.  And, god, does Zauner have artistic craft with writing!  It wasn’t a memoir written by someone who wants to just put themselves at the center of a story, but someone who knows how to write to make a reader empathize without needing to know the face behind the memoir.  I felt so distinctly with her.  I feel like I can draw a picture of her family house’s kitchen.  Everything about the book, from the honesty of the story to the intricacy of the prose, asks you to come in closer... and you really don’t have a choice except to oblige. 
I was openly sobbing in the section of the book describing the cancer treatments, both because of my personal experience and her unrelenting writing.  There was so much love everywhere for her mother that it was inescapable.  And so beautiful.  And so relatable. 
The way she approached how her biracial identity impacted her whole life, but was brought to a crux by her mother’s death, also hit home to me.  The desire to turn away from your non-white heritage just to come back running to it when it is too late... I saw this in my father who, while seeing his dad die, was asking him more than ever for Tagalog translations of English words.  There is something so gripping and real and relatable in her struggle.
I can’t wait to reread this when I feel up to it.  For now, I will let it settle into me, feeling very grateful that Zauner was willing to share this story.
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byakuwan · 2 years
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actually i’m going to put the way i interpret byakuran here instead, including where in canon some of it comes from.
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the basics of interpretation for post-canon/manga
- 15-16. - attends high school. - plans to be back in university with sho-chan in 5 years. - still has the sky mare ring. - has major depression. - rarely takes anything seriously. - still kinda scary and intimidating, even if he's being nice. - clingy, gets unintentionally physically affectionate. - very whimsical. fun-loving. chaotic. life of the party. - loves to be around humans people again.
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where in canon this stuff comes from
 - i put him at 15-16 based on shoichi and him being in that university together 5 yrs later (ep 174)
- he has the mare ring visibly in ch. 409 (as well as his white dragon box weapon.)
- major depression hc comes from ch. 368, pg.16.
note: there are 2 translations of this page, the literal one and a reinterpreted/rephrased one. i go with the literal one:
"In that dream, I've defeated you and cleared the game. All that I've wished for came true... but I forgot the true objective, and became "nothing".
- being friendly and wanting to be around other people is from ep 202's backstory drop:
"When I was with other people, I felt warm and fuzzy at times. And I wasn't being pessimistic. I was good at finding things that were fun to do. And I tried my best to have fun."
he's trying to have fun and be with other people now that he has a fresh perspective on life.
^ also: ch. 368, pg 16:
"From the start, I had that personality that doesn't want any connections. Whatever... wherever I may be... I've only waited for death."
this time, he's chasing those connections.
- he runs himself into the ground in pursuit of his goals, then and now. see: exhaustion from visiting parallel worlds inside the cocoon.
- actually wants the best for the world. here's where i get this one.
starting with a tiny detail: "world peace" is his favorite quote from the interview mentioned on the wiki page.
why did he start trying to take over the universe and become a god?
when being given the sky mare ring in the ep 202 backstory drop: "I've been waiting for something crazy like this to happen, since I lost faith in the real world long ago."
why did he lose faith in the real world?
ep 202 rant: "Individual desires will trump collective hypocrisy every time! That's the world we live in!"
ep 202, just before he was vaporized/died: "But something about this world just didn't feel right. You know what I mean? Doesn't it make you feel sick?"
really small detail: the american engineering university he met shoichi at (ep 174) had a paper "world oil reserves almost depleted" in the screenshot.
what was he even at an engineering university to do to begin with?
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me interpreting canon into a “backstory”
- though byakuran didn't really find a value in being alive as a person, he tried to have fun with life anyway! he always has! he feels so warm and fuzzy around other people. he liked people. he really did.
... until he noticed how messed up humanity/society generally is by nature. he's always felt distant from everyone else, but attending an american university and seeing the state of the wider world... humanity is really messed up.
once he started to see that, it was too hard to see the good in people. everyone's selfish by nature, acts based on their emotions without regarding what anyone else wants. it's not interesting anymore. without fun, why bother?
- enter the mare rings. he's so bored with life and being human. now that he has something interesting to do... of course he's going to mess around with it. let's go, world domination! let's get control of the trinisette and do something about the human race being so bad! and he almost did!
he also completely forgot why he bothered with life in the first place.
- uni, somehow, understood how he felt. even after everything he did to her, she still sat next to him and encouraged him to not give up on life, not give up on being human, not give up on humanity itself.
she fully understands how humans feel-- why they're selfish, only act on their own emotions, why that isn't necessarily a bad thing... she's very trustworthy on this topic. and he understands her perspective now. it's not much different from the one he had before.
- ... he can try to have fun again. see the world like she does. he doubts he'll ever be able to wrap his head around emotions as a whole, but it sounds fun to try.the moment someone smiles, things just feel right in a way byakuran never saw before. sometimes it's hard to get them to feel like smiling, but he usually manages eventually. the warm, fuzzy feeling is worth it every single time.
(he realized that he is selfish too, just like other humans, who aren't inherently terrible for it.)
- byakuran would never have thought being human would feel so nice, but it does.
it's surprisingly fun-- and having fun is what he's always wanted from life, so it works out. :)
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Now that Legendary Arena is permanently available, I can test out some team compositions against various stages.
1. 2/5 EX Halloween Caitlin & 3/5 EX Summer N & 5/5 EX Sidney vs. Azelf, Latios, and Cresselia
Good god this team is scary. I tested them already in CSMM at Caitlin's stage this week and this Dark dual strike team is just unstoppable. Azelf's third bar folded in just two hits: Summer N's Night Daze dealt 18k damage and Sidney's Brutal Swing after that dealt 8k damage, finishing Azelf off. And I even used wrong grid for Summer N, I used his mixed DPS+Sync grid even though Sidney took all the syncs! The mixed grid was from Latios match because Summer N had to sync to take down the sides, and I forgot to change it before Azelf fight. Still...wow. 
Tested this team against Cresselia as well, and damn Sidney made a quick work of Cresselia’s first bar despite Cresselia’s confusion immunity so the team didn’t need to worry about Thunder Wave. Same goes for Summer N, who depleted most of Cresselia’s second health bar in one sync, so no Toxic. And when reaching third bar, Summer N dealt 34k damage Night Daze, finishing her entire third bar in just one hit. I’m not joking. This team is too scary. And Halloween Caitlin is the perfect partner for them because she buffed accuracy and top off Sidney’s attack, so this team didn’t suffer too much from Double Team at the start. And Summer N could also spam Snarl at the first bar when Cresselia was resistant to his damage while Sidney attacked. Sidney’s potions also came in handy to protect the team. I...love this team. I’m glad that they could check Cresselia safely.
2. 5/5 Hop & 1/5 OG Steven & 5/5 EX Skyla vs. Regirock
Pretty easy, and once again I prefer Steven over Solgaleo, because Skyla's flinch chance is too small, so Steven helping in landing some flinches is really good. I think if Steven is 3/5 and having access to Aggravation+Recuperation, he might be able to solo Regirock much like Hop? Who knows. I don't have the resources to test that, but maybe someday.
3. 2/5 EX SS Morty & 3/5 EX Anni N & 1/5 Classic Elesa vs. Latias and Cobalion
That 66k damage was not a crit. When crit, Anni N’s damage hit the damage cap. Classic Elesa really made his life easier in landing not just paralysis but also debuffs. Sadly, Cresselia is immune to paralysis so Classic Elesa’s shenanigans didn’t work really well and better to bring Oak instead. Still, Classic Elesa is such an amazing addition to my team, she’s really helping Anni N, and she’s also Unovan who takes benefit from Unova Flag Bearer. Also, Classic Elesa has such a perfect synergy with SST Red...more on that below.
4. 2/5 OG Ingo & 1/5 OG Emmet & 1/5 Bertha vs. Moltres
Finally got around to test this team, mostly just to see whether or not it's worth it to trade off 60% flinch change for matching theme skill with Ingo, Trap+Stealth Rock, 5 guaranteed Sandstorm usage, and some crit buffs. Turns out: it's not. Relying only on Emmet's 30% flinch chance from Rock Slide is not going to help. There was even one run where Emmet didn't land a flinch at all. Plus, the gauge is horrendous. Sand Tomb is two bar move instead of one. OG Ingo had to buff everyone's speed or use his trainer move sooner. And the lack of flinch hurts the team's survivability as well. Stealth Rock's damage when super effective was decent, and added passive damage were nice, but at the end of the day, I still prefer bringing Acerola than Bertha in Subway team. Near-consistent flinches really help, and losing that hurts. With correct play, the latter half of Moltres third health can be handled without changing weather so only 4 Sandstorm is necessary, plus Acerola has a chance to replenish her Sandstorm MP, so yeah.
The rest are just my various attempts in testing SST Red, whether as main damage dealer or as utility to replace Volkner.
5. 2/5 EX Halloween Caitlin & 1/5 SST Red & 1/5 Classic Elesa vs. Azelf, Latias, Latios, Cobalion, Uxie, Tornadus
I’m a big fan of SST Red and Classic Elesa’s synergy, as the cover each other’s needs very well. Classic Elesa can apply paralysis so SST Red doesn’t need to spend his max move to do so. Classic Elesa can also apply Electric Terrain so SST Red can focus on spamming his B Volt Tackle. Halloween Caitlin is just there to provide defensive supports. I’ve tried with SS Morty as well, and it works well too. Any defensive EX supports work pretty well with SST Red, because he doesn’t need anything else, but he still appreciates the defensive buffs to help his survivability. Usually enemies went down at third Electric Terrain, could be faster too.
6. 4/5 EX Hilbert & 5/5 EX OG N & 1/5 SST Red vs. Tornadus
And now, using SST Red as utility. 1/5 SST Red has no access to Staggering, so he focuses on setting Terrain and softens up the enemy for N to take advantage of. He lacks the flinch utility that Volkner has, but being able to reliably debuff enemies is pretty big. Bolt Strike’s chance of paralysis is unreliable, but luckily both N and SST Red have Piercing Blows, so they can no-sell the status requirements. This team is very much overkill, and it’s better that they perform separately, but yeah, the debuffs are very much appreciated by N.
7. 3/5 EX SC Lillie & 5/5 EX Hau & 1/5 SST Red vs. Tornadus
And because SST Red debuffs both defenses, Hau can take advantage of it too. Discharge’s paralysis chance is also slightly higher than Bolt Strike, and Hau somehow lands a lot of it. Though, in this case, maybe Volkner is better because his paralysis chance is reliable, than SST Red who only has one use. Still, Hau dealing 30k damage on sync is very satisfactory, and if paralysis hasn’t proc-ed, SST Red can cover up Hau’s damage. Maybe this team might work against Aaron...maybe...
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kayspeaks · 6 months
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1st November - New month
Dear God
I want to start by thanking you for your protection, last week my driving anxiety was at an all time high, and I was quite nervous about driving at night as well as driving with many passengers in my car.
I genuinely am grateful to you for carrying me through my biggest fear and appreciate the patience I can feel you have towards me... I know I'm not always faithful and consistent as you are but your unwavering love for me is out of this world!
Thank you so much for the gift of life and your protection.
I need to talk to you about Nosipho, I truly regret initiating a relationship with her... It's just so unfair to her for me to suddenly lose interest 💔. I think I've always known I'm not that into her but I hoped I'd grow more indepth feelings for her which is really not materializing. I really do love and care about her generally as a fellow human being however... I'm just beyond depleted as a girlfriend towards her... And quiet frankly I realise that I would like to be in a relationship but not with her....also i think I should not rush to be in one becsuse I genuinely don't want to break anyone's heart or mind be broken unnecessarily.
I don't know if it's too soon for me to tell you about Don. 😝Shes gorgeous and seems like a genuinely wholesome person... I know the distance is literally something that keeps following me...but I think I do have an interest in her,but you know us lesbians, things implode too quickly... I wouldn't be shocked if I'm here next time telling you of how she's a thing of the past 🤦
I'm however hoping for a different outcome. I have a few fears about her though,
1. She's a Tik Tok sensation, I mean she doesn't necessarily have a huge following but it seems like she's sociable and the idea of my partner being accessible is wild for me😭😭 lol but the irony is that if she wasn't I probably wouldn't have met her.
3.She is so beautiful omw she reminds me of Sam in so many ways.... That's scary... Xhosa women have a very strong pulll factor. Also I don't want to feel as though I'm trying to replace Sam by perusing people similar to her... Although it's not the case.
3. She seems like a social butterfly... I really hope she does have an element of being a home body 😢
4. Am I wild to write about a literal stranger moments after talking to her... Hardly even for a while.
5.She lives 18 hours away from me, 😭yet another distance dilemma, omw dating her if it happens will be so expensive... Money I truly don't have.... But if it happens we will figure it out.
6.Will She like me? Like truly be into me fully? She seems to have an upbeat personality.... I'm also wildly dominant. But I'm soooo happy I'm the one who took interest first.
Lol ok IL leave it there for now. But I hope we can talk some more and figure something out.
I also would like an increase in my Salary, I need more money to take care of my needs and my family. I would really appreciate a of a salary increase or a new job completely. Anything works....
I remain grateful though for your favor.... Entirely so.
Please help my younger sister to deliver a healthy baby and for her delivery to be safe and all to remain well.
We can not wait to meet the baby... We love the baby and will care for it.
Please protect my mom and both my best friends. May your grace always remain upon them. Keep them protected and loved.
Thank you for your love forever and always.... Thank you so much for being a safe haven for me.... I remain indebted to you for the rest of my life.
Love
Kay
#KaySpeaks
#IloveyouGod
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kierancampire · 1 year
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I just beat Horizon Forbidden West!
I loved the first game, though i admit i remember little of it. I think this game expanded super well on it, from my memory of 1, it's hard to say which i preferred! They did really well with it! Loved the story, world, gameplay, the fighting, taking down machines, sidequests were super good and felt like they actually mattered! It was super enjoyable! Put about 60 hours in and there is still lots left to do!
However, there were things i disliked. Quite buggy, from being unable to progress quests, characters not moving, things disappearing under the floor, there were quite a few. Climbing, like Assassin's Creed Odyssey, was so frustrating, Aloy would just stop climbing or get stuck. It's kinda annoying knowing there is DLC but for PS5 users only. Also, i hated missions where other characters joined, they just scream at you the whole time, often repeating things endlessly, to the point i wanted to mute the game. Also the climbing animations where it slows down or tries to be tense like Aloy won't make it? Just so slow, tedious, and unnecessary. And also, some of the enemies were so difficult/impossible to knock parts off or focus on certain areas, due to them just CONSTANTLY moving and nothing helping, so getting parts, i literally gave up on some enemies as i just couldn't do it
However, my biggest gripe with the game. God. Fucking. Damn. Aloy. Fucking Aloy. If Aloy gets hit. You. Are. Fucked. When they make the third game, god fucking damn i hope they improve on that. The *AMOUNT* of times i got stun locked and killed! Or the fucking arena, where everything is time based, and often very strict time limits, but i failed because Aloy kept getting hit by water, explosions, or other things, and she just fucking flails, launches, falls over, but then takes an *ACTUAL* fucking century to get back up, to the point where often, and this happened SO fucking much, where by the time she got up/i got control again, the enemy did another attack, and it restarted the whole fucking process, sometimes until i died. And again, especially so in the arena or "certain" encounters, where you are in a small place, no where to hide, nothing to really hide behind. You can't go too far away, or the enemies just fire a constant barrage of projectiles at you, often leading to that issue of you in a 5 minute animation trying to get back up, so you die and can't hit back. But then if you get too close, they again spam attacks that just stun you and deplete your health in seconds! And trying to run away is futile! Everything has a lunge attack that lets them bridge the gap in less than a second, and you're stun locked! Like, if you can't tell, fucking hated this aspect of the game, i dunno how they decided it was okay and just went with it. It made *SOOOO* many parts of the game unenjoyable for me! Like i said, can't be too close, can't be too far, can't hide, can't run, can't back up, you can barely attack if at all between Aloy just fucking flailing for 5 minutes any time a fucking pebble taps her. Like, my god, i hated it
Also, i dunno if this was just me, but i literally never used melee, even in forced close range encounters. 3 reasons for this. 1, melee seemed so weak and you usually always need status ailments from ranged weapons. 2, groups of enemies just fucking destroy you, so you want to take them down one by one or from a distance, throwing yourself in for melee is a death sentence. 3, to sorta expand on that, stealth is so crucial to the game, to the point there are a ton of perks/an entire tree for it. So the game kinda forces you to go long range, bows are much more powerful, they inflict status, expose weakness, close range combat kills you, stun animations kill you, and there are a maltitude of long range options only one melee option. I just don't even really see why it is in the game? Or why the game seemingly tries to force close encounters on you at time to try and make you use it? There is literay no advantage to melee?
Also yeah, if it isn't obvious from a lot of my gripes, fucking hated Tiderippers. Elephant in the arena was hell too. But like i said, i did honestly really enjoy the game at the same time, it's gorgeous, i took so many scenic screenshots, it continues the story well, i just really liked it. But yeah, there could be some major quality of life improvements haha
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parallelroutes-old · 2 years
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— BASICS.
