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you-are-my-neverland · 7 months

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*disclaimer: will this actually decide my fate? who knows, but it's fun to do it anyways.

option one: eight years ago, helena yang died, taking cian byrne with her and ending the horror. the red revolution won, and the doomsday prophecy was fulfilled. in the new commonwealth, all magic users are created equal, and people no longer have to suffer under the previous reign of terror.

but everything is not what it seems. there is a coffin in the woods that should never be opened. the white wraiths, a terrorist organization, haunt the streets, and a mysterious assassin called the magician eludes capture. and in the corners of the city, the rot slowly creeps back in...

in which helena yang was the chosen one, cian byrne was the antichrist, and when they died, they left legacies behind that have yet to be filled. alice yang, helena's younger sister, has made it her mission to hunt down the elusive magician, while kellan st. trinita grapples with being handed a legacy he doesn't know what to do with. and in the woods, someone wakes up...

my baby for the past couple of months. i'm 16k into a draft (and 26k into the planning doc lol), but i ran out of ordered plot so it's at a bit of a standstill despite the numerous ideas bouncing around in my head. definitely want to work on it, but it has a ton going on with character threads and plots, etc etc.

option two: in a world where the earth, sky, and sea were created from the bodies of gods in a sort of sacrifice-creation-by-dismemberment cosmogony, the 'hearts,' the power sources of the gods, are lost. whoever finds them will possess unimaginable power. the search for the sea goddess', nisa's, heart has led to a surge of piracy in the past decades - in a world where you become a pirate or live under them, many turn to the sea for better options and opportunities.

for arete, the quest for nisa's heart is not what she wants, but rather her destiny. daughter of a famous pirate captain, arete's skin bears a map that will lead her to the heart - if she can make it out to sea first. saved as a child by akane and her mother, then separated from akane later when pirates attack their village, the two promise to find one another. they travel different but parallel paths as akane struggles to survive and become the strongest warrior, and arete strives to find the pefect crew to become the strongest on the seas and free herself from her cursed destiny.

currently worldbuilding on this one, and there's sooo many interesting elements that i really like (and that are too hard to explain in a little summary so sorry if it reads confusing). the first little bit would be sort of a precursor to the actual story, taking place in the five-six years akane and arete are living together up until their violent separation. the present timeline would begin six years later, when arete starts to actually build her crew.

option three: set in a futuristic world where sensors - those born with certain enhanced senses - exist. saing knows who killed her brother, but with no body ever found, there is nothing she can do about it. her search for justice brings her to the seedy underground, where a vigilante assassin who goes by the name of foxglove is said to exact revenge for those who can convince them.

however, when one of the suspected culprits behind her brother's death - noe, the head of sca (sensor control agency) - falls into a coma before she or foxglove can get to him, the situation becomes more complicated. pilar, the successor to noe's position and his protegee, becomes embroiled in the mystery surrounding the man she considers her savior, and in the hunt for foxglove.

still very much planning this one, but it's been an idea in my head for a while, i just haven't had time to dedicate to it. there's so much i like about it, and a lot of scenes jumbled together, plus the basis for the plot is pretty much there. again, there's a lot more going on than i can succinctly explain in two paragraphs (this was my first time trying to summarize it), but basically there's human experimentation (always a hallmark of my wips i know), children who never escape the cycle of abuse, class differences, characters making bad decisions, and some really complicated relationships (hurt people hurt people and then help them hurt other people or something like that...)

option four: i work on all four at once and the only thing i draft completely are my history papers (the most unproductive option, because if i don't focus on one i won't really make serious headway into any of them. but in all honesty i'll be thinking about all of them during the month anyways so?)

#.txt #my writing #nanowrimo #nano 2023 #nanowrimo 2023 #you can vote even if you don't know me this is just for fun!!!#honestly this is how i announce my current wips instead of making a new intro #yesterday i set my mind on white begonia and then the day before it was the post chosen one wip #idk why white begonia is the only one with a name. i liked the symbolism of it meaning 'beware' idk #anyways these all have some level of magic because that is my ja #*jam. i give up on making normal stories i can't live without magic and murder #if you can't tell option one is the only one i've actually had a tagline/summary for #the first two also have religious elements about saints and gods and religious organizations i couldn't incorporate into the summary #i would share excerpts but unfortunately only one of these has actual words on a draft #white begonia's two pages don't count because that was a false start

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secretwonderlandtimetravel · 2 months

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New Cookie Run Oc :D

Weeping Begonia Cookie

Relationship Charts (She doesn't know that many Cookies):

Back Story/Lore:

White Begonia Cookie, sister of White Lily Cookie, was concerned because she hasn't seen her sister in a year after the Dark Flour War ended. So, she sent her a note saying,

My Dear Sister White Lily Cookie...

Please come and meet me in the forest we always go to after your long days of research.

P.S. From your loving sister, White Begonia Cookie ~♡

After sending her the letter, she followed the path to the forest her and her sister met every day they could. Now that she was in the forest she needed to look for her sister.

"Hm... There is a usual amount of toxic flowers in here..."

White Begonia Cookie said, noting the sudden increase of toxic flowers. Other then that, she wasn't very successful in her search and was now on the verge of having a panic attack. She eventually ended up in front of a pond, water lilies floating ontop of it. Suddenly a voice called her name, but it was one that she have never heard of before.

"So... White Begonia Cookie, is it-? I know you, you're my sister-!"

They said, White Begonia Cookie turning around to meet her face

"You're... You're not my sister. My sister's name is White Lily Cookie and-"

"Oh no need to continue."

They cut her off.

"I'm your sister, White Lily Cookie. But now I'm rebaked into something better, something stronger... I am Dark Enchantress Cookie-!"

She cheered, but White Begonia Cookie just wasn't getting the message.

"H- How do I know that you're telling me the truth-? Show me proof..."

"Ah yes, proof..."

Dark Enchantress sighed, pulling out a crooked and cursed soul jam that somehow shaped itself into what seems to be White Lily's soul jam... That soul jam alone shook White Begonia to the core.

"T- that's my sister's... So you're really her-? What have you been doing for all that time you've been gone...?"

"Heh heh heh..."

She chuckled, giving her sister a uncomfortable aurora.

"I plan to take the soul jams of the mighty ancients heroes, gain their power... And rule over Earthbread-!"

She said proudly in a loud voice, holding her fist up in the air. Her statement leaving White Begonia shocked.

"That's... horrible, White Lily Cookie. You would never do such a thing, would you-?!"

The other Cookie whined, not on board with the plan at all. Then for the next couple of minutes the sisters bickered and back at forth with each other. White Begonia holding up an argument that Earthbread should not be ruled with such bad intentions, while Dark Enchantress thought otherwise. Eventually Dark Enchantress sighed, fed up with how whiny her sister sounded.

"Arg-! If you side with me I have no other choice but to do it my way...!"

She shouted, clearly annoyed. And with just one tap of her staff on the ground she casted a curse on her sister White Begonia Cookie...

"Wait, White Lily Cookie...! Pleas-"

She cried, swimming towards her to get out but was cut off by the sudden strength of the roots preventing her from leaving. Suddenly, tears flowed out of her eyes and they seemed to be endless...

"White Lily, what type of spell have you-"

"Ha Ha-! You want to know sis?~ Well... you shall be stuck in this pond for all eternity and weep for the rest of your life-! No one, and I mean no one, will ever know that you're here. So you'll be stuck in a pond with no one to accompany you... No one-! Hah hahaha...!"

She laughed cruelly, watching as White Begonia weeped and sobbed.

"Wait no- Please-!..."

She begged, trying her hardest to escape but no matter how hard she tried the roots wouldn't let her. Dark Enchantress Cookie watched it all go down, turning around and leaving with her staff in hand as her sister continued to whine and beg.

"Wait please come back-! We can talk this out, just please!- Cooperate with me and-"

She cried, pulling out the grass and scratching the ground desperate for a way out... Now she was stuck, watching as 'White Lily Cookie' faded away and leaving her to suffer.

《~~~~~~~~~~~~~~◇-•○•-◇~~~~~~~~~~~~~~》

Weeping Begonia Cookie, resting in the middle of her pond... Endlessly sobbing into her gloved hands with no one there to comfort her as she cannot leave from this horrible life. She is forever rooted to the bottom of the pond as she watches water lilies float by and all around her. If she were granted a wish and just one, it would be to see her sister once more, White Lily Cookie...

Extra info:

Uses She/Her/Hers pronouns

She is the younger sister of White Lily Cookie

Has and always will refer to her sister as White Lily Cookie

Her original name was White Begonia Cookie that was later changed to Weeping Begonia Cookie because of a curse

Isn't really considered a ancient but holds the power of one (She doesn't have a soul jam.)

Very timid of other Cookies but can easily warm up to them just because they give her some type of comfort

Has been cursed for a thousand years now...

