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the fobnatural manifesto

as requested by @cosmosthoughts (thank you for the ask and your patience!!!)

okay, first off, i fully recognize the insanity of what i’ve done here. diagnose me with whatever you want. that being said, i took my cas playlist + dean playlist + destiel playlist, smashed them together, and explained why songs fit and why i chose to put them there. i did these playlists chronologically - some songs are tied to specific moments, some to general seasons/time periods. i haven’t seen 11x01 through 15x17 but i know the highlights. this is extremely long. i am unwell. okay? okay.

here’s the master playlist if you would like to listen along.

pre-s4:

7 minutes in heaven - dean song. “i’m sleeping my way out of this one with anyone who’ll lie down,” aka dean’s previous approach to relationships. “i don’t do too well on my own.”

west coast smoker - dean song. “got my degree in the gutter / my heart broken in the dorms of the ivy league” always makes me think of dean after sam left for stanford.

the pros and cons of breathing - dean song. “i want to hate you half as much as i hate myself.” mostly i put it on here because that line is a dean thesis, but i also imagined it as a season 3 dean song (hating himself for making the demon deal).

church - deancas song. i put it here because i love love love the idea of them becoming each other’s religion, and i think that happened the second they met in hell (technically pre-s4).

season 4:

the phoenix - cas song. lazarus rising. “i’ll raise you like a phoenix.” cas is literally raising dean from the ashes of hell! also, “the war is won before it’s begun / release the doves, surrender love” - works well for “the moment castiel laid a hand on you in hell he was lost!”

my songs know what you did in the dark - cas song. lazarus rising. this could also be a dean song, but i picked it as a cas song for “i just got to get you out the cage, i’m a young lover’s rage” and for the imagery of cas razing hell to get to dean.

she’s my winona - cas song. “hell or glory, i don’t want anything in between / then came a baby boy with long eyelashes / daddy said you gotta show the world the thunder.” dean changed the trajectory of cas’ existence so thoroughly! before they met it was hell or glory for cas, and then dean comes along and cas will do anything to protect him.

america’s suitehearts - cas song, specifically for heaven and hell and his jealousy towards anna. he’s in love with his own sins!!! dean represents humanity and original sin and dean’s own very specific sin, and cas loves all of it. plus “i don’t know much about classic cars.”

of all the gin joints in all the world - dean song. picture dean and cas getting together in s4 and it’s all desperate, frantic, “making out inside crashed cars.” also reflects dean’s sense of unworthiness (”you only hold me up like this / cause you don’t know who i really am”) which cas deconstructs for him, and dean’s memories of hell (”i used to waste my time dreaming of being alive / now i only waste it dreaming of you”).

season 5:

w.a.m.s. - deancas song. free to be you and me baybee! “my head’s in heaven, my soles are in hell / let’s meet in the purgatory of my hips and get well.” dean didn’t let cas die a virgin.

hold me tight (or don’t) - end!verse cas song. the feeling of losing yourself watching someone else lose themselves. “i took too many hits off this memory.” the agony of cas loving dean and dean being too angry and grief-stricken to reciprocate, but cas following him anywhere. “the distance between us, it sharpens me like a knife.”

dance, dance - cas song. point of no return, when cas finds out dean’s going to say yes to michael. the frantic, furious energy really works here. “you always fold just / before you’re found out / drink up it’s last call last resort” and “why don’t you show me the little bit of spine you’ve been saving for his mattress?” the alley scene is a carefully choreographed dance and they both hit every beat.

fame < infamy - dean song. also point of no return because “i’m a salesman, i’m selling you hooks and plans / and myself, making demands.” the idea of only being yourself when you’re home alone (which is never for dean). almost made this a cas song for “there’s too much green to feel blue.”

sophomore slump or comeback of the year - deancas song. when they’re making a plan to finish the apocalypse and save the world, and it’s hopeless, but “the best part of believe is the lie.” they don’t know what they’re doing: “are we growing up? or just going down? it’s just a matter of time until we’re all found out.”

sugar, we’re goin down - deancas song. for swan song - they’re going down swinging. “a loaded god complex cock it and pull it” is fun for the “cas was originally supposed to be god” s5 ending too!

season 6:

headfirst slide into cooperstown on a bad bet - dean song. this is for his relationship with lisa (sorry lisa, they did you dirty). dean being so unhappy in a life he’s been forced into (“i don’t just want to be a footnote in someone else’s happiness”). the constant fear that he’s going to slip into being j*hn (“i will never end up like him / behind my back i already am”).

xo - dean song. another dean/lisa song. dean feels like he needs to love lisa, because sam made him promise to do this, but “love never wanted me.” and if you want to make yourself sad: “to the ‘love,’ i left my conscience / pressed between the pages of the bible in the drawer / ‘what did it ever do for me?’ i say.” dean so desperately wants to do this right, to love lisa, but he can’t. if you think he’s in love with cas at this point, think about dean’s conscience, his goodness, held by an angel for safekeeping. a man with no faith loving a being of pure faith.

