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Time dilation with sibling scara. What’s his reaction to reader sleeping for weeks on end and not sleeping for months?
SAGAU SCARAMOUCHE AND TIME DILATION (SLEEPING + HINT OF DAILY LIFE EDITION)
❀ synopsis: Scaramouche pesters you for the 20th time that you need to take a break. Maybe he's right, you have been overworking yourself for quite a while. Maybe a nap is what you need. Btw this is platonic and Scaramouche is a wanderer in this hcs.
❀ pronouns: they/them
He's confused, you're like a rubix cube to him. No matter how many times he twists and turns you there would still be cubes that don't match the color. And to add to that, rubix cubes don't even exist in Teyvat. It's been what? Two months since he noticed that you haven't slept for even a bit, and how sometimes you would doze off when doing basic tasks. There are also times when you would forget to breathe, despite being human. And times when you don't blink for half a day and just stare at whatever you were reading.
Did he forget to mention you don't eat at all? Your body should've been malnourished for not eating any protein or consuming any calcium. But no, you're in perfect condition. Well, you are God. But your body is human the last time he checked.
He would confront you about this like an Asian mom worrying for their child but the parent doesn't know how to show their concern. He threatened that if you don't sleep he will sedate you just so you can close your eyes for once. Not wanting to continue arguing with Scaramouche you agreed and slept at your shared camp.
It wasn't suspicious at first, he thought you were just oversleeping since you haven't slept for a long time. But when he came back from collecting ingredients for lunch and you were still sleeping he was starting to worry. When lunch was made he shook you to wake up, it turns harsher the longer you didn't even move your arm to push him away.
But as the day goes by he starts to worry when the sun is about to set. Why haven't you woken up yet? Is this some sick joke your playing on him? Nahida is the one reassuring him that you will be alright and that it's nothing life-threatening since it seems like your body is in perfect condition. He hopes she's right, you're the first person who stayed with him for this long. He doesn't know what he's going to do with himself if you leave him.
He spends most of his time at the side of your bed, waiting for you to move or open your eyes. Nahida checks you twice a week to see if anything changed in your state, and he would listen to her report to ease himself from his panic and assure himself that your still here with him.
He has definitely cried at one point after weeks of you sleeping. He wanted you to rest, but not like this! What were you thinking?! Is this supposed to spite him? Did you want him to say sorry for yelling at you? Tell him what he did wrong so he can compensate for it, just please wake up...
The moment you do wake up you will be greeted with a very stressed and emotionally constipated Scaramouche. But the moment he does see you awake he is stuck between hugging you and slapping you in the face because how dare you to leave him for so long?
He probably did both, but he slapped you first before hugging you.
He was also holding back tears-
Do him a favor and don't point out how he's this close to crying.
"Y-you idiot! You're so selfish! Why did you worry me like that? I thought you died. If you do that again I'll kill you myself! S-so please don't die before that..."
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I guess that the Cybertronian artifact not only expanded their human lives but also their storage brain capacity. What do I mean? Not to be mean or say that your Cyber-continuity doesn't have sense. Like, NO, IS AWSOME AND I CAN'T WAIT TO READ MORE. I'm just a dumb person who likes to search for things that catch my attention and made me want to ramble... sorry.
But if you wanna take this into consideration when the thing with the relic happens and you want to explain something, I'll leave you with this. No need to listen actually.
The complexity of longevity with humans lies in the inability of organists to withstand the burdens of operating for more than a couple hundred two hundred years, basically, joints would eventually begin to break down under their own weight and stress, that's why we turn into dust when we die, but of course, lest remember that this is a Cyberpunk dystopia so fortunately, robotic organs will be the next fashion heat!!
But is it possible to replace all the various parts of a body?
Unfortunately no, there are limits, and those limits lay in our brains!! A human being is capable of storing around 100 terabytes of memory, or, what are the same, 100,000 gigabytes of memory, experiences, knowledge, etc. All of them are embedded in our heads thanks to the aforementioned neurons. It may seem like a huge number but eventually, likely in 300 years, a human brain would be full of memories, information, and all kind of stuff, making a person unable to put two words together, feel disoriented, as if you had a "brain fog." Having trouble finding things that could be in front of you. Feeling very confused, taking longer to process new information, or having trouble understanding things. Difficulty making decisions or analyzing things... etc. Let us also not forget about diseases that deteriorate the brain, neurodegenerative diseases, that make this process painfully faster.
Is an incredible concept for horror. But like I said, this is just me doing research on a topic that I just got focused on because I need to stress myself.
hi
I am glad you asked this, cause I did not realize this about the human brain!
Old lore is in italics and is not 100% anymore
For the body
How they stay the same age looks wise is because their bodies are essentially put into a stasis-like state. So their joints don't wear down, their organs don't fail, and and things like cancer don't really grow. The only things that do seem to change is their blood cells and keratin in their body, so their hair and nails still grow. This is all based around Cybertronian anatomy.
The artifact was created by Cybertronians, who when creating it used Cybertronian anatomy as a basis. Now, human and Cybertronian anatomy are different, but hold many similarities. The relic had targeted the organs and parts of the human body that were shared in similarity with Cybertronians.
