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osteocupcake · 1 year

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OK, so I understand that white medical doctors, particularly men are trying to target African-Americans, particularly men and to the left we have well it’s complicated. you see orthodox crosses

Or you see, whatever you see, you know what I don’t know what you see, but it doesn’t really matter. Certainly I can see little checker marks on my arm.

I don’t disagree with some of that, but I don’t agree with a lot of it because what about the innocent man? What about the people who are not Sidney?

Jokers, ha, ha, ha

It’s all fun and games until some guy comes over here from Egypt or Greece or wherever the hell that dudes from I don’t know if some island off of wherever Corsica shit

And then they say, do you know Rebecca I don’t know anything about Corsica

Do you know Dr. William J Travis I don’t give a rats ass if you know about Corsica because you are a low class provincial piece of trash

And then Dr. Bryan is like that girl is stalking me. Are you fucking serious? Motherfucker, that girl doesn’t even drive a car how the fuck is that girl stalking you she’s not you’re not that important. Motherfucker you’re a doctor and your job is to be a fucking doctor.

Also, Dr. Brian, you don’t have enough personality for me to try to gather up your little personality bits so that I’ll be the next to you. I don’t need anything from you and your throat chakra it’s being affected because you don’t know how to speak your own goddamn truth.

Dr. Brian wants to be Rebecca Cooper and then say Rebecca Cooper is a narcissist with delusions of grandeur.

That’s not true and he’s picking on somebody who is currently disabled, because really with the cervical radiculopathy which can be proven. Of course, there’s all kinds of pressure and it’s really causing a lot of cranial disturbance.

And I’ll tell you something else Dr. Brian you’re gonna be in heavy heavy hit with the police because I’ll tell you police officers don’t like when people like you lie it is very very insulting. I don’t lie to the police generally you know.

That one cop I said listen here I’m a tourist. He’s like right right I should not have done that. No you really should not have done that but you did that so I have this magical power where I make friends with the bad guy because there are a lot of advantages to doing so well. I’m so glad that you’re in.

We better get these doctors fixed up because the narcissistic abuse is really really heavy officer

Call Dr. Brian, are you serious?

Lol yeah but if I call him that’s harassment right because he’s going to take one phone call and say that that is harassment because he called the police on me. Yeah like there was cranial pressure and I can tell you right now that is the absolute truth.

It’s a lot of nerve damage. It’s like it makes you very flighty. That’s very very frustrating.

But I suppose, if the United States Marines tells me to make that phone call well I’m gonna have to ask a couple of questions first General Tso and cell

John Rigney what do you know about all that shit? Motherfucker, I’m not taking orders from you anyway motherfucker I will sooner take orders from Dr. Ken but even though I’m not gonna take any fucking orders how do you you know what that’s why I am the empress so if Dr. Bryan wants to say I have delusions of grandeur I said you’re just jealous you are!

The cops are like no you’re right Rebecca you’re right that doctor is probably very jealous. Well I can’t clean up the medical crisis by myself and since they don’t wanna treat me for this dang radiculopathy it’s ridiculous right and then the ER doctor wanted to put heat on me and say that I needed to go to a mental institution because I’m a human trafficking victim.

Oh, blow it out your ass hole, Dr., so-and-so fuck you jealous whores

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aq2003 · 6 months

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i'll start drafting long posts talking about how some people overblow ten's ego/arrogance especially dw dudebros who ignore his guilt/depression/trauma and how his thinking of regeneration as death has less to do with him super really loving being Dweeb Alien David Tennant and more to do with him not wanting to move on from the deep love and grief that has defined his identity . and then i will not post these drafts because i do not want to be more annoying about ten than i already am

