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catboygirljoker · 9 days

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some observations from going down a rabbit hole of japanese language xigbar yesterday

(apologies for the youtube watermarks. i got this clip from this video.)

[Video ID: a fifteen-second clip from a cutscene from kingdom hearts 3D: dream drop distance, with japanese audio and english-language visuals. it's the scene where xigbar tells sora that he's not going to wake up. end ID.]

keep in mind that this clip is just the japanese audio being played over the visuals from the english language release. the subtitles aren't a direct or literal translation of the words being spoken; they correspond to the localized dialogue that the english voice actors wouldve been given

hōchū ōtsuka (xigbar's japanese va) and james patrick stewart (his english va) give, to my ears, pretty similar vocal performances. this is the case for pretty much all of the characters ive seen so far in my xigbar-centric explorations (roxas's vas sound nearly IDENTICAL). the notable exception being xemnas, whose japanese va straight up sounds like he's trying to talk without moving his mouth

in the english dub cutscenes, the character animations often feel...floaty? disconnected? like, because they're not synced up to what the characters are saying and how, their gestures frequently seem random and unmotivated. in retrospect it's obvious that this issue wouldnt be present in the original language because that's the dialogue they would've been animated around in the first place!

now that im actually watching the character animation with the dialogue it was actually done for, i appreciate it a lot more. its so expressive. smiles.

at the end of xigbar's speech here you may notice him saying the phrase "tte hanashi." this is his japanese catchphrase! it means something along the lines of "so they say", "or so I've heard", et cetera. i love "as if" im a big fan of "as if" but i also love the idea of xigbar consistently undermining the information he gives and emphasizing how often he eavesdrops and spies on people.

he says "tte hanashi" very very often. multiple times in most of his scenes that ive seen so far. way more often than the english dub says "as if"

he doesn't say it normal like im pretty sure that's not how you say it in normal speech. like sometimes he does say it normal, but he always draws it out at least a little and often really draws it out, emphasizing it with some kind of gesture, like he does in the clip

seriously if there's a moment in the games where xigbar says something while doing a cunty little gesture he is probably saying "tte hanashi" in the japanese version

this is my new vocal stim. i can't stop saying it

#&BTW im absolutely going to make a supercut of every time he says tte hanashi in the games...once i....actually play 3 #&also i know vastly more about japanese than the average person and vastly less than someone who speaks it fluently #im sure there are cultural/character signifiers in the way he speaks that im missing. pensive emoji.#&if you know for sure that any of my information here is wrong pleas let me know thank u. smile!#kh #kingdom hearts #xigbar #blakeposts

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caffeinatedopossum · 4 months

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I actually find it really bizarre and counter intuitive that clinically speaking, you cannot legally be diagnosed with a personality disorder until you're at least 18. The reason given for this is because "the personality has not fully developed before this age" like ???

Ah yes, my favorite strategy. Not diagnosing the problem until it's already been virtually cemented into your brain for life! Wouldn't it be easier (and more painless) to address the problem before it's fully developed?

#im also certain that the age that personality fully forms at is not a universally agreed upon number #like idk. maybe this raises less questions about age and more about the potential consequences of pathologizing personalities #it feels a little fucked up to me that some mental illness are 'just' mental illnesses while others are deemed a thing synonymous with you #and i can understand if some people with personality disorders do really heavily identify with their disorders #thats fine!#i also think the average person has a concept of personality which is relatively stagnant and thats just not realistic tbh #i mean if you think personality is stagnant then yours probably is so in rhat sense youre not wrong #but personality can absolutely change and i dont think it makes you a 'different person'#i think its a natural progression #anyways. got a little derailed but the point im trying to make is #lets find a way to give people with personality disorders a more realistic hope for recovery without invalidating them #and also lets maybe try to treat personality disorders preemptively so they don't get worse

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s0fter-sin · 12 days

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last thing i’ll say; people aren’t owed free content but creatives aren’t owed financial compensation either