Mini Bonus Comic :3 -

#art #digital art #cr kingdom #cookie run #crk oc #crk ocs #white lily cookie #weeping begonia cookie #pure vanilla cookie #dark cacao cookie #golden cheese cookie #hollyberry cookie #is it just me or do I always get my inspiration from c. ai /hj #dark enchantress cookie

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pinkiewitchcraft · 4 months

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My Personal Wheel of the Year: Part One:

This is my personal wheel of the year, and has absolutely nothing to do with the Wiccan version. I’ve always been fascinated with the Wiccan calendar, but none of it ever truly resonated with me, as I wanted something that was very personal to me, and something I could be comfortable doing for a whole entire month, and not for just a few days.

For me, if I’m celebrating or appreciating something, it won’t just be for a couple of days, it will be for the whole entire month, because for me, nature deserves to be appreciated every single day, and I want to be able to have plenty of time to find multiple ways to celebrate and appreciate everything.

It also makes me feel less anxious, as I never felt comfortable with the idea of trying to quickly find ways to celebrate a holiday for just one or two days, or even a week. That didn’t work for me at all, and it only made me stress out over what to do, how to do this and that, and if it was perfect or not. And the thing is, holidays should be enjoyable, not stressful or dreadful.

So here is Part One of My Personal Wheel of the Year that I am very, very proud of:

The first one is 🌤️Conception🌤️, which takes place during the whole month of January. It focuses on renewal and cleansing and preparing yourself for the months to come within the new year ahead. And the most sacred part of the day is morning time, as it represents new years, new days, new beginnings, new everything.

It is also a time where the cold and the ice slowly melts away as we await the birth of nature which comes soon. The birthing of new life.

This is a very quiet and tranquil month. Everything is slowly, but surely, coming back to life.

The Colors I personally associate with Conception are light colors, greens, blues, browns, yellows, turquoise, white and clear. Light colors to represent the softness of the mornings, and the renewal of life, greens, blues, browns and yellows to represent greenery, blue skies, wood, dirt, soil, and mud, and turquoise to represent the sea. And white to represent the clouds in the sky, and clear snd turquoise to represent water. Another color associated is yellow for the morning sun.

• The Deities associated with Conception are: Gaia, Flora, and Pan.

• Some of the Foods I associate with Conception are: Water, cucumbers, cranberries, watermelon, kiwi, milk and flavored milk, baked goods such as grilled cheese, buttery toast, toast with jams and jellies. For fertility, cleansing, healing, stability, comfort, love, etc.

• A few Flowers I associate with Conception are: Carnations, lilacs, peonies, meadowsweets, begonias, daffodils, sunflowers, etc. For hope, positivity, comfort, healing, softness, love, etc.

• Other Plants are leaves, twigs, branches, rocks, pebbles, and flowers buds.

• Some things to do for Conception are:

- Cleansing yourself to start off the new year.

- Write down the things you plan on doing.

- Write down what you’re grateful for and hopeful for.

- Do some cleaning and rearranging.

- Contemplate life and the new year ahead.

- Meditate.

- Watch the sunrise and appreciate the mornings.

- Stand under the warm sunlight and feel it cleansing you and comforting you.

- Open up a window and let the fresh air in, or stand before the window and observe the nature before you.

- Play music that you find calming and/or cleansing.

- Light some delicate incense and inhale and exhale to renew oneself and the environment around you.

- Light candles to represent the return of the sunlight and its warmth.

- Observe the melting of winter as death finally leaves us, and we journey back into life, warmth, and sunshine.

- Dress yourself in the colors and items corresponding with Conception.

- Decorate your altar with the colors and items of Conception.

- Make art with the colors and items of Conception.

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hils79 · 3 months

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Hils Watches Love Me, Love My Voice - Ep 3

Aww she has her big family and he's all alone. It's okay, I suspect he will be part of that big family by the end.

I think this is the first time I've heard Tan Jianci sing (apart from opera in Winter Begonia). I knew he was in an idol group with Xiao Shunyao but I've never actually watched any of their performances

Do you know which drama you're in?

He's so bold! He only just started following her on Weibo. I love how soft this is.

Who needs ASMR when you've got a man with a hot voice describing recipes to you

I'm ignoring the fact that actors rarely look like they're actually playing the instruments in music scenes. I love the song they're playing though. Like a mesh of rock music and traditional music. Very much my jam.

I don't want internet rumours about our relationship to interfere with his career so I'll just tell him we should keep things professional

1 second later

Oh no he sounds all cute and sleepy

Time to expose myself as the old lady that I am. Is this how young people communicate now? One word voice messages? That seems even more of a hassle than texting.

Haha! He literally called her right after that

I'm enjoying how awkward this phonecall is. Maybe the voice messages were better. Stuff like this is why I never speak to my friends on the phone

Oh no

I mean he probably doesn't? He's a successful surgeon and also a successful voice actor. If he loses a few followers for daring to lightly flirt with a girl I don't think that's going to dramatically change his life

It doesn't always work like that but I appreciate the sentiment

Literally the plot of this drama

Well this is about to get awkward

#hils watches #hils watches love me love my voice #hils watches cdramas #love me love my voice #cdrama

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hellinglasses · 1 year

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ooh for the wip game!!! good omens but it’s stranger things but different has caught my eye please tell us about that one :)

i cannot stress enough how excited i am to tell you about that dear!!!! that is to say i did Not remember that one at all and then saw it and then loved it fiercily all over again

okay so it hinges on the very stranger things thingy of combining multiple genres of storytelling within different niches of characters until they all finally mash together with all the pieces of information to propell the plot forward

crowley was warlock’s old nanny from birth to age 6 but was sacked after being outed as genderqueer. now it’s been 5 years since that and they own a flower shop in town. goes by they/he/she pronouns. misses warlock but can’t do anything legally to be allowed to see him.

that’s when warlock disappears. the entire town was talking about it, but as the weeks pass there seems to be some kind of cover-up going on, all the while more and more strange sci-fi shenanigans keep happening through tadfield

crowley has been secretly investigating the dowlings for years and knows enough about their dealings to be suspicious. they haven’t given up on finding warlock and are deep into supernatural science research

the them is a group of children who met crowley last year after throughtly wrecking wensleydale’s mom’s begonia while playing with a football inside the house, which they were not allowed to do. the plan of action? find a flower shop and pool their collective allowances to replace the begonia before any adult found out. crowley wouldn’t take their money though and proceeded to convince them to just take this plant you see it has spots it is worth Nothing!! and they have been hanging out there frequently since then. so when a kid goes missing and they see their favorite adult sad and find out it’s because of that, they’re set on investigating by themselves and bringing warlock home

so of course the next course of action is to see this madam tracy lady who does seances so they can try to contact him through it. her neighbor sargeant shadwell is inconvenienced from all the noise coming from the seance, proceeds to go over to complain and gets roped in it too

aziraphale fell is the tadfield librarian. he absolutely thinks of the books as his and will absolutely come after people if he thinks they’re not handling them right. loves that there never seems to be much anyone at the library at all during the summer. until one day he finds someone making a mess in one of the sections. he tells the tall stranger to for god's good graces just tell him what they're looking for and he will find the answers in a reasonable manner. next day crowley shows up with delicious homemade jam to thank aziraphale for his help, aziraphale being ready to commit murder on behalf of the books nonwithstanding. aziraphale has never eaten better jam, that was positively divine, what do you mean you grow all the fruit yourself?? and that’s how he gets also hooked in supernatural research and is now wholeheartedly placed in a sci-fi thriller but it’s also a romcom

meanwhile anathema is absolutely living the 90s sabrina the teenage which life. she comes from a long line of witches and she’s been getting better and better with her powers. she and newt are high school students involved in the school newspaper and she’s hellbent on uncovering the truth about the strange happenings in town

what is actually happening is that warlock got taken by government people who believe he's got superpowers because of his father being exposed to a government experiment that altered the genes he would then pass forward (as in, mr downling wouldn’t be able to develop powers, but any descendants would. also can you even tell i know very little about sci-fi science?? shhhh)

what no one knows is that newborns dowling and young got accidentaly switched up at the maternity ward, and the child the government is actually looking for is adam

#wip game

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thessalian · 2 years

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Thess vs Nurturing Instinct

So I’ve finally convinced myself to stop Doing Shit and just have the relaxing weekend I promised myself. Because, seriously, I promised that THIS weekend would be a nice relaxing weekend to let my body recover from the insane pain flares of the week.

