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thenyoumightaswellwrestleangels · 2 days

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Is there hope in us, still? (is there something worth believing in?)

let me wrap my teeth around the world - series masterlist here

pairing: poly marauders x reader (gender neutral)

length: 1.4k

genre: fluff, kinda angsty

warnings: slytherin reader, the good good post summer break mental illness, everybody's having some issues here, there will be a pt.2 next week to give it a happy happy ending but this isn't so bad, it has a hopeful ending on its own

a/n: wowie another one lol hope y'all enjoy <3

Sirius is hollow when he gets back from summer break - quiet and petulant in a way that doesn't suit him anymore, snapping at his peers and pulling away from people's touch. You can't blame him. Especially not when you're feeling the same. You're not quite as showy about it as he is, that constant, underlying desperation to keep it all hidden burning under your skin. Sirius's suffering is loud - loud enough that you always hope it will drown out yours. It never really does, as far as the other two are concerned.

He shoves towards the door when class ends, likely stalking back to his dorm to hole up for the rest of the evening. James sighs, a hand on Remus' shoulder comfortingly as the boy stares at the doorway where Sirius just was, his brow furrowed in that worried way that he's mastered.

"We're going to do some studying together in the common room later… see if maybe Pads feels like joining. You're always welcome to come along with us…?" James asks in that gentle way of his, patiently hopeful. You busy yourself with gathering up your books, knowing that if you look at him, you'll crumble. There is love in the way he looks at you, despite everything. You're sure that, if you take notice of it, it would be enough to condemn you these days.

"I'm going to do some work alone tonight," you say shortly, brushing past the two of them. Remus catches your arm as you try to leave, fingers wrapping around your wrist ever so gently. But when you pause, he lets go of you abruptly, like there's something wrong with his touch against yours. This is the beginning, you think. This is where I start to lose you.

"If you change your mind…" he begins softly. You nod stiffly.

"I'll let you know." James and Remus watch as you leave swiftly, Remus rubbing the palm of his hand against his thigh, as if trying to take back the contact he'd already made with your wrist. This is where it starts, he thinks. This is where you begin to realize that I'm better when I'm left behind.

Remus has to stop himself from startling later that night when he's woken up by a cold hand shaking his shoulder. You hadn't come to study with them that evening, which wasn't surprising, but it hurt something in Remus. James, especially, had deflated, his eyes dull and his hands fidgety while he tried desperately to finish his essay, his thoughts wandering to Sirius and the dark circles under his eyes, the paleness of his skin - and then to you, to the stubborn set of your jaw and the hard look in your eyes. Looking down at his own hands, he wonders what worth they have if he can't even save the people he loves.

Needless to say, the last thing Remus was expecting was to have you in his dorm in the middle of the night, one of Sirius's sweaters shoved hastily over your pajamas as you shook him awake. You place a finger over his lips when he wakes abruptly, climbing up next to him without so much as a word as he fumbles to find his wand on his nightstand, casting a silencing spell over the four-poster bed.

"What's going on, dove?" he asks, his hands itching to hold your face, to smooth his thumbs over the skin of your cheeks and soothe you in some way. But he resists - you're here, in his bed, looking at him like you need him, and the last thing he wants is to overwhelm you and have you scared away. The last thing he can bear to do is put his hands on you, his scars glinting against unblemished skin - something ruined touching something holy.

"I just… couldn't sleep. I'm not - I haven't been sleeping well these days," you respond, and Remus is sure that if he could see you clearly, if he weren't squinting at you through the dark, you'd be shying away, face tilted away from his eyes, away from any kind of vulnerability.

"Well," he says carefully, reaching out to put a hand on your knee. You don't pull away, to his relief. In fact, you relax a bit into it, letting your posture slouch. "Stay here then, yea?" Much to Remus's delight, that's all it really takes for you to move forward, pulling the blankets back to settle underneath them. He joins you, of course, settling in next to you and letting you decide how much - or how little space to leave between your bodies.

When you reach your hand over, cupping his cheek in your palm and smoothing your thumb over the skin there, he feels a part of him melt in the relief of it, a part of him that didn't realize quite how much he'd missed your touch - your love. He cups his hand over yours, tilting his head to press a series of kisses across your palm. When you continue to let him, sagging further into the pillows, he keeps going, trailing kisses up and down each finger and finishing with your thumb.

It's then that you pull him closer, tilting your own face up to place your own gentle kiss to his lips before thumping your head against his chest. He lets you, of course, keeping his hand tangled up with yours while the other wraps around you. Before you can sleep, though, he leans close to whisper near your ear.