 ♪ 15-16.  ♪ attends high school.  ♪ plans to be back in university with sho-chan in 5 years.  ♪ still has the sky mare ring.  ♪ has major depression.  ♪ rarely takes anything seriously. ♪ still a little scary and intimidating, even if he's being nice. ♪ clingy, can be unintentionally physically affectionate.  ♪ very whimsical. fun-loving. chaotic. life of the party.  ♪ loves to be around humans people again.
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— BASIS.
 ♪ i put him at 15-16 based on shoichi and him being in that university together 5 yrs later (ep 174)
♪ he has the mare ring visibly in ch. 409 (as well as his white dragon box weapon.)
♪ major depression hc comes from ch. 368, pg.16.
note: there are 2 translations of this page, the literal one and a reinterpreted/rephrased one. i go with the literal one:
"In that dream, I've defeated you and cleared the game. All that I've wished for came true... but I forgot the true objective, and became "nothing".
♪ being friendly and wanting to be around other people is from ep 202's backstory drop:
"When I was with other people, I felt warm and fuzzy at times. And I wasn't being pessimistic. I was good at finding things that were fun to do. And I tried my best to have fun."
he's trying to have fun and be with other people now that he has a fresh perspective on life.
^ also: ch. 368, pg 16:
"From the start, I had that personality that doesn't want any connections. Whatever... wherever I may be... I've only waited for death."
this time, he's chasing those connections.
♪ he runs himself into the ground in pursuit of his goals, then and now. see: exhaustion from visiting parallel worlds inside the cocoon.
♪ actually wants the best for the world. here's where i get this one.
starting with a tiny detail: "world peace" is his favorite quote from the interview mentioned on the wiki page.
♪ why did he start trying to take over the universe and become a god?
when being given the sky mare ring in the ep 202 backstory drop: "I've been waiting for something crazy like this to happen, since I lost faith in the real world long ago."
♪ why did he lose faith in the real world?
ep 202 rant: "Individual desires will trump collective hypocrisy every time! That's the world we live in!"
ep 202, just before he was vaporized/died: "But something about this world just didn't feel right. You know what I mean? Doesn't it make you feel sick?"
♪ really small detail: the american engineering university he met shoichi at (ep 174) had a paper "world oil reserves almost depleted" in the screenshot.
what was he even at an engineering university to do to begin with?
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— BACKSTORY.
- though byakuran didn't really find a value in being alive as a person, he tried to have fun with life anyway! he always has! he feels so warm and fuzzy around other people. he liked people. he really did.
... until he noticed how messed up humanity/society generally is by nature. he's always felt distant from everyone else, but attending an american university and seeing the state of the wider world... humanity is really messed up.
once he started to see that, it was too hard to see the good in people. everyone's selfish by nature, acts based on their emotions without regarding what anyone else wants. it's not interesting anymore. without fun, why bother?
- enter the mare rings. he's so bored with life and being human. now that he has something interesting to do... of course he's going to mess around with it. let's go, world domination! let's get control of the trinisette and do something about the human race being so bad! and he almost did!
he also completely forgot why he bothered with life in the first place.
- uni, somehow, understood how he felt. even after everything he did to her, she still sat next to him and encouraged him to not give up on life, not give up on being human, not give up on humanity itself.
she fully understands how humans feel-- why they're selfish, only act on their own emotions, why that isn't necessarily a bad thing... she's very trustworthy on this topic. and he understands her perspective now. it's not much different from the one he had before.
- ... he can try to have fun again. see the world like she does. he doubts he'll ever be able to wrap his head around emotions as a whole, but it sounds fun to try.the moment someone smiles, things just feel right in a way byakuran never saw before. sometimes it's hard to get them to feel like smiling, but he usually manages eventually. the warm, fuzzy feeling is worth it every single time.
(he realized that he is selfish too, just like other humans, who aren't inherently terrible for it.)
- byakuran would never have thought being human would feel so nice, but it does.
it's surprisingly fun-- and having fun is what he's always wanted from life, so it works out. :)
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fate goes p.4
marc spector x avatar!reader
summary: steven gets a look back on marc and y/n’s relationship; taweret introduces an old friend (takes place during episode 5)
warnings: angst, death, some fluff and slice of life, fighting, language, lots of tears in this one, EPISODE 4 & 5 SPOILERS
shait: god/dess of fate and destiny
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“fate goes as ever fate must
fate is the only one that’s just and i trust
fate goes as ever fate must
ashes to ashes
dust to dust” -fate goes, the ninth hour
Steven ran into another room, slamming the door shut. He was reeling from the horror and trauma he had witnessed, trying to sift through Marc’s memories while trying to desperately balance the scales. 
He looked up, however, and was shocked to see he stood in the entrance of a coffee shop, bright and welcoming with soft music echoing through the room. The whirring of machines and clinking of coffee mugs sounded through the shop, Steven cautiously stepping forwards. 
“This is where I met her.” 
Steven turned to see Marc looking almost wistfully around the coffee shop, the man looking tired and depleted. Steven furrowed his eyebrows in confusion before he turned and saw her. 
She was younger, her hair in a braid and a pair of glasses perched on the bridge of her nose. He focus was on a laptop, surrounded by books and anatomy diagrams. To Steven she seemed almost akin to a stranger. 
To Marc, she was ethereal. 
Suddenly, she looked up from her laptop as Marc--in the memory that is--spoke to her. “Hey. Is this table free?”
“Sure.” she politely smiled, moving some of her books free for the man to sit. 
“Studying?” He asked. 
She nodded. “I have an examination for a placement at a local hospital, I want to be perfect.”
“You’re a med student?” Marc asked. 
She nodded with a smile. “Yeah. I love it.”
He smiled back at her, taking a sip of his cup. He tapped a pile of flashcards near her. “My name’s Marc. Need a study partner?”
“Y/n.” she grinned ear to ear. “I’d love that.”
Steven felt a soft smile grace his lips, the real Marc stepping next to him. “I don’t know why I sat next to her or said a single thing. I just... I did. She’d laugh at me mispronouncing terms, I’d laugh at her little jokes and cute remarks. She was one of the only good things I’ve ever had... I think she is the only good thing I’ve ever had.”
Steven’s face softened, watching as Marc stepped forwards, going through another door. He followed. 
They were now in a familiar living room, Marc’s expression hurtful as he came to a stop in front of the couch. Steven heard sorrowful wailing and choking sobs coming from the room, stepping inside to see the memory clearly, he face falling as he witnessed the sight. 
Y/n was hysterical in Marc’s arms, her fingers gripping the fabric of his shirt as she cried forcefully and loudly into his chest. A few words would escape her mouth: “They’re all dead”, “I couldn’t do anything”, “She was only nine”. 
Marc was gently rubbing her back with his palm, whispering sweet nothings and reassurances into her ear, his face not visible due to how he laid his head on her shoulder. They were tangled into each other, sitting on the floor of the living room of the couch were Marc held her, letting her release her hurt into him. 
“This was the night the little girl died.” Marc spoke to Steven, his eyes fixed on the two lovers holding each other like a lifeline. “The night she chose to quit.”
“And you helped cause the fire, yeah?” Steven cautiously asked. 
Marc’s face took on a painful look of remorse. “Yeah. I helped cause the fire.”
Steven recalled when they stepped through the room of people Marc had killed, how there had been dozens of people and families, the way the man had stopped in front of the body of a little girl. 
“How could I tell her? She was in so much pain. I wish I had known then why, that she knew when they would die, that she had to hold that on her shoulders.” Marc sighed. 
Steven turned to see another open door, walking down the hall to step into it. 
It was a bedroom, with the very beginnings of the morning light streaming through the window. What Steven noticed, however, was Marc asleep in the bed, with the sheets on the right side pulled open and empty. The man began to stir, sitting up and rubbing his eyes. 
His hand reached out to the right side, the man freezing when it was empty. “Y/n?” he lightly grumbled, sitting up. Marc’s eyebrows were knitted in confusion, sitting up and looking around. The apartment was eerily quiet. “Y/n?” he called out. 
Steven watched Marc throw the covers off, standing up and walking out of the room for a minute, before suddenly he was running back in, almost frantic. He was panicked, rushing over to the closet and throwing the door open, standing before a half-empty wardrobe. 
“No...” Marc gasped, his eyes wide. “No, no, no, shit, no!”
The man threw open every drawer in the room, seeing it void of half of the belongings in it, Marc stepping backwards with his hands on his head, his breathing picking up as a tear ran down his cheek. 
“This is when she left...” Steven spoke aloud, realizing the memory he was seeing. “This is after she read your fate.”
Suddenly Marc fell to his knees, letting out an animalistic shout as he heaved in heavy breaths, recollecting himself to dial her number and call. The time the phone rang was painful. 
Steven wouldn’t forget the horror on Marc’s face as he heard a song echo from in the nightstand, the man turning and opening it to see her phone ringing and buzzing in the drawer. 
“Every day I wake up, then I start to break up
lonely is a man without love
Every day I start out, then I cry my heart out
lonely is a man without love.”
Marc stood incredulously looking at the phone. The contact that came up was “Marc <3″ with a blurry photo of him laughing while she kissed his cheek, a candid one of her friends took of them at a work party years ago. Marc stood silently until the music of the ringtone stopped playing, and in return a familiar melodic voice echoed from his phone, causing the man to squeeze his eyes shut. 
“Hey, this is Y/n! I can’t get to the phone right now, please leave a message and I’ll get back to ya! Bye!”
Steven stepped out of the room to see Marc leaning against the hallway wall, back in the psych ward. He looked up at the sight of Steven, sighing. “Y/n’s dad, I think, taught her that the best way to escape a situation was to leave with no trace. So she did that her whole life. And now, I can’t even blame her.”
After some time and more delving into the memories, suddenly the two were back on the boat, watching as Taweret looked off the side of the boat frantically. 
“Taweret, what’s going on?” Steven asked as they saw soul after soul being cast down. 
“Fear is spreading in the upper world.” Taweret replied.
“Unbalanced souls are being judged or condemned to the sands before their time.” Suddenly a new voice spoke, both men turning to it. There stood a god with a serpent’s tail, arms crossed and anger radiating from them. “Their fates are being changed against what they should.”
“Boys, meet my old friend Shait.” Taweret gestured, before turning back to the edge of the ship. “Oh, this is bad. This is evil.”
“Shait?” Marc responded, stepping towards the god. “You’re who Y/n serves, aren’t you? Where is she, is she okay?”
Shait was silent, ignoring Marc’s question and continuing. “That man is casting the fates I have decided aside.”
“Harrow.” Marc uttered, his mind rushing with thoughts of Y/n and what the man might’ve done to her, maybe even had killed her. He couldn’t bear that thought. 
“You see, this is why we have to go back.” Steven exclaimed. 
Taweret frowned. “Even if I could send you back up there, you’d be just returning to a body with a bullet in it. You wouldn’t be able to heal.”
“Can you send word to Y/n?” Steven asked Shait now. “Please. Help us free Khonshu.”
“Are you sure you want to be with Khonshu again?” Taweret asked. “Seems like you really want to get away from him.”
“I did,” Marc confessed. “but this is our only shot. It’s the way it’s gotta be.”
Steven looked between the two gods. “Please, Taweret, Shait, you have to help us. Please.”
Shait and Taweret looked between each other, Shait nodding quietly. They turned to Marc. “For my avatar, you have my help.”
“What the heck?” Taweret shrugged. “Osiris is not going to like this, but his gate is the only path back.”
“Osiris hasn’t liked anything for hundreds of years, he’ll get over it.” Shait grumbled, casting a wink at the two men as Taweret went to begin steering the ship. The two men stumbled as the ship quickly turned, Shait grasping the backs of both their shirts to keep them standing. 
“Go back inside! You don’t have long.” Taweret shouted. “Get those Scales balanced.”
“Go, do this for my avatar. She needs you.” Shait commanded, releasing them as Steven ran for the door. 
Marc nodded to the god. “Thank you.”
The god nodded back, as Marc ran to the door with Steven, the two entering. 
When they would return to the ship, Shait would be gone, nowhere to be seen.
And the scales would be unbalanced. 
Then Marc would stand in the Field of Reeds wanting nothing more than Y/n’s sweet comfort she brought to him. 
But he was alone. 
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scuttling · 3 years
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Promise
Fandom: Criminal Minds Pairing: Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid/Latina OFC Sophie Cortes Word Count: 5,844 Tags: 18+, NSFW, Biting, Hickies, Dom/sub, Daddy Kink, Exhibitionism, Coming In Pants, Dry Humping, Blow Jobs, Semi-Public Sex, Voyeurism, Praise Kink, Public Sex, Oral Sex, Oral Fixation, Unprotected Sex, Tie as Restraint, Dirty Talk, Mention of Somnophilia Summary: Two weeks after the events of 'Patient', Spencer is feeling a little bit like a third wheel. Sophie and Aaron come up with a plan to show him how much he means to them. Collection: Part 4 of 5 of Present, Perfect, Patient, Promise, Pretend series Note: This is a previously published work from A03, just moving it over to tumblr. Link to A03 or read below! For the last couple of weeks, Spencer has almost exclusively been staying the night at Aaron and Sophie’s. The three of them arrive at work together every day, go to lunch together every day, leave together every day, and no one has commented on that or found it strange in any way. He’s honestly a little disappointed; he’s happy, in love, and this is arguably the best time of his life, stuff he would most like to share with other people, but they either don’t notice or simply don’t care. It's frustrating.
He wears one of Aaron’s ties to work on a Friday, because he’d been in such a hurry to throw some clothes into his bag during a rare pit stop to his apartment that he didn’t grab enough, and he figured no one would notice, since they haven’t noticed anything else up to this point.
However…
“Hey. Hotch has a tie just like that, doesn’t he?” Garcia asks when he’s down in her cave looking over some age progression renderings she made for him. He looks down, runs his fingers over it, shrugs.
“Does he? I didn’t realize.” She sweeps her gaze over his face, tilts her head like she’s trying to figure him out, but ultimately, she just smiles.
“Maybe not. I see a lot of ties around here, you know? Anyway, see how…”
Later that day, he takes some case files up to Aaron’s office—purely for make out purposes—and they’re kissing pretty hot and heavy when Aaron slips his fingers around the knot of his tie and twists it, so it tightens around the base of his throat. He moans, a little startled, and very turned on, and Aaron hums against his lips.
“So fucking gorgeous when you wear my clothes, Spencer, but especially this. It’s so tempting, draws my attention right to your pretty throat.” His lips move there, brushing tenderly up the side, and he bites down gently, not enough to leave a mark, but enough that he feels it in his dick. “If I had my way, you’d be constantly covered in bruises here. Everyone would look at you and know you belong to someone.” Spencer licks his lips, exhales deeply.
“I wish you could,” he murmurs, sliding his fingers through the hair at the back of Aaron’s head. “Maybe—maybe just one?” He’s lightheaded at the thought, both of having Aaron’s hot mouth tease a bruise there and of being seen for the desperate, needy slut he is. Of the whole team, the whole office, the whole world knowing he is taken, happily, regularly, by not one but two beautiful human beings.
Aaron presses his hand against Spencer’s cock, which is extremely hard, giving away all of his secrets, and he huffs against his throat.
“Yeah. You want me to suck and bite your neck until you’re purple and aching, and then you want to walk right downstairs and show it off, don’t you? No doubts about who gave it to you, about who your daddy is. About who you belong to.” He nods, breathing heavily.
“Yes. I want them to see, I want them to know.” Aaron walks him back so he’s leaning against the edge of the desk, and he runs his hands slowly up and down Spencer’s body, brushing his lips so softly over his throat. It feels good, but it’s not what he wants, and Aaron knows it, the tease.
He shifts his hips, rubs against Aaron for friction, and when he finds his cock he gasps, fists his hand into Aaron’s jacket. He lifts his leg, pressing against Aaron’s thigh, and gets them to line up beside each other, sliding easily due to the fabric of their suit pants.
“Oh, fuck, Spencer,” he groans, hands falling to the desk on either side of his body. “Needy boy.” He tugs down the collar of his shirt a little more, bites down hard at the base of this throat, and Spencer moans, clutches at him, rubbing frantically.
Aaron’s mouth is hard, sucking deeply, and Spencer knows that what he’s doing is actually breaking blood vessels beneath his skin, but it feels like he’s sucking the life out of him, leaving him dizzy and achy and desperate for release. He twists his fingers in Aaron’s hair, tight, and humps his hips up against his hard body, his hard cock, and he comes so powerfully he sees stars, panting and shaking through it until he leans his weight back against the desk, his energy depleted.
Aaron pulls back, looks at him with dark, lustful eyes, and bends for a hot, wet kiss.
“Perfect, beautiful boy,” he rasps when the kiss breaks, and he unclasps his belt, takes out his cock, looks down at Spencer’s mouth; it’s all he needs to do to get Spencer on his knees, and he’s sure he looks filthy—his face is hot, and his collar is still loose, with what must be a huge, dark hickey blooming there—because it only takes a few seconds for Aaron to spill down his throat, his hand under Spencer’s chin while he swallows him down.