#i say all this as a cretive btw lets head that off #their bottom line was ‘we want more money to make bigger things and we cant afford to so we want more money in order to do them’#and that is a valid desire #but you cant just expect everyone to go along with that just bc you want it #watcher got where they are due to a loyal viewer base #to reject money from corporations in favour of money from that viewer base? thats skeevy #to default to a complete and absolute paywall removing all your content then pretend that you weren't going to? thats skeevy #to make a countdown to an announcement then make the announcement a somber trip down memory lane #and an ‘if only we can make more stuff like this wink wink’? thats skeevy #and its skeevy bc theyre a company and no matter how personable they are companies are not your friend #are they the rich we should be eating? no #but when your ceo drives a tesla and eats expensive food that is written off as a buisness expense #AND you have a patreon that you dont capitalise on but still brings you on average 100k a month #you cant act like youre a hard done by creative #endevouring to make more elaborate creations is a good idea #monetisation is a good idea #absolute monetisation with no thought to an alternative isnt #name one indie artist that relies entirely on paid content ill wait #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #watcher #shane madej #ryan bergara #steven lim #hey there demons it’s me ya boy #ghost files

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canisalbus · 10 months

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For how much Machete is described by others as off-putting, he really is a beautiful dog. Does Vasco ever tell him so? That his eyes make him look earnest, his fur the most comforting shade of white like cream, the way his ears catch light like stained glass? If someone doesn't tell him so, he'd forever think he was ugliest duckling

I think Vasco definitely tries, sincerely and often, but Machete is very reluctant to accept compliments and positive feedback. Especially if it's about something as personal and innate as his looks.

#he quietly spends a lot of time and effort trying to make himself look his best so appearances aren't a trivial thing for him #he's always very clean and neat and presentable #except on those occasions when he's soaked in blood but that's totally besides the point #white fur is kind of high maintenance any tiny bit of dirt or staining becomes an eyesore and if it dries it may be hard to remove #he bathes very frequently way more than average considering the time period #some of the outfits he wears are worth more than the combined lifetime earnings of like six generations of his family #silk was outrageously expensive and the brightest red dye came from pulverized cochineal insects that had to be imported from America #which had been colonized less than a century ago so those tiny little cactus bugs were really troublesome to get and the demand was huge #he doesn't quite have the nerve to wear perfume despite it's widespread popularity at the time #but he makes sure the smell of frankincense burned during church services sticks to his fur and clothes #in general when you spend your entire life around strict emotionally congested highly religious men #you might not end up developing a very healthy self-esteem or body image #once you've internalized that sense of inferiority it's hard to unlearn it #he's so thirsty for approval and praise but when he receives some he immediately gets uncomfortable and distrustful and vaguely angry #he absolutely struggles to compliment people back as well at least on any meaningful and personal level so there's that #answered #anonymous #Machete

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cl0ckworkpuppet · 5 months

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time for my monthly mp3 player propaganda post!

yall. don't fucking stream music off of youtube or spotify. they pay their creators shit. the most generous estimate i could find was artists being paid $1 for every 200 streams (0.5¢ per stream), and unless you're listening to songs on an album thousands times in total, it helps tremendously more to just. buy their albums or subscribe to a patreon-like service for them

mp3 players are laughably inexpensive (you can get a decent one with bluetooth for like $40-50 and you can get away with even less if you forego some features), many of them are drag-and-drop, no ads, decent enough sound quality for the average person, unlimited skips, track selection, regular play and shuffle, playlists, being able to shut off your screen, and more importantly, ALL OF THIS IS AVAILABLE WITHOUT A SUBSCRIPTION. i've always been an avid hater of subscription models. there are some things where it's understandable, but you shouldn't lose access to basic QOL features just because you can't or won't fork over $10-15 a month.

"b-b-but $50 is so expensive!" WRONG. $50 (which is more than i've EVER spend on a single mp3 player) is the equivalent to 5 months on spotify premium without discounts. if you can afford that, it's worth investing into a device that can last you literal years if you get a good one and take good care of it

"but i don't wanna carry around another device!" fair enough, but these things are small enough to fit in tiny pockets (mine fits snugly in the watch pocket of my jeans) and are typically light enough to not be burdensome. if you can carry around your phone, you can carry around an mp3 player

"what if people think i'm weird for having outdated technology" let them. it's worth it in my opinion if it means i get to listen to music ad-free. the most I've ever gotten was "wooooah bro's got the dinosaur tech" and i just thought that was funny personally

"but what if the artist collapses without a constant stream of money!!! i'm not supporting the artist!!!!!" companies try to pay as little as they can get away with to artists. most of that money goes to the CEO and other higher-ups.

