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ssaalexblake · 10 months

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Even aside from how funny the snw/lwd crossover was, it spoke to me as somebody who has been irritated with the fandom (that i can avoid less and less these days because of algorithms).

Lower Decks has often been described as what would happen if star trek nerds got to actually be in starfleet. The quad of main characters are Massive starfleet nerds, and they also represent the fans who are more technical about it with their appreciation for ship models and engineering, but also the ones who’re fannish over the characters as well.

So Boimler and Mariner going back in time to see these characters and being freaked out and disappointed that most of them are not the people they learnt about in the history books was Soothing.

Pike and Una, the oldest of the bunch were more or less how Boimler and Mariner were expecting. They’ve already Done a lot of the things they’re famous for even if they’ve not done all of them.

But the younger ones whose stories we as the audience already know from other trek shows were not how they thought they would be. They are young, this is a prequel, the aim of a prequel is to explain how the story/characters ended up how they are when you meet them in the original media. Therefore, they’re not done cooking yet and are different right now.

The differences in Spock and Uhura whom were most focused on were noted in different ways, Boimler was freaked out about Spock’s newfound decision to try and explore his emotions simply because this part of his story never hit a history book. Mariner told uhura how she’s remembered by history and some of it fit and some of it didn’t simply because Uhura’s still really young and she’s not grown to be the person she will yet.

And Boimler was cut up about this at first, it took some time for him to come to terms with the fact that the stories he’d read about these people did not show him everything about them. Mariner had a different reaction, she saw Uhura is young and has so much to come that maybe she just needs a little help. But in the end they both saw the same thing.

And i’ve been perpetually irritated by both the ‘they’re trying so hard to be tos and failing’ and the ‘why are they so different to tos this is bad characterisation’ crowds bc both fail to miss the point that A) this show is not trying to be TOS, it’s trying to write a story that will eventually Lead to TOS which is an entirely different thing, and B) no it’s not TOS on Purpose and the stories are as they are because it would be bad writing of a TV show, and in general a poor understanding of human growth and evolution, to do carbon copies of the OG characters and put them in all these situations and not have them evolve at all during the whole show.

They’re not supposed to be like their future selves. They’re supposed to evolve Into them, which is an entirely different assignment and one they’re not failing at imo. If you judge the show for doing something it’s not trying to do, of course it’ll get a fail grade.

I like lower decks bc for how silly it is, it is also smart. I think this episode was a very concise addressing some of the unfair complaints aimed at SNW while Also connecting to the SNW characters’ plots and being a wild funny ride at the same time. SNW is a prequel, the thing about prequels is they have to balance being able to develop characters to write a good show with engaging stories in its own right, but Have to end at a fixed point. If audiences won’t acknowledge that they won’t see the people they’re familiar with acting the way they’re used to until the end of the prequel, then everybody is gonna go around in circles.

It’s a prequel and it’s acting like one, nobody has to Like prequels but it’s doing its job as one just fine.

#snw spoilers #snw #i shall now live in fear of the discourse fairy #i'm not saying like it i merely am begging people to realise it's a prequel and this stuff #its doing is what it's supposed to #like i have plots i'm not so hot on and ones i am hot on but i'm not griping about the formula of the type of show it is #i knew it was a prequel walking in #i personally prefer prequels to sequels bc no matter What a prequel does #that u hate. they cannot chance somebody's ending #so they can never fuck up Too much #there is a line #i find it comforting lol

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stackslip · 1 month

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Thoughts on wrestlemania night ☝️

overall notes: gd i wish this were at any other hour than in the middle of the night for me. the stage is a downgrade from last year. the crowds felt low but i guess it's because of the stadium acoustics, which sucks bc it needs a very loud crowd. the actual filming and production was honestly quite good, a lot of great purposefully chosen shots. lil wayne didn't serve much.

Rhea VS Becky: excellent opener. the fight felt vicious, personal. rhea imo is at her best when she's threatened and unhinged, and becky really took as much from her as possible. it was real good and i loved the entrances. wish it had been ten minutes longer tbh.

Tag team ladder match: I expected very little going in so i was incredibly surprised as how much fun it was. an absolute riot. the right winners too tbh, truth in particular deserved it! wonder where it's gonna lead the judgement day. but g-d please give the new day something good :(

3 on 3 lucha match: eh. i was interested in the story but the match itself wasn't..... exceptional, and the ending with the random football players from philly had me scratching my head.

Jey VS Jimmy: by far my most bitter disappointment of the night. the video package was ten times more exciting than the match itself. my biggest fear for an uso vs uso match was the idea that they'd just do superkicks and like three moves in total, and that's what it ended up being. the crowd was dying in real time. jey's expressions are top notch and jimmy.... jimmy was good but i wanted him to do something less predictable than begging for mercy only to betray jey (eh). like this needed something far more. not only was it short, but i was practically *relieved* that it was because i felt embarassed for them! the crowd was dying in real time and so was i. gd i was waiting for this so so much and it ended up being so poor it actually breaks my heart.

Sami VS Gunther: the buildup for this matchup was short and sami had been passed over many times recently so I'm not gonna lie--I went in believing sami was absolutely gonna get fucked over and that gunther would inevitably retain. never been more pleased to be wrong. the entrance was fucking incredible and set me up for the rest. gunther was legit fucking great, wild to see him lose his composure. the parallels to last year's elimination chamber match were fantastic. sami's every move made me BELIEVE. excellent ending. i was deeply emo by the end and it perked me right back up from the previous match.

3 on 3 women's match: short but sweet. wish it had more of a story behind it, wish bianca had a personality besides being strong. but hot damn if she isn't GOOD at what she does. athletic as fuck. asuka's makeup ruled. damage ctrl didn't shine much this match but it's bc its real purpose was very obviously to introduce jade. was worried about how jade would work--she apparently still needs a lot of in ring training. but they used her like they'd used early roman in the shield: she comes out not nearly as much as the other two but is used as a nuclear bomb. incredible finisher tbh.

the rock and roman VS cody and seth: ok let me start by saying that i have not followed the buildup as assiduously as i'd hoped, in part because i fucking hate the rock and his shtick. i do not find him charming or fun. he sucks. imo he brought down the level of a lot of the lines and storytelling til then. i also didn't expect him to do much in the ring. i was mostly waiting for tomorrow. imagine my shock when this match is not only good, but REALLY good. like, every single one played their role to perfection. it devolved into an absolute riot of a match. seth was imo the one who made it all cohere and he pulled a hell of a performance. the rock was a lot better than i expected. cody and roman, whenever it's just the two of them, fucking *shine* and i could watch them forever--the rhythm accelerates, they feel like proper archrivals with insane chemistry. roman did everything i hoped he would: he writhed, he whined, he snarled, he looked pathetic and sad and he fucked up multiple times, he was gay as hell with cody and seth. considering how physically intense this night was, i'm exciting tomorrow night to be less of a match and more of a fucking riot where half of wwe comes out to fight the bloodline and roman's kingdom crumbles as cody claims the crown. anyhow i think that after this roman should spend a few months whining with a haunted look in his eyes as he sinks to new pathetic rock bottom (meant in every sense of the term) lows. maybe cody could get him as a pet and promise to fix him, since all roman's really wanted was a group to belong to who'd protect him. maybe cody could fuck him. maybe roman could become a communal *GETS GAGGED AND DRAGGED OFF THE STAGE*

#eli talks #wrestling #anyhow. night one was fun #i wish it weren't so fucking late #bloodline wwe

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raytorosaurus · 1 year

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i get what you’re saying about the dunes crowds, but i wouldn’t say the size of the queues are solely due to frank’s involvement. thursday, coheed, and circa survive are all huge in their own rights, and i’ve seen a lot of coheed fans specifically at dunes shows. these kinds of crowds are pretty common for moderately sized pop rock bands, and while some people do get out of hand with it, i don’t think it makes sense to say people should be acting differently by comparing them to hardcore shows. a lot of people seem to be coming in with the wrong expectations and ending up disappointed, either by the crowd being too intense for them or not intense enough. i don’t really understand either side of all the beef that’s been going on, the shows are pretty fun if you just accept them for what they are

yah i get what you mean and i do think like having full discourse over it just isn't worth it bc it's not doing major harm and is more just irritating (so im gonna shut up after this KSDKFKF), but im not talking about the size of the shows, that's totally expected (also don't get me wrong i think it's a really great thing that people love this record and from there are getting into thursday/coheed/one of anthony's million projects!) again most of this 'discourse' defs comes down to the behaviour of a minority of people who feel entitled to frank's closeness or attention. the complaining about the shows being too rough was a reference to a specific twitter thread that @'ed the entire band, not directed at everyone - pit etiquette is a whole other conversation djdjfsjfj, but in fairness ls dunes isn't super heavy or anything. a little part of it is people with absolutely no ill intentions just not really reading the room or knowing what they're getting into. queues hours in advance happen at mcr shows in big venues, not thursday or circa survive or saosin. i'm sure the shows are a wonderful time for everyone, the videos on their insta story look fucking awesome! i just don't personally vibe with the mentality that you need to set a whole day aside to get there hours early to ensure your place as close to the front (lbr as close to frank) as possible in order to have a wonderful time sbdkhks. im not saying the shows are ruined or the tour is going badly or anything, mainly just voicing a personal irritation lol

#maybe im being too harsh but it feels like some people are there primarily bc it's their chance to get closer to frank than they would at #an mcr show lol and that's the part that makes me cringe the most #maybe im being unfair! and again i know that's not most people but yk

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goldenlilium-ocs · 1 year

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❤️‍🔥

Ramona (inset last name tired mind can't remember)

Cam Cunningham

Dani Price

Juliette Bishop (Mattheo or Cedric)

Ramona Montero:

I haven’t used Mona yet, but I know that she meets Steve shortly after S3 and they become romantically involved by S4. Both Steve and Ramona wear their hearts on their sleeves, it’s why they’re so perfect for each other. When I made Ramona, it was based on my idea that Steve deserves someone who is just as much a hopeless romantic as he is. At first, he thinks this girl who keeps renting The Princess Bride is insane, but once they start talking they both fall for each other pretty quickly.

