My first and defiantly not my last Depa Billaba. This terrific piece was done by artist Kennt Calderon.

My first commission of Master Depa Billaba done by Kenny Calderon. WildInxStudioz on Etsy.

I’ve been thinking about the way the phrase heard in Obi-Wan Kenobi, “Only when the eyes are closed can you truly see” applies to Kanan Jarrus after he’s been blinded and how it’s best shown in the differences between his two sacrifices.

Season one is all about Kanan choosing to accept his new destiny as a master for Ezra, accepting that despite his own unfinished training, he has to step up for Ezra’s sake, and choosing to follow the Jedi path himself even if he doesn’t feel ready for it, choosing to make that commitment to and for Ezra.

Kanan’s dealing with a lot of trauma from his past and having to figure out the true meaning of being both a Jedi and specifically a Master with a Padawan. He has to let go of a lot of it in order to understand the reality of this relationship, in order to even be able to completely MAKE this commitment.

The biggest trauma we know he’s dealing with is Depa’s death, and his reaction to it. He considers himself a coward for running, for not staying to fight at her side and die with her. He blames himself, in part, for her death. He hasn’t come to terms with her sacrifice because he’s lost himself to the guilt he feels over it and it impacts nearly every relationship he has, but particularly the one with Ezra. It’s Hera who initially believes in Ezra and pushes Kanan to test him and bring him into the crew, and even after Kanan does that, he tries to find other teachers for Ezra because he’s not fully committed.

In the season one finale, he goes into that mission as usual for them, thinking that whatever obstacle they come across, they’ll deal with it together, they’ll make it out together, they’ll find a way because there’s ALWAYS another way. But he then realizes, there isn’t. He has to stay so they can run. So he does.

And in the end, he doesn’t yet have to face the final price for that, his crew, his family, come through and is able to rescue him in time. And he’s still struggling with that guilt even though he’s now made the same choice Depa once did for him, he still struggles with what happened to her.

In season two, we see Kanan struggle with Rex, with becoming a soldier again for the Rebellion, with being able to trust that he trained Ezra well enough to not fall prey to the Sith. All of which hits pretty hard on that same trauma from before, but extending it to the experience of the war itself and his own unfinished training due to the interference of the Sith. He had to run from Depa and, in order to survive, he ran from himself. He ran from who he was, from who he should’ve been able to become. And he spends this ENTIRE SHOW finding his way back to that person, figuring out how to become that person in this new galaxy. He’s taken that first step by following in Depa’s footsteps without having to pay the price yet, but he’s still trying to see with his eyes open.

And then at the end of season two, he’s literally blinded by a Sith.

And over the next two seasons, we see a change in Kanan. He’s more centered, more calm, more stable in general. He can’t literally see, so he has to rely entirely on other senses and the Force itself. He has to trust the Force now, not just with the people he cares about, but with HIMSELF. He’s able to do quite a lot just supplementing his senses through the Force, but there’s more than one reference to the fact that Kanan can’t see something in front of him and even more background moments where we see someone having to touch Kanan’s arm or shoulder to signal him to duck or get down or something along those lines. Kanan has to learn, not just how to trust himself, but how to trust everyone else and how to trust the Force itself.

By the time they go to Lothal for the last time, by the time Hera gets captured by Thrawn, Kanan knows who he is. He’s walked that path, he’s made his peace with his past, he understands the value of what they’re fighting for, he doesn’t blame himself for running so long ago. And when told what path he has to walk, the last path he’ll ever walk, despite all he’s going to have to sacrifice to do it, he understands. He accepts that this is the choice put in front of him that will help the most people.

His eyes were pretty forcibly closed for him and in the aftermath of that, he learned how to see himself, the people around him, the galaxy, and the Force in an entirely new way. His relationship with Ezra grows stronger because of it, as does his relationship with everyone else. Kanan learns to trust, he learns how to accept the path handed to him, he learns to see further ahead than just the next step, he learns to see a bigger picture.

And when he walks into that final mission, when he goes to rescue Hera, he does so with the knowledge that he’s not going to finish it. He does this with the knowledge that he may never get what he wants from Hera, that he may never hear her say she loves him. He does with the knowledge that he’ll never be able to knight Ezra, just like Depa could never knight him. He does this with the knowledge that he won’t be able to help bring an end to the Empire, he won’t see peace restored. He knows, from the beginning, what all he’s going to sacrifice. He doesn’t necessarily know when, or how, just that it’s coming. And he accepts that, knowing that he’s giving his family their best chance at accomplishing everything they want to accomplish. Knowing that his death grants them more time they wouldn’t have otherwise. They might not ultimately make it, either. They may not see that end any more than he will, but his death gives them a CHANCE, and that’s enough. Depa’s sacrifice gave Caleb Dume a matter of seconds to escape, and it saved him. She couldn’t have known whether it would even work, what her Padawan would go on to do and become, but she knew her death gave him time, and that was enough.

Kanan finally understands.

His eyes were closed, but he could finally see the way ahead.

Moja kochana Depa 🤍

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I was thinking things ,,, some master and Padawan bonding. Keeping Jedi culture alive

Bonus post Malachor doodle:

mace windu is amazing, he's the best, he has a purple lightsaber, the master of the order, the master of vaapad, he tried diplomacy with droids, he was going to kill palpatine, he's as bald as his commander, he's played by samuel l jackson in the movies, he's fucking hilarious, he trained master depa billaba, he's actually nice to jar jar, if you hate him you simply are stupid, thanks, have a nice night

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when the parallels are paralleling

I think poor Mace Windu deserves a nap... Let this man sleep he needs it... Anyway I think Depa and baby Caleb would draw on his face when they see him asleep in this essay i will

huge agree but I think he could only nap knowing his padawan and grandpadawan were also safe and relaxed. the only solution? lineage nap pile

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