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soonsweetheart · 1 month
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I’m so ugly.
I could barely look in the mirror without tearing up. Frizzy hair. Eye bags. Pimples. Dry skin. Crooked teeth.
“I’m so ugly,” I whimpered. I hadn’t even noticed he was there, standing beside me.
“Ugly?” he mumbled. He looked…hurt.
“I’m hideous, look at this!” I whined, pointing at the blotchy spot on my face.
He sighed softly, placing his hand on my cheek and gazing down into my eyes.
“Sweetheart, I made you just the way I wanted you. In my image. You are so beautiful. I love you…but I don’t want to hear you say that ever again.”
I hadn’t thought about it like that. It was strange, seeing him upset. Hurt, even. But, he was right. He was always right. Calling myself ugly to my Father was like…telling an artist that their painting is ugly.
“I didn’t…I…I didn’t realize. Father I’m sorry” I mumbled, looking away. But he just smiled and wrapped his arms around me like he always did.
“It’s okay sweet girl. But look-“ he grinned, gently gripping my cheeks and facing me back towards the mirror.
And I looked the same. But so much different.
“Heh..” I couldn’t help but laugh a little as I stared back at the girl in the mirror.
“I guess I am kinda pretty”
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godoverus · 11 days
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It wasn’t until Eve bit into the fruit that her eyes were opened to sin. It wasn’t until then she felt the need to hide from God, because she knew she was naked - she was ashamed.
It is because of the same shame that women still hide. Whether it’s behind makeup, hair, clothes, filters, achievements - whatever it is. The lies of the enemy in our ears, telling us we’re not pretty enough, we’re not thin enough, we’re not smart enough, we’re not good enough.
For how beautiful it would be if we lived freely and confidently, embracing the truth of who we are as daughters of God. To walk unburdened by insecurities, knowing that we are fearfully and wonderfully made in his image.
Just like Eve in the innocence of Eden before knowledge of sin, we could revel in the beauty of our existence.
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reveriesverse · 3 months
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bylertruther · 9 months
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people will see a character that was created to be a certain way from the very beginning before everything was even set in stone, then actually written that same way even before The Plot happens in the final product, watch their core personality remain constant all throughout a show's lifespan from beginning to end, and even watch it be highlighted as a Good and True thing to be proud of and that is inspiring to others and sorely needed and not something to ever change or belittle in one of the most emotional scenes of a season that doubles as a high point & character defining moment, and instead of thinking Hm Maybe This Character Just Is This Way And We're Being Told That They Should Love Themselves For It The Same Way Everyone Else Does And How They Once Did Too Before Their Insecurity Got The Best Of Them And Told Them They Should Change, they will instead call it repression and not his true self and something to be changed even though it literally just is who he is. and all of this happens in the show where we are repeatedly hit over the head with the "you should stay true to yourself and love yourself no matter what other people think or tell you you should be". where the motto is literally "never change" nd conformity is killing the kids. like. Okay ❤️
#i'm sorry lmao but. if it looks like a duck and it quacks like a duck and it's done that for four seasons and was described#like that in the st bible and was TOLDDDD ON SCREENNNNNN that the way they are is a good thing and that their insecurities#aren't telling them the truth abt themselves and that they should just be themselves instead#of something or someone they're not......... then yeah i'm sorry but i think it's a fucking duck. LMAO#im allowed one evil post every three months.#mike is the way that he is and he's always been that way and he's always been described that way. his core personality consists.#he conforms when it comes to his romantic life and how that then affects his relationships. he thought he needed to give up#gaming with his friends and instead get a girlfriend bc one day he'll have to marry her and settle down leaving everything#he once had behind. the conformity doesn't lie in his personality it lies in his actions via what he thinks his future holds.#and even then... he fucking dropped that LMAO now it's just the other part of tht bc he went back to his other interests#and he's still the same old mike that he's always been#if it ain't broke.......#like. like and wish for whatever u want but sometimes certain claims are made about the Text tht i believe are just not substantial or#supported by any of the materials we've ever seen. n thts jus wht i think !#im on mobile im not rereading this <3 the mind flayer made me write alla dat im free now im Clean
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applenattawin · 2 years
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i just really can’t move past the fact that bible said he thinks he’s undeserving of the opportunities he’s getting. is he not aware just how beyond talented you have to be to pull off a role like vegas ON THE FIRST ATTEMPT AT ACTING. it’s baffling.