Camilla Cunningham:

We all know Cam’s been drawn to Eddie pretty much since day one. I think the first fact moment she realises she’s in love though is when she’s alone in her room getting ready to go watch a Corroded Coffin gig and Chrissy, being the concerned sister, asks Cam if she’s only getting close to Eddie Munson to piss off their parents. Cam goes into a rant about all the ways Eddie’s been there for her and both sisters realise at the same time

Dani Price

Dani and Theo became friends after Dani very loudly rejected Theo in front of everyone. Of course everyone always thought they should be together, but it was always strictly platonic. They dated whoever and it was fine. Surely the jealousy in only because she’s losing time with her friend. It’s once Theo learns about Dani’s experiments and has to bring her back from the brink of the world between life and death that she realises maybe their jealousy has always been more than platonic

Juliette Bishop

With Cedric it depends bc I’ve also done storylines where they start fake dating or the original storyline where they become friends after Sirius’ break in.

It would be very sudden I think. Juliette is a lot more emotionally open than she thinks. Probably when she spots Cedric in the crowd at one of her Quidditch matches, or when they sneak into the kitchens and he makes her pancakes

With Mattheo, Juliette is a lot more reluctant to get attached to anyone else again. She doesn’t want to move on from Cedric or disappoint him. It actually takes thinking she’s seen his ghost for her to accept that she’s ready to open herself up to the possibility of finding love again

So when she realises she’s fallen for Mattheo, it’s quite a few months into their odd new friendship. Kingston’s only just starting to get used to it, even if he doesn’t approve. I think the moment she realises she’s in love with Mattheo is one I rp’ed with @vxntxque. Mattheo agreed to reach Juliette some spells he knew to help defend herself and they’d practice regularly on the Astronomy tower. He’d just taught her the patronus charm and that little blue butterfly was so drawn to him. Juliette had realised that Mattheo was never anything but gentle with her and she began seeing him in a new light

Send me ❤️‍🔥 + an OC and I'll tell you the moment their S/O fell in love with them!

#oc asks #juliette bishop #cam x eddie #julie x cedric #julie x mattheo #camilla cunningham #ramona montero #mona x steve #Dani price #nott x price

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anonofseasons · 10 months

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I feel more comfortable talking about this issue here than on main, bc it has a lot of talk about being a spanko and writing spanking stories. (I'm still working on being more comfortable with this and my journey of self-discovery, bc being a spanko is both a delight and heavily traumatic.) But this has to do with why it's important to write what you want to write.

I've said on here long ago (new followers so many might not know this) that I don't feel comfortable writing spanking in stories unless it's between adults or shown in an abusive way. Sometimes it's a background thing - like a character says, "Oh I got spanked for doing this" in passing - but otherwise I tend to mostly write adult spanking, and it's often consensual (but not always). Either way, I recognize that this is about my journey. My comfort. While that limits some of what I read, too, I can read some things that I don't feel comfortable writing myself. I don't mind reading spankings that I wouldn't approve of IRL, bc it's fiction! (Though I'll start running if I get the impression the author condones it IRL.) I know that what I write might be something upsetting to some spankos, bc they like the hurt/comfort aspects. I can't... write Vivian punishing his kids and cuddling them and it all being fine. Maybe that would be healing and appealing for others, but for me, it's like... nope. My experiences growing up were traumatic. I've had a fascination with spanking since I was four. And to this day, I enjoy being spanked (sexually and as therapy and domestic discipline). Fascination turned to funny feelings I didn't realize were arousal. But obviously, it was sexually gratifying, and having people do it to me against my consent as punishment was... well, again. Traumatic. Which led to a long journey of dealing with that. Trying to understand this common childhood fascination and all that while surviving in a world that constantly uses it as punishment. It's so crushing for me some days, and I avoid public places and get anxious if children are crying bc what if they're being abused and... Well. I don't do well in crowds. So I have to write the stories that work for me. And that's not everyone else's experiences. Some people really enjoy writing punishments with love and aftercare despite disapproving of it IRL. Fantasies of being loved afterward or wanting to explore something you haven't been through before... it's interesting, I do it with lots of topics. That's why taboo subjects are still important! I really enjoyed writing Rascal bc Hazel discovered his kink in childhood, and it was nice for him to have a consensual relationship in adulthood with his boyfriend that was loving and healthy! But for him to also feel disgust when his father criticizes him and says that he should have had a firmer hand when raising Hazel. Like... hello, Hazel got off on spanking, he'd like to not hear his father say, "I should have spanked you more." Especially when William's problems are all on him for being a shit person, not on Hazel.... Anyway, uh. Yeah. What I'm saying, ultimately, is that everyone's experiences and requirements for fiction differ. That's why it's important to write to please yourself. Some people will connect with that work. Others will not. It's also equally important as readers not to say, "I wish you'd write this ship" or "I wish you'd have written a hug after that spanking" or w/e - like, it's fine to be disappointed when you're reading, but it's also important to respect that the author isn't there to cater to anyone but themselves. So write what you fucking please. Some people like my kinky consensual adult stuff, others like my dark traumatic childhood fics with clear disapproval. Either way, these have made me happy to write. They help me navigate my trauma and make me happy to write. I also write stories over just writing spanking, so there is that. I love a plot. I have stories without spanking or with very little of it! I tried to write some spanking erotica, bc I do sometimes like writing smutty fics, and I just... found out that it wasn't for me. That's okay! Just do what makes you happy. :)

#this is a ramble so please excuse that XD #it's not an essay

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biweeklybisexual · 11 months

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I binge watched this season in like a day so I’ll have to rewatch bc I missed a lot of fucking things but it was a little underwhelming </3

some things were very good tho like Richie’s episode, the Christmas flashback etc but I wish they had done a better job at fleshing out Claire because her character felt sooooo flat. Her dialogues with Carmy were so boring, and I know the awkwardness was definitely a point but it kind of came at the expense of any chemistry. It could have genuinely been so good had they handled her relationship with Carmy better. There’s a big disconnect bc they both think they have a good understanding of each other given they both work in very demanding fields and they do it out of passion. But Claire enjoys her work and Carmy loves his but he doesn’t like it anymore. They think they’re on the same page but they’re not. It would have been useful to highlight that disconnect better for the end to be even more foreshadowed and therefore hit harder.

Like the end felt terrible but it could have felt even worse had we actually gotten something a little more engaging from them both and I mourn that okay. I like to feel bad.

They did an okay job of showing Carmy’s unhealthy relationship with his work BUT again I would have written it better (delusional). Like this man is going insane and it’s all throwaway jokes and all until like the last episode. He was due more than a few almost-breakdowns before that last ep. That would have also built more dramatic tension (not to mention add some realism) and made the end more striking.

Ebra’s arc made some sense but also, badly handled. Sydney was great tho like maybe the only things I don’t have too much of a gripe about are her arc and those of Tina, Richie and Marcus. All in all it wasn’t bad but it could have been so much more that I’m a bit disappointed… I feel like they bit more than they could chew, it’s a very crowded show and a lot of moments felt superfluous and that’s time that could have gone towards other things like Ebra’s struggle with change, Nat and Carmy, and Claire !! I understand all the yelling and chaos is thematically relevant but like some of it could have definitely been cut to make place for other more essential stuff, like the real meat of their struggles etc.

AGAIN I get they don’t have time to talk about stuff and that’s like the point of the show. BUT the first episodes had a lot of filler and the later ones suffered from it I think. Idk I’m not an authority or whatever.

#anyway I just wanted to air out some thoughts #still very enjoyable watch !#the bear

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solasan · 2 years

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👪🐺📚 for olenna?

OC EMOJIS

[ 👪 ] what is your muse’s relationship with their parents like? was it always this way?

oof. complicated. she remembers her father fondly, but theirs was an odd dynamic; with three sons, willem didn't really know how to talk to a daughter, let alone what to do with her, for all that he loved her dearly. they had little overlapping interests before he died, though she took up his bookishness out of grief once he'd been buried and has since begun to feel closer to him when she reads.

her relationship with her mother is... complex. she trusts danelle; she trusts that she has olenna's best interests in mind, that she loves her, that she protects her. but danelle's parenting became pretty isolating and controlling after willem, rymund, and theomar died, so things are definitely unhealthy and a little codependent between them. during the war they kind of only had each other to talk to, so they're extremely close, but definitely not in a way that should be envied.

danelle also holds olenna to a very high standard; she expects her daughter to be perfect in every way (spiritually, physically, emotionally) and her disappointment whenever this proves untrue is very difficult for olenna to handle. it's in a bid to seek out her mother's approval that she becomes queen in the first place, even though it isn't what she wants at all, and for all that she and aegon luckily end up being very well-matched, she'll always harbour a small, secret resentment for danelle for basically forcing her down a life path she wouldn't have chosen for herself.

[ 🐺 ] does your muse like solitude? do they prefer it to being around others? how easily does your muse get lonely?

she thinks she likes solitude dsshdsjk. really, she's just been alone for so long that it's what she's used to? the oakhearts spent most of the dance of the dragons holed up in old oak, being regarded suspiciously by their neighbours and mourning their loved ones. she spent a lot of hours alone. and honestly she doesn't like being around a lot of people after that kind of isolation, bc it scares her, but some limited company (coughaegoncough) is nice. she'd prefer to be alone than surrounded by people at a tourney, definitely, because she'll never like crowds, but she'd also prefer to sit and read with aegon than do it on her lonesome. she finds it difficult to make friends at court (bc she can't stand politicking and everyone who talks to her seems to want something from her) and she's lonely then, but once baela and rhaena extend a hand of friendship to her, she wants for nothing.

[ 📚 ] what books does your muse have on their bookshelf? what books would they like to have? if your muse isn’t an avid reader, is there anything they collect or might like to collect?

oh god so many. olenna's a huge bookworm; she's read the entire library at old oak many times and once she becomes queen, it doesn't take her long to start making her way through the one in the red keep. some of them are silly fairytales, but a lot of them are actually tomes on history and theology; she owns an extremely ornate copy of the seven pointed star that, for the first twenty years of her reign, she reads every night before bed. (it... probably gets thrown in her fireplace when she abandons the faith, but whatever.) she also has several compilations of reacher stories (like ones about garth greenhand, for example), which she reads from whenever she puts the children to bed. i imagine she'd be really interested in acquiring a history of john the oak, the founder of her house.

