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screwpinecaprice · 1 month

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@glowweek Day 5 FAMILY | FRIENDS

Peridot and specially Lapis do not trust the racoons.

Specifically chose this angle so I don't draw feet. _(:,3」∠)_

Mi own connverse kids Ebony and Rohini are there! And technically Sakura and Zachary. (Please until now I don't know what else to name them. 😭)

And sorry the older Maheswarans aren't there. I don't know where to put them and I already had character overload. 😞

Hibiscus print on Bismuth's shirt is from ManMadeOfGold!

Speaking of shirt, another thing I avoided was thinking of their outfit designs. 😅 It's somewhere a little over a decade of timeskip since SU:Future and I'm sure at least one or two would've reformed during the time. So I'm gonna say they wanted to keep the vibe of a casual outdoors picnic-type event so they wore the casual themes.

#Still ..Honestly got lost on what to do with Bismuth and Pearl's forms. First tried to give the button up shirt she had in Bismuth casual #but it didn't look casual enough.... So I made it into a Hawaiian shirt. 😅#I ACTUALLY ended up Googling 'Mom casual summer outfit' lol and grabbed the first I saw as base..... I still managed to kinda make it #look... eh. But I already spent so much time on her. Sorry Pearl. 😞#I mean. In contrast I gave Garnet the super simple white shirt and loose pants. But like... She already looked so darn good imo. So I #just left it at that before I ruined it.#connverse #connverse week #glowweek #Bismuth SU #Ebony OC #Lapis Lazuli SU #Peridot SU #Garnet SU #Connie Maheswaran #Pearl SU #Amethyst SU #Greg Universe #Steven Quartz Universe #Rohini OC #Lion SU #Yeah. I'm late and the last two will most likely be super late as in around past the GlowWeek week. 😅#..... Guys..... I just realized ... There should be the rest of Greg's body visible. RIPPppp sorry I'm not going back to fix anything. 😭😭#Possible backstory of Lapis and Peri and raccoon:#https://www.tumblr.com/screwpinecaprice/141991576032/i-just-thought-it-would-be-really-funny-because-i #connverse kids #Gold TL

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faraskyetruther · 9 months

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can't imagine morgan fey being bothered enough to handle mia's funeral but i can imagine a 17 YEAR OLD maya fey pushing herself to make sure her sister has a perfect funeral while trying to ignore all the trauma and grief of losing a sister and being accused of her murder with only one person truly being in your corner (who she barely knew well enough to fully trust but she had to force herself to trust). and also while still being a fucking child who has been forced by circumstance to grow up when she remains unprepared.

#and also she probably had really complicated feelings about her sister trying to hand that evidence to her because inadvertently it may have #put her in danger but that's already a difficult thing to process let alone when the person is dead and you don't want to be angry at #someone you've just lost #i think so much about maya fey and the inherent trauma of existing as a part of the fey family it makes me ill #aa maya #aa mia #aa #ace attorney #ace attorney headcanon #mia fey #fey clan #maya fey #headcanon #morgan fey #aa fey #thoughts #ace attorney trilogy

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evakant · 9 months

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thinking about yoo joonghyuk and how he is not meant to give up, not ever. but then! what do you do when the person who created you strolls in and says actually, this one time you'll have to give up. not right away, sure, but you will have to give up.

1863rd round the author comes in and talks to him directly and makes him the husk of a man we find a few days away from The End, the one whose only desire seems to be to just get there (the last step of han sooyoung's plan) and die.

she is the only one who can make him give up like that, if not for the single point of failure she wove into his very being — the very reason he cannot ever truly give up

kim dokja shows up, changes the trajectories of both of their lives for fucking ever, and in general fucks everything up so spectacularly yoo joonghyuk can do nothing else but split himself in two

because he wants to live.

