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myfairkatiecat · 8 months

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Me: I should do this

My ADHD: but it’s such a big deal and you can’t do it well right now or ever so you should put it off forever

Me: what if I just break it up into smaller chunks? There, now I just have to do a smaller thing.

My ADHD: but which one do you start with

Me:

My ADHD: which one

Me:

My ADHD: WHICH ONE

Me:

My ADHD: see? You should clearly put this off forever and finally decide to do it never

Me: good idea

#adhd #I didn’t even realize this was a symptom of adhd for the longest time #I thought I was just a procrastinator #but no I get paralyzed #I literally cannot make myself do it #it’s just too much and making it smaller means I have to choose and then I just don’t know how to tackle it #ughhhhhh #by the way this is 99% about college apps

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eshithepetty · 1 year

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Mob Psycho 100?? More like Mob 'why are all these characters just different flavors of autistic holy shit'..... 100!!!!!

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[ID: art of Mob, Tsubomi, Tome, Ritsu and Serizawa from Mob Psycho 100, with a list of autistic symptoms below them. The background is beige and behind each character is a square mismatch of colors unique to them as a background.

Mob:

He is wearing his school uniform and smiling lightly. The background colors are saturated blues, cyans, pinks and reds, which are swirling in a liquid like fashion. Below, text reads:

Polite little autistic boy

flat affect

alexithymia

perpetually confused

attempts to mask, just ends up appearing a different type of ‘weird’ as a result

low empathy, high compassion

really strict moral integrity

didn’t have a special interest for the longest time due to repressing himself

disassociating king :(

comorbid inattentive type ADHD

Tsubomi:

She is wearing her school uniform, staring ahead with a bored, uninterested expression. The colors behind her are dark and sharp browns, violets and reds. Below, text reads:

Girlboss

masking queen

low empathy

can’t read social cues but has mastered the art of scripting and being polite and pretty to escape ostracization

hard time connecting to people

often acts unintentionally rude/blunt

stubborn

actually cares a whole lot about people she really considers friends

Tome:

She is also wearing the uniform, leaning her chin on her hand and flapping the other hand excitedly as she rambles about something. The colors behind her are a bright yellow, green and orange, formed as circles and some sharp edges. Below, text reads:

Weird Girl

stimming galore

loud™

special interest in the occult/aliens

finds herself only connecting to people through that interest

emotional dysregulation

comorbid hyperactive ADHD

barely passing grades

probably spends hours on random wikipedia articles

Ritsu:

He is wearing a yellow hoodie, looking to the side and finger raised in confusion. The colors behind him are green, orange and magenta, and they are swirling in a kind of square vortex around him. Below, text reads:

just a little hater

sounds /neg

has a selective wardrobe of comfy clothes cause textures,,,

has no idea what friends are

special interest in psychic powers

spoons are a comfort item

denied he was autistic for a long time because “wdym, i’m completely normal. Look how well adjusted I am.”

comorbid OCD

Serizawa:

He's wearing his usual suit and smiling, eyes closed with the grin, his hands clasped together at his chest. The colors behind him are cyans, blues, greens and magentas, some lines, some circles. Below, text reads:

gamer .....

self isolation as an (unhealthy) coping mechanism

uses comfort items

emotions also be dysregulating but like,, he’s learning to deal with it

high empathy

missed out on a lot of milestones, but it’s okay, he’s catching up :)

special interest in video games

finds comfort in dark, tight spaces

comorbid social anxiety

End ID.]

#don't ask me why i bothered making this so aesthetically neat I have no fucking idea #also if a character you see as autistic isn't here please don't take offense ..#these are just the ones I personally connect to autism the most. The other ones are absolutely still neurodivergent in their own ways lmao #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #kageyama shigeo #kageyama ritsu #serizawa katsuya #tome kurata #tsubomi takane #art #autism #neurodivergence #headcanon #my own art #my own post #some of these are like. headcanons btw. but most are just observations #which i am choosing to interpret as autistic symptoms.... i hope that makes sense !

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bigmammallama5 · 7 months

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For me, one of the worst aspects of ADHD is memory issues. I find it interfers so much more than executive disfunction, as I can at least force my brain to work under the right circumstances.

I can't do that with my memory

My memory is definitely the worst symptom of my ADHD (other than probably RSD and some other things but I gotta find a therapist for that lol), and I envy other people with ADHD who don't struggle with that aspect as much as I do. And for those who may not have ADHD, let me try to explain what I deal with because I do wish it was a funny thing but most often it's not lol.