#like i so so deeply do not want to come off as one of those 'stop criticizing him! hes traumatized :(' ppl but also are you guys like #even considering the fact hes traumatized at all #how a full season is dedicated to how his ptsd affects him and his relationship with martha #and how him trying so hard to push his feelings down and not let himself be helped ends up deeply hurting martha too #i really do feel like people forgo this and instead subscribe to. like.#'it's like he had a bad breakup w his girlfriend and gets a new girlfriend and treats her like garbage bc he doesn't really love her'#rather than 'it's like his gf died and hometown exploded and he doesn't know if he should even have a friend and accept their attempts #to help him through his grief because he's afraid he'll lose them like he's lost everything else. But also he cant survive on his own so #he will drip feed himself human connection while not considering how unfair this is to the friend involved that he doesnt know loves him'#this isn't even touching on his suicidal tendencies in s3. like god #dr who #Uh oh i read this post and these tags over and looks like i AM being annoying about ten once again. its not my fault he's worms in my head #10 era

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lucyvaleheart · 5 months

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#sigh. another vent post....#almost getting tired of making these but. I'm just.... I just don't really have much else I can do without botherin people #uh pretty big trigger warning for this one BTW #don't read on if you're low on spoons and whatnot. genuinely it's fine and I will be fine I always am #but like. yknow. when shit sucks it fucking sucks #anyway. uh. I just can't stand the idea that I might be bothering someone #so at least this way my stupid cries for help have a possibility of getting me some without making any specific #person feel obligated. yknow? maybe you see the post maybe you don't #Maybe you don't read all the way maybe you do. either way you can choose if you have the spoons to reach out #without feeling guilty either way. I hope.#.......i kind of want to fucking kill myself again #.....it used to be a much rarer thought. and I used to be much less struck by intense loneliness and longing like this #but I just feel so fucking needy. so desperate for attention and love and it hurts so much if I don't get it #and like. it's realistically nobody's fault but my own yknow... i need to ask for it more. i know that. i just suck at it #and then I can't ask. so I don't get attention. and in turn I feel neglected. secondary. like I'm not anyone's primary focus #and it just fucking hurts so much and it's just my own damn fault and I don't know how to fix it.#......i do. I need therapy I need meds or something. that's the answer here really #picked out a psychiatrist. need to call and make an appointment. but adhd and executive function and anxiety (that last one I need meds for)#mean it's very hard to both remember and then actually perform the task of calling the fucjing Dr #......believe me I'm trying.....like fuck I'm trying so hard.... and I started bawling having seen sparkles and ms robot girl reblog that #post from me about letting prev know you're proud of them. bawled when quinn called me cutie last night. bawled when #ginny said they wished they were here.... fuck me I do too I want to be the focus of someone's attention so so so so badly #fuck #...............it's redundant to say at this point a second time but. goddess above its a little scary how much I wanna kill myself #........sigh #....anyway. please do not feel obligated to respond to this in any way. do what you got the spoons for.#thank you for even reading all of this shit if you've gotten this far. i love you deeply and with all my heart. I'll be fine I promise #won't act on it no matter how strong the feeling is. just.....hurts in the meantime. but I'll be ok. I promise #................fuck. im going back to bed

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akagamiko · 6 months

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here's my hot take as a shanks appreciator & a buggy stan: bro buggy's the one who left shanks! 😭

#shanks standing in the rain after getting totally abandoned by the very last person that he had left #and that's AFTER buggy screamed at him about being a coward!! and then ran off yelling about how he never forgave him #like this was a totally messy scenario and buggy was clearly SO hurt by shanks not wanting to go to laugh tale right away #but he literally said 'i've changed my mind FOR NOW'#everyone making 15 y/o shanks out to be a jerk/EVIL over it #they were literal children but bugs idolized shanks SO much that he really thought shanks was gonna be king of the pirates in like a WEEK #have always felt like shanks is very in touch with his humanity and all these aspects of being human #but especially with the celestial dragon possibilities i feel like shanks wouldn't like that buggy put him on a pedestal because he's alway #seen he and buggy as being equals & wouldn't like being above everyone else #tl;dr: poppy is sad about shanks & the shuggy break up again :(#i know buggy is everyone's baby girl now (valid) but they were both victims in the break up scene okay!!!#buggy's hurt was valid but he overreacted a bit lbr and shanks didn't betray buggy by not wanting to go get the one piece immediately!!!#ANWYAY....i'm normal thanks :) esp after chapter 1082