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naggingatlas · 1 year
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i looove putting spark over songs about like heroes and saving the world (tom cardy's 'level clear', uncle outrage's 'saved the world' <- nice voice hc for him!. and 'my superhero movie'.) when he like. Did. Not : ) funney.
#sprksplrs#gaia talked about spark wanting to be desired yesterday and while i think he's too much of a Lone Wolf... for those kinds of wants to#even surface. at least in my interpretation of him. its hilarious to think abt him getting. just a tad insecure abt fark's status as#a real like. superhero basically. just for a second in the far back of his head. oh i want to be as cool as him. im not good enough#tho again in my characterization he only wants to do that to be able to love himself. i first got this thought when ruminating on#oh god. what kinda games he n fark like to play respectively? and said 'if he ever does pick up hardmode or a challenge level#he will only do that to one up himself and himself only.' he only proves stuff to himself. he only cares about himself.#and the things that do the most mental damage to him are all scenarios in which his self is attacked.#in which his agency is taken his independence. losing a job to someone something that copies him and does it better than him#something that even copies a really dear object to him thats been with him throughout the years - his jester hat#an attack on individuality. and then being merged into the sim. idk. the yaoi moments when he does work together w fark become even more#potent. this way? and. it contrasts really well with how selfless (at some point in his life very literally) fark is. and how confident in#his self. he turns out to be in the end. as micah said 'how he moves with so much more fluidity in his organic body#the body he created himself because he's no longer afraid of it being fake'. citing that as the bible but yea kinda.#i think spark grew up quite ostracized maybe even self-ostracized and really needs a distinction between himself and everyone else#to be better than everyone else. there is some personality disorder shit happening under that piss yellow scalp.#and he fucking loses it when the events around him hammer in that the facade he builds for mostly again himself is. yknow. untrue. fake.#idk thoughts. i love exploring the antisocial aspect in fictional personas with how shipshipship focused fandoms and 'analysis'#in them is it's not something i see all that much. seems like only people whove experienced it ever bring up that topic.#is it so uncomfortable for others? who knows. ramble over
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peapod20001 · 10 months
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I learned how to draw so I could make the guys in my head real and also so I can be annoying with random gift art
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guzhufuren · 11 months
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i realised that i really dislike pictures of my favourite celebrities where they used filters that "perfect" their facial features and skin. so i started thinking, is it the same way with my own pictures? do people who know me like my pictures better when they are natural? wild
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His Glory in His Name ( El Roi- God who sees)
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God is reminding me of this song.. You say.
I have been feeling insecure about what's been happening, etc.
I just got back from a trip to some state that I can't disclose.
I was told that I will have sponsors or investors who is interested in my work and would like to meet me in person.
I was excited and I felt like this was the light at the end of the tunnel. My business has been so slow this year and my business account is draining quickly . I told God that unless He comes and meet me here, I am drowning.
But, I still committed the trip to prayers. I wanted to make sure this wasn't just a trip that I'll be on unless God is in it.
At the end of the day, my success and resource and everything else come from Him. So I prayed... and I felt like I needed to check it out and I did.
i didn't really get to talk about my business... when I was there and I felt like a bump on the log.
But God told me to lay down my agenda and my desires to move forward and focusing on Him and serving Him by trying to be interest in others' needs and wants.
So, I did all I could do to serve God and try to network with people there.
The grace of God was overwhelming that I felt like the conversations and friendships/relationships went very well.
After my last webinar, I reached out to the contact again to see how I can be a resource for him.
And, I found out that he didn't know I was coming down because of my own business but he thought that I was there to support my husband.
That really shook me. And I wondered about whether I heard God right to begin with.
It all made sense why nobody really sat me down and asked about my business.
Since they were older than me and smarter than me and wealthier than me, I felt like world has shaken.
I started to question whether I was mistaken by my emotion/excitement of wanting to go down there and somehow i missed the mark.
