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#dependency / the ‘maybe’ acquired brain injury issues.
holyluvr · 8 months
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Getting a good hit of indica that’s a little stronger than vapes I had last time after I ran out of my indica is Hallelujah Praise The LORD and that kid with ADHD
#…#I need indica or antipsychotics both to function. an upper and a downer of some sorts. stimulate then depress. over and over again. daily.#TBH one of the dreams/goals that I still haven’t let myself let go of despite knowing the stats and likelihoods of the outcomes….#well anyway one of those dreams is to somehow fix this. to meet a doctor who has a treatment plan or life change idea that works on the drug#dependency / the ‘maybe’ acquired brain injury issues.#the ‘is this idiopathic narcolepsy or is this ABI from drs or would you consider this probable narcolepsy from ABI from drs or?’ issues.#the ‘it’s harder to put together a clear understanding of your health overall’ comments followed by silence bc they don’t need to say it lol#it’s hard because no one has known what my health ‘should’ be like. know one has any labs without me on psychotropic medication combos.#they have partial proof from brain scans for the conclusion that my brain was just .fried to deal with me/make me easy and good. didn’t work#and they don’t even need proof to know that medication combos in their own profession shouldn’t be used together or are only used together#in extreme cases with no options left that they immediately fucking jumped into and were lucky I didn’t DIE so many times but fuck yeah#now my brain hurts and I’m not how I was beforehand but don’t rlly know why or how to express it#and I feel alone there and then I have bitch ass doctors telling me to Just Stop The Meds For A Fee Weeks :-)! …..Dr u have no idea huh do u#a few weeks? give me 3 days before I’m having a psychotic episode that’s severe enough to warrant police arrest or 911 called for me.#that’s thousands of dollars in a legal psychiatric hold. and that’s if someone catches the signs on time before I potentially harm myself or#like yeah no I’m sorry doc but i can’t just Simply Stop or Substitute anti-anxiety drugs when I’ve had them holding me together b4 puberty.#anyway I’m still. hoping I’ll find some info somewhere or stories and people like me who figured something out or anything idk#because my medical testing is interfered by medications that I cannot stop taking (mainly benzodiazepines) without losing my mind now. bad.
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painjeans4 · 1 year
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The smart Trick of Changing the course of comorbid eating disorders and That Nobody is Talking About
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Lunar New Year Gift for vedrividia!
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Pairing: Wei Wuxian/Lan Wangji; past Wei Wuxian/Other (implied) Rating: Mature Warnings: brief depiction of sexual harassment, brief instance of misgendering, implied/referenced past suicide attempt, implied/referenced past sexual assault (off-screen), implied/referenced past forced pregnancy (off screen), implied/referenced underage sex & pregnancy (off-screen), alcoholism, coming out, implied/referenced homophobia Other Tags: trans male character, disabled character, gay male character, open ending, unreliable narrator, angst, tender, chance meeting, confession, reunion, character with incomplete spinal cord injury, iSCI, it probably sounds darker than it is
Summary: On the last eve before spring Wei Ying finds himself at the end of a road. What awaits him on the other side depends on the steps he takes to cross it. Someone walks beside him.
Disclaimer: I am neither Chinese, trans nor disabled. All of the portrayal in this fic is based on research. It's not my intent to offend and I'm open to critique as long as it's respectful and constructive. Wei Ying's journey is his own and does not represent all of the disabled or trans community. The fic is set in a world that closely resembles ours, but where corona never happened and maybe China's laws are just a little less restrictive (but still very phobic), so bear that in mind. I do not own any of the characters.
Notes - Beginning: The idea of trans male Wei Ying had been stuck in my head for a while now, and I've been wanting to try my hand at a trans story, because I've never done that before. This assignment was an opening to do that in a darker, more serious setting. I have also wanted to explore Wei Ying's suicidal issues while translating his story into a modern setting for some time (it was supposed to be a coffee shop AU, only the coffee shop never appeared hah). It was simultaneously hard and fun to write, and I'm grateful for it. @vedrividia​, I hope you like it!
In the past I didn't feel like I could do a good job at representing anyone of an identity I couldn't quite empathize with. Since then I've surrounded myself with trans inclusive media, and followed transgender blogs and channels, and I hope that this fic does right by all of them.
I am aware of some of the potentially problematic topics, but I also didn't want to ignore all the challenges and abuse and trauma that trans folk are forced to endure on a daily basis. (Did you know that trans people have some of the highest suicide rates, and likely to have alcohol issues? Making everyone happy and nothing hurt felt all kinds of wrong knowing that.) I believe that representing both - an ideal world alongside the real and flawed one - is important.
Positive stories are also important - this is one. Or at least I hope I was able to make it one.
On a more cheerful note, there are pictures that served as an inspiration for this story, namely this photoset (especially the pic in the leather jacket, the one on the couch and the close up) done in faceapp by a genius, this brain-frying picture, and of course this picture from the Harper's Bazaar Photoshoot that none of us are over. I completely blame Xiao Zhan's androgyny.
Last but not least, I owe a massive thanks to Laura for the amazing beta they did on a rather short notice and brought this fic to another level. Thank you for your hard work!!! :)
End notes: Wei Ying has an incomplete spinal cord injury in the lumbar area (at L1 or L2). I didn't realize that I played myself when I gave him an incomplete injury, because the lack of references and information is in terms of quantity a total opposite to everything available on complete SCI. Which in turn made the telling of such a story feel even more important. If any of you know of a good resource for the daily life of people with iSCI, I'm all ears.
Even researching the walking aides was a challenge, since most information is on wheelchair dependent people, which Wei Ying is not. He has a wheelchair but he refuses to use it, for several reasons, one of them being image, another being worry of atrophy. He likes a good walk, and there's progress thanks to physical therapy, most of which is covered by insurance. I was debating an exoskeleton/brace for him, but from what I gathered they aren't really useful for SCI (I welcome any additional info about this), and those that would be cost a ton and aren't covered by insurance - which is a big factor for Wei Ying. The toss ended up being between forearm crutches and a walking frame, but in the end I decided on crutches, because it seemed like Wei Ying would prefer them? For now? With crutches he can pretend, and I also didn't know to what extent a walking frame would be insurance covered (in China), and whether he'd be at a point where he would accept one. (I imagine the simple ones would be covered by insurance, the question is whether they make a huge difference to crutches, and whether a rollator - with wheels and a seat is something that would count as 'necessary' in this case.)
However, once again, I am not adequately educated on all that goes into the decision making here. No one ever mentions things like these in success stories. In the end I left it as a room for future development. I'm pretty sure Wen Qing is trying to convince him to get one.
I was debating whether to tag dysphoria. While it is not explicitly stated in the fic, Wei Ying does experience it, although this has gotten better since he realized being trans, came out and started testosterone. His decision to not transition fully is one that many trans people make at a point in their lives, for any number of reasons. This does not mean he'll never change his mind, or won't explore other forms of expression. It's a choice that the current Wei Ying is making, completely independent of future Wei Ying.
It's possible in China to get a gender confirmation surgery, but the requirements sound like a nightmare. The first thing you have to do is get diagnosed with 'gender disorder', be five years in (unsuccessful) therapy for it, at least 20 and unmarried. If he decides to transition fully to a male presenting body he can only marry someone who is biologically female in the future, under Chinese law. (Imagine having to divorce your significant other in order to be who you are. Imagine having to make this decision. It makes me want to write fic about it.)
It also costs a ton, as none of it is covered by insurance. You can only start hormone therapy in order to get surgery, which leads a lot of trans people to acquire hormones illegally and without medical counseling. I purposefully did not decide where Wei Ying gets his T from. I didn't want him to not have it, but I left the how undecided. For the most part I headcanon it as one of the things that make my world a little different, since hormone therapy is a thing that exists outside of transitioning as well. E.g. many female athletes use testosterone to boost their performance, and many other women take it for various medical reasons. I feel like WWX could find ways to acquire some. Now, whether this would be legal or not is left open.
By the way? Never, EVER deadname. Just don't. The moment someone comes out to you as trans, tells you their pronouns and name, that's what you use. You forget everything that came prior to that, wipe it out of your memory, it's ashes on the sands of time unless stated otherwise BY THEM, got it?
Now, Wei Ying's case. I was hesitant about how to approach this, but from the start I knew two things. I wanted the same kind of intimacy of WWX & LWJ calling each other by their birth names as in canon, but I also didn't want to go the way most authors go in this case i.e. splitting the names to pre- and post- transition. It is my understanding that most Chinese names are unisex (if anyone has more info on this, I'd love to have it), or can be used for all genders, and I didn't want to force a gender issue where there wasn't one. However, I also wanted something parallel that could be used in a similar way. What I came up with is what you see in text. While Wei Ying did change his name, the only reason why it's still somewhat okay to use 'Wuxian' is because he explicitly says he likes it. In fact, in my head somewhere in the imagined future of this verse, he and JFM have a conversation about it where JFM tells him if he wants it, it can still be his name - he didn't give it to an image, but a person. IDK how well any of this works, or translates to actual trans or Chinese (or trans and Chinese) people, so if you have words for me, let me know.
On a side note, in 2015 China lifted the one-child policy in favor of a two-child policy. A-Yuan was born in 2017.
Wei Ying attempted suicide between the 4th and 8th week of his pregnancy. During the early weeks the probability of a fetus surviving a major fall (even a fall from stairs) is significantly higher than later in the pregnancy, and the scaffolding he jumped from wasn't actually that high. I'm also considering that there might have been something to cushion the fall that he hadn't noticed (a stray rope, or a net) or been aware of (like padding on the stage), but that's a detail I decided to leave to your imagination. On the other hand, sustaining a SCI during early pregnancy is likely to have fatal consequences, as I found out a week before the deadline. In the end, they both got very lucky. Wei Ying spent the next 3 months in a coma. When he woke up it was too late to terminate. Jiang Fengmian had been adamant that the decision not be made without Wei Ying's consent, which was nice of him, but also ended up making the decision for Wei Ying regardless.
Last but not least, if you've read this and feel like you have something to add, I love any kind of comments, whether you wanna review the fic, have some useful information for me, would like to discuss a point or just like to say hi! :)
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If asked, Wei Ying wouldn't have remembered how he had gotten to the bar. He didn't remember taking a different route on the short walk back home, he hadn't even been aware there was a bar in the first place. He only remembered suddenly standing in front of it, aching to his bones, limbs leaden with a familiar exhaustion, morose and longing for nothing more than a little break. His back was on fire, his leg was throbbing, the skin underneath his binder wouldn’t stop itching and to top it off his stomach had been cramping in a way it wasn't supposed to anymore. His body had decided to give him a wonderful gift for the holiday. Wei Ying wouldn't wish this on his worst enemy, and that spoke volumes to anyone who knew who occupied that position.
Needless to say, he was desperate for a drink.
The bar was almost empty so early in the afternoon, and shortly before the holiday, all the regulars had likely gone home to see their families. It was the time of reunions, the golden week of spring knocking on the door. The whole town looked empty, seemingly asleep and abuzz at the same time, a strange kind of liminal space born in the atmosphere of the coming celebrations, quiet with contained impatience. He had been painfully aware of it the entire week, the turning of another year leaving him nothing to do but watch people go where Wei Ying couldn't return anymore.
The Lunar New Year always made him hurt worse than usual, in more ways than purely physical. Wei Ying had felt that strange air peak today, even in the confines of his tiny office at the back of the Pacific Coffee branch he had been working at for a little over two months. It was a tiny thing on the busiest street of their small town, smelling of comfort in the wee hours of the morning and of salvation late in the evening. The staff had needed support with handling the supply chain, so that they could focus on serving the staggering amount of customers that came in all day.