#thank u so much mo these were such good questions!!!#im having sm fun working olenna out tbh sdhdskj #ch: olenna oakheart #answered #kingsroad

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just-some-random-blogger · 1 year

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meow meow, angel!! 'isn’t that what happened to GoT?' i haven't seen it too but have an impression that the whole internet was furious with it's ending. i do remember how i was still a kid and a friend recommended this show (which has been just out) to my mom. for some reason she thought it was i good idea to watch it with me lol? so after about 10 or so minutes there was a sex scene and my mom was like '... no i don't like it let's turn it off' HFHDJD what? when? why? only wrong answers..... i'd love to watch it in the future though bc like... yeah 'its hard to sustain good plotlines' dk i just have this feeling like they wanted to show too much and, although it's obvious what they meant and the storyline is clear, in the end showed too little. more like incomplete. and i didn't mean like i'm a bitch for it? more like overcritical with no reason. 'i dont think its you being bitchy' but thank you) not like i'm worriedly bothered but i indeed could miss or misunderstand smth. i can be rather inattentive and i also was in a hurry. also!! it's reallyreally meaningless but i perfectly understood like 80% of their talking and tbh? i'm proud of myself. it's pretty nice for the first english series i've watched in the original. 'you mean the illigitimate thing' not really. but still yes TT i don't want to seem cruel or inhuman but i'm really concerned and conflicted about this thing. rhaenyra's children are cuties and harwin is pretty, i understand her choice but... it's a complicated topic for me. my bestie ignored me when i wanted to talk about it so i wanna scream TT but it's more about the desire to save the past and the historical greatness. bc the history of the whole europe (esp continental)... (sorry, i can't speak for asian countries bc here we mostly study european history and i don't want to say smth wrong) so 'literally the story of humanity' hurts. as in hotd, as in the reality, our nearly 1 (one) goal is to save what we have and try to make it better. not spoil TT esp hotd. the royal family? it's like your goal #2 to protect and continue the glory of your kin why are you so stupid guys... my strong sense of duty is disappointed. 'best example i have is hitler' yes absolutely agree. also it's obvious but about this photo. he didn't want to kill all people. yes he was a murderer. but he still had criterias for this shit. like daemon did.. ok i feel sorry about it. sorry. all people have their own truth. even if it's wrong. REALLY fucking wrong. 'i felt the helplessness of him' no but how excited he became after the crowd had started applauding?? 'you can always you know' not to be a bad person but these rare af times i want to watch smth i usually win wink. but i haven't found hotd TT THEY STILL HAVEN'T ANSWERED ME *angry emoji pls* i appreciate all these cat media sm TT thanks my love 'she keeps my braincells alive' TRUE!! i also unintentionally had a sympathy for corlys bc 1) he's with rhaenys and this couple!!! love them, 2) the actor was speaking so clearly TT 'come on she’s an ancient dragon' i had a feeling she had hearing problems sorry TT 'GIRL UR ALL MY ANONS AT THIS POINT' NO OMG HOW DO YOU KNOW!!?!??!! 'IM BAD AT MATH' hmmm 'im kinda good at math' HMMMM 30 is... a lot... good luck sis TT not to be overbearing but i was thinking abt modern au and just... no but daemon and reader calling each other 'wife' and 'husband' in high valyrian as pet names bc they ARE a wife and a husband but only in valyrian way TT daemon being eager to go out together "to show off my dear treasure" and reader looking at him like 'wtf?' "husband, you know there's going be a huge scandal if we do?" "i've done it with a thousands of chicks before why can't i do it with my wife??" "we're still not married" "then just marry??" i also imagine reader leaving some small hints for daemon on their past?? he does some shit and reader's like "oh last time you did it viserys was furious" thanks for reading this much!! good morning ig! love you!! take care<з

MEOW

you know what it is (also this ai augmented ? yes i think lol)

LOL i think its mostly about destroying daeneyrs as a character, like they suddenly just made her mad for no reason apparently lol. i also remember my parents watching it but then a sex scene would come up and then 😐😶 yeah theyd be ok 'aite enough of that' idk if i'd ever watch it but like yeah i hope you like it when you come around to watching it <3

'its hard to sustain good plotlines' dk i just have this feeling like they wanted to show too much and, although it's obvious what they meant and the storyline is clear, in the end showed too little. more like incomplete.

capitalism. i think they overstretched it/watered it down for idk what lol i cant really speak about it cos i didnt watch it lolol ??? isn't the author still not done with his book ???

and i didn't mean like i'm a bitch for it? more like overcritical with no reason. 'i dont think its you being bitchy' but thank you) not like i'm worriedly bothered but i indeed could miss or misunderstand smth. i can be rather inattentive and i also was in a hurry.

i see lol

also!! it's reallyreally meaningless but i perfectly understood like 80% of their talking and tbh? i'm proud of myself. it's pretty nice for the first english series i've watched in the original.

that's great !! similarly you know i tried watching doctor who with my mom but the audio was too soft and there was a scene were he was getting emotional and started whispering and i couldn't watch it on my mom's pc from my bed so i just didnt watch it

'you mean the illigitimate thing' not really. but still yes TT i don't want to seem cruel or inhuman but i'm really concerned and conflicted about this thing. rhaenyra's children are cuties and harwin is pretty, i understand her choice but... it's a complicated topic for me.

so true. which is why i totally get why alicent is pissed off about it/with rhaenyra cos she had to carry the king's babies and rhaenyra got away with her boy toy, but then this would divulge into a whole other thing and lahsfas imma zip about it lol

my bestie ignored me when i wanted to talk about it so i wanna scream TT

oof. [pats head] maybe your bestie wasnt in the mood for it hahah

but it's more about the desire to save the past and the historical greatness. bc the history of the whole europe (esp continental)... (sorry, i can't speak for asian countries bc here we mostly study european history and i don't want to say smth wrong) so 'literally the story of humanity' hurts.

its ok im not really a history buff. but yeah humanity sucks for that boo tomato tomato

as in hotd, as in the reality, our nearly 1 (one) goal is to save what we have and try to make it better. not spoil TT esp hotd. the royal family? it's like your goal #2 to protect and continue the glory of your kin why are you so stupid guys... my strong sense of duty is disappointed.

HAHHAHHAHAHHAH

'best example i have is hitler' yes absolutely agree. also it's obvious but about this photo. he didn't want to kill all people. yes he was a murderer. but he still had criterias for this shit. like daemon did..

HAHHAHAAHAHAHHAH daemon i think had less criteria more motive as in 'idc who you are but if you stand in my way i will kill you'

ok i feel sorry about it. sorry. all people have their own truth. even if it's wrong. REALLY fucking wrong.

real

'i felt the helplessness of him' no but how excited he became after the crowd had started applauding??

T_T are you faulting him for that ? for receiving adoration ? that he was always wanted ? HHAHH to be fair there is a power to cheers so id have felt the same way if people started cheering for me even if they had no reason to lol

'you can always you know' not to be a bad person but these rare af times i want to watch smth i usually win wink. but i haven't found hotd TT THEY STILL HAVEN'T ANSWERED ME *angry emoji pls*

😡😡😡👿👿👿🤬🤬🤬👹👹👹👺👺👺 here you go HAHAHA

i appreciate all these cat media sm TT thanks my love

'she keeps my braincells alive' TRUE!! i also unintentionally had a sympathy for corlys bc 1) he's with rhaenys and this couple!!! love them, 2) the actor was speaking so clearly TT

HAHAHHAH SLAY WE LOVE GOOD SPEAKERS and so true i love that couple so much. #powercouple

'come on she’s an ancient dragon' i had a feeling she had hearing problems sorry TT

SHE PROBABLY DOES T_T but also i feel like she dgaf cos she like 100000 HAHAH

'GIRL UR ALL MY ANONS AT THIS POINT' NO OMG HOW DO YOU KNOW!!?!??!!

👿 cos im smart no but youre clearly not all of them but im shocked you send me a lot of asks LOL

'IM BAD AT MATH' hmmm 'im kinda good at math'

HAHAHAH I KNEW YOUD SAY THAT HAHAHAH i meant im good at math (cos i am) but as a bad person at math ?? if that makes sense HAHAHH like im good at it if u teach me but also not ASL:FASFHAS HAHAHHAH

HMMMM 30 is... a lot... good luck sis TT

praying for myslef

not to be overbearing but i was thinking abt modern au and just... no but daemon and reader calling each other 'wife' and 'husband' in high valyrian as pet names bc they ARE a wife and a husband but only in valyrian way TT

NOT OVERBEARING AT ALL I KEEP GETTING IDEAD FOR MY MODERN AU T_T i might start writing p3 now lol

ALSO ALSO ALSO i have starrted writing the witch prompt you talked to me about i think i called it 'the copper woods' or something i got super excited about it so pls pls read it T_T

daemon being eager to go out together "to show off my dear treasure"

and reader looking at him like 'wtf?' "husband, you know there's going be a huge scandal if we do?" "i've done it with a thousands of chicks before why can't i do it with my wife??"

FIRST OF ALL A THOUSAND CHICKS T_T no but ur so right

"we're still not married" "then just marry??"

dude cant understand english "SCANDAL DAEMON S-C-A-N-D-A-L" [throws a slipper to his face]

i also imagine reader leaving some small hints for daemon on their past?? he does some shit and reader's like "oh last time you did it viserys was furious"

YOU LIKE ME FR IVE BEEN THINKING OF WAYS TO ADD THINGS LIKE THIS AND STUFF HAHHHAH I WANT TO MAKE IT ANGSTY SO BAD HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

thanks for reading this much!! good morning ig! love you!! take care<з

i love you <3 i went to school today and was so happy to read this when i got back. i mean i saw it before leaving and i was excited to be able to reply to it when i got back

xxx

#anon ask #my beloved anons #modern!daemon anon #ask #daemon x reader #modern!daemon nonnie

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meowmeowbeepy · 4 months

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Wow here are some updates no one asked for

I just caught up on previous blog posts. I am sorry the last two seemed more like tweets. Here are some historical happenings since last true post (mostly I've been doing book and podcast reviews lol?)

