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flowers-that-sing · 10 months

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damn my journal/diary entries are so fcking dramatic. like you could put this shit in a book or a movie level dramatic and it would make for a great scene. the writer brain is still active when u journal lol. i should transcribe some of the handwritten ones and scrape em for parts and pieces to use in my writing.

#bobbi babbling #i was watching videos of people reading their old diaries and performing them #(yes smosh)#and i was like ‘hey lemme look at mine!’#and unfortunately ive never had a consistent diary and i didnt do entries every year either at least not that ive kept #but i do have a lot of entries still!#i thought the younger ones would be silly but it was all kind of depressing #BUT #i did find some gems #like from preschool about the boy in my class i wanted to marry #and then in kindergarten all the boys that were into and i had to let them down easy bc i was already taken by said preschool classmate

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muffledkittycats · 6 months

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So hey hi hello

Congrats to @cakesmelons for reaching 300k!

I only joined for fun and practice but still ended up having stiff poses and something that feels like it doesn’t match me :,D

DreamTale, Dream!Sans and Nightmare!Sans belong to jokublog (on Tumblr)

The DTIYS Challenge is cakesmelon’s (On Tumblr and I tagged them!) as well as the basic idea for the drawing

Fun facts about the drawing!

There’s a chance I mighttttt go back and add shading, as well as more lighting-

I spent about 7 hours on that for some reason?

I ended up sounding insane to my friend in a voice call as I coloured Nightmare, for some reason he was harder to colour than Dream??

Then sounded insane to my classmate as they listened to me struggle to keep my attention to the drawing and trying to figure out how to do the moon

Actually wanted to create an au because of the drawing!

At the inbetween of me not doing this drawing my art style changed like 3-5 times-

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mrdrhenwardhykle · 7 months

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Pom Pom: Killer of Mascot Games Vol.3 #2

Inpomnia vs NiGHTS

"Even Nightmares get their own Nightmares...

Never make a sound-not even a peep

Keep your eyes peeled

And of course, never sleep.

Confronting like a figment-

Allusive like the shadows

Less know by day to where she was sent

She knows much more than she was programed to learn

She's determined all-alike are destined to burn.

Heed my tale, I have come warn'in-ya

Be conscious of your strengths and weaknesses-

And hide them all away from Inpomnia."

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Who is Inpomnia?:

Inpomnia is a Halloween alter-ego of the vengeful, scrapped video game mascot, slasher-Pom Pom. Inpomnia herself was once a mascot character for a big-shot game company-who was often targeted in mean spirited commercials by rival mascots. One day, a mascot game included a character engulfing Inpomnia in flames, which oddly affected reality-and killed her. Inpomnia is now a ghost who plans her revenge to any top-league mascot characters. While Inpomnia and other variations are just made-believe, Pom Pom takes the season WAY too far and gets too into character with whatever her decided elaborate costume is of the day. It's fairly difficult to break Pom Pom out of the characters she made up when spooky season approaches...

#friendly reminder that Kazooie is the only female character Pom Pom has targeted/killed #NiGHTS is not a girl #not the best composition but I do like it a lot #it's not supposed to be a beat for beat copy #I wanted the color palette to pop #if you didn't notice-#I have been trying to be pretty consistent in making entries in PPKMG have interesting and vibrant colors #while still being alarming/scary/intimidating #ex:Bug's entry is mostly pastels and there's no use of black in the main image #except for when Stone was around-his presence intentionally brought on more grays and blacks into the coloring #pom pom #inpomnia #nights #nights sega #nights into dreams #sega nights #nightmare on elm street #freddy krueger #80's slasher #halloween #spooky #halloween costume #oc #pom pom fridays #pom pom friday #ppf #ppkmg #vol 3 #NO I JUST REALIZED I COULD OF PLANNED OUT AHEAD FOR JASON NOT FREDDY #IT'S THE 13TH-ITSFRIDAYTHETHIRTEEN^THS

