eddie does not have an easy relationship with the concept of love.
his mother told him she loved him, but then she left.
his father used his love as a weapon; sharp and barbed and entirely conditional.
the first boy eddie had ever loved, took advantage of it. strung eddie along with flirty glances and lingering touches and those three little words whispered into eddie's ear, hot and dirty, and just the necessary push to get eddie to fall into bed with him. when eddie woke the next morning he was alone. he never saw that boy again.
falling into a relationship with steve harrington is almost too good to be true. eddie pinches himself over it often, wondering whether this is all some sort of elaborate dream his overactive imagination has come up with, wondering when he'll wake up from it. but a month ticks by. then two, then three, then they're coming up on six. and seven. and eight.
and then steve tells eddie that he loves him.
and, oh, it frightens eddie. scares him so deeply because... because he loves steve too. so much that it overwhelms him. he's never felt so strongly for someone before, and he doesn't know what to do with all of the feelings.
he wants to lay himself bare for steve like that, but every single person that has held his beating heart between their hands has dug their fingers into it and made it bleed. has torn it to pieces and left it ruined, a mess of mangled muscle and viscera, bloody and raw and smeared across the cold, hard floor.
so, when steve tells eddie that he loves him, he does what he knows how to do best.
he runs.
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I've had some time to collect my thoughts after a couple of days so here they are even though nobody asked.
I really loved the finale. It was devestating, no doubt, but I think this is their best one yet and I absolutely loved how they handled it. There was so much grieving in this episode, not just from Carlos, but from Owen and Judd as well. But despite everything they chose happiness and the wedding ending up being beautiful and bittersweet and joyful all at once.
There has been the question of deleted scenes but there's really only one we've seen so far that I would have loved to see in the episode. Other than that, I'm just glad we get to have them all as extras. I don't think the wedding needed them though.
Another thing I'd like to add is that yes, sometimes storylines can feel rushed in shows where you have a lot of characters and especially if there are clear favorites within a fandom. There was a lot going on, but that doesn't necessarily mean any one character's storyline is less valuable than another's. I guess I'm speaking as less of a fandom member and just more as an enjoyer of the show if that makes any sense. I love all of the characters in this show, and while I would be lying if I said I liked every single storyline, that doesn't mean I wish they didn't happen. In this case, however, I loved all of the storylines and I think they all made sense together given the theme of this episode. I personally don't think any of them shouldn't have been there in favor of getting more wedding content.
Honestly, my only regret is not getting off of tumblr as soon as the final bts stuff started coming out. I'm pretty bad when it comes to guessing things so if I hadn't been aware of the theories I literally would have had no idea and it would have hit me so much harder. It still got me pretty good though.
Again these are just my opinions so feel free to ignore everything I say if you didn't feel the same. I'm happy though, and I'm going to continue being incredibly annoying about this show. ♡
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The Great Notes App Exodus: Gothic Dragons
Gotham has always been protected by a Dragon, even before it was ever Gotham.
There was a way about the land Gotham stood upon, that was all twisted magics and darkness and feral energy that never quite fit in man’s modern world. America had but one Guardian Dragon - except for Gotham, which was near a law and country unto itself.
Gotham was a sanctuary for the supernatural, but it was not kind. Those non-humans who risked its dark streets were the brave, or the foolish, or the terribly desperate. Gotham was a dark city, and it’s people adapted or were driven out.
(But should a threat ever come for her, all of Gotham would rise up in response.)
So Gotham had its own Guardian, but the Dragon guarded the world outside from Gotham’s brutality just as much as it shielded Gotham from those that would rend her apart.
But, of course, Dragons were only so many, and new blood must be brought in - human blood, as it often was, and so the trend of Dragon blood “skipping” a generation emerged.
And the bloodline of the Guardian Dragons of Gotham withered, bit by bit, because it is far easier to kill a human of dragon blood than it is to kill a Dragon of human descent.
(And Bruce Wayne has never hated this truth of the world more - because his parents had been Skipped, human, and if they had been dragons, they’d still be there with him.
But they weren’t.
It was just Bruce, a fledgling Dragon, and the butler left to care for him.)
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Although Gotham had only ever had one Guardian Dragon, it had at one time had a whole lineage of Dragons capable of taking up the mantle. As the Dragons intermarried, however, more and more lines broke off with human kin, occasionally producing dragons.
But the Guardian Line had been reduced to one untrained hatchling. And that hatchling didn’t much care if it was a Dragon or a dragon that was Guardian of the city, just that there was someone to Guard it.
The problem is, of course, that the hatchling needs training - but he cannot get that in Gotham.
So he leaves.
He comes back ready to pull his city back from the brink, by force if (when) necessary.
Here’s the thing - Bruce is no Dragon, because for all that he is the last of the Guardian line he doesn’t adhere to the rules of that duty.
A Guardian’s duty is to the supernatural beings they protect.
Bruce has already decided that that is not enough. Human or Magical Being, if no one else will step in, then he will.
Bruce might have been the Gotham Dragon, but that didn’t mean he was the only dragon in the city.
The thing about dragon blood is that it tended to turn up dragons unexpectedly in families that had been mostly human. A dragon ancestor could have human children, and their children have human children, and then a dragon. It was a recessive trait when introduced into human bloodlines, and especially if it was paired with yet more human lines, but it also was tellingly stubborn - a human may only have a single draconian ancestor hundreds of years back, but they could still unexpectedly turn up a dragon hatchling.
It was just sheer dumb luck that a bunch of said unexpected hatchlings turned up within the span of the same generation.
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grief is a really strange thing, isn’t it. like. i’ve spent the past two years grieving the death of someone only to find out that they aren’t dead, but they aren’t alive either. i don’t know if it’s possible to grieve something that has never existed at all, because grief naturally proceeds from betrayal but is it even possible to feel betrayed by something when what betrayed you isn’t there? how far can we conceptualize the abstract, and even love it, without finding yourself slipping away from what reality truly is? i only know grief as this angry, lasting piece of my life that even the possibility that i’m grieving in a way that feels like relief is strange. because you would think that it is reversed, that relief is what you seek out when you are in the process of grief, but i don’t think that is what i’m feeling right now. there is a weight that has been on my chest for two years that has been lifted, and with that, i am forever mourning.
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