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unproduciblesmackdown · 3 months

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truly something that, amidst facing / going through a dramatic Life Change ft. unavoidable emotional effects of that, there are instances where i can't conceal any & all degrees of being distressed / upset, & repeatedly getting "it's hard for me too" as a Direct Response to that: really something & a half how the asserted theoretical Sympathy of [i feel similarly!] is invoked so as to, oh you know, preclude sympathetic Treatment. such as that what would be More sympathetic in these instances would be to say Nothing, "if there's nothing but dismissal / making it first & foremost about someone else's feelings to say, don't say it at all" style

#reading also that original Lovelessness essay ''love is meant to make me human / love is also the mechanism by which my humanity #has been denied'' always preferring to have [sorry! couldn't fully bottle up this Emotiona externally manifesting at all!] Ignored rather #than ''nicely'' interacted with so as to Invalidate; Dismiss; someone's annoyed at you for having it; etc #for bonus context like we are not in the same boat with it.#not a case of ''the same situation; mine is worse though'' like no; fundamentally different situations here lmao. mine is worse #If You Feel So Bad. Or At All. then at least now do me the favor of Not Saying That; Repeatedly #their feelings put on me too in other ways. stewing resentment into lashing out; tossing out ''but i'm justified'' like ok! Your business!!#the ol like. If You're Going To Do Something Anyways then how you justify it to yourself is Your business / b/w you & your god as they say #& the last thing to do is be making it the problem of ppl Most Affected by what you're gonna do anyways & Also ask their Absolution.....#like if you need more moral support abt What You're Doing Anyways: turn to Anyone Else. even No One if you have to.#bit going tf through it when it's spilling over into Posting but such is life!! we all have that [the horrors. girl help] blogger on dash #again the tl;dr like oh you don't say. the [umm but have you considered? My Feelings! (they're so sympathetic at all. yor welcome)] is #the mechanism through which Really basic sympathy is being denied & replaced with [Saying Nothing would've been less hurtful]#misgendering me the other night too while Also all 'hey I'm trying to talk to the customer service. why are You going up & talking first'#(that was me experiencing the latter. i didn't say it but i was like cmon. my glasses are fogging up w/surgical mask (don't have access to #more effective masks so doing what Nonzero i can there) i'm a bit carsick i'm weathering a crisis. can i have anything here lol)#just Oh You Know. The Horrors....#balancing ofc trying to endure trying to self soothe etc etc. with ''it's the horrors. it's gonna be horrific & you're gonna be affected''#ah the [being kind to oneself] like also means knowing how reasonable it is to Not solo contain & endure & Cope Through everything....#crushing a paper cup in my hands genuinely i would like to generously thank my virtual allies out here today. mic feedback #irl In Real Life? life is Real asf here & nobody Realer than them

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brontes · 7 months

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having a rough night of it. had a rough day of it. need to communicate but also don’t want to talk to anyone. wearing dangerously thin emotionally and too tired to fight it

#personal #I just….baby Jane is still too small.#I have to tell work that I’ll have to have two dr appts per week moving forward #work is swamped and I’m hurting #and I know it’s not my fault and there’s nothing I can do but #every time I have to update everyone on her growth I feel like I’m admitting failure as a mother #again and again and again ongoing #I break down in the dr office and drive home in silence to then cry to my husband #and I cry on the phone with my mom and I cry at church #and I’m just so worn out #and everything could be and is probably totally fine!#but somehow that doesn’t stop the feeling that I’m failing her

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holyluvr · 8 months

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Getting a good hit of indica that’s a little stronger than vapes I had last time after I ran out of my indica is Hallelujah Praise The LORD and that kid with ADHD