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mabaris · 3 months

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honestly tho i think the fallow mire is the best map in inquisition. the rest of them try to be TOO big because they’re chasing the open world feel and. plenty of other people have spoken, better than i could, about how it makes them feel empty and like they’re just fluff for fetch quests to pad out playtime hours

but the fallow mire is still PLENTY big and feels much more dense because there’s less empty space and overall just. less Going On. i know it’s the dragon age protagonist’s job to get involved in every problem, but i do like how most of the quests seem tighter, related to each other and the overall plot. and it feels more true to the scale of like, kirkwall and og redcliffe and haven

#i honestly adore the journal entries you can pick up from villagers who have left or died #it’s the map with no people but it feels the most lived in yknow #like. i love the parts of the world we see but i also feel like a lot of it is redundant??#exalted plains overlap with emerald graves. western approach overlaps with the hissing wastes #do not get me started on emprise du lion. labyrinthine skyrim knockoff #it’s just. focusing on the aspects that i feel like people don’t care as much about lmao #5 interrupted minutes of sand just for the chance to hint at interesting lore that is just. there #and they do nothing with #(fairels tomb haunts me)#but also like. the first two or three times i played i never found widris so it still feels like the same level of Hidden. to me #and that quest is actually. relevant to the themes of the rest of the game??#idk the whole thing definitely feels like it’s the first level they made when they were still on the fumes of the first two games #and imo it’s better for that #mine

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kagiura-akira · 1 month

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trying to find evidence of completion of my first ever fanfiction using web archive and like. I kind of found it but I can only read the last chapter and I can't see the stats on it but have a looksie at the cringe relic of the past I found

If you aren't old enough to remember the era of adding random x's to your usernames to look edgy don't look at me pls

Let's talk about the homepage too and how you can tell what fandoms were popular in 2009

But like why was Pinocchio a top story tag I don't remember that being a thing LOL

#I. Actually want to die reading this journal #Bc I like. Gave active updates on my writing in it sounding like I was famous #But it wasn't like popular at all lmao #I mean maybe for a baby writer but tbh it's nothing by today's standards #Giving updates like “I'm sorry I'm behind =(”#Am I having a stroke bc this seems like too many xD's and :3's for one person #I still do the update thing but really it's only for me to vent lmao #I have a lot of journal entries

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emile-hides · 6 months

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when the theater guy WHAT

I went to see the FNaF Movie today and seeing as I have a total of Zero friends in real world event range and both of my parents hate horror I had to go to the theater by myself for the very first time in my life, which was fine. Until it wasn't

The dude in charge of ticket checks stops me and instead of asking to see a ticket asks if the mask I was wearing was part of some costume. Little black cloth face mask, covid thing. He was an old man on a scooter and not wanting to have a discussion with this tiny old man about Covid19 I just went along with it and said sure yeah. It kind of was anyway, it has a little bear mouth on it and I was wearing Bear Ears and a brown cardigan as well.

Man goes "You can't wear a mask in here." I say "Why not?" He says "You can't wear a mask in here." I go, "I heard that part. Why Not. "Policy, I don't make the rules, just enforce them." I realize this man is being paid minimum wage to sit here and police people so I go, "Okay." and walk past him because he's just some guy in a little scooter in the middle of the atrium and he hasn't asked for my ticket so I assume that's Not His Job

He calls me back for my ticket so I take out my phone with the QR code with my ticket on it and he takes my phone to (I assumed) scan the code and then he pulls out his walkie and calls his manager and I realize very quickly he is not scanning my ticket and I want to Leave Now.

"Can I have my phone back?" "When my manager gets here."

"Give me my phone back." "When my manager gets here."

"Bill. Give me. My Phone." "As soon as my manager gets here"

I make a swipe to grab my phone from him and this tiny little 60 something man in a scooter in the middle of a theater atrium as the audacity to hold it back over his head like I am a Toddler he is preventing from grabbing at a knife.

I am now having a panic attack.

Manager walks over and I am a broken little Autistic man who just wanted to watch a Bad Horror Movie (it was actually pretty good) so I scream at this lanky probably 30-something in the middle of a Cinemark Theater Atrium with many a random bystander around "TELL HIM. TO GIVE ME. MY PHONE."

I swipe my phone from Bill's hand, full turn, and bolt out the door half way across the parking lot and call my mother in a heap on the sidewalk.