I have done all kinds of crap for everyone. And, it didn't seem like anything I did matter to God or my mind was filled with questions and doubts about whether anything I did for God was just my own imagination and that God really didn't ask me to do.
This includes the time and energies and resources I spent on my girl who is called to lead almost 1000 congregation at a large church.
I served her because God called me to build her up and her ministry.
I DID everything for her as much as i could think of from changing her daughter's diaper, cooking, cleaning, spending 3 hours at a time to encourage her.
On some days, I feel like I was being taken advantage of.
0n other days, I wonder if I heard God wrong and if it was all my own imagination though I did anyway out of faith.
BUT GOD
As I sought His face, God reminded me to ask for "validation."
So, I did.
And He answered.
Yesterday, I went up to her husband (the pastor) after the service because her birthday is coming up and after much disappointment and hurts by another incident, God told me to humble myself before Him and serve Him by focusing on other people's needs rather than my problem. So, I reached out to him.
Then, he said-
" You'll get a kick out of this story. Last week, we had some people over for dinner and my wife was packing all of the leftover food and sent them with the guests, she was like, " I am being [MY NAME"].
All these years that I had prayed over this and I had a vision for this girl to be a servant leader. I prayed that she would lead like Esther.
And when her husband said that, I felt like God seeing my hurt and needed to let me know that I am on the right track and He's been there for me and with me all these times. aND, I wasn't crazy nor was I alone. He saw me even though no one else did...
So, that got me think about this group in that state.
Frankly, I feel intimidated because they are older. They are millionaires. They are successful. They have lots of connections.
But God is reminding me of this song
You say I am loved when I can't feel a thing  You say I am strong when I think I am weak  And you say I am held when I am falling short  And when I don't belong, oh You say I am Yours 
Deep down in my heart, I feel like I don't belong anywhere. But, God is saying that I belong to Him. I have a ministry with Him to reach this group of people who are wealthier than me, smarter than me and older than me.
God is saying He is greater and higher than these people.
But, I said that they are millionaires. they have everything.
But God said that they need His answers and solutions to their lives. Besides, He is a multi-trillionaire and has access to everyone else's pockets.
I don't know why God called me to reach these folks.
I don't know what it is that He wants to offer to these people through me.
But, I am asking God that I don't want to quit.
I want to be available and I want to see Him move till the end.
I want them to see God move the mountain and know that He is GOD who is GREATER than they are so their hearts will turn to Him. (1 King 18).
I don't see anything that they need. But I know He does.
I don't know how My husband and I need to serve God with these people. But I know He does.
And I am asking God for miracle. I want them to see God move the mountain.
I need God to give me what i need to serve Him so their hearts will see His greatness and turn to God. I don't know what I need because I am in need of so many things. I need God to use me for HIs Glory and move the mountain for His Will so my husband and I can be a witness to them.
I want to reach them. I desperately want to see God move the mountain with these people. I don' tknow how or where or who. I want ot know what He wants me to do.
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placid0ne · 1 year
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The Insecure Mind that Secures The Mind
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What is Insecure?
Self doubt and disbelief because of the incapability to put trust in oneself.
Lack of self confidence and fear of people's judgment.
What is Secure?
Means when a person feels safe and away from harm.
Can also mean when something or someone is being protected from danger.
(Note: all of this was written by me [a.k.a placid0ne] base on my own understanding and self-experience)
Do you sometimes feel insecure or you always feel that way?
In my situation, I always feel like I'm insecure because I feel like I'm incapable of doing things and feel so stupid about it. I feel like I'm not worth enough. Sometimes I think I'm being naive to think I'm capable of doing things and don't want to brag about it that's why I also feel insecure, self-doubt, distrust, and it also leads to hatred to oneself. But there are times I want to give chance for myself, and I did! It's not bad, it's actually satisfying when you do something you're so incapable of doing. Try and try till there is chance.
"On the first try you might fail, but on the second try you'll prevail" - S
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Why do people feel insecure?
Does being insecure helps a person feel more secure/safe about the bad situation that might come later on ?