I went to NY w/ Benny which was fun. I was so incredibly pleased w/ myself that he actually LIKED it. Lots of touristy things that we all must do at least once in this life... Next time we go back we will be more slow paced. I liked the hotel A LOT. It's great to stay in 1 central place when traveling. I know I'll have made it in life if my future hotels on vacations are nice as balls and convenient and no compromise! He liked the MET the most. I felt bad bc I was not doing well that day (abrupt #3 iykyk and hungry and feet hurt). Something I like abt Ben: he never makes me feel bad when I actually am being a problem. I cannot say I am as gracious towards crankypants. I liked the ferry ride to the Statue of Liberty! Specifically the Statue of Liberty. The island was not crowded, and we were the first group there so it was an ideal situation and felt whimsical for an iconic landmark. I also really liked seeing friends Clur and Corn. It was so nice and energetic for the limited time I had. But the most soul filling ofc was bringing Benny to grandparents. I appreciate my auntie sm for being the best (albeit crazy) caretaker of grandparents (also crazy). Family becomes everything and continues to speed up up up up in importance as we age. Our social worlds will get smaller.. not worse! Just infrequent! But family is home. That's how I can describe the feeling anyways. My translation abilities were better than I thought... Also, I knew they were old but I never felt they were any older than other grandparents. But after this trip, I could SEE and I really felt that they are getting far older than average/normal. So I treasure and am thankful for that. I hope they will be here for much longer. So much time has gone by since I was a little college kid staying majorly w/ them "upstate" and venturing towards Manhattan. Now, I don't think I could do that haha. I am such a princess haha.

Before we went to NY me, daddy, and Benny went to a Rockets game. It was perfectly fun and something I know my daddy will treasure a lot. He likes that kinda stuff.

I thought December was going to be a huge flop/slow month for HAs but it ended up being ok. January tho... extreme flop lols. But I guess I have one more week to turn it around? Doubt I can realistically. I wonder if I am not as motivated as I was when I first started :( But idunno. I think about the ethics and morals of different HA levels way more than I used to? Or at least deeper than I used to so maybe that is affecting me? I also think I am more realistic than before- I used to give my 500% and was blind to a person who probably wouldn't follow through. Now, I can see it early on and it doesn't disappoint as much I guess. Probably not good. Also, the salary drama I've recently become privy to was a weird thing to experience in my career. I didn't get TMJ from it lol and feel pretty neutral overall. But hoping the best... for all.. and for me. If I could say 1 thing I am really bleh to: the tracking and KPI of my office. The higher ups are VERY nice... but what's going to happen when my numbers aren't as good for an entire year as maybe they were Sept-Oct. But I won't be too negative, realistically I know things will ebb and flow without any change in me.

Ok last one. We got a new doggy! Born 3/21/2020... Barney! He's so sweetums and so much more DOG than Toby was. Barney is just a wee bit mischievous but it is overpowered by his loyalty and desire to be close to humans. Toby was very mischievous and not super affectionate or needy, tho very loyal w/out shame lol. (Ex. does not want love from anyone but my mom.. esp Joann) Barney is pretty sweet to all. Joann has announced that he is HER dog, which makes sense. AND I don't mind. I just want a little doggy adjacent. She is basically holding him hostage in her room which I think is funny bc his personality probably will do well w/ that. Vs. Toby hated her for that. God blessed us w/ Barney though. He is so gentle and baby that he will be a good second dog to people who VERY HONESTLY have not fully moved on from Toby. And probably never will (not in a super bad way) but he was more than a dog lollll so dramatic.

K bye

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cottelini · 1 year

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This time we'll be focusing on Fern ;^3 ((they/them))

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Do any of your characters have grandparents who are named and living in canon?

no, but i haven't named a few of the grandparent ocs i have so maybe that's how i'll name them~! i haven't put much of any thought into Fern's grandparents tho, so that wouldn't be them.

Would your character prefer to have history know the truth or have many different versions of their life?

i don't think Fern would really care about most details, but the core messages, themes, and beliefs would have to be completely accurate or they'd be pissed lol

What if the furthest your character has ever walked in a given stretch of time?

ohhhhhhh prolly 5 miles?? they don't like to walk but when they want to get away they'll walk forever lmao it's the only way they can get out of the house (no cars or anything around)

Would your character prefer to visit a new city or stay at home?

stay at home for sure. as much as they would love to get out and away Fern also has no desire to go anywhere

Do you have any characters who despite trying their best ended up being horrible parents?

mmm sorta?? Fern's mom, Clover, by no means is a bad parent!!!!!!! she's trying her very best but,, she has a tendency to judge her kids before sympathizing with them.

Clover doesn't understand Fern's apathetic and "wandering" nature now that they're a teen. their relationship is very messy now, but she just chalks it up to teen angst instead of a more serious underlying issue.

Grian's parents, on the other hand, are horrible parents and while they had good enough intentions in the beginning it quickly spiraled into an abusive situation.

Do any of your characters have step-family?

no, but Sherrie is adopted! so, sorta close??

Do any of your characters consistently wear hats?

Fern :^3 Not all the time, but most the time~

Does your character prefer the ocean or the mountains?

mountains! Guardian of the Sky (my original story including Fern, Grian, Sky, ect..) is mostly set in a mountain valley~~~ bc that's literally the most beautiful environment to live in the whole wide world

What kinds of things does your character use as paperweights?

lol prolly dirt

If faced with certain death, would your character continue to speak out against injustice?

yeah, Fern is quite anti-rules (i mean, they ARE a teen)

Have any of your characters struggled with addiction?

there's only one oc i can think of and it's a spoiler

Have any of your characters adopted anyone?

Grian is fostering Sky but his goal is to adopt them <3 otherwise, as i stated before, Sherrie is adopted~!

How far would your character go to help those in need?

mm sorta far? but not really lol. depends on how "in danger" that person is. they'd have to be pretty threatened for Fern to do anything lmao

Do your characters know any old blind swordsmen per the trope?

uh no lol buttttttt Fern's little brother Twig is blind!! but seriously don't give Twig a sword dear god fjdkajfdksafjksfjdskak

Is your characters energetic?

absolutely not lmaoooooo Fern is pretty apathetic and laid-back. they have an unusual funny bone but i wouldn't consider them "energetic" by any means

How much of a disappointment/scandal to their family is your character?

mmmm they're definitely the problem child unfortunately :-( and that's saying a lot since Fern has 4 younger siblings which includes a toddler and Tiwg (i'm sorry there's no easy way to describe Twig-- just that if left alone something WILL blow up fjdkjfaklsk)

Would your character be willing to do something they consider morally wrong in order to achieve their goals?

prolly not no

Are any of your characters intimidatingly beautiful?

haha i like to think Sky is both intimidating AND beautiful. otherwise Sherrie is very pretty too <3 Fern is like mid fjdkafjkasfjdk

Has your character ever found themselves in with the wrong crowd and had to attempt to break from it?

no i wouldn't say so, Fern is very picky about their friendships

Does your character have any guarded/secret guild knowledge or family recipe?

maybe a secret gardening technique? but otherwise no; they might learn some family recipes if they cared to cook or hang out at home, but that's not their vibe

How good is your character at reading people and navigating social situations?

they're good if they WANT to be good. Fern only really cares in situations that are tense/negative-- like a bad confrontation

Would your character care for someone who needed it if it meant being ostracized from their society?

i'd say so yes. Lucie is quite the outcast-- being a half demon in a mostly fae area (also she can be quite prickly). regardless, Fern considers her such a close friend they might as well be twins <3

Has your character been to/ever explored any ruins?

oh i'm sure they have lol. sounds like a normal weekend with Lucie~

Are any of your characters associated with flowers?

Sherrie!!!! she's based on a sakura flower <333 i named her Sherrie bc Sakura -> Cherry -> Sherrie~!!! she even has sakura flowers in her hair~~~~

otherwise Fern is based off of (surprise surprise) a fern and a lot of other ocs in Guardian of the Sky have plant/flower themes bc, well, they're plant nymphs!!

Do any of your characters wear glasses, sunglasses, goggles, or monocles?

oh plenty!! Grian, Elliot............ that's all i can think of jfkdsjfkasjfksaljk

#character meme #fern

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cantalooprat · 2 years

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Fake Slackers

What I Liked

fake slackers? more like dumbass boyfriends (affectionate)

the ultimate clown4clown romcom

xie yu is literally "violence is not the answer; it is the question, and the answer is yes"

in a genre rife with stoic emotionless doglike male leads, sometimes all we need is a shameless clown like he zhao. he's honestly one of a kind; i've never seen another gong like him. he has no EQ, whatever little EQ he has is prob spent trying to pursue xie yu. he plays fashion games and is utterly shit at them. he runs the relay race and poses right before the finish line, clamoring for the crowd to cheer him as number one, and then not actually win bc someone else actually took the race seriously. he gets into a childish rivalry in a quiz game. he gave ppl his signatures so that they can sell it when he becomes famous n then?? he??? actually becomes famous???? lmao god i love he zhao

i actually rly like how he zhao's conflict was handled. his guilt was rly mostly one-sided---his friend, while disappointed with the system, never blamed him, and his other friend blamed him because he zhao never actually clarified. so when they actually sat down and talked about it and it was resolved, i was like... wow. that's a super down to earth way to resolve this conflict.

i?? also love the classmates??? like they initially thought xie yu n he zhao were good-for-nothing school tyrants, but they end up growing closer anw, and they soon saw past the rumors and became good friends n i was touched ngl

"Basically, this is a serious comedy. About the little matters of growing up." ---not overly complicated, not overly dramatic, just a simple story about two smart guys who pretend to be slackers. it's prob what moumou could've been had it not turned dogblood 80% in, n i actually quite like it?? a lot?? it's...rly Not That Deep, but neither is it trying to be. it's actually p refreshing, how things just seem to… tide over. some would say anticlimactically, but that's the way life is sometimes, isn't it? overthinking things, making it out to be worse than it actually is... but when all is said and done, it's actually not so bad after all.

the difference between A Shitty Student and The Shittiest Student:

A Shitty Student: /hands in half-assed hw

The Shittiest Student: "there's hw?"

the art is top tier, rly gotta make a special mention of it

What I Disliked

there r some rando aas plot threads that r just...kinda there n not resolved? or brought up again? like da mei, xie yu's friend who went abroad, who was nvr rly relevant in the end... and the thing about he zhao's estranged sister... and the rumors abt teacher tang and why he transferred... and i swear at some point i thought teacher tang and dean jiang were like ~a thing~ but then it was nvr rly clear????

kinda mid throughout ngl lmao it's both a pro n a con ig? it's not outstanding, but also not offensive and cringe, so it's... a good thing? i guess?