It's a very good thing the Five Nights at Freddy's movie was way better than I was expecting or today would have been awful.

#I never rant about anything ever but Oh My God #Oh???? My God???? What the Hell??????#I should point out. I might have said 'tell him to give me my fucking phone'#I say might because I Do Not Remember perfectly #As I was mid panic attack and was really fighting back the urge to Hit That Old Man #But I have been told I swear just a little when I'm too stressed #The manager was SO apologetic like the second he walked onto the scene I do remember that #He followed me at first when I ran but as soon as I was out of the building it was out of his hands so #I came back with my mother and she talked to him and it's like #The little old man is just. Kind of stupid. And an extreme rule follower #No Costume/Halloween masks in the theater is the rule and TECHNICALLY I did tell him the mask I was wearing was a costume piece #Is that still any reason for Taking Someone's Fucking Phone??? No absolutely not #But that's apparently ANOTHER rule #If there's anything sus about someone he's to hold their proof of entry (ticket) until a manager arrives #Which is most certainly a rule about Forgery Paper Tickets and NOT about holding someone's cellular device hostage over a mask #But like I said. This man is very locked on rules and had no common sense apparently #He gave us complimentary tickets after that so that was neat I guess #Anyway. The FNaF movie's good.#I enjoyed it a LOT better than I've enjoyed any of the games #I really was expecting a trash show like the books but man. Man #It was fun.#Not scary like at all but. Very fun.#You could go in knowing nothing about FNaF and come out with the most baseline knowledge which is fun #A good straightforward starting point #However I was disappointment in the lack of Autistic Children talking through the movie!!! Honestly!!!#I wanted to hear a child three seats down info dumping to their parent dammit!!!#Like with the Mario Movie!!!

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seventeendeer · 8 months

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shout-out to the 214k word undertale fanfiction I wrote and published ~7 years ago that still gets kudos on the regular

I want to make art and share it w the world and feel seen and understood, but finishing stuff is hard. if I die before I finish anything else that is fine, however, bc clearly that fanfiction will continue to shine across time and space like an immortal angel stretching on and on until the heat death of the universe

#deerchatter #ive obvs gotten a lot better at writing. but yall wouldn't know that since i never fucking share anything. help me #i can never seem to finish anything ...#recently picked up my fanmade pokémon region project again. have finished 80 mons so far but not a single completed dex entry #which i want to do before sharing ...#i genuinely am so happy my old ut fic got so popular and is still read to this day bc even if i never manage to finish anything else #at least i got to show off smth i made to a lot of people. even if it is no longer my best work.#bleh 3am artistic loneliness. that soul void game did smth to me man

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rotisseries · 8 months

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yk that military kid camp i went to? gone for like a week? there were so many homeschooled kids it was crazy. and people that skipped grades. like a 14 yr old is a junior and this 15 yr old is starting freshman in college. made me feel 1) dumb 2) better because i feel like i am inherently less awkward and less socially inept than the average homeschooled kid. i do feel bad a little bit. not a lot.

you are less socially inept than the average homeschool kid I promise. this includes me unfortunately. also don't worry about whether or not they're smarter than you I promise something is still wrong with them

#15 yr old freshman in college is probably just doing dual enrollment which I was SUPPOSED TO DO #but I was lazy and kept putting off taking the practice tests so now I'm a senior. and still haven't started dual enrollment #probably not going to #but yeah a lot of homeschoolers do dual enrollment bc supposedly? the first 2 years of college aren't really major specific #they're like. general classes everyone is required to take. so homeschoolers with flexible schedules have the time and ability #to take those during highschool. they also might just not be taking the highschool versions of those classes at all #like if you can do. entry level college biology or highschool biology well the college one is the same stuff but more in depth #so you don't need to take the highschool class #and then as for the 14 yr old junior well one homeschoolers tend to have less work #I don't really get homework because it's just schoolwork #like I just have to complete things on khan academy #and a lot of in school classroom time is just the teacher trying to manage 20 kids. which isn't a problem here #so I have like. 3-4 hours of schoolwork total in a day probably? you could totally backload more of it #to be finished quicker #anyway they're not any smarter than you they just do school differently in a way that sounds more impressive #but isn't gonna have that big of an effect later #finishing college 2 years early doesn't actually get you anything but your degree 2 years early #ask #ghoultaffy #hi jayme!