#…#I need indica or antipsychotics both to function. an upper and a downer of some sorts. stimulate then depress. over and over again. daily.#TBH one of the dreams/goals that I still haven’t let myself let go of despite knowing the stats and likelihoods of the outcomes….#well anyway one of those dreams is to somehow fix this. to meet a doctor who has a treatment plan or life change idea that works on the drug #dependency / the ‘maybe’ acquired brain injury issues.#the ‘is this idiopathic narcolepsy or is this ABI from drs or would you consider this probable narcolepsy from ABI from drs or?’ issues.#the ‘it’s harder to put together a clear understanding of your health overall’ comments followed by silence bc they don’t need to say it lol #it’s hard because no one has known what my health ‘should’ be like. know one has any labs without me on psychotropic medication combos.#they have partial proof from brain scans for the conclusion that my brain was just .fried to deal with me/make me easy and good. didn’t work #and they don’t even need proof to know that medication combos in their own profession shouldn’t be used together or are only used together #in extreme cases with no options left that they immediately fucking jumped into and were lucky I didn’t DIE so many times but fuck yeah #now my brain hurts and I’m not how I was beforehand but don’t rlly know why or how to express it #and I feel alone there and then I have bitch ass doctors telling me to Just Stop The Meds For A Fee Weeks :-)! …..Dr u have no idea huh do u #a few weeks? give me 3 days before I’m having a psychotic episode that’s severe enough to warrant police arrest or 911 called for me.#that’s thousands of dollars in a legal psychiatric hold. and that’s if someone catches the signs on time before I potentially harm myself or #like yeah no I’m sorry doc but i can’t just Simply Stop or Substitute anti-anxiety drugs when I’ve had them holding me together b4 puberty.#anyway I’m still. hoping I’ll find some info somewhere or stories and people like me who figured something out or anything idk #because my medical testing is interfered by medications that I cannot stop taking (mainly benzodiazepines) without losing my mind now. bad.

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coffee-bat · 1 year

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hi not to vent again but you ever been so overwhelmingly injured that you actually feel like crying

#(tl;dr: ouch oof owie my bones)#sorry for venting here again i dont really have anyone to tell this to i dont wanna be whiney #but hghghghghhh #turns out the possible broken foot was the least of my problems #yknow how sometimes after you get multiple injuries you hyperfocus on one and dont realize the severity of others? yeah #i DEFINATELY sprained my right hip.#hurts when i move my leg. cant put any weight on it or it just buckles. my muscles spasm and my knee buckles down #both my knees hurt. or rather the ends of my femurs. it feels like i crushed the tips of both femurs #my toe(??) still hurts but i cant bother to focus on it anymore #my elbows hurt too. like ends of my upper arm bones #everything fucking hurts i can barely walk i want to cry everytime i move my bones itch like when theyre broken #i see no purpose going to the hospital. theyd just give me xrays and do nothing but keep me for 10 hours in the waiting room #i know they wont help. hell theyll probably laugh at me as usual. its just not worth it #but everytime i move i want to fucking cry. i need to complain a bit ig #sorry ignore this im just ventibg #vent #personal #and its frustrating bc im USED to this. i get injured SO often. i should be dealing with thisbetter. but rn its just too much #i have a developed high pain tolerance but this is just. too much. i cant focus on ignoring one thing bc multiple others hurt

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forbiddennhoney · 3 months

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based: finding out there's drugs that actually can improve my mental/physical state to a point i can actually function like a regular person/not feel like death, really exciting

not based: i cannot legally take said drugs until stupid dr-to-dr communications happen. which idk when that process will be over

#personal #i had such a good weekend and felt so good #and i am now literally like a zombie at work #cause everything hurts again #i guess i really do have chronic pain tho #i guess im really not lying to myself like i constally think i am #anyway im exhausted today #fingers crossed when my therapist emails other dr today she actually answers and we can get a move on w/ this shit #literally went from being able to eat 2 meals + snacks over the weekend to feeling violently ill from drinking part of my coffee today

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bsaka7 · 4 months

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my mom has told me that i am a pickier eater than she remembers which tbh is fair (but also annoying cuz i will try anything) bc i didn't realize just how much of that has become like. through trial and error. preventative.