Things such as brains, circulatory system, eyes, muscles, bones, skin, and digestive system are all examples of similarities between the two species. The relic effected these organs, making them similar to how Cybertronian organs are. This means that the blood will still regenerate, they still have to eat, and they will still mentally age. However, things that are not comparable to Cybertronian anatomy were effected differently.
The relic had no clue how to handle things like hair, nails, lungs, reproductive systems, and other organs such as spleens and kidneys. There was no translation of these organs to Cybertronian organs, so the relic just didn't do much with them. Inner organs were put into stasis, still functioning but they were only effected due to being in proximity to other comparable organs. Hair and nails just weren't really messed with by the relic.
However that can have some big drawbacks. Their skin does not grow back to form scabs and scars, which can lead to wounds continuing to bleed. Their blood is able to clot cause in blood there are red blood cells and white blood cells. The white blood cells have something known as a platelet, which creates the blood clots. Since their bodies are no longer able to regenerate their skin, skin grafting surgery is required for large wounds.
Obviously, with several of the characters, this is not an option they are able to take. Miko for example got an acid poured on her face during a recon mission, and skin grafting would not have fixed this. That is why she has a metal plating around her head. Jack's chest also has metal plating after getting an injury across his chest. Most of the small scars you see on our human characters either came before the beam blasted them, or were the result of donor skin grafting. Kade's burn scar for instance is one of the injuries that is received before the beam hits the group.
Now for the brain issue
In Cyberpunk Edgerunners, which is one of my many inspirations, we are introduced to these ports in the skin.
These ports as seen in EP 2 "Like a Boy", David and Lucy are seen stealing a technology known as Datashards from Corpo people. These Datashards can contain anything from money, information, photos, videos, schematics, etc.
It's basically a glorified SD card.
We are also introduced to Deep Dive Tech. This kind of technology is connected to the occipital lobe to allow for high amounts of data transfer between minds or mind and technology. This is highly dangerous and requires trained professionals to operate.
So what does this mean for my continuity?
Both of these heavily inspired what I plan to do for the brain situation.
These brain ports are connected to the occipital lobe just the Deep Dive Tech. Memories are able to be copied, downloaded, transferred, and even deleted. This allows for the operator, Raf majority of the time, to be able to extract the memories not needed for everyday life from the rest of Team Prime and the Rescue Team. Miko even asked for him to delete the memory she had of getting half of her face melted off, which is perfectly understandable in that situation.
The memories that are extracted are able to be returned to the person as well. Kade for instance had his memories of Hailey copied and extracted, put onto a hard drive specifically for those exact memories. Hailey was not one of the people hit by the beam, leading to Kade losing her by her dying of old age. He had his memories of her extracted so that he wasn't constantly reminded that she was gone, but he could also redownload those memories when he needed to.
So that's my idea for fixing the memory capacity issue! Yes it's very sci fi bullshit, but that's the fun part of cyberpunk universes.
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Daughter of Olympus (Leo Valdez xFem!Oc)
A/N: Tough day for bad bitches -Danny
Words: 2,097
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XLII: Local Dumbass Knew What She Was Getting Into and Did It Anyways
The last time she dreams of Percy, Ara just opens her eyes and he's there, sitting cross-legged on his bed. He doesn't speak at first, just studies her with curiosity.
She knows it's him and not a made-up Percy, someone has allowed them to see each other earlier than expected.
"You look like her..." he tilts his head. "But are you really..?"
Ara sits up on her bed, but she moves carefully, afraid to wake up if she makes the wrong move. "Percy, where are you?"
The boy looks around the room ignoring her question. "This is your place?"
"Our place," she knows Percy got his memories stolen just like Jason, so she starts with the basics. "When your mother adopted me, I asked if I could share a room with you just the first few months, cause I'd never slept alone," she tears up a bit. "Now I sleep alone all the time, here and in camp."
Percy smiles. "You are Ara, my sister, right?"
Percy calls her sister all the time, she was used to it already, but it's been months since they last spoke, months since they saw each other, and yet she is still a sister to him.
"I think someone wants us to talk," Ara continues, trying to keep it together. "Dunno what they want us to say."
"You sound kinda different from what I remember," Percy's eyes brighten. "You've been eating your veggies, Birdy?"
Ara abandons her bed in an instant and Percy hugs her as soon as she reaches him. The contact feels so real it makes her sob. She gasps. "I should kick your ass! You've had us worried!"
"I'm not having a blast out there either, you know?" He scoffs, squeezing her smaller frame tighter against him. "But I'm happy to see you, even if you look different."
She holds his face and looks at it hungrily: he also looks different, his features are sharper and he appears to be stronger now, judging by how she struggles to get out of his grip. "Tyson was close to finding you and then he lost track—"
"It's a long story," Percy cuts in. "But I promise you're close to finding me."
"Don't—"
"I promise," he insists, squeezing her shoulder. "Trust me."
"I always do," Ara pouts. "Don't die, Nemo. Or I'll force Hades to spit you out, just so I can kill you myself."
He laughs. "You got it, General."
I speak to Kronos's army using my charmspeak. "As the last child of Olympus, I carry the duty of defending it."
I lift the javelin and pray to any god that's listening to help me out, cause I really need to make an impression, and before anyone has enough time to doubt the reasoning of what I've said, I throw my spear at a Hyperborean.