He helps him to his feet, and they kiss, work to right each other’s clothes and hair even though Spencer feels like his face is the real problem—his eyes half-lidded, his mouth slack and his tongue peeking out the way it always does when he’s satisfied. Aaron looks at him affectionately, probably at the dopey look he’s so capable of putting on his face, and he kisses him again, softer, then brushes his lips over his nose.
“I love you. Want me to come down and make you a tea?” he asks softly, so sweet, but Spencer just shakes his head, swallows.
“No, that’s okay. I know you’re busy, and I’ve taken up enough of your time.” Aaron sighs, sweeps a hand gently over his cheek.
“My time is your time. You’ve taken nothing I didn’t want to give.” He kisses him fully on the mouth, and Spencer hums happily against his lips. “Is there anything I can do for you before you head back to work? Or, I guess you should probably head to the bathroom first, to get cleaned up,” he amends, and he looks down at Spencer’s crotch like he would prefer to clean it up himself, slowly, with his tongue. Spencer shakes his head.
“No, thank you. I’m really alright. I love you,” he murmurs, kissing his lips, “and I’ll see you soon.”
“See you soon.” Spencer slips past him, out the door, and when he’s done cleaning up in the bathroom, he looks at himself in the mirror; he thinks he looks wrecked, debauched, but maybe that’s only because he knows that he is. He pulls down his collar, looks at the huge, dark, angry bruise Aaron left, smiles, and covers it back up.
Mostly.
When he takes his seat, Sophie looks up at him, sweeps her eyes over his face, his throat, and he can see her breath pick up. God, she’s so easy to get going, it’s not even fair. She makes eye contact, swallows, looks up at Aaron’s office, and then stands, locks her computer, and heads upstairs.
About ten minutes later, she’s back; he looks up at her, and because he looks at her so much, he notices all the little things that have changed—her hair, previously falling in voluminous waves, looks a little flat, and her chest is red, flushed, and when she logs back into her computer, he notices the edge of a purple bruise on the soft spot between her neck and shoulder, barely concealed by the white v-neck t-shirt she wears. She meets his eyes, sweeps her tongue over her lips, and buries herself in work.
He’s hard, again.
No one notices, again. They take a case in Orlando, a serial killer case like many before it, nothing so out of the ordinary that anyone should be particularly on edge, but Spencer is, and Sophie can’t figure out why. He’s retreated into himself, not as talkative, and snippy, when he does speak, so she doesn’t start the car right away when they climb in, hopes for a little partner/girlfriend heart to heart before they go canvassing for leads.
“Spencer. Hey,” she says softly, pressing her hand to his cheek when he won’t make eye contact. “Baby, what’s going on? You’ve been distant all day. I’m worried about you.” He presses his face against her palm, looks up at her with sad eyes.
“I hate when we’re on a case, and I know that you and Aaron will get to sleep together, and I’m stuck in my room by myself, all alone.” She sighs, because that can’t be all it is, but it makes her heart hurt anyway.
“Is that the only thing bothering you?”
“It’s not just that, it’s the bigger picture. You two are… out, for lack of a better word. People see you, they know you’re together, they know you’re in love. I feel like the third wheel, sometimes. People don’t know that I mean anything to either of you. They don’t know I love you, or that you love me, that we…” He shakes his head, presses his lips together like he wants to cry. “That when the three of us make love, I feel like the man I’m supposed to be. That I feel really seen for the first time in my life.” She puts her other hand on the side of his face, brings him closer for a slow, loving kiss, breathes against his lips.
“I’m sorry, honey. You’re right, none of that is fair to you, and we haven’t been very thoughtful or attentive to your needs around this. I promise things will change. I don’t know how, exactly… It’s complicated, I know you know that. But you deserve to be just as seen as Aaron and I are, so we’ll find a way to make it work.” She rests her nose against his, softly kisses his lips. “I love you so much, Spencer, and so does Aaron. You aren’t a third wheel, we’re all equal.” He nods against her cheek.
“I know, I do, and I love you both so much. I don’t want to make your lives harder, but I want more. I need more.” She pulls back, brushes her fingers through his hair, runs a soothing hand over his arm.
“Of course you do, and we want that too. You’re not asking for anything we shouldn’t have already given you.” She feels guilt like a pit in her stomach at the fact that they didn’t think of this, try to get ahead of it. Poor Spencer. “It will work out, baby, I promise. We’ll find a way. And I’ll sleep in your room tonight,” she adds, knowing it’s a small comfort, but she hopes it makes him feel better until they can make the big things right. “I’ve slept in your room before, when things were hard, it’s not like it’s a big deal.” He closes his eyes, nods tightly.
“Right. No one needs to know.” She frowns, because that’s not what she meant, but he pulls back, buckles up his seatbelt, and she does the same, at a loss for what she can do in the meantime to make him feel seen.
When she’s in Aaron’s room that night, getting ready to duck into Spencer’s, she has an idea, runs it by him. His face abruptly goes serious, dark, and he takes her face in his hands, kisses her roughly.
“Are you sure? Anyone could see—it’s not like we’re in a low-traffic city,” he warns, but she nods. She’s pretty sure, after talking to both of them, that this is something that Spencer would enjoy, that would maybe make him feel a little bit better about it all. She wants to do it.
“Yeah. We’re the only ones on this side of the hall, so I figure that’s as safe as we’ll get, in terms of the team, and… I’m okay, with anyone else. If it will make him happy.” She grips the hair at the back of his head, presses their foreheads together. “You’ll be there for me, right?”
“I promise,” he murmurs, caressing her face, and she sighs against his lips.
“Thank you. I love you.” He says it back, kisses her, and she takes a step back, grabs her stuff, walks to the door. “I’ll text you, let you know when we’re ready.”
“Okay. Remember your words. Use them if you need them.” She nods, leaves the room, knocks lightly on Spencer’s door.
“Hey, honey,” she greets, and he steps aside, takes her bag, closes the door behind them. She pulls him down for a gentle, slow kiss, smooths her hands over his body like she’s trying to commit him to memory. “Hmm. How are you doing?”
“I’m okay,” he says with a soft smile. “I was thinking about earlier, in the car, and I wasn’t fair. It makes sense that people can’t know until we figure things out; I shouldn’t have been so harsh with you.” She thanks the heavens above for the perfect segue, because she’d been struggling with a way to explain her idea without sounding like a babbling, horny idiot.
“It makes sense that the team can’t know,” she corrects, and she leans up for another kiss. “Or people we work with. But other people, people we don’t know, that would be fine, right?” He tilts his head, looks a little confused by her question.
“What do you mean? Like, if we went on a date together? And people saw us?” She nods a little.
“Yeah, something like that. Or even… you know. If people saw you kissing me, or they saw us having sex. That would be okay, wouldn’t it?” Her heart is racing, and his breathing picks up, she can tell; she can tell her words affect him just by the set of his mouth, the way his hands move to her hips and tighten there. It’s so fucking hot.
“Yeah, yeah. That would be okay. Would that be okay with you?” Aaron was right then, when he’d suggested that their boy might be harboring a hidden exhibitionism kink; she smiles, pleased, proud of their man for noticing.
“It would be okay with me,” she murmurs, pressing her lips to his. “There’s a chaise couch thingy on the balcony out there. I thought maybe you and I could put on a show for Aaron; and if someone else is out on their balcony, and they happen to see us, all the better. They’ll see how horny you make me, how hard and loud I come for you. How much I love you, need you, want you.” Her last words are spoken directly into his ear, and he shivers, lifts her up and presses her back against the wall.
“Fuck. Yeah, I want to.” His mouth moves frantically over her throat, his hands on her back, and he makes sure she’s supported before moving to pull her shirt over her head, so he can kiss and lick and squeeze her exposed tits. “Oh, god.”
“Yeah, Spencer. I can’t wait to feel you, to show the world what you mean to me. What you do to me.” He’s panting, and he puts his hands on her again, moves them to the bed, lays her back on it.
“Sophie, so good for me, always giving me so much. Always pleasing me, always.” She tips her head back, moans, and when he drags her pants down her legs, then her panties, she sighs, horny, happy, pleased. A little nervous. But she wants to do this for him more than anything.
“Let me text Aaron real quick,” she says, but she pulls his shirt off first, pushes down his pants and boxers, wants to see him, feel him. He hands her her phone, and her fingers are trembling a little as she types out the text.
Showtime.
Spencer is, of course, as sweet and kind and sexy as ever, when he lays her naked body back on the chaise, which is directly across from Aaron’s balcony. He looks into her eyes, makes sure she’s okay, and she nods, a signal to begin.
They very mindfully keep their eyes on each other, don’t pause to try to seek out Aaron—she knows he’s there, even though it’s dark, because he said he’d be—or to check for anyone else. They both decided it would be better that way.
Both hands cover her breasts, rubbing slow circles, stimulating her nipples, and she moans softly, letting her head fall back, moving her arms up on either side of it. He kisses her mouth tenderly, then trails his lips down her throat, between her breasts, down her stomach; he dips his head low, takes a gentle taste of her slick, throbbing pussy, and then one of his hands leaves her chest to press open her thigh, giving himself more room to work.
“So fucking beautiful. Wet and open—you really want me, don’t you, sweet girl?” His voice is a little louder than it would normally be, and she quickly realizes he wants to make sure it carries over to Aaron, so he can hear them as well. She tries to remember to be really loud, even though it goes against her instincts.
“Oh, yes.” He spreads his fingers where they rest on her tit, then pushes it up, harder, and she moans. “Mmmh, yeah.”
“So perfect for me. Horny, slutty, gorgeous girl for daddy.” She snaps her eyes shut, bites into her bottom lip; she hadn’t counted on him bringing out the daddy tonight, while they’re doing this. It makes her feel dirty, and extremely aroused.
“Yes, daddy. I’m so horny, s-so slutty,” she stumbles when he slides his tongue between her lips, then up over her aching clit. “Oh, god, yes. Yes, daddy.”
He takes his time, goes slowly, slips his tongue through her folds, nibbles them with careful teeth, and she is just a mass of flesh and nerve endings sinking into the sofa, squirming under his hands, whimpering and moaning at his every lick, touch. It feels like everything is moving in slow motion except her heart, her heaving chest, and her brain is already deliciously empty, like static on a broken television—it’s either her mind’s way of protecting her from the anxiety she knows she should be feeling at being this exposed, doing something so, so illegal and filthy and wrong, or it’s just Spencer.
She thinks it might actually be just Spencer.
He looks up at her from between her legs, so gorgeous, flushed, turned on, and he presses two fingers into her open mouth, which only makes her sink deeper into the place that’s all pleasure and need and wanting to please him. He pumps them into her mouth a few times, then pulls them out and sinks them deep into her pussy, making her arch and sigh.
“There you go, baby, that’s it,” he praises, dragging them in and out, in and out, in and out. He leans in to press the point of his tongue against her clit, divine sensation right where she wants it, and she comes around his fingers, moaning and gripping the edge of the cushion in her hands. “That’s a good girl. Good girl.” He shifts up, moves his hand up her body, slips his wet fingers back into her mouth so she’ll suck them clean.
She’s never felt so good in her entire fucking life. Aaron has been trying to resist shoving a hand into his boxers and jerking himself off, but his willpower is wearing thin.
Watching Spencer bring Sophie off with his mouth and his hands was... stimulating to say the least; she dropped into subspace so quickly and completely, he could see it from even a balcony away. Spencer is getting better and better at dominating her every day, better than him, even, because he has a refinement, a subtle nuance, that Aaron hasn’t found on his own quite yet.
It’s when he fucks her, though, that Aaron starts to lose his resolve. Maybe it’s because he’s truly just a spectator for the first time in their relationship, or maybe it’s because he knows—even if they don’t—that they’ve amassed a small audience, but he spreads his legs, rubs his hand over the bulge in his boxers, tries to keep breathing.
The tie thing is a tease, just truly unfair.
Before Spencer pushes into her, he reaches a hand down, pulls out a tie—one of Aaron’s, the one Spencer had worn to the office the day he’d marked him—and wraps it around Sophie’s wrists, knotting it tightly to keep her hands together, and he tucks it into the arm of the chaise so she’ll keep them above her head. She doesn’t make a sound, just stares up at him, subservient and willing, and it makes Aaron’s head spin. He can’t imagine what it does to Spencer.
With a couple of kisses, he’s inside her, up on his knees, his hands on her hips, and she wraps her thighs around his waist, lifts her ass up, and lets him pound inside.
“Oh, daddy. Fuck me,” she moans, and he licks his lips, pulls her against him with each thrust so he’s deep, fully sheathed inside her. “Yeah, just like that. All the way inside me. Tight, but I love it,” she pants, and he squeezes his eyes shut—so he won’t come, Aaron knows.
“Yes you do. Such a good little slut for daddy, taking my big cock even though it's tight. Your pussy’s mine, and I take what I want, don’t I?”
“God, yes. Take it, take it,” she mutters, and Spencer slowly brings his hands up to cover her throat, because she needs grounding and they can both tell. He slides his hands up and down her throat, not choking, just rubbing her there, and she moans, a wrecked and dirty sound. “Will you come inside me, daddy? Fill me up? Can I sleep with it inside me?” Aaron swallows hard, puts his hand in his pants and starts jerking his swollen, leaking cock. Spencer hums.
“Yes, baby, I’ll fill you with come. You can sleep with it. Maybe I’ll wake up in the night, stiff, and pump some more into you while you sleep. Would you like that?” She moans, bucks hard against him, nods.
“Yes, daddy. I’ll take whatever you give me. You do what you want to me. I’m just your pussy, just here for you to use. Use me.” He thrusts into her faster, his hands tight on her hips again, and he comes, snapping his body hard against hers.
Aaron knows he gets quickly spent and tired, but he jackhammers his cock into her a dozen times anyway, determined, and she comes calling Spencer, her hips stuttering against his until they both slow and settle. Aaron comes too, just a quiet grunt followed by a long, satisfied sigh.
Spencer unties her arms, kisses her wrists, and picks her up; it’s easy, because he’s still inside her, and her legs are still around him. A couple of people applaud and whistle from a balcony above, and Sophie tucks her face into Spencer’s neck, wraps her arms around him, and they go inside.
The two of you are incredible, he texts Spencer when he goes inside as well. I love you both so much. So perfect, so beautiful. Take care of each other.
We love you, too. I think tomorrow, you two should let me watch.
Aaron closes his eyes, exhales long, climbs into bed.
The next day, they somehow manage to work together as if nothing happened the night before, as if his two perfect partners didn’t fuck in front of a live audience, as if he didn’t bring himself off in public as a result.
It’s enough to keep him in a state of passive arousal all day, and he hopes and prays it’s not enough to give him an erection, because he doesn’t have time for it.
That night, though, is another story entirely.
Roles are reversed, as requested; Spencer sits on his balcony, in the dark, but they don’t look toward him, just the way he and Sophie didn’t look for Aaron. She said it helped, and he wants to keep her as comfortable as possible, knows this is a lot.
Aaron lays back on the chaise, and he gently palms Sophie’s head as she holds his hips, kisses and licks his dick; he knows she’ll fall hard sucking him off like this, and he liked how submissive she was for Spencer yesterday, would like to get her there himself too.
“Hmm. Good girl, baby,” he hums, brushing back her hair; she’d run her tongue over him all night if he let her, and it would get him off, too, but he wants to make it good for Spencer, so he reaches down and lifts his cock, guides her mouth down onto it.
She moans on him, wraps her hand around the base, presses her lips tight and bobs her head, slow and steady, and he tips his head back, rubs her arms, encouraging the treatment.
“Yes, baby, suck on daddy’s cock. You’re always best with your mouth full, aren’t you, my sweet, slutty girl?” She hums around him, shifts so she can get a hand between her legs, which is his absolute favorite, and moves faster, her hand and her mouth together, wet and hot, enough to make his eyes roll back in his head. He knows he won’t last long if she keeps that up, lets them both enjoy it for a moment before putting his hands on her cheeks and pulling her off gently. “Enough of that; climb up for daddy,” he instructs, and she slinks up his body, presses her mouth to his for a heated, eager kiss.
It lasts a while, because she feels so good, tastes so good, like him, and then they separate, panting against each other. “How do you want me, daddy?” He sits up, runs a hand up her body, and then guides her to sit back on his dick, making them both gasp. “Hmm, yeah. Thank you, daddy,” she murmurs, and she presses her hands against his chest and starts to move atop him.
She’s perfect, as always, fucking quickly, slamming into his thrusts, and one hand falls back to steady herself against his thigh; her chest is flushed and red, nipples hard, and he can’t resist, has to lean in and suck one into his mouth, roll it around on his tongue.
“Oh, fuck, mmm,” she sighs, wrapping her hand around the back of his head and holding him close. “You know my body so well because it’s yours, daddy. Yours to use, to fuck, to come inside.” He releases her breast and stares up at her, her breathing hard, her mouth open in a silent moan. She’s gorgeous, unabashed, riding his cock like she was made for it; he knows Spencer has to be touching himself as he watches her body work, her hips roll against him.