#dude my body is so fucking fragile this is so annoying #i hate the head stuff and the like general body feel almost more than like. when my knee hurts #i mean i don't think i have an actual problem or whatever this is just how it is #i guess the migraines r an actual problem but my dr told me that they don't affect my life enough to look into any further or whatever #Anyway i need to go for a run i woke up feeling great and now im nauseous and have a headache AGAIN. not a migraine.

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cerbreus · 1 year

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i will.... find a good workout routine this time.... i will spend way way way way way longer than necessary keeping it low intensity and focusing on building core muscles so i don’t hurt my back for the 5th time in 2 yrs... willing this into reality..😣

#it has been 2 years of me trying to go slower and lower intensity every time i start back up #and still straining my back and being stuck with the herniated disk pain on level 7 for 4-5 months #the worst part about having a chronic back injury is like #the only thing that makes the chronic back injury and pain better is regular exercise #and building up core muscles/muscles in general to prevent it from getting strained again #hopefully when i have consistent healthcare for longer than 6mo i can approach a dr about getting some pt #and maybe xrays to see just how bad it is #it feels bad #nothing helps except waiting #living in fear of the day waiting doesn't help anymore #personal stuff #whatever u do don't be me if u fall and hurt your back like immediately go to the dr and get it taken care of so it doesn't become a chronic #injury like what happened with me.... this could have been avoided if i could have gone to a dr instead of just bearing the pain

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lusalemaart · 11 months

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dump of doodles. naturally. i hardly draw anymore.

#hmm.. lately? ive been trying to let it go. obsessing over everything? is all ive ever known.#ugh. its... ok to draw bad. its ok. its fine. its encouraged actually #listen. im. again. really bad spot. drinking too mcuh again. hurting myself again.#but.mm i ... can hardly deny my purpose when i look at MacKyleMore. .i swear. he is my everything #and ive made mistakes. and i continue to recognize my behavior. and what has been for so long ocd...#but... To fuck up? is to be human. and basically i made a promise. no more attempts at s**c*de . no more. no more c*tting. until november #after that? i can do what i want. but... mackylemore wants me to keep going until then... without hurting myself...#not sure why. but he does. gut feeling. you know? and i fucked up. and i keep fucking up. but... hes my everything. truly. i cant explain #it. hes me. and i hate me. but i love him ??? tis weird. idk. ok. i promised tho. i promised to myself. no more self harm until december.#and i cant help but listen.#ugh.#ok.#mackylemore #JFC when i was lost? i was on the right road.#fk #alt #rotp #fine. whatever. mackylemore. god. me. all of the above. idc what u r #nonetheless fuck u. but without you i am nothing. ugh. im. drunk. like. i promised i wouldnt hurt myself anymore #i wouldnt c*t myself or try to k*ll myself anymore. but im still dr*nk and confused.#i? am a god. no kidding. im huge. mackyle is me and i am mackyle. but i hate me. and love mackyle. makes no sense #op is an alch*h*l*c. op is a bad *rtist. ignore me.#doodle dump

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tin-can-iron-man · 2 years

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Me: I'm going to go to bed at a reasonable time