I watch him fall, then seize my compass and turn it into Almighty. I raise the sword over my head and scream. "FOR OLYMPUS!"
The monsters are pretty frantic, so Pollux has no problem keeping the hallucination going. I charge towards their army and when Chiron concludes Lily and I have no intention to slow down, he decides to distract Kronos.
My plan also works on most of the demigods from the enemy army. I can't blame them, Achilles never spared a soul, so running away is the smartest choice here.
Pollux's power isn't strong enough to fool the monsters for long though, so they probably see just a blur, and they can't decide whether to run or stay.
I jump off of Blackjack when we get close enough to the monsters. He rises from the ground with Pollux holding onto him and I land on top of Ethan Nakamura. As soon as I touch him, he screams in realization. "It's a trap!"
An arrow flies over my head, Lily has stopped a dracaena from ripping my head off. I get up and kick Ethan's stomach for good measure. I use my charmspeak again. "Give up!"
If I hadn't been blessed by my mother in advance, my reach wouldn't have gone as far as it does. The monsters closer to me drop their swords, and some get on their knees begging for mercy. Arrows come down flying all around me, evaporating the monsters on the spot.
I run forward and a monster tackles me, but then a miracle happens:
Nico Di Angelo's arrival is enough to split the crowd. He's wearing black armor that, to be honest, makes him look really cool. He lifts his sword and kills the monster that has me pinned on the ground.
I thought I'd failed to convince Hades, and even though I hadn't said anything to Lily, I'd assumed he was determined to let us die. I guess I was wrong. "Sorry for the delay," Nico helps me up. "But I know it's never a good idea to steal the spotlight from an Aphrodite."
It's the first time in days that I manage to smile. "Thank you."
"Son of Hades," Kronos sneers at Nico. "Do you love death so much you wish to experience it?"
"Your death," the boy replies, lifting his sword again. "Would be great for me."
"I'm immortal, you fool! I have escaped Tartarus. You have no business here, and no chance to live."
Nico and I share a look and he picks Almighty from the ground, handing it back to me. "You're gonna kill him, or what?" He asks me casually.
Kronos notices me at last. Luke's eyes haven't looked in my direction in so long, that it hits me like a ton of bricks. It's weird 'cause he doesn't look any different, just... worn out.
But I, on the other hand, am a whole other version of myself.
"You," he seethes. "This is the last time you disrespect me."
"Yeah," I adopt a fighting stance. "It is."
The ground quivers under our feet and skeletons spurt out of every crack, seizing monsters without warning.
"Drop your weapons and retreat!" I yell, Nico, Lily and I move together. "You're done!"
"HOLD YOUR GROUND!" Kronos screams. "The dead are no match for us!"
"The dead are not the ones you should be worried about, old man," Lily says, aiming two arrows in his direction.
Hades shows up riding his spooky chariot. "Hello, Father. You're looking... young."
"Hades," Kronos glares at him. "I hope you and the ladies have come to pledge your allegiance."
"I'm afraid not," The god looks at Lily, Nico, and me. "My son and his friends convinced me that perhaps I should prioritize my list of enemies." His eyes Percy. "As much as I dislike certain upstart demigods, not all of them are deserving of oblivion. It would not do for Olympus to fall. I would miss bickering with my siblings. And if there is one thing we agree on—it is that you were a TERRIBLE father."
Kronos shortens the magical barrier and leaves most of us out, only a small group remains in it, and my brother is one of them.
"NO!" I run towards it and Hades does too, but we're both pushed away.
"Are you serious right now?"
"Lily, he knew about Camp Jupiter before any of this happened and he never mentioned it!"
"If Chiron couldn't, what makes you think Nico could?" Lily leaves her dagger on Ara's nightstand and gets up. "His new sister is Roman, right? Perhaps he was afraid to lose his family again if he talked."
"So you're saying I shouldn't tell Annabeth about it?"
"Gods, no! She's having meltdowns left and right! She'll murder Nico! My sister's already way too pressed about the delays, don't freak her out more."
Ara scoffs, obsessively folding and unfolding the clothes she's planning to take on the quest. "I'll murder Nico when I see him—no wonder he never stayed here, he knew Jason would recognize him, that asshole..."
"Hey..." Lily stops her. "You can't be mad at him for wanting to protect his sister..."
"And where is his loyalty to us?" Ara demands grumpily. "He owes us."
Her friend stops her from folding more jeans and shorts. "Are, whenever he visits you're always fighting. You promised Hades he'd be welcomed with open arms—"
"He's the one who continues to act like we're out to get him! If he were nicer—"
"Ara!" Lily stomps her foot in frustration. "You always do this! You push Nico and me into the crowd, telling us it's easy because you have no problem doing it, but it's not fair!"
"You wanna talk fair?" Ara argues. "Nico saw us dying with worry every day for the last six months and said nothing!"
"What could he tell you that Jason hadn't? And being fair, Ara, after you met Leo you left camp like it wasn't important to supervise us anymore, like you'd gotten what you wanted from us so the rest didn't matter."
"I'm sorry?" The girl glares at Lily. "I care about this camp more than you seem to know, Lily. Unlike Nico, who only cares about his reputation!"