Notes

i was artbaited into reading fake slackers

fake slackers is the kind of wn that grew on me after i finished it... when i was reading, it felt a little eh at times, but all the memories of it post-reading are sweet as the lollipops he zhao eats.

#cantalooprat reads

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sirensunrise · 2 years

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Hello have you seen itzy solo stages? Any opinions on stage presence and overall performance there?

Hello! I hadn’t watched them until you sent this ask (I just got promoted and have had family visiting so I’ve been very busy lmao) Also I’m currently on the bus, heading to an event downtown so sorry if this is a little incomplete/lackluster, I might add more later. Also means i’m on mobile and can’t add a read more so im v sorry

SO! Overall… kinda disappointing. They’re all so charismatic on camera but stuff like this really goes to show that performing live is a whole different beast. They all just give off major rookie vibes throughout. (To be fair they have spent a chunk of their career during covid, but still…)

I appreciate that Lia performed without a vocal backing track (or it was rlly quiet i cant remember) I think the nerves were a lot and she was too concentrated on everything else to give a whole lot in the performance dept.

I was expecting a lot more dance from Yeji tbh, the choreo was lacking and her vocal track was too loud. Plus she relied too much on it, the choreo was simple, I would’ve liked her to sing more.

Ryujin had a lot of potential and parts showed through but fuck was she unnatural. She didn’t know what to do with herself. which like, fair, that shit is hard. I also didn’t like the coat.

Chaeryeong had probably my favorite stage? The outfit was nice. Same issue as yeji in terms of backing track

Im gonna be real with u, I hated Yena’s stage. The choreo was awkward, she rarely sang, and overall it was just a nothing of a stage.

Don’t get me wrong! all of them are good performers! this is their first live show (if I’m not wrong) they’re not used to performing solo nor performing in front of crowds like this one, they were all singing in English, and they’re used to relying on choreo to know what to do with their bodies. Also it’s easier for me to be harsh bc I know the songs theyre singing and can understand them. Stage presence for me is the ability to get the audience to believe what you’re saying, to act like you mean what you sing wholeheartedly. The ability to fill a stage. A great example is Billie Eilish. She has a huge fucking stage that’s, for the most part, empty except for her, but it never feels empty. She knows how captivate and fill a space with her performance.

#mailbox💌#anon #this seems rlly harsh but like #its bc i love them #i want to see them do better #I KNOW they can do better #onions

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markberries · 4 years

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d e s i r e┊draco malfoy

anon requested: hey!! unsure if u do requests for stories BUT i saw a tiktok and rlly want it to be a full story (or one shot). so: draco is late to class, and is there for volunteered for an experiment, he is told to stand infront of a mirror (he doenst know it but it’s the erised mirror) and he asks Y/N to move out of the way but ur not there, he only sees u bc he desires u, everyone laughs then there’s a party and u okay 7 min in heaven, and draco and Y/N get picked then SMUT

info: you and draco liked to bicker; turns out draco wanted a bit more from you. it took him a look into the mirror of erised to realize it.

warnings: smut, dirty talk, cursing, fingering, oral (giving)

genre: SMUT, hufflepuff!reader, fem reader

word count: 2400+

a/n: hihi, i hope this is something close to what you wanted. sorry for the wait!! the request confused me at first but i think i understood it. this is also unedited bc i’m lazy

“draco malfoy, late again?” the professor sighed, not looking at malfoy who was quietly taking his seat. instead, the professor just shook his head in disappointment.

“yeah yeah, won’t happen again,” draco snickered, playfully shoving goyle and crabbe. all three of them were quietly giggling in amusement, as if the entire school was a joke to them.

the professor raised an eyebrow at draco, crossing his arms. unimpressed, he stared draco down. “you have been saying that for the past three classes you were late to as well, mr. malfoy.”

you held back your laughter as draco got scolded, only because you knew that draco was an arse so watching him get in trouble up close was definitely a treat for you.

draco was quick to turn to you, who was sitting at the table to his right. “got something to say, mudblood?” he snapped at you, and you glared at him.

“got some daddy issues to fix, malfoy?” you shot back, venom lacing your voice.

“alright you two,” the professor said, walking to the middle of the room, eyes switching from malfoy to you. “that’s quite enough for today. since mr. malfoy had the audacity to come in late once again, he will be our beloved volunteer for our experiment today.”

draco raises his hand, “i will not be agreeing to that, professor. it’s just not fair.”

“and it’s not fair that you’re wasting my time, so i advise you to come up here now, because you don’t have a choice,” the professor gestured for malfoy to come to him, you hear a grumble from draco, followed by his chair being pushed back.

draco walked up to a large object covered by a black drape in the middle of the room, standing right in front of it. draco made sure to give you a nasty look before getting to the front.

the professor moved out of the way to remove the drape, but not before saying, “okay, mr. malfoy. i want you to describe to me what you see when i remove this cloth.”

“easy enough,” draco smirks, crossing his arms over his chest, arrogance oozing off of him. when the professor withdraws the drape, draco looks closesly. it’s a mirror with a golden lining, decorated with intricate designs and beautiful patterns. it’s much larger than draco, and light rays bounce off it throughout the room.

“if you don’t move out of the way y/l/n,” draco sneers, making you squint your eyes in confusion, “i swear i’ll-”

“that’s enough mr. malfoy, you can sit down now.”

draco turned around, only to see you sitting down in your chair, who was just as confused as him. while he walked back to his seat, the professor eyed him, then started pacing slowly around the room while talking.

“now,” he began, “this here, is the mirror of erised.” you hear small giggles coming from the class room, followed by malfoy’s face turning a slight tint of pink.

“shove off!” malfoy yells, muttering to himself in annoyance. you of course, shared the same amount of embarrassment. you knew exactly what the mirror of erised was, and so did most people in this room. it made you visualize what you truly desired, so the fact that draco malfoy had seen you in the reflection, was quite a surprise.

“every student will have a chance to take a look, so don’t worry too much. please form a single file line, and we will begin.”

—

“you’re kidding,” cedric snickers, covering his mouth with his hand. cedric was an awful good friend of yours, being the first person to offer you a seat when you had gotten sorted into hufflepuff. quite ironic, really. you never imagined yourself to be put into such a happy little house.

“honestly? i wish i was. draco can be such a little prick,” you remarked, sipping at your butterbeer. students gathered in the three broom sticks, the familiar scent of sweat emanating from the hufflepuff and slytherin quidditch team. the slytherin house had just received a bitter defeat, causing them to throw glares at the opposing team.

“so what are you gonna do about it then? talk to him?” cedric questioned you, and you shrugged shoulders. you were at a loss for what to do about malfoy. you were unsure if he was even worth talking to, after all the constant negative comments that he just loved to yell at you.

“do i wanna talk to him?” you asked, crossing your legs while you sat in your chair. cedric raised a brow, “am i supposed to answer that question?”

“no,” you sighed, crossing your arms over your chest. being friends with cedric had it’s pros and it’s cons, but he gave a good amount of advice and he was always reliable. you hear a call for cedric’s name coming from the crowd of boys and girls, his eyes shoot to the group.

“what is it?” he says back, standing up from his chair.

“come on then, we’re playing 7 minutes in heaven!”

such a childish game, you thought to yourself. it surprised you that people were still interested in playing. cedric looked to you, then back at the group, “i won’t go if you won’t go.”

“what a flirt,” you say with a hint of a sarcastic tone. you playfully kick his leg, making him yelp, “i’m just trying to be nice!”

“well i’m surely not going,” you responded, taking a sip from your drink again. cedric’s grey eyes bored into your own, he smelt of chocolate mixed with his clean shampoo.

“don’t be such a wussy, mudblood,” you hear a familiar voice snarl. you snap your head to see draco, standing in the middle of the crowd, laughing with his group of friends. you felt a surge of anger, and cedric took note of it. he quickly grabbed your hand, pulling you up from your chair.

“y/n and i will be participating!” cedric announces , dragging you to the group of people gathered around a table.

“cedric! what in god’s name are you doing?” you exclaim, desperately trying to escape from his strong grip. “ow ow ow, could you at least be a little gentler?”

“this is your chance, if you get paired up with someone, you’ll see malfoy’s reaction,” he whispers closely into your ear. when the two of you stop in front of the group, you swear you can practically hear how badly the other girls wanted cedric to be their partner.

“what if i don’t want to see his reaction?” you complained back, and cedric patted your head. “then too bad.”

“alright everyone, the rules are simple; a person is selected to spin the bottle. whoever the bottle lands on, those two will go into the backrooms together. would anyone like to go first?”

“y/n does,” cedric yells, slightly pushing you forward. you scowl at him, in return he sends you a shit-eating grin. you wanted nothing more than to wipe that stupid smile off his face, but you stayed civil for the sake of the others gathered around you.

“alright y/n, go on,” blaise says, placing the bottle on the table. you gave cedric the “i’m going to kill you when this is over” look as you sighed, placing your hand on the bottle. you span it, watching as the boys began to shift awkwardly.

you nearly gag when the bottle lands on the one person you did not want to share a small, closed room with. people coo, laughing and making immature comments. draco malfoy shoves his friend, threatening him.