But I needed groceries so that involved unpacking them when they got delivered and cleaning out the fridge. And I wanted to do some gardening and Did Myself An Ow. And then more gardening today, with an emergency repotting and a fair bit of reorganisation. And then I realised that the doormat I keep inside so I’m not tracking crap onto the carpet (crap as the carpets already are) probably needed to be shaken and beaten out onto the balcony because dust. And then since I was putting the gardening stuff away I figured I’d do a quick tidy of the dining table. And then I had to break down the boxes my stuff came in and take them out to the recycling, and took out the few other bits of recycling that had accumulated while I was at it, and also used that ‘being outside’ for a trip to the corner shop because I forgot to order cooking oil. And then I finally went to make myself a cup of coffee and needed to refill the sugar tin and had a bit of a spill so I had to wipe down the counter a bit, and then I noticed some other spots on the counter behind the stove top that needed a bit more attention. And since some of the sugar I spilled and wiped up ended up on the floor, I needed to break out the vacuum cleaner because we had a cockroach problem the other year and I don’t want to be the cause of a repeat of that mess...

I did stop myself before vacuuming the entire house. That’ll probably be tomorrow, on top of laundry. I swear, so much for relaxing weekends. Still, I know myself well enough to know that if I feel like cleaning, I should do so, because otherwise I can executive dysfunction myself right into a mess too large to fix easily.

Anyway, thing I noticed when I went out to the shops. You know how some of us get with stray animals, cooing endearments and offering affection and being upset and worried when they look injured or mistreated?

Well, apparently I’m like that with plants now. Any plants. All plants.

I pass a local cemetery when I go to the corner shop. It’s largely fenced off with wooden fencing along that particular road. Ivy grows across both sides of it, and the ivy shares the inside space with a truly prodigious amount of blackberry bramble. Like, the entire cemetery is ringed with blackberry bushes and every late summer / early autumn, I’ll go out there with a plastic bag and do some harvesting at least once, and I’ll be plucking a handful of berries to eat on my way to work or back home every work day. (I plan to make blackberry jam this year. Strawberry too, if my strawberries produce fruit the way I hope they will.)

Anyway, the ivy. I noted that it’s drying up fairly badly in sections, and gone all brown and crunchy. I never paid that much mind before and now I’m standing there going, “You poor thing! Don’t worry; it looks like it’s going to rain soon...” I notice the snapdragons that grow under somebody’s hedge and can’t help thinking that they’re probably really deprived of light down there and wonder if anyone would mind if I just ... brought a pot and gave it a good home. I am appalled that no one seems to be taking care of the potted begonias the management association puts by the front door to the block of flats and might go down there with plant food and a watering can at this rate.

As for the blackberry bushes? Mostly today it was, “Hello, bees!”

Look, clearly nurturing my plants has done me some good. This is the best I’m going to get, since I’m not really allowed pets in here. Though I imagine that things like maybe goldfish would be okay, and that might actually be an idea. My gardening has been keeping me sane and some fish would probably add to that. I mean, I’d prefer rats, but even with the recent push for them to be recognised as the great pets they are, people still look askance at them (which is stupid, since this is the country that started breeding pet fancy rats in the first fucking place, so why the hell they need to be reminded that rats are not plague factories is beyond me). Fish are easier. Also way less expensive, particularly since there isn’t a lot a vet can do with a sick neon tetra or whatever.

Summary: I can’t really have pets (I’m not going to give a pet a home unless I am absolutely sure that they and I can live to a decent standard, which includes food, sanitation, enrichment, and pet insurance since there’s no NHS for pets - though fish are an option and small rodents might be on the table), I’m not having kids (same reasons, partly with the addition of asexuality but fostering or adoption might be on the table if I was healthy enough physically and financially to ensure a child a good life), and I want something to nurture. If those things are green and leafy, that’s fine. They may not provide the usual compensations, but they’re pretty and they feed me. I will not be like the kid in The Giving Tree; my plants feed me, and I will give them everything they need to thrive in return. Sometimes that means more than water and plant food and sunshine. Sometimes that means apologies for overwatering or encouragement of the “don’t worry; you’ll feel better soon” variety when something is wilting due to overly cramped roots.

As for my reactions to plants I see outside? Well, fuck it; if I can give all the encouraging words in the world to my oregano when I’m repotting it, I can spare a few for the ivy around the cemetery or the snapdragons down the block. Words cost little, but mean a lot.

#Thess on gardening #Thess is a motherfucking adult

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pgoeltz · 6 months

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2023年の30 Days Of Dead が終了しました。

皆さんは、参加されましたか？

毎年恒例の11月に毎日、音源がアップされて、いつの演奏か当てっこをする催しです。

音源はすべて無料でシェアしてくれる、気前の良さです。

私はいつも、終了してから、まとめてダウンロードして、まとめ聴きします。

https://www.dead.net/30daysofdead?eml=2023December5/6309552/6131962&etsubid=190495601

こちらのオフィシャルページに行って、画面を下にスクロールすると、DOWNLOAD ALLというボタンがあります。ZIPファイルですので、ダウンロード後にクリックして解凍するとmp3ファイルが30個現れます。

カバーアートは、下のカバーアートを右クリックして画像保存します。

過去の分も欲しい方は、

https://deadroots.net/content/30-days

このぺージに行って、下にスクロールすると、ずらりとアーカイブがあります。

今年のトラックリストです。

30 Days Of Dead 2023 Tracklist

1. Comes A Time (08/26/1980 – Cleveland, OH)

2. Casey Jones, Sugar Magnolia (03/20/1971 – Iowa City, IA)

3. Feel Like A Stranger > Bertha (10/19/1994 – New York, NY)

4. My Brother Esau, High Time (09/16/1987 – New York, NY)

5. Estimated Prophet (04/22/1977 – Philadelphia, PA)

6. Saint Of Circumstance > Jam (12/11/1979 – Kansas City, KS)

7. Loose Lucy (10/27/1973 – Indianapolis, IN)

8. Scarlet Begonias > Fire On The Mountain (08/30/1980 – Philadelphia, PA)

9. Let It Grow > Might As Well (10/02/1976 – Cincinnati, OH)

10. I Need A Miracle > Crazy Fingers (04/04/1985 – Providence, RI)

11. He’s Gone (05/05/1979 – Baltimore, MD)

12. Dark Star > St. Stephen > The Eleven (12/07/1968 – Louisville, KY)

13. Row Jimmy, Picasso Moon > Don’t Ease Me In (03/18/1991 – Landover, MD)

14. Playing In The Band > China Doll (08/31/1983 – Eugene, OR)

15. New Minglewood Blues, Peggy-O (05/06/1978 – Burlington, VT)

16. Here Comes Sunshine (03/09/1993 – Rosemont, IL)

17. Uncle John’s Band (03/18/1977 – San Francisco, CA)

18. Foolish Heart > Playing In The Band > Uncle John’s Band (06/11/1992 – Albany, NY)

19. Shakedown Street > One More Saturday Night (05/12/1979 – Amherst, MA)

20. Brown-Eyed Women, My Brother Esau (06/23/1984 – Harrisburg, PA)

21. Goin’ Down The Road Feeling Bad > Jam (03/31/1986 – Providence, RI)

22. U.S. Blues (06/29/1976 – Chicago, IL)

23. Space > The Other One > Black Peter > Throwing Stones > Playing In The Band Reprise (03/25/1991 – Albany, NY)

24. They Love Each Other, Cassidy, Tennessee Jed, Let It Grow > Don’t Ease Me In (11/30/1981 – Dayton, OH)

25. Dire Wolf, Casey Jones (10/26/1969 – San Francisco, CA)

26. Lost Sailor > Saint Of Circumstance > Deal (12/13/1980 – Long Beach, CA)

27. Feel Like A Stranger, Ship Of Fools > Samson & Delilah, Never Trust A Woman (09/30/1981 – Edinburgh, Scotland)

28. China Cat Sunflower > I Know You Rider > High Time > Dire Wolf (02/28/1970 – San Francisco, CA)

29. Victim Or The Crime > Dark Star (12/31/1989 – Oakland, CA)

#pgoeltz #bitterrootvalley #youtube #montana #scvwd #music #gratefuldead #catflinger #flowers #valleywater scvwd

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russellpenderschloss · 6 months

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Begonia, Viscaria

Begonia: "Of course of course, eyes are always watching. The government, the OTHER government, the OTHER OTHER government. The Man™ on Man™ on Man™. I own a gay bar, I'm well aware.

Viscaria: "Aww hell yeah i'll dance. The bar playlist has some jams so let's go nuts. Not my usual fair but the patrons have requests and we must oblige.

*Russ begins to flail like a electrocuted leather clad eel.

#ask meme

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sideblogformindtrash · 3 years

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A PLANT GUIDE TO ALTERNATIVE FOOD SOURCES/PLANT BASED MEDICINE/POISONOUS HERBS

FOR WHEN YOU ARE A 15th CENTURY PEASANT AND GOING TO THE DOCTOR WILL KILL YOU BECAUSE NO ONE HAS WASHED THEIR HANDS IN A MONTH.