"How can you say that after what he did for us during the war?"
"He tried to kill my brother and felt guilty when it didn't work!"
"It wasn't his plan and you know that!"
"I don't wanna go over this again," Ara rolls her eyes and turns away from Lily. "I've got other things to worry about..."
"Like your prophecy?"
Ara freezes. Annabeth must've told Lily about it, so there is no point in asking how she found out. She wonders how long Lily sat with this information, letting it boil until she could spit it out.
"I was going to tell you," Ara says quietly.
"I doubt it."
"I was going to tell you once I knew what it meant," she clarifies.
Lily starts to leave the room. "You're unbelievable, and I'm done."
"Don't do that!" Ara follows her out. "Why do you have to turn every conversation into a test? Every time I choose wrong, you treat me like I'm still small dumb Ara!"
"Because you keep hiding stuff only to tell us about them at the last second so we have no chance to stop you! You've always been like this, and that's why no one thought you'd be a good leader!"
Ara comes to a halt at the top of the staircase. "Did you?"
"What?" Lily stops midway down the steps.
"Did you think that as well?"
"It doesn't matter," Lily's eyes are cold, like two pieces of sharpened ice. "You move faster than I can think. I struggle to keep up and you don't care if I'm still grieving. Nothing's been enough for you since you became the daughter of Olympus."
"If you could believe in me for just a second, maybe I wouldn't need to do everything on my own."
"I believe in you," Lily's grip tightens on the handrail. "Learn the difference between concern and distrust, Strategus. Whenever you do something foolish is like you don't understand how lucky we are to have—"
"No," Ara replies, anger seeping through her words. "You are lucky to have survived, I worked hard to get here. I earned my place as Olympus's General, don't you dare say I'm here out of mere luck."
Lily looks up at her, eyes darkening. "You used Michael and I to crawl your way up, and you barely made it out," she turns and keeps going, quickly reaching the bottom of the stairs.
Ara stays at the top of the staircase, her chest tight and her head pounding. A girl calls her name downstairs and she immediately rushes down, thinking it's Lily.
She finds Annabeth instead.
"What's wrong?" Ara asks anxiously. "Not another delay?"
Annabeth's eyes are bright and eager. "Get your things. We leave in an hour."
My parents wake up and start fighting, which is something I never thought I'd see, but they're doing a pretty good job. Kronos runs to the entrance of the Empire State, and I lock eyes with Percy.
Clarisse and Chiron are out of the fight, and Annabeth and Thalia are trapped inside the border with him. I see him fall to the conclusion that I must do the one thing he can't.
"You're in charge," he shouts. "Don't make me regret it!" Before leaving, he tells Mrs. O'Leary to look for Chiron under the debris.
Lily and Nico stand by my side, weapons ready. "Heard him loud and clear," Lily nudges my arm. "So you better do something."
I nod, taking a deep breath. "Hermes, Hephaestus—Take the mortals to safety!" The campers start pushing the people out of our way. I turn to the demigods that are left. "We end the war today," I lift my sword. "Camp Half-blood!"
Cheers and cries of war respond to my call. I roar a second time. "Praise Hades!"
Lily and Nico echo my cry, and some campers repeat it as they charge against the army of monsters. Nico's dad shines brighter, and he attacks Kronos's barrier with renewed force.
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Heyyy. I am so glad you made a page I remembered asking in your forum about it. Congrats and welcome!!! 🥳😇
I have a question about the update tho:
Will try to keep spoilers to a minimum as best I can. But whyyyy on God's name would you do that to me???
Read the whole demo from the start again and I tortured myself with Juna's scene again and jesus I shouldn't have. It made me so upset. So many emotions ugh. I can't even describe it and then chapter 2 basically just gave me tears in my eyes. I was on the verge of crying and then Nemio and Leona's pov's (adore character POVs btw thank you so much for those) just pushed me over the edge.
Ugh bloody hell. It was a good demo. A great demo. It made me feel alot. I seriously just kept asking myself why can't Eric just die... multiple times. 😑 I loved your writing. I look forward to seeing where the story goes after this. Hopefully things get better because God my MC needs a break. Poor kid. But I'll take whatever I can get. 👀♥️
You did a really good job. It's a cool project. And the cheat mode made me 😏
Hey, thank you for the warm welcome and for taking the time to share your thoughts on the update. Your words about the project just made my day, truly! I'm glad you liked the character POVs—Leona's was especially enjoyable for me to write for some reason. And I totally get the sentiment about Eric…
But I promise, the MC's journey will have its highs and lows, and there's more to come that I hope you'll find entertaining.
Thanks again for your support, and I can't wait to share more of the story with you.
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Hi i follow ur mademoisemuder tumblr account and I really like how smooth your lineart is especially the black & white manga style and regular linework.would you be willing to share your brushes or brush settings? A photo works to. I use clip studio & I’ve been dying to draw smooth lineart like you do! And your knife girl oc, to die for! A friend said she uses a brush size of around 6-7 with no taper and adjusts her pen pressure settings, dunno how she does it, how is your brushes settings like? I’m a iPad person and I recently got a screen moniter but it’s a whole different experience switching from procreate iPad to PC. Please share your ways por favor , -art anon
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!