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foxgirlmoth · 9 months

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I don't talk about this stuff on here pretty much at all, but a past relationship really broke a ton of bits and pieces of my brain and heart in weird ways (I'm finally thinking about him almost never but the shit he pulled was abusive as hell and still affects me sometimes). Being in love with my current girlfriends for a while felt almost. Painful? Almost like I should be ashamed I can fall so deeply in love with people, and especially how quickly that can happen sometimes too. Thats how it kind of felt. I tend to get overwhelmed with emotions if I'm feeling them very strongly, and that has been extremely embarrassing and also felt almost like I was being a burden to those I love (which love is the main emotion that can 'get dialed up to 11' for me). It IS debilitating in some ways!!! It hasn't gotten bad enough I've been nonverbal in a really really long time but that happened this past week and it was wild to me.

Things are getting better now though! Therapy in the past has helped, and honestly having such patient and understanding partners has made a world of difference ;w;. my wife is someone who was one of my best friends and I had a huge crush on and now I can ask for cuddles and we can nap together and I've fallen so much in love. Her and her presence are literally heaven for me, I don't know if anything has ever made me happier than just laying next to her and feeling her warmth.

Worries of course flare up and I feel like I need to lean on her a lot during those moments, but I don't feel like too much of a burden to her. I love seeing the posts that say stuff like 'Its okay to be a burden' or 'its okay to be annoying' because really truly I think I need to be those things to survive sometimes. I can be 'a lot' and I can be a little bit obsessive and those things aren't inherently bad or evil of me. I just make sure I'm feeling okay during and after and make sure I'm checking in on myself often. I'm a bit of a broken girl, but that doesn't mean I'm not extremely happy and living a life I love. I've written poems and everything about how it feels like it must hurt to love me and my broken jagged edges, but hey, even if it does a little bit, it doesn't mean someone like my girlfriend/wife won't go through a little bit of burden to love me, and I'm more than happy to return all of this and more for her as well if she's ever in need or feels broken ;^;

#Not to be too gay but I wanna build my life with my princess more and more #She's. So good to me and she's so pretty and she's so beautiful and attentive and she listens to me in ways I feel no one else has #She understands me so well!! And I hopefully make her feel the same #But yeah I've been a burden a lot to people due to autism (which I didn't know I had for fucking ages) adhd and physical disabilites #And she feels like she isn't taking care of me which is good because I'd honestly hate that #But she understands me and makes me a better person and that's exactly what I've wanted for forever.#And being demi/aspec is awesome with her since she's aspec too and there's no pressure for sex or sexy times but if we both want it #It can still be super fun!! We gotta figure more of that stuff out if we want but knowing each others kinks (and sharing a good bit) rocks #Idk its so so so so easy to love my wife Maxie #She's so dear to me and we've only been dating for 4 months but they've been 4 months I've felt the most alive and seen #Its so easy to be cringe but free with her too idk #She makes me better and I hope I do the same for her. I don't want either of us to stagnate yknow?#But anyways yeah this is just a big journal entry of some kind I might do these every once and a while #Not to like. Brag??? I guess. Or show my mental illness so much. Its just kind of nice if friends know where I'm at in my life I guess #And idk having outside input on thoughts can be good. If any friends see this and go 'Hey Runa this is real weird maybe tone it down'#I can look at that stuff a bit more #Gonna tag this in a way I can find it and others in the future too #Runa diary logs #But yeah you're not hearing this from me but I wanna be with Maxine for the foreseeable future more than anything.#Gotta get my degree and a good job too and she's ofc not the only person in my life (I have Sara who is so very dear to me too ;w;)#Nor is she the only 'goal' I have either. I wanna make games I wanna make art. I wanna make something that other trans people #And queer people and just minorities in general can look at or play or experience and just go. Life is worth living #I love my life right now and I'm so glad I've made it to my late 20's.#Its only uphill from here :3 #Wanna add on when I say she's not the only person in my life I mean that I have so many friends and people I love who love me too :3 #♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

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didsomeonesayventus · 1 year

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Okay, I trust you as a source for all things Fire Emblem - can you please tell me if Fire Emblem Engage is worth getting? It's a lot of money, and I've seen a real mixed reception for it. I've read reviews that call it uninspired and shallow, storywise, and that some characters are difficult to enjoy. Is it actually worth it, or am I better off just replaying Fates? I am TORN over here.