It’s relatively quiet, and he hears someone mutter, same girl, different guy, and he’s forced to really think about this for a moment, what they’re doing, the kind of line they’ve crossed. He wonders if this will be something done once, remembered fondly but out of their systems for good, or something they’ll need, will have to learn to navigate around safely, healthily. He thinks about how different it is for her, as a woman, compared to how it is for them as men.
She either feels none of the same apprehension or simply hides it well, because she only bounces harder against his thighs until she comes whimpering his name. He groans, puts his hands on her ass and squeezes it, urging her to keep going until the sensitivity passes, not to stop or slow. She knows what to do—another voice says riding it like a champ—just tosses her hair over her shoulder, scrapes her nails through the hair on his chest, moans long and loud.
“Mmm, yes, daddy, thank you daddy. Thank you for not letting me stop—I’m just here for you to use, to take your come. I’m your slut.”
“Yes, baby girl, you are a slut for daddy. You live to be fucked hard, destroyed by me. By us.” It’s the only time they’ve acknowledged Spencer, and Aaron can hear a faint groan coming from his direction. “One man is not enough for a needy, desperate slut like you. You need two. Separately, together—you belong to us both.” She runs a hand through her hair, bucks hard against him, reaches down to rub at her clit again; god, if she comes on his cock twice he’s going to fucking lose it.
“Yes, yes, yes,” she chants, and he leans up again, bites down on her nipple, and she cries out in pleasure, digs her nails into his chest, and comes again. He puts both hands hard on her hips, forces her down onto his cock a handful of times and then comes as well, pumping into her tight channel with a groan.
She pants, catches his mouth in a bruising kiss, and he gets her into the bedroom, lays her back on the bed, and watches her body move as she works to catch her breath, still shivering with aftershocks, clamping down tight around his cock. She touches his face, his hair, and he only pulls out when he hears a light but insistent knock on the door.
“It’s Spencer, baby, I’ll be right back,” he promises, kissing her, and when he opens the door Spencer flies in, grabs him hard, kisses him, then makes his way to Sophie; he touches her softly, stroking her hair, whispering words of praise until she’s shaking and the only thing that will soothe her is his arms wrapping around her, holding her close.
It’s the first time he actually notices how differently she sees them, as their sub. Aaron is the one who makes rules, gives orders, disciplines and corrects, and Spencer is softer, earning obedience with his actions more than his words. Aaron pushes her, overwhelms her, and Spencer is the one who helps her through when she’s overwhelmed, and it’s why this works, why it works when he’s dominating Spencer, too. There’s no clashing of personalities, it’s all complementary, all necessary. All important.
He has to find a way to make this right. “Strauss was… confused, to say the least,” Aaron explains to them at dinner a few nights later. “And I could tell she thinks I’m just a couple more twenty-somethings away from being a cult leader or something,” he says—only half joking, Sophie can tell, “but she knows, now. All that’s left is to tell the team, and then live with whatever repercussions may come.” She reaches out for both of their hands, squeezes them.
“Well, the team was okay with us when we disclosed, and this is a little more unconventional, but we know them. I don’t think we’ll have a problem. If anyone else has one, that’s beyond our control. It doesn’t say anything about us; people have always found a reason to dislike something different just because it’s different.” She glances at Spencer, who is looking so soft, pleased, that she doesn’t know how they didn’t see the signs before. He’s like a whole new person, now, their person.
"One more thing," Aaron says, and he's looking at the both of them, his face sweet and loving too. He crosses the room, opens a drawer, pulls out two small jewelry boxes and sets one in front of each of them. He crouches between them. "I know it might seem a little soon, but this isn't anything serious, just a reminder, a promise. I don't ever want either of you to feel like we aren't all equal here: equally valued, equally important, equally loved." Sophie opens hers—a delicate gold band with a small diamond in the middle—and Aaron pulls a third out of his pocket, thicker, simple, just gold, identical to the one Spencer opens. "Please don't ever think you can't talk to me when something is bothering you, and don't ever forget that I love you."
She leans over, kisses him, kisses Spencer, and they kiss each other, and the night gets away from them and they have sex in so many different positions and combinations it’s like Twister, but everyone feels fulfilled when they drift off to sleep, and that’s the most important thing.
Telling the team is… interesting, to say the least.
“Okay, thanks for letting us know,” JJ says, nodding, and Aaron, Spencer, and Sophie just look at each other where they stand. Spencer frowns, confused.
“What do you mean, ‘thanks for letting us know’? That’s it?” Morgan crosses his hands behind his head.
“Yeah. We’ve known for a while, but this is like you guys coming out, as bi or pan or whatever you two are,” he says, gesturing to the guys, “and then as like… what’s the word, baby girl?” he asks Garcia, and she waves her feathered pen at the three of them.
“Throuple. It’s like a couple, but, you know, three.” She smiles kindly.
“You knew,” Spencer repeats, and Sophie glances at Aaron, shoots him an indulgent smile. “You knew, all along?”
“Since the day you guys had your ‘partner evaluations,’” Prentiss admits with a teasing tone. “You two are extremely obvious. It’s like you can’t get laid without looking like two blushing, giggling little school girls after. So not sneaky.”
“I literally saw you two making out at Rossi’s party,” JJ says with a laugh. “I was going to tell Hotch I thought you were cheating on him, but Garcia convinced me not to. She was on to your whole thing before any of us.”
“Why didn’t you say anything?” Spencer asks, looking like he’s about to pull his hair out. Sophie knows he’d been so upset he couldn’t share their relationship with anyone, and they knew for most, if not all of it, so he’s understandably kind of losing it.
“What were we supposed to do? Order a cake and make you a banner that said, ‘Congrats on the threesome!’?” Prentiss jokes, and Garcia leans back in her chair to look at her.
“Throuple.” Prentiss waves her hand, accepts the correction, and Sophie reaches out for Spencer, smooths her hand over his back, presses her nose to his shoulder.
“Okay, well I think this turned out well. Let’s go make a cup of tea, baby,” she murmurs, and Spencer lets himself be led away, muttering about stupid friends that drive me crazy. Aaron follows behind them, presses his hand to her lower back, and Sophie sighs, content.
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chromatic-lamina · 4 years
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law’s understated humour
I know there’s a strong argument that Law seems to have lost all sense of humour post-time skip, but I think it’s still evident, even if it’s not as showy. Actually, the way he rearranged the marines in Punk Hazard and his casual acceptance of using Franky’s fart power for getting them out of the cage on the same island are pretty amusing to me. And the former definitely incorporates Greatest Show on Earth elements.
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In the anime (and I’m sure the manga), Law’s easy acceptance is indicated by nan de mo ii, which I’d translate as anything will do, or anything’s fine. The anime and one google translate version is ‘whatever’.  That can work. Slightly more tetchy. Fits in with Law’s personality. Anyway, Followed up with bickering:
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 Not to mention how Law attached Baby 5 and Buffalo to Doflamingo’s own ship’s life raft, though that’s more Ringling Brothers, Bailey and Barnum freakshow than subtle. So Punk Hazard is a flash and clown and gore show.
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During Dressrosa and after, Law’s humour is usually at Usopp’s expense, but I just love these panels below from the bridge on the way to Green Bit.
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Law and Robin are my brotp forever. They’re so good. And Usopp and Caesar have plenty of parallels, which is also funny. They both have a point, of course. A Fighting Fish looking like the below:
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A huge cow, bull, scaly, fish, demon-looking thing. Even Robin’s a little taken aback (she keeps her cool in a lot of situations, so I see her strength in post time-skip too, though I’ve read a lot of posts where people think her strength seems depleted).
Law unapologetically casts all responsibility for getting them out of this situation Usopp’s way, and Law’s pointing game is again on point. And lack of using people’s names.
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Ha, lots of trust, and Law has his own form of machismo, but I like that he doesn’t waste energy when he knows that wasting energy really would put them all in danger. Also, trust in the Straw Hats is evident, even if they frustrate him.
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Usopp attacked the fighting fish as well, even though that’s a Robin panel above. I never know if Law’s usage of God (ya) later to refer to Usopp (rather than long-nose or sniper) is sarky or not—but I love this interchange below  from chapter 802. 
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Praise him and then shoot him down. Ah. It doesn’t seem terribly pointed or mean either. But yeah, a darker humour for sure. Robin really is Law’s wingman (and vice versa) in (possibly unwittingly) screwing with people (Usopp).
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Not to mention trolling Luffy in Wano, BUT it’s true, Law’s blood pressure certainly has gone up since he arrived on the scene. I’m gonna have to put in the whole 2 pages from chapter 919, sorry. Zoro seemed to be in on this in earlier pages as well. This is wandering into slapstick again.
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Bepo was also in the forest having tummy troubles...we know that One Piece is not short on the toilet humour. And yeah, maybe Law can’t tell Luffy as part of a doctor’s oath. Can imagine him using it as excuse to rag on him.
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Not often Luffy gets to wear that face. 😆 
Also, as I’ve posted a few times, Law’s lack of regard for his passengers when he transports them via Shambles, including landing on them.  I know there’s more angry-and frustrated-face Law panels than otherwise since the time skip, but I don’t think he’s totally Mister Moribund. I don’t view him that way. Always gotta remember that it’s Luffy’s story too, so everyone else is a foil to the main character, basically.
Maybe Law is someone who can’t read the room and doesn’t know how to interact with others—and yeah—there’s part of that, but I also think he doesn’t give a fuck at a certain level (he knows who his friends are), appreciates and utilises a sense of the absurd (his words on the ‘two idiot�� captains rushing into Onigashima, his acceptance of Bepo’s map, moustache disguise—though a lot of that is Oda’s humour, obviously), and I also think there’s evidence that Law has fun stirring things up in his own ways.
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Disclaimer: I do not own Fate/Stay Night, Or any subsequent pieces of fiction there in. This is purely a fictional work by an amateur Fanfiction Author.
Fate/Stay Night: Shattered Destinys
Chapter 0: History doesn’t repeat, it merely rhymes
Shirou’s eyes snapped open, his hand clutching at his heart, breath labored from the nightmare he had escaped.
He was there again, the hell that had ruined and changed him, a Crucible for the man he’d become. That was the norm, he’d never allow himself to forget that night, he didn’t deserve to be saved from it.
What most certainly wasn’t normal was the man shadowing him. Like a shadow cloaked in darkness, nothing distinguishing him from any other. The man stepped toward him, grasping his arm.
“Hey, that’s hell you're walking into”
The most memorable part of his dream. Made all the strangers by the fact it was the last thing he heard.
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“Mhmm damnit, 5 more minutes….”
The alarm didn’t take her advice to heart
Despite her best efforts, the alarm refused to cease its cacophony. It’s harsh ringing penetrating even the thickest blanket. Tohsaka rin was many things;
A first rate magus,
A genius in all but title,
And even a pretty good Bajiquan practitioner,
But never a morning person.
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“Kirei, how is it that a servant of god can justify atrocities against man?”
The king spoke jovially with his partner. In life, he would’ve probably preferred better than a fallen priest, but a contract was a contract, and no True king would ever renege on a promise
“I believe it was a great philosopher who once said…”
The dying child’s final breaths causing only a moment's pause in talk
“… that the only difference between Angels and Devils is often where one stands at the time”
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“You Vile Witch!”
She should have known this would be the outcome, even if he wasn’t a wretched excuse for a mage, no one likes their life being messed with by others.
“Caster, I order you by my command spell, Kill yourself!”
The red Stigmata shone bright as the mana was fully depleted. A smile grew across Atrum’s face, but soured when Medea’s did the same.
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“Sakura, we need to talk”
The hollow eyes of a girl who just wanted to be loved gazed into those of a man who wanted much the same.
“The war will begin soon, you’ll need to prepare for the summoning, grandfather says you should meet him in the cellar”
He visibly tensed whenever he spoke of Zouken, even if he never truly had been harmed by the Lich-patriarch of his family.
She began to disrobe, not like it wasn’t anything shinji hadn’t seen before, and it would be better for everyone if her good clothes weren’t ruined by the worms.
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Illiyasveil gazed onto the morning dew from on high, the windows of the Einzbern castle clear of morning frost.
“My Lady, we’ve found him”
Her smile twisted into a sickly grin, like a mad man who’d just escaped the asylum
“And what did the traitor name him? What did the bastard who killed mother call him?”
She spat the final words out, unladylike and Inpatient.
“His name is Shirou, Shirou Emiya”
And with that, her war had begun.
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Bazett Fraga Mcremitz, bearer of Fragaroich, Master Of Ireland’s child of light, A sealing designated magus of the association….
Complete fool.
Her servant stolen, her pride destroyed, her arm taken, her life…
“Those wounds are grievous”
It wasn’t Cú, it wasn’t that bastard kirei….
“arghh”
He lifted her up into his arms.
“Hold on, your not dying tonight”
She’d never been the religious type, but thanking god is appropriate when you’ve been saved by an angel.
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“I’m running out of patience, and time”
The old lich played with the catalyst, a white ceramic mask, stained with dried blood on both sides.
“Heheh”
The cellar door creaked open, the clack of shoes on cobblestone unmistakable. She was rather quick to come, perhaps in her own twisted way, she was beginning to enjoy these sessions.
Even if she failed him like the others, he’d have his backup.
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Soichiro Kuzuki.
He’d have to keep repeating it to himself or he could ruin his persona. A simple man, teach students, care for the shrine, shepherd Issei. Was it the ideal retirement, no, But it was better than a shallow grave.
The wet soil underfoot squelched with every foot step, his path deviated every night, learning the land, knowing paths, finding places to hide if need be.
And on this night, finding a stranger. Bloody and beaten, she’d probably be dead within the hour, several severe external wounds and more than likely more internal injuries.
Leave her, she’s already gone
Complications get you killed
Yes, she’s more trouble than she’s worth.
But then again….
All people are opportunities waiting to happen
Maybe I’m going soft
He let out an inaudible sigh
“Those Wounds are grievous”
She spat blood onto his suit
He’d made up his mind
“Hold on, your not dying tonight”
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He was Furious, she’s not even blood and he chose her. Who the hell was she to take away his chance at the grail. A filthy whore who won the generic lottery in all aspects.
“I’ll show her and grandfather I can, she’s nothing but a Usurper, a stand in. She’s nothing more than a catalyst”
He’d prove it, to them and all the rest. The Matou, no, The Makiri weren’t out of this race yet.
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Author's note.
I know this is a weird way of doing an intro chapter, but I’m still trying to get the hang of proper writing, I’m no Neoalfa or Coeur Al’Aran yet, so If I can’t out write them, I’ll at least make it interesting.
I wanted to do an intro of general characters who are going to be important, mostly excluding servants. I don’t know if I want to do an intro for servants, as they really shine when interacting with their respective masters and opponents.
As for the story going forward, as the title suggests, I’m trying to only use original source material (the OG visual novel and HAs visual novel along with the various anime and manga) but doing something along the lines of a “what if masters and servants flipped and a couple plot points caused a butterfly effect?” So while it’s going to in parts be treading over some of the same stuff, it’s going to be a bit different in a bunch of ways.
Feel free to suggest ideas or critic, I’d much rather hear hurtful criticism than disappoint people that care.
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Stark Spangled Forever
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One Shot: More Cushin’ For the Pushin’
Summary: Steve is starting to see the effects of the serum depleting. Can Katie convince him that, well, she doesn’t give a shit?!
Warnings: Bad language and a heap of smut! (NSFW, no under 18s.)
Pairing: Steve Rogers x OFC Katie Rogers (Stark)
A/N- So you all got @sweater-daddiesdumbdork​ to thank for this…. and yes, this is utter head cannon about the serum but, indulge me!! 
If you are currently reading Stark Spangled Banner for the first time as it reposts, then this contains MAJOR spoilers and you might want to wait until you’ve finished before you start Stark Spangled Forever.
Disclaimer: This is a pure work of fiction and classified as 18+. Please respect this and do not read if you are underage. I do not own any characters in this series bar Katie Stark and the other OCs. By reading beyond this point you understand and accept the terms of this disclaimer.
Stark Spangled Forever Masterlist // Main Masterlist
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“Sweetheart…” Steve sighed, gently catching Katie’s hand as it snaked over his belly under his Henley. She stilled and looked at him, her eyes narrowing slightly as he shook his head “I’m not feeling it tonight, I’m really tired.”
Katie sat up from where she’d been tucked under his arm as they sat on the sofa and flicked her pony tail back over her shoulder. “Alright. I’m gonna go up.”
“Honey…” he began to protest but she stopped him.
“Stevie, its fine. You said you’re tired so...” she gave him a smile that didn’t reach her eyes “I’ll see you upstairs.”