This post ended up huge.

DISCLAIMER CAUSE I DON’T WANT ANYONE TO GET SICK BECAUSE THEY ATE BAD LEAF:

Natural medicine is a fascinating topic and it carries a rich history of survival, culture and human history.

It is also a valuable source of insight for traditional medicine – it is often by searching the traditional, plant or nature based solutions and researching the active compounds on them that regular medicine can be crafted. These sciences are allies, they aren’t enemies, and the end goal is, always, to save lives.

HOWEVER it is NOT a replacement for traditional medicine. Traditional medicine works on isolating and amplifying components that are proven to be the source of the healing properties of plants and other things, both increasing the chances of obtaining a result and reducing the collateral effects, as well as monitoring people on a close and safe environment were any side-effects particular to that individual, caused by other pre-existent conditions, can be taken in consideration and dealt with by professionals. Dosage is also a very important factor that has to be considered. Doctors are equipped to deal with that. Everything can be a poison in excess.

By this, I mean to say if you go around using this info to justify selling mlm essential oils or being antivaxx I’ll personally haunt you once I’m dead. Natural medicine can be an interesting addition to conventional treatments if used responsibly, but it is not a replacement and is not to be used if you have no clue what you are doing. Please don’t go outside to eat random leaves and don’t trust random moms on facebook, their ‘research’ is far less than what I did for a tumblr post :’)

I can’t stress this enough: this is intended as a writing resource and not to be used in real life or as a guide. Don’t eat/use plants you don’t know. Please don’t. I’m also not a medical professional, I’m a plant nerd :)

And – a lot of this comes from oral traditions passed on by family. So shoutout to my grandma. Most of it is stuff you should be able to verify with a quick google search and I expent the day doing just that as well as gathering more info; I can link more trustworthy sources than Wikipedia if someone is interested, but they are mostly not in English.

ALSO, as a note: Popular plant names are NOT RELIABLE and vary greatly among regions, besides, they often are used to refer to a great number of species of the same genus; when in doubt always check the scientific name of the plant as that is standardized globally and taxonomists work hard to keep it concise.

Go to the doctor if you are sick please please please please please please please please please please please please please please :)

And just one more little note: I live in South America, that’s the flora I’m most familiar with. I know very little about European and Oceanic flora; but I reckon a lot of these might be similar to Asia and North America since a bunch of these plants are invasive species originated from Asia that have adapted well and spread around the continent.

Ok, first part is medicine second part is poison.

Some general info:

TO MAKE A BALM: You’d need some sort of animal fat or vaselin + a triturated mix of the correct plant parts and bee wax. Fat needs to be melted first, then you’d add the plant mix and lastly the bee wax; it needs to be constantly mixed until it gets the balm consistency and then filtered.

HOW TO MAKE A POULTICE: It’s basically just the mashed ingredients + something to make it slightly moisty; it largely depends on what it is exactly but it could be water, milk, coconut oil or animal fat. The paste is to be spread over a warm wet cloth and wrapped around the wound.

ON TEAS: A lot of the time you will need the fresh plant leaves and not the dried versions they sell on little sacks; Or they might both work, but likely to different things. Different parts of the plant might have different effects.

ACTIVATED CHARCOAL: It’s the go-to emergency poison retardant. It has the characteristic of being an adsorptive; this means other particles tend to cling to its surface and later be expelled with it. It can cause vomiting and nausea. Regular charcoal has been used historically for the same reasons. Eating the charcoal may interfere with other medications the person might be on.

A Few Non-Conventional Edible Plants and Medicinal Herbs:

-Pereskia aculetea: Popular names are lemonvine; blade-apple cactus; leaf cactus; rose cactus; fruits, flowers and leaves are edible and has high-nutritional value. Depending on how it’s prepared, the leaves taste somewhat like fish. The flowers are sweet, and can be used in baking cakes and pies. They have sharp thorns on the fruits and branches. It is a good emergency food-source as it causes a fulfilling sensation and can be consumed raw.

Tea made with the leaves is good for the intestinal flora. It is anti-inflamation and helps ulcers heal. Can be used externally if the leaves are triturated and mashed into a paste. The fruit is anti-oxidant;

Stanchys byzantina + some others of the genus: Known as Lamb’s ear. It’s cute and fluffy. It also tastes like fish if fried on butter. Making tea with the leaves can help with cough and throat irritation. Helps with stomachache and indigestion.

-Mentha sp. – MINT! Everyone loves mint. It smells nice and is fresh. It helps with colds and is effective against parasites such as giardia and amebas. The tea has to be made with fresh leaves for it to be effective, not dried ones.

-Arnica sp. – NOT EDIBLE AND CAN BE TOXIC IF INGESTED. Small amounts can be used as a spicy however is not recommended. However, it’s a very good topical painkiller; can be used as a balm, a poultice or on lack of other options, making a strong tea and infusing a clean piece of cloth on it then applying to the sore muscles can work.

-Calendula sp. – It’s edible but not exactly tasty, a little spice I’d say. A balm can be made from it that is very good on cuts and bruises.

-Begonia cucullata – Known as wax begonia. It’s all edible, but calcium rich so should be avoided by someone with kidney problems.

-Portulaca oleracea – The Poultice is good against acne and insect stings; helps with inflammation and tea can be used against intestinal parasites. Slightly cooked leafs can help with burns (1º degree burns, don’t apply on anything worse). The seeds are specially good against parasites. Leaves, flowers and seeds are edible.

-Conyza canadensis / bonariensis – The Horseweed. Leaves are edible. They taste spicy-ish. Can help treat hemorrhoids and diarrhea.

-Echinodorus grandiflorus: This one is common of wetlands and water proximity. The crushed rhizomes can be put over the skin to alleviate rashes and hernias. Tea made with the fresh leaves is a diuretic and laxative; is also good against throat inflammations. Cold tea can help with skin conditions as well. Leaves are very bitter, the rhizome is somewhat sweet.

-Hedychium coronarium: White-ginger-lily or garland flower; It is common on wetlands or near water sources. The rhizomes and flowers are edible (leaves aren’t), flowers usually consumed as sort of a jam and the rhizomes as flowers. Helps with throat inflammations and pain. Oil made from this plant can be slightly sedative.

-Cymbopogum winterianus: Citronella; or Lemon Grass. NOT EDIBLE. It’s super sticky to the touch, makes your hands sticky too and very easy to get cuts from it because the leaf blades are somewhat sharp. A poultice of the leaves can be used on cuts, but the better use for it is as a natural repellent. Mosquitoes and other insects hate this plant. Just by having it planted somewhere near is very unlikely they’ll approach; candles can be made from it and incenses too.

- Pampinella anisum – Commonly known as aniseed and actually easy to find as dried leaves or the seeds. The dry leaves tea help with cold and throat swelling. Poultices and the essencial oil can be good as a relaxant; Tea made from fresh leaves is good for insomnia, nausea and stomachache. Tea made with the seeds can be used against intestinal parasites; breathing the vapor helps clean a constipated nose.

-Plantago major – Probably the most common one on this list and one of the best. Called great plantain or broadleaf plantain. Leaves are diuretics; help against inflammations and help soothe stomachaches and diarrhea. Everything but the roots are edible. Tea helps with cold.

-Ilex paraguaiensis – Yerba-mate or just matte. Has a very good nutritional value. People drink the dried leaves tea like water in Brazil and it’s very good for cooking sweets. It is slightly stimulant(high caffeine teor) and highly antioxidant. The fruits and leaves are nutrient rich; can be good on fighting anemia; has some effect against caries inducing bacteria and is effective against certain types of fungi; it only grows in forested areas because it is very sensitive to sunlight.

-Xanthosoma sagittifolium – Arrowleaf Elephant’s Ear. Rhyzomes, leaves and haste are edible BUT ONLY IF COOKED. Tastes similar to spinach. When they are raw, they have oxalic acid and are somewhat toxic. Is somewhat good against fever. A fried leaf can be used as a wrap over burns.

-Hibiscus sabidariffa - Slightly sour tasted tea made from the leaves; have a diuretic effect. Can be used as a natural pigment on other foods.

-Pistia stratiores – Water lettuce. It looks like a lettuce and it floats. Can be consumed as a juice, infusion or used as a poultice on hernias. HOWEVER I’d recommend never using any found on nature. Floating plants are being studied as having absorbent qualities and helping filter toxins and heavy metals from water, so much so they can make part of sewage treatment.

Dangerous/Poisonous Plants:

General treatment idea: A very generic idea of how poisoning is treated would be the administration of activated charcoal and a gastrointestinal wash depending on how long ago has been the ingestion. Mucosa can be treated/washed with products like egg whites, milk and olive oil in small quantities. Eyes are washed with water and saline. Most poison’s don’t have antidotes, so everything else would be treating the specific symptons. Catheterization may be needed on cases where the urinal tract is paralyzed because it’s important to keep the person hydrated. Laxatives may also be used in cases where it is safe. Everything largely varies with the specifics of each compound. On many of them inducing vomit might be worse.