Insecurities starts with people. People who are insecure tend to think about people's thoughts, opinions, or judgements about themselves when in truth they don't actually care. I've read something in the Bible that individuals overthink of the outcome just to feel prepared before a bad situation ever happens. It also helps them feel much secure and lessen their worry later on. In truth, it doesn't work much (base on my experience) when we think of the bad/negative outcome first. We always keep thinking and thinking by putting "Wha if?" OK, "what if I stutter in my presentation? What if I look ridiculous? That would be totally embarassing! I might breakdown"
Bad situations happen because we think of it. It's like we are thinking ahead and manifesting our own danger instead.
So too much thinking about the situation can make our minds focus more into and feel more worry and weary about it. But if we settle things and break it into parts, there is always a way to solve problems.
Effects of being insecure
Insecure people are being insecure because they feel safer or secure about it just to avoid bad situation ahead. That thought, has pros and cons. We think too much that we actually make bad habits out of it. Like for example:
Too much thinking that people never showed them their abilities/capabilities.
They never realised how exceptional or how much worth they are.
They want to be in a secluded place where socializing can be away from them, which is why finding a job or interacting with people will be much difficulty for them.
Have mental breakdown or much worse, mental illness (depression, suicide, phobia, anxiety, etc.)
They never let themselves show who or what kind of person they are. They can't find themselves true freedom because insecure people are the first person to judge themselves, they get to decide whether they believe of their capabilities or not.
We are like birds who lives in a cage, once they get out, they flap their wings as fast as they can because, there, they find an opportunity to escape or get out of cage that something that hinders their will or freedom. They feel more free to do whatever they want because they're a lot more to do outside (the world) that no mere human could count. Thousands, millions, billions, trillions, and so on. We can do many things in this given world that our Creator made. We shouldn't waste or take full advantage of it with such careless decision. "Be wise" as he said.
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Small Story & Conclusion
You see, I had a green bird before that me and my mother bought when I was still younger. This birdie was in a small cage, he's cute that especially children would love. He almost got eaten by a cat, but he was luckily saved because of his cage. Later on, my mom decided to set free the bird. I was sad of course. I never had a pet before, but my momma felt sad about the bird being in a cage. Lastly, she is also pertaining that the bird needs to be free.
You see, I think we think we can cha if we change became mature and more independent in ourselves. But we can't change like that if all of the problems are only carried by ourselves. We need people who will lead us or guide us to the right way. We can ask God for his help and from our family or others even if they're unknown or anonymous (Like me, I'm unknown or anonymous but I'm here on Tumblr to try and help people who have problems. Although, I wouldn't recommend people trusting people who ask personal stuff haha. Be wise ya'll)
Even if it's impossible, things will surely get through...Just don't stop and don't give up! (P. S There are people here who's God differs or doesn't believe in God, as well as have problems with families and such. But just listen. I assure anyone that I would even understand the speck of their worries or problems)
Overall, I think we should be definitely be free from pain or any sense of insecurity or sense of anxiety. Speaking of anxiety, maybe I'll also make a topic about it too.
It's my first time here in Tumblr and I'm also busy in life, so I might not be able to always post this kind of long writing. And the things I wrote here aren't enough! But I don't want to make it long because it will be uninteresting and boring. So I'll see you again (whoever I'm talking to hehe😝😆)
(Note: all of this was written by me [a.k.a placid0ne] base on my own understanding and self-experience)
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justcrazyfaith · 1 year
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For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
Psalms 139:13‭-‬14 NIV
I'm fearfully and wonderfully made. I'm made in the image of God.
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soonsweetheart · 1 month
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Greed
Why did this hurt?
I should’ve been happy for her, but I wasn’t. I didn’t like seeing him look at her like that. That look of love and adoration in his eyes. It should’ve been reserved for only me, right?
What a selfish thing to think.
I frowned at my own thoughts. I had no claim over him. It’s not like I was the only one he loved. He loved all of his children. Every. Single. One.
So why did I feel jealous?
I tried to hide it from him.
Being unhappy that someone else loved him was the opposite of what he taught. I should’ve been proud, I should’ve rejoiced.
“Make heaven crowded,” they’d say. “Be fishers of men.”
But I didn’t wanna share him. I found him first, after all. He was mine. My savior. My father. My best friend.
“What’s the matter?” he said softly.
I was sitting against my headboard, sulking and avoiding him.