"but piracy is bad!" Piracy is a Crime. However, downloading youtube videos/audio for your own PERSONAL, NON-COMMERCIAL USE and NOT REDISTRIBUTING THEM is legal (generally, in the US, check your laws, i am not a lawyer, not legal advice, blah blah blah). besides, i never said you had to pirate your music. in fact, i encourage you to buy the albums of and support your favourite artists in other ways. some artists might even provide links for people to download their songs for free in high quality anyway

not gonna link products just in case someone thinks i'm a shill. but literally just look up "mp3 player" on your search engine or shopping site of choice and find something that doesn't look like it'll fall apart if you breathe on it too hard

seriously guys. if you listen to music more than like a few hours a week, and you don't get all of your music from livestreams or radios (although mine can connect to AM/FM radio), consider investing in an mp3 player. i tried out using one regularly in fall of 2021, and I haven't looked back. don't let companies drain subscription money from you

#music #mp3 player #spotify #youtube #youtube music #amazon music #itunes #apple music #music streaming #subscription services #btw this post isn't for audiophiles #i've said a lot of things here that would make an audiophile rip their hair out #i'm aware of that #this post is intended for the AVERAGE PERSON who isn't picky about getting the absolute best sound quality #but there are some high-end media players out there #sorry i just really hate spotify #and am also autistic #i have almost 600 songs on my mp3 player #<- crazy

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silenceinternalmonologue · 1 year

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Somebody asked me to talk about the misconception that Loki is always trying to kill Thor, so here are some thoughts.

When Loki and Thor are children, Thor is the one who expresses bloodlust: "I'll hunt the monsters down and slay them all". We can infer from this scene that Loki was not violent or murderous as a child (unlike a certain scene in Thor: Ragnarok would suggest which, let it be remembered, was completely improvised and therefore not written with Loki's actual character in mind).

Loki never expresses a desire to kill Thor (except on Svartalfheim, and we all know that was a trick).

The closest he comes to this is his command to the Destroyer: "Ensure my brother does not return. Destroy everything." Notice how direct the latter part of the sentence is, while the former is vague and left up to interpretation. This is a partial reach, but I wonder if Loki wouldn't have just told the Destroyer to kill Thor if that's what he really wanted.

Loki had the opportunity to use the Destroyer's death ray on Thor, and he didn't. He chose to slap him instead. Yes, this proved to be nearly fatal, but he could have been much more direct. The Destroyer is a literal killing machine.

Even knowing Thor was mortal, I sincerely doubt Loki believed he would actually die. To Loki, Thor has always been his strong and unbeatable older brother. He has probably seen him mortally wounded hundreds of times and it was probably impossible to imagine him dying from a slap.

Remember that at this point, Loki has no reason to believe that Thor won't try to kill him as soon as he finds out he's Jotun. Thor had been happily killing hundreds of Frost Giants just the week before, and had likely been doing so for the last several hundred years. So even in this "him or me" situation, in the midst of a mental breakdown, moments away from attempting genocide, Loki isn't able to directly attempt to kill Thor.

Loki never even comes close to killing Thor at any other point in the films. They fight on Bifrost, but they're fighting more for control of the mechanism here than with intent to hurt (let alone kill) each other.

In the Avengers, Loki doesn't even pretend to try. He stabs Thor once with a tiny dagger that looks like it affected Thor as much as a bee sting.

In TDW he takes it a step further and sacrifices himself for Thor (or at least tries to). Is the opposite of trying to kill someone trying to die to save them? I feel like it might be.

In Ragnarok he tries to... turn him over to the Grandmaster? I guess? And we get the snake story, but like I already said, that was improv done with no regard for Loki's actual character. And then Loki literally saves the entirety of the Asgardian people and supports Thor becoming king which doesn't seem very murderous to me.