It's not just that I forget where I put my phone down, it's I forget why I enter I a room and literally have to walk back my steps to find it despite there only being three places in my small apartment it would be. It's telling myself three times to take something with me to the clay studio to show another student and I forget 3 weeks in a row despite having it right next to the front door. It's my family telling me something important and I just don't retain it, and then they stop telling me things (this has improved again now that I'm on medicine, but I was the last person to find out a lot of things the past few years bc they wouldn't tell me bc I wouldn't remember, which hurts). It's my mind wiping blank in the middle of a sentence when I hit a certain word which results in varying degrees of embarrassment and understanding depending on who I'm talking to. It's my eye skipping over a spelling error no matter how many times I know it's there and I need to change it, I just forget (there are a lot of stupid errors in all my fics because of this, maybe one day i'll get to fixing them). It's learning someone's name correctly taking weeks to stick, and then somehow flipping the spelling because I know other people with that name spelled differently and I remember that spelling as "correct" (I'm glad we have name tags on our clay cubbies in the studio, it's saved me some embarrassing encounters, which was something I had to train myself into doing). It's being able to recall what someone said to me word for word six years ago but I can't remember what my mother told me three days ago. It's remembering a multitude of old vines verbatim, but I couldn't tell you what important news story I watched last night.

It's being able to sit down and talk to you guys clearly and thoughtfully like the intelligent person I can be, and then having my knees taken out from under me in real conversation because my mind just wipes blank. But yeah, I can at least work through my executive disfunction too with the right prodding lol.

#ask me stuff!#adhd #memory bullshit #if i could choose to swap one symptom with another it would be my memory #it has screwed me over so many times and has brought me a lot of grief #anyways i need to get off tumblr #colorblind anon i have both your messages i will attempt to answer them today! my work days have been full and i had clay last night #and teach tonight as a substitute #so i will do my best to get to you before then

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scourgebff · 9 days

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what... did they do to scourge in the leopardstar book

basically theres this really weird and out of place scene where scourge comes to tigerclan and tigerstar introduces him to leopardstar. and when tigerstar shows him the prisoners scourge starts degrading them specifically for being halfclan along with tigerstar… keeping in mind hes an outsider who has virtually no knowledge of the clans and their culture nor any reason to conceivably care about the existence of these prisoners in general. the book doesn’t try to justify the attitude logically either it purely exists to take Further agency away from leopardstar as she constantly thinks “ohhhhhhhhhh this is so bad and tigerstar sucks for working with these evil hateful rouges i wish somebody could do something about this!” then proceeding to not do anything about it. but the book Really Really Really wants you to personally know that this isn’t leopardstar’s fault at all jus scourge and tigerstar are mean bullies oppressing her n she had no choice but to go with it. the entire scene is so bizarrely uncomfortable i really cannot emphasize enough how out of place and nonsensical it feels. almost like they tried to cram in a popular arc 1 character cameo but it went horrifically wrong because who was out here fiending for a xenophobic scourge moment bffr. free him (and me)

#leopardstar’s honor is so ass its actually generational #cannot think of a single good thing to say abt the entire book besides sunfish is cute i guess #onestar’s confession symptom of taking a interesting character with a ton of potentially fascinating layers and lore then choosing to go #with the worst possible decisions to bludgeon everything good about them to pieces and make u feel bad for wanting more in the first place

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mcybree · 5 months

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still doing research and I’m kind of in love with this Scott and Cleo interaction in Impulse’s episode

GRIAN: So the question is: which one of you’s paired with Pearl, and which one of you’s paired with Martyn? SCOTT: Watch out! Cleo Cleo Cleo Cleo Cleo—! (SCOTT defends CLEO from a creeper.) SCOTT: I was about to find out! I thought about it! (CLEO and SCOTT both laugh.) SCOTT: (undecipherable) — “If I let Cleo die, I’ll find out who my pair is!” But I didn’t. CLEO: I appreciate you Scott, I do. SCOTT: Okay. :]

It’s reminding me of all my 3L clips where Scott talks about how he’s just waiting for Jimmy to die but like. The fun version of that

I think there’s a lot of reasons why cleo trusts scott so much but I do wonder if scott blatantly saying fucked up things instead of keeping it to himself is part of it. The acknowledgment that he’s smart enough to have done that but actively chose not to is comforting, rather than being around someone who just doesnt think about it. Because I think, to Cleo, that says more about a person’s trustworthiness. Because she’s had people who dont think about it choose the other option before.