I use Clip Studio too! I use it on PC with a tablet (regular, not screen), so idk how well my settings will translate for you but I'm happy to share regardless!!
First of all, and importantly: a lot of it is muscle memory and training that comes naturally as you continuously do lineart. With time, you'll notice that the bigger swoops and long lines/curves that form a smooth line will start to come more naturally to you simply because your hands get used to the motion and you don't have to actively think about it anymore. Hands are cool like that.
(but also sometimes a stroke just takes 15 attempts regardless. Strg+Z is your best friend.)
As for the brushes I use, I'll put them under a readmore (got a bit lengthy)
First, for a rough reference/guide regarding the brush sizes, I usually sketch on the base A4 layout with 300 dpi, but I sketch small and not page-filling. Here's a thumbnail so you get a rough feel for their size on an A4 page.
Also I recently adjusted my pen pressure settings a little (under File - Pen Pressure Settings) so it now looks like this, but it used to be the default until a little while ago though!
Onto the actual brushes:
Most of the stuff on KG's blog is drawn with the Maa Brush from the CSP Asset store, so for example this, this and this were all done using the Maa Brush. I use it to sketch and line, usually on size 5-10, these are my settings:
Next, for very thin delicate lineart I like to use the Favorable Pen from the Asset store, which I used here for example. I use around size 20 for it (I don't use a lot of pressure so the line comes out quite thin)
For a lot of my more rendered art I use the basic Mapping Pen in Clip. I used it for example for the recent story-arc update in asksds or for this. I generally use size 6-10.
Back when I used SAI I had a brush called the Ballpoint Pen which I THINK I made myself in Clip (I at least couldn't find it again under that name in the asset store but I'm sure there are a dozen brushes like it) which is just a basic brush without pen pressure. I often use that one to get me out of a rut or to force me to focus on simpler shapes since it does kinda need you to be a little controlled to keep everything readable. I used it here and here for example. I use it at size 3 but keep in mind that I draw small.
I guess I could also mention that for most of the regular asks in asksds I use the Simple LineArt pen from the Asset store. There's no significant difference to the Mapping Pen, I just feel like the tips aren't quite as delicate as the Mapping Pen and I prefer that for sds...it might be an illusion though.
And we're done, those are the main brushes I use for lineart! Occasionally I try something different (like a G-Pen for a more textured look) but these ones are my regulars. I hope it helps!! (❁´◡`❁)
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AITA for being standoffish toward my [29m] rival [31m] after a work-related conflict?
Hi reddit, as stated in the title I'm in the middle of a conundrum. I'm currently finishing up physical therapy for a life-threatening injury I sustained on the job. It was so bad that even now I'm coughing up blood a couple times a week - I'm fine, it happens. I have a workplace rival that I'll refer to as T who has never liked me, and that's fine because I don't like him either. I think he's snobby and bitchy and a hyperperfectionist. The problem here lies with the fact that my older brother M [37m] and T's older brother H [38m] are best buddies. Like, attached at the hip since grade school buddies, I've practically grown up with the guy myself. So not only am I stuck with T at work (we are all employed at the biggest firm in our city) but I also have to deal with him in my personal life as well. It's really pissing me off!
What really is making me crack is the fact that my workplace injury was caused by T. Like I said prior, he is really full of himself, and was trying out this new method of work for the first time but either he didn't do a test run beforehand or he's just fucking stupid but I almost died because of his new technique. It's absolutely ridiculous.
Well, M and H have been pretty understanding so far but work is thriving and they are trying their best to get me and T on better terms so that the peace can be maintained but seriously, I almost died! AITA? I don't think so, but maybe I need the internet's help
u/Perfect_Spinach_7820 +701
INFO: What on earth kind of workplace injury could possibly be bad enough for you to almost die and still be coughing up blood?
EDIT: ESH.
- u/coolguysharingan00000000 OP -352
He stabbed me! All of us work in some form or another in the armed forces. The coughing up blood is incidental.
u/Adequate_Lemons_2547 +426
NAH. Workplace injuries in this profession are becoming exceedingly more common to the point that they are expected. While it was a dick move for your 'rival' to use you as a guinea pig for his technique, unfortunately it's par for the course. I'm glad to see that things seemed to have smoothed out otherwise since. Probably not the answer you wanted OP. At least seek workman's comp.
- u/coolguysharingan00000000 OP +24
I ALMOST DIED?!
u/PM_ME_UR_JINCHUURIKI +301
NTA. Everyone who says otherwise is indeed TA. Like you've stated, he could have killed you! Why should you be nice to someone like that?!
- u/coolguysharingan00000000 OP +4
THANK YOU! It's all very bizarre.
u/tobiramasenju0217 +1.1k 3 awards
Izuna, the next time you decide to vent on company time, maybe don't do it on the office's shared devices where you are still logged in on your accounts.
For the record, all who read this: Izuna and I have been "rivals" since before birth (read: have fought basically to the brink of death since childhood). I have long since admitted that I made a misstep in the execution of my technique and have tried many amends in the months since, maybe to little avail, but I think it would behoove you all to know that despite my good graces, Izuna (the OP) has been nothing but a nuisance to me since. Putting thumbtacks on my chair, pulling out the seams of my hakama so that my pants fall down in front of his elder brother, putting salt in my tea, very childish.