the kids aren’t alright - cas song. ohhhhh i’m proud of this one because cas in THEE man who would be king, overwhelmed by his responsibilities (”maybe i bit off more than i could chew”). he’s doing it for dean (”and it’s our time now if you want it to be”) and dean is so conflicted, feeling betrayed but also not willing to give up on cas. but cas knows he did what was right, even though it hurts (”and in the end / i’d do it all again / i think you’re my best friend / don’t you know that the kids aren’t all, kids aren’t alright”).

the patron saint of liars and fakes - dean song. the man who would be king from dean’s perspective. “i’m all ears / and i’m all scars.” he’s listening, he desperately wants cas to explain. he needs an apology. but at the end of the day, “i’m holding out / and i’m holding on.” he can’t let cas go, no matter how betrayed he feels.

golden - deancas song. ohhhhh they have betrayed each other and they are broken-hearted and it’s cruel that the lives they live are only golden-plated. they’ve seen what’s underneath and they fear that the other will only see them as a monster now.

i’ve got all this ringing in my ears and none on my fingers - deancas song. “the truth hurts worse than anything i could bring myself to do to you.”

season 7:

27 - dean song. “if home is where the heart is, then we’re all just fucked” because cas has his heart and cas is gone. he KEPT the TRENCHCOAT.

hum hallelujah - cas song. the born-again identity! i know this is a very popular deancas song but i put it here because it fits so well with their relationship at this point. when they reunite: “you’re someone who knows someone who knows someone i once knew.” coming off the godstiel arc - “the road outside my house is paved with good intentions.” but their relationship right now is “just off the key of reason” - they’re out of sync. they can’t be together. but if they could? well, enter the infamous line “i love you in the same way / there’s a chapel in the hospital.”

centuries - deancas song. ugh ugh ugh cas regaining his memories and trying to atone for his mistakes (”just one mistake is all it will take / we’ll go down in history”). cas hoping that dean will remember him fondly. dean struggling to see cas, so close and yet so far away. imagine dean saying “i never meant for you to fix yourself.” i’m crying now.

season 8:

chicago is so two years ago - cas song. cas running from dean in purgatory to keep him safe! “my heart is on my sleeve / wear it like a bruise or black eye.” it’s dangerous, it’s painful, but he can’t escape his heart! his heart is saying “there’s a light on in chicago / and i know i should be home.”

stay frosty royal milk tea - dean song. this is the flip side - dean going absolutely feral to find cas in purgatory! imagine him killing monsters to this song. someone make an amv please. “i think i got too many memories gettin’ in the way of me / i’m boutta go tonya harding on the whole world’s knee.” he’s going to fuck! shit! up! to find cas! and “the only thing that’s ever stopping me is me!” (works because nothing can stand between him and cas, and also because purgatory helps him let go of his self-doubt)

jet pack blues - dean song. this is specifically for that scene in “a little slice of kevin” when dean hallucinates cas standing in the rain outside his window. “she’s in a long black coat tonight / waitin for me in the downpour outside / she’s singin ‘baby come home’ in a melody of tears / while the rhythm of the rain keeps time.” but the rest of the song is SUCH a good song for dean grieving cas and rewriting his memories of losing cas in purgatory. “honey, don’t you leave.” “i’m tryin to find my peace of mind / behind these two white highway lines.”

novocaine - cas song. goodbye stranger lobotomy song! cas beating dean - “i will always land on you like a sucker punch,” but only because “they took our love and they filled it up / filled it up with novocaine and now i’m just numb.” please. i’m begging you. watch the crypt scene with this song in mind. so good.

season 9:

disloyal order of water buffaloes - deancas song. it’s both of them! what a match!!! i can’t explain this in a way that does it justice, just please go listen to this song.

growing up - cas song. when dean kicks cas out of the bunker :( “where winning looks like losing and i’m winning every time” but the idea of growing up, finding yourself, and starting anew. hell yeah cas you go buddy! you don’t need him!

grand theft autumn - deancas song. you didn’t think i’d do it, did you? YEAH i did. this is dean being jealous when cas goes on his date.

rat a tat - dean song. time for the mark of cain! “remember me as i was, not as i am” is so great, but there’s a lot to unpack here. the whole chorus - trying to stay alive to earn a place in heaven, but realizing “it’s never getting any better than this.” dean thinks this is who he is, what he was meant for. compare moc!dean with godstiel: “i’m the lonelier version of you / i just don’t know where it went wrong.” love is a weapon!!!

immortals - deancas song. also works well with moc!dean/godstiel: “i’m still comparing your past to my future / it might be your wound but they’re my sutures.” love the idea of these two being immortal together in the worst possible way.