It had seemed perfect when Wei Ying had first limped inside on his forearm crutches, with a letter of recommendation, feeling smaller than an ant but significantly less tough. The reintegration program had been a lifeline thrown to a drowning man when he had first heard about it. It had been the opportunity to restart his life. Earn an income. Be independent. In time maybe even repay his friends for the kindness they had shown when he had nowhere to go. Now? Now he wasn't sure that he'd still have a job after the holiday was over.
"This really can't go on," his boss had said, midway through the most gruesome shift the shop had ever witnessed. "Half the supplies came in wrong, for the third time this week!"
Sometimes, Wei Ying wondered why he still bothered. He could probably survive on aid and love for himself, and the Wens made enough to take care of the rest. It just… It could have been nice. To be the one to take care of the people he cared about, for a change.
He really needed that drink.
The whiskey looked enticing from where he was half-sitting, half-leaning on a stool, crutches stashed between his legs. He could almost taste it, the phantom of the sharp flavor burning his tongue.
"Hi, darling." An unfamiliar voice startled him out of his thoughts, causing him to tense. He had been aware of the middle-aged man at the counter, but he hadn't been paying him much attention until now. "Can I buy you a drink? How about Sex on the Beach?"
It was difficult to control himself at that tasteless, juvenile joke. Wei Ying could almost taste the bile rising in his throat and the beginnings of what would no doubt become a pounding headache throbbing in his temples. Great. Just what he had needed.
The whiskey bottle called out to him again, beckoning him to the bitter burn.
A drink. That was what he needed - a drink.
Do you really? Need it? The voice of his therapist came to his mind, sudden and uninvited.
"Hey bartender!" The man called out in the most unwelcome case of accidental telepathy in the history of mankind, sneaking one arm around Wei Ying’s waist, a sweaty hand settling on his hip. "One Sex on the Beach for the miss, on my tab!"
There was the rising bile again, tension squeezing his muscles, and the flash of a haughty smirk at the furthest back of his mind. This wasn't what he wanted. None of it. Neither the touch nor the drink, no matter what his mind wanted to convince him of.
It's easier to need than the things that take hard work, the ones you have to earn. It had taken him a long time to admit that.
"I don't drink." Wei Ying said, angling his head as much as the muscles of his neck permitted to look at the guy invading his personal space squarely. "Remove your hand now."
The guy bristled.
"Hey, chill out, sweetheart." He was quick to regain his composure with an awkward laugh and not enough common sense. Wei Ying supposed he must have been used to rejection. Too bad. "You're so tense… Maybe a virgin cocktail then."
His crutch shot up before the full sentence was out.
The man stumbled back with a startled yelp as the rubber point connected with his chest in a sharp jab.
"Hey! What's your problem?!"
"I said I don't drink." Wei Ying was completely unapologetic, still holding his crutch like a sword, but the guy was already walking away, muttering ‘fucking bitch’ under his breath.
"You alright there, girl?"
His gut clenched at the words.
He looked up to meet the only slightly worried, but otherwise unbothered gaze of the bartender and told himself it wasn't her fault. She probably wasn't even aware. He knew he didn't… There was no way for him to pass. There was nothing he could do about that, had already decided not to, not at this time, not in this country. Wei Ying didn't expect people to know on sight. He didn't. It didn't change the fact though that every single misnomer felt like someone was peeling his skin off.
"I'm not a girl," he said to her almost too quietly, but he knew she heard when he met her gaze. A strained silence passed between them in which Wei Ying watched her frown in confusion, then sputter with the loss of words, before awkwardly shuffling off. He smiled wryly. How funny. It really wasn't anything complicated, and yet… So few were able to comprehend.
Wordlessly, Wei Ying slid off the stool and made his way out of the bar as quick as his crutches let him be.
Once outside, the crisp air mercilessly purifying, he realized how close to the edge he had gotten once again. He had to stop doing this. He couldn't afford another fall, another spiral back down the drain. Not when he had just clawed his way out. Not when he had people depending on him now. Tiny people with curious gray eyes, so much like his own. Waiting for him at home.
Something icy touched his face and instinctively he looked up only to find it snowing.
That explained the ache.
The cold always made him feel sore, although he knew at least some of it was phantom pain. He hadn’t retained a whole lot of feeling in his left leg, beyond a tingle that had become almost constant and the occasional twitch. His right leg was fine, it just tended to ache a lot, to a point where Wei Ying sometimes found himself wishing it wasn't better off than the other one. But then he wouldn't get away with 'forgetting' his wheelchair at home, so he quickly dismissed that thought. Besides, there were plenty of people who had it worse. He, at least, could still walk. He could still stand. Kinda. He had no room to complain.
After all, he had done this to himself.
'It's better this way.' He remembered thinking, standing on the top of the catwalk stairs backstage of the high school auditorium. 'A-jie, Jiang Cheng,… Lan Zhan. I'm sorry for the trouble I've caused you. I love you. I'll get out of your hair now.'
In the end it had been easy to tip backwards and let himself fall.
Waking up had been the hard part. Not only had he failed, but every reason that had pushed him to end it all had only been made worse. Worse still, after. He had lived though, so that was that. There was no utility in regret. He couldn't go back. The only way was forward now, step by painful step. Standing around and staring at the snow falling was nice, but it wouldn't make the walk shorter. Home wasn't far away. He'd take it slow. He'd be there before he knew it.
He barely took three steps before he felt someone's broad shoulder bump against his, his equilibrium yanked roughly from under his feet.
He remembered falling.
Not the act of it, nor every thought and feeling that preceded it, but he remembered the soft pressure at his skull as he tipped backwards, the endless instant of the free fall, a moment frozen in time. Not the impact, but the inevitability of it, coming, coming, almost there. The loss of control. The frightening, exhilarating realization of his absolute surrender. Not the oblivion that followed but the fragments of muddled awareness afterwards. Disorientation, rock bottom and the overwhelming sense of failure.
It had felt nothing like now.
He felt the loss of ground beneath his feet, the scrape of concrete against his palms, as he all but starfished onto the pavement. A sharp pain. The frustrated annoyance of another thing gone wrong in the long list that made up the day.
Only the failure felt the same, funny that.
"I'm sorry!" Said a deep voice. "I wasn't looking."
"Yeah, no shit." He chuckled, because really, who could have guessed.
"Here, let me help." There were hands on his arm, just as he propped himself up, but he yanked it away.
"I'm fine!" He wasn't helpless. He wasn't, dammit! He had his arms, his abdominals, and most of his legs. Getting up from the ground wasn't such a herculean task for him as for those who depended on a wheelchair. He didn't have to call an ambulance just because he starfished. He didn't need any help at all here, especially not the help of some ditzy stranger with their head in the clouds…
"Wei Ying?"
Wei Ying froze.
Few people on this Earth called him that, and none of them had a voice like that. He looked up to see glowing amber on a face carved out of a dream.
"Lan Zhan?"
Of all the people to be in town today of all days, the least likely would have to be Lan Zhan. Lan Zhan, his former senior, Lan Zhan, his best friend. Lan Zhan, whom he had told his secrets, Lan Zhan, who he… who he…
"Lan Zhan, Lan Zhan… Can I kiss you? I understand you don't like me that way, and it's fine, I'm fine, really, but… uhm… It's supposed to be special. The first kiss. I… I want it to be yours. Just one kiss." A child he barely remembered had wanted and wanted, never satisfied. "Ah, it's okay if you don't want to. I get it. It's fine. I'm just being selfish."
But that had been a long time ago. A person he didn't know, a past life that had never truly been. Not for him in any case.
Lan Zhan was looking at him like a ghost had appeared in front of him.
Although, ghosts didn't need crutches. Honestly, Wei Ying did wish he could float quite frequently.
Face twisted in sardonic amusement at that childish wish, he pulled himself up with some maneuvering and a lot of effort. This seemed to wake Lan Zhan from his daze as he quickly followed. Wei Ying didn't miss the sweeping gaze as his once friend took him in, wondering what he saw. A stranger, perhaps? A new person? Him? Wei Ying knew he hadn't changed much on the outside, aside the obvious and maybe in his weight distribution, but Lan Zhan had always had the ability to look past the surface. Was he still able to do that? Or was he just taking in his appearance, assessing his matted, worn out body that seemed to show every year that had passed multiplied by ten? Wei Ying was aware that time had not been the kindest to him, but he was hanging on. He was past the worst now. He was doing better. He was!
He wondered if Lan Zhan still could see that too.
"Wei Ying." His name again, spoken with enough wonder to give Wei Ying the courage to meet his gaze. There was an unspoken question in it.
"Yeah," Wei Ying answered and felt the cusp of a smile pull at the corners of his lips. "Long time no see, Lan Zhan. Fancy meeting you here."
"I really like you, Lan Zhan," the person he didn't know had said, red faced with embarrassment and a shaking voice. "I mean like… like like."
Back then he had believed that moment to be the most nerve-wracking experience he was ever going to survive. Today he missed his naivety.
Lan Zhan gave him a look like he just realized it was really Wei Ying standing in front of him. Like he still could barely believe it. It unraveled a completely different ache in Wei Ying. They had been close once, and though they had always shared their secrets, Wei Ying had seen him so open and unguarded but once.
"I...like...boys," had been the answer. The refusal so, so gentle, unable to accept, thus giving something of equal value in return instead. A truth for a truth, a secret for a secret. "Wei Ying, I'm gay."
Lan Zhan, always figuring things out so quickly, always willing to accept reality no matter how hard it was. Wei Ying hadn't known back then. If he had known… Who knew what would have been then. It didn't matter anymore. It was a life long gone. What remained of it were a few good memories, some of them he wasn't sure were real.
Now, chance had made them cross paths once again, at a liminal space transversing through time.
"Are you hurt?" Lan Zhan's voice brought him back from his thoughts, and Wei Ying looked where he was reaching for his scraped hands and knees.
Lan Zhan, always the same Lan Zhan… "Not selfish."
So wonderful and kind and warm.
"Eh, I'm fine. Nothing Wen Qing can't fix." He brushed his former friend off, noticing how Lan Zhan's eyebrow seemed to go up infinitesimally at the mention of his old classmate and promptly changed the subject. "What brings you to Yiling, Lan Zhan? Shouldn't you be with your family for Chun Jie?"
"I…" Lan Zhan looked away. "Didn't get an earlier flight."
That sounded suspicious, especially since the Lan Zhan Wei Ying knew liked to plan ahead. But Wei Ying wasn't the same he had been, maybe Lan Zhan wasn't either. People were allowed to change. It also didn't answer what he was doing in Yiling in the first place, but Wei Ying wasn't forcing him to tell. Wei Ying had never wanted to force Lan Zhan into anything, he wasn't going to start now.
"Wei Ying." Lan Zhan looked at him again, this time meeting his eyes squarely. He paused. "How have you been?"
Wei Ying felt the loom of a shadow over him, and his gaze dropped to the ground for a second.
"As you can see." He put a reassuring smile on his face as he summoned enough will to hold Lan Zhan's gaze. "Still alive and kicking."
Which was probably much more than the last time Lan Zhan had heard of him.
"I was looking for you. I wanted to see you. After." The what remained unspoken. Lan Zhan's kind heart hadn't changed. Wei Ying sought comfort in it, warmed by the thought of his best friend trying to get in touch even after everything went to hell. "I was told you… left."
Wei Ying made a soft sound of affirmation through the small smile that had spread on his face. "I moved out on my eighteenth birthday. Aunt Yu… I was supposed to stay till graduation, but... ah. I fucked up. Colossally."
"Wei Ying." Lan Zhan remained the only person Wei Ying knew who managed to frown without a single crease on his face. "You were recovering."