#fra.txt #orv spoilers #orv #yoohan is so delicious to me personally. as a dynamic #the fact that it's HER (1863!hys) who writes twts !!!#she has already made yhj go through so much. she literally made him..... THAT in his own story in the 1863rd round #do you understand? of the things she puts him through in that webnovel #probably nothing comes close to the cruelty of what they decide on in round 1863 #i'm sure someone more eloquent than me has touched on this before #but the orv brainrot doesn't spare me just because of that #yoo joonghyuk #han sooyoung #kim dokja #rs: maybe not all hope was lost #rs: because of your story #yoohan #yoohankim

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shittywriterbrain · 7 months

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#she liked it though #theres something about watching a show you love and have rewatched many times and have read and posted about so much #with someone whos watching it for the first time #this is something minor but in ep 10 when ed says theyll have a talent show i was like LOOK AT FANG HE MAKES A HILARIOUS FACE #(which he does please go watch it if you dont know what i mean i lost my shit like five times friday at 1 am rewatching those 5 seconds)#while she was still like oh theyre having a talent show how nice!#which was probably my reaction the first time as well #i didnt have to deal with her watching the ending for the first time because last year i already told her everything about this show #so she knew how it ended. idk how i wouldve dealt with that otherwise #our flag means death #ofmd

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bellamyblake · 1 year

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Random season 1 Bellarke moments (pt.6)

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lesbiradshaw · 7 months

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just started thinking about bradley as a teenager struggling with his emotions both pre and post his mother’s death/fall out with maverick but not wanting to reach out for help because a history of mental health problems can get you disqualified from enlisting in the service. happy saturday guys.

#that boy should have been in therapy from ages 2 on up like.#i def hc that carole took him to someone when he was younger but bradley probably stopped going once he was older and was given the choice #but like. idk. picturing carole trying to bring up him going back after she gets sick because she KNOWS he needs to talk to someone #and maverick cant be there all the time. but bradley says no because hes a teenager and hes started thinking about how to make himself +#appealing to the navy and that opens a whole other can of worms where carole sees that but doesnt want to deny him #because she can see hes already having a hard time with things as they are.#mav trying to convince him to go and bradley pointing out it’s hypocritical because maverick doesnt like talking about his feelings either #i just think people ignore his trauma So Much. they only pay attention to the maverick and goose bits #but they fail to consider how even before the maverick stuff happened bradley had a lot to deal with from a very young age #he spent most of his life on his own! he lost the people he loved most OVER and OVER…#the amount of trauma that must have come flooding back when phoenix (&bob but phoenix is clearly bradleys closest friend) had to eject #i think thats why people painting him as angry & agressive because of the scene where he yells at mav never sits right w me #that moment is so incredibly raw for both of them. bradley lashing out when hes just been triggered is not that surprising????#anyways.#carolcore #bradley rooster bradshaw

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radmista · 6 days

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Sowing seeds of discontent and disharmony by hanging up on my parents birthday phone call the second my mom asked if I gained weight. Hope that sits badly on their minds while they think about how that's the first call I've engaged with them in 2 months and it was for the dogs birthday. Dad scrambling to text me for my mom that she didn't mean it. Like fuck I told her I've been having a rough month and day. She couldn't keep it to herself that badly. Fucks sake

#was already not in a great place mentally but i entertained the call and was actually feeling okay talking to them giving them an update #she just hits me with that. and I'm not normally sensitive about my weight even when my mom harped on me for gaining some a few years back #i genuinely normally don't care bc I'm happy with myself. but i know ive lost weight because I've been on icu and we don't have time to eat #im so fucking mad and im even more mad I'm crying about it #bc what the fuck #i was actually feeling like momentarily safe talking to them and being vulnerable about working on my next life stages #and she just ruined the call. i wanted to talk to my mom and dad more. i do miss talking to them about some things.#i was happy to get to see my family all together even if it was for the dogs birthday. and people were smiling and shit #and ik theyre gonna say i ruined it by being sensitive but jfc #it was literally the 2nd thing my mom said to me on the call after we sang happy birthday #why couldn't she just shut up. why couldn't she have said anything else. why did i let it bother me so much i hung up #I'm just fucking tired and sad and now feeling even lonlier than ever #i just wanted a nice moment with my family god fucking damn is that too hard to ask for #and im even more angry and sad now that i cant call them back bc my mom will get on me about smth else we were previously talking about #that phone call was supposed to be a neutral zone just for the birthday song. and i was going to ride it out but fucking hell #why didnt i just put up with it so i could have talked to my family #and no calling them back isnt an option. they haven't apologized and it would be an un neutral call #which gives them space to harass me about work and shit