"James has been wondering where the invisibility cloak disappeared to. I'm sure he'll be pleased to know you're the one who ran off with it." You can't help but smile at his words, your face still pressed against his chest.

"You have so little faith in me, Rem. Not everyone needs the cloak to sneak around in this castle."

"But you did steal it, didn't you?'

"…I'll give it back to him later." Remus huffs out a quiet laugh at your confession, pulling you closer and pressing a kiss to the crown of your head.

"You know he doesn't mind," he soothes. You squeeze his hand in thanks where your fingers are still interlocked.

"Goodnight, Rem… and thank you for this."

"No need to thank me, love. I don't mind at all."

Something clatters to the floor on the other side of the locked bathroom floor and Remus frowns, staring at it like he can burn a hole big enough to see Sirius on the other side - to make sure he's ok. James drapes himself over Remus's back where they're sitting on James's bed together, his arms wrapping tightly around his waist. Remus lets him, leaning back against him and feeling James sigh at the weight of it, a bit of tension draining from him.

"Were they really here last night? They really came and spoke with you?" James says, his face buried in Remus's neck, a desperate sort of lilt to his voice. Tell me there is hope, he thinks. Tell me I can fix this, still.

"You saw the note they left, love," Remus lets his eyes settle on his nightstand where you'd left the invisibility cloak, a note folded on top with a simple thank you written in it, a heart scrawled next to it that he recognized as yours. The whole thing almost made up for the fact that, by the time Remus had woken up, you'd already been gone.

"Do you think… things will be better now? At least a bit? Were things better last night?" James asks, his arms tightening around Remus's waist. Remus, in an act of reassurance, wraps his fingers around one of James's hands and squeezes gently as Sirius stalks out of the bathroom, slamming the door behind him and stomping away.

"I do think things are getting better. It's… slower than you and I would like, I know. But all we can is love them - and that, my dear Prongs, I know you can do." James grumbles something unintelligible at the compliment, his face still hidden from view. Remus is sure that, if he could see it, he'd be greeted by the flushed red of James's cheeks. He settles for bringing one of his hands up to press kisses across it, instead, content to bring a bit of hope back to the person he loves - to do something good with this body of his.

There is hope, he thinks, in this love they all share. There is something here to fight for, still.

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faygelehh · 8 months

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Is my birfday (:

#sorry for being so inactive i was sick and in and out of the hospital for a week straight and doctors couldnt figure out what was wrong #and then after a full week of dying i woke up one day perfectly fine.#but then had to catch up on a week of work. so. lol #is my birfday im 21 and im going bar hopping later . i am very excited #alchohol tw #ask to tag?

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edenfire · 3 months

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💞🐶 Day 1 - Puppy 🐶💞

I'm a little late to toddallace week, but I hope you still like this🥺💗🌸

#toddallace week #toddallace #toddace #wallace wells #todd ingram #spto #spvtw #scott pilgram takes off #i had no idea it was toddallace week😱💦#thank god my roommate told me #now its time to speed draw so i can catch up lol #hopefully ill be able to draw for every prompt #fingers crossed for me #im still working on some other projects #so i hope ill have time^^#♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡#shitty #(< that's my art tag)

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corrodedcoughin · 1 year

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Okay listen I can't tell whether this is stupid or funny but I can't stop thinking about it and I think you might vibe with this one?

Steve and Eddie go on their first date, and have their first kiss, and when they get back they have a moment like that one scene from friends? Where Eddie goes to see the Corroded Coffin boys, and Steve gets Robin over so they can talk about their date.

And Eddie is blushing and giggling and twirling his hair and kicking his feet, hanging out in Gareth's room. And the CC boys are talking to him, asking him questions and stuff like full on sleepover mode. Did he treat you right? Where did he take you? Did he kiss you? What was he like? And Eddie talks about how Steve opened doors for him, and bought him flowers, and treated him to the full first date experience. Going into detail about how Steve cradled his jaw as they kissed, how he moved his hand to tangle in Eddie's curls. How it was gentle and tender and romantic and passionate and Eddie has been fully swept off of his feet

And then Hard Cut to Steve and Robin lounging like animals on Steve's couch, watching Fast Times, drinking beer and eating pizza and Robin is like

"Did you kiss him?"

"Yeah."

"With tongue?"

MOMO!!!!! I can see this SO CLEARLY it’s like a parallel of the grease scene during summer loving it eddie being sandy and Steve being Danny and that is quiet frankly HILARIOUS.