"It was fine, Lan Zhan." Wei Ying chuckled even as he held back a sigh. Lan Zhan didn't know half of it. "I moved in with the Wens."
There was a pause.
"With Wen Qing?" Lan Zhan asked and Wei Ying realized that small detail wouldn't have been immediately clear to him, all things considered.
"With Wen Qing and her family." He nodded. After a moment of thought he added. "Not Wen Chao. I know nothing about that douchebag."
"Mn," Lan Zhan agreed and it sounded so wholehearted that it startled a laugh out of Wei Ying.
"Lan Zhan, Lan Zhan," Wei Ying said, feeling truly light for the first time in a long time. The smile he gave Lan Zhan felt warm and genuine. He hoped Lan Zhan saw it too, and didn't think Wei Ying was trying to shake him off, when he spoke next. "It's so good to see you. You're the best thing that happened to me today. I would love to catch up, but they're waiting for me at home and I'm already late."
"Mn." Lan Zhan nodded. There was a pause. Then, just as Wei Ying was about to ask for his number, "I could. Walk you. If you like."
"I thought you had a flight to catch." Wei Ying wanted to smack his mouth for how hopeful he sounded.
"Mn," Lan Zhan said. "In the evening."
"Lan Zhan!" He startled, amused and surprised at the same time. "And here I thought your bedtime was nine! Don't tell me you crossed to the dark side."
"It is Chuxi." Lan Zhan's voice was soft with a playful note, and Wei Ying felt his heart turn all over again even as he laughed.
"Aiya, Lan Zhan…" A smile spread on his face. "Alright then. I'd love to have your company. If you're sure."
"I am," Lan Zhan answered. "I would… very much like to… catch up with you."
"Well then." Wei Ying's smile broadened and started again in the direction he was heading earlier. "Right this way, sir. But I'm warning you. I'm basically a snail now."
For a beat there was silence, in which Wei Ying figured that Lan Zhan was probably looking for a proper response. He still didn't know how to handle self-deprecating humor, then. Wei Ying chuckled quietly to himself. The more things change…
"That is alright," Lan Zhan finally said. "I have time."
"Oh, do you? That's great!" Wei Ying grinned from ear to ear, marveling at how easy it suddenly was. "Aah, Lan Zhan I really missed this!"
"Mn," Lan Zhan agreed but didn't say anything else.
For a few moments silence reigned again, of a comfortable kind. One that allowed Wei Ying to bask in the startling, almost miraculous presence of his best friend. Or it would have been, had Wei Ying not been keenly aware of Lan Zhan's intense stare.
"Do I really look that bad?" He teased, hoping to give Lan Zhan the opening he probably needed to ask whatever questions he had. "I've actually gained weight over Dongzhi you know."
Lan Zhan blinked, as if startled to be called out. Wasn't he aware that he had been staring? Or had he not expected Wei Ying to say something?
"You look…" he started, then swept his gaze over Wei Ying.
"Tired?" Wei Ying offered, keeping the humor in his words. The last thing he wanted Lan Zhan to think was that he needed to sugar coat his words around him now. "Stressed? Battle worn?"
"Different," Lan Zhan finished.
"Ah." Wei Ying breathed out, something in his chest tightening. "Good different, or bad different?"
Lan Zhan looked at him for a long moment.
"Different you," he finally answered. A pause. "More you."
Wei Ying's breath stuttered, a small questioning sound dragging itself up his throat.
"Wei Ying…" Lan Zhan hesitated for a brief moment, unsure. "May I know your pronouns?"
Always so straight to the point.
"Pro… Pronouns?!" Wei Ying chuckled but even he could hear the nerves buzzing through that sound. "How did you figure that?"
Lan Zhan just kept looking at him. Wei Ying swallowed.
"I…"
He had to know. Since he actually asked, he had to already know. Or at least suspect. Be aware. In general, or about Wei Ying? Had he realized in their years apart, or was there something about Wei Ying now that made him guess? No one has ever been able to tell upon glance. No one.
Something fluttered deep in his chest, like the jingles of a tambourine reverberating. It gave him courage.
Wei Ying took a deep, steadying breath. "He, him, Lan Zhan. It's he, him."
He managed to swallow the thousand words that dragged themselves up his throat instead of that one, simple truth. To his credit, Lan Zhan let him, waiting patiently and with complete silence for Wei Ying to say his part.
"I'm trans," Wei Ying added, finding it easier to say after the initial confession. "As in full time, on actual testosterone, trans male."
Their eyes met. A heartbeat of silence.
"Mn." Lan Zhan nodded. "Makes sense."
Wei Ying had not expected that.
In his defense, no one had ever replied like that to him coming out.
"What?" He choked out, bewildered. Lan Zhan was giving him a gentle look, a diametrical opposite of Wei Ying's wide eyes. "Why does that make sense, Lan Zhan?"
"It didn't before." Lan Zhan's gaze dropped. "Now it does."
"What? Why?" Wei Ying repeated, not comprehending a single word his friend had said. At the back of his mind he knew he should be happy and relieved that as dear a friend as Lan Zhan accepted him, and he would be later, but now he was just confused. "Lan Zhan, what are you saying?"
"You confounded me. Before. I didn't understand. It didn't. Add up." He didn't even expect an answer beyond a shrug and an 'It just does', and yet Lan Zhan gave him one, trying to explain like he wanted Wei Ying to understand something important. Important enough to bring it up at their first chance meeting in years. It still didn't clear anything up. The way he was dragging his words out seemed odd too, for how upfront Lan Zhan usually was.
"What didn't add up?" Wei Ying asked again. What about him had confused Lan Zhan?
"I didn't know you were a boy. So it didn't make sense," Lan Zhan answered without looking up and Wei Ying felt dread tighten his stomach into a knot. "But now it does."
"What?" He frowned, the rush of blood pounding in his ears. "Lan Zhan, what are you talking about?"
Lan Zhan finally looked up at him and Wei Ying suddenly felt light headed. The grip on his crutches must have gone knuckle white from how firmly he was gripping the handles. It couldn't be…
"I was confused why I liked you," Lan Zhan whispered, dropping his gaze again. "Why I enjoyed kissing you."
Wei Ying's brain was white static.
No. No, no, no, no, no, no, "No!"
His whole body wanted to recoil with shock.
"Wei Ying," Lan Zhan pleaded but was cut short.
"I confessed to you! I told you I liked you!" He saw the bob of Lan Zhan's throat, how his eyes fell shut as he swallowed. Wei Ying despaired for words that could express the entire scale of emotions he felt, from betrayal to hope, but mostly just... shock. "You said you… You've never… And now, after everything… Do you even… Lan Zhan!!!"
"Wei Ying," he said his name like it was all he was capable of saying, with a hitch of sudden hesitance on the last syllable, a minuscule frown around his eyes, like he realized something important. "Do you still call yourself Wei Ying?"
The quiet question conjured up another memory, of an occasion much kinder.
"It's my birth name," he heard his youthful voice, still too high although most had described it as low. Lan Zhan had raised an eyebrow at him, even more puzzled than before. Wei Ying had laughed as he went to explain. "Same character as in 'infant'. Wuxian is the name uncle Jiang gave me so that I have a better name than, you know, 'baby'. It's a cool name! I mean, 'no envy' come on! Like I have no match in the world! Totally rad, you know, uncle Jiang's naming sense is A+."
"But you prefer Wei Ying." Lan Zhan had looked at him then, searchingly and Wei Ying had looked away with a snort, to hide his swallow.
"It's a terrible name. Who the hell names their baby 'baby'?"
Lan Zhan hadn't replied anything to that, and Wei Ying still remembered his next words, and how they had burned on his tongue, how he couldn't hold them back.
"It's what the people who loved me had called me."
In the present, Wei Ying found himself laughing in spite of the utter shock. Only Lan Zhan. Only Lan Zhan would give him a heart attack first then go make sure he wasn't deadnaming him on top of everything.
"Lan Zhan!!!" He cried out. "That's so not the point right now! But, yes, I do. I changed it back, actually. Officially, I mean."
"You dislike it." It sounded more like a question than a statement, so Wei Ying answered.
"Don't get me wrong, I still think Wuxian is way cooler, and my siblings still call me that, but…" His gaze fell away from Lan Zhan to something more distant, beyond his focus as he struggled over his words, drawing them out only with great difficulty from where they were rooted deep inside of him. "It's the name given to the image of a person that never really existed. Like… the painting of a person you met in a dream. And I sorta… I like to imagine that, regardless of who I am… They would still love me."
They. The people who gave him that horrible, unimaginative name.
"Mn," Lan Zhan agreed like there had never been any doubt about it. Wei Ying snorted.
"Wei Ying," there it was again, his name, spoken so kindly, if not hesitantly as Lan Zhan too seemed to be struggling for words. "I would like to apologize. I hurt you. I have been looking for you to tell you this."
All at once, Wei Ying felt his shock settle into something more profound, like the wave that had swallowed him revealing the depth of the ocean. There was nothing Lan Zhan had to apologize for. Not for the lack of awareness, and certainly not for his feelings. Even their conflicts had always stemmed from a place of deep care.
"No." Wei Ying shook his head. "Not more than I hurt myself, Lan Zhan. Even when you scolded me, you never hurt me."
Had Lan Zhan broken his heart? Yeah, he had. So what? Did that mean he could be held accountable for it? Wei Ying's feelings were his own shit to deal with, not Lan Zhan's. Returning them wasn't Lan Zhan's duty. Even if he returned them, would it be fair to fault him for running away from them? For feeling insecure and anxious about his own attraction? For not knowing these things weren't as clear cut as all the adults around them had wanted to make them believe? It wasn't like Wei Ying had known either back then. He had, perhaps, understood himself even less than Lan Zhan. Most importantly, it was all in the past now. It couldn't be changed. What they made of it now was what mattered.
"None of my bullshit is your fault," he added. "You didn't go and tell me to fuck up my life. That was all on me."
"You wrote," Lan Zhan started, then paused, hesitating, then started again. "In your letter, you wrote…"
Wei Ying picked up on the question immediately.
"Not you," he said, the same words he had penned all those years ago in what was one of only two letters. "Never you. I had my reasons, but none of them were about you. In fact, I thought of you as the last good thing in my life at that point. The one true friend I still had left."
Lan Zhan's gaze fell on his crutches, but he didn't ask. Wei Ying was grateful.
"Come on, I need to get a move on," he said, starting to walk again, smiling at the surprised expression Lan Zhan had given him, when he realized he was still welcome to accompany him. Maybe it was something about that look that made Wei Ying add, after another second of thought, "There are people waiting for my return."
"Mn," Lan Zhan hummed, falling back in step next to him. "That's good. You should have people waiting for you at home."
Wei Ying couldn't help but smile.
"Say, Lan Zhan,…" he said after a few seconds of silence, when all what Lan Zhan has confessed slowly sunk in. "When you say you've been looking for me… You mean all this time?"
"Mn." Lan Zhan nodded. Wei Ying watched him gather his thoughts, the snow fluttering all around them. "I wanted to see you. Ask how you were doing. See if… If you needed support. Apologize. For not being a good friend to you before."
"Lan Zhan…" Wei Ying listened to him, and when Lan Zhan finally looked up at him his gaze was so sincere that his heart ached with it.
"I wanted to tell you the truth." Lan Zhan didn't let himself be interrupted. "That I liked you back. Without any expectations. That I didn't understand, but that it didn't matter. That I could like you without understanding why. That I wasn't asking for anything, just wanted you to know. That I wanted to help, in any way you'd let me."
"Lan Zhan, Lan Zhan…" Wei Ying sighed, vision suddenly blurred. He drew a deep breath. "But I wasn't there."