PLANTS:

Brugmansia spps.: Known as Angel Trumphet; Angel’s Tears or Snowy Angel’s Trumpet. This plant likes high-humidity, so in a dry climate, it might indicate proximity to water sources. The in-nature form of this plant is highly toxic; every part of it being leaves, flowers trunk or roots. Seeds and leaves are specially dangerous. Can induce a trance-like and delusional estate as well as induce visual and auditory hallucinations; can cause paralysis of smooth muscles, confusion, dry mouth, pupil dilation and paralysis of the eyes. Can lead to death; severity varying depending on part of the plant ingested as well as the age of the plant and hydration state. They start from 15 to 30 minutes after ingestion.

Euphorbia milii.: Known as Christ’s Thorn; Crown of Thorns or Christ Crown. Honestly this one’s strength is the aesthetic. It has thicc thorns, pretty red flowers and I’m pleading you all to put it on a Whumpee’s head. It’s a moderate poison compared to the others; Inside the whole plant there is a white latex substance that is toxic. It causes skin and mucosa irritation. It can cause severe stomach-ache. Can lead to blindness if non-treated eye contact occur. If ingested, can cause severe stomach-ache and ulcers. The latex is very sticky to the touch.

Dieffenbachia spp: Similar to the one above without the fun thorns.

Zantedeschia aethiopica: The Calla Lily. In contact with mucosa’s it causes swelling and irritations; feelings of burn, nausea, vomit and diarrhea; difficulty swallowing and can cause death by asphyxiation due to internal swelling of the digestive system that in turns compresses the pharynx. ALSO: This is not exactly widespread knowledge I think, but this plant is hallucinogen and like 2-3 years ago the tea has been used as kind of a drug around here. However, this plant does not work as other popular recreational hallucinogens; it causes damage to the central nervous system and even if used just once, the user might never recover from it. What I heard from people who did try it, is that the hallucinations tend to be really bad and on the negative side.

Cicuta maculata – If you want to be dramatic and die like Socrates I guess. Its poison was used for execution in ancient Greece.

Calladium spp. – It’s ALSO called Elephant’s ear. See what I mean by common names not being reliable? Irritation, pain and swelling of tissues. All parts of the plant are poisonous. If ingested can lead to death due to swelling of throat/tongue.

‘Curare’ – this is actually not just one plant, but a mixture of several made into poison for darts and arrows. The Strynchnos and Chondodendron genus are the most important. It was used for hunting, but considered bad practice on war. Causes paralysis of the external body and some of the main internal systems killing the prey by asphyxiation. The person responsible for producing the poison was very likely to die due to being exposed to toxic fumes, because it was needed to cook the tree-barks during two to three days. Someone hit by the poison can survive if artificial respiratory methods are available until the poison-effect passes.

Potatoes – I’m not even going to elaborate on this one but raw and green potatoes = bad; however cultivated potatoes are way less toxic than the wild variations and the most poisonous plant parts are the leaves;

Aesculus hippocastanum – A horse chestnut seed, bark, flower and nut can cause poisoning when consumed raw. Causes muscle twitching, weakness, loss of coordination; vomiting; kidney problems and stupor. It slows the formation of blood cloths and might worsen the condition of hemorrhagic wounds.

Agave sp. – The flowers are edible and the saps can be used for an alcoholic beverage. But the saps cause pain and burning in contact with the skin; it will also start to develop blisters soon after the exposure. The healed skin tends to remain sensitive and have reoccurring itchy for years after the contact. Ingesting the saps might be fatal.

Anemonoides nermorosa – Wood anemone. All parts of the plant contain protoanemonim, it can cause irritation and burning sensation to skin; ulceras on the mouth; vomiting blood and nausea.

OK that should be it for today, but it isn’t even the surface. If anyone wants to expand or correct something on this, I encourage you to do so. Just don’t eat the leaf. Please don’t.

Not all but some of the sources (again, not english): here; here; here; here; here; here; one that IS in english and a shoutout for wikipedia cause why the hell not and one to my grandma who is a lovely lady who hates just about everything in the world.

#whump writing #whump scenario #whump writing resource #whump #im ded

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deng-yi-deng · 3 years

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What have I been doing with my life (2020)

Wrap up of all the dramas I remember watching this year, roughly in order of when I watched them and how much I liked them - totally subjective and not based on quality or anything else. There were LOTS of dramas I meant to watch (Hikaru no Go, Bad kids, Romance of Tiger and Rose) but didn’t get to. This list includes Cdramas, Kdramas and KO One (Zhongji) series which is kinda it’s own thing. Last time I just listed them but this time I’m indulging in a little commentary - titles in bold i might even watch again.

TOTAL HOURS WASTED: 442.5 = 18+ days

Full list after the cut but I’ll give you my

fave cdrama from 2020: Love is Sweet (really? who wrote this? it’s not wuxia?? I hate rom-coms!! wth???) ok, ok, tied with Ancient Detective (phew, that’s more like it.)

fave cdrama I watched this year: Nirvana in Fire (2015)

Ever night (2018) why did no one tell me to watch this before? holy crap real wuxia. the plot, world-building, setting, characters, production were all fabulous. tbh the weakest part was the end (a common lament of mine). secondary characters were all my faves, next to the scenery. cfy was ok, but not amazing so ....that’s how I feel about that.

Nirvana in Fire (2015) glad I didn’t watch this until now because basically all i can think of when I watch a drama is...why the f* can’t this be even half as good as NiF? seriously, now that I know they can make good dramas, it makes the bad ones seem even worse. A classic, you don’t need my recommendation on this one.

The Ghost Bride (2020) based on a YA novel. Super good (tho I didn’t read the novel). I even recommended it to non-drama watching friends because it’s short and on Netflix.

Ancient Detective (2020) I just really really enjoyed this, ok? best friends squad with a little romance. plot rips off English country house mystery format but then has a twist at the end. bonus himbo. sad it likely won’t get a S2 because it ended on a cliffhanger.

Mystic pop-up bar (2020) I laughed, I cried. Fav kdrama this year tho I didn’t watch many, including most ppls’ favorites.

Love is sweet (2020) brainless, tooth-rotting fluff. exactly what i needed in this nuclear tire fire of a year. silly. bai lu and gao hanyu were great. lyx is my emotional support actor (but you knew that already.)

Joy of Life (2019) finished it in January I’m allowing myself to stick it on the 2020 list because it’s so good.

KO One (2005) and KO One Re-act (2013): KO One is my comfort food show now - watched it for the third time due to Reasons. Silly, stupid humor with heart.The theme song is my ring tone. Re-act has been the most enjoyable of the Zhongji series sequels for me. (Fun fact: lyx acted in one of the Zhongji series “Ultimate Ranger.” I WISH I could find a place to watch it.)

Sleuth of the Ming Dynasty (2020) - enjoyable. found family is my jam. great food pr0n, needless killing off of a certain character I will not name

Kingdom S2 (2020): cromulent sequel, annoyingly short season

Wu Xin the monster killer (2015) - a sleeper. I really enjoyed this, looking forward to watching the sequels. Elvis Han and Ian Wang were great, but all the actors were good, plot moved briskly, had lots of humor and action, music was less annoying than most dramas (for me)

Fighter of the Destiny (2017) - not done with this yet but this is the kind of fluffy xianxia I like - again, best friends squad with less emphasis on the sappy romance. Gao Hanyu is adorable. Lu Han is...pretty good?? (downside: Janice Wu’s character is kinda annoying)

Handsome Siblings (2020) - they...did not look at all alike. was that supposed to be funny? supporting characters were A+

The Uncanny Counter (on air) (2020) - amount of emotional gut punches per episode borders on viewer abuse. blatant tearjerker.

Legend of Fei (2020) - so far not compelling (up to ep 12) but i’ll eventually finish it because wyb’s character is fun and i like the supporting characters

Tale of the nine-tailed (2020) - though it seemed up my alley I forced myself to watch it. secondary characters were way better than the leads

The Devil Punisher (on air) (2020) cheap and cheesy, but more fun than Uncanny Counter. Don’t @ me

KO One Re-member (2016) No Jiro, but at least we got Wes back - too bad his character was nowhere near as fun as Huang Zhong in KO 3guo.

KO One Re-turn (2012) Dragged a lot.

And the Winner is Love (2020) - you know how much I love lyx but this is on the bottom of the list because after watching the whole thing I got really really depressed. like really. depressed. it wasn’t just that the drama was a complete let down (it was) idk. i’m always going to associate it with losing that last little bit of my will to give a crap about anything.