She curled her legs out from underneath her and stood up, padding from the room making sure to keep her face straight as she left. As she climbed the stairs, that horrible cold feeling washed over her from head to toe as she blinked back tears. Tears she felt pathetic for. This wasn’t a big issue…she got tired sometimes and pushed Steve away. Granted, that had happened like 4 times in the entire time she had been with him, but still…
Despite her self-reassurances, deep down she couldn’t help that little stab of insecurity in her brain. Steve had been acting off for the past 5 days. They’d had no fun of that nature whatsoever. Whilst his affection in general hadn’t particularly waned she’d noticed he wasn’t as handsy as he normally was and he hadn’t tried anything with her of that nature at all. He’d even taken to wearing a t-shirt in bed, which was basically unheard of, and it was almost as if he didn’t even want accidental skin contact with her.
Katie had brushed it off as him merely being tired. She knew he’d been reading through a lot of papers from his students, the first semester of the year was ramping up meaning Emmy was asking for his help too.  Jamie was also excelling at his baseball which was taking up Steve’s entire Saturdays as he took him to practice, assuming the proud dad role from the side-lines, Rori was attention demanding as ever and Harry was teething....
So yeah, this was totally down to Steve being tired. Nothing else.
At all.
Nothing to do with him going off her.
Nope.
Katie took a quick glance in the mirror, her hands smoothing over her hips and stomach which had taken a battering from 3 children, before she shook her head and headed into the bathroom.
Whatever…
Downstairs Steve was cursing himself. There was no mistaking the flicker of hurt that he’d seen in Katie’s eyes when he had pushed her away. He hadn’t meant to be so abrupt but he had been grappling with something internally for a few days now that he didn’t particularly know how to deal with. He ran his hands over his face before he stood up and turned off the TV. He let Lucky out for a pee before he made sure the doors were locked and headed up the stairs. He looked in on all his kid in turn, knocking lightly on Emmy’s door as she was home for the weekend,  and when she told him to come in he poked his head round finding her led in the dark, her face illuminated by her phone.
“Going to bed Em.” he said gently “Don’t be on that all night.”
“Yes dad.” she rolled her eyes and he arched an eyebrow at her. 
“You might be 20 but less of the cheek.” he teased as she flashed him a smile.
“Love you pops.” she grinned cheekily.
He snorted “You too, sleep well.”
With that he shut the door and headed into the bedroom. Katie was in the en-suite, he could hear the tap running. Taking a deep breath he moved to stand in front of the mirror, gently casting his eyes over his reflection. At first glance he didn’t look that different but hitching his top up slightly he glanced at his torso, and there was no mistaking it. The definition in his abs had definitely decreased and the hard plane of muscle seemed to be giving way to something less toned.
The door to the bathroom opened and he let go of the hem of his top, just a little bit too late and Katie paused, looking at him.
“Everything ok?” she frowned.
“Yeah.” he nodded, brushing her concern off. “I’m going for a shower.”
He headed to door of their bathroom, and then she spoke softly, her voice cracking and her words made him stop in his tracks.
“Stevie, you’re scaring me.” she said gently and he turned to face her. The utter hurt on her face made him want to die, as she blinked and looked down at the floor .“Why are you pushing me away all of a sudden? We haven’t had sex in 5 days now. Don’t you…” she trailed off, not looking up, her words catching in her throat as she struggled to voice the question she was petrified of hearing the answer do “Do you not want to or something? I know I’m not what I used to be Steve, but…”
Steve felt his chest contract as he looked at his wife, his heart breaking that she could even think that he didn’t find her attractive. He hadn’t up until then given a second thought as to how his actions could be making her feel as insecure as he was and right now he hated himself for that.
“No, honey…it’s not that. God, it’s nothing, like that, at all.“
“Then is it someone else?” she cut him off quietly, raising her head to look at him, her eyes swimming with tears.
“What?” he looked at her, utterly stunned.
She swallowed, “I asked if there was someone else.” she held his gaze
“Jesus, fuck, no!” he shook his head, appalled at the mere mention of such a thing “Of course not.”
“So it is me.”
“Katie…stop…” He stepped forward and took both her hands in his “You’re beautiful. I swear this isn’t you-“
“Oh, don’t you dare give me the this isn’t you, it’s me line or I swear to God…” Katie glared up at him and he gave an exasperated groan.
“Honey, I swear…this has nothing to do with you.” he tried to assure her, pulling her in closer and wrapping his arms around him but it didn’t work.
“Then what is it?” Katie whispered into his chest and he pulled back to look at her, his hands cradling her face “Baby, talk to me.”
With a loud sigh he moved away, sinking onto the foot of the bed, He reached out, his hands on her hips and he pulled her in between his legs so she was stood looking down at him, her hand resting on his shoulders.
“I noticed a few things recently.” he said, his head looking down at the carpet. “About me…” he glanced up “You know how Bruce ran all those tests on me after I came back after those 15 years?”
“Yeah.”
“Well he said then that the serum wasn’t infallible. And that over time it would most likely work itself out of my system. But the older I got the faster that would happen.”
“I know Steve.” Katie frowned, “We went through all this.”
“Well I guess I just wasn’t prepared for how fast that was gonna happen, that’s all.”
“What do you mean?” she pressed “Are you sick?”
“No.” he shook his head “Nothing like that. Just…” he shook his head and snorted “God this sounds so vain but I guess I’ve gotten that used to looking in the mirror and seeing myself in such good shape, spotting that I’m changing…well, it was a bit of a shock and I was worried…”
“About what?” “That you might not…” “Oh, Stevie…” Katie blinked “That’s what this is about? Your stomach?”
“You noticed?”
“Well, yeah.” she shrugged, her hands rubbing his shoulders “I’m your wife…it hasn’t happened all of a sudden, it’s…” He groaned “I knew you’d seen…”
“Yeah, and I don’t care!” she sighed, shaking her head “Soldier,I know as much as anyone how hard it is coping with changes to your body.  And so do you, it must have been a shock when you actually had the serum in the first place…”
“It’s not just the muscles.” he sighed, waving a hand to his beard. “This is going grey, my hair is too. My knees were ever so slightly aching after my run the other day…”
“Ok, first off…this…” she reached down, her nails scraping through his beard “This is hot. There’s a reason Brooke calls you the silver fox… and why half your students write that they want to do very rude things to you on twitter, which by the way really grosses Emmy out…”  Steve chuckled a little, his hands sliding up the back of Katie’s thighs as she cocked her head and looked down at him. “And as for the rest of it, so what if you’re going a little...soft...around the edges.” “Soft?” he looked up at her, a small smile curling at the edge of his mouth.
“Well, it’s not like you’ve gone fat Steve.” Katie shrugged, “But whatever, the point is you’re hot and you still turn me the fuck on, maybe even more so now than when you were that pristine, fresh faced Brooklyn boy I first met in that Boxing Gym all those years ago.”
He looked at her, studying her expression as she cupped his face in her hands, keeping his gaze on her.
“And don’t tell me you don’t believe me because if you do that means you’ve been a big, fat liar about the fact you tell me that you find me even more sexy now than before we had kids.” she arched an eyebrow and he snorted a she moved to straddle him where he was perched on the end of the bed, her knees falling either side of his thighs.
“You’re the man I wake up to every morning, the man that kisses me fucking senseless, the man that’s helping me raise our children, the man who can still bring me straight to me knees with a single look my way.” she smiled.
“A single look?” he quipped.
“Yes, and you know it.”
He shook his head before he sighed, his hands resting on her hips. “I guess I’m just worried that one day…it’s all gonna be gone and…” “Remember what you said to me when I had Jamie?” Katie cut him off “When I was struggling with how I looked and to try and make me understand you asked me how I’d feel about you if we woke up one morning and the serum effects had all gone?”
She held his gaze before she continued “I told you then that it wouldn’t change a thing about how I felt about you. Did you believe me?”
Steve was silent for a second before he nodded “Of course I believed you, Doll..”
“So why on Earth would you suddenly think any of that has changed?” she looked at him “Serum effects or no serum effects… I don’t give a fuck Steve, you’re mine.”
Steve believed her, of course he did. He knew all this was in his head, but fuck if it wasn’t hard to let it take over, thinking back to being that little kid from Brooklyn that no one gave a second glance to.
“I got one word for you baby.” Katie said softly, her hands gripping at the hem of his Henley “Dumbasses.”
And jesus, suddenly he was catapulted back to that moment some 15 years or so ago on their first date,
“Well, personally, I think all those girls that picked Bucky over you were dubmasses. I’ve seen the photos of you before all this happened…” she raised her free hand and held out her index finger, and gestured up and down his torso “You were sweet”
He chuckled and took a drink of his beer “You know I heard that a lot…you’re really sweet and all but…“
“Like I said…”she leaned back in her chair slightly, “Dumbasses”
He shook his head as he peeked up at her, “Fucking hell I swear to God you can read my mind at times.”
“Nope…”she said, pulling his top up “I just know you. Now take this off.”
He arched an eyebrow but didn’t protest, instead he held his arms up so she could pull his henley over his head before she pushed him back, making him lay flat. He easily shifted them both, so they were a little further up the bed as her fingertips gently traced down his biceps.
“I love how you can wrap me in these, keep anything and everything from hurting me.” she looked at him, her eyes locked onto his as she started shifting slightly, her hands continued down his forearms before her fingers found his, lacing them together. “How your hands can be so gentle and soft yet also hard when I need them to be, how they’d kill for me, for any of us.”  she raised his left hand to her mouth and brushed her lips over his platinum wedding band “A soldier, a man made for fighting yet who’s  been nothing but gentle and loving with me and the kids…” she moved his hands to both her hips before she leaned down and pressed her lips to his, before she pulled back and smiled at him as she started sliding down his chest, peppering kisses down his sternum, the kisses punctuated by her words “my husband, my best friend, my lover, my baby daddy….”
Steve’s breath hitched a little as she moved downwards, lips gliding over his treasure trail and she peeked back up at him with those lust blown pupils and bit her bottom lip “You know how good this makes me feel, when you press against me over and over when you’re making me yours.”
She moved back so her hips were once more straddling his and Steve flexed underneath her. All that rubbing and brushing against him with every move she made had gotten him hard as fuck.  He was aching for her.
Feeling him she looked at him, grinning. “And there’s certainly nothing soft about that.”
Steve let out a little chuckle and he couldn’t help but relax and enjoy right where they were at that moment. “You might have had a hand in that.”
Katie grinned. She loved having that kind of power over him, it was a fucking turn on.
“I’ll have a hand in your pants in a minute Soldier.”
“A minute seems an awfully long time to wait…” he said, pushing up against her again as she let out a soft sigh at the feel of him.
“Another reason I love you.” she smirked “Because I know you’re gonna leave me seeing stars within the next half hour. 10 minutes if we’re skipping foreplay.”
“Is this not the foreplay Doll?” he asked, his hands gripping her hips, fingers brushing the strip of skin just above her sleep shorts where her top had ridden up slightly, and he groaned inwardly as he saw her nipples were hard, peeking at him though the soft material of her cami.
“We can call it that if you want…” she said, rolling her hips, grinding against him again.
“You’re killing me sweetheart.” he groaned.
She rolled her hips against his again, splaying her hands on his chest “Nope, I can’t feel a shred of weakness underneath me…” “Ok…” Steve said, and with a swift movement he flipped her over so he was underneath him drawing a startled gasp from her which merged into that adorable, dirty little giggle he knew and loved “I’m done talking now.”
“Good.” She said, fisting her hand in the chain round his neck she dragged him down for a fierce, demanding kiss before she pulled back and looked at him “Fuck me like you own me, Cap.”
Her words fired something in his belly and he let out the growl that had been bubbling in his throat. His lips pressed to hers as if his life depended on it, his hands reached down and grabbed the straps of her top, pulling down harshly, the sound of ripping fabric filling the room.
Katie pulled back and looked at him “Did you seriously just do that? Again?”
“Look, sweetheart.” he glanced at her “You told me to fuck you like I owned you. I’m trying. So shut up.”
Whatever quick response Katie had been thinking up died in her throat as with a quick movement Steve grabbed her hips and flipped her over, once more drawing that dirty little giggle that he loved so much from her throat. His fingers gently traced a line down from her neck to the base of her spine before he gripped at the flesh over her hipbones and pulled her upwards so she was presented in front of him. Taking more care this time, he slid her shorts down, before he shimmied out of his sweats, his fingers tracing the inside of her thigh, bending over, his lips following their path. As he got to the top of her inside thigh, his kisses became gentle bites and then without warning he inserted 2 fingers inside her.
“Fuck…” Katie stuttered, her hips bucking backwards. Steve’s fingers started to move, gently, then harder, his mouth kissing all around the top of her thighs as she moved back and forth, fucking herself on his hand. He watched her for a minute or so, his fingers curling and pushing…and then they stopped. Katie whimpered, and Steve smirked as he bent over, nipping at her neck.
“You know I love you, right?” he said softly, his mouth caressing her pulse point as she rolled her head back, his hand slid up to her throat holding her face still as he kissed her, hard.
“Yeah, I love you too Solider” Katie panted into his kiss.
His fingers danced over the soft skin of her outside thighs and both his hands pulled her backwards as he pushed straight into her, making her cry out softly at the depth.
His rhythm was slow at first, hands on her hips before he quickened, the depth of this angle driving Katie wild. She writhed and moaned as he filled her, brushing against that spot inside her and she couldn’t get enough of him, her face buried into the pillow, pelvis pushed back against him as he thrust in deeply, again and again.
“You’re all mine…” he said hoarsely as he leaned forward, his chest pressing into her back as his teeth grazed her ear, biting down softly, “There’ll never be anyone else, never baby girl.”
His voice was punctuated by his grunts as he thrust into his wife again and again, his fingers tightening on her skin, knowing full well he’d probably leave bruises but not giving a shred of care. And neither did she, the more people that saw those marks, the better, the signs she was his for the world to see…it drove her wild with passion and lust and she couldn’t help but rock back against him, begging him to push deeper, drive her to the edge and back again, which he was more than happy to do.
“Say you believe me…” Steve all but growled as he thrust into her fiercely, his hand tightening slightly around her throat causing her to grab at the sheets in her hand “Say you believe me that there’s no one who comes close…”
“I believe you…” Katie cried out loudly, her voice punctuated by desperate moans as she tilted her head back as he continued nipping at her neck, pounding into her. “No one else.”
She was lost, lost in the sensation of her soldier fucking her senseless, just like she had asked him to. Those hands that she loved, that were normally so soft and gentle with her were now gripping at her hips, curling into her soft skin, pulling her back with each thrust. His lips, the ones she was so used to whispering soft nothing into her ear, or placing gentle kisses to her neck were biting and sucking at her throat as if his life depended on it, praising her, telling her what a pretty girl, amazing momma and beautiful wife she was. Coupled with the consistent pounding between her legs she was lost in an utter whirl of love and lust and she could feel the coil in her belly beginning to tighten as Steve maintained his pace, not once relenting.
Steve could read the signs well enough by now to know she was close. Moving one hand he slid it down between her legs, stroking at her clit drawing a loud gasp from her lips as she bucked back onto him, her legs trembling.
“Stevie… I’m gonna…”
“Come on doll…” he said gently into her ear “Come for me…”
“Oh, God…”  her voice was low, soft, as her words became nothing but a babble of noises as she lost control, her body shaking as she cried out, the world tipping on its axis completely as she became completely unaware of anything other than the sensation between her legs as she came, hard, pulsing and tightening down around him.
Steve felt it, he always did, and he continued to drive into her, fucking her through it before he realised he wanted to see her, wanted those green eyes he knew and loved locked onto his, so with a quick pull back he moved out of her and flipped her over again onto her back before she could even think about what he was doing. With a grunt he buried himself into her again, propping himself up on his elbows, his hands cupping her face as his lips crashed onto hers for a dirty, sloppy kiss that was all mouth and tongue.
He reached down, grabbing at her knee, slinging it over her shoulder as he rutted into her, driving hard, over and over, the dirty noise of wetness filled the room, skin hitting skin as he picked up the pace driving and seeking his own release. Katie’s hands gripped at his back, her nails digging into his shoulders as he thrust again and again, her eyes locked onto his. His pupils were blown with desire, those baby blues she knew and loved had darkened to a steel grey and knowing that after 15 years and a lifetime of ups and downs that she could still elicit this effect on him was enough to blow her mind. She loved this man, with every single inch of her body, and always would.
Steve dropped his head, his hips not once faltering as his mouth nipped at her chest, sucking, biting, the bruises forming almost instantly but he couldn’t give a fuck. This woman was his, no one else’s, and in turn he wanted her to realise that. He needed her to understand that there wasn’t a single person on this fucking planet, hell, the universe that would ever make him feel like this. As his lips moved to that spot on her neck he dropped her leg down and felt her breath hitch again and she let out a soft wail, her hips bucking upwards as she wrapped her legs around him, heels digging into his ass.
“I got you baby…” he whispered, his voice punctuated by his own pants “Come on, give it to me…” With a gasp, her head titled back, eyes fluttered shut as her hands gripped at his strong arms and she came again which was enough to send him catapulting off the edge right behind her. Her legs grew tighter around his slim hips, gripping at him, pulling him closer as he stuttered, groaned and then pitched forward, his torso slick with sweat as he lay still, face pressed into her neck, surrendering to the utter bliss that consumed him.