SO! Good news in brief: if you liked Fates I'm fairly certain that you've got a good chance of liking Engage. I honestly see Engage as Fates 2 with a much better focus on what it wants to be and do! In fact if I HAD to pick a previous entry for fair comparison/vibe similarities, I'd pick Fates, maybe Sacred Stones (though I've yet to finish that one).

Engage is right now my favorite entry of the series.

MORE DETAILED ANSWER UNDER THE CUT (I have only played thru once on normal + casual as of writing)

I still maintain it's a good game and worth it, but you HAVE to be open-hearted about it. It's going to be silly. It's going to be hammy and subtle as a sledgehammer. It will even say the most cringe ass shit with it's whole heart. It's just about the farthest from 3H you can get on the fire emblem scale to the point you could have it sitting next to Kingdom Hearts and I, personally, love that for it, but feel like comparing it to 3H's darker tones is the thing most negative reviewers fall prey to.

Is it simple? Yeah. Absolutely. Terribly predictable, even. Is it heartfelt? YES! ABSOLUTELY! Engage has no time for "wow that was cheesy" because it LOVES cheese and it wants you to know that LOVE IS THE MOST POWERFUL THING EVER. It knows it's running a trite and cliched story and it doesn't care about that so much as trying to hit its notes with just the right vibe- and I argue it does a majority of the time, but can concede some things are rather silly. It's full steam ahead with the power of love and friendship and it does that with about as much reverence as a Sat. A.M. cartoon. A good Sat. A.M. cartoon that you're still thinking of years down the line that was a formative childhood joy.

And it's not about romantic love, actually! Hardly at all! There's a lot more focus on familial and platonic love than romance!! There are explicit "I love you"s regarding family bonds and multiple sibling relationships that make it clear they would do everything for their family. The only romantic aspect is whoever you choose to have Alear S-Rank (the game calls it a ring rank for Reasons but its essentially an S-Rank), and everyone else's supports end at A. Even then there's room in a fair number of Alear's S-Ranks to get interpreted as Really Good Friends, as the focus is not on "I Love You" but moreso the fact Alear and the blorbo in question have a deep, deep bond (though there are S-Ranks that are romantic-tinted and some who will explicitly say they love Alear, and regardless of gender picked! wow! diversity win!). If you were looking for pairing up your sexy chess pieces and getting paired endings, though, there'll be a bit left to be desired.

Again if you like Fates, or Kingdom Hearts, or stories that are cheesy, simple, cliched, but heartfelt, you're going to like this one. The cast is wonderful, and the story has some surprisingly good emotional beats. Oh, and also some of the FUNNIEST supports I have seen. Ever.

Alear in particular has become my favorite lord of the series, just barely scooting ahead of Corrin by virtue of having a more solid characterization and arc that Fates didn't quite let Corrin have. Which, yes, you can rename Alear and give them their own birthday, but there is NO question that Alear is their own character; hats off to Laura Stahl and Brandon McInnis for bringing stellar performances that are essential to the character. Frankly hats off in general to the voice cast as a whole they really bring a charm to the game that cannot be ignored.

I will say that supports are pretty hard to grind out, though, requiring units to be adjacent, and the leveling curve leaves a lot of... wonkiness? It's VERY easy with the rate of receiving new units + leveling funk to have units fall behind, or your army to feel underleveled, if you're like me and mostly skip the side skirmishes (bad gamer, I know). I hear the skirmishes are also kind of wonky and scaled to Alear's level which. Can Be A Problem if you're trying to level or support grind weaker units. Though I will say that playing Normal + Casual playing straight through the main story, while it occasionally made me sweat, it did not make me have to completely redo a map (or, if it did, it was probably only once or twice and I've simply forgotten about the inconvenience). Just made unlocking supports irksome as units fell off and/or made it hard to keep some characters off the bench.