I have legit nothing to add to this other than, if I could draw I’d be all over this oh my GOD

#have I said that I love your brain? NEVER A BAD TAKE!!! EVER!!!#genuinely cheered me up after a heavy work week thank you so much #I just!!! love the dynamics here!!!#gareth getting properly into it kicking his feet as Eddie tells him #him and Jeff and grant dreamily sighing as Eddie talks about how they held eye contact #and the feeling of Steve’s hand on his face #of how Steve held him close and had soft lips and bumped their noses together before finally pressing their lips together #robin high fiving Steve then going back to throwing popcorn at him so he can try and catch it in his mouth #the throws get further and more elaborate with every successful catch until #Steve is out on the street and Robin is throwing from the second floor #I LOVE THEM #I might screen shot and add these tags in a reblog becuase I can’t be bothered to type them out again lol sorry bye #momo #momotonescreaming #ask #stranger things #THANK YOU SO WONDERUL

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izzy-b-hands · 20 days

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At what point do i stop bothering to differentiate between the panic and anxiety attacks when they just. meld into each other and seemingly feed off each other

#text post #i have been fighting my brain since i woke up bc like. I dont actually feel anxious?? abt work or anything else but #my brain has the WE ARE NOT SAFE DO NOT REST DO NOT BREATHE WRONG OR SO HELP YOU GOD neon sign flashing constantly today #All ive succeeded (lol) in doing is most of the dishes (couple need to soak) a failed filming and now #i would like a couple hours of Minecraft before work #but i am uncertain the brain will allow for it lmao #had to come back upstairs to my room after dishes bc brain just. freaking out. too open. too many windows.#anyway. apologies if im not as available as i intended to be today #good thing is thus far i don't work the upcoming week/weekend so i can catch up then #try and finish some drafts and talk to friends more and everything #im babbling in the tags willing myself to stop sweating and snap out of what i think is actually an anxiety attack but #no idea on what the trigger was since all i did was wake the fuck up #back to music to help and maybe Minecraft until work #thank u all for ur continued patience with me ❤️

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jorvikzelda · 8 months

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This may be a good and normal thing but I have absolutely zero regrets about having purchased the laptop last night. Like all day yesterday and even as I was buying I was going oh god should I should I not but now I’m not even having second thoughts about the huge display lmao

#SO FUCKING GLAD that I actually did some extra research rather than just going meh the one I looked at before is probably better #I think it was a SIGN that I got paid a little early for the month’s work and then like the day after the laptop I bought went on sale #(Didn’t actually pay immediately so I didn’t USE any of that money but that is besides the point)#Only with the reservation of man… it’s big… and heavy… and REALLY huge and that’s bad…#I HAD deep down been going ‘man if only there was a bigger laptop with the same specs as the one I wanna buy’#And then!!! This baby pops up!! With a big display and BETTER specs!!!!!!!!#Cannot begin to express my excitement at playing Real People Games like that hasn’t even been a POSSIBILITY #Stray is at the top of my list right next to ranch of rivershine #And also probably Elden Ring that shit looks NEAT #(Also yes there is a catch and a reason this one is cheaper even though it’s better! The one I was planning on getting had an OLED display #This one’s just a normal good old LCD display. But in all honesty that is ABSOLUTELY a sacrifice I’m willing to make lol)#z talks #not horse game #Also the fact it’s not currently in stock so I’ll be waiting almost 3 weeks for it also very much feels like a good thing #Like. I have a Date on which I can expect to Receive It. And that means I have a very set time frame for the stuff I want to do to prepare #(mainly organise my cloud storage to make sure everything’s where it should be)#(but that’s a bigger problem than it might sound like because I have a LOT of files)

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ndostairlyrium · 1 year

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✨ Wip Wednesday ✨

I was tagged by @shivunin and @greypetrel 💛 you literal angels!!