Winter Begonia (2020) - abandoned after 3 eps. I just wasn’t in the mood for this, though I like jing ju. may try again another time

The Wolf (2020) - abandoned after 3 eps. if you’ve read this far down I’ll let you in on a secret - Darren Wang looks terrible in a wig.

My roommate is a detective (2020) - abandoned after 2 eps. for some reason this did not hit me.

#cdrama #cdrama review #omg should i tag every drama?#ancient detective #love is sweet #nirvana in fire #KO One #not going to tag them in Chinese

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despairforme · 3 years

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anemone : how does your muse view the world ; as a cruel & unforgiving place , a land full of wonders , or something in - between ? where does that world view come from ( what experiences , life lessons , etc . ) ?

begonia : how cautious is your muse ? are they prone to noticing red flags , or paranoid to the point of untrusting most everyone ? why or why not ?

zinnia : how has the loss of fallen comrades and/or loved ones affected your muse ? has it taught them anything or given them any new perspectives ?

ASK MEME ; 𝐁𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒 . ( accepting! )

It probably didn’t come as a surprise to anyone that Nnoitra had a negative view of the world. He hardly thought he looked like one of those happy-go-lucky type of people who only saw SUNSHINE. It actually took a special sort of mood to make Nnoitra see possibilities and be optimistic, instead of only seeing problems. He had been like this for as long as he could remember, even when he was a child. There was a darkness about him, as lame as that sounded. A heaviness hanging over him. A cloud.

His life had been turbulent. He had had extreme lows as well as highs. All things considered ( and especially since he deserved to have a miserable life ), he SHOULD consider himself lucky. He was allowed to live, if not in peace then at least WITH the love of his life. To be loved by the man he loved ( when he sure as shit didn’t deserve to ) made him a very LUCKY person. There weren’t many people in the world who got to have that sort of life. It somehow still didn’t keep Nnoitra from feeling helpless and depressed. Yet another thing he had always struggled with. Feeling down when he had no right to.

Overall Nnoitra thought the would was rather cruel, and that people more often than not had bad intentions. With regards to himself, he didn’t feel too often like he was receiving an unfair treatment from the world. Whenever something bad happened to him, he only remembered that he deserved for bad tings to happen.

❝ ‘Da world ‘s a shitty place, ain’t it? But it ain’t like there are any other places ‘ta be. ❞ That’s right. There was only this life, and then there was NOTHING.

What a fucking depressing subject. The next one wasn’t much better. Nnoitra had to snort out loud. ❝ I’m pretty paranoid, gotta admit that. I guess ‘daz what happens when ya got stabbed ‘n then shot. ❞ It was a logical explanation for his paranoia. Nnoitra ALWAYS thought that people were out to hurt him. After he got shot, he couldn’t even walk around in crowded placed without thinking that someone was going to pull a knife on him and jam it into his stomach. He wasn’t sure if he was good at noticing red flags - whatever the fuck THAT meant. He just usually assumed the worst. Would he call himself cautious? Yeah, he supposed so. Like for example how he insisted on keeping his relationship with Grimmjow a secret, because he thought that if anyone found out, Grimmjow would get attacked. It wasn’t really any WONDER that he was so goddamn paranoid about shit, considering all the things that had happened to him throughout his life. NOBODY’S nerves were made for this much shit.

Then the last question - if the loss of fallen comrades or loved ones had affected him. The answer was yes. Nnoitra had lived for seven years, thinking he had KILLED his best friend. It was not exactly a ‘ loss ‘ when HE had been the one to commit the murder, so he didn’t know if it counted. In any case, Grimmjow hadn’t died. That didn’t change the fact that Nnoitra had thought he was a killer all those years. Something like that... YEAH, it changed a person. He had already been filled with self-hatred before, but afterwards he truly began to feel like he deserved to suffer. He had come to terms with being a fucking horrible person. Even to this day, he still thought of himself as such, and he still thought he deserved to suffer. Nnoitra scratched his knuckles, not wanting to answer this question. It was very personal and he had only ever told one person about it ( and that hadn’t gone down well ). ❝ Mah - ❞ He decided to lie, making it sound as truthfully as possible by adding a roll of his shoulders. As if to brush the whole matter off. ❝ My mom died, ‘n I got this tattoo ‘ta remember her. ❞ He pointed to the tattoo on his chest, where the inky letters spelling out ‘ Santa Teresa ‘ were hidden behind the fabric of his t-shirt. ❝ ‘Daz ‘bout it. ❞ No, it absolutely was not ‘ about it ‘. It was just that he... COULDN’T share this story with anyone.

#codename-freya #codenamefreya #[ ohh all of these were really good!! thank you for sending!! ]#[ i'm feeling super nostalgic about getting to write about his main verse since i haven't gotten to do much in it recently ]#[ it's just forever my FAVORITE thing ]#[ hhhh i treasure nnoitra so much t-t ]#ᵈᵉˢᵖᵃᶤʳ ;; ic.#ᵇᵘʳᶰ 'ᵈᵃ ᶜᶤᵗʸ ;; verse.#ᵖˡᵃʸᵗᶤᵐᵉ ;; meme responses.

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Shared Exhaustion

Begonia Cookie and Vampire Cookie are a lot alike.

word count: 1007

warnings: OC/canon character interaction, very mild injury and blood.

ship(?): friendship; pre-relationship Vampire Cookie & Begonia Cookie (OC)

characters: Vampire Cookie, Alchemist Cookie, Begonia Cookie

“... Vampire, your girlfriend broke another window--” a tired cookie, clearly some days worth sleep deprived, called out to her brother with contempt. “I presume she’s here for you, anyway.”

The unexpected visitor gingerly stepped over the broken shards of sugar glass, hopping onto the cushy couch in the living room. The black floral cat shifted into a fellow cookie, draped across the back cushions lazily. She yawned widely, showing off sharp teeth before grinning at Alchemist. “Mnh.. sorryyy. I did knock. What colors are you making in your lab this week? Take a nap and relax, friend!”

“Nap? No, I’m too close to completing this formula for--”

“Mornin’, sis. She’s not my girlfriend, you know..” the scientist’s brother floated into the room with a stretch, stealthy as ever. One hand rested against his temple, headache apparent.

“It’s evening!” Alchemist argued, sighing heavily and shaking her head. The vampire winced at the raise in his sister’s voice. “Unless either of you plan on cleaning this mess up, I recommend going elsewhere for the time being so that I can deal with it, just like I deal with everything around here.”

Begonia and Vampire easily heard the last part, though it was muttered under her breath. The plant-based cookie shifted once more, gearing up to jump onto Vampire’s shoulder, landing in a perfect balancing act. She winced slightly, which didn’t go unnoticed by the redhead, but he’d bring it up later. He grinned, waving a hand to Alchemist. “I’ll replace it, promise...”

“I know you will,” was all she said, shrugging. She supposed she couldn’t be too mad, she was used to it at this point ever since the cat.. plant-cookie (?) had randomly inserted herself into the siblings’ lives.

The pair soon disappeared off to who knows where without further reply. There were really more rooms in this house than truly necessary, a sentiment shared by all three of them.

“... Did you cut yourself on the glass?” Vampire asked Begonia, though he knew she couldn’t speak any proper languages in her cat form. He knew she preferred living like this, though he hadn’t any idea why. She still dignified his query with a response, however, letting out a loud “myaahh!” of affirmation. “Ouch. To both my head and you hurting yourself... Is it bad?”

Another small mew. No, it wasn’t that bad. It hurt, sure, but she’d dealt with worse. Once they made their way into a room, she was gently set down onto a plushy cream mattress, turning back into her cookie form. She mostly hadn’t wanted to walk the distance to any rooms in the house, considering the glass was lodged in her foot. “I have my dignity, I didn’t want to bring it up. I prefer to deal with these things myself!” Begonia Cookie twisted herself into a position to examine her foot that, to Vampire, felt entirely unnatural and weird to look at.

“Do you need help getting it out?”

“What did I just say about doing things on my own?” she whined, defiant. “You can help by bringing me something I can use to pry the glass out!”

Vampire expected that. He had no clue why she was so opposed to receiving help, like she wanted to suffer in silence. Though, she’d always been stubborn; he chuckled to himself at the thought, scanning the bedroom before finding.. well, he didn’t know what it was. But it was some kind of tool Alchemist had likely left laying around. The redhead gently tossed it to his friend and she offered a lazy grin. His gaze on her was nothing short of fascinated as he watched her pry a large in-comparison shard of sugar glass free from her dough. Jam leaked out and dripped slowly onto the floor.

“.. Do you--?”

She raised a hand to cut him off. “I can walk it off!”

“And leave jam footprints in your wake?” he laughed quietly. Yeah, that wasn’t unlike her.

“You know that I can’t use bandages. My dough peels away and crumbles too easily for all the sticky bits that come with them!”