In Infinity War he sacrifices himself for real this time, first throwing away a goddamn INFINITY STONE to tackle Thor to the ground with no thought for his wellbeing and then having the life choked out of him by his greatest fear and tormentor and also oh my god it's been FOUR films since the last time he sort of maybe subjectively tried to kill Thor and he's been actively trying to save him in three of those

This got a bit long and rambly but yeah. No matter how you look at it, Loki's attempt-to-kill-Thor count is either one or zero. That simply doesn't add up to any number high enough to qualify as him "constantly" trying to kill his brother. Also his attempt-to-save-Thor count is by my calculations AT LEAST six, and that's only on-screen and obviously not counting the hundreds of years they spent together before this.

#loki #loki meta #thor ragnarok critical #loki deserves better #loki did nothing wrong #i don't know how people still think of him as a villain #there's a HUGE difference between a villain and a misguided person #loki's mistakes are on a grander scale because he's the prince of a magical alien world where battles are commonplace #but by the standards of his own people his actions are not even *that* bad #not saying he didn't do terrible things #but that's not due to him being a uniquely terrible or villainous person #it's due to his fucked up circumstances and shitty cultural indoctination and years of abuse and THEN familial betrayal on a massive scale #and THEN torture and brainwashing #(because he hadn't already suffered enough ig)#absolutely baffling to me how the average viewer sees him as a villain just because he *checks notes*#wears dark colors has a cryptic way of speaking has strong emotions and did bad things under duress #mainstream audience treatment of loki parallels asgard's treatment of loki #and it's FUCKED UP #anyways

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bromantically · 2 months

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something ive noticed in certain spaces is aspiring bears who are beginning to call themselves fat and chubby when theyre still very much thin bodied. and i have to preface this by stressing that i support them in their journey, i was in that exact position once, i have nothing but joy and support for them, BUT. there is a responsibility to be had, i think, in what u start calling fat and chubby. u are coming from a beautiful point of view with really great and positive intentions in mind, but if u are not fat and u keep calling urself that, it does not look any different in peoples minds to calling any other average thin body fat. its okay to be excited about getting more meat on ur bones and celebrating it! its okay to acknowledge that u arent scrawny and bony and a size small to medium! but please be mindful of what kinds of bodies u are calling fat, even if its ur own and even if its in a positive light

#kitty purrs #fat tag #this isnt perfectly articulated but i hope everyone understands what im saying #ive seen it come up lately so its been on my mind #and it keeps striking me in a very strange way #because im nothing but excited for them!#but it just kind of rubs me the wrong way #it feels like a strange example of how absolutely skewed society #s views on body size are #that a thin person believes theyre fat because they have enough meat to not be bony #and the thing is im talking from personal experience #i was that exact aspiring bear. i was average i was not fat. i was calling myself fat #because i believed i was for not being stick thin #even though calling myself that was with joy and not hate

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kelvintimeline · 4 months

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sometimes they have value but 95% of revenge is bad stories are so fucking boring and worthless to me

#i feel like the average person only ever encounters petty grievance s #which absolutely does devalue ~revenge #but when it’s fiction it’s hyped up #so it’ll be like you’ll gain nothing from avenging he murder of everyone you’ve ever loved #and it’s like… idk are you sure about that one

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bobombun · 2 months

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Seere is basically immortal in that he'll die if he's killed, but he won't die to old age. And he's the Hierarch because of an innate ability of his (prophetic visions) that I have no clue how it manifests in people. How long do you think he'll be the Hierarch? Do you think he would be kept as the Hierarch even when he no longer wishes to stay as such? After all, who could replace someone who receives prophetic visions of the future, and who has seen such peculiar events? And whose form makes Goddesses more likely to trust him and feel more at ease and not do anything hasty like Garden of Light kinda mentioned-