season 10:

i don’t care - cas song. cas is jealous of crowley and demon!dean period. “say my name and his in the same breath i dare you to say they taste the same.”

the mighty fall - dean song. demon!dean sees cas’ jealousy and tries to make him more jealous. HELL YEAH I’M A DICK GIRL, ADDICTED TO YOU.

snitches and talkers get stitches and walkers - dean song. “show me show me show me a starry-eyed kid / i, i, i will break his jaw / but i won’t i won’t let him get his hopes up / i will save him from himself.” dean wishing he could go back and fix himself.

the mixtape! (s12?)

homesick at space camp - dean song. IT’S THE MIXTAPE. “tonight the headphones will deliver you the words that i can’t say”!!!!!!!

the widower arc! (s13?)

twin skeletons - deancas song. A BIRTH AND A DEATH ON THE SAME DAY. dean bargaining “i just need enough of you to dull the pain” and being willing to die to be with cas “just to get me through the night til we’re twins again / til we’re stripped down to our skeletons again.”

the (after) life of the party - dean song. oh this one always gets me. “i’m a stitch away from making it / and a scar away from falling apart.” that’s the dean grief thesis right there. cas is the stitch and the scar.

“the take over, the breaks over” - deancas song. i love this song but honestly, it’s only on here for the “wouldn’t you rather be a widow than a divorcee” line.

sunshine riptide - deancas song. dean grieving cas, “i’m stuck in the sunshine riptide dancing all alone in the morning light.” the pill and drug mentions - dean coping in unhealthy ways - but cas always sneaking up on him, “you came back like a wave when i was feeling alright.” this is also a deancas song for “you said ‘please don’t ever change’ but you don’t like me the way i am.” how many regrets dean must have realized when he thought cas was gone for good.

the divorce arc! (s14/15?)

“tell that mick he just made my list of things to do today” - cas song. oh you went and pissed him off good dean. “to my favorite liar / to my favorite scar / i could have died with you / i hope you choke on those words that kiss that bottle.” GET HIM GIRL.

i slept with someone in fall out boy - dean song. you hate him so much but you can’t, you can’t because you love him. all your hatred is just projection. dean thinks this is himself: “i am sorry my conscience called in sick again / and i’ve got arrogance down to a science.” but really? “i am missing you to death.”

bang the doldrums - deancas song. “best friends, ex-friends til the end / better off as lovers and not the other way around.” i LOVE this song but it was hard for me to place because i never ever want to imagine them as ex-friends, you know? “i couldn’t bring myself to call, except to call it quits” dean winchester i am looking directly at you.

fourth of july - deancas song. ohhhhh here’s where the feelings hit. i could write a dissertation on just this song for their relationship. “you and i were fireworks that went off too soon.” “i said i’d never miss you but i guess you never know / may the bridges i have burned light my way back home.” “i’ll be as honest as you let me / i miss your early morning company / if you get me.” “you are my favorite what if / you are my best i’ll never know.” and of course, “you were my versailles at night.” godddddd the pining and the tragedy and the pride and the love.

the prayer scene! (i know this is s15)

a little less sixteen candles - dean song. oh this boy falling to his knees with tears in his eyes to apologize. ohhhhhhh honey. “i confess / i messed up / dropping i’m sorry like you’re still around.” and god, he knows: “i’m just the boy who’s had too many chances.” he knows he’s had so many chances, and he’s too late, and he deserves to be written off, but he is pleading, begging for one more.

the confession scene! (i actually saw this one!)

uma thurman - cas song. the vibes are all wrong but bear with me! the big line here is “bury me til i confess,” because he’s been burying his feelings for so long, saving up for this confession, and now “may nothing but death do us apart.” and cas can move mountains and work miracles but all he wants is dean. fuck me up.

the last of the real ones - cas song. building on cas’ nature as an angel, “i was just an only child of the universe / until i found you, until i found you / you are the sun and i am just the planets / spinning around you, spinning around you.” he’s eternal! he’s all-powerful! and he wants DEAN! cas realizing he can protect dean one last time: “i will shield you from the waves if they find you / i will protect you, i will protect you.” and as he’s telling dean what he’s kept hidden for so long: “i’m here at the beginning of the end / oh, the end of infinity with you.” he is INFINITE and he’s ending his life, once and for all, for this one little human. finally: “i’m done with having dreams, the thing that i believe / you drain all the fear from me” is just still beautiful. still dean winchester.