-On the top left we have some progress on the current priority you’ve seen in the last wip thingie. Same goes for the 👀 picture, but I’ve just thrown some quick colors on it to have at least that partially done and called it a day, because time is greedy;

-Central part is dedicated to ideas, because I’m planning that famous “1 pic feat my OCs a day” and I want to have everything ready before doing so - at least concept wise lol Hence the outfit studies I’m doing for Ela and Lav you can see on the right << will I complete them? Yes, but it will take a bit;

-Bottom right, more like we don’t talk about Bruno 🤫

I’m tagging whoever replies to this post with their favorite gif of an animal being stupid not only because my moots have already been tagged by multiple people but also because I know some people want to do this and they never get tagged <<

#wip wednesday #I do have another couple of things I'm working on buuut I had to postpone them because they didn't feel right visually #so I'll give em a week to think about what they did before catching up with them in the corner of shame lol #luckily I can paint stuff in the next days without distractions ;; aaaa #everything got piled up and my wip folder is overflowing :'''#give me a job please otherwise I'll spam my ocs everywhere lol

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phoenixiancrystallist · 6 months

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Month 11, day 10

Next cloak! I made a new brush for those pearls because doing them by hand on the last one drove me batty XD

#the great artscapade of 2023 #art #my art #Forspoken #Forspoken fan art #Forspoken fan cloak #man I was updating my calendar at work with Things Happening in December and I realized #this is my last Absolutely Normal™ week for awhile #and since I had to take Monday off to deal with my landlord it wasn't even normal! just scheduled for it #next week I have a concert and then I took the two days after it off just in case I catch the rona from it #because 2023 has been VERY RUDE to me so far and I don't trust it 😒#then the week after that is American Turkey Day (Thanksgiving)#then the week after THAT is the follow up inspection on my house from the city #and then we're in December and the only craiziness happening there is I get a bonus check on the first and then Christmas happens lol #we're so close to 2024 #and on the one hand thank GOD get me out of this hell year #but on the other hand 2023 gave me Forspoken and all my lovely new friends #and I won't trade Forspoken or the rest of y'all for the world #but gosh dang it #I just want 2024 to be nice to me please 🥺#and be nice to everyone else please 🥺

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pepprs · 1 year

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feeling misery and despair about going back to work btw. im trying to suppress it and i did a good job but the inevitable is inevitable

#purrs #i had like 3 massive breakdowns at the end of the week incl one on friday when i was off. and then i was like ok. i am literally weak and sh #shaking from all of that let me just pretend none of it happened. and i did!!! i pretended so well that i have felt basicslly normal all #weekend. i played a lot of video games and i even went out twice.. once to a chorus concert on campus (which is big bc being on campus ummmm #is deeply agitating to me rn ♥️) and today to home depot w my family to wander around the plants and hear the birds. i am suppressing things #and i know i am but if i don’t think about thst i feel so normal. except now it’s 11:16 on a sunday night and i have work tomorrow. and i #know most of the horrors are over but there are still so many more fucking horrors ahead. saying goodbye to people i love and anniversaries #of things happening including today being the 4 year anniversary of a certain email lol. and i can FEEL the difference. the way my stomach #is in knots bc weekends are only so long (even long ones) and i can only hold back the horrors for a little while. it’s all temporary. augh.#i literally need like a whole month off i think. idk. work stuff has fucked up my mental health beyond belief this year and it’s so sad bc t #this is my dream job but im in so much mental pain and physical exhaustion constantly and they beget themselves and by the end of the week #im miserable. but the semester is about to end. but what if it doesn’t get better bc EVERY single god damn time we talk about how it’s gonna #get better it quite literally gets worse lol 💖 i can’t im not strong enough. coming up on 5 years here and im not fucking strong enough!#but i will heal eventually i think. i just need the horrors to cease for long enough for me to catch my breath (and other redacted things ♥️

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taichouu · 11 months

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Hej !! I will be posting a few random art requests that have been sitting in my inbox tomorrow. Keep an eye out for yours if you've sent one in, and thank you in advance for your patience.

#tai talks #I've been juggling massive creative projects on top of my normal 40 hr work week so ive been doing a piss poor job of posting content lol #I honestly expected my event to be a little delayed since I started it just before I went on a trip and then had to catch up on work things #YUCK !!!#But anyways I swear I will be posting things for my event SOON #I've been mostly focusing on a huge 15k+ fic right now so I appreciate the patience :-) I will get to everyones request I promise

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sysig · 1 year

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Your Weekly TV Guide

On Monday you can expect:

2:30 PM: Deltarune - Addisons

And Tuesday:

2:30 PM: Villainsona (blood)

Wednesday:

2:30 PM: Villainsona

Thursday:

2:30 PM: Villainsona (vent)

Friday:

2:30 PM: The Stanley Parable

Saturday:

2:30 PM: Old OCs

Sunday:

2:30 PM: New OCs

Thanks for tuning in! (Patreon)