#dod2 #drakengard 2 #drakengard #seere drakengard #seere is a kind person. would he be too kind to be able to say no to his people?#also ngl i read garden of light last night and i've been thinking about it ever since #but yeah you have someone immortal on your side. i can see people either really really wanting to keep him as the hierarch #or eventually deciding they absolutely in no way want the same leader for an eternity #i mean i can't really see him going power hungry but being in a leadership position will warp your view of the average person's life #no matter what your own origins were #btw i've only read mentions that he gets visions in between the two games and gets made the hierarch but is there a novella or anything #about that? because i haven't really found one so far but i also don't remember the game mentioning his visions or anything #admittedly i might've just forgotten but i feel like i should remember at least something if it had been mentioned #my art

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fishingmaster69 · 6 months

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thankful to have a body but God why did it have to be this one

#do you have any idea how alienating it is to constantly be struggling to keep up with people doing basic things #and everyone just expects you to be able to do everything they can & MORE they ask of you #ive pushed myself over and over and over to the point of making myself physically SICK for days on end #doing more doesnt HELP it just makes me SICKER #but when i ask for grace its like i just need to try a little harder #do a little more #get used to moving again thatll fix it #i just havent done enough i never DO enough #even when i do the ABSOLUTE MOST I CAN AND BEYOND i just havent done ENOUGH #i LIKE being the helper i enjoy it but i have limits #and i have more limits than the average person #and it feels like nobody cares #theyll let me work myself to death if it means i get the favor done #zephy speaks #vent #oops sorry

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tastycitrus · 25 days

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was anyone going to tell me there was a postgame for ranking up to tamer legend where you fight against julia and glare from dawn/dusk or was i just supposed to find out a year after i beat the main game from someone else's screenshot and suffer through a whole lot of grinding and farm quests to get there

#digimon #digimon story lost evolution #okay when i beat the game last year i came away thinking it was an enjoyable game #definitely improved on a lot of dawn/dusk's issues though i really didn't like the plate cleaning mechanic #i still think it's enjoyable but damn the postgame stuff really wanted to make me reconsider my opinion #look i beat dawn legitimately. like i went all the way to the legend tamer tournament and cleared it #i spent a long time grinding in that game but by the end of it my digimon were capable of clearing everything #lost evolution is more forgiving when it comes to the main story but the postgame...#the superbosses in the endgame areas will rip you in half if you haven't grinded out your ass AND gotten strong equips #and in order to access the legend tamer tournament you need to have 127000 tamer points #for reference i finished the game with like. 80000 #lopmon cleaning plates for you gives ~100 if you have it 100% already and quests give ~2k on average #and guess what? most of the quests are actually farm quests so you have to get specific digimon with specific personalities for them #and the personalities are randomized so if you create or evolve the digimon and it doesn't have the right personality then lol rip #what was with old digimon game developers and having absolutely no respect for the player's time

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kismetmoon · 9 months

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‘I’m Atlas, and I aim to keep you alive.’

[ID: a digital drawing of four original Flatland characters - Liz, Atlas, Chief Jr. and 01 Isosceles.

Liz is a line creature who has a seven-point end with a white line to denote her mouth, which is her head end, and a five-point star on the other end of her body, which is her tail. Atlas is a light grey isosceles triangle with a beak-like mouth on his top corner, chips taken out of his top and bottom left corner and two scars on his side. Chief Jr. is a grey circle with a crescent moon marking, a beak-like mouth and a black crown on one of his edges. 01 isosceles is a dark grey isosceles triangle with a black line on his top corner to denote his mouth.

Atlas is in the bottom right of the scene, he is covered in his own blood and bleeding profusely from his various injuries to his corners and side, where the red blood is pooling. His mouth is turned into an open frown. Chief is to Atlas’s right. He has some small blood splatters around his beak and has a mortified, open-mouthed expression. Liz is above Atlas, her head is surrounded by a pool of blood with a blood trail in front leading back to her. Her mouth is turned down into a frown. 01 Isosceles is to Liz’s right, his top point with his mouth has been cut off the rest of his body. His mouth is a simple line devoid of any expression. There is some blood on the cut edges and it is heavily pooling between his body and decapitated top point.

The background is light grey with a slightly darker grey circle in the centre.

