Think systems with a high number of fictional introjects are a new phenomena? Kluft's paper on polyfragmented/extremely complex DID from 1988 includes a patient with LOTR introjects, and another based off of Shakespear's Tempest. Fictional introjects have been a thing for a very long time!

Anyways something I've noticed is how different spaces have such different reactions towards fusion and splitting. Certain spaces seem to celebrate the formation of a new alter/headmate and are even envious of systems with high alter/headmate counts. I've even come across the question of "how do yall cope with fusions?" with the implication that fusion means the alters/headmates go away or are no longer needed. On the other side of the equation, I've been in spaces where splitting is seen as unequivocally a negative experience while fusion is celebrated. And honestly this difference in opinion and experience is something I want to explore more and understand better. Why is there such a difference? Is this a difference between non-CDD systems and CDD system experiences, or endogenic and traumagenic systems, or something else entirely?

Someone: Just because you have DID and other mental health problems doesn't mean you're going crazy or that you're insane!

Me, escaping from the 34th dimension from the incomprehensible tendril monsters who're after me for seeking and having forbidden knowledge no mortal should know while my physical body takes a giant swig out of the 19th can of Pepsi I'm having that hour: No but it also doesn't mean I'm not

do you ever laugh with your friends and think oh this is the point. this is the point of everything

Everyone wants to talk about how Senshi is a tumblr sexyman but...Senshi is actually attractive. Like even aside from the fact that he's pretty good-looking he's a nice, sweet guy and he can cook and loves doing it. He's a perfectly eligible candidate for marriage, which kind of goes against the spirit of a tumblr sexyman.

Chilchuck, however? Chilchuck is a tumblr sexyman. What the fuck do you people see in him

Fucking hate ai bitches this shit is poisoning my search results just like that tumblr baby crow post fuck y'all for real

Words cannot express how much I love this bird.

sadly the only copy of s10 of thg i found is in the spanish dub but the only thing theyre saying is i love you and i know thats not right so can someone hook me up with their panem plus pleasee

The Percy Jackson renaissance and The Hunger Games renaissance happening in the same year is something so special to me

i am a tragedy enjoyer before i am human

Signs of having DID that I ignored (note that these are not exclusively signs of DID but they were for me):

I don't have amnesia, that's just short term memory loss because I have ADHD!

I actually have a very good memory, I'm great at memorizing things (what do you mean that's not the same thing)

sure it may seem like my mood changes drastically but I've read online that's common in people with ADHD! it's hard for us to regulate our emotions!

so what if I have different preferences from time to time? that's normal right? like when your mood changes you may prefer different foods? what do you mean that's not the same as going from "I hate spicy foods" one day to "omg I LOVE spicy foods!" the next?

yeah okay I tend to space out in the middle of conversations then come back to and need you to remind me what you said for the past 10 seconds or so. that's just my ADHD inattentiveness. what do you mean that I only do this when stressed. what do you mean that's a form of dissociation.

speaking of dissociation, sure sometimes I feel like I'm watching myself say and do things without my own input but that's just because I was tired/stressed out

yeah sometimes I go on autopilot. my autopilot seems to have its own agenda sometimes though. weird.

sure I changed usernames a *few* times but isn't that pretty common? yeah I also wanted to change how I presented online and also my pronouns and stuff but again isn't it common for people to want to start over sometimes?

*making multiple accounts to play the same game because I play the game differently on different accounts and don't want to mess things up on one account*

oh yes, I'm genderfluid! I say that because my gender absolutely changes from moment to moment and sure it seems kinda tied to other aspects of myself like color preferences and energy levels and personality traits but I'm pretty sure that's just par for the course with genderfluidity?

"you're so different when you're around your parents vs when you're at school/work vs when you're hanging out with friends!" yeah that's called being a complex person we all have different masks we wear in different social situations and I'm no different even if it seems more extreme for me

"how was school/work/the hang-out/going to visit your parents?" I don't know I'm tired and have a giant headache and can't remember

"you said this to me the other day and it made me feel <x>" what????? I literally have no memory of this and that's so incredibly out of character for me wtf I would never do that I was probably just really stressed out and tired and had no filter on.

This is something that's been cooking in my mind for a few weeks now but like. There's this kind of pervasive vibe or feeling I see in a lot of CDD circles which is this thought that CDD alters are somehow more... viable? Real? compared to non-CDD headmates. I actually had an argument with a close friend of mine in regards to this recently, and they felt really offended that I'd imply that my existence as an entity is no more real than a child's imaginary friend, or a paromancer's thoughtform. They argued that you can see alters in brain scans and therefore they're more "real" in that sense.

But... well, I wasn't really talking about that. I mean in a more sort of philosophical standpoint, my sense of self, my identity, and how others see and perceive me, are no more or less real than those who experience other forms of plurality and non-singular existence. Sure an alter may appear in a brain scan, but each person's relationship to what it means to be an alter in a DID system varies widely between "unique identity with their own sense of personhood" to "not a person, but another version of a person seen through a different lens" to anything else. Even for singlets, "self" and "personhood" and "identity" mean different things for different people.

For me, my self and my identity are kind of just illusions (or delusions?) that I cooked up to tell myself who I am and how I interact with the world. I truly don't think that "I" exist, but because I believe I exist to a certain extent then that existence becomes my reality. In the same way, people may believe that a thoughtform, daemon, imaginary friend, headmate, or anything else may actually truly exist for them. And while that isn't my reality, it is theirs. What makes my perspective of myself more real than these other things?

And similarly, the version of me that other people see may also vary widely. One person may not know that I have DID and thus only see "Reimei". Another knows the different alters and will be able to see "Gray" and "Green" and "Purple" as their own entities. Still someone else may know we have DID and not see the alters as separate entities. Still someone else will know me, Gray, as "the one who loves classical music and rambles a lot", while someone else knows me as "a wizard wannabe who's addicted to video games". Which of these versions of me is the real me? None of them and all of them and somewhere in between and also outside of all of that. Reality is different from person to person and I think all of these perspectives of me are real, but also not real. So if that's the case, then why should I care if someone else's headmate is real or not? I simply live in a different reality from them.

I dunno, I just think it's kind of silly to consider who's existence is more real and valid when really all of that is kind of arbitrary and subjective.

my old man dog isn't great at hopping up on the couch anymore but he CAN do it and he will NOT accept help. it's almost adorable except when he just stands in front of me and barks at me to get out of "his" spot so that i'll stop what i'm doing, get up off the couch, and watch as he spends 5 minutes hyping himself up to jump into my newly vacant seat

the picrew of dorian gray

what makes Snow such a formidable villain within THG universe is that nothing he does was set in stone. there was no sense of inevitability about his actions and his brutality. Snow had enough perspective of poverty, capital cruelty, district hunger and not to mention his own arena experience’ and yet he actively chose at every moment to stray from natural goodness. its even more terrifying in the sense that he had the ability to care. Snow is not a mindless sociopath, he displays feelings to others such as sejanus, lucy grey and tigris but ultimately he will always choose himself. his ability to betray those he cared about in order yo advance himself makes him so much more than the stereotypical villain who is forced into his actions.