Steve gently kissed Katie’s neck, breathing deeply. That had been intense and felt like it had risen from his very toes. His mind was still caught in that post-coital fog of bliss, and his body felt like it was light, floating even, but as Katie shifted underneath him, her lips gently pressing to his temple, he realised he wasn’t floating, nor was he light. He went to move, to roll off her but she caught him immediately, her hands flying to his arms as she looked at her.
“Don’t” she whispered.
“Honey I’ll crush…” “No, you won’t” she shook her head, “Relax, please soldier just…”
Steve licked his lips, and gently dropped back onto his elbow, pressing a little more of his weight on top of her. Katie sighed, her forehead resting on his collar bone, face nuzzling into his chest, her hands softly gliding up his back. Despite his worry, Steve felt himself relax into his wife as he held her in his arms. Katie sighed contently.
“Feels so nice, just lay here…” she said softly, pressing a kiss to his chest. “You always pull away far too fast.”
Steve took a deep breath “I don’t mean to Doll, I just know I’m way bigger and…” “Steve…” Katie moved her hand so she raised a single finger to his lips, shushing him “Stop.” After a moment or so of tensing up he allowed himself to relax completely, her hands dancing up his spine and he gave a soft hum of contentment as she pressed a kiss to his jawline and he felt her lips curl into a smile against his beard.
“What?” he asked softly, moving so he looked down at her.
“Nothing, just I love you.” she said honestly, her eyes locking onto his. “Forever.” Steve chuckled as he pressed his lips to hers “Good, because I’m not going anywhere.”
“Glad to hear it.” Katie smiled, brushing a hand through his hair “And for the record…I’m all about more cushin’ for the pushin’”
At that Steve let out a loud laugh as she giggled along with him, his mouth once more claiming hers
“Looks like I am too, baby girl.”
After another minute or so, Steve finally relented and moved, his softening cock pulling out as he rolled over onto his back, giving a sigh.
“You ok?” he asked.
“Yeah, course…I could use a drink though.” Katie smiled.
Steve leaned over, pressed a kiss to her mouth before he moved, located his boxers and after a promise of being back soon he headed out onto the landing.
Emmy emerged from her room at the same time, leaning on her doorframe as she shot him a look “You two are disgusting.”
“What?” he blinked, standing still as he looked at her.
“Seriously…you need to soundproof your room! I mean how would you feel if you heard me and Pete?” “I better not hear you and Pete.” he shot back, hands falling to his hips as he fixed his eldest with a glare.
She shrugged before she looked him up and down, and rolled her eyes “Fuck, I’m glad Brooke isn’t here…I’m sick of her telling me you’re a snack…”
With that she turned back into her room, shutting the door behind her. Steve stood still, looking at the now closed doorframe before he grinned to himself.
“Rogers, you still got it.” he laughed softly, before he bounded down the stairs to grab a bottle of water.
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dramaqueeenamby · 3 years
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Waves: The Dinner
A/N: Not a single soul asked for this, but I couldn’t shake the idea, so here we are. Let me know if you like Waves content where the twins are older or naw.
Words: 3.5K
Warnings: None
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Waves
“You ask him.”
“Me?”
“No. Doggy. Yes, you, dummy.”
Elysha ignored the insult and settled for her initial follow-up question. “Why me?”
“Because he likes you better.”
“Bullshit,” she scoffed, reaching to steal one of Emmett’s pretzels. She scowled, however, when he snatched it from her and swallowed it whole. “Creep.”
“Lee, you know the rules.” The twins neglected to hide their surprise when Christopher sauntered into the kitchen, a faux stern expression on his face. “No bullying each other when the other person can hear it.” 
While Elysha smirked, Emmett rolled his eyes and muttered, “told you.”
Christopher chuckled and walked to the fridge, leaning over to pull out the pack of meat he’d pulled from the freezer the night before. “So, I take it you don’t want us to go to the dealership this weekend, eh?”
As Emmett’s eyes lit up with excitement, Elysha groaned and crossed her arms. “Papa, that’s not fair. Why is it he gets a new car and I don’t?”
“Because your brother held up his end of the bargain, while you, my beautiful little girl, did not,” Christopher reminded, handing the meat to Emmett who placed it on the counter and waited for his dad to reach him the rest of the ingredients. He checked the time on his Apple watch and mentally cursed. Damn, it was already time for dinner.
Elysha was seconds away from pouting and stomping. “Papa, I saved up money, too.”
“Yes, you did,” Christopher agreed, closing the fridge with a bottle of beer in one hand. “And you spent it all on a pair of boots.”
“But they were Gucci!”
“Good luck driving Gucci to school next week.”
“Shut up, Emmett!”
“What did I just say about bullying?” Christopher lectured as he instructed Emmett to hand him the stainless steel skillet. “Not when the other person can hear it.” A beat. “And you’ll be driving your sister to school, mate, so don’t be too smug.”
Elysha rolled her eyes and caught the way Emmett nodded his head in their father’s direction, eyes widening to convey the unspoken but urgent message.
Do it now!
Clearing her throat, she sauntered over to the counter where her father was starting to prep, hopping up, and earning a sideway glance.
“You’re lucky your mom’s not here,” he murmured, failing to tell her to get down. “Alright, what is it and how much is it gonna cost me?”
She shrugged casually. “Nothing.”
“Nothing?” Christopher wasn’t even trying to hide his disbelief. “Elysha, do I need to call our lawyer?”
“Papa,” she interjected with the sweetest smile that she could muster. “Emmett and I were wondering, if, well-” She took a deep breath while playing with her fingers. “We want to invite two people over for dinner.”
Christopher looked over at the meat. “How much do you think they’ll eat?”
“Not tonight,” Emmett interjected. “Maybe this Friday?” He took a deep breath, scratching the back of his neck. “And it’s not just any two people, dad. It’s….the two people we’re talking to.”
Deep down, Christopher knew what his kids were trying to tell, err, ask him. However, if he wasn’t anything else, he was stubborn and could play the hell out of the obtuse role. “Jesus, all the people you have in my house for parties and you mean to tell me you two only talk to two of them?”
“No, papa, he means talking to, as if, ya know, dating.” A beat. “And mama said this is her house, you’re just a renter.”
“What? When did she say--never mind.” He could come back to that. One problem at a time. “So, why invite them over for dinner? Why not just throw another party you think your mother and me won’t find out about?”
Emmett ignored the sly remark about the parties. His dad was right. “Because we actually want you guys to meet them.”
Christopher carried the bowl over to the sink, turning on the faucet. “Is that so?” He saw the kids nod out the corner of his eye and asked, “have you asked your mother about this?”
“Not yet,” Elysha answered. “We figured we’d ask you first since you actually do all the cooking.”
“And because we were also hoping you could ask her for us.
“See, push long enough, and the truth always comes out from you two.” As the twins exchanged nonverbal communication, Christopher pondered their question. In the long line of expensive and wild things his kids had requested over the years, this was relatively tame, and it would cost nothing. Nothing monetary, at least. “Fine. Friday at 5. I’ll talk to your mother.”
“Seriously?” Elysha didn’t want to give him time to rethink his answer. Hopping off the counter, she gave him a tight side hug. “Thank you, papa. Thank you, thank you, thank you!”
“Yeah, yeah,” he grumbled dismissively, seconds before Elysha buzzed out of the kitchen to call Jason and tell him that they were on.
“Thank you, dad.” Emmett kept it brief, squeezing his dad’s shoulders while sliding his phone out his pocket to see if Madi could Facetime when Christopher called out.
“Where are you going, mate? It’s your night to help me fix dinner.”
“But--”
“Unless you want to switch shifts with your sister, so you clean and she helps.”
He could have put up a fight, but considering Christopher had already agreed to both the dinner and talking to Summer for them, Emmett realized he had to pick his battles.
“What do you need me to do?”
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“What are they even doing dating in the first place? They should be focused on school.”
“Babe, they’re straight A Honor Roll students.”
“Well, then, their sports.”
Summer sighed, securing the silk scarf around her edges. “Both are captains.”
“Work with me here, Elsa.”
She looked at him through her vanity mirror, eyebrow raised. “You want my help?” Standing up, she sauntered over to her husband, placing her arms around his waist. “Let it go, Kristoff.”
“Summer, our children are in the middle of a teenlife crisis. This is no time for games.”
She rolled her eyes and pushed him away, going to remove the decorative pillows from their bed. “Most parents would kill to have their kids let them know who they’re dating--”
“They’re not dating them. They’re talking.”
“--Our kids are inviting them over just so they can meet us, and you’re upset?” Hearing it aloud made her laugh. “Baby, people are dying. Find something else to grow gray hairs over.”
Christopher paused, watching her peel back her side of the blankets and climb in. “That’s low, swimming pool. Even for you.” A beat. “Maybe they’re being blackmailed.”
Summer sighed as he finally joined her in bed. She moved her body across the mattress, pressing herself into his side as he wrapped his arms around her. “You need a hobby.”
“How can I enjoy life when my children are suffering?”
“Oh my god.” Summer sat up in the bed and forced him on his back, climbing on top of him, hands restricting his wrist. “Christopher, the kids are alright. You, however, I am starting to worry about.” Any trace of humor depleted as she frowned while caressing his cheek, fingers playing with the hair of his beard. Scruffy Christopher was always her favorite. “Our babies are growing up, babe. We can’t stop it, no matter how much we may want to. We just have to be there for them, be supportive of them, so long as they’re not hurting themselves or anybody.” She moved her index finger to his mouth to silence him. “You will be fine, sir.”
He sighed, gently moving her hands up and down her sides. “How can you be so calm about this?”
“Oh, I’m imploding on the inside,” she admitted casually, lowering herself so her lips grazed his. “But, I’m also an EGOT winner, baby.” She moved her mouth to his ear, giving a slight tug with her teeth. “I can fake anything.”
Summer yelped when he switched so that his body was over his. “Not anything.”
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“This is a bad idea. A terrible idea.”
Emmett looked over at Madi who was currently looking into her compact mirror, applying another unnecessary layer of mascara. She caught him looking and motioned to the road. “Focus.”
Emmett rolled his eyes and reached over, placing a hand on her lap. “Would you relax? They’re going to love you.”
“That’s easy for you to say. They’re your parents.” She leaned her head against the car window, mindful of her bun. It wasn’t easy fighting box braids in a bun, and she surely did not have time to do a redo. “You don’t get it. Your parents are….you freaking mom is….she’s my idol. She’s every little black girl’s idol, and now I’m just supposed to walk up to her, extend my hand, and say, ‘Hi, Mrs. Hemsworth. I worship you. Also, I’m dating your son.”
Emmett shrugged. “Sounds good to me.” Madi reached over and shrugged him when Emmett grabbed her hand and brought it to her mouth. “I promise it’s going to be fine.”
She sighed, leaning back and looking at him while she gently asked. “How do you do that?”
He chuckled. “Do what?”
“Make me feel better so easily.”
Emmett smiled and winked. “I got my daddy’s charm.”
Madi smirked and lowered the armrest. “You also have his car.”
Emmett sucked his teeth. “I’m getting mine soon.” She laughed. “I’m serious.”
“I’m sure you are, baby. I’m sure you are.”
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“Are you insane, Elysha?”
She sighed, switching out her textbooks. “I don’t see what the big deal is.”
Jason’s eyes nearly doubled in size as he stared down at her. “Your dad is going to kill me. That’s the big deal.” Elysha laughed, checking the time on her watch. Being late for class was a pet peeve of hers. There was no excuse. “Oh, I’m glad you find my upcoming murder funny. Why don’t you just livestream it, too?”
“You are completely overreacting,” she sighed, shutting her locker and keeping her hand flat on the locker. “My dad isn’t like that. He’s super chill.”
“Chill?” He repeated her term while accepting the books she handed him so that she could adjust her uniform top. “I’m sorry, but have you seen your dad? He’s freaking huge.”
Sighing, she relieved him from the books after being satisfied with her tie. “Okay, and?”
As she began to walk, Jason kept the same pace with her, lowering his voice so that the other students couldn’t overhear. “Wait, are your uncles going to be there too? Fuck. I’m so screwed.”
While she understood his concern, she couldn’t help but find the whole thing humorous. Everyone seemed to believe her dad’s size meant he was a holy terror when it was the complete opposite. “Jason, my uncles are even more chill than my dad. Trust me.”
“On your mom’s side too?”
She laughed. “Oh no, they’re all crazy.” Elysha placed her arm around his waist when he moved his around her. “No, I promise my parents are going to love you, and that includes my dad.”
“I’m the first guy you’ve ever introduced to them, huh?” Her silence didn’t help. “Even better.”
She stopped walking, forcing him to do the same. Naturally, people walked around them, no one wanting to interrupt one of the “it” couples on campus. “Look, Jason, if you don’t want to do this, then you don’t have to. I just-I just wanted you to meet my parents, because I want them to know about you.”
“Stop,” he interrupted, shaking his head and cupping her cheeks. “I’m sorry, I just, I really like you, and I just-I want to make the best first impression that I can.” He dropped his hands, taking hers in his. “I want them to know how crazy I am about their daughter.”
She smiled, looking down to hide her bashfulness, only for him to bring his finger under her chin. He matched her smile. “What time do you want me to be there?”
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“They’re here!”
Summer and Christopher shared a look, his sigh of exasperation forcing her to walk over to him, placing her hands on his chest. “Be nice.”
“I’m letting them in my house, aren’t I?” Summer slapped his arm, forcing him to relent. “Fine. I’ll be fair. For now.”
“There will be no embarrassing stories or threats of violence issued, do I make myself clear?” Summer wagged her finger and turned away, purposely switching her hips, hiding her smirk when her husband slapped her ass and whistled.
“Mama! Papa!”
“Coming,” Summer called out, speeding up her pace as she made her way out the study and down the hall, allowing a kind smile to grace her face as she was met with her children and their friends.
Elysha was the first to speak, clearing her throat. “Mama, this is--”
“Jason,” she guessed, withholding her laugh when Elysha seemed surprised, while Summer pointed to the tall young man with striking green eyes and dark brown hair that grazed past his ears. Strangely enough, he reminded her of Christopher in some of the family albums she’d been shown during one of the many family dinners with her in-laws.
“I told you I have eyes in the back of my head.” Jason gave a nervous laugh that prompted her to take it easy on him. He seemed terrified.
Finally, he spoke, giving a weak clearing of his throat.. “Yes ma’am. It’s so nice to finally meet you.” Elysha cleared her throat, reminding him about the flowers in his hands. “I’m sorry. These are for you.”
“Thank you.” Her smile widened as she sniffed them. “Gardenias. One of my favorites.”
He seemed relieved by that information, prompting her to turn to the young wide eyed girl who also looked as though she was close to passing out.
Emmett took advantage of the opportunity to introduce Madi. Summer smirked when she saw he had his hand on the small of the young lady’s back. “And mama, this is-”
“Madi.” Again, Summer was correct and almost offended by the surprise on their faces. “Do ya’ll not believe me when I tell you that I know everything?” She didn’t wait for an answer. “It’s so nice to meet you as well--”
“--Madi.”
“--I love you.”
They spoke at the same time. Summer laughed and placed her hand on Madi’s shoulder who was clearly mortified by her unintentional confession.
“I mean--I don’t--I mean, I do, but….” Madi shut her eyes and quietly murmured, “I’ll just shut up now.”
Summer shook her head, never once dropping her friendly smile.
“You both need to relax. I promise you have nothing to be nervous about.” She nodded in the direction of the dining room. “Come on.” Summer guided the four to the room, stepping aside to allow them to enter while she turned around to direct them to their seats when Christopher finally decided to make his presence known.
“Sorry about that.” He rubbed his hands on the towel in his hands before tossing it over his shoulder. He approached Madi first. “Madison?”
She was clearly awestruck, eventually shaking her head to accept her handshake. “Please, call me Madi, Mr. Hemsworth. It’s so nice to meet you.”
He waved her off and smiled. “Chris is fine.” That smile dimmed when his eyes landed on Jason. “Hello.”
Elysha grabbed his hand, giving a light squeeze. “Papa, this is Jason.”
“Nice to meet you, Jason,” Christopher forced, squeezing Jason’s hand tighter than necessary but just enough to get his message across. “You play any sports, mate?”
“No. I mean, yes--basketball.” He swallowed deeply, remembering something else. “I also surf as well, Chris.”
“Mr. Hemsworth will be fine,” he corrected.
Summer rolled her eyes and shoved him. “Pay him no mind. Ya’ll sit down and make yourselves comfortable.”
“I’m sure you already have, though.” Christopher joked, earning a glare from Summer. “Come on, babe. No one throws a party like the twins.” A beat. “Speaking of, I’d say we could give you a tour, but I’m sure you both already know your way around.”
“Ignore him,” Summer interjected, shooting him a glare. “He’s still upset that you kids are able to throw a party better than we ever could when we were your age.”