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another drawing and explanation (which includes descriptions of assault, murder, threat and characters suffering from ptsd / anxiety attacks. warning here and now if you don’t like reading that kinda stuff) based off of something i wrote down on another of the character reference sheets :

[Plain text ID: a screenshot of some black text highlighted in white on a light cream background that reads as follows: “his chipped top point was caused by his first (and only) violent interaction with Chief Circle’s personal guard - a much more burly and aggressive isosceles than Atlas”. End ID.]

but instead i’ve changed it so all of Atlas’s major scars and the chips on 2/3 of his corners came from this other guard.

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the attempted assassination had left Chief Circle’s personal isosceles, an unnamed guard who everyone has only ever heard of being referred to as ‘01 Isosceles’ (or just ‘01’ by Chief Sr. himself), incredibly stressed, paranoid and overly aggressive. it was his job - his ONLY job - to stop such an instance from happening. but he couldn’t. it had happened so fast. he was threatened for the slip-up by Chief Sr. (saying you’re going to off someone’s entire family is 10/10 motivation 🤩). this emotional build-up caused his violent and under-calculated confrontation with Atlas.

01 attacked in an attempt to split them apart after watching Atlas and Chief Jr. go into a secluded room together. to a not very lucid 01, it seemed that Atlas was luring Chief Jr. to a quiet spot so he could kill him and abandon his body where it wouldn’t be easily found. 01 was highly suspicious of everyone at this point, as the assassin hadn’t been yet found. Atlas didn’t know what was happening and tried defending himself and Chief, causing 01 to screech and cry out, alerting all surrounding servants and lower class guards to the scene.

in reality, Chief had wanted to get away from the flocking crowd of journalists in the courtyard asking about the recent attempted assassination on his father; he was the primary eye-witness. so Atlas took him to a quiet room to try and get him to calm down and catch his breath, as he was becoming overwhelmingly nervous and anxious.

as for why Liz was here, she’s almost always hanging around, or even inside, Circle Estate when she’s not at home, or in the city. (she’s mostly there to nick the fancy chocolate bon-bons they leave laying around or to eavesdrop on the staff’s gossip). which was extremely convenient for this situation, as she could hear the screaming from a few rooms down. Atlas would have absolutely died with just one more strike from 01 (who was getting ready to deliver the final finishing blow before Liz managed to slice his upper point off, effectively and quickly killing him).

but after the failed assassination on Chief Circle (although never being identified as a suspect), being seen covered in the blood of Chief Circle’s personal guard by several servants who arrived all too late to 01’s side was not a good look for Elizabeth. or anyone else in the room with her at that time…who were all also bloody messes at this stage (whether the blood belonged to them or not). only for the fact that none of the particular servants present had the full ability of sight recognition was Liz able to get away unidentified. again. but not without leaving a literal and figurative trail of blood behind herself…

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tennessoui · 10 months

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“The r t i c o a w j k e z n keys don't work” that’s HALF THE BOaRD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

"obi-wan" is just "b-" and "anakin" doesn't even exist if it's a bad computer day and they're all glitching at once LMAO

#asks #i was complaining to someone about the j key not really working #and they were like well chin up it's not like js are everywhere #and i'm like i absolutely type the word 'jedi' more than the average person #me and my bestie #the edi order

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ren-144p · 4 months

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Hi! Silent admirer of your RE stuff (it's been so long since I've played these games, but you've been re-inspiring me!) - so I'm curious about "Madrid, 1996" for the WIP asks? 👀

ohh god— going for the only one legitimately named and simultaneously the one most unpolished bdhdjsjkl

as of right now, “Madrid, 1996” is a series of snippets intertwined with meta about itself and records of my convos with @bennidraws (which is what started it all!!), written somewhat as a branch of my luis study project. set entirely pre-games, it follows the story of Luis and Carlos who meet, by chance, at an Umbrella conference, and in two weeks develop a particularly deep relationship. Carlos falls in love with an older man freshly out of a personality crisis, Luis falls for a repressed boy who's just discovering himself for the first time, and both of them turn each other's world upside down. contains dog imagery, yearning, cigarettes, and—on many occasions—Carlos' dog tags clinking against Luis' cross

it's rough and unpolished and not even fully planned out, branching within itself into multiple endings. but i've been chipping away at it when i'm not working on anything else and i feel like eventually something will come out of it. too much love has been put into those conversations for the fic to amount to nothing ❤️

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“They ever give you a break, soldier boy?”