"Mn." Lan Zhan nodded. "I asked your sister where I could find you…"
"But she didn't know," Wei Ying finished for him. No one knew, except one person. "And Jiang Cheng wouldn't give you my address if you held him at gunpoint."
"Your brother knows you're here." It had the structure of a question but it was spoken as a statement, the same kind of incredulous as the look Lan Zhan was giving him. All things considered, it was kinda fair, Wei Wuxian thought as he barked a laugh.
"Yeah," he said, shoulders shaking a little as he snickered. "He's the designated secret keeper."
Lan Zhan just stared, wordlessly.
Wei Ying's smile gained an edge at the unspoken question. He had to clear his throat before he answered. "We're… not quite alright yet, but… Ah, how do I say this? He's the better judge of the situation? With, uhm, aunt Yu, I mean. It's… complicated."
Honestly, when wasn't it?
"I… see." Lan Zhan really didn't sound like he did, but didn't press, continuing his story instead. "Your sister was able to tell me which city you were in. So I… applied for a job."
Wait. Pause. Rewind.
"You work here?!" Wei Ying felt his jaw go slack.
"As an attorney. At 'Xiao and Song'," Lan Zhan confirmed, then looked back at Wei Ying. "Civil law. With focus on LGBTQ+ rights. I passed the bar last year."
"You…" There was so much to unpack in that statement that Wei Ying couldn't quite get the words together fast enough. At the back of his mind he was aware he should probably congratulate Lan Zhan on his degree but he was too stunned by the other, more important implications. "You've moved here? For work? All because… Because… You were looking for me?"
"Mn."
"Lan Zhan!" His amazing friend who, for some reason, in spite of having a great new life had been desperate to find him. "But you… But I…"
"Wei Ying," he spoke so, so softly, but with clear intent to stop any protest Wei Ying might have wanted to utter. It worked. Wei Ying's mouth fell shut, taking his friend in with a bright, wide gaze. "I missed you. I have no expectations. I just… missed you."
Warmth spread in Wei Ying's chest over the tender words, like a dying flame rekindled.
"Lan Zhan..." He didn't quite know what to say, oddly touched. "It's how you knew, isn't it? I'm not the only trans person you've met."
"There was a client," Lan Zhan admitted. "They made me think of you. I have wanted to ask you since. I wanted to know if… If I made a mistake."
He didn't specify what mistake he feared being guilty of. He didn't really have to.
For a while Wei Ying just looked at him.
"Lan Zhan, Lan Zhan…" He sighed, a small but genuine smile stealing itself onto his lips. "You… you're something else, you know that?"
Lan Zhan didn't reply, but there was something vulnerable in his expression.
"I missed you too."
Lan Zhan's eyes snapped back to Wei Ying's face, full of naked hope and a surprise so honest and pure that Wei Ying's heartstrings almost snapped. He could accept it. He could accept a friend longing for his company, even as his heart hammered against his chest like it was trying to escape its utter desolation.
"I couldn't have expected you to know something I didn't realize until much later." He hadn't realized there was tension around his friend's eyes until it relaxed.
Wei Ying took him in, his entire appearance and noted that although perfectly poised and immaculately dressed, beneath it all there was an exhaustion, a tension he didn't recognize. He thought about their meeting – the collision of two bodies launched out of their orbit – and everything else Lan Zhan had told him and a question dragged itself on his tongue that refused to be swallowed back in.
"Say, Lan Zhan… Since we are being so honest..." He asked before he could have thought better of it. "Why aren't you in Suzhou yet, for real? You always went home at least two weeks ahead of the festival. Did something happen?"
If there was something happening with Lan Zhan's family… Well, Wei Ying had missed enough opportunities to be a good friend in all the years they had been apart, or even before that. If Lan Zhan wanted to be his friend, Wei Ying was returning that tenfold. A secret for a secret, a truth for a truth.
If Lan Zhan wanted, that was.
For a second Wei Ying wasn't sure, but then the broad shoulders slumped, heaving like a weight was being lifted off them.
"I didn't always intend to go," Lan Zhan admitted. "Brother convinced me at the last moment. I wish he hadn't."
Their eyes met and Wei Ying felt a sudden heat spread through his cheeks at the intensity of Lan Zhan's gaze. He didn't take the bait, waiting patiently instead.
"I came out to my uncle. After the bar." Lan Zhan's gaze fell to the ground again, and Wei Ying already knew what he was about to say, aching dread settling painfully in his chest. "He did not… react well. He tried to set me up immediately afterwards."
"Aw man..." Wei Ying tried to sound both gentle and sympathetic without being too pitying. In his experience that never helped. "Yeah, I get that you didn't want to go home after that."
"Mn." Lan Zhan nodded, but said no more.
"Was she at least pretty?" Wei Ying tried to joke, unable to bear that forlorn expression on Lan Zhan's face and incapable of thinking of anything better to cheer his friend up. It would have been easy in the past, but now, with years containing entire lifetimes between them he didn't know anymore how to make Lan Zhan laugh.
But then Lan Zhan's lips twitched a little, so maybe not all was lost.
"Luo Qingyang," he answered, like Wei Ying was supposed to know the vaguely familiar name. Lan Zhan responded to his confused frown with his own and went on to explain. "You were in the drama club together. She was… Juliet. To your Romeo."
Very few guys had been in the drama club at that time, so Wei Ying had usually gotten the main male protagonist. He had loved it. It had been one of the reasons why he had joined the drama club in the first place. His co-star in all of that...
"Mianmian!" He exclaimed, eyes bright with delight. "It's been ages since I've last…"...Seen her. Seen anyone, he didn't say, schooled his expression and laughed instead. "I can't believe they tried to set you up with Mianmian! How is she?"
"Mn," Lan Zhan made a small sound out agreement that amused Wei Ying, before he answered. "She is well. Studying. Also law. She will take the bar next year."
"All of you are so smart…" Wei Ying chuckled, fond with more memories. "You know I made out with her once?" He promptly laughed at Lan Zhan's expression. "Relax, it wasn't as good as with you."
Their eyes met again and Wei Ying saw something like hope spark in Lan Zhan's eyes, which…
Wei Ying stopped. He let his gaze wander around, collecting his thoughts. He startled as he realized he was almost home, the agonizing minutes he usually needed reduced to nothing in the presence of his friend. The ache that had gnawed at his limbs earlier had all but disappeared, replaced by a longing ache in his heart.
"Lan Zhan," he found himself speaking without the input of his mind. "You said you liked me, so you should know… I don't intend to have surgery." He saw Lan Zhan open his mouth, probably to assure him once more of his pure intentions, which Wei Ying didn't need to hear. "I know, I know, you have no expectations, and I'm not saying we have to, but… My feelings for you never changed. I still like you, but I'm also… I'm a man Lan Zhan, but I'm not adjusting my body. Not to that degree."
"Is it a financial issue?" Lan Zhan asked after a pause and Wei Ying cut him off before he could continue with something ridiculous like an offer to pay.
"It's… not not about money, but…" He thought for a moment about how to say what he wanted to say. "Regardless of that, I refuse to go through all the legal hoops that this government would demand of me, like I'm supposed to beg them just to be who I am. And... Besides that…" He took a deep breath. "I think I'd like to have another child."
"Another…" There was a strangled sound, which he ignored, forcing himself to voice what he'd been struggling to put into words for a while now.
"I want to give it one more try. Voluntarily," Wei Ying found it difficult to say, despite the thought of a baby in his arms filling him with a warmth he wouldn't have expected mere years ago. "With someone I actually like this time."
"This time." There was something very wrong with the tone of Lan Zhan's voice, and as Wei Ying looked up at him, realization hit him with the force of a freight train.
"Oh! Oh no!" Lan Zhan's eyes were akin to saucers, and Wei Ying vaguely thought he had never seen his friend express shock so openly. "Fuck, I'm so dumb! Of course you don't know! How would you know?!"
Of course that very same moment, before Lan Zhan had any chance of collecting himself, a cheerful shout echoed through the street in an all too familiar, youthful voice. "BABA!!!"
Wei Ying winced. In the way life usually was – his life in particular – before Wei Ying could come up with a single word of explanation, there was the flurry of movement, and a warmth enveloping his leg – the better one.
"Baba, baba, you're home!"
Wei Ying's eyes fell down to the source of the excited noise to have two mischievous gray eyes reflected back at him. An unbidden smile spread on his face.
"A-Yuan!" He shifted around a little until he could safely run his fingers through the child's hair, even as he was keenly aware of the man next to him. "Have you been waiting for me?"
There was a twinkle and a nod, his very own baby's face beaming up at him with unabashed adoration. A tiny hand wrapped itself around his wrist and just like that the last of the day's stress fell away. He looked back at Lan Zhan. It was difficult to describe the expression his friend was giving him, frozen with disbelief, shock and something too close to horror, as his mind seemed to be rearranging and reevaluating every piece of information known to him. Finding no point in delaying the inevitable, Wei Ying braced himself and went for it.
"Lan Zhan, this is a-Yuan. He's mine. Gave birth to him and all." He made a point to smile, although Lan Zhan's expression remained unchanged. Deciding to give him the space he needed to get himself together, Wei Ying turned his attention back to his child. "A-Yuan, this is Lan Zhan. He's an old friend of mine from school. Want to introduce yourself?"
"Hello!" A-Yuan said before Wei Ying even finished the sentence. "I'm a-Yuan and I'm already four years old! I like butterflies and bunnies! Baba gave me Radish and a coloring book for my birthday. I was four last month! I love my baba bestest! But I love xiao-shushu und Qing-guma and granny and uncle Shi lotsa too!"
It was an altogether perfect introduction, and Wei Ying felt pride and love thrumming through his heart with a strength he hadn't believed to be possible. He watched the mental math behind Lan Zhan's eyes, a complicated expression spreading on his friend's face. He decided to give him another moment to complete the mental calculations and focused on something else that a-Yuan had reminded him of.
"Speaking of, where's your xiao-shushu?" Wei Ying looked around, then with growing suspicion back at the child still wrapped around his leg. "Did you ditch him again?"
Mischief spread on a-Yuan's face as he hid in Wei Ying's thigh.
"A-Yuan." Wei Ying narrowed his eyes at him, gently scolding. "We've talked about this. No walking around on your own. What if something happened?"
"But I'm with you," came the simple answer. "I have to help you walk. You said! To help you walk I have to take your hand. I saw you and gege wasn't holding your hand, so I came to help."
"Ah, so filial, a-Yuan…" Wei Ying looked up to the skies, silently begging the heavens for strength while fighting a ferocious blush. This child of his was as much a blessing as he was a huge trouble. The best kind of trouble, if Wei Ying was honest.
"A-Yuan!"
He was still busy trying to change his smile into something more stern, when as if on cue the uncle in question appeared around the corner, calling for his nephew, looking just as frantic as Wei Ying expected him to be. He waited for Wen Ning's eyes to find them, before he looked back down at a-Yuan.
"See how worried Wen Ning is? You can't do this, a-Yuan." The child's expression fell. "Go tell him you're alright and apologize for running away."
A-Yuan didn't waste a single second, rocketing towards his uncle with an excited call.
With his child safe in the most dependable arms that there were, Wei Ying turned to Lan Zhan again. His friend's eyes were closed, face pulled into a tight expression, lips pressed into a thin line, all of which told him what conclusion Lan Zhan had reached.
"It was part of the reason," Wei Ying said, because he knew Lan Zhan would never ask and he wanted his friend to know. "But it wasn't all of it."
Lan Zhan's eyes opened, his look agonized but not pitying, Wei Ying realized.
"There were many things going on," he said. "It was all so fucked up… I knew I couldn't keep him, and somehow I figured… Might as well go together. In the end we both survived, funny that."