That seemed to alleviate more of Jason’s nerves. “You used to party, Mrs. Hemsworth?”
“Boy,” she laughed. “If you don’t call me Summer.” Elysha smiled up at him, giving him a slight squeeze of his hand. “And what do you mean used to?”
Madi was also fully invested in the conversation, her fangirling almost impossible to contain. “You really are even nicer in person.”
“Don’t be fooled. It’s all an act.” Christopher interjected, walking over to pull the chair out for her. He noticed how Jason did the same for Elysha, and of course, Emmett with Madi.
“Ignore him. He’s actually hired help.”
Summer and Christopher shared a look as he rolled his eyes while murmuring. “Cute.” Sitting in his own seat, he jumped into the questions. “So, kids, tell us about yourselves.”
Madi and Jason shared a look when he told her to go first. Again, something else Christopher noticed.
“Well, I’m a junior, an only child, and my dad is in the Navy--”
“So, your family is stationed here?” Summer surmised.
“Yes ma’am.” Christopher and Summer exchanged a look, but unlike the previous ones, this was not a warning from wife to husband. This one was of silent concern. Madi wasn’t an Australian native. She would eventually return to the states. Both mother and father quietly wondered if that was something Emmett was taking into consideration.
After briefly discussing the shared commonalities of having active duty family members, Christopher turned the question back to Jason. “And what about you, young man?”
Summer contained her sigh at the way his eyes widened before he tentatively spoke. “Well, sir--”
“Chris is fine.”
Both Summer and Elysha looked over at that last statement, Summer with a smirk and Elysha with a small smile. Chris looked at his daughter and shot her a wink.
Jason, to Summer’s happiness, seemed thrilled by the stripping of the formal address.
“I, well, my family is originally from Melbourne--”
“Melbourne native, eh?”
“Yes, sir. My, uh, dad got a job up here when I was eight, and we’ve been here ever since.”
“Any siblings?”
Jason chuckled. “Believe it or not, two. I’m the middle child.”
“Nothing wrong with that.” Christopher shrugged. “I’d say we’re the best.”
“Elysha and Madi.” Summer stood up and nodded to the kitchen. “Help me prepare the toss salad.”
“Yes ma’am.” Elysha also stood up and shot a reassuring look to Jason while Emmett gave one to Madi as well. As soon as the ladies were in the kitchen and the swinging doors shut, Summer released a sigh of relief. “Finally, that was too much testosterone.”
Madi laughed. “You and Mr--Chris are really nice, Summer.”
Elysha nodded and playfully bumped Madi with her hip. “Told you they were chill. Even my dad is being surprisingly nice to Jason.”
“Ladies, trust me, if Chris didn’t really like either of you, he would let you know. He’s just giving Jason a hard time because Elysha is his little girl. He’s always going to be protective.” She reached the bowl to Madi while speaking. “Just how I’m protective of my little boy.” Madi’s smile dimmed. “So you can imagine how proud I am to see his amazing taste in women.” She winked and laughed when Madi placed her hand over her chest.
She straightened up and spoke truthfully. “I really do like Emmett, Summer. He’s….he’s amazing.”
“He’s a jerk.”
“Shut it, Elysha,” Summer warned with a small head shake. “You know, Madi, you should join Lee and me on one of our spa days.”
Her jaw dropped. “A-are you serious?” She looked at Elysha who seemed just as thrilled by the idea of a spa day with her mom and good friend.
“Of course, and Emmett told me you’re in theater with Lee, so if you ever need any advice or have any questions, I’m always available.”
“I’m going to pass out.”
Summer laughed and gave Madi a side hug. “Welcome to the family, Ms. Madi.”
Just as Elysha and Madi shared excited squeals, Emmett stuck his head in the door.
“Mama, ya’ll almost done?”
“Boy, don’t rush us.”
He lifted his hands in surrender. “Sorry, mama, it’s just that Uncle Liam is here--”
“What?” She interrupted, hand on her hip. “What the hell is he doing here?”
“I don’t know, but dad just asked Jason how he feels about weekly, random drug tests.”
“Christopher!”
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“Ladies, Gentlemen, Enbies...HER--I mean Him? Or them?-- whatever, anyways here's the first part of my daydream paracosm, Humble Pie. I was really happy I was able to come up with the first part in a somewhat cohort manner. Part 2 is also going to follow this sometime soon, but after that its probably just gonna be short shorts, text exchanges, and or drabbles, but that first part’s finally a thing! And that’s cool”
“Also just reminder that this paracosm is set in a mix timeline, like people have flip phones, cassette tapes, but still also have stuff like gamer chairs, and slang like sus/lit exist, so I hope that doesn’t bother you..oof”
“Also I wrote this from my Remarkable, then convert it to text, and did some proof reading, but my handwriting is still can only be read by chickens and my dyslexia ninja has sneak 100 accuracy so..yeah
Word count: 6,115
TW: mention of Bullying, DeadBeat dad, Smoking, Drinking, Swearing (only for comedy’s sake tho’), Dissociation, Guilt (but don’t worry there’s still A LOT of fluff in this piece, tho)
Link to Alternate version on my off-site daydream blog: Humble pie part 1
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"Okay, here we go" Beau said, taking one last drag of his cigarette, and taking in one last look at the panoramic view of the town below, Newbury, his hometown, he was away for a year because of college which he dropped out of. Well, "dropout" made it seemed like he had a choice, more like he flunked out, there were' 'reasons that 'made college impossible for Beau, reasons that he couldn't get into or more like reasons he didn't want to get into, these were the some reasons that turned what was suppose to be a 5 hour drive into an 8 hour one, making him stop ever so often to the nearest park, overlook, or clearing to get out, smoke and or take a short walk. These stops were so frequent by the time he reached his hometown’s overlook he was on his last stick, hard to believe he started the trip w/ a full box.
He dropped the last of the remains of the cig on the ground and stomped out the glow ember with his dark brown rounded toed boot, watching the embers glow go out made him feel similar in a way.
Beau took one more last look at the small town below blanketed by the dark, light sky. He looked around. the overlook, bring back memories of. late night make outs, sneak outs and general teenaged shenanigans.
Beau remembers once on a night he was really buzzed, a rare event for him, drinking with his buddies, rather it was the buzz from the beer, or he was just 'riding the 'high off scoring the winning goal for the team, or general teen hormones. He felt invincible, so invincible he stood up on the ledge and proclaimed himself as king of the world
A moment Beau looks back at and shakes his head as if to try to erase the memory from his mind like an etch n’ sketch, suddenly he got a bad taste in his mouth or maybe that's just the cigarettes "King of world….yeah, right" Beau said pulling up the collar of his jacket and shrugging his hands into his pockets, and headed back into the car.
It was getting late and there was no use in stalling any longer, might as well continue to the inevitable. Stalling may be that’s the feeling that's been following him the whole time, stalling the fact that he would have to return to his hometown a failure after being touted and praised for being a star athlete , and getting into a ivy league school, a feat his mom was really proud since she herself couldn't go to college because of having Beau at such a young age, and having to deal with a bunch of other “BS” as Beau would put it.
Beau really wanted to make her proud by becoming a famous football player and make tons of money so she wouldn't ever have to worry about bills n 'stuff and live in the malibu dream house she dreamed of living in since she was a kid, a dream she would talk about to her children like it was fairytale during when time got real tough.Even though she sounded upbeat over the phone about the news, Beau knew his mom was an expert when it came to masking her disappointment and skill that was pretty integral with dealing Beau's birth father. He just hopes she's not too disappointed
As the twilight sky grew more dark the street lights flickered on. Familiar and nostalgic landmarks and structures rolled by as Beau drove by with one hand gripping the wheel while the other hand hung casually out of the rolled down window. the nighttime breeze gentle, tossing his cart dirty blond hair mullet. The 'murmur of punk music lighty playing from the car's speaker, that was playing louder earlier but the volume's quickly depleted because blasting punk 'music at night in a small town is pretty serious offensive a risk, a younger Beau would play around with, but now being older he knows better.
Driving into his old neighborhood, seemingly not much has changed, but what do you expect from a small town? The old neighborhood consisted of typical signatures of most middle upper class .. neighborhoods, Christmas ' decorations long over due to be taken down, manicured lawns, next to slightly less manicured lawns. Some lawns adored w/ gnomes and flamingos, a step up from the lawns of homes in his childhood neighborhood whose homes had what one could consider a lawn but just barely, Beau and his brother were lucky enough to have a sizable back yard and a tree house.
His family's lawn had a bunch of outdoor toys laid about on their lawn: a nerf gun, a pink tricycle, a tiled dyed color bouncy ball and an empty container of mega bubble wand. Beau drove up in the driveway being careful to not accidentally run over any of the toys in the yard.
He eject the mixtape from the player and put it into his jacket chest pocket. Beau leaned over and rummaged through the glove compartment fishing out a small travel can of axe's body spray and another small spray can of mouthwash, he used both to cover the scent of cigarette smoke, a smell his mother was highly sensitive to. He popped in a stick of spearmint for extra measure before getting out of the car and going to the trunk to retrieve his suitcase. Beau only had one suitcase since all the stuff really needed and cared about conveniently fitted in one suitcase.
Beau propped up his suitcase as he closed the trunk, the car beeped and blinked as he pressed the lock button. He headed up the pathway to the front door, his heart beating louder and louder with each step leading up to the front door.
Beau took a deep breath, Pulling himself together. "Okay" He said under his breath as his hand slowly reach for the knob but before he could even get a good grip, the door swung open, Beau's eyes raced up to see the thinning hair of a middle aged man, Beau eyes lowered a bit more to see the mustached clad face of the man the hair belonged to. "Hey, Big Boss! '' the mustache man said with a grin. The man was Beau's stepfather, David.
"Hello, David, I-I mean Dad." Beau awkwardly greeted his stepdad, trying his best not to show discomfort at his step dad's “nickname" for him.
"Ha, ha that's okay, son!”David laughed, giving Beau a hefty pat on the back.
"Here, let me get your bags." David said, reaching for Beau's suitcase, looking behind Beau expecting more bags
“You only brought one bag?" he questioned, looking curiously.
'--I like to be efficient" Beau muttered with a shrug and a side glance. "HAHA you and me both, Big B" David chuckled playful elbowing Beau, who gave a half-smile and a small chuckle--well, more like a slight nose huff
"Hey, honey Big B is home!" David shouted as Beau closed the front door.
His mother came rushing from the bedroom in her rose pink robe w/a barbie in insignia on the front with matching fuzzy slippers, her sandy blond hair still damp from the shower.
"My little boy, oh!" she said, warping Beau in a tight motherly embrace. "Welcome home!" Beau's mother pulled back for a second, cupping her son's face in her hands “you’re still so handsome"
"Wait..." Beau gently removed his mom's hands from his face "Are you okay, mom?" He asked his considerate brown eyes searching his mother's teal eyes for any sign of distress.
"Of course, sweetie," his mom beamed. "I have all of my loved ones under one roof. What's more to ask?"
it's just that I didn't- Y-you know." Beau said with downcast eyes
"Oh, that" his mom said wide eyes and then shaking her head in dismissed
"Don't worry about not finishing college, I mean just look at me"
“But You just seemed so proud that I got in, I just didn't want to let you down"
“Sweetie, it's fine," his mom said, gently guiding his head up with her hand to look at him "I was not proud that-You were becoming the smart, sweet kind young man, I always knew you were, but now. I'm just happy that you’re here and I get to see you go. on the journey myself!" Beau chuckled tightly and blushed at his mom's admiration.
"Plus, Your mom's not the only one who is happy to have You home!” David said, gesturing towards the hallway. Beau looked to see a small figure peeking from the corner, the figure quickly disappeared followed by an overflow of giggles.
A smile slowly creeped across Beau's face, he slowly kneeled down. " "Gasp * Is that my little care bear?"
From the shadows totted out, a little girl dressed in a blue care bear patterned nightgown, her blonde hair tied up in pigtails, she grasped a love-a-lot bear in one arm while her other arm was open as she raced towards Beau, also with arms wide open for a hug "Bo-Bo"
"Hey, care bear!" Beau cooed as he picked up his little sister "Wow, You've gotten so big since the last time I saw you!
"Carrie's been asking when you were coming since you told us you were coming home "David stated
"Really?"
"Yep!'' Carrie nodded proudly "You still have the love-a lot bear I won at grad night". Beau vividly remembers winning Love A Lot and his friends making fun of him, but Carrie really appreciated it more than he thought.
"Yeah, she takes it with her everywhere!" mom emphasized “Thank god, the kindergarten has a security blanket policy!
"Aww..." Beau said fondly looking at Carrie, who had her head resting on his shoulder, still grasping love a lot.
Beau thought for a moment and looked around "wait, where Dev?"
"Oh" mom said putting her hand on her head with a semi sigh "He's been going through... things"
"Teenager things: David specified "He's the big one three now.. "
“Don't worry, I can talk to him!”Beau said, confidently, slowly nodding his head
. Carrie lets out a small yawn "Aw, you sleepy, care bear?" Beau asked as Carrie rubbed her eyes
"It's past her bedtime, but she really wanted to see you," Mom said, stroking Carrie's hair. "Is someone ready for the sleep shuttle'?" Beau asked Carrie, looking at her in her sleepy hazel eyes, she nodded in response
"Alright, Here we go!" Beau held Carrie in both hands placing his arms out in front of him, he kneeled down and started counting down. "3…..2...1. Blast off!"
Beau shot Carrie in the as he stood back up. As he moved towards Carrie's bedroom, he moved all around side to side, up and down while making spaceship sounds, Carrie was giggling all the way through.
"Incoming! "Beau shouted as he swooshed Carrie round a few more times before landing her swiftly on the bed.
"Huston, the eagle. has landed!." Beau said, holding his ear as if he had an earpiece "Not eagle! Bear!" Carrie stated holding up her care bear "correction, the "BEAR" has landed!" Beau correcting himself, bringing a huge smile to her face as she nuzzled her care bear
"Okay, night, right, care bear" Beau said patting carries head
"Wait!" Carrie said holding on to her brother's arm "Is Bo-Bo still gonna be here in the Morning?""Of course, I'm not going anywhere at least for a while.." "Beau said, kneeling down to Carrie's eye level.
"Okay, I like having Bo-Bo around:'' Carrie said "and I like being around" Beau said, "see you in the morning, care bear" Beau gives Carrie a good night kiss on the forehead.
She settles into bed as Beau closes the door. Beau grinned to himself, feeling lucky to have such a cute sister. He remembers when Devin was that little, speaking of Dev. Beau apphoraced Dev's bedroom door. The door was caution tape, Don't enter signs, with a please knock before entering sign.
At first Beau did think about knocking but then thought "I could be a respectful older brother respect the sign or I could have fun and be a little shit. He pondered about it for a minute then-"yeah, I'm gonna be a little shit.”
Beau took a card out his wallet and wedged it in between the door to jimmied the lock. He peeked through the door to see Dev playing a video game on the tv. "you little..." Beau said under his breath, before bombastically opening the door "Hey there, squirt!" Beau said, shoving the door open
"Didn't you read the sign?!" Dev said as he turned around in his gamer chair in both shock-and annoyance
"Wow, that's a pretty warm welcome to give your older brother you haven't seen in a year!" Beau snarked, pretending to look hurt'' "Nice to see you too!"
"Oh my god!" Dev said, rolling his eyes and turning his chair back to tv, bringing his attention back to the game.
"and here I thought you were working on a project or homework or some school shit!" Beau continued "but no, you're just sitting here playing one of your little nerd games"
"Oh my god, can't you just leave!" Dev groaned as he hunching closer to the tv.
"You couldn't at least say "Hi" " Beau said now standing right behind Dev gamer chair
Dev raised and waved his hand half-heartedly and flatly said "hi"
"Well, damn I feel loved," Beau said sarcastically. "aren't you at least gonna look at me?" shaking the gaming chair a bit to gain an ounce of his little brother’s attention.
“ I saw you "Kool aid man" into my room. Is that enough?" Dev said still focusing on the game Beau sighed, then got an idea "Dev! Dev! I think there's something wrong with my heart I think I gonna-ugh!" He said staggering forward a bit before falling in Dev's lap, knocking out the game controller out of Dev's hands.
"Come on! I was in the middle of battle!" Dev whined looking at his brother playing dead
"Get off of me!" Dev go armed as he tried to push beau off with no luck
"Come on, Beau!" He gored in frustration “I know you're not dead! I can still feel your heartbeat..."
Get up!" Beau remained still, Dev rolled his eyes; he knew the exact words to get his brother off his back or in this case lap.