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opens-up-4-nobody · 29 days

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#sorry im thinking abt death again #because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died #that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from #time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed #i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she #died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way #my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today #for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days #and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt #future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her #last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that #and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving.#sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless #others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club #i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her #stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i #dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my #family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters #probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno.#i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity.#again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a #full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length #unrelated

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nerosdayinanime · 7 months

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ok i originally just wanted to think of something w obagiyuu but then it went to obamitsugiyuu but then sabiuzui happened and now its a full on everyone lives au with everyone hugging the last 3 ubuyashiki kids just after kiriya announces the demon slayer corps disbanded and im Crying

#kny manga spoilers #kny spoilers #<just bc its an original post #mitsuri got so emotional she had to hug him but she forgot she lost both her arms.#obanai cant see whats going on so giyuu pulls him over with his remaining arm and they act as her arms for her :)#everyone else joins in very soon after pulling in the other 2 with them #some kakushi sprinted to bring a camera to document the last moment of the demon slayer corps as something joyous #finally get to unveil my sabito lives au idea- in the final battle sabito & giyuu were fighting together and sabito saw an attack coming #before giyuu did so he shoved giyuu out of the way- muzan's attack still got most of giyuu's arm and the end of sabito's forearm #sabito was horrified for a moment bc. that was far to close to losing giyuu in a fuckin *instant*#something something even earlier genya & muichiro live because sanemi stopped koku from fully cutting genya in half & genya regenerated #enough to chomp through the sword going through his mouth. made him more monstrous like how koku was about to do and it had the same 'is #that what i become? what im becoming? and for what- power? life? this isnt worth it' and explodes himself #all 4 of them patch up and recover as much as they can before joining everyone else w muzan #sanemi telling genya that under NO CIRCUMSTANCE is he to eat part of muzan. kokushibo was already pushing it the demon king himself? FUCK n #anyways it all started at an inn on a joint mission with sabito & giyuu and obanai #giyuu & obanai were kinda just chilling while sabito was out and about doing who knows what #'im bored' 'what do you expect me to do about that?.' 'wanna check out the onsen with me?' 'wh.' 'do you think kaburamaru would like the #warmth?' '..i dont know' 'onsen?' 'fine.' que giyuu giving him a towelette to tie over his nose & tying his hair up with an extra he brough #obanai thinks hes weird but is very touched by the gestures nonetheless. they speak sparsely until sabito joins (giyuu left a note) &#starts up a bit more conversation. it gets quiet after a while and sabito looks over and notices giyuu's little smile as hes laying his hea #back on his folded towel on the edge. 'what are you so happy about?' obanai looks over and sees it too 'hanging out with my friends is nice #'plural?' both of them look @ him 'yeah- we're friends right? ..can we be friends?' obanai doesnt answer and focuses back on kaburamaru #swimming around his arms. he glances over at them chatting between themselves about some minor thing- (either theyll scorn me or... or)#he takes off the towel covering his face- neither of them mention it immediately even if he catches them giving a glance or two #'do your scars make it hard to move your face? i think mine cut through the muscle. cant smile as much on this side' he looks at #sabito tapping his scarred cheek. giyuu's back to trying to sleep in the water 'not.. much.. its only deep near my mouth' said quieter #towards the end as he focused back on kabu (his prime excuse to avoid eye contact) sabito nodded and kept chatting about whatever- giyuu #quietly enjoying listening to them. kabu got too hot for the water and curled up next to giyuu's head on the towel. obanai actually enjoyin #himself around other people (than sanemi) its nice :) +theyre still on a mission together for a few more days so its not a one-off thing