“At least let me get you a towel...” he offered.

Eyes rolling, Begonia relinquished. “If it'll get you to stop worrying, I suppooose!” the teasing tone was lighthearted and she never let that dumb little grin drop from her chronically exhausted expression.

Once a towel was administered to the wound to stop the leaking of jam and Vampire was seated cozily next to her, he yawned. She liked that she could trust him enough to be vulnerable like this. She was friends with lots of cookies, of course, but she’d rather crumble than let them see her injured. She was fatigued all the time, sure, but only the redhead knew how she really felt all the time. He felt the same way, tired deep in his dough in a way that couldn’t be solved with any amount of sleep. They slept together regularly, laying together as small animals in a way that was truly more understanding than anyone could ever begin to replicate.

“Did Alchemist wake you? Earlier, I mean.”

“Mm, yeah… though, she does that whether you're here or not. Vampire this, brother that…” another heavy yawn followed by the reply. “ I like when you’re here, because then she knows not to bother us.”

“Oh, good to know you only like having me around when it keeps your naps undisturbed!” Begonia snickered.

Vampire shook his head with another small laugh, flopping back onto the mattress. The pair fell into a comfortable silence and Begonia checked her foot to ensure there was no more jam dripping into the towel. It had dried and became tacky, therefore she deemed it appropriate to join him in laying back. Shared fatigued sighs escaped the cookies as they adjusted to their typical position, the begonia kitty curled around an orb of a juice bat. Vampire cuddled into her fur and they both drifted into a peaceful sleep, knowing they could at least share their fresh exhaustion whenever they awoke.

#fanfiction #cookie run #cookie run oc #cookie run fanfic #cookie run fanfiction #drabble #oc x canon #vampire cookie #alchemist cookie #writing #pep.txt #begonia cookie #begonia kitty #pwease read im trying to get back int owriting its not perfect but i like it

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valinakhiarinnisa · 4 years

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Kepingan Hikmah Tiga Purnama

Assalamu’alaikum.

Alhamdulillah, Allah masih memberi nikmat sehat, sehingga tiga bulan karantina ini kita masih bisa scrolling tumblr. Ada banyak nano-nano dalam tiga bulan ini, yang tentu bukan saya saja yang mengalami. Ya kan? Oh ya, mumpung masih dalam momen Syawal, saya ingin mengucapkan taqobbalallaahu minna wa minkum shiyaamana wa shiyaamakum, ja ‘alanallahu wa iyyakum minal aidzin wal faidzin. Semoga Allah terima semua alaman baik kita selama ramadan, dan kita termasuk orang-orang yang kembali pada kesucian, Allah terima permohonan maaf kita, serta hati kita selalu punya ruang untuk saling memaafkan. Aamiin ya Mujibas sailiin. Meski lebaran kali ini harus di kosan aja, menanggung rindu kepada orangtua, keluarga di Gresik, Malang, Solo, Jogja, Semarang, Depok, Palembang (menghela nafas panjang), semoga berdiam diri di hunian kita saat ini sambil terus mendoakan dan berkomunikasi melalui media apapun (zoom, WA, atau aplikasi lainnya) akan menjadi bentuk cinta terbaik yang kelak mendapatkan jawaban terbaik dari Allah. Aamiin.

Awal tahun 2020 lalu, saya menargetkan untuk rajin menulis, nyatanya ini sepertinya baru tulisan ketiga di akun tumblr saya. Hehehe. Jangan lupa memaafkan diri sendiri, atas rasa malas yang kadang sulit dikendalikan dan jumlah jam tidur yang terlalu banyak ya Valina. Jangan lupa memaafkan diri sendiri yang terkadang masih suka mencari pembenaran kalau ngomel-ngomel suka kemana-mana :”) Oh ya, semoga bukan menjadi bagian dari pembenaran Valina ya, alhamdulillah ramadan kali ini bisa konsisten menulis sederhana meski hanya caption IG. Bagi teman-teman yang berminat bisa search #catatanselamaramadan di Instagram, insyaAllah ada beberapa cerita termasuk pandangan dan nilai yang saya anut, yang saya tuangkan selama ramadan. Semoga bermanfaat.

Tiga bulan ini, meski di kosan aja bersama suami, alhamdulillah selalu ada yang bisa dikerjakan. Beberapa hari sebelum ditetapkan bekerja dari rumah, saya sempat mengikuti pelatihan “Be a Professional DEPTH Therapist” , bersama pakarnya, Bu Yuli Suliswidiawati di Bandung. DEPTH terapi adalah salah satu teknik tapping untuk mengelola emosi yang hadir dalam diri kita. Menarik sebenarnya, kita bisa pelan-pelan menyelami masa-masa tertentu dalam hidup kita (sambil tapping) dan mengungkapkan segala perasaan yang kita rasakan saat itu. InsyaAllah dibahas di tulisan sendiri ya :). Saya berangkat ke Bandung, berdua sama suami saya naik kereta ekonomi dan hahahahahah lumayan juga ini punggung. Tapi masyaAllah, dibalas dengan pemandangan yang supercantik di pagi hari. Kami menyewa motor selama di Bandung, sehingga lebih fleksibel, baik secara jadwal maupun lokasi. Selain ke Masjid Raya Bandung dan sekitarnya (Jalan Asia Afrika), kami juga memberanikan diri naik ke Tangkuban Parahu dan Taman Begonia. Super senang, kala itu. Alhamdulillah ‘ala kulli haal. Tanpa tahu bahwa keesokan harinya (14 Maret 2020), berita semakin ramai dengan Covid-19, termasuk menyerang salah satu menteri. Saat itu Depok juga sedang ramai-ramainya. Paniklah, karena posisi mas Aldo saat itu di Depok (ba’da subuh, mas Aldo naik travel dari Bandung ke Depok). Tapi lagi-lagi Allah Maha Baik, sampai hari ini kami masih sehat wal afiyaat.

Tangkuban Parahu, 13 Maret 2020

Sekitar Masjid Raya Bandung

Pelatihan DEPTH Therapy. Ini pertemuan terakhir ketika physical distancing belum diterapkan :”)

Per 16 Maret 2020, saya sudah bekerja dari rumah. Tentu sesekali ke kampus kalau ada keperluan mendesak, misal ambil paket dan vitamin. Tapi, sejak beberapa hari sebelum ramadhan, pekan ketiga April 2020, saya benar-benar tidak ngampus. Semua hal dilakukan di kosan kami. Bagaimana rasanya? Nuinainu lah pastinya di awal. Apalagi di kosan kami mejanya hanya satu dan prioritas berkata mas Aldo lebih layak menggunakan meja tersebut untuk keperluannya sebagai freelancer. Saya kembali pada rutinitas saya selama di Groningen, ngerjain apa-apa di atas kasur hahahaha, dengan meja kecil yang lumayan membantu. Waktu itu saya berpikir, bisa nggak ya aku ya Allah, bekerja dengan kondisi kayak gini? Secara mental juga naik turun, secara fisik juga lagi agak ngedrop. Plus insyaAllah puasa. Tapi Allah sudah menakar segala sesuatunya agar sesuai dengan kemampuan kita kan?

Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Ia mendapat pahala (dari kebajikan) yang diusahakannya dan ia mendapat siksa (dari kejahatan) yang dikerjakannya. (Mereka berdoa): "Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tak sanggup kami memikulnya. Beri maaflah kami; ampunilah kami; dan rahmatilah kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami, maka tolonglah kami terhadap kaum yang kafir". -QS Al Baqarah: 286

Jujur, dalam beberapa kali shalat jama’ah di rumah, saya selalu mbrabak tiap suami saya baca ayat ini. Allah, kuatkan kami selalu ya :’)

Lalu apa-apa saja hal yang patut disyukuri?