“i’m not entering a closet with that mudblood,” he scoffs, pointing at you disrespectfully. you stop yourself from punching malfoy, instead you say, “look who’s scared now.”

“what did you just say?” draco hissed, taking a step closer to you. “why would i be scared.”

you dust off his robe in a mocking way, smiling at him. “you tell me, malfoy.”

whispers filled the room, as if everyone was waiting for draco to explode. he took a deep breath, grabbing your arm aggressively. people eyed the both of you as he brought you to the backrooms, knowing hell would break loose with you two alone.

seven minutes, alone with draco. what could go wrong?

when you two stepped into the small space, you went to the farthest point of the room. it was littered with cleaning supplies and smelt a little bit like bleach. draco stared at you, and you looked back. “what do you want?”

“you think i wanted to do this?” draco spat at you, leaning back on the wall.

“and how do you think i feel?” you said back, throwing a scrunched up paper towel at him. “as if i wanted to be in a room with you. you’re annoying, stuck up, and a spoiled brat.”

“wow, who would think that a bitch would get sorted into hufflepuff,” he says sarcastically.

“got a lot to say for someone who saw me in the mirror of erised,” you retort, fanning your face. it was getting quite warm in this tight space.

“it was probably a mistake, who would desire you anyway,” he retaliates getting closer to you. you take a step closer to him as well, your faces nearly touching.

“you’d be surprised,” you argue. you two were so close that you could make out the details of his face. you could see something flash in his eyes, it didn’t look like anger, but you chose to believe that it was.

“do you ever stop talking? just shut up already. i’ve had enough of hearing your voice.”

you scoff, looking down at your feet, then looking back up into draco’s eyes. in all honesty, you didn’t know what to expect after saying this. you felt your hands shaking a little bit, ignoring the adrenaline pumping through you

“make me.”

in that moment, you swear you heard your own heart beating. did you want this? did draco understand what you were hinting at? your questions were soon answered when draco pushes you up against the wall, taking your hands and pinning them above your head.

“i’ll make you, alright,” he smirks, placing kisses along your jawline. he presses his knee between your legs. he kisses your neck, sucking on the skin. you let out a breathy whine, trying to bring your arms down to wrap around draco’s neck, but he keeps your hands in place.

“you want this, don’t you?” he whispers, leaving more marks on your neck.

“mhm, yes draco,” you say back, feeling yourself growing wetter.

“good girl.”

he smashes his own lips against yours, his actions filled with need and passion. he slightly bites on your bottom lip, looking into your eyes. he breaks the kiss, letting go off your hands. he undoes his belt, pulling his pants down slightly, but not all the way.

“we haven’t got much time,” he says, dragging his thumb along your cheek. he touches your bottom lip, and you open your mouth in response, sucking on his thumb.

“fuck,” he groans, watching you with lust filled eyes. “you’re so hot.” he removes his thumb from your mouth, and you lower yourself to his boxers, tugging down the fabric. his member springs free, and he lets out a hiss from the sudden contact of air.

you smirk, licking a stripe. draco moans, grabbing onto the shelf above him. you begin to take him in, swirling your tongue around him. his size was about average, but on the thicker side. he grunts as you hollow your cheeks.

“oh fuck, just like that,” he groans. the tip of his dick touches the back of your throat, making you gag. he moans, but louder this time as he grabs your hair. your eyes start forming tears, but you hold them back.

you hollow out your cheeks, slowly moving back and forth.

“god, y/n, you’re so pretty even when you’re sucking my dick,” he says, lost in the moment as you continue to move faster, using your hands on whatever didn’t fit in your mouth. you feel your lips getting swollen as you continue to move faster.

“look at you,” he groans, his face full of pleasure as he looks down at you. “such a fucking good girl.”

you feel his member twitch in your mouth, and you knew he was close to finishing. you took this as a chance to move faster, bobbing your head as fast as you could.

he groans, panting your name as he used your hair to guide how to move.

“i’m gonna come,” he says breathily, “fuck!”

he comes in your mouth, but you don’t mind. it’s not the worst that could happen, after all. you stand up, wiping your mouth as draco is leaning against the wall. he doesn’t rest for long though, as he grabs your waist, pulling you close to him.

“your turn,” he whispers, pushing your skirt up and slipping a hand into your exposed panties. he feels around your wetness, collecting it and bringing it out.

“mm, did i do this?” he asks, and you whimper a “yes”.

he slips his hand back in, finding your bundle of nerves and rubbing them slowly. you gasp, gripping at his jacket and biting on his shoulder. he chuckles, dragging a finger down to insert into you. he pushes in slowly, and you bite down harder, not wanting to make too much noise.

“no no, i don’t want you to be quiet, i want to see your face,” draco says, using his free hand to grab your chin and make you look at him. “that’s right, let me see how you feel.”

he pushes in and out of your heat at a steady pace, the room smelt of sex and his cologne. you were a moaning mess as draco continued his motions, bringing in another finger.

“does that feel good?” draco asks, and you nod in response. “i want your words, baby.”

“y-yes draco, please don’t stop,” you say quietly, screwing your eyes shut.

“oh baby, i wasn’t planning on it,” he replies, entering a third finger and thrusting faster. at this point, you’re pretty much a moaning mess. the feeling of his long slender fingers was so much to handle, you felt yourself building up to your climax.

“that’s right baby, fuck, you’re clenching around my fingers,” he smirks, knowing that you were going to come. “i want you to say my name. tell people who’s making you feel this good.”

“it’s you, draco, oh my god!” you yelp, the fabric of his robe was bunching up in your hands. suddenly, your orgasm washes over you, your stomach moving in twists and turns. you felt so relieved, draco removed his hand, his fingers covered in your juices. all that could be heard was the sound of you and draco’s heavy breathing.

a knock comes from outside the room, “guys? it’s been over seven minutes.”

#draco #draco malfoy #draco smut #draco malfoy smut #harry potter #cedric diggory #smut #draco imagine #draco malfoy imagine

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yaomomvs · 3 years

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Hi there <3

Idk if you take requests or somethin but like- I rlly love ur writing and I can't find a fic with this kind of plot.

So like- haikyuu characters falling inlove with their fangirl (´･ᴗ･`)

But not that crazy fricken fangirl who stalks them, probs like those who give them gifts on their birthday and supports them only on the sidelines. And probs tries their obvious interests when they feel like it and it suddenly became her hobby.

Oh! And I request it with Miya Twins, Oikawa, Sakusa, Suna, Kita, Akaashi if you could. ( ๑>ᴗ<๑ ) [It's ok if you can't, I kinda requested to much characters]

I feel so pushy with this request so It's fine if you ignore this!, if you did do it though, thank you very much!♡

[P.S- Can I Call u Matcha-chan? It reminds me of ur gorgeous theme]

ofc you can call me that it’s so cute! sorry if this took long but i was so busy with my college prep, that why i didn’t write all of the characters in sorry! for a plus, listen to “number one fan” by MUNA hope you like it anon <3

# falling for a… fangirl?

what if they fall for a fangirl?

→ osamu miya, oikawa tooru, kita shinsuke

osamu miya

honestly you really try to be careful on this one

the thing is you know how many fangirls this guy and his twin have, so it’s not that you are hopeless but

you also know hoy annoyed at least his twin is, so you figure out osamu is kind of the same just more respectful

you liked osamu bc of how mysterious he looked yet so open specially when it comes to volleyball

you happened to be in the same class as him so, you let yourself have the luxury of admiring him while he was taking notes or just staring at the board, he has better things to do than notice he has another fangirl so it really didn’t worry you a lot

but osamu notices

yes, at first he didn’t realize, but one day he just suddenly starts feeling strange, he suddenly paid more attention to his surroundings and that’s when he notices a cute figure close to him

he sees you among the crowd at his games, how blushy your face gets whenever he lands a spiker, how you tell other girls to keep quiet or control themselves but also how you cheer whenever he shines in the court

and honestly? he loves it, he observes you when you are distracted and it feels so good having someone who respected his space but at the same time has a spot for him and only him and enhances those feelings

like an idiot, he tells suna and atsumu about you and knowing osamu is too much of a coward sometimes they make sure to do anything in their power

“hey little y/n, uh- may i call you that?” your heart stops when you hear atsumu’s voice as he places his arms around your shoulder thinking he finally notice how you look at his brother and would tell you to back off, at his side was suna who just nods at you

“i guess” your face was red from embarrassment, the blonde twin noticed and the just spat “what would you think about a little reward, from your dear friends aka the volleyball team? as a thank you for yer support” “w-what?”

so imagine osamu’s reaction when that day walked in the gym for practice and found you playing with your hands sitting next to the coaches on the bench

his face just fires up and he looks away finding a very pleased atsumu.

he gave his 200% just because he did not want to disappoint you, when he notices he is doing this he just smiles and waits for the practice to end

when it does he doesn’t even stop to drink water he goes straight up to you and with puppy eyes he asks “so how did i do today?” his eyes are so hopeful he really just wants you to keep admiring him the way he started doing it with you 🥺

you blush SO hard understanding the situation and then say “the best on the court as always” now he is red and he unconsciously grabs your hand and squeezes it

ofc he then took you to dinner <33

oikawa tooru

oh lord

okay you didn’t expect to actually become a fangirl of the great king, in fact you were hesitant about what made this boy special

you regret it when you actually watch him play and pour all of his emotion in the game, it just naturally captivated you

but in this case you indeed were so hopeless lol

you gave up even before beginning bc come on this guy has half of the school at his feet there was no way he would look your way, besides you knew how much he put volleyball above anything else so yeah

you were so frustrated to be his fan, it was almost as if you hated to admire him you were just not used to the feeling

but you thought there would be no harm on putting a note on his desk ‘confessing’ your admiration, it was ridiculous but here you were looking around everywhere so no one would see you doing it

oikawa waits a while before entering, because yes, he saw you, he found out it was best to give some space to the girls who secretly left gifts or candy at his desk, i mean, they were doing it anonymously for a reason so he really just sees your back as you leave

but when he reads the ‘i like the passion you play with, oikawa tooru’ his heart just- pow!