#This also says a lot about scott but. nothing I havent touched on already i dont think.#scott saw a solution to him being left in the dark about who his soulmate is and considered it. he’s just always thinking about these thing #it’s in the same vein as him telling Cleo to kill Etho in SL because getting the ten extra hearts is technically the best option #He often boils other people’s lives down to hearts and minutes as with his own #It’s a symptom of both struggling to truly connect with people + needing to gain an advantage whenever possible.#happens with him. but he’s clearly happy with himself about choosing Cleo’s safety here. this is cute to me please understand #that.blue.mf

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goldkirk · 10 months

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Got my first meeting with a psychiatrist in over a year since the last one demanded details about trauma when I was visibly sweating and shaking! Let’s hope today goes much better and that I have the prefrontal cortex online enough to leave if necessary instead of tolerating that kind of thing again

#note to everyone: if you say ‘I experienced xyz’ to a medical professional #on your FIRST VISIT #they are NOT supposed to require further and further details before moving the conversation along #they should take you at your word and realize that’s not the important part #the important part is hearing what symptoms you have had for how long and how they impact your daily life #so they can help you #NO ONE needs the details unless you choose to share them on your own time #and if someone is pressing you for things you’re not ready to talk about #LEAVE!!!! get up and LEAVE #i know that now #personal #this isn’t about sleep I’ve been going downhill in certain areas for weeks and haven’t gotten the boat to turn around #so I’m asking to start back on meds BEFORE things get really bad #i was planning to wait for the fall #but I’m struggling so much and I shouldn’t have to be #so. SSRI and asking about nonstimulant ADHD meds it is #the good thing is that while my self worth and competency and anxiety are in the toilet again #Im at least not feeling depressed and I’m not having all the sleep trouble I used to or the void feeling #my PTSD symptom improvement is still there it’s just anxiety and ADHD kicking my ASS

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solradguy · 1 year

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Having ADHD but only having it just enough to get the like 2 symptoms left out of every conversation about ADHD fills me with an apathy that has no practical solution. Rolling up to the ADHD conversation like "Some days I can't focus and everything pisses me off and the best I can do is lay on the floor with music on and scowl at the ceiling until it stops because if I don't then I'll be mean to other people because I have no patience when I get like that" just makes everyone side-eye you because they immediately jump to the conclusion that you want to commit unspeakable acts of violence.

But a lot of people don't know that this is something people with ADHD can experience. The only time I ever see it mentioned is when I go out of my way to find research on it...

#textpost #I'm actually in a really good mood right now and had a really good day but I've been thinking about this for a while #Like I've been to a behavioral specialist this IS ADHD albeit a milder form of it but NO ONE ever talks about the Grumpy Threshold™️-#-in conversations about ADHD. It's always about how it makes people loud and easily excitable #Which are also symptoms of ADHD and I recognize that those symptoms are significantly more common than the main ones I experience #But it would be nice if there was more awareness about the cranky side of it lol #It doesn't make me physically violent or an absolute asshole it's just like being annoyed by everything cranked up to 11 #Turbo grumpy. Low heat simmering frustration #Wellbutrin's helped a lot and I've figured out most of the things that causes it so I can avoid them #(shrill sounds/voices and ASMR are two big ones. *Especially* ASMR)#But some days I wake up and my brain chooses anger and there's nothing I can do about it besides ride it out rofl #Anyway thank you for coming to my TED Talk I have to go to sleep now good night

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grippysockassbitch · 1 year

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Saw someone who followed me simping so hard for antipsychotic medication that they went as far as to say that questioning or doubting whether you want to be on them counts as a delusion, and so I blocked them lol

We support non-medicated schizophrenics here, Sir

Everybody gets to choose their own paths of treatment and recovery, just bc you have a psychotic disorder instead of depression or anxiety doesn't mean you have less autonomy or choice in how you want to manage your symptoms. We can make our own medical decisions, idc if everyone in the world has been preprogrammed to think a schizophrenic person off their meds is the worst thing in the world and they must not be thinking reasonably - we are capable of making our own medical decisions and yes we do have rational concerns and valid justifications.

#im not saying everyone should go off their meds #im saying that if you love your meds and your life wouldn't be the same without them then that's so awesome #but people who are unhappy or uncomfortable while they're on them should be able to choose not to take them #for every other disorder they have a whole toolbox of ways to approach managing and living alongside it's symptoms #but with psychotics disorders all the doors are closed and the only one made available to you is meds #even though that's not the only one that works or will help improve things #i haven't been on antipsychotics in like 3 years and fellas I'm doing fine #i have schizophrenia so my psychosis is not intermittent and my symptoms aren't only sometimes #and I don't take the meds bc they ruined my life and it just become a medical choice I could not justify for myself anymore #we are not going to shit on non med psychotics #not on this page #actuallypsychotic

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sea-solaire · 4 months

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#dark souls #souls shitposts #it’s my mental illness symptom and I get to choose what to do about it #dark souls shitposts #soulsborne

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gently-decaying-flowers · 1 month