You are an asshole, Izuna, but not for these feelings towards me.
- u/coolguysharingan00000000 -10k OP 44 awards
nice username. KILL YOUR SELF 🖕
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"hello?i adore your blog and especially your way of writing.I'm a fanboy jimin biased,I'm here because I seriously need your advice.we have interacted before in a positive way I see thru your posts that you are an open minded person,that's why I chose your blog among others that are here despite not allowing anonymous posts so I created a new acc for this.I wouldn't post this on twitter basically bcs the people there are dogs that bark so much and are very judgemental.I needed someone who doesn't know me hiding behind a banner acc is easier in things like this.and a good advice from mature people so am here.and sorry in advance if I'll gross you after reading this🤫.. there's something unique about your outlook on things and my eyes love viewing the content you share. beautiful work!..so let's start?"
You about to drop a bomb on me ain't you?
"I'm jimin biased fanboy I guess I mentioned that,so i'm one of those annoying dudes who have everything hes ever dreamed of.ive built a successful career that i enjoy,i have the perfect NYC apartment that i was planning on asking my gf to move in with me next year ,I have a girlfriend and I truly love her,she's the best thing that has happened to me.but I have always had sexual fantasies about jimin which I just curse myself when those sinful images pops in my thoughts and ignore them because it's normal to have such fantasies with your crush right?..but this is too much fantasies for a stranger and a celebrity at that.first I find jimin so damn SEXY AND HOT even thou he can be soft,fluffy,small and his angelic features comes out more often.I love both his charms he's a man of crazy duality and am a sucker for both..hes the prettiest man i have ever seen in my life.his beauty features leaves me speechless,jimin invented beauty so breathtaking.I find myself thinking about him taking me from behind in my solo love-sessions.jimin pops alot in my thoughts when i masturbate,and the sinful thoughts are all images of him doing the naughty stuffs to me.like I'm being so submissive to him.and I enjoy all those sexual fantasies ALOT! I noticed I enjoy having those solo love-sessions with him occupying my thoughts.now what made me so worried is those dirty images cropped up when I was on top of my gf damn it!! we always have great sex so I don't know why I started thinking about jimin again.seriously this is so embarrassing because I took like forever to reach orgasm,and my gf thought something was wrong I tried so hard to concentrate but the moment I started thinking about my jm fantasies i ejaculated so hard it was intense I fell like a log of wood. this has now happened twice and I find it so disturbing,those thoughts came when I'm alone and solo loving myself but not when am with my partner.thats why am confused.also to mention I'm not gay/bi I've always considered myself straight on the whole, I have had many heterosexual relationships and one night stands with only girls all of which i enjoyed. I have never been attracted to guys.dont get me wrong I'm not a homophobe I have friends and relatives in lgbtq. in my country that's not a big deal because same sex relationships are legal here.I have tried to see if I get attracted sexually to my male friends but nothing. I'm scared I wouldn't want my gf to find out about this because what's funny is ,she's also a jimin biased but solo stan😓😓and because she will so hate me I will die. also something weird is I enjoy keeping up with my fantasies I love when my thoughts are filled with him doing all crazy stuffs on me.I would make the fantasies a reality if given a chance but well that is impossible.so help me I want to know why am like this??I don't understand why am having all this fantasies with jimin?is he my gay awakening?but why am I not feeling attraction to other male friends?.and pls sorry if this will seem like I'm sexualizing him I love jimin so much to do that.is just something I don't disturbing me.I know I might sound like a pervertted asshole when I say I love and enjoy every bit of those fantasies when am alone not when am on top of my partner."
HOLY SHIT I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING BRO!!!!!!!
Forget grossing me out, I'm traumatized for life😭😭
You want JM to put what where sir😭😭😭😭😭
I'm not even gonna front- ME TOO MA HOMMIE
This is Jimin and all of us
But I think your girlfriend reads my blogs and sent a similar ask about this already💀💀💀💀💀💀
If she's a JM Solo Stan she won't hate you.
No. No. No.
SHE WILL KILL YOU. DOUBLE HOMICIDE
Those bitches be crazy.
Jokes aside, I think this conversation should be had with a professional if you can afford one- preferably, one that is queer and well versed in issues related to these. Spoiler alert, they will tell you this is normal.
You might be having a bi or queer awakening or you might not. You'd be surprised how normal some of these things are among "straight" folks. But still talk to a professional.
You don't need random voices on the internet screwing with your head and filling you with all sort of nonsense that's gonna further confuse you, your sexuality or your identity or even make you hate yourself down the road.
And I won't lie, I have a gay agenda and wish everyone was gay and I'm a little bit high key hetero-intolerant. And so I would trend carefully with you okay?
Like I'm tempted to say you are gay and call it a day😃
Straight is boring anyway😴
Anyway, take anything I say here with a grain of salt.