this guy has never felt so good with a fan note, all of them were about his pretty face and attitude but finding out there was someone out there who watched him play was heart stopping

he immediately tells iwa as mattsun and makki in order for them to just catch you, they do, but oikawa always wanted to admire from afar first

as weeks pass by he now knows you name, class and the way you are always the first to arrive at his games, but never approached him, who your friends were, but how they had no idea of what were you writing to him. you weren’t necessarily avoiding him, in fact he almost exchanged words with you a couple of times

you were gorgeous to him, it’s the first time he feels his cheeks burn whenever you pass by

it is not until he wins against karasuno that the first thing he does after beating his nemesis, is hurry in between the crowd and he just calls “Y/N!!!!!”

you froze like wtf, your brain malfunctions thinking it was the oikawa who was calling you and before you could run away, he runs over to you and almost tripped ending up a bit too close to your face

“huh?” you manage to mumble way to panicked, he wraps both of your hands and it’s way more embarrassing now

“nice to meet you, y/l/n y/n, the one who prefers beige notes with tons of bears on the margin, my name is oikawa tooru, and today’s victory is dedicated to you and only you”

he just radiates pure happiness that your heart stops racing and stops, seeing him so genuine was something else

“you really are something oikawa tooru” you smile and he swears the world stopped.

longs story short, he really won a number one fan

kita shinsuke

please give this guy some classes on how to catch hints

you admired kita for being one of the most honest, hardworking and kind people you’ve ever known

hearing he was in the vball team gave you the opportunity to approach him a bit more with the excuse that in fact you were a fan

his first reaction was so ??? normal ??? although he seemed surprised the twins weren’t the only ones to have fans he just felt like nothing big happened

“thank you, but we have to start practice now, i’m not kicking you out but we need to start as soon as possible”

aran and pretty’s much all of the team was so shocked and he was about to say like ‘that’s not how you talk to a fan!’ but they were even more shocked when you giggled and waved goodbye so friendly.

ever since whenever you had the chance you gave little gifts and notes to kita, and he unconsciously grew fond of them, even if he was stoic you knew it, it made you happy he started to form a friendship with you, and were cool with the fact he was so blunt sometimes.

he likes it when you are around, how you always greet him in the mornings and how loud you are at the teams games! he doesn’t have the exact term to define you but he felt comfortable

but one jealous asshole had the audacity to say out loud that you were just interested so he would date you

so as he doesn’t have much experience he just asks to talk to you one day “please stop giving me gifts and affection, i liked them but they are just a lot now, i don’t know if it’s correct and honestly it’s better”

your heart ached sm because he sounded different almost made you think he didn’t want to have any relation to you, as if he was embarrassing and although you could not be sure, the cold tone he used was making you overthink

“o-okay, i’m sorry if it was bothering, i- you were such an inspiration, thank you for that” and you just tun not wanting him to see you cry

god the days after kita felt like a part of himself was missing, you avoided him at all cost and immediately knew he was wrong for letting that guy play with his head. you never looked his way with those divine eyes that made them feel at ease, or he no longer hearst your heartwarming laugh near him.

the team notices how he is basically yearning for you, and as the helping friends they are, they want to help his captain. so they find your locker and hide your umbrella on a raining day (lol)

kita spots you waiting at the entrance for the rain to stop, and the light breeze helps him smell your scent, he takes a place next to you

noticing he was there you began walking but he suddenly takes your arm and pushes you towards him.

“you are going to get sick, and i can’t have that” he talks holding you against his chest.

“i thought-“ you began quite shocked

“yeah, i thought that too, but i guess i am allowed to make mistakes right, darling?”

your eyes widen as your face feels warm, and it is when you look him in the eyes you know hee is confessing. and you just giggle”

aran, suna, atsumu and osamu high five right behind you

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ncssian · 3 years

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A Favor: Part Twenty-Three

Nessian Modern AU

Masterlist

a/n: so yeah this isn’t my best work bc i havent been feeling great lately but i hope you guys can stay patient with me until i get my shit together. we’re almost to the end🤞

***

Sitting crammed between Elain and Feyre on the gray couch in Lana’s office, Nesta has to cross her legs prettily and pretend she doesn’t want to peel out of her skin right there. She doesn’t know what she was thinking when she invited her sisters to one of her therapy sessions, but she’s assuming it would be considered rude to kick them out now.

“Who wants to speak first?” Lana’s bob swings as she looks at each of them. The office is ice cold today, and Feyre and Elain’s presence doesn’t help the chill in the air.

Nesta crosses her arms before she can be asked to speak. “No, thank you,” she says. She knows everyone probably expects better from her, but no way in hell is she going to be the first to open up in front of this crowd. “Feyre,” she turns to her youngest sister instead, “why don’t you say something?”

“Actually, why don’t you set the example, Nesta?” Lana gives her a look, making her cheeks redden with irritation.

“Fine,” Nesta grumbles. She clears her throat. “As you can see, I have made moves to reconnect with my sisters. I invited them here because I hoped that therapy would bring us closer and also make them more… tolerable.”

Elain coughs, “Bitch.”

Nesta smiles tightly. “Elain could especially use this, I think.”

Lana is already frowning. She never frowns this early into a session. “We’ll start with an easy question, then. What’s been on your mind lately, Nesta?”

Nesta purses her lips, pretending to think. “Nothing important. I’m looking at jobs for the summer. I think Azriel keeps sneaking money into my purse, and it’s starting to become more than a little condescending. I caught up with some friends from school, and I was polite enough to pay for lunch.” She mentions off to the side to Elain, “Lucien was there, too.”

“Why would I care?” Elain sneers. She spies Lana’s disapproving look and lowers her head demurely. “Sorry,” she murmurs.

“That’s alright,” Lana says. “Why don’t you go next?”

“Me?” Elain’s head snaps up, and Nesta holds in her snicker.

“Start by describing your relationship with Nesta. I heard you two used to be very close.” Lana uncaps her pen, preparing to write.

Elain flushes lightly and folds her hands. “That was when we were children. The only thing keeping us together was that we shared a home. When we stopped living in the same place, some of us had no problem leaving others in the dust.”

“You can use my name,” Nesta rolls her eyes, “I’m right here.”

From the corner of her vision, Feyre cringes.

“Are you saying you feel abandoned by Nesta?” Lana continues probing.

Elain’s answering silence tells more than enough. Therapy must actually be paying off, though, because Nesta only thinks about interrupting and defending herself for a second before shaking it off. Her mind focuses on the word abandonment instead.

Lana is focusing on the same thing, because she leans closer and says, “Being abandoned bothers you?”

“I never said that,” Elain says indignantly.

“It would bother most people.”

Nesta watches Elain sigh and blink her big doe eyes at Lana. She’s always been able to use those eyes on anybody for anything. “I just don’t understand why I’m the villain for expecting a little loyalty,” Elain says sweetly. “Especially when you take a look at this face.” She cups her round cheeks. “You know psychology. How could you abandon this face?”

Nesta’s jaw hangs open. “Are we still talking about me?” She remembers Cassian telling her the story behind Azriel ghosting Elain, and a pang of guilt and pity hits her. She still hasn’t talked with Elain about why Azriel left Velaris, and she knows she won’t be able to decide whether to spare Az or not until she does.

“So that’s my turn,” Elain finishes up. “Feyre can go next.”

Lana is writing something sharply on her notepad, but she nods coolly. “Feyre, how would you describe your relationship with your sisters?”

“Oh, we don’t have time for all of that,” Feyre laughs awkwardly and waves a hand.

Nesta agrees, but the look Lana gives Feyre tells her that yes, they do have time.

Gulping, Feyre glances around. “Well, I was born last, so I guess that made me the outsider of the family. I never had much in common with my sisters, but now that we’re older I… hoped that we would grow past that.”

Translation: she hoped that once she found her happy ending in Rhysand’s arms, poor little Nesta and Elain would happily assimilate into her new community of wealthy friends, putting the cherry on top of her perfect life. And while Elain did that exact thing, it’s always bothered Feyre that Nesta won’t do the same.

Feyre continues, “I admit I’m not the best at understanding Nesta. Elain and I get along fine now, but Nesta…” Feyre meets her eyes. “It’s like nothing we do is enough for her, but for some reason I can’t stop trying.”

“Whose fault is that?” Nesta mutters.

“You want her approval,” Lana hums, taking notes.

“Is that what it is?” Feyre looks away.

Nesta refrains from saying yes, that’s exactly what it is, and it’s not my problem if you keep looking for something I can’t give.

“What are your feelings about that, Nesta?” Lana turns her focus to her. “Remember that this is a safe space.”

It really isn’t, not with two siblings holding long term grudges against Nesta. But once and for all, she’s going to set the record straight. “I spent most of my life being a bad sister.” Nesta’s voice is apathetic, straightforward. “I let Feyre take the burden of providing for us even though I was the oldest, and I didn’t know how to be anything other than cruel to my family. So once I had the means to do so, I cut everyone off for all of our sakes. I still don’t regret it, because being a stranger is better than being a bad sister.”

In that way, Nesta is a bit like her mother. Nesta was angry after her death, but she knows she would have been even angrier if Magdalene Archeron had lived and continued to be a disappointing parent. In that way, both of them are wise for leaving their families when they did.

“Or you could just be a good sister,” Elain interrupts with a drawl.

Nesta smirks bitterly at her. “I’d rather die.”

Feyre takes in a breath. “Why? Why are you like that with us?” She blinks furiously, and Nesta can see the simmer of her emotions. “It was okay when we thought you hated everybody, but you don’t. You only hate me and Elain.”

Nesta looks to Lana for help, but her therapist is sitting this one out. She sighs through her nose. “I don’t hate you,” she says, even though they might never understand. The next line comes with great difficulty. “I’ve loved you since before I even knew what love was. But I don’t like you very much, Feyre, and you don’t like me, either. Please stop trying to change that.”

When she finally meets Feyre’s eyes, though, they’re glimmering with tears. “How can I stop trying to change that?” Feyre whispers. “How can I give up on us like that?”