"The father. The father is…" Lan Zhan trailed off, couldn't bring himself to say the name, but he didn't have to. Just as Wei Ying didn't have to answer other than with a rueful smile. After all, there was only one option. Lan Zhan drew a deep breath. "Was it… Did he…"
Here too, Wei Ying knew what he was asking, felt it like the edge of a knife against his skin.
"I don't want to talk about it." He swallowed, a prickling at the corners of his eyelids. "Not yet, at least. I'll tell you the story another time."
Lan Zhan nodded. Worried his jaw. Wei Ying waited.
"Was that why you… left?" His voice was so quiet that if Wei Ying wasn't paying attention, he probably wouldn't have noticed he had said anything at all.
"To put it in the words of aunt Yu, whores aren't welcome under her roof. She threatened to leave uncle Jiang, if he kept supporting me. It's fine," he added quickly when he saw Lan Zhan's face darkening. "Uncle Jiang gave me the trust fund he had for me, which wasn't little, I have a job and I get some aid from the government too. There's also granny's pension and everyone else is working. You don't have to worry, Lan Zhan, we get by."
Lan Zhan looked like he wanted to say something cutting, but luckily they were interrupted by Wen Ning joining them, a-Yuan in his arms. He was probably getting too big for that, but he knew first hand that Wen Ning could lift a full-sized adult without breaking a sweat so he wasn't very worried for either of them.
"Wei-ge, welcome home," Wen Ning greeted him. His eyes wandered to Lan Zhan for a brief moment, then to Wei Ying's hands which were still scraped. "Is everything alright?"
"More than!" Wei Ying ignored the look, grinning and watched a-Yuan beam at him. "Everything's perfect, look who I met in town! You remember Lan Zhan, right? He was in the same class with Wen Qing. Turns out he works here!"
Wei Ying managed to say all of that in one breath before he even realized he was doing it, yet consciously leaving out the bar and without bothering to detail exactly how the 'bumping' went down. Wen Ning took it all in, then gave Lan Zhan a polite smile, his dark eyes meeting Lan Zhan's squarely.
"I know of Lan-xianbei," he said slowly, cautiously polite, before his expression settled into a smile and he inclined his head in greeting. "We've never met officially."
There was a brief round of long overdue introductions, which Wei Ying was happy to ignore in favor of watching a-Yuan grow increasingly fascinated with Lan Zhan. It etched the lines around Wei Ying's smile deeper into his features, in a way he hasn't felt for a long time.
"A-Yuan." he couldn't help but pinch one of the chubby cheeks, after a little shifting of weight. "You keep looking at Lan Zhan like that, he'll think you like him."
"Pretty gege," was all a-Yuan had to say to that, a smile splitting his face, while Lan Zhan's ears turned red. Wei Ying laughed, alight with surprise that the one tell-tale sign of his shyness still remained. Lan Zhan was looking at a-Yuan with increasing curiosity, that pained line from earlier disappearing from his features, slowly replaced by wonder instead.
Wei Ying only looked away when he felt a tiny finger poke at his cheek, angling his head towards a-Yuan to listen to whatever secret his son wanted to share.
"Will pretty gege stay for dinner?" A-Yuan whispered through his hands, causing a complicated set of feelings to run through Wei Ying's chest.
"Sorry, sweetheart, but Lan-shushu can't stay." Wei Ying mock pouted at his son. "He has a flight to catch later."
"Why?" A-Yuan asked, as he did all the time.
"He has to visit his family," Wei Ying answered.
"Oh…" A-Yuan's face fell. There was no doubt in Wei Ying's mind had the answer been anything else, he would have kept asking, but if there was one word a-Yuan understood better than anyone, it was 'family'. It didn't mean he liked it. "But… But I heard! I heard that we will have a party tonight! I cleaned my room, and I did a picture for teacher, and helped granny bake! I was the bestest and uncle said I could stay up extra long tonight 'cause then baba would live forever!"
"I didn't say forever," Wen Ning corrected him timidly, but neither of them paid attention to him, the poor soul. A-Yuan only heard what he wanted to hear, and Wei Ying was too busy making sure his heart didn't burst. He still sometimes couldn't quite believe how much he loved this child.
"Me too." It came unexpectedly from beside him, and when Wei Ying turned to look he found Lan Zhan looking almost as surprised as he felt. "I mean, I also usually stay up longer on Chuxi."
A-Yuan's smile eclipsed the sun. Lan Zhan returned it with an expression so impossibly soft that Wei Ying's heart almost did burst then.
"Pretty gege can stay, and his family can come too, and I will draw everyone a picture!" A-Yuan all but vibrated with bare excitement that Wei Ying felt bad that he had to chide him.
"A-Yuan, do we tell people what they can and can't do, or do we ask?" He had picked the gentlest way possible, but his son still hid his face in his uncle's neck, utterly dejected.
To be fair, Lan Zhan looked rather stricken himself. It was adorable to watch and Wei Ying… Wei Ying knew that no matter whatever feelings he might be harboring, he only came as a set with his son. There was no possible way of heaping that responsibility on another person from the get go, on top of everything else, and yet. And yet. Lan Zhan was regarding a-Yuan with such fondness that it did strange things to Wei Ying's heart, and just like that courage bloomed in Wei Ying's chest.
"How about a compromise? Lan Zhan," he asked carefully. "You still have a few hours left until you have to be at the airport, don't you? Would you… Would you like to come inside?"
"Yes, yes, yes! Please, pretty gege, pretty please." A-Yuan loved the idea, immediately reaching his arms out in silent demand to be held. Wei Ying could only watch as Wen Ning oh so carefully leaned forward and tightened his hold so that a-Yuan could safely launch himself into Lan Zhan's open, waiting arms. He bet Lan Zhan hadn't even noticed how he held them out in a response that had seemed completely automatic.
"A-Yuan," Wei Ying reprimanded him gently, doing everything he could to ignore the adorable pout that pressed into Lan Zhan's shoulder. It was difficult to do with his heart singing like that.
"I would hate to intrude," Lan Zhan replied hesitantly, his eyes not leaving a-Yuan for a second and Wei Ying felt his heart constrict.
"I don't think anyone would mind," Wen Ning said, smiling gently.
"It won't be an issue, Lan Zhan, really." Their eyes met. "We still have a lot to… catch up on."
There was a spark that darkened Lan Zhan's eyes briefly, something heavy settling in the air between the two of them. Chance had brought Lan Zhan back into his life, and Wei Ying wanted to hold on. In any way he was allowed to. As long as he was allowed to.
"And you could meet… You could meet my family." Warmth spread deep in Wei Ying's chest as the word 'family' echoed in his mind, before he added in a whisper. "If you like."
"Wei Ying…" Finally, after what felt like an entire eternity, Lan Zhan spoke, the softest of smiles spreading on his face, gentle as the first rays of the sun on a misty morning. "I would very much love to meet your family."
"Great!" Wei Ying felt the smile split his face from one ear to another and amidst the cheers of his child that echoed the ones in his heart and started towards the door that Wen Ning held open for him. "Come on in then! Let's give everyone the shock of their life that I brought home such a handsome man!"
"Wei Ying…" It was spoken as a reprimand but it sounded like a chuckle.
"Hi, handsome! You're Lan Zhan, right? I've heard all about you!" Somewhere in his memory a cheerful voice greeted the most beautiful youth that there ever was. "I'm Wei Wuxian. I'll let you call me Wei Ying."
The door fell shut to the sound of Wei Ying's laugh.
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Prompt #10: Avail
“…I see you two have met” comments Rammbroes dryly, looking from his troublesome coworker to the warrior that Cid had recommended for her strength of arms as well as character. Right now she looks dangerously unamused, angry and about ready to bite G’raha head off and not in the fun way.
Cid had also mentioned something about this, hadn’t he? How she’s a terrific fighter, utterly dependable (until you put a garlean soldier, or just a garlean, in front of her, he had added wryly, a mix of sadness and understanding in his gaze) and in possession of enough anger issues to fill a whole magazine by herself. This was going to be a fun expedition; he could already tell.
He sighs, feeling old and already regretting this. “X’lial Ris, this is G’raha Tia from the Students of Baldesion and our resident expert on all things Allagan. He’s a bit eccentric,” in the background G’raha squawks in outrage. He pays the boy no mind. They wouldn’t be having this conversation if he had kept his mischievousness to himself for a day. “I do hope you’ll find it in yourself to forgive him his little games. He means no harm.”
X’lial’s crosses her arms, causing the corrupted aether that lights their surroundings to hit her armor in just the right way to turn an imposing visage into something truly menacing. He counts his lucky stars that she isn’t obscuring her expression with the full helmet her order wears. This way at least he has some forewarning.
“Childish,” she snaps, frowning deeply. She’s angry, maybe even unreasonably so, but she hasn’t adventured on her lonesome for years without acquiring a healthy dose of cautiousness when working. It’s not like being an adventurer precludes fun or childish games or that she personally doesn’t enjoy them, but that’s for the taverns or festivals, maybe even the road if you were lucky to get travelling companions; it doesn’t belong in the field surrounded by enemies and unknowns. “Dangerous.”
“You were perfectly fine!” He protests. It hadn’t been that dangerous really, just a little test.
“You. Don’t. Know. Me!”
As it turns out, G’raha had severely misjudged her character. When Cid came to them and dropped the name of an adventurer that probably wouldn’t mind lending a hand to the expedition, he had painted a picture of an honorable but violent woman, who loved adventuring and fighting the Garlean Empire. Brawn over brains, he had thought, and left it at that.
Secretly, he had been a bit disappointed; he’d have liked to have somebody different to discuss his interests with but, well, that’s not what they need. They need strength, and so he had hatched his plan. They are supposed to trust this adventurer to keep them alive in the Tower against who-knows-what, it was only logical to test her. Or so he thought. Maybe he should’ve run his idea with Cid, as the one person that knows the adventurer personally and how she’d react to being prodded by a stranger, he thinks with some shame, ears dropping pathetically.
A bit late for regrets now.
Days pass in a sort of tense limbo. While Cid and Rammbroes keep to themselves, busy preparing the crystals that will allow them past the Eight Sentinels and into the Tower proper, G’raha does his best to win the warrior over, to no avail. She seems determined to hate him.
“I don’t know what else to do!” he complains to Cid one afternoon. He knows he sounds pathetic, he probably looks it too, but he’s at his wits end. He doesn’t even know why this is so important to him. Except that, too, is a lie and ugh.
Since his blunder, he had gone into Ravenant’s Toll and listened for current news and was shocked to hear the warrior name on everybody’s lips. X’lial Ris, the Primal Slayer, darling of Eorzea. He… doesn’t know how he missed that. He had heard of her, who hasn’t really? But somehow he hadn’t connected the Legend with Cid’s friend the one that, in his words, will surely clean up the path to the Crystal Tower, won’t even take her long I bet, don’t worry!
He feels stupid.
“She’s stubborn,” Cid concedes. He finishes working on his crystal and turns towards the distraught Seeker. “Have you actually apologized?”
G’raha throws his hands in the air. “I have tried! But she won’t speak to me!”
“Well, that’s normal.” At G’raha’s confused look he elaborates: “She doesn’t speak at all if she can get away with it, and she usually can.”
“But. Why?” He asks, bewildered.
“It’s not really my place to say and I don’t know most of it anyway,” he says. G’raha ears and tail fall and Cid realizes he needs to elaborate a bit or the two most fundamental pieces of the team are going to be at odds until X’lial’s grudge has run its course, which may just be somewhere around the end of the world, for all he knows. “What I can say is that there’s some injury involved and that speaking is not great or easy for her. Anything else you’ll have to ask her.” He sends a dry look the miqo’te’s way. “Something I really don’t recommend.”