"Big brother, can you please get off of me n Dev utter begrudgingly "Aw, you haven't call me ‘Big brother’ in years" Beau chimed with a smile, finally getting up "I'm still kind of hurt, that you cared about your gaming progress than the well being for your one and only big brother"
"You were still breathing, I could literally see you inhaling and exhaling." Dev clarified rubbing his forehead
"Touche, I guess" Beau said he then directed Dev's chair in front his bed," now that I have your attention"
"Okay, I guess I should say sorry since you couldn't and say "hi" to me because you were too busy saving some elf princess, or some anime chick with huge melons"
"I-H-Hey I don't even play those types of games!" Dev argued blushing
" .-sure you "don't'." Beau taunted with a wink, Dev goanned "Anyways, Anyways you don't have to say "hi",; but you could at least not talk to me"
Beau suggested, shrugging. "I guess" Dev mumbled kind of sinking into his chair "cool, so how's life?" Beau started, trying to start a diagoul "okay"
"How's school?"
"Okay"
"How’re your friends?"
"Okay"
"Got a girlfriend?"'
"NO”
"Got a boyfriend?"
N-NO"
"Got any crushes"
“….NO…..."
"joined any clubs or any other after school junk?"
" ..... NO..."
"Are you just gonna answer all my questions in one word?"
Dev fell quiet, and shifted his gaze from his brother
“Okay, that's it!" Beau huffed, he picked up Dev and hoasted him over his shoulder "Hey! put me down!" Dev-shouted , beating his fists on Beau's back "Not until you talk to me like an actual person, and one worded answers aren't gonna cut it, squirt!"
"MOM! Dad!"
"Mom and Dav-Dad are fast asleep, and you know they both sleep like rocks!" Beau stated'' the only person you'll wake up is Carrie, and You don't want to wake little care bear, now do YOU?"
Dev fell Quiet again, "You know I can hold you like this for hours, you aren't really that heavy, or you can just end this and talk to me" Beau suggested ending the suggestion with a sigh and started to stomp his foot impatiently..
Dev continued the silent treatment for a bit until letting out a meek "Okay...I'll try" .
Hey, three words, that's a start!" Beau cheekly commented,He sat Dev back down in his green gamer chair.
"Okay, do over!" Beau said casually sitting across from Dev and his bed. "so, how's school going?" "F-fine” Beau gave Dev a intense look, reminding Dev of his word count “N-no, I mean it's just weird" Dev stuttered choosing his words carefully, Dev fiddled with his hoodie sleeves.
"and it's weird because..." Beau initiated, gesturing his hand toward encouraging Dev to continue "It's weird because.... I don't know, Middle school is way different than 'elementary school, I mean I knew that from tv, but middle school isn't like tv."
"It's okay, nothing like tv, that thing lies” Beau softly chuckled to himself and continued “I remember thinking Pogo sticks were the SHIT-cuz 'of people and cartoons on tv made it look so easy"
"I finally got enough money for one-- you were like little you probably don’t remember this-- but I was SO HYPED, I wanted mom to watch me. I took one hop, fell on my ass, and never hopped on that bitch again. I was pissed, I think mom was trying to her best not to laugh but I was so pissed I think I didn’t notice until now. I chucked the pogo stick in the garage, and I never looked at that bitch again”
Dev let out a stiff laugh, the defensive wall Dev put was slowly breaking
"Oh WAIT WAIT!” Beau said taking a moment to correct himself “ That WASN’T the last time the last time I looked that bitch, I fished it out of garage years later, only cuz’ I need some money for Madden. So, I did look at that bitch one more time, but only to sell that bitch.”
Dev let out a more audible laugh, but quickly caught himself and recollected, returned to his disillusioned teenage state.
"Anyway, The teacher's are kind of weird, like a lot of them hate my guts already, except for the coaches who are super nice to me." Dev explained, kind of looking away from his brother
"Weird, why do you think that is?" Beau asked whole hearty
"Because I'm related to you, Numb skull!" Dev blunted , groaning putting his hand on his forehead
"Oh damn, I guess that's my fault." Beau realized, rubbing the back of his neck "My bad. that my awesomeness is just lengardy"
Dev shook his head and rolled his eyes "It's not awesome to live in YOUR shadow!" Dev sulked, sinking back into his chair, his hands covering his face.
"You don't have to follow in my awesomeness, I know I'm a hard act to follow." Beau boasted teastingly so"You just gotta make your own awesomeness."
"What does that even mean?" Dev questioned, moving his hands down, allowing his eyes to peek through his fingers, trying not to given the urge to roll his eyes
"It's like my awesomeness comes from my boyish charm and good looks..." Beau claimed, striking an award winning smile, The urge not to roll his eyes was becoming even hard for Dev, but he still had to try and respect Beau "But your awesomeness could come from being good at games, or computers shit or math or robots or something--I don't know something real nerdy"
"I guess, you're right" Dev mumbled and shrugged,lifting himself up back into a sitting position rather than almost spilling out of his chair.
"Its not a guess, its science!" Beau declared proudly, tapping his temple with his index finger
"No,that's not science!" Dev arguing his brother's stupidity, flatly shaking his head in disagreement
"See, there you go using your nerd awesomeness" Beau pointed out with a wink "Keep that up and you'll go from Beau's lil bro, to just ‘Dev’ in no time." Beau playful tousled Devs mop dirty blonde hair
"I mean.." Dev continued batting his brother's hand away, "I was also thinking of joining the video game club or the robotics club at school."
"There you go another nerdy thing that to add to your own awesomeness" Beau said
"Yeah...." Dev continued ignoring his brother's comment' “Some of my friends are thinking about joining, and it would be a nice place to go away from mom and dad."
"I had sick memories of hanging out with the team, we got into some wild shit." Beau said laughing to himself, fondly reminiscing "But I'm sure you and you geek squad could have "wild" times too, like making an anime robot 'weify." or whatever those called or finding a new math formula or something"
Dev fell quiet for another moment, Beau always seems like he’s in between being supportive and subtly roasting him, Dev then uttered "um... I think I kind of have a crush... on a girl..."
"AYE, let's go! "Beau exclaimed, clapping and shaking Dev's chair for a bit before bouncing back on the bed'' Come on, don't leave me hanging, what's her name? "Have you talked to her vet? Have you asked her out? Have-"
"Calm down!" Dev demanded "I said I had a crush, I didn't say we’re going out.'"
"Oh, so you haven’t talked to her, huh?”
"No, I-I don't even know her name" Dev huffed, he let his arms slip into his oversize sleeves and covered his sleeves with his face in frustration.
"You know you could just ask, not the chick, like just ask around"
"I can't do that because if I do, people will find out I like her and if she finds out, I would just have to stop going to school!”
"Okay, let’s just pretend you DO have the balls to talk to this girl, what's the worst that could happen?" Beau suggested
"She finds out that I like her, thinks I'm weird and never wants to talk to me again or even look at me!” Dev muffled through his sleeved covered face
"You really think she can sus that out all in one go!" Beau said "I mean she is a middle Schooler unless she's like a young nancy drew, she is not going to chew you up and spit out like that." Beau explained "speaking of which''
Beau paused for a moment to spit out his gum into the trash can "Score!"
"Anyways, have you done anything weird to her or around her?"
"No, I mean I look at her in the hallways before and in between class, but I don't like-- stalk her or anything too weird." Dev mumbled, moving his sleeves from his face, but his head was still targeted down at his fingers fiddling with a tag on his black shorts
"So, then what's the fear?" Beau inquired, resting his chin on the heel of his palm
Dev thought for a moment, his eyes shifting looking for an answer." I-I guess I just don't know how to talk to her."
"Well, fuck, that's easy" Beau chuckled “Just talk about school shit, or just say "hi"
"Is it really that easy?"
"Yeah, if you have the balls for it" Beau reiterated "Think about it like this, the dudes you play in your little nerd games have to fight a dragon, a demon or some anime witch with huge melons to talk to the girl they like and they er brave enough to do all of that wacky shit. But you’re lucky, you don't have a dragon for real in your way to keep you talking from your crush. The dragon's just in your head! If those hero dudes can fight dragons they actually can see, doesn't that mean you can fight a dragon you don't even see."
"That was a really lame and kind of confusing metaphor" Dev sassed " But I guess understand what your trying to say"
"Exactly" Beau said nodding confidentiality
"Can we talk about mom and dad?" Dev asked sheepishly, looking up at his brother, (well as much as he could with his shaggy bangs in the way), his fingers now toying with his hoodie strings
"Did something happen?"
"No, I mean yeah, I mean it's just weird" Dev said "Mom and dad are starting to get more annoying but I don't know if they were always like that or they like charged"
"No, parents don't really change-usually” Beau explained “It's just that being a teenager makes you hypersensitive to a bunch of shit and makes you wanna be alone more. Parents, the good ones like spending time with their kids and they actually want quality time n' shit and that's where they start to get annoying".
“"Oh okay,” Dev nodded.'' It's just weird because sometimes I feel like I hate them, but I don't want to. I think I just really want to be alone more like you said but I don't want to shut them out, I just want them to get that." Dev-fiddles with the strings of his green hoodie
"Yeah, I think they do in a weird old people kind of way. Believe it or not they were teenagers to even if that was back in the stone age n' shit" Beau joke"
Dev let out an actual laugh, a sign to Beau that he's little bro was being less of a moody teenager
"Anyway, even with that said mom and david-I mean dad aren't mind readers, it would be cool if you give them a heads up, you don't have to tell them all about what's going on in your little teen nerd brain but at least something simple like something weird or funny that happened at school, or asking for help on homework or a project for class or some shit like that, I'm pretty sure Dav-dad would love that.."
"I guess I could try". Dev said slightly nodding his head "But Carrie is kind of weird too!
"How can Carrie be weird, she's 5.” Beau scoffed "she doesn't do anything weird really"
Dev added" it's just sometimes she's regular cute and other times she's annoyingly cute if that makes sense"
"I mean like kind of get what you're saying but "Beau shrugged gesturing his hand toward prompting Dev to continue
"Like I still look out for her because she little, but because she's little that means I have to do dumb stuff like look for monsters under her bed or do that sleep shuttle thing you do, but I can't really do it because my arms give out halfway through and she's heavier than she looks."
"Well, little brothers and sisters are annoying, it's kind of their job, trust me I know from experience" Beau: put his hand on Dev's knee, Dev tried to Swat at it but Beau quickly put his hand back with a smirk.
"But like with mom and da-David just cuz she's annoying doesn't mean You can’t look out for her n stuff"
"I guess, its because lately, it seems like'' Dev paused 'for a beat, his hands hard gripping the strings of his hoodie, before continuing" I don't know mom and dad have been paying more attention to her than me"
A mischievous smile creeps across his face. "AW does someone miss being the baby?"'
"Oh, fuck! I knew you 'er gonna say that!" Dev blurted out, feeling really exposed, he pulled his hoodie strings allowing his head to be consumed by his hoodie, all but his nose.
"Hey! language,” Beau said, surprised at his little brother's reaction those harsh words coming out of the mouth of small boy sporting a Yoshi hoodie
"You cuss' all the time!" Dev huffed pulling his hoodie back down, then crossing his arm definitely
"Yeah, but I'm older than you, and if mom and David--DAD hear you curse they’er gonna know you got it from me and won't get off my ass about it!"
Dev stared at his brother, simmering in frustration in failing to coming up w/a good come back or a flaw in his brother's logic, He let out a heavy sigh and resumed "Anyways, it's NOT like I miss being the baby, I just miss being able to hold their attention without Carrie coming in and stealing them anyway, I don't know its weird"
"Wait, did you just say that you wanted to be alone and away from mom and David-fuck. I'm not even gonna try more-he's asleep anyways." giving up any attempt to make the word "Dad" same with the name "David"
"Yeah, I know that's what makes it weird!" Dev admitted, he sulked back deeper into his chair and let out a groan.
"You know Carrie's not awake all the time, maybe you can talk to mom and David, when she goes down for her nap, hell, I could just take her to the park for a day." Beau offered
"You'd really do that for me?" Dev peeped, quickly lifting himself up in a sitting position, surprised at his brother kind offer
"Yeah, anything to make you less of a weird angsty shut in, with a bunch of cringy keep out signs and keep out tape!" Beau gestured towards the door
"Actually, I got that caution tape from a real crime scene" Dev clarified, with a smug smile
"Really?" Beau taking a longer closer look at the door
"No, thick head, I found it in a dumpster next to party city!"
"You go dumpster diving?" Beau said, raising an eyebrow
"I have a life outside of YOU!" Dev stated proudly
"Okay, and on that... Weird garbage goblin flex, sibling bonding time is over." Beau said getting up from the bed and heading for the door
"Actually, one more thing..." Beau said quickly, turning around, rushing towards Dev, putting him into a headlock.
"Did ya miss me? Come on, tell me that you missed me!" Beau taunted as he gave his brother a long and through noogie "Ouch, Ow, Ow, Okay, okay, I missed You. Geez:" Dev pleaded trying to struggle out of his brother's grip
"That's what I wanted to hear!" Beau said with a smirk, letting 'Dev go.
"Ugh! my hair" Dev fumed , gawking at his even more messy mop of hair.
"Like you care about appearances" Beau chuckled" mop top nerd!"
"Mullet-hair metal meathead!"
"Ouch, that was pretty good" Beau teased pretending to look hurt "Garbage Goblin"
"You already-"Dev started but was cut off by Beau closing the door
"Too late, the door is closed, I can't hear you, which means I win!" Beau said through the door, laughing at his brother's muffled fury of frustration.
Beau grinned relishing in the absolute confusion of his younger brother, but that good vibe quickly faded once he arrived at the door to his old bedroom. He just stood there and stared at the door for a bit, he could feel the icky stew of the emotions from bubbling back up again.
He flexed his hand a few times as if this was the first time he's ever pored a door, Beau's hand reached for the door handle before retracted as if the knob was red hot.
Beau sheepishly looked around as if somebody was watching him, no one was but it sure did feel like it. He considered sleeping on the couch, but that would be weird, since it seemed like his step dad put his luggage in his room. so, eventually he would have to go into his room anyway.
Beau took a deep breath. "Come on, it's just a door, dude!" He told himself Beau's hand rested on the door knob, he took another deep, his hand gained a stronger grip, and he slowly pushed the door open, Beau carefully entered the room as he closed the door behind him. Looking around the room was plaster with posters of football players and a few pinups of doe-eye, sensual women in swimsuits and other scantily clad outfits.
Athletic medals, trophies and awards displayed proudly on his bookshelf that lacked any actual books, those trophies stood next to pictures of Beau with his teammates, all illuminated by the moon's dull pale blue light. These relics of what felt like a bygone era used to fill Beau with so much pride and joy but looking at them now just leaves a bad taste in his mouth.
He could barely even recognize himself in those photos. This whole room felt like a shrine or more like a tomb to someone who no longer exists.
Looking at all this stuff just made the icky feelings from before rise up to the back of his throat making the bad taste linger even longer.
Beau couldn't really pin what-these feelings were, so he shifted his focus on just getting some sleep
As he thought, Beau's step dad put his luggage on his bed. He opened his bag and quickly changed into a white tank top and some grey sweatpants. He fished out the mix tape from his jean jacket and put into the gray clucky music player on his nightstand. Beau turns the music up loud enough for him to hear but not loud enough for disturb anyone else. Heavy metal music (ironally) helped him sleep on hard nights.
Beau laid in bed focusing on the one spot in his room that wasn't decorated with high school memorabilia. Focusing on that spot was way better than focusing on the icky feelings from earlier. All he needed to was focus on sleep just sleep, Beau closed his eyes and tried to focus on just sleep.
The next time Beau opened his eyes, he was back in the hallway of his highschool. Beau looked around confused why he was back here but before he could really sus out the situation, his thoughts were interrupted by a loud thud. He followed the sound of the thud that led to a scene of a bespectacled student being shoved up against the lockers. The student's face contorted by fear.
"P-please, d-don't hurt me. "the student uttered, the words quivering as it left his lips.
"Aww, look at him, guys." a familiar voice said, Beau couldn't see whom the voice belonged to. There was a strange mist in the hallway that obscured the person's face.-
"He's scared." the voice said mockly, the person nodded towards a group of people whose faces were also obscured by the mist, they laughed in response
“Don't worry, little buddy, I'm not gonna hurt ya:" the person taunted as he tightened his grip on the student and shoved his body up against the failing student. "As long as you don't squeal" .
"You squeal, and I'll fry you like the pig you are, got it. Swine?"
"I-I p-promise I W-won't. J-just please let me go!" the student begged
Beau was disturbed by scene happening before him, but along with the feel of disgust came a feeling of familiarity, like he's been there before
Just then the fog lift to reveal the face of a younger version of Beau dawned in his red “New Burny High school” letterman jacket. He was smirking relish in the fear he was inflicting on the poor student.
Older Beau slowly back up, almost stumbling as he was coming to the realization of the origin of all those icky feelings from before
"I don't know, do we trust him, guys?" Younger beau asked cocking his head back to his teammates, who shook their head in disagreement "The Boys and I don't seem very sure of that, I think I'm gonna have to test your loyalty !" Younger Beau winded up his arm for a punch, But before his fist could make an impact.
Beau found himself back in his room in a cold sweat, hyperventilating as quickly rose from his bed. His room, still illuminated by the moonlight, with the metal mix tape softly playing in the background. He looked at his hand as if they were lethal weapons. How could I do such a thing?
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