Honestly, you seem to be conflating questions about sexual identity with questions about sexual fantasies and eroticism. Some straight men love butt play too🤷🏾♂️
I mean do you feel shaky in your sexual identity as a straight man? Is your attraction to JM making you question your sexuality at all? You don't seem frightened at the thought of another man topping you- are you open to that? Would you be okay taking dick or dildo for instance?🤔
If that part don't scare you then welp get your gal the strap and bend over for her baby😁
Feels good trust me😌
I think you just might be kinky and not necessarily gay or bi.
If you are gay or bi that's valid too🤭
I think you might be having an awakening of a sort though. But not in the way you think you might be in my opinion. Jimin is sexy, beautiful, cute, hot, flaming hot all wrapped into one. As you've rightfully pointed out. If he has this effect on you, it's a sign you are a sexually healthy individual.
He do be confusing his own mates sometimes. Has them clutching their penis and shit when he moves.
And by the way, this is him reacting to another man
Did that shit on live TV too. He literally goes blank in the head when he sees Jungkook's naked back on stage.
Jungkook saw Namjoon's thighs and did a 360 on his career path.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
If most straight guys were more honest and open with their sexual desires, and weren't so afraid of being tagged gay, you wouldn't think this is strange at all. But all they do is lie. Truth is most men find other men attractive too and it's perfectly normal. They may not want to sleep with them, but they do get attractions for them or even tingles down there for other men every now and then.
Shit girls do too💀
Is it possible you might not find other men attractive simply because they are not attractive to you? Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder but an attractive person is an attractive person. And if they are not they are not.
That aside, you attribute certain qualities to JM that you may simply not be attributing or associating with the men in your life which is why you don't find them equally as attractive. You mentioned JMs duality. Which of your male friends have that duality you find desirable in JM? None.
Also, you just seem to me to be having domination/ submissiveness kink fantasies which is why you are able to express those even when on top of your GF who is obviously not a man.
Or perhaps you do attribute those dominant qualities to your gf too giving her that duality you find attractive.
You might simply want to be manhandled or dominated in bed by her or by anyone you find attractive including JM so look into that.
You might not feel similar attraction to your male friends because they are your friends and you do not see them as viable suitors to explore your submissive fantasies with. Or you simply might not be attracted to them at all. I mean I don't think just because you are straight means you should be attracted to all females. That would be ridiculous.
There's nothing wrong with being a little bit kinky every now and then. Just express those needs to your GF and ask if she can top you, or allow you to be submissive with her in bed. Instead of you initiations sex, tell her you want her to initiate. Rather than being on top of her, have her sit on top of you.
Or go full on spartan on her and have her try playing with your butt, bunny😏
Use your attraction to JM as a springboard to explore your sexual desires in real life.
You might want to look into Femdom. Or Fem domination and see if it's something you are into for instance if indeed you are having a submissive kink awakening.
Or explore the attributes of him you find arousing? Is it just his looks and beauty or it's his nurturing side and the way he praises others and speaks softly with them? If so you might have a praise kink as well.
If you could share specific details about those fantasies it would give me something to work with and we could unpack what is going on with you and him together.
But from the little you've shared I'm getting submissive kink vibes from you.
If you are gay it's fine too really 💜💜💜💜💜💜
If I were a man I would want to be thrown across the room and stuffed in a box naked by other men too😌
You don't have to be ashamed or fear your own desires. Or fear your partner will hate you for it. If she does she is not the right one for you.
Opening up about your sexual desires with your partner in a healthy way can be wholesome and bring you two closer.
Do a little bit of introspection yourself and explore these fantasies and understand them. You have to know whether they are merely fantasies or they becoming a fetish.
A fetish is something you need in order to be aroused. Without it you might not feel arousal or even orgasm. A fantasy is an expression of our desires. They teach us about ourselves and let us know who we are at our core.
Personally, my attraction for JM affirms my sexuality and is what makes me understand my emotional needs and express them well to my partner. Even as a man, it is that soft nurturing side of him that speaks to me and my kinks- turns out I'm into praise kinks and hearing him praise Jungkook and his band mates helps me see what I need from my partner and I'm able to communicate that well to her.
Sometimes I just show her clips of jikook or Vmin and say I want that for me. It's lazy but effective. Works great but I'm a libra and so turns out I'm also into degradation kinks and that always throws her off🤪
We are a work in progress😂
If I shared with you the things I've learned about myself from exploring my attraction to this man, Tumblr will ban me and the church will come for me and roast me gently over bonfire.
How long has this been going on for you? It might just be a phase? I don't know.
You might be gay but also you just seem to have a desire to be submissive during sex or you might be both hallelujah 😇
If so, I say welcome to the club 🥵
I volunteer to hold your legs down while he rails you🙂
Get on your knees bitch, daddy JM will be with us shortly ⛓😏
If you came here to get sane sorry.
I take souls for Jimin🙃
And if it turns out you are gay, EVEN BETTER😁
You are fine. You will be fine.
Don't judge yourself with the critical lens of others. As long as you are communicating openly, honestly with your GF and seeking her consent before trying anything with her while also respecting JM by not sexualizing him to his face and in person you shouldn't worry at all. I mean he doesn't even know you exist💔
Not that he will mind🤭
Try to look outside your friendship group to see if there are other men you find attractive in person. Your friends simply may not be doing it for you.
