re the scene where Sisko pulls Julian away from Garak's body: so they made a novel version of that episode and this scene is told from Sisko's pov and he compares it to when he had to be pulled away from his wife's body when she died, the comparison makes me insane and you can read the pages here godblessthisship.tumblr.com/729917446017941504/
I need you to come off anon so that I know who to bill my therapy to.
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I need a Mac and Dennis au that is based off Thelma and Louise- they accidentally kill a guy and it’s just a montage of them running from the cops. Staying in really seedy hotels by fake names (Vic and Hugh), making money in dubious ways, getting high as fuck to forget they’re wanted men. Imagine the desperation and urgency and unknown, they’re always on the edge and they’re all the other has. It would be the best.
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Jaewon Breaking Through The Fog Of Depression [LONG POST]
So throughout the last several episodes, we’ve got Jaewon, and the reactions of the various people around him, trying to get him out of his funk one way or another. Let’s go through the list of failures, before we discuss who succeeded:
Taehyung. I’m not gonna waste any word count on that man, he doesn’t deserve it. He had no idea what Jaewon was going through much less why, so nothing he said was helpful or relevant. He was the one person actively trying to instigate Jaewon, thinking he’d banter back and not realizing how serious he considered the situation. Taehyung’s lack of empathy and ‘nunchi’ makes him unpalatable.
Eunji. She’s an interesting one. Unlike Taehyung I think she understood more of why Jaewon was so affected (not because of his past but because of his present with Jihyun), but was afraid that she would lose him so she manipulated him in his vulnerable moments so that they stayed together. She kept trying to tell Jaewon that he was fine now in an attempt to convince him that he was, when in fact that probably just invalidated his feelings more than ever. Instead of encouraging his recovery it just made him feel misunderstood and alone.
Jihyun. While Jaewon trusts Jihyun and knows that Jihyun knows him, he can’t believe a lot of what Jihyun says to him because he KNOWS that his opinions are biased. Jaewon may be thinking that Jihyun is saying what Jaewon wants to hear, not that he actually means it, and so Jaewon is automatically disinclined to believe him. He wants to believe him so badly but he’s convinced himself that there’s no way that Jihyun truly believes what he’s saying. Isn’t that the worst part.
His Therapist. I know she means well, she’s the one other person who knows everything about Jaewon. But her job is to try and ‘cure’ him to the best of her abilities, and sometimes in trying to do that she missed what needs to be done. It’s unclear whether she’s being able to treat the symptom or the root issue. She tells Jaewon what he needs to do, but that’s easier said than done, otherwise he would’ve done it by now. Her telling him isn’t the point, he had to come to that conclusion by himself so that he believes it, before acting on it. It didn’t help that she was getting so visibly frustrated at his story and his reactions.
Now. Who succeeded? It’s the most expected and most unexpected persons around Jaewon:
Yoonwon. Yoonwon is probably Jaewon’s one true friend, someone who knows what he’s like and doesn’t judge him for it ever. He genuinely cares for her and loves her. They’ve absolutely got each other’s backs, and if there’s one thing these two do it’s never lie to each other. Seeing Yoonwon break down after Jihyun gave his ultimatum was probably the first time we saw Jaewon get out of his depressive trance and react with energy. His hubris is his desire to take care and protect those around him (often to his own detriment), and that instinct kicks in for Yoonwon. Until now, Jaewon did what he thought was best to prevent Jihyun (or anyone else) from getting hurt, but seeing her he realized that people were getting hurt despite, or even because of what he was doing. It was the first step of many towards his change in attitude and perspective. What he was doing was not only not helping but it was actively hurting someone he loved, so something had to change.
Restaurant Ahjumma. She’s a legend, she’s an icon, and she is the moment. Jaewon only knows her as a close friend of Jihyun, but has nothing personally connected to her. Even with leaving out specific details, he’s able to share his worries with her, and she (quite literally) smacks some sense into him, reminding him to look at the bigger picture and remember what’s actually important. Loving the ones you love, and pursuing your own happiness is more important to living than drowning in guilt, and taking care of yourself is the first step in that direction. She used the most simple of words that everyone understands to help Jaewon clear his mind. She knows nothing about Jaewon and he finds there’s a comfort in getting support from someone who doesn’t know you and had no opinion of you beforehand. Her combined street smart wisdom and maturity remind Jaewon of a more hopeful future.
What I absolutely love is how Jaewon only managed to connect to two women for entirely opposite reasons, but with a similar result. Jaewon believes Yoonwon because they know each other so well and he knows she wouldn’t lie, and he believes the ahjumma because they don’t know each other at all and as someone Jihyun trusts she has no reason to lie. While on opposite ends of the spectrum, they are both people that Jaewon doesn’t have to put up a mask around, there’s no pretention. It tells us so much about Jaewon, what he values in a person and in a relationship. Yoonwon makes him realize what he’s doing is wrong, and the Ahjumma gives him the courage to do what is right.
To stop running away from what scares him…
…and face it head on.
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Sorry about this long doodle dump of some ideas about the backstory for the crime au thing I made a bit ago. In all honesty it’s more a crossover with the book series Six of Crows, it’s lowkey such a good book I highly recommend.
Some backstory under the cut in case you haven’t read the series or if you are generally curious about what’s happening in these doodles.
So basically in this world some people are born magical and have the ability to control either elements, bodies, or materials. These people are called Grisha and it’s overall random who is born with the abilities though there is a bit of genetics involved. Nonetheless Grisha usually hide their abilities since they are often captured, killed, or are drafted in the army depending on where they were born.
Sun is a Grisha and was lucky enough to be born with a traveling circus (think like how Inej grew up), where for the most part people were okay with it. They even showed it off in shows (though they usually handwaved it as pyrotechnics to keep him safe).
Moon was lucky/unlucky enough to not be born a Grisha, though this led to him trying a lot harder with gymnastics and stunts, making him overall the better performer compared to Sun.
Unfortunately one day they were kidnapped, sold, and separated. Sun went to Ketterdam and became indentured (basically no rights) and was eventually able to get out of it, though he refuses to talk about how he got out. While Moon went to Shu Han and got involved in all their experiments and getting a few extra parts. (in regards to canon I’m just assuming these are like the early trials or something)
They are reunited later but there are a lot of issues and trauma going around so like things are rough. Basically Sun has abandonment issues and Moon can’t stand physical touch so its not a great combo. Plus Moon has a funky bit of wiring in his head that when activated causes him to want to kill magical people like his brother sooo...
Extra fun stuff:
- in this au their names aren’t really Sun and Moon, but that’s the nickname they have for each other
- the thing Sun’s the best at doing is turning dirt into glitter, kinda useless but it cheers up the kids he works with so he’s happy with it.
- Moon actually really likes the wings, it’s one of the few things he got that he doesn’t entirely hate
- For peeps who have read the books, or seen the Netflix show, Sun is a Materialki (an Alkemi specifically), though has a little skill in Corporalki abilities. He refuses to say how and why though. Unfortunately for Moon the main types of Grisha that messed with his brain and body were Materialki and Corporalki on Parem soooo…
- Sun got a snake tattoo from his time indentured, haha insert symbolism of snakes eating the sun in mythology
- Sun’s abilities help him fix Moon’s face later on, but that took a lot of trust building and trauma resolution
- Sun wants to be able to fix Moon’s head as well but that is going to be a lot more difficult
- he probably would only be able to do it if he took Parem…
Haha good thing that will never happen.
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[not pictured: me, jumping between my dash and two discord servers trying to keep up with what’s happening]
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