Carlos turned towards the voice, surprised to see anyone out of the building at this hour, especially in such a downpour. It belonged to the same man he had seen earlier, except the well-cut suit was nowhere to be found, now replaced by an intricately decorated leather jacket and a pair of well-worn jeans. He held a single cigarette between his teeth and a lighter in one hand, looking at him with curiosity through the hair falling into his eyes; and chuckled, clearly having noticed Carlos' persistent gaze on him.

“You look like a rabbit in headlights,” he teased, weaving the lighter between skilled fingers. It lit up with a quiet click a moment later, and Carlos took a while to admire the way the flame illuminated the man's face when he leaned into the light.

"No breaks.” He watched how his thin lips curled around a puff of smoke. “The shifts are short though.”

The stranger hummed, as if amused by the answer, and leaned back comfortably against the wall before extending a pack of cigarettes towards Carlos.

“Care for a smoke?”

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“You should come find me later, soldier boy. When your shift is done,” the man said, throwing the butt of his cigarette on the ground. “Room 102. On the fourth floor,” he added with a wink, turning back, but Carlos' hand wrapped around his wrist before he could go.

“Who am I asking for?”

The stranger smirked, leaning in so close their noses almost touched.

“Name's Luis,” he said, a teasing note in his voice. “And who am I waiting for?”

“Carlos.”

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and, as a bonus, a bit of the relevant note i made for this part (and for what's supposed to follow)

something about the terrifying act of inviting a stranger to your room, something about that stranger being a soldier; something about being invited to a hotel room by a man older than you, and something about the confidence with which he does it.

the way every night spent with a stranger might've been your last; the way he didn't know if he was gonna wake up the next morning, and then he did—and then they both did.

#ren.txt #tag game #i could ramble about this one for ages #that file has some of my best work in terms of lengthy emotional monologues #and i'm STILL wondering how to incorporate them into the final thing #choosing a way to write a fic is pretty damn hard when your writing is fluid and can change from like #''average third-person narration'' to ''literal poetry'' to ''meta monologue'' in the span of five paragraphs #anyway!! yeah! ''Madrid‚ 1996'' is dear to my heart. a story about connections and how they change and shape you over time‚ i'd say #and because i feel the need to clarify: i say ''older man'' but luis is like 26-28 here— and i say ''boy'' but carlos is set at 21 #their age gap is so important to me actually #btw i read this ask with a fever and when i saw ''silent admirer of your RE stuff'' i thought i saw god there for a moment #means a lot to hear that <33 #your writing is an inspiration and i absolutely love your stuff so. yeah 🥹❤️#serraveira

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redjennies · 8 months

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that last reblog withstanding, a quick scroll through the notes has me needing to remind younger fans that Dragon Age 2 was absolutely an instance of intentional "playersexuality" and cowardice by the devs. like Bioware outright said that, and if memory serves, I'm pretty sure that's where this term originally comes from.

#like i will defend some of bioware's choices more than the average bioware tumblrina but they ABSOLUTELY deserve the L for that one #it was so fucking WEIRD too as a teenage bisexual at the time because it was like you literally just had actual bisexual characters #why is Isabela (who was explicitly bi in origins too mind you) the only person allowed to be Actually Bi now?#not tagging

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redhotarsenic · 1 year

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So about the whole thing about insectoid independent plants and the human mimicry. So their outward appearance is just. An exoskeleton. And it can unfurl like how beetles open their backs to fly. And Vash and Knives have their big wings kinda folded up under there. Also you wouldn’t notice the exoskeleton seams unless you’re really close up and actively looking for them

#all the eldritch shit with vash and the wings manifesting everywhere still happens. they just have a big one under their skin at all times.#also I think they’d look just a tad too angular to the average person. like something’s off #people would absolutely get a very very mild sense of uncanny valley when they look at those two

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