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i hate it here

#char’s diary #it’s so funny! how she talks about the symptoms of her ptsd! as if i don’t have it because of her!#yes. my therapist told me i very likely have it so im not exaggerating #like yeah #i start spiraling and get triggered because i feel like im back in a place of danger #these things are because awful things have been done to me #sure it wasn’t my ex husband it was just my horrible fucking parents #and ykw i didn’t choose this either!!!!!#you didn’t choose to have an abusive ex husband and i didn’t choose to grow up with emotionally abusive parents #suck my fucking nuts #and ofc i feel like im going to cry just bc im angry #jesus christ #and like just getting up from a room without telling someone isn’t shitty on its own???#she tried to tell me it was #like sorry i don’t tell you every second of what im doing in my own house?#like i have a speech tomorrow-one that’s really important to me but oh haha i didn’t tell you because i DONT LIKE TELLING YOU THINGS #i wanna go home

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cashweasel · 4 months

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Themm<3 blorbo softness putting me thru it,, they’re committed to the newlyweds energy djdkskdj🥰

#ocs #I lied I’m so obsessed with them it’s not even funny I get physical symptoms from it #they’re giving family gathering after the honeymoon lolll #valen: being part of the conversation ❌ posing for pics ✅#there’s also something both funny and iconic about a girl posing with a tattoo of her eyes on her man’s arms liek #go off iconic queen you made a man do that! permanently ink your face on his body #this was a wip I nearly gave up on but I was deep in the trenches I decided to finish it and the pose was cute #it’s crazy how much I draw them being in love considering they spent the majority of their lives together being not that lol #I’m ignoring it and choosing to focus on the happily ever after they don’t get in canon but get in the 100 aus I made them to make up for i #also happy early anniversary to my tragic little babies in exactly one month it’ll be 2 years of crying over them 🩷#I love them so much they make me feel something #my ocs #art #my art #valen x gideon

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the-apotheosis · 1 year

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The context for this is that I have bpd and for as long as I can remember have experienced the third option nearly constantly if I am not distracted by music to a point where I’m not totally sure if I am the one deciding what each person is doing. From my research it seems somewhere between maladaptive daydreaming (but I don’t create elaborate worlds) and plurality (but I don’t have alters with names or appearances or anything like that, as far as I am aware). Often the scenario is that everyone involved has been kidnapped but is now just kind of hanging out (potentially my way of rationalizing why they would all be together). Sometimes I am not myself but one of my dnd characters in these scenarios, but I am still aware of myself and that they are dnd characters because I can reference things like their stats. It could also be important to note that other than this I do not usually have an internal monologue

Idk if this is related but I sometimes also (but separate from the conversations) see very vivid images in my mind’s eye. They usually appear in a frequently changing stream and are in many varieties of photorealistic and art styles, often art styles and images I do not believe that I have ever seen anywhere other than in my mind. I am not consciously imagining these things and will also sometimes fixate on a horrifying image and not be able to stop seeing it. I don’t believe that I am experiencing full plurality and this is very possibly just a combination of the dissociation that comes with bpd plus a very vivid imagination and potentially also delusions/ audio hallucinations (I have previously had delusions that I had early onset dementia and intestinal worms, neither of which were true so it would not be uncharacteristic of me to convince myself that I was hearing voices when I am really just talking to myself).

#sure am having symptoms we can say that for sure #bpd #internal monologue #daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming #borderline personality disorder #did #osdd #plural community #plurality #dissociation #dissociative identity disorder #one of my close friends has did I could ask an actual person about this but I am choosing to do bad research first

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simptasia · 8 days

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[shannon rutherford voice] i've been through a trauma here!

#and she's right. go lay down sweetheart #i want a clip of her saying that. i'd pin it on my blog #i have actually been getting a lot better by the way #like. more good days than bad days as time goes on #also my mum not being around has revealed some previously unknown impulsive tendencies??#interesting... it's fascinating to think that it's possible to not completely know yourself. like. i live here. and yet #mind you impulsive decisions are a symptom of grief/loss #wanting to assert control over your circumstances. your emotional or physical form #thats why people tend to change their hair after break ups #its also part of why body modification is addictive. humans like the feeling of power. gives us a rush #choosing how we look is a form of power

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eddiethehunted · 6 months

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falling into old Very Bad Habits sucks so bad bc i know im doing it but my brain will not allow me to fix this

#as in like eating disorder bad #i know i’m doing it but it’s hard to not #ed discussion #i can barely make myself eat and i’m feeling it and i know it’s bad but it’s like compulsive #and i’m at a point where my metabolism has slowed down enough that it’s not. even doing anything. i am not getting skinnier.#I DONT EVEN WANT TO GET SKINNER ANYMORE #I JUST CANT. EAT. !!!! I CANNOT!!!#i wanna die this fucking sucks so bad #i try to fight it but it’s like something is physically stopping me. idk what. idk why #fuck idk #and it doesn’t help that i’m on vyvanse for my adhd #and it already makes ur appetite kinda fucked #like do i have to choose between dealing with wildly uncontrollable adhd symptoms or literally an eating disorder?#why can’t i just fucking be a regular bitch who fucking eats

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