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wacky-nameless-inventor-24 · 29 days

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blind royalty Gandra you say?

thinking about it! I’m not sure yet- I’m gonna keep looking into it and also figuring if it’s something Im able to give like. space and meaning to in the story. Not sure if she was hatched blind or if she lost her sight sometime when she was a kid- I’m trying to figure if the assassin group would want to take her if she was blind, or if she ‘wasn’t worth it’ or something. That also might lend to her character’s desperate need to prove herself and live to a certain standard. Maybe especially if she started losing her sight once she was already inducted.

because I was thinking- I wanted to give her some sort of magical version of her eyebuds in the AU (which would also explain why her eyes are blue). But I didn’t want to give her any kind of superhuman abilities with them? because I wanted her to still fit within the physics of the world. anyway. Idk if this makes sense. So I figured instead of superhuman magic eyes, her eyebuds are just magic that gives her the ability to see. Also they make her eyes blue. Again! Idk if I’m going with it but it’s an idea I’ve been playing with.

#didn’t think anyone would see those tags who would send an ask dlflgkgkgm #thanks for the ask!#anon ask #gandra dee #madfen royalty au #ducktales #ducktales 2017 #dt17 #duckverse #Idk if this makes any sense but I’m also having a hard time with #Gandra is one of the more disliked characters. definitely #and she is very much a morally grey character in this au #and I don’t. want it to be that I make the character no one likes also disabled #especially because I’ve so much increased herons villainy in this too and she’s also disabled #but at the same time Mads NFenton and Della are also meant to be disabled so maybe I’ve balanced it out by #having disabled hero characters?#Idk. Does this make sense #I think if I were to make Gandra blind I should also make it so Mads has already lost his hand before he defects #but idk if that changes the story too much #but it would make sense! because he’s part of a cutthroat assassin group of course there’s a few more lasting injuries #anyway.

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yashley · 1 year

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“I’m really sorry.” “So am I.”

#critical role #imogen x fearne #imogearne #long post #ygifs #but they were literally insane for this are you kidding me #you have Laura Lauraing up a Laura with that imogen emotion work she's pulling and then you have Ashley Ashleying up an Ashley At Her WHAT #like I JUST WANT THEM TO TALK ABOUT IT I JUST WANT AN ACTUAL TALK SHOW TO TALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#WHATS GOING ON THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#YOU LITERALLY have Imogen People-Pleaser-Or-Death actually saying So Am I and Actually Acknowledging In EVEN That Small Way #And it's like fearne is Actually So Heartbroken she's Stunned And Yet All She Can Think To Do Is Look At Imogen and Say She’s So Sorry #FEARNE???? we literally did not see THAT magnitude of emotional vulnerability with fearne since she Met Her Lost Mom Ok #and she’s There At The Mercy Of Her Emotions. because of imogen. because of how much she Empathizes with Imogen #and Imogen Wonderful Wonderful Imogen Literally Cannot Look At Fearne More ThanA Second After What She Did*#girls y'all are just insane for this this was The Moment that made me Break Down And Uproot my Not Making Gifs Thing after EIGHT YEARS it's #I know this campaign is so fast paced and plot driven but like it's been nearly 10 episodes and they've not Talked About This Okay #also obsessed with the stilted way imogen thanks fcg for bringing fearne back like it is SOO detached I'm chewing it #she literally spoke as if she wasn't there when you could see imogen relating to fearne by touching her shoulder and saying brought Her back #they literally already Went Through Much with fearne's parents reveal and the way imogen Allowed herself to Be Present in That Situation #no but literally I Think About Fearne Combating How She Regrets Orym Being Brought Back like Thats the gravity of it #imogen says Thank You Fearne and fearne just stands there nearly wanting nothing more than for the reality imogen Meant It

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elfcollector · 2 years

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“Despite all this, it's good seeing you, Ash. I'll come by when you're better.”