There's also an OBSCENE amount of freedom in what you can do with your units. Go crazy go stupid try not to die. Resource management can get tricky, there's not quite enough gold or bond points to do everything, but you can do a lot of stuff, especially if you find a favorite to focus in on. As for the Engage mechanic: very powerful, but not to the point of sapping all the challenge out of things, and fairly balanced. The Break mechanic introduced I think is a great addition to the weapon triangle mechanics and adds a nicer layer of consideration to unit placement + weapon diversity in your army than before.

Also, if you're worried Engage overly relies on it's intent as an anniversary celebration, don't! Engage still is doing its own thing, and moreso uses references to past entries as spice or flourishes of color. They add some fun easter eggs and flavoring to the story, but it doesn't rely on the emblems or any throwbacks to tell the story it's trying to tell. Are Firene and Brodia a 1:1 for Zofia and Rigel? Yeah! Probably on purpose! They literally got the guy who voices Duma in FEH to do King Morion! Do you need to know anything about Shadows of Valentia to appreciate that? Nope! Just nice to know. Corrin's ring is found in a Northern Fortress, to further help illuminate the cute nods involved.

If you're on the fence, totally get that, especially since dropping 60$ on a game in this economy- ~90$ if you wanna add DLC -is a lot of money to ask for. But I've thoroughly enjoyed what Engage has to offer, and currently am hopping along through playthrough #2 and trying to tell myself to S-Rank someone who isn't Alcryst (I will probably S-Rank Alcryst again). I'd suggest looking into the first few eps of a playthrough if you're still not quite sure, and, frankly, imo there's no shame in just purely enjoying it from a "watched a playthrough" perspective, if you have to.

and, if none of this has persuaded you, please direct your attention to Zelkov and this Honest-To-Alear real support exchange: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F1_lsOLB68g

#katie rambles #fe engage #fe17 #in short: I like this game and I think if you liked fates you'll probably like it too!!!#I didn't get into spoilers because idk how spoiler free u wish to be #but there is a link to part of a support (missing context + no plot mentions)#but I think engage does a very good job of being what it is #a simple romp to go kill the problems dragon and collect the emblems and save the day #but with a lot of heart and solid gameplay as usual for a fired emblem #alear reminds me a lot of the way i've strived to write corrin #and i think the plot absolutely benefits from the focus of a single campaign that allows it to hit good vibes #does it cover everything in super detail? not entirely.#does it completely avoid being silly? NOPE #are there missed opportunities? sure always are #but this game has reignited a lot of my joy and interest and creative energy #and it's going on month 3 of loving this world and what it offers #no doubt to still last as I have a fic or two still in the works and the Fell Xenologue DLC has me like MASSIVE EYE EMOJIS #but i do totally get that 60$ USD for the base game is. a lot of money #I think its worth saving up for tho! and if it's hard I won't fault you for just checking out a playthrough #but I really. really like this entry and i think if you come in with an open heart you will too

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rhinoyo · 3 months

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hey cos!! what are your favorite rune factory games in order :0!! im super curious!! have a nice day!!!

helloooo!!! <3 oou thank you so much for the question.. <333

of the ones i’ve completed in full — 4 is my favorite, followed by 3, and then 5! <3

including the ones i’ve just played enough to have an opinion — it’d be 4, 3, oceans, 2, 5 :> <3

#askz #anon #3 has very charming characters and i adore micah; story is kind of weak but gameplay wise was really fun for me :D <3 #oceans!!! admittedly!!!! i barely played!!!!! but visually i like it SO MUCH #(i really hope if they still go the 3d route for rf6 that they take inspiration from it..)#2 has something you need to do to progress to the second half of the game and i did not have the patience to get past it..#but i really like a lot of the cast & the art style of it is very nice to me :> <3 #5!!! not the biggest fan of how it plays or looks. but it was the first entry after a decade so i expected that <3 #it has some really lovely character designs and i thought some bits of the narrative were really cool but that’s mostly it <33 #(<- ALSO; LOTS OF IMPROVEMENT RE: OUTDATED/UNCOMFORTABLE HUMOR THROUGHOUT THE RF SERIES; WHICH WAS VERY WONDERFUL TO SEE. <3)#(still has lots to get better on!! displeased they wrote a character like fuuka!! but overall makes me hopeful for 6!!!)#anyway. thank you for asking <3 i hope you have a lovely day too c: <33