“Nothing,” I mumbled.
He grinned a little, sitting beside me, “you know, it’s a sin to lie.”
I rolled my eyes and curled up in a ball, hugging my knees and burying my face in the darkness. “You literally already know what’s wrong. Why even ask?” I grumbled.
I didn’t see it, but his smile faded.
“Baby, do not hide your face from me. I love you.”
His voice was always so gentle, so genuine and concerned. I was always ashamed of my thoughts and feelings, even knowing he expected and forgave them.
I reluctantly told him what he already knew.
“I should’ve been happy, father. I should’ve been ecstatic to see a lost child be found by you. But what does that mean for me? It means you’re going to spend less time with me and more time with her! You’re going to forget about me, like a middle child,” I whined.
I didn’t know what to expect, but it definitely wasn’t his laughter.
“A middle child? My love…” he chuckled.
I felt his strong arms wrap around my body and as much as I wouldn’t liked to keep pouting, it was impossible. He was my everything. I was literally created by him, for him.
I relaxed and let my face rest in the crook of his shoulder. “I just want you all to myself,” I whispered. I knew it was selfish, but I also knew I could be completely honest with him about everything.
“Look at me, sweetheart,” he whispered in my ear.
I obeyed. Of course I obeyed.
Tears threatened to spill down my skin as I looked back into his warm, gentle eyes.
“I love you, sweetheart. More than you could even imagine. I know it’s hard for you to understand that, but you will understand someday. Do not limit me to human limitations. Do not doubt my power. And do not ever think I will abandon you. I’ve known and loved you since before you were even born, m’kay?” he smiled.
His eyes literally sparkled, and his passion and love for me was clear.
“Kay,” I smiled back, unable to control the tears that escaped. But they weren’t tears of selfishness, of jealousy or insecurity. No. This was safe. This was peace.
This was Jesus.
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gratitudejurnee · 2 years
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God is the answer to every negative thought, feeling, or adversity in our lives. Trust Him. Try Him. Then thank Him. Thank you Lord for never leaving me.
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anxietyfrappuccino · 1 month
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i love my small group because i will walk in insecure and leave feeling loved and secure
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lucidknight-blog · 2 months
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EXODUS‬ ‭33‬:‭11‬-‭23‬ ‭‬‬
”Inside the Tent of Meeting, the Lord would speak to Moses face to face, as one speaks to a friend. Afterward Moses would return to the camp, but the young man who assisted him, Joshua son of Nun, would remain behind in the Tent of Meeting. One day Moses said to the Lord, “You have been telling me, ‘Take these people up to the Promised Land.’ But you haven’t told me whom you will send with me.…
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prickly-paprikash · 12 days
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Pushing aside the fact that I am, quite possibly, a Kendrick fan—disregarding my biases, I think Drake needs to stop. Push Ups was a good diss. Surface level, vapid, but it possessed that mean, petty spirit that carries a diss track all the way. Even bringing up accusations that are, realistically speaking, unlikely still works because a diss is supposed to show just how much you hate a person and how cleverly you can bring it.
Taylor Made was weird. I get that it was a strategy. Drop the main diss first and then drop this one to really prod at Kendrick. Using Pac and Snoop AI voices sucks though. Distilling Kendrick as Taylor's underling also doesn't work because Kendrick only collaborated with her once (twice when they remade Bad Blood) and that's it. Meanwhile Drake is out here always looking for new, up and coming artists to pounce on their trends or cling to established artists. Then it got taken down, because of course it would have been. You used 2Pac's voice. Did you really think his estate, his family, wouldn't do anything?
So he bought Pac's ring and used his voice without permission. More and more we see just how much of a vulture Drake is.
And then Euphoria drops.
Your first diss was met with solid reactions. Your second got taken down. Kendrick drops on a random hot Tuesday, and in a matter of hours surpasses your numbers that took weeks to accumulate. Kendrick did that. Euphoria was also harsh, clever, and sounded so good that people kept replaying it over and over again. Once more, Kendrick schools you.
A few insiders then say that Drake will drop that night. Right after. But he then allegedly gets cold feet. A few hours later from when Drake was supposedly ready to drop but backs out, Kendrick drops 6:16 in LA.