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titsthedamnseason · 6 months

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my roommate cut my hair for me tonight and at first i was (secretly) sad because it is wayyyyy too short but then i realized. i literally just got the 1989 chop. like this was all meant to happen this way

#nooo bc like 😭 it is NOT her fault. it is entirely my fault #i have curly hair (maybe i should start straightening it just to fully live out the aesthetic lmao) and i made the rookie mistake of showing #her where i wanted it to fall when it was DRY #and on top of that obviously when it comes to hair cutting everyone is always doing too much #but my friend is soooo cautious and gets anxious about these things so i honestly thought she wouldn’t do enough #and would kind of ask me while doing it in increments #like last time when i had my roommate cut my hair i couldn’t even tell that she did ANYTHING #but anyway yeah she definitely went shorter than where i pointed which already was faulty in the first place because i forgot how much it #would curl up #i mean i’m actually happy because it’s been frustrating me how absolutely tangled it’s been getting so that’s a relief #but i’m mostly sad because it’s about to be halloween #and i wanted my dead ends GONE for halloween because i am being barbie. who has notoriously perfect hair!#and they definitely are but i also lost all my length #like i’m trying to tell myself it’ll grow back soon but the last time my hair was this short was maybe like two years ago #and i’ve missed my long hair so bad it was finally starting to come back #but now it’s gone again and i have to start all over ☹️ and my barbie hairstyle options are severely limited #i will probably do braided pigtails #mine

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godofsmallthings · 1 year

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i'm really having a folklore moment rn (partially because of the show and partially because it's getting warmer)

#passed down like folk songs / the love lasts so long #lyric of her entire career tbh #it's like...you spend an entire lifetime infusing your loves into your music...#and then you write an album purposefully doing what has already been done to the rest of your work because of the nature #of art and music and interpretation #and god. i always yell about how much i love the way evermore deals in endings and hope #but folklore is just so stagnant.#'i can see us lost in the memory'#and it's just the most devastatingly truthful account of what we were all experiencing during that time #'some things you just can't speak about' but she wrote a record SAYING THEM ALL in the way she knew how #god idk #'don't want no other shade of blue but you / no other sadness in the world would do'#ugh and the duality of the double ending...#the dull haunting ache of reality vs. the hollow pull of utopic escapism #they're both the same ending it just depends how much you let yourself indulge in the fable #folklore #vi is typing...

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luminarai · 7 months

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#my Mom keeps bringing up how our family dog doesn’t have a long way to go anymore #and like #where we’re gonna bury him and so in #and it just keeps wrecking me #like she wants me to be emotionally prepared but I’m not #I’ve already lost two very near family members over the past two years #and I love that stupid silly old dog #I just keep crying at random times because I can’t stop thinking and it hurts #why does grief never get any smaller #my life gets longer and my knowledge and experiences grow but the fucking grief stays static #it just appears in new forms. every time I think I’m ready to move on it takes a new form #I love that silly stupid old dog!!!! and I can’t handle losing him I can’t #I just need everyone I love to stay and not change and to stop the match of time #is that really too much to ask #sorry about this unhinged rambling I’m currently sobbing into a pillow #death mention tw #cecil blogs her life #pet death mention tw

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chloebourgeoisofficial · 9 months

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Aww, it's nothing. Everyone deserves some human decency and I know how difficult can be dealing with an abusive mother so yeah, good luck girl

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I was an idiot. Still am I guess. Thought I was working my way to being someone important, thought I could be like her, Loved. But all I ever did was ruin anything good I ever had. I was even a superhero, but I ruined that too. Zoe was smarter than me

#chloe posting 😘💎#((here's some certified chloe angst because I feel like my version definitely holds regrets #((but it also feels like she rhinks it's too late to change now. so she continues down her own self destructive path #((even after figuring out #((and being shaken by the fact that her mother doesn't actually love her. after spending so much time with her.#((but she continues because she's already figured out she burned all her bridges and lost anything she amounted to #((because of a false promise of finding meaning and finally having a real family.#chloe bourgeois #chloe bourgeois angst #((only reason she's being real with the anon is because she doesn't feel automatically hated.

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