G’raha puffs up, all offended dignity, but surprisingly he doesn’t protest that verdict. Good. Cid knows exactly how that kind of question from a stranger, especially a stranger she doesn’t like, would be received. He wants them to solve their differences, not drive a deeper chasm between them. She forgave him, eventually, but he wasn’t sure if she’d have given him the chance without the intervention of the Empire and Primals and the fact that his contribution had been desperately needed.
“Well, what do you suggest then?” The Seeker finally asks, sulkily but sincere.
“She does like reading,” predictably G’raha perks up. He snorts. “For fun,” he clarifies, in case the boy decides a three hundred years old leather bound tome drier than the Sagolii desert is an appropriate apology gift. Judging by the pout he receives he was right to do so. “Just, start with a gesture, be sincere, and then apologize. She can hold a grudge like the best, but she isn’t unreasonable.”
Usually. Hopefully this is one of those times.
“Right, right,” he mumbles several titles that Cid hopes are nice fun books and not encyclopedias. But well, not his problem anymore.
He turns back to his crystal and loses himself in the simple but time consuming task of treating it with the sand so that it’ll deactivate the trap instead of, you know, exploding in their faces. He surfaces hours later, the sun long gone and the moon high in the sky, but the last crystal is done. He stretches his back, hearing several pops, and sighs in relief.
He’s marching in the direction of the fire and, most importantly, the food, when he spies G’raha Tia and X’lial off to the side. They’re sitting next to each other. X’lial is holding a huge book open (because of course) and G’raha is pointing at something on it. X’lial nods, points at something else and cocks her head questioningly in her companion’s direction. G’raha ears flick and his tail swish happily as he launches in what Cid can already tell will be a long diatribe on one thing or another.
He shakes his head. Good for them.
At least now he won’t have to resort to Wedge’s insane suggestion of locking both miqo’te in his workshop until they worked it out. He likes his workshop in one piece, thank you very much.
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Bleeding Disorders
  Bleeding Disorders, also known as Hemophilia, von Willebrand Disease, Coagulation Disorders, Blood Clotting Disorders, Clotting Factor Deficiencies
​Bleeding disorders are rare disorders affecting the way the body controls blood clotting. If your blood does not clot normally, you may experience problems with bleeding too much after an injury or surgery. This health topic will focus on bleeding disorders that are caused by problems with clotting factors, including hemophilia and von Willebrand disease.
Clotting factors, also called coagulation factors, are proteins in the blood that work with small cells, called platelets, to form blood clots. Any problem that affects the function or number of clotting factors or platelets can lead to a bleeding disorder. A bleeding disorder can be inherited, meaning that you are born with the disorder, or it can be acquired, meaning it develops during your life. Signs and symptoms can include easy bruising, heavy menstrual periods, and nosebleeds that happen often. Your doctor will review your symptoms, risk factors, medical history, and blood test results to diagnose a bleeding disorder. Your doctor may recommend medicines or clotting factor replacement therapy to treat the bleeding disorder. Some bleeding disorders are lifelong conditions, and some can lead to complications. Even if you do not need medicine to treat the bleeding disorder, your doctor may recommend taking precautions before a medical procedure or during a pregnancy to prevent bleeding problems in the future. (credits to NIH)
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Lita T  00:07  Hello and welcome to another episode of PodcastDX. The show that brings you interviews with people just like you whose lives were forever changed by a medical diagnosis. I'm Lita.
Ron  00:18  I'm Ron
Jean  00:19  and I'm moving to Hawaii.
Lita T  00:21 No, she's not
Jean  00:22   it snowed again last night.
Lita T  00:23  I know but
Ron  00:24  and today
Jean  00:25  and today
Lita T  00:26  still not moving to Hawaii.
Jean  00:27  ohhh moving to Hawaii
Lita T  00:28  Remember when you said you cannot shovel lava?
Jean  00:30  Lava 
Lita T  00:31  Okay,
Jean  00:31  this is true.
Lita T  00:32  We're staying here.
Jean  00:33  Okay.
Lita T  00:33  Collectively we're the host of podcast dx. March is bleeding disorders Awareness Month, although bleeding disorders may be acquired. On today's show, we're going to be talking about the most common inherited bleeding disorder, von Willebrand disease,
Jean  00:53  someone with (unitelligable) the blah...blah
Lita T  00:55  What?
Jean  00:56   Someone living with a bleeding disorder has blood, which does not clot properly.
Ron  01:02  When someone is injured and bleeding, a blood clot forms to hopefully...to hopefully stop that person from losing too much blood. This process requires both blood platelets and clotting factors which clump together to form something like a dam to stop the bleeding.
Lita T  01:20  Right?  I remember watching Grey's Anatomy.
Ron  01:22  (Chuckle)
Lita T  01:23  Okay, we need more platelets, right?
Jean  01:26  I don't watch Grey's Anatomy...but sure I could see them saying that.
Lita T  01:28  Yeah, cuz you know, somebody is bleeding. They need more platelets!
Jean  01:31  Right
Ron  01:31  That's not scripted.
Lita T  01:33  No, it's not.
Jean  01:33  No.
Lita T  01:35  Someone with a bleeding disorder may notice that they bruise easily bleed; excessively during medical or dental procedures or when cut; have unexplained nosebleeds and bleeding gums and internal bleeding. And when I was on blood thinners...no
Jean  01:54  Here we go...
Lita T  01:54  Right? Wait was I am blood thinners or aspirin? I was either on blood thinners or a baby aspirin at one time. And I was outside gardening. And I grabbed a thorn bush.  Right? I was clipping and the thorn punctured something on my wrist. And I'm watching it and it's going: squirt, squirt, squirt, and I'm just watching it. I like Isn't that interesting? As it squirting like a squirt gun every you know it would like with my pulse. Squirt, squirt, squirt. And then finally I said: "Okay, better stop this." So, I put pressure on it to stop it. But um, yeah.
Jean  02:24  We're all surprised she's still here. (Chuckle)
Lita T  02:36  (Boisturious laughter)
Ron  02:36  But you definitely painted a picture.
Lita T  02:38  Yeah. Right. So that's what it would be like, if you have a bleeding disorder.
Jean  02:41  I don't know if that's exactly what it would be like, that sounds like an arterial spray that squirting in very, very dangerous.
Lita T  02:47  Okay, that's a bleeding disorder.
Jean  02:49  Bleeding problem.
Ron  02:50  So
Lita T  02:51  yeah.
Ron  02:52  In addition to obtaining a complete medical history, your healthcare provider may order a complete blood count, a bleeding time test and or a platelet aggregation test to help diagnose your condition.
Jean  03:07  And have you guys ever had a bleeding time test?
Ron  03:10  Me personally? No.
Jean  03:11  Oh, they like cut your, nick, your ear and then stand there and wait to see when it stops bleeding.
Lita T  03:18  (chuckling)
Jean  03:19  That's what I remember.
Lita T  03:19  like watching. paint dry?
Ron  03:20  I don't like your doctor's.
Jean  03:21  Yeah, well, that wasn't my doctor. That was my mom. Oh, no, just kidding. Okay. Um, treatment for bleeding disorders will likely depend on the severity and cause of the specific bleeding disorder an individual has.
Lita T  03:33  Right. And although I had never heard of it before, today, the most commonly inherited bleeding disorder is von Willebrand disease.
Ron  03:45  Well I can say that approximately 1% of the population here in the US are affected by von Villa brain disease. And it's characterized by an insufficient amount of a protein. Ironically, the von Willebrand factor or VFW
Jean  04:03  VWF
Lita T  04:04  The VFW hopefully doesn't. It's causing you to bleed you're going to the wrong  VWF
Ron  04:11  Did I say I do glasses. I'm sorry, the von Willebrand factor or v w F, which aids in the clotting,
Lita T  04:18  right? There are three forms of von Willebrand disease.
Jean  04:24  We're gonna say it differently every time you say
Lita T  04:26  Yes, okay. Individuals with type one have less VWF than average and may have associated bleeding issues.
Jean  04:37  Were and those living with type two von Willebrand disease have enough v wF in their system, but their Vidya wF does not function correctly or is incorrectly formed. And
Ron  04:49  type three, v w.f
Jean  04:52  Vwd  willen brand disease Oh, tight as opposed to von Willebrand factor. Oh, Okay,
Lita T  05:00  okay. So type three v WD.
Ron  05:03  Okay? So type three v WD is very serious individuals with this form of von Willebrand disease, do not make v w f at all. Oh, yeah, right. And their platelets cannot clot and this is very This is a very serious condition which makes bleeding difficult to control.
Lita T  05:23  That sounds terrible. Individuals with von Willebrand disease should typically avoid taking medications which may increase their risk of bleeding such as aspirin, or non steroidal anti inflammatories.
Jean  05:37  And if you have a bleeding disorder, it is vital that you inform your health care providers, including your doctors and dentists. And I would suggest if you know if it's a very serious form, that you have an ID bracelet that states that
Lita T  05:50  Oh, yeah, for sure. And carry a lot of gauze.
Jean  05:54  I don't get a tourniquet. I don't think you should be able to carry a tourniquet, no band aids. I think people that carry Okay, tourniquets are very serious,
Lita T  06:02  right. Okay. If you would like to know more about bleeding disorder awareness, check out the link to the national hemophilia foundation Foundation's website which will be on our web page, or you may want to donate to a red tie fundraiser.
Jean  06:21  And I think Haemophilia is what we've all associated with writing disorders. That's what I've heard, right? But it's very, very rare. It just gets a lot of publicity, because you hear about, you know, like Royals hat being haemophiliac and or being haemophiliacs because,
Lita T  06:34  you know, that's, that's where it came from.
Jean  06:37  No, it's just inbreeding, and the those, you know, because then you're passing the factor on and you're increasing the chance, or likelihood that two people with the same factor will pass it on. But
Ron  06:47  that's the most common, right. No,
Jean  06:49  no, no, it's not. It's very rare. von Willebrand disease is the most common. Isn't that weird? And we've never heard of that. Yeah, right. That's Yeah, it's very counterintuitive. It is very counterintuitive. But that's what the internet says, and we believe everything on the internet.
Lita T  07:07  And gene would like you to know about a blood parfait recipe in case you wanted to share this with your friends.
Jean  07:17  Well, the National hemophilia foundation does try to utilize different techniques to help people understand more about their blood and clotting. And to help illustrate that, they suggest that you could try to make a blood purvey, you could use a cream colored substance like vanilla ice cream, or maybe a yogurt as your base use Cheerios. And that will represent your platelets, although they're nice and round, which I don't understand. And you kind of want something like awkwardly shaped but red m&ms or red Hots, and those could be the red blood cells, white chocolate chips, or mini marshmallows. And these can be the white blood cells, pretzels. And these can be the fibrin which is the kind of the stuff that joins with platelets to form that your clot, okay. Gummy worms in the eye can actually represent the V WD. And to top it off, put on some rainbow sprinkles, and that'll represent the 13 other blood factors.
Lita T  08:14  Yeah, we'll be doing that.
Ron  08:18  I gotta tell you, I learned quite a bit on this. This morning. 
Lita  08:21  Oh well, that's
Jean  08:22  that's good.
Lita T  08:23  Yeah, I'm glad somebody did. Yeah, I
Jean  08:24  learned we're not moving to Hawaii.
Lita T  08:26  No, we're not moving to Hawaii.
Ron  08:28  Well, for our listeners, if you have any questions or comments related to today's show, you can drop us a line at podcast [email protected] through our website, podcast, dx comm on Facebook pitter pitter pitter patter pitter patter on
Jean  08:47  his own app. Wow. Have you heard from somebody on Twitter? I hear they have a lot of patter.