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deityofhearts · 9 months

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it’s kinda dawned on me that I’m spending time making diary entries for my dnd character that realistically only four or five people are seeing

#deity dialogue #one of those people is one of the ppl I’m playing dnd with rn #the other ones are xena stara and rome #which is fine they don’t have to be seen by other people but also I’m spending so much time and effort in them #doing whole ass drawing in ‘cashmere’s art style’ and even going through the struggle of making some pages appear tear stained #and for what?#for fun tbh but still #but it would be a lot to post on here because there’s already so many pages I also doubt anyone cares and also I don’t wanna be judged for #cringe because I cannot write for shit these diary entries suck ass

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caulo · 1 year

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funniest thing about being medicated for ADHD is that after like 10+ years of stressing tf out about needing to make freelance illustration work because it’s the only thing i enjoyed doing once upon a time, now i’m like ‘idk maybe i just want to do accounting or something for a living’.

#now that i am capable of expending energy towards things that are not necessarily 'fun'#( although i do earnestly enjoy just.... the most mundane and repetitive data entry to a degree )#the idea of using up precious time/energy/motivation on something like a bookkeeping job #isn't nearly as implausible because like. i think i would still be able to do other shit lol #not to say that i think it wouldn't suck in a lot of ways anyways #and i do not like the idea of acquiring more student debt to get a different degree #in fact if i do not remain on disability i am committing to about $30k student debt not being forgiven #but i could see myself doing it and it would be nice to. y'know. have more than $1000 a month to live off of #annoying high pitch ringing in your ears #living that adhd life

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bosspigeon · 11 months

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so... i'm back on gaia doing runways and today's theme was PriDEMONth

so, trans flag demon

#pidge does stuff #gaia avis #listen i spent Real Money on this website in college bc i had that government money #and i am unfortunately prone to the Gacha Addiction #so i have a fucking treasure hoard of items ive been hawking on the marketplace #ive been spending a lot of time lately doing runway entries just for fun and me time #i havent won yet but im having a good time lmao #tbh i kinda want to draw some of the characters ive made based on various runway themes #or just bc i found a cool item and wanted to build a character around it #anyway if anybody is still on fucking gaia online in the year of our lord 2023 go vote for me

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unrestrainedbalderdash · 11 months

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The problem with discourse is that you can never tell if it's moral OCD or if you're genuinely a shitty person

#going onto who do i know this man and seeing loads of discourse about a character #from a videogame series that i love and was playing right that moment is not great #my brain's torn between going 'he's a really flawed character and in ebf5 he actually does character development and moves past them #and it isn't endorsing his fascism (but haven't played ebf2 and apparently in that one it's a lot... worse)#(but still things should be judged by the newest entry right?)'#and 'I'm just as bad as the people who play h*gw*rts l*gacy'#especially bc i'm just some clueless privileged white person from the bloody colonialism country #also i have pmt and that usually makes things feel a lot worse #so yay. fun.#vent #btw i'm using moral ocd in a genuine way not just being like oOh pEoPlE wItH dIsCoUrSe hAvE mOrAl oCd #sorry this post is a real downer #i won't do more discourse posting i promise (hopefully)#tw discourse #cw discourse

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devotedlystrangewizard · 1 year

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one thing i like about this specific corner of youtube is how often other youtubers get mentioned or are even in the video like heres a new video from one of my favorite video essayists!! hey i know that voice

#codex entry signalis video i have watched videos from half the cast members that are youtubers its so silly #its the pathologic enjoyer corner.#fuck youtube but also mhmhmmhmhmhmh video essayists who like patho #theyre all 'smaller' youtubers too (none of them above the 300k subs which is still a lot #but compared to some other people out there...)#ramblings #i dont want to watch sulmatul's kotor 2 video bc i do have kotor 1 & intend to play them both #but the allure of a 7+ hour video... hm...#anyway back to xiv (like a normal person watching 7 hour video essays & grinding in xiv is normal person behavior what)

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