“from now on we are enemies” - cas song. “i only want what i can’t have.” that is an actual line from this song. pete wentz i have some questions.

i’ve got a dark alley - deancas song. so if the show ended here, this would be my closing song for their relationship. “joke me something awful just like kisses on the necks of best friends / we’re the kids that feel like dead ends / and i want to be known for my hits not just my misses / i took a shot and didn’t even come close / at trust and love and hope.” the idea that they’ve been this close for so long, dancing around each other, joking away their feelings, and that they were just a few words away from trust and love and hope. "my back has been breaking from this heavy heart.” i have never related more.

dean’s reaction to losing cas in 15x18:

just one yesterday - dean song. the angel imagery but also! “i’d trade all my tomorrows for just one yesterday” so he could tell cas he loves him back.

bishops knife trick - dean song. dean trying to repress his feelings and focus on chuck “i’m pedal to the metal, make no mistake,” but his feelings keep slipping in. “i’m struggling to exist with you and without you” because he’s done both and they’re both impossibly tragic in different ways.

get busy living or get busy dying - dean song. the concept of “mattering,” especially with everything dean has been through with free will, is so important here. but the outro is the real key for this as a dean-grieves-cas song: “from day one i talked about getting out, but not forgetting about how all my worst fears are letting out, he said why put a new address on the same old loneliness?”

miss missing you - dean song. “cue all the love to leave my heart, it’s time for me to fall apart.” i think this song and get busy living are what’s running through dean’s head when we see him drinking extremely heavily in 15x19.

what a catch, donnie - dean song. “i got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match, what a catch.” you don’t need me to psychoanalyze dean winchester. you know this is him. you know he never thought he could deserve love, let alone love from cas. the mood of this song is so beautiful for dean grieving quietly and soberly alone.

young and menace - dean song. okay, we know dean is broken. but he recovers, and he goes to take down chuck. this is the righteous fury running through his head. “we’ve gone way too fast for way too long / and we were never supposed to make it half this far / and i’ve lived so much life, lived so much life / i think that god is gonna have to kill me twice.” he’s ready to avenge cas.

the secret good finale that lives in my head where dean rescues cas from the empty and they get the soft epilogue they deserved:

lullabye - cas song. cas is dreaming in the empty, gentle lullabies playing in his head. “honey is for bees silly bear.” “in the morning it will all be better / it’s not what it seems in the land of dreams, don’t worry your head just go to sleep.”

ginasfs - dean song. this is a dean grief song too “sleep with your old shirts and walk through this house.” but it moves from grief to realization for dean: “i’m supposed to love you.” so dean hatches a dangerous, death-defying plan to rescue cas from the empty. "i’ve already given up on myself twice / third time is the charm, third time is the charm / threw caution to the wind / but i’ve got a lousy arm.” dean has given up on himself so many times, but he won’t this time, because he can’t give up on cas. he throws caution to the wind. and it WORKS. he gets cas back and tells him he loves him through the following two songs.

(coffee’s for closers) - dean song. dean’s confession part 1! “i-i-i-i can’t explain a thing / but i-i-i-i want everything / to change and stay the same.” he stutters through it! he’s never done this before! but he wants the same relationship he’s always had with cas, the love and trust and friendship, only changed, forged into something beautiful and new. cas is the only thing he will ever believe in again!!!

i’m like a lawyer - dean song. dean’s confession part 2! all the ways he wants to live with cas! he wants to be sappy and romantic and gross and marry him and take him on a beach honeymoon!

young volcanoes - deancas song. the beautiful giddiness of when they realize they are in love and they are truly free for the first time ever. “when rome’s in ruins / we are the lions / free of the coliseum.” imagine them driving too fast on a summer night, holding hands with the windows down. that’s this song.

the (shipped) gold standard - deancas song. this is popular for the excellent line “i wanna scream i love you from the top of my lungs / but i’m afraid that someone else will hear me.” and yes! valid for early deancas! but i love this because i believe that hum hallelujah and the (shipped) gold standard are a two-part story. “i love you in the same way / there’s a chapel in the hospital” (hh) and “soon as we hit the hospital i know we’re gonna leave this town” (tsgs). they get married! and they move somewhere new! to forge a new life together!

alone together - deancas song. they don’t know what they’re doing but they’re together, finally, at last, together and free. scream it from the top of your lungs <3 making each other feel beautiful. loving each other’s broken hearts.

heaven’s gate - deancas song. oh the whole song, but especially “one look from you and i’m on that faded love / out of my body and flying above / if there were any more left of me, i’d give it to you / and i tell you that i-i am fi-ine but i-i’m a missile that’s guided to you, you, you you.” they get to live together, grow old together. and when they’re ready to go, they’ll sneak each other into heaven. because “everything else is a substitute for your love.”

favorite record - deancas song. they dance, they dance, they dance. “you were the song stuck in my head, every song that i’ve ever loved / play it again, and again, and again / and you can get what you want but it’s never enough.” all the love they have to give is never enough for each other, and that’s not a sad thing! it’s not a deficit! it’s that they love each other so much, they can never get enough of that love. it’s everything they’ve ever wanted, stuck in their heads. and they dance, smiling, slow and close. that’s how this story ends for them.

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