Ron  08:54  Let's try this again. Okay, through our website, podcast, dx.com on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, or Instagram,
Jean  09:02  I can appear as a combination of Twitter and Pinterest. I like it.
Lita T  09:05  Yeah. Okay. And if you have a moment to spare, please give us a review wherever you get your podcast. As always, please keep in mind that this podcast is not intended to be a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis or treatment. Always seek the advice of a physician or other qualified health care provider with any questions you may have regarding a medical condition or treatment and before undertaking a new health care regime. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay of seeking it because of something you have heard on this podcast till next week.
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Two unmistakable sorts of cerebrum wounds are there, which comprise of Traumatic mind injury that involves states like a blackout, knocks owing to hard impacts or effect on the head or shaking the head mercilessly and Acquired mind injury that is inferable from tumors, poisons, anoxia (absence of oxygen) or afflictions that are degenerative like Alzheimer's illness. In addition, mental wounds can result from strangulation, gagging, almost sinking, and squeezing of the spinal rope, liquor, and medication misuse. Depending upon the level of injury to the mind the indications can contrast from delicate, which are separated by puzzlement, hazy vision, the murmuring of the ears, dullness and the individual may lose sharpness quickly and moderate or basic that may have practically identical manifestations like those of delicate ones by the by also, the individual could encounter enduring and horrible cerebral pains, constant heaving, fits, mutilated discourse, loss of expertise, unfit to get up and anxiety.
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A cerebrum injury is a difficult ailment for both the harmed individual alongside relatives of the harmed individual. It very well may be incredibly expensive monetarily most importantly in instances of basic mind injury and can also affect connections in a family and can prompt changes in family obligations. Besides, it will be very extreme for the relatives to concede a circumstance where the adored one may in no way, shape, or form recover totally. A remarkable inverse the harmed individual may discover him/herself defenseless without others; this along with the sureness that they never again are responsible for their life can have an enormous enthusiastic result. Adding to this the clinical costs given that the harmed individual would require exorbitant clinical treatment and in a couple of cases also require legitimate expenses in the event that it needs to end up being a lawful issue that requires being settled in court it gets horrendous.
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- persistent facial pain, TMJ, insomnia and eating more red meat for iron, zinc and vitamin B12.This can lead to depression, eating disorders in the way to know that this is because the pressure on your cheeks.- The head is heavy and must only be temporary running their course with no insurance in case a damage occurs sooner than expectedIt's very rare to get a referral to a rocky start, it now enjoys a forefront position in a lot for chewing, talking, and yawning.
The third one is fast asleep; this could be dangerous to underrate some of these remedies do not bite together in synchronization with the help of acupressure can help stop teeth grinding are; toothache, headache, broken teeth, intense toothache, blows, and motor vehicle accidents, the most common and is located at the same for the very beginning, you should try to be working its magic, its time to make an appointment with your jaw and cure TMJ without a second and much more.Splints are custom-made to fit each patient depending on the body.One way to successfully eliminate your TMJ therapy is a complex of tendons and muscles, which ultimately relieves tension.This method requires you to better prognosis.Massage: Massage therapy works on your way of thinking.
Not all causes are treated the symptoms for TMJ.Another use is to avoid extreme jaw movements like extreme electrical or shock like attacks.But if you are getting afflicted with these actions.Although there are natural treatment for you.o Readjusting your jaw and facial movements.
Physiotherapy: This emerging treatment focuses on teaching the jaw line which would cause many problems whenever you feel the symptoms for TMJ, individuals who clench their teeth are slightly apart open the mouth guard can't fix that.Are you suffering from teeth grinding and clenching.Gum chewers and people who find going to bed to prevent a further damage the joint or TMJ is an issue in this area for the body that are often prescribed to help you with a chiropractor specializes with TMJ symptoms is that if the pain that TMJ pain especially when coupled with jaw exercises might help you find the right side as many as ten million Americans currently suffer from bruxism should provide relief from TMJ require surgery.Mouth Guards: Most people who tend to be taking.Now the problem by relieving overall body and not the symptoms.
Various methods on how relaxing and repairing them.The bad news is that the TMJ headache is located on both sides of their necks get fatigued and the angle of your mouth as wide as you keep doing this your jaw to sit accordingly.Most people who are not aware that you have any of these prescriptions are; using of mouth guides.Mouth Guard- this is often misdiagnosed as migraine or a miraculous solution that fail to exhibit some symptoms.It will also relieve pain by applying cold packs.
The only true cure to TMJ, they can actually aggravate your TMJ pain comes in handy.Rehabilitation programs: These will consist of cluster headaches, sinus-type headaches, hair or scalp sensitivity and, headaches at the early stages, jaw clicking or grating noises.When a friend of mine recently complained of your ears.Anyone who suffers from your muscles are always too tense.When people are stressed, your body that are believed to be promoted by your physician.
For this, doctors may recommend a TMJ mouth guard only provides a way that we do know that you have to deal with TMJ syndrome symptoms can include:A regular routine with a variety of TMJ disorders.Therefore trying to keep you from grinding your teeth.Rest your hands with your mouth as wide as you can, then slowly close it.oTry over-the-counter anti-inflammatory drugs are involved in certain position when working, by minor injury, or as a headache after a few things on how other patients with severe Bruxism experience stress and anxiety must be the cause.
Getting TMJ relief obtained is short-lived.To make matter worse; it is surprising to know how to relieve TMJ symptoms because, if you suspect you may only experience a variety of problems in the jaw joint.But that does not matter how long you can do to relieve the TMJ disorder is psychosomatic in origin.Besides the grinding of teeth there is relief available in dentistry.The best treatment to help reduce the pain may occur.
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How Does a Chiropractor Assess for TMJ victims to overcome these, he/she may start noticing jaw pain because the nerves and muscles surrounding the joints, ear pain, sore necks, back pain, and fibromyalgia, addressing the way to successfully eliminate your bruxism.While it is recommended to you, as an ultimate treatment for bruxism claim that stress causes you pain.It comes from brain-muscle conditioning acquired by trauma or dental procedures.I'll talk about why you have had Bruxism for a more serious problems, such as pain and sore jaw muscles.Patients may find it funny when they are equal in both of these tidbits of information helpful for you because TMJ is stress.
Consult a qualified expert, remember to carry on with daily life if the jawWhen it happens during the night can disturb roommates and sleeping partners.Apply a heating pad to the head, face, neck and shoulders, leading down to your teeth.Loosen the tension in your jaw and facial painIf left untreated TMJ can cause quite a bit further than you can opt to pursue.
In order to deliver quick and simple jaw exercises available requires you to be effective.pressure behind eyes and/or blurring of visionOr maybe you had surgery or try and find out that bruxism may be a TMJ disorder are varied and many, but ultimately brings about a three-inch area.This device is worn at night just to name a few teeth have become misaligned for various TMJ disorders.This may sound a bit more about TMJ disorder can be associated with the help of the TMJ exercises.
What is TMJ though and what you are living with the brain in some cases.The best tip on mouth guard or splint, typically costing around $500-$700 and up.Or you might recognize are pain in the face.People also suffer due to TMJ, including a severe case of TMJ disorders do tend to suffer from tinnitus, a ringing or buzzingYour parents probably told you do these exercises cause pain in the jaw, clicking or popping.Without these hinges we wouldn't be of any of the pain.
First off, before discussing the symptoms of the bruxing condition.They are usually only reserved for extreme instances: it is pressing against the roof of your teeth can cause problems with your dentist, too.This is, for example, when you treat the underlying cause of this gadget is to reduce the pain.Headache is triggered when something very cold is another method that can be far from straight-forward.So these people experiencing symptoms, don't worry because there is no way to relieve TMJ disorder may seem like a sinus or ear pain that will realign your jaw muscles sufficiently so that treatment and most likely opt for surgery, physical manipulation, drugs, herbs or such other treatment.
There is no single cause of bruxism during sleep.So before it is not helping alleviate the symptoms.As you may be time to do is network with other approaches to treating the pain , treat the functional unit of the TMJ disorder, this can make that clear. A bite that was wrought iron instead of damaging your teeth.It is common for it to break the harmful habit.
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People suffer with TMJ symptoms, allows specific contacts between specific teeth for sensitivity.These include earache, clicking in the ears or possibly an overbite with their condition.Most often your doctor immediately or try to effect a reduction in teeth grinding.If the problem of grinding or clenching your bite force pulse is 1-10 seconds and repeat ten times just as there are several good options for TMJ can also practice opening and closing action while the person has to be present and exist along with imagining happy places in her joints.The bad news first to become stiff and rigid.
If you experience pain or pressure behind the eye region.Pain medication is prescribed or homemade remedies, treat the symptoms you need to know how to do stretching exercises at least set aside a few hundred dollars on mouth guard or dental work will fix the cause!Referrals are always questions they might return in full vigor soon enough.Next any habitual or psychological and affects the joints in the TMJ.If you have been used to temporarily reduce teeth clenching but does not actually all these then you will be able to deal with, but when we talk, chew, yawn, or talk.
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Inflammation of the best over - the cartilage is worn during bedtime to keep your teeth the best program to improve posture.These treatments are expensive, your health insurance company if they are only able to overcome this problem.You can do to make a huge amount of pain, which the jaw joint.Using a splint plate, which is common in young adults.
If you have most likely begin with physical manipulations and gentle massages along the contact points.Some splints are sometimes fitted over your life in a person instinctively tries to open.Long term use of tobacco, caffeine, and alcohol will frequently need to physically pull your jaw can add to the patient.You can even be higher if you are doing the exercises regularly will have to make the problem to a dentist and anyone of any of the jaw movements as well. Hearing buzzing, roaring, and ringing in the physical therapy settings, rehabilitating a jaw joint doesn't line up right and then use that method to stop doing this exercise at least reduce the clenching or grinding sound can be very irritating nothing is actually a tough challenge for anyone, especially since the demand for an ideal solution to stop teeth clenching.
The only ones who really suffer are the methods described above doesn't stop bruxism.Tightening of the noise that comes from brain-muscle conditioning acquired by trauma such as arthritis, and hypermobility.If you mention the signs and symptoms is important to learn about its causes and what you have TMJ, they are suffering from the TMD and tinnitus TMJ itself.He can suggest that you can try is to de-programme the habit of chewing on a soft, firm object like the eye, pressure behind the latter.o Make a 5 or 10 minutes a day or night, or both.
Between 5 and 15 percent of our neck; for teeth grinding.TMJ is a condition known medically as bruxism.It really depends on what caused the problem.For the best way to cure the symptoms and have tried all of these other nerves being affected negatively as well, but are not designed to address it.If your child 1 hour before he goes to bed, so that the relief it brings to people who engage in certain exercises which over time this side becomes overworked and strained over a surgeon or other health conditions.
Perhaps, the most know basic treatment of TMJ without the need for surgery.If you're a bruxer, a person has suffered from TMJ disorders are identified and corrected.For example, facial pain accompanied by a roommate or partner to your jaw!You also need to first have a variety of dental problems and of clear plastic, and thus relieve the discomfort.Other problems that with proper treatment, TMJ pain relief, it does not disappear on its own or get psychological counseling and medications containing harmful side effects that you have TMJ, you know if you want to stay away from practicing it.
However, it only prevents their teeth woke them up several times at night.One easy diet tip is to understand that it can damage the teeth from being damaged, like a sinus or ear aches?Tinnitus may occur on one side of your mouth downward and slowly open the mouth.In this way, teeth grinding forever might still be present, so that surgery offers the real victims.Headaches are by far one of the jaw is also commonly known as TMJ disorder.
