POV: you're a 13-year-old girl in 2005

The outcome of the survival horror protagonist battle royal, fully depends on IF everyone knows they NEED to shot Alan Wake before he gets to his typewriter, or not.

Horror Game Protagonist Bracket: Round 2 Match 12

Hi, Barbie!

Hi, Ken!

I'M NOT DEPRESSED. EVERYONE PLAYS HORROR GAME BARBIES

And we fly Fly into outer space We'll float away I float away, but you're my gravity And we die Die to love another day We rise again We rise again and lose our gravity

F.E.R.N

Request. Mother.

F.E.A.R. (2005, Monolith Productions)

Another one of my top 10 games, F.E.A.R. will likely forever be undefeated as one of the best and most satisfying FPS' of all time. The visceral gunplay and incredibly impressive AI are still undefeated today (imo) and make the game infinitely replayable.

Honestly I’d like to see the F.E.A.R. franchise rewritten with a modern lens and also maybe by a woman.

Alma’s scariness doesn’t come from the shock of what she can do. It’s not just because she can vaporise an army by looking at them that makes her scary. It’s not that she’s a feral animal, it’s that she’s a prey animal.

Alma Wade is the personification of prey animal rage. She’s a little girl with remarkable power who was tortured, experimented on, impregnated and killed before she was even fully aware of what had happened to her.

“She’s a woman now, and she doesn’t even know it.” She’s incapable of differentiating friend from foe because there’s never been a single friend, and even when she’s reaching out for help she has no control over the pain and rage causing her psychic abilities to go out of control.

She’s a feral prey animal who has no idea she’s even dead. Who has no clue she’s free. Who just wants to escape and get her children back, the only piece of reality she knows that was stolen from her. Fuck the rape subplot — make it so that she was pregnant already when they killed her and the baby survived the same way she did. Then you can still have the plot of F3AR without reducing a woman who by all intents and purposes shouldn’t even know what sex is to a rape-ghost for some free shock points.

💕 Happy Valentine's Day~ 💕

For @hushitisme 🩷

Any/all of D,L,M,N you're inclined to answer :)

D: What’s the most personal fanfic you’ve written?

Hard to say, honestly. Beacon of Hope is pretty self-indulgent. A lot of my fics have personal touches: things like gender and disability tend to be inspired in part from my own uncertainties.

L: Which of your fanfics was the most emotionally challenging to write?

Mother Destroyer was a difficult one to write. So imagine a little girl with psychic powers, imagine her being experimented on. But because she's too powerful to control, they put her in a coma. When she's 15 or so, they decide to use her to create psychic super soldiers because psychic abilities might be genetic. She wakes just in time to both realize she has two sons and see them taken away. Next time she wakes up, they are the same age she was at the start; she tries to connect to one telepathically and it causes a breakdown that ends in a murder spree; her life support is turned off and she dies. Except very powerful psychics create very powerful ghosts. Imagine that ghost child stuck with her rage and stunted growth and just simmering in it for 20 years. Anyway Alma Wade is tragic and scary and it was fascinating writing from her perspective.

Gift fit for a King is also challenging (don't worry I haven't forgotten about it) because both Holland and Vortalis are in worse places emotionally than they are in their first canon meeting.

N: Any fic ideas brewing that you’d care to share?

So Beacon of Hope is set during Vortalis' reign, right? It's going to end before his assassination so some story threads are going to be left dangling. So I have some ideas for a few one shots for that period between the Danes takeover and main canon. Holland will be clinging to whatever sense of agency he can before that gets beaten down.

I do also have an idea for modern au fic where Holland is the Danes' new foster brother and Athos is a creep about it but not blatant enough for Holland to recognize all the red flags.

emos how we feeling

Alma and Sachiko haunt an art gallery.

You know how in F.E.A.R, sometimes when enemies die, they let off a burst of post-mortem gunfire? Well, the Minigun Heavies from the Extraction Point expansion can do that too.

「Have No F.E.A.R., Trepang² is Here.」

I’m glad throwback shooters have progressed to the point where we’re starting to receive 6th gen throwback shooters. Trepang² is an amazing send-up to the original F.E.A.R. that captures the visceral action of the original while also having a few twists of its own. In addition to the perfect gunplay and slow-mo, you get additions to your kit such as sliding into enemies opening them up for attacks and hold-ups/throws that can create openings for you. From the brutality to the potential collateral, it feels like an honest progression of what the original would have become if it were allowed to continue. Even in tough encounters where I was constantly brutalized, my smile never wavered. The plot isn’t a major focus, but it’s got some cool beats and lines sprinkled in from your teammates and antagonists, so it’s not wasted effort either.

If you like the original F.E.A.R. at all and you somehow haven’t played Trepang² yet, I’d strongly advise fixing that. It’s to F.E.A.R. as DUSK was to Quake, a send-up that elatedly wears its inspirations on its sleeve while also coming fully into its own.