Me: *has one (1) passing thought about Victor Von fucking Doom*

Me: when did it become 1am

#this man fucks me up so hard #just thinking about inescapable narratives w/ blorbo again don't mind me #it's just. it hurts that he can't be anything BUT dr doom so long as the FF are together. that they or that Reed NEEDS him as an antithesis #as a foil #that he never even got the chance to TRY #I don't know why it makes my heart so tight to think about him bound by the universe in this way. by the narrative.#Victor has to be a great villain in order for the FF to be great heroes and *that hurts*#imagine your entire existence is dedicated to your failings #imagine your entire existence is dedicated to your failings to your enemies. to put the people you despise most in the world on a pedestal #imagine being defined by your faults. imagine being defined by your faults so hard your foil pities you for decades #would you not feel anger? would you not rage against the world? would you not wish to wring That Goddamn Look out of his eyes?#imagine you know your place in the narrative. imagine you know your place in the narrative is to be hated #to be despised. to be mocked. to be defeated.#imagine you know your place in the narrative. the intrinsic horror. imagine you know your place in the narrative. imagine.#victor von doom #doctor doom #it's late and I'm sad #and sometimes I wonder #when Victor blames Reed. when he says ''you did this to me (and I will never forgive you)'' if he REALLY means the dormroom experiment #sometimes I wonder if he means something else. something more.#their fates are inherently bound. like it or not. romantic or not. they are soulmates by definition.#how tragic. how infuriating. how terrifying.

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marsbotz · 1 year

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#hi complaining in the tags again lol #my pain is getting worse and worse and worse #i cant like bring. myself to do ANYTGING at this point except sit in bed gaming #but even that like. hurts #typing this my fingers r hurting #its so hard when like. standing Hurts and sitting Hurts and lying in bed doing nothing Hurts #its mostly my legs just bc i just spent three days working 9 hour shifts at MACCYS #so i was walking around for forver and standing #but yeah my hands and noticeably my wrists.#my wrists feel very very weak. and weird #aside from the pain or maybe bc of it i just feel all around awful #im exhaustedddd like so lethargic and my appetite is so bad #it feels like im fucking dying so so slowly. not beinh silly it does #like i can feel my body just giving up almost #talked to the drs yestserday they siad it could be At Least a few more weeks til i get my blood results back #cus its a rarer thing to test for… lol #sooo im just waiting waiting wiatng to get answrrs rlly #and then ill probs get referred to rhuematology #im kinda worried cus i have a work placemtn in a couple weeks and i might like. not be able to stand barely #ill have to just explain if thats the case #and i wont get a day off for like 5 weeks ☹️#oh well. thats how it goes i guess !#trying to stay happy smd normal but my mental health is kinda tanking like its just making me miserbale #but i was ok today :] so its looking up #farts

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unbornwhiskeyy · 2 years

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this is sarah polley’s version of the tragically hip’s “courage” from the sweet hereafter, allowed to be more resigned and melancholy than they ever were themselves, weirdly mirroring the actual (incredibly under the surface) action in the film, at least in the chorus, home to my favorite gord downie device which is just to quote somebody else’s text for the entirety of a verse/chorus, which in this case is:

“There is no simple explanation for anything important any of us do, and the human tragedy, or the human irony, consists in the necessity of living with the consequences of actions performed under the pressure of compulsions so obscure we do not and cannot understand them.” - Hugh MacLennan

#sarah polley #the tragically hip #hugh maclennan #i pitched an atom egoyan essay to bw/dr last year and just never wrote it!!! this is a pattern with me and essays i've pitched to bw/dr #maybe if i rewatch exotica i'll feel like writing it again #rewatching the sweet hereafter hurts my feelings so deeply but fine why not that too

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a-sleepy-ginger · 3 months

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21/2/24

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Banana Mango porridge with dried apricots

Real thick ender toast

Have good vision so don't need glasses

Imagined ocs

Walked alot

Was just in a good mood so had fun

#happiness diary #happiness diary: february #today was a kinda weird day #my computer seems fine #so do my eyes but i have trouble with them sometimes?#like they dont focus as fast as they normally do and its noticeably slow #but my eyes are apparently good so it must be my brain that has the problem #which ye probably #also my blood keeps pooling in my feet when i stand so theyre really warm #but on another day i could stand and walk as much as i did today and theyd be kinda blue with numb toes #i dont get it #dr google says ive got varicose veins which is not right rhose would be pretty noticeable #so who knows #also my tummy hurts :(#made too much porridge for breakfast and the thick bread for lunch going into a really slow digestive system equals ow #feels like my body is having a moment again>:(#but im still in a good mood so its fine :)#good to document in case i need to refer back to it cus i forget alot #anyway gonna sleep #night

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