In your previous disses, you begged Kendrick to drop something with quintuple entendres. Euphoria did that. But he took it a step further by naming his second diss 6:16 in LA.
June 16: Father's day. Referencing the fact that Drake has been proven to be a deadbeat father.
June 16, 1971: Tupac's Birthday. Kendrick idolizes him. Drake steals from him.
June 16, 2019: First episode of Euphoria drops. A show Drake is listed as a producer on. A show about underage girls entering a life of sex, substance abuse, and more. Things that Drake has been accused of repeatedly in the past.
June 16, 2011: in June 2, 2011, Kendrick posted on his twitter that there will be a concert at Toronto on 6/16. Allegedly this is where Drake and Kendrick first met.
6:16 AM: The time of release for this track.
6:16: Multiple possible Bible verses, given Kendrick's Christian background.
Other claims felt like reaches though, so I'll stick to that.
The final two lines of 6:16 also reference the Michael Jackson, R. Kelly, and their song "You Are Not Alone". Drake, who has always claimed he is Michael Jackson or at the very least his equal/successor, is now tied to him in a way he does not want. Because we know all of the dirt that came out after MJ's death. We all know what R. Kelly was sent to prison for. And we all know what Drake has been accused of multiple times.
Kendrick also alludes to the fact that you have a leak in your circle, Drake.
So Drake drops Family Matters. A scathing 7 minute song that makes fun of the GKMC van. Saying that Kendrick's daughter isn't his. Saying that his wife cheats on him with security. Saying that he beats his wife.
Now, these are enormous accusations levied. But Kendrick has responded before, years ago, that the DV accusations were false. He has also always been open about his faults. Adultery. Sex addiction. Insecurity. God complex. Kendrick, for better or worse, has always laid out nearly every aspect of his younger life on his songs. This also helped by the fact that in both Euphoria and 6:16, Kendrick says that Drake has spent millions on finding dirt on him but came up with nothing. Again, these accusations can still be proven true and if so, Kendrick needs to be held accountable for them.
But if not? Then Drake just adds another to the pile of "He's a liar and a master manipulator."
Drake also posts a Parody on his Insta that gains little to no attention because 30 minutes after dropping Family Matters and supposedly going on his victory lap, Kendrick drops meet the grahams.
Another thing. 6:16's cover was a glove. That meant nothing to us, the audience. meet the grahams makes it make sense by zooming out of the glove and showing off a shirt and drugs that Drake supposedly uses. Drake has not had any receipts with his accusations against Kendrick. Kendrick puts Drake's supposed prescription, his full name, on a bottle of Ozempic. Kendrick, for now, seems to make good on his threat. OvO, Drake's company, is full of leaks. And they're leaking it straight to Kendrick Lamar.
Nearly 24 hours later, Kendrick drops Not Like Us.
Euphoria was a general character dissection and assassination of Drake: Insecure about his identity as a biracial man. Culture Vulture. Blaccent user. Code switcher. Fake abs. Womanizer. Misogynist. Using black features just to feel black enough. A deadbeat dad that knows nothing of raising a child. And even revokes Drake's ability to use the N-Word (I have no stake in that I am Asian so I will keep my brown mouth shut for that).
6:16 in LA was an ominous threat that slowly reveals that Kendrick has insider information on Drake. That he is ready to leak so much more should Drake continue.
meet the grahams is a brutal open letter to Drake, his parents, and even to Adonis, Drake's son. Saying that Kendrick could be a better mentor to Adonis. Saying that Drake abandoned you and that's not your fault. Don't be like your father—whatever anyone says, for better or worse, you are a black man and don't code switch just to make yourself feel better. He says that Drake failed his mother for what he did to women. Saying that Drake's father is the cause of his gambling issues. Drake is a body shamer. Leaving the mother of his children to rot. And of course, the reveal that Drake has a secret daughter, the same way Pusha T revealed Drake has a son. Adonis.
And of course, now. Not Like Us. Where Kendrick goes all in on one topic that he has alluded to in every diss track before. Drake is a groomer. A pedophile.
I am sick. I should not be tuning into this beef. But my fever can go ahead and end me, I need to know how this ends.
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