Pertama, berawal dari sebuah chat dari atasan saya yang meminta saya menulis proposal riset yang berkaitan dengan tema Covid-19 dan tentunya dikaitkan dengan Ilmu Psikologi. Beliau chat tepat dua hari sebelum deadline pengumpulan proposal. Karena opsi jawabannya hanyalah “siap, laksanakan”, hahaha, akhirnya saya menulis apa-apa saja yang ada dalam pikiran saya saat itu, yang kalau disuruh ngulang juga nggak bisa. Bismillah, proposal dikirim jam 23.45, tepat 15 menit sebelum deadline (31 Maret 2020). Kemudian, tinggal tawakkal. Saya sempat pesimis karena sempat bertanya ke atasan saya terkait pengumuman penerimaan proposal, kata beliau seleksinya di tingkat pusat, sehingga kemungkinannya kecil, tapi tidak apa-apa. Toh saya sudah mencoba jadi Bandung Bondowoso kan. Hehehe. Ternyata, tepat 3 Syawal 1441H, muncul sebuah pengumuman bahwa proposal yang saya buat alhamdulillah mendapat dana dari Lembaga Penelitian dan Inovasi Universitas Airlangga. Hiks masyaAllah tabaarakallah, ini bener-bener pertama kalinya jadi single fighter nulis proposal, karena sebelum-sebelumnya saya berlima, berkolaborasi dengan yang senasib sepenanggungan (if you know what I mean). Baik, proposal sudah diterima, ibarat pernikahan, ini masih dalam tahap lamaran yang diterima, artinya masih ada banyak kemungkinan terjadi selama khitbah, selama menuju hari H pernikahan. Jadi kelola ekspektasi dan ikhtiar maksimal ya! Bismillah :”)

Kedua, saya gagal dalam sebuah seleksi kepenulisan yang diselenggarakan di Jawa Barat. Awalnya saya sangat antusias mengikuti program ini, namun saat sampai pada tahapan wawancara, konsentrasi saya mendadak ambyar ketika pertanyaan basa-basi dari pewawancara lebih ke, “Oke, jadi sudah menikah ya, sudah punya anak belum?” My mistake, saya ambyar detik itu juga karena tidak menyangka ada pertanyaan seperti ini untuk seleksi menulis bareng. Saat itu saya jadi hilang konsentrasi dan menjawab sekenanya. Bahkan untuk hitung-menghitung saya butuh bantuan kalkulator saking olengnya. Oke, saya berusaha menerima bahwa kondisi saya tidak baik-baik saja ketika ditanya sudah memiliki anak atau belum. Apakah saya salah? Saya tidak tahu, yang jelas itu reaksi spontan yang muncul pada saat itu. Meski saya tahu, filosofi teras mengajarkan kita untuk menggenggam apa-apa yang bisa dikontrol, yaitu persepsi dan pikiran. Tapi jujur, saya masih terus belajar untuk bisa 100% menerapkan hal tersebut. Ya, tepat 10 hari setelah wawancara, saya dinyatakan ditolak, namun ada bingkisan menarik dari penyelenggara, yaitu tips dan trik menulis. Hehe terima kasih atas pembelajarannya ya! insyaAllah bermanfaat :). Anyway, saya nggak tahu apa yang akan terjadi bila saya diterima di project menulis ini, karena di satu sisi Allah mengizinkan saya untuk terlibat tiga riset dalam tahun ini. Inilah yang menyebabkan saya sangat bersyukur, karena lagi-lagi Allah Maha Menakar, Allah Maha mengetahui kesanggupan tiap hamba-Nya. Barangkali, Allah sedang membisikkan saya untuk fokus di riset yang sudah saya tekadkan di awal tahun :) Terima kasih ya Allah. Di balik sebuah kegagalan, Allah selalu selipkan hikmah dan pelajaran. InsyaAllah.

Ketiga, Ramadhan kali ini seolah cukup padat dengan berbagai webinar. Senang sekali rasanya bisa mengajak suami kolaborasi di kelas donasi. Begitu juga dengan kesempatan menjadi salah satu pembicara di Diskusi Online Indonesia. Berani-beraninya saya membawa tema “Merawat Pernikahan dengan Kesederhanaan” sebagai topik unggulan saya (karena di saat yang sama, saya sedang diminta untuk mengisi kelas pranikah). Selain karena sedang asyik-asyiknya berdamai dengan diri sendiri, berdamai dengan adaptasi pasca menikah (sudah hampir dua tahun kok masih adaptasi? weits elah, adaptasi menikah seumur hidup ya, jadi pertimbangkan baik-baik sodara-sodara sekalian yang jargon menikah muda menikah muda tanpa pertimbangan, hehehe). Ada banyak hal yang sangat disyukuri pasca menikah, begitu juga banyak hal yang menjadi tantangan bagi kami dalam menjalaninya :). Okeh, singkat cerita, ternyata penyelenggara Diskusi Online Indonesia ini hendak membukukan hasil diskusi online ini. Waah masyaAllah akhirnya diberi kesempatan untuk jadi salah satu kontributor lagi. Hal ini tentu sangat saya syukuri karena saya baru saja melewatkan kesempatan untuk menulis buku bersama Ikatan Psikologi Perkembangan Indonesia, alias kelewat deadline :”D hahahaha. Allah ternyata menggantikan dengan hal lain yang insyaAllah tidak kalah manfaat. Mudah-mudahan Allah selalu beri kesempatan untuk memperpanjang ilmu yang dititipkanNya ini lewat apapun medianya. aamiin.

Berikut buku “Quarter Life Crisis: Saatnya Naik Kelas” dari hasil diskusi online nya. Oh ya, buat temen-temen yang tertarik sama bukunya, bisa wasap saya ya di 0816566331 :)

Keempat, beberapa hari lalu sebelum syawal, saya mendapat kiriman buku dari teman saya (sang penulis), yang ternyata mendapatkan testimoni dari Ibu Sinta Yudisia. Saya iseng nanya ke penulis buku tersebut, “Kak aku mau dong dikenalin sama Bu Sinta, kebetulan aku ada draft, belum jadi sih tapi pingin bisa beliau baca dan dapat testimoni beliau tentunya”. Nah, penulis ini menjanjikan saya untuk mendapatkan nomor Ibu Sinta kalau draft saya sudah jadi. Waduh, jadinya kapan ya? hahahahaha. Malam harinya, saya dikontak sama guru ngaji saya, beliau lagi membutuhkan dua moderator, satu untuk guru besar Teknik Mesin UI, satu lagi untuk Ibu Sinta Yudisia. Beliau ingin suami saya memoderatori sang guru besar (yang tak lain adalah dosen pembimbingnya selama di TRUI) dan saya dengan senang hati menjadi moderator dari Bu Sinta. Wah masyaAllah, saya ngerasa Allah sayang banget sama saya. Di saat saya berikhtiar untuk kenalan lewat media lain, Allah tunjukkan jalan tol dengan mempertemukan saya dengan Bu Sinta di suatu forum online. Terima kasih ya Rabb :”)

Kelima, tentu bersyukur sekali masih bisa diberi nikmat sehat, nikmat iman dan islam sampai hari ini, termasuk bisa menjalankan ibadah dengan sebaik-baiknya selama bulan Ramadan. Tentu bukan hal yang mudah bagi saya menjalankan kelima hal di atas tanpa izin-Nya. Artinya, saya bukan berarti benar-benar 100% enjoy tanpa tekanan sedikitpun. Salah besar. Saya cukup tertekan dan sempat nangis ketika mengetik proposal bandung bondowoso penelitian itu, saya sempat menitikkan air mata setelah proses wawancara proyek menulis (akibat kontrol emosi saya saya yang labil dalam menyikapi hal-hal yang tidak bisa saya kontrol: pertanyaan apakah sudah punya anak). Saya sempat drama kecil-kecilan dengan suami saya menjelang mengisi kelas donasi, karena di waktu yang sama sebenarnya suami saya juga sedang dikejar target kerjaan freelancenya, dan memang beliau mengaku belum terbiasa mengisi webinar. Begitu juga drama ketika rekaman suara (untuk kelas pranikah) saya tidak berhasil terupload sehingga saya harus meresize dan mengotak atik banyak hal. Begitu juga keputusan untuk menunda sekolah profesi psikolog yang akhirnya diputuskan di bulan ramadhan. Berat banget, tapi realita berkata ada prioritas lain yang harus diutamakan saat ini. Dan sejumlah hal-hal ninuninu lainnya yang saya tafsirkan sebagai paket komplit dari perjuangan yang tak semuanya bisa diceritakan. Semakin yakin bahwa Allah menguji kita, baik dalam bentuk kesenangan maupun kesedihan. Seberapa ingatkah kita kepada Allah di segala situasi yang kita hadapi? Seberapa yakinkah kita dengan segenap pertolongan yang Ia hadirkan lewat hal yang tidak disangka-sangka. Bahwa segala sesuatu yang terasa pahit saat itu sebenarnya bisa jadi hal yang berbuah manis untuk jangka panjang. Living in the present moment dan bersikap realistis dengan menghadapi berbagai situasi sepertinya jadi salah satu teman baik saya saat ini. Berusaha semampunya, berdoa sekuatnya, tawakkal tanpa putus, tapi jangan pernah GR dengan segala bentuk upaya kita, karena segala hal yang terjadi saat ini tentu atas izin dan pertolongan Allah azza wa jalla. Semoga Allah izinkan hati dan pikiran kita untuk terus mampu mengambil hikmah dari setiap peristiwa. Aamiin ya Mujibas sailiin.

Tetap jaga iman dan imun ya, teman-teman. :’)

Salam hangat dari Surabaya yang sepertinya lagi kurang bersahabat saat ini,

Wassalamu’alaikum

Juwingan, 30 Mei 2020

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