#Weekly TV Guide #The blood is in black and white for a change! Well not a change from Just Desserts but from every other instance of blood lol #I still can't decide how blood looks/works in the Just Desserts universe so just plain grey works for the moment haha #A lot of this week is catch-up actually - I've had these doodled up for quite a while (the Adds especially) I just got very TSP waylaid lol #Weaving back and forth between different pages and themes and attentions has made for some interesting scanning and editing lol #I couldn't just settle with three notebooks I had to make one of them Extra chaotic lol #All the Charm stuff kinda happened at once tho - thus the Large Block in the middle of the week lol #Don't let it fool you - the one I'm most excited about is this Sunday >:3c #Then again new and shiny toys are always exciting aren't they haha ♪

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year

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Daily Log 7

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Finished all of the little things I carved out of avocado pits, will maybe post pictures at some point? I painted some sections (like for the eye I carved, I made part of it white for contrast, etc.) and then generally glazed them with some shiny paint stuff. Now I really wish I had more avocado pits, I was unsure at first, but I have some new ideas.. I want to try inlaying stones like I've seen in some pictures, similar to the same ones I use for eyes in my sculptures. >:3 (random google image example of the stones inside, like this sort of thing V)

Low effort/small house cleaning tasks, did a few dishes, put up laundry, organized things, put up the recycling, paid bills, etc.

Still extremely sleepy and unfocused, it was hot last night and the cats woke me up multiple times so I only got a few hours of sleep and barely had any energy to do anything and also had a headache and back pain a lot of the day. ToT

Finally made an appointment I was supposed to make like 4 days ago lol..

Gave wet food to the cats (this is an ordeal because George eats way faster than Noodle, so I have to separate them and stand guard so George doesn't vacuum his up immediately then run over and try to eat all of his brothers food.. evil boy must be watched to prevent his crimes )

Edited videos for like.. 15 minutes but still have not been very productive on that front (or editing costume photos or anything) due to shoulder pain and stuff making it hard to type/use mouse much on the computer. grrbbb >:V

Spent 10 minutes looking up a weird pendant I had in my rock collection area and found out it's an old piece of costume jewelry from the 60s(?) and could be worth like $200 potentially, which is cool. I'm not sure if I'll sell it though because I do think it's quite unique and good for a prop when making wizard character inventories, etc, and I'd never be able to find anything like it again (it's this one below.. it's very weird.. looks like something a mage would have lol)

Translated the tapestry text for 5 minutes, and got out some tubs of clothes to start organizing them to sell outfits and stuff online, but then felt ill and had to go lay down so now the tubs are just sitting out on the floor ghgh..

Notable sights: It rained a bit and the sky was very pretty at one point. Didn't get to go outside today due to schedule/low energy, so no clovers or anything. Saw a fat squirrel out the window once though. Also when I was looking through my "rock collection" (which also includes marbles, dice, pieces of glass, stones, gems, rubber balls, seashells, smooth wood, jewelry scraps, etc. ggh.. really more "shiny things collection" but it's mostly rocks, so) for interesting stones to possibly put into avocado pits in the future, I saw a lot of pretty rocks I hadn't thought about in a while, so that was nice.

Goals moving forward: Focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc. Do the new costumes I've planned. MAKE SCULPTURES at some point, I miss them.

Notable foods: Nothing really.. but it's an asparagus day tomorrow I think so.. >:)c hehehehe... Oh, I did try a bite of corn, which I really really love corn but am not supposed to have it on my diet. The miniscule morsel was sufficiently cherished. Still craving hearty stuff despite resuming my iron supplements lol..

#just posting these publicly since it feels more like I'm doing something or easier to hold yourself accountable if you make public #declarations of goals and progress or etc. .. perhaps.. for now #just want to do worldbuilding I want to work on the language I want to do these sorts of things #furstrating to just walk around in a haze all day unable to focus on mental tasks like that #One of the most important things in my entire life actually is being able to think about little elves and magic and etc.#annoying to have multiple days in a row where I make very little progress on that aside from thinking of a few little story #ideas or something here and there. I should have had the text translated already and finished the worldbuilding slideshow #already and made a game set in my world already and so on and so forth.. grr #There's another upcoming heatwave again and summer is soon so I think it will only get worsw #the more often I feel warm and sick or cant sleep due to the temperature etc.#But I am trying to catch up somehow.. a little.. lol #I think it's very common to feel like you're not making enough progress in life on the things that matter the most to you #especially during capitalism and with low income and mental/physical health issues and during a still ongoing pandemic #threat and etc. etc. etc. like.. Logically I get it and I know it's not something to be too worked up over because that's just how #probably half of the population feels at all times especially people who are in similar situations to me #but still.. my brain is like Yes i know the facts of the situation No i do not care #if someone else came to me like 'ough Im feeling so unproductive for xyz reason' I'd reassure them and talk about how #it's situational and a lot of people feel that way and it's the system we live in and blah blah #but when it's ME it's like.. No.. This Situation Is Different Of Course. Surely It Is Much More Terrible #If You Haven't Finished Your Entire ToDo List By The End Of The Week Then The World Will Explode #ANYWAY..#daily log

