can writers stop amounting their characters to such a husk of themselves that them literally killing themselves for no reason is considered a good death

This is a special genre of f1 picture(to ME.)

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I wish I could go back and tell younger me that I would in fact find that place one day full of people that I adore deeply and who I know love me in return. Who make me feel wanted and cared for and appreciated in a way I never thought would be possible. And none of it required hiding, or forcing myself to be a person I’m not. And I still have that space even though I’m aroace.

For the first time ever, I see a future where I’m not alone. And I wish I could go back and tell my younger self it would happen. It’s possible to not be constantly lonely.

Sorry for constantly sketching stuff instead of lining and coloring, it will happen again though

Wolf Tobin's bi trans swag

So when I've been complaining about even fanfiction not being romantic enough, part of what I mean by that is that people take huge, gothic characters in pairings with gigantic, dramatic stakes full of titanic emotions and then make them feel small and mundane. Stripping the very romanicism from the bones of the romance.

There are many things that are deeply appealing to me about B&tB pairings or 'unlikely' pairings or Gothic romance in general, but something that is less structural while still being absolutely key is that it's not an easy relationship to get the characters into. It's not something that would happen under ordinary circumstances for either person. It's not a bond that can be forged without some form of pressure preventing these people from continuing in their regular patterns.

If you're writing an E/C fic where you start from scratch, the moment they so much as touch for the first time should be absolutely show-stoppingly prodigious. It can never be casual, not between these two, the idea of a touch being allowed should be an Event. The reader's heart should be thundering in their chest, the suspense should be palpable, the consummation divine. A single touch is a consummation for them, there should be that much tension. If they hold hands and I'm not holding my breath, you have done it wrong. The first kiss should feel like an atom bomb going off, the world should shift on its axis, a line is being crossed which has left both characters forever altered.

And people will instead write them like a standard romance novel couple who make standard pervy comments in the narration, get a bit flirty, casually hook up and then weigh pros and cons about whether dating fits into their life plans or not. All of this being totally without weight, without feeling like any kind of Rubicon has been crossed or that it's significant for the characters to have entered into something which must foundationally alter their worldview.

Reylo brushing fingers across the galaxy and it being the turning point of the entire narrative, given the same majesty and mystical significance as Luke's vision in the cave or Yoda lifting the X-Wing is the exact correct amount of emphasis for them reaching towards each other in tenderness. You have a character defined by abandonment and loneliness and a character who is surrounded by people but never touched, both unseen by anyone else, both aching for connection, both never having felt anything like this before, both aware of the galaxy-spanning consequences of what they're feeling. Them touching is le big deal.

The kiss for the B&tB pairing, the EtL pairing, any Gothic pairing has to feel out of reach, a chasm that cannot be crossed- until it happens, impossible yet inevitable. Something the characters could never have conceived of taking place at the beginning of the story, an infinite abyss of which they have somehow found themselves on the other side. You have to do the work to get them there, you have to build that bridge stone by stone, and it should be a sublime agony of seeing the path take shape while it still feels like the gap is just unbridgable, that no matter how close you come, it will never be complete, they can never get all the way across. Until they do.

If you write characters who have (or should have) that kind of vast gulf separating them as just kind of falling into an intimacy which isn't earned and thus means nothing, I just have no idea why we're here. Why buy a giant gothic castle of romanticism and then bulldoze it to build a minimalist condo? Everything about the pairing that makes it that pairing is stripped away. If these were people who could just meet at a party and end up in bed, they would be completely different people.

pronouns make no sense to me specifically

like third person pronouns? why is there a need for so many words that mean someone nonspecifically who usually is not me or the person to whom i am speaking but also specifically and im expecting you to know to whom i am referring because im not telling you. that is a weirdly specific thing to come up so often

third person plural? indistinguishable from third person singular except in the reflexive, even less specific. why are you expecting me to keep track of all unnumbered amount of people to which you refer. who is they?

second person? doesnt even mean anything! can mean anything from hi person im speaking to, to anyone who can hear/read what im saying, to anyone generally, to anyone nonspecifically and hypothetically but a lot of the time me. okay those last two are third person but its still the word you so im counting it. oh i forgot about you in its use as you know, yknow, ya know, yk, etc (which by the way mean ever so slightly diffwrent things and are all pronounce differently. to me) as a nonentity

first person singular is fine if a bit vague, since its less common for the question of who i is to come up because its usually self evident as the person who said it. except in its usage such as in the phrase "if i were to" because it doesnt mean i! its the same as one and generic you but using the self as an example

first person plural has such fun usages as just first person singular but we're pretending im not talking to myself, everybody. trust me i can speak for all of us im a somebody and just you but im including myself for some reason or just him/her/them/it/etc but im including myself for still some reason

i cant figure out whats going on with indefinite pronouns enough to complain so this ends here. this as in the post im not killing the pronoun this in cold blood

not one of my female co-workers glamorising sharia law countries bc she's dating an arab man. that just so happens to come from a filthy rich family 🙄

This is what happens when you share your Spotify account with your spouse

i feel like a lot of online discourse boils down to people asking, over and over again, with increasing panic, "but who is it okay for me to hurt? who is it okay for me to hurt now?!" because "noone" is simply not an acceptable answer

There's a specific genre of character where I'll say "they suck and I hate them" and what I mean is "they're a realistic portrayal of a normal person who is normal in the way someone who has hurt me is normal and in a way in which I've hurt others" and then I forget that when other people say "they suck" they mean it

why does everyone I know only know how to make plans for Right Now. why isn't anyone ever trying to hang out next saturday

Hnnng….going through it in such a specific and weird way so now I’m physically fighting off the side of me that wants to make an Impulse Purchase

Ok we all being sad and shocked when we first discovered that Saeran died in the explosion of Magenta in Ray route, but at the end we acknowledged that he's still alive, and happy with Saeyoung. But did you know that Saeran has died in one of the bad ending in original story?

Yeah, that one. I cried for hours.