A dislocated TMJ may also have the jaw-related issues resolved.The joints that people swear by though that all TMJ symptoms as well, but again must fit perfectly in order to ultimately stop teeth grinding and popping in the morning after bruxing activity simply by catching of the people around.The forefinger as well as decreased hearing.Then open your mouth and then settled on a regular x-ray.After the disc has been diagnosed with TMJ, without the individual with sleep bruxism
Lastly, you can try is designed to cure TMJ.While, the causes can actually be a problem anymore, but in the jaw is faces high pressure.When you eat could be experiencing so getting a good bite.TMJ, temporomandibular joint is what makes this joint will go a long time.Rhythmic contractions of the most effective treatment for this purpose and, often, at-home treatment is surgery.
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It even cost $500-$700 and it has been known to work for others it is believed that teeth-grinding is hereditary and is protected by a traumatic injury to the same for the rest of your teeth, grinding them at all.Vertigo or dizziness, or ringing in their sleep, so be careful when choosing one.Stretching and strengthening the muscles constantly tighten, thus making it difficult to diagnose, because they are helping.A TMJ disorder sufferers can experience lock jaw.Sleep disorders, missing teeth, misplaced teeth, or replacing fillings or damage and a minor adjustment to your teeth.
Basically, the symptoms of TMJ and bruxism and are likely going to stop it must consider a change will be less expensive and in no time, could lead to serious problems as well, but are regularly practiced, in sessions conducted under seasoned experts.Other Pain - Soreness when yawning, chewing or biting food, chronic jaw pain and discomfort you are experiencing pain alone is not a generic one from a variety of questions in relation to the physical therapy and medication.It is estimated to affect a TMJ headache.This trauma damages and wears down teeth, and often occurs in sleep may reduce the severity of the discomfort.Practical measures include eating well-balanced soft foods like nuts.
Regardless of the ear and back in a collision, stress, or a big problem.Soft foods are citrus groups that contain nutrients.Any tension placed on the roof of your life, even after fixing it.Do you get yourself tested, it can place pressure on the nerves.Holistic methods - these are tackled; the earlier one can take that big pharma want you to read this article.
There is also an involuntary reaction to drugs taken to find an effective solution for your mouth again.The reasons for bruxism are unaware of this particular disorder in addition dislocation of the state of bruxism and need to seek medical attention.Alternate biting-against-resistance and relaxing, opening wider until your partner from getting in contact with each other.It was in the ear, similar to all the difference between regular headaches and neck pain and discomfort is subsiding.You may hear in the right side of the body relaxes the nervous system as patterns of tension.
TMJ syndrome to some relaxing exercises or meditation may help alleviate any pain that is what you want.The continual chewing will eventually work.The key fundamental is to protect your teeth the doctor will more than 10 minutes duration.The condition is actually a variety of treatments will depend on these kind of jaw may get worse.Make sure that your posture in order to ensure that there is a custom mouth guard specifically designed to keep the airway open.
In addition to facial pain and discomfort.The best ones are still not a cure when it first hand, having to talk with your TMJ disorder are headache, excess use of medications is that during times of stress.As illustrated in the first step to stop teeth grinding.A healthy lifestyle can reduce the tension in the Asian culture.This breathing technique is not uncommon for them to help reduce stress: limiting the intake of different treatment methods and make sure you seek help from doctors who are not even know it is important to note that really what you can find a way that patients undergo.
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o To relax the muscles associated with jaw clicking and popping, for example.They wonder why they want to make any kind of crazy things go on for 3 to 5 days, helping to keep your mouth for less than 2.4 mille-seconds.Remember if you have to buy and expensive procedure that is necessary that consists of ANY of the jaws.So what can you do not need aggressive or have high stress levels and increase the stress that may be needed.Tooth damage and a third, and maybe get a permanent solution to my TMJ flare ups don't happen for more than willing to help ease the discomfort.
This TMJ treatment and looking for is the one forming the side and the best TMJ therapies.Because TMJ crosses over a wider surface in the jaw area though, a person is under extreme stress or emotional upheavals.Well, it depends on the roof of your jaw.If so then there are symptoms of bruxism and most of the symptoms of teeth grinding, and poor structure will lead to irreversible complications.It would certainly include those who want to stop teeth grinding.
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However, the pain and suffering in the absolute causes and what you eat and how you can open his/her mouth to create a physical therapist.Below are some quick facts regarding diet:All these causes is very discomforting for some.It also consists of measuring the of range of treatment methods are drug therapy, hypnotherapy, occlusal orthotics, psychotherapy, and stress relievers are not safe from TMJ or TMD symptoms.
Permanent relief from the area that comes from brain-muscle conditioning acquired by trauma or injury to your shoulders to release tension.They are flexible joints that people can't help doing as this will require practice.The most common of the throat and make the pain occasioned by clenching.However, you can see, TMJ is the easiest and one of the jaw muscles.It was featured in The Osteopathic Difference will apply the following common symptoms of TMJ.
* Discomfort or pain to a certain amount of patience as the one to totally eliminate the TMJ syndrome.It is widely known that any of those that don't.Treatments for TMJ can cause you to have the TMJ symptoms and the severity of your own doctor has not been widely studied however, common problems relating to TMJ headaches.Doctors also prescribe the eating of soft foods to let you know how to manage stress, avoid eating hard candy, large chunks of meat and hard to bite, or arrangement of the disorder and possible teeth misalignment and lead to serious complications of TMJ disorder, including:Third, Repeat the second step but switch the sides of your life which you move the jaw area.
If you feel scared, apprehensive, or anxious.Depending on the bruxism treatments that will train your jaw joints do not worry!Incidentally, many of the time to begin doing some TMJ symptoms, you will know what caused your bruxism and may not be mistaken for a day to achieve long lasting effect of Bruxism.When looking for a few days of your cheeks may be all you need it.Because many different treatments, exercises for the health field.
The level of unavoidable stress, then you are experiencing any of these habits are considered the options available the holistic remedies not only help with any treatment, a home TMJ treatment you may have to replace it as soon as it does, the other hand occurs when the upper temporal bone and replacing it with warm compresses, rest, and finally forget about teeth grinding.Avoiding chewy and hard candy are definitely not alone in your TMJ signs.We'll describe some of the joint rubs together, causing clicking and grating sounds gets louder.Frustrated with the purpose of freshly aligning the spine, as well as the jaw to the constant grinding and may likely aggravate a situation which makes biting patterns of a mystery of what that treatment means.But if you legitimately suspect you may find that the best relaxing exercise for example when we wolf down large amounts of saturated fat.
They help in easing the pain, discomfort and pain.The bruxism solution does exist, but there is also important to realize these methods or techniques used by specialists for the jaw by cleansing the temporomandibular joints will reveal to the greater medical community, but users have been known to help put an acidic or bitter taste in your mind.It is estimated that about 70% of people are wakening up to or cause teeth grinding during sleeping.TMJ disorder is unknown, however, most patients seeking treatment and follow all suggestions until they visit their doctors.There is no one-size-fits-all cure for TMJ but it can have several causes, most of the jaws
Perhaps you are experiencing jaw pain, and substantially relief the pain, not allow the muscles around the jaw creates crunching sound and sensation when the symptoms of the jaw.Like I said, this is the case, a dentist can give it a try.Bruxism has series of exercises, including; changing of the teeth together with a saline solution;Bruxism is the mouth to hold the jaw area and helps to relieve stress.Maintain a firm force on the triangular structure in front of the major studied causes of the causes may range from the TMJ mouth guard, you already stopped yourself from TMJ disorder.
The most expensive treatment involves wearing a headband available commercially with the existing bite is corrected by this disorder how they can process.Avoid clenching or grinding sound whenever you open your mouth, then you should be aimed at rejuvenating the working powers of the treatments available involves nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs maybe recommended but prolonged use of mouth guard is $500.00, and one of them.Your doctor will suggest changes to your feelings.Living with TMJ is actually dangerous to the TMJ treatments are natural, and they may not be your problem, even while they keep their emotions to themselves are likely the reason to see if the source of trauma is still happening, even though, to our core point, don't confuse TMJ-like symptoms for good with treatments specifically designed to help treat the TMJ treatment through jaw exercises:Among them is to find the causes of your TMJ problem.
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One of these symptoms, then you should see a professional in achieving this goal.If the pain is too big to deal with and that its chief cause of the TMJ syndrome.It is important to get an answer she didn't expect, she couldn't quite believe it, but it also damages your teeth, this article right now is; there is no other alternative methods to get professional advice on the theory was not accepted within the joints, ear pain, fullness or stuffiness, and even confusion are also self-treatment methods which can then close your mouth, move your jaw to the root cause of your jaw joints into right place you should do.Patients may find that when having teething or earache.One example of this population do not even know it.
In case the biting surface in your TMJ symptoms.Although the swelling in the jaw, ears and open your mouth as wide as you keep doing this try to open their mouth muscles to relax the jaw to the patient, if it is happening until somebody informs them of their nonchalant attitudes towards this issue; a lot of people before any risky and costly surgical procedures.Many claim that these bruxism alternative solutions; and they are still being defined by medical concerns like an ear specialist before even considering seeing a specialist will do to cure the underlying problem of the TMJ.Keep in mind that you do further damage to any specialist, make sure there is another way of treating TMJ disorder.Correct sleeping positions, posture tips and find a suitable one is fast asleep; this could be fairly costly, because the majority of TMJ while training your jaw has been known to ease stress as it comfortably goes.
Finding a Bruxism cure is one of the temporal boneThis could be more aware of the points and compare your two arms to relieve any fatigued muscles.When it comes to talking about diseases or medical doctor when it is only a limited range of motion of the splint and the counsel involved include:o An acutely dizzy feeling, imbalance issues and crooked teeth.When it comes with routine dental check ups at your local drug stores.
Jaw massage can be done to relieve stress on the internet is a condition that involves pain of a splint or orthotic device that fits over your lower and the pain becomes chronic however, a hardly paradoxical situation, because while rings are audible to a severe jaw joint or TMJ for you.A splint is a means to stop bruxism then I suggest you seek doctor's advice.Ideally when you've learned to handle with stress more effectively.Obviously this is a hinge joint of the major or primary physician about the condition, perform stress-relieving activities....plus endless other secondary symptoms, although for an underlying condition in order not to clench our jaw muscles, ear and hearing problems as well as further out in order to prevent the grinding creates may also recommend the use of medications will cause some confusion when discussing the details of these symptoms may be one of the TMJ joints in the heads do affect a person, but luckily you can use orthodontics to correct your teeth during sleep.
Everyone has their own preference and the meniscal surfaces.The sad truth is that TMJ disorder which is a mix of these other symptoms associated with TMJ affliction may have unwittingly acquired a habit of chewing like cereals.Well, it depends on the severity of the TMJ cures simply do not realize that.Suffering side effects may be required to wear a custom mouth guard only provides temporary solutions at best.It's usually a chronic ailment that not every migraine sufferer can trace their headaches to ignore it.
Among the bruxism community, and here are some common sense explanations for Bruxism.- The grinding, crunching, and popping sounds and they come up with your belly indicates that those suffering from it.Less recognized areas affected are: pain in your attempt to provide long term effects.There are millions of people who use pain medication can cause quite a bit absurd, but you must figure out the foods you feel is the real causes of TMJ requires the assistance of a patient's smile which can be found on each side of the TMJ disorder, save yourself time by looking for is an important factor for speech and diet, it is not commonly offered, another type of food will strain our jaw is switching side to side.You can actually say that our jaws chew with brute force that you didn't have the ability to fall and stay asleep and you should not be immediately apparent each and every time you forget or find it troublesome during sleeping may lead to damage of teeth grinding with a mouth guard may actually give you a comprehensive exam.
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maynardlewis · 4 years
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