For Nesta to give Feyre and Elain the relationship they want from her would require nothing but lies on her part. And as much as she wishes she was capable of lying about this, she can’t do it.

Looking away and down at her hands, Nesta mutters, “It’s not fun for me either, but it’s how I am. I can’t be easy or friendly with you. I hate watching you try to make me be easy or friendly.”

Nobody says anything to that, but when Nesta looks up again Lana gives her a remote nod that Feyre and Elain don’t catch. Thank you for your vulnerability, it says.

“You said something interesting, Nesta,” Lana breaks the silence. “Did you see your sisters as your responsibility to raise?”

Nesta shrugs. “I was the oldest,” she repeats.

“Your father was the oldest.”

“He wouldn’t do shit even if you held a gun to his head, so I was up next.” Though Nesta hadn’t done shit either. Neither had Elain, but the rules have always been different for her. Elain redeems herself to others by handing out sunny smiles and pretending to have the intelligence of a fawn.

Lana stares at Nesta until Nesta’s skin starts to heat. “What?” she says defensively.

Ignoring the other two women in the room, Lana leans forward. “You told me once early into our relationship that part of the reason you left Tennessee was to get away from your sisters. You said you were heartbroken when they ended up following you here.”

Nesta doesn’t breathe or look to see her sisters’ reactions.

“Now I’m going to ask: did you really want to get away from your sisters, or did you want to escape the feeling of failing them?”

Nesta doesn’t know how to answer, because to her they might as well be the same thing. Having Feyre and Elain around is like having a weight tied to her chest. The lingering guilt every time Feyre is in a room, her existence screaming I’m the reason you’re still alive. Elain’s constant expectations of unconditional support and loyalty, whether it’s reciprocated or not. It’s all so heavy. And it all goes back to the fact that the three of them were once just helpless children.

If she couldn’t take care of her sisters, how is she supposed to take care of any child, ever?

Nesta releases a weary sigh. “You’re going to bring this up the next time we have the baby talk, aren’t you?”

Lana’s eyes sparkle. “Don’t get ahead of yourself just yet.” But Nesta can see from where she sits that her therapist’s notepad is covered in bullet points.

***

“I need to use the bathroom.” Feyre is hopping back and forth on her feet once the session is over. “You guys head down to the parking lot without me.” She exits in a rush, leaving the two sisters alone. Nesta hisses in frustration, nearly chasing after Feyre so she won’t have to face the inevitable awkward conversation with Elain.

By the end of the session, it was Elain that broke and pleaded with Nesta, “Don’t do everything we want, then. Just keep doing better, the way you’ve already been doing. I’ll be happy with just that.”

Nesta was surprised that Elain had even noticed her efforts, but she retorted, “And how do you plan to do better?”

To which Elain twirled her hair and murmured something halfheartedly about, “I might be more open to taking criticism or whatever.”

Though it was the absolute bare minimum, it was still a relief for Nesta to hear Elain admit that she has flaws worth criticizing.

Now, Nesta clutches the straps of her purse and turns for the stairwell leading to the parking lot. Elain follows without comment.

Inside the stairwell, Nesta asks, “Have you spoken to Azriel since he left Velaris?”

Elain looks surprised at the sudden question, and doesn’t remember to be guarded when she answers, “No. Why?”

Nesta shrugs, her heels thumping loudly on the linoleum stairs. “Because I know what happened between you two. I know why he left.”

Elain halts midstep, grabbing Nesta’s arm and turning to face her with wide eyes. “What do you mean, you know? He told you?”

“He told Cassian, and Cassian told me.” Nesta hardly cares that she’s being a poor friend to Azriel by spilling all this to Elain, and continues, “If I had known he was such a coward, I would have kicked him out of our place a long time ago… but I figured I would get your input on it first.”

She’s never seen Elain look so genuinely pleading before. “Get my input on what?” Elain breathes. “What did he say about me? Was it something I did?”

At that torn face that borders on heartbroken, Nesta decides that she’ll do more than kick Azriel out of the cabin. She’ll kick him off the whole mountain.

She shoves Elain’s back to get Elain detached from her and moving down the stairs again, and as they walk, Nesta spills everything she knows. She tells Elain about Rhysand’s talent of shoving his nose into places it doesn’t belong, and how one conversation with him managed to convince Azriel to ditch Elain for good. She tells her about how instead of having a straightforward conversation with Elain, Azriel chose to leave the city and hide out in the mountains like a pussy. She might sound blunt, but Elain needs blunt. She needs to know the unfiltered truth of things.

By the time they reach the floor where their cars are parked, Elain is silent. “Did he really say that?” she finally asks quietly. “He said he wants me to hate him?”

“That’s what I heard.” After a moment, Nesta feels the need to add, “You should hate him, though. He fucked up bad.”

When Elain continues strolling for their cars without replying, concern bites at Nesta. “You are mad at him, right? And mad at Rhysand? You’re not going to forgive them, right?”

“I’m not a total pushover,” Elain snaps. She stares at the cement ground as they walk. “I’m just… more disappointed than anything else. He gave up so easily.” She chuckles without humor. “It sounds like he was looking for an excuse to get away from me.”

Nesta frowns. “I don’t think he would’ve spent so long moping around our house if he wanted to leave you.” Though they can never truly know what Azriel was thinking or feeling until he grows a pair and talks to Elain. Still, she shudders at having to defend him.

“I take it he doesn’t mope anymore?” Elain says.

Nesta doesn’t know how to answer that truthfully. She knows there’s more to Azriel than he lets her and Cassian see, and she knows he’s gotten better at keeping his feelings to himself. So she says, “It looks like he’s doing better, but I really don’t know.” They reach Elain’s car.

“Were you in love with him?” Nesta suddenly asks. Or worse, is she still in love with him?

Elain digs around for her keys in her purse. “You know how I am. Of course I was.”

“Not anymore, though?”

Elain looks up, keys now in hand. “It’s hard to still feel love for someone I haven’t talked to in two months.”

Then it wasn’t real love. Nesta is relieved, even though it doesn’t change the fact that Elain is hurting either way.

Elain jabs her keys at Nesta and says sharply, “Don’t you dare punish him for what he did. That’s for me to decide on.”

Nesta’s brow creases in refusal. “I’ll do what I need to do, and you do you.” She’ll have to be careful with her plotting, though, considering Azriel is Cassian’s brother.

“No.” Elain surprises Nesta with the force in her tone. “He’s your roommate and your friend. Keep treating him like it.”

Elain makes it sound easier than it is, and Nesta wants to argue until she sees Feyre heading down the parking lot toward them. “Fine,” she grumbles halfheartedly.

Elain gives her one final long look, not of threat but something else. “Thank you—for inviting us today.” That’s all she says before getting in the driver’s seat of her little red car. At the same time, Feyre catches up to them.

“Where are you parked?” Feyre pants as she approaches Nesta. She sounds a bit out of breath, like she ran to get here before Nesta could drive off alone.

Nesta points down the lot to where her scrappy old car is waiting for her, and Feyre straightens up with a grim smile. “I’ll walk you.”

Nesta knows that arguing isn’t worth it, so she allows Feyre to trail her the rest of the way to her car. Once they reach the old thing, Nesta gives a curt goodbye and heads straight for the driver’s door. Before she can touch the handle, Feyre attacks her from behind with a hug.

“Get off me, freak!” Nesta tries to jostle her way out of Feyre’s arms. She tries being nice to her sisters one time and this is what she gets—

Feyre only squeezes her tighter. “You don’t have to hug back. Just let me love you my way.”

Nesta squirms for another second before stilling. Swallowing tightly, she stares at the reflection of herself and Feyre in the car door window. One of her hands goes to where Feyre’s hands are clasped around her stomach, and she stands there without moving. She can’t remember the last time she shared affection with a family member like this, but it must have been before their mother died.

The warmth at Nesta’s back doesn’t leave, like Feyre is trying to pour all her understanding into the hug. Silently saying, I’m finally starting to get it.

In a way, Nesta is starting to get it, too. After all, how do sisters with such a complicated history begin to forgive each other?

Not by apologizing, but by doing better in the future.

***

On her way home, Nesta remembers at the last minute to stop by Gwyn’s apartment to pick up one of her sweaters. She doesn’t know when Gwyn started raiding her closet like it was a free mall, but she has a school event next week and doesn’t plan on letting her nicest clothes rot at Gwyn’s forever.

Nesta enters using the key beneath the doormat, knowing Gwyn is at work and won’t mind her stopping by. She scans the living and dining areas for a glimpse of brown cashmere, but only finds scattered books and a disorganized mess. Her fingers twitch with the urge to stop and tidy up the place, but she continues hunting for the sweater. Gwyn promised it would be waiting in plain sight for her.

Realizing the scatter-brained girl probably forgot to put the sweater out for her, Nesta pauses in the hallway leading to Gwyn’s bedroom and bites her lip. She doesn’t know if bedrooms are off limits or not, considering how often Gwyn and Emerie have barged into hers, but she knows she doesn’t want to make a second trip here just for a sweater.

Without giving it further thought, she strides into Gwyn’s room—

And yelps to find Gwyn on the bed.

Except she isn’t alone, and there’s definitely another body under the dark green blanket with her, and whoever it is definitely has their head between her legs.

Nesta spins away at the same time she hears Gwyn’s cry of surprise. She braces one hand against the doorjamb and presses the other to her freezing cold face, not having any words for what she just saw.

“Nesta?” Gwyn calls from behind her. “What the hell are you doing here?”

“Um, have you seen my sweater? It’s the expensive one.” She’ll just grab it and leave. Or maybe she’ll just leave—yes, that sounds like a good idea.

“Nesta?” a new, deeper voice repeats.

Gwyn hisses, and Nesta freezes because she recognizes that voice. She wants to be wrong so badly, but she has to whirl back around to confirm for herself.

“Azriel?”

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a/n: i decided to cut this chapter short and add an extra one to flesh out my silly little gwynriel subplot. so if there’s anything specific or random you wanna see happen in the next chapter tell me bc i might have space for prompts!!

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