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solojihyo · 1 year

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suddenly it is like i’ve lost all energy to gif 😔

#i had so much energy when twice was promoting but right after promos ended it’s like my brain was like ‘okay no more giffing for now’ SHSJSJ #which kinda sucks because i wanted to catch up on giffing some of their content :( but i have so much work so i simply don’t have the energy #i have a set coming out for mina day tomorrow but i made that like last week #here’s to hoping svt brings me energy to gif more lol #isai.txt

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stars-on-fyre · 1 year

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Doing my final paper now and honestly feel so bad for my professor, girl I’m sorry my lazy ass didn’t do my assignments until two weeks before the deadline 😭

#relatable #lol #a day in star’s wacky life #that’s college baby!#finals week #my professor had no due dates for any assignments and said they’re all due on the last day of the semester and my broke ass didn’t start #until I was able to buy my texts books and I was so behind that it took forever for me to catch up #and then it became finals studying week and I still had like 12 assignments to turn in plus my 1000 word essay #not to mention my other classes work #and then before finals I got strep throat and was out of school for two weeks #this semester really testing me right now alxnaxnskxnsjxjs #anyways I’m sorry professor you’re honestly so nice and I regret doing this to you please forgive me #I hope she has a wonderful day and she deserves a break #I feel even worse now knowing I’m not like this normally it’s just this semester sucked 😭

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iloveyoumorethansoup · 2 years

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My last work post :(

My little crocheted things were met with great happiness :)

#and I only cried for like 30 seconds #my friend liked her snail and also apparently the pumpkin roll was good! which is good bc I was a little afraid it would turn out wonky #new pan and what not. shoutout to my roommates of last year who all were like yeah I don’t know never saw that pan ever. like. doubt #and for my other friend the bee!! i was like man I don’t know what to make her but also like I really want to make her something #so I did make the bee and I gave it to her this morning and she loved it I don’t know if I’ve ever seen her so happy #she named it Abbee u know bc it’s a pun with my name and bee and she was so happy I’m so glad I made it for her #she’s like I’m gonna put this somewhere where I’ll see it everyday so it reminds me of you #literally saying goodbye to her was what made me cry. i knew I would. i literally love her so so much #but yeah she really liked the bee a lot and she thought it was very sweet #and now I have her number and I promised to send her lots of pictures from college and to keep in touch #i cannot remember the last time I felt like someone genuinely cared about me as much as she does #I’m gonna miss her and work a ton but I am glad I have everyone’s contact info #that and I’m staying in all the group chats never know when I’ll wanna pop back in from cross country yknow?#now I can finally catch up on my video games lol #like if u think I’ve been working too much lately yes I have apparently I had like 10 hours in overtime from one week #so yeah. i got things to catch up on for sure. can’t remember the last time I got dressed and it wasn’t in slacks and a button up #soup talks

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bbreaddog · 2 years

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#personal #I am so overwhelmed with work #and then trying to process like 3 pieces of bad news at the same time #all received within hours of each other lmao #it’s…….been A Week #I haven’t been able to stop thinking about work for like a month #maybe two #losing sleep bc I close my eyes and my brain is still thinking about which student needs what #then spending my waking hours doing work #and whenever I catch a break it’s already past midnight #and thinking about Bad News past midnight is always a terrible idea #it’s so hard trying to be normal about everything when I’m stressed out of my mind #I googled some New Symptoms that came up and te results said ‘stress’ lmao #that’s apt #my neighbours’ karaoke party just ended half an hour ago #and I’m still wide awake #it’s 1:45am and I have to get up at 7:30 for work tomorrow #so this is fun #watch this spiral beat my month-long spiral record from when I had Covid lol #I’m so fucking exhausted #and I don’t have anyone I can talk to who will Get It #I have friends who can provide sympathy but I just want someone who Knows what I mean #and the one person who probably would barely even talks to me anymore #I hate it #I hate it so much #I have to sleep #I’m gonna wake up in 6ish hours and I’m gonna make a class of 60 kids do random shit and it’ll be fine #I know this will blow over #it just fucking sucks that I’m in the middle of it rn

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