If you do decide you are gay, find me. Drinks on me🙃
Naa, wait. Yup you rich. Drinks on you😆
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Hello! I'm a little nervous writing you ☺️
Well, I'm from a country where we speak Spanish, so excuses me if I write weird (I'm really not very fluent so sorry if you can understand something 👉👈💨)
I discovered your beautiful Morgyn recently and I fell in love 🤯, They were mind-blowing and I cannot resist to search the person behind the art, so I found you 😊 (And discovered your Caleb and I just could die in peace when I see Morgyn and him in cuddling mode -my heart shake, trust me 🥵-)
Well, I have some questions 🙋 😅
1- Where can I read your story? I need it just like I need air to breath.
2- I'm always ask myself how other people sims are just so beautiful, I think it was a blender or something, but I saw videos with that ...grafic effect?...shadow?... that make sims so natural, like they were took it from a 3D movie and so, Can you tell me that it is a mod, a programming thing or so? And where can I find it?
3- ....Your Morgyn hair... 🙂😳🤌 If you know some CC creator who do curly hair that screams "blond sexy mage"... please recommend me 🙏 (and if you do you Morgyn Hair, I just tell you that it's the most gorgeous thing ever, and I really like to have something like that in my sims CAS some day 🥲)
That it... 😅 thank you and sorry for been a mess in english 🥴
thank you for a warm message. don't worry so much about your english, i'm not a native speaker myself, so i'm not the one to judge you. i mean, you're speaking a whole foreign language, isn't it cool?
okay, lemme answer you in order:
you can't read my story just yet, i'm currently writing it for only myself and playing it out, but i can't gather courage and energy to start taking screenshots for it (mostly because i'm a perfectionist and i want everything to look perfect from the very beginning, but screenshots are not my forte, and i'm not happy with my english). but i'll definitely start posting it at some point anyway because my yearning to share it grows and grows with each day :)
it's not a blender, it's called a reshade. basically, it's an effect overlay that starts with your game. if you look for reshade presets here on tumblr, you'll find a lot of them, some are very bright, or very smooth, or sad and almost desaturated, some have depth of field, some have an outline around objects and sims, etc. this particular shadow effect that you liked is MXAO. i used this tutorial when i installed reshade for the first time. people also use gshade lately, that's just another program but i think the same presets work in it just as well.
i don't usually do wcifs but i must clarify that this is not my hair. this particular hair is named "Leo" and is made by clumsyalien. Here are some "blond sexy mage" hairstyles that will suit Morgyn: 1 (Leo) 2 (Octavian) 3 (Everett) 4 (Eliott) 5 (Adriana) 6 and 7 (Rael and Nicolas, also look at Kea that is longer but also sexy mage) 8 and 9 (Morgyn and Phantasm) 10 (Heartstrings) 11 (Morgyn) 12 (Wave) 13 (Jazz riff). clumsyalien is basically your person when it comes to curly sexy mages.
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lover, you should’ve come over , send me a description of yourself + a fandom and gender preference, and i’ll ship you with a character
i want it with f1 and it doesn't matter old or current drivers. i sent you this request before but i think i forgot to add preference so it was my fault. hope it doesn't bother you that i'm sending you a new one again, if it bothers you then i'm sorry. i think it's gonna be long so... sorry in advance x2
i'm 22 and history student. i want to be an academic because knowledge is pretty much everything to me. if a djinn grant me 3 wishes, one of them would be to know everything about universe, humankind and other things. i like learning new things and i like to share them with others whether its something scientific, about history, philosophy or just random fact about pop culture it doesn't matter. sometimes i just starting to tell someone a random fact i learned out of the blue so there's that i think. i also think my love language is quality time. i'll remember whats your favorite book, movie, song, sweater, drink etc it doesn't matter i'll etch everything about you into my brain forever. its my curse, sometimes i think that way.
i like buying new books even if i have billions of them i haven't read it yet at my home it doesn't matter. i like to go museums. my idea of relaxing and holiday is going to new historical places, museums, exhibitions, watching something or reading something, explore new music etc so you get the idea.
i like to watch art movies, documentaries, keeping an eye on film festivals. my favorites are those 3 hours long old movies you can hardly find subtitles for but when you do... it gives you everything you need and more.
when i said i like learning new things i mean it as a learning different subjects or matters. it doesn't matter tbh if that thing got me interested in then you probably gonna find me searching it online at 3 am.
i'm a bit cold to others i'm not gonna lie. definetely judge someone and if i dont find them okay-ish then warming up to them and liking them is gonna be hard. i tend to isolate myself and zone out frequently when i'm overwhelmed so even if you continue to talk there's a big chance i'm not gonna hear you but i have pretty good focus so thats the plus for me.
i'm definetely quick to anger and hold grudges really well won't forget something you said to me 10 years ago. but i'm also a ride or die and would bring shovel to your house unquestioned so i guess that's even it out?
but there's a weird and kind of intimidating side of me? at least that what my friends been saying. my classmates and friends often saying to me how they were/are intimidated to talk to me because they didn't want to seem stupid or didnt gage out what would i say or react. weird side of me i think its that sometimes i tend to get awkward not gonna lie...
also i tend to get... disappear for extended period of time out of the blue. i'm just vibing at home or outside by myself. i'm happy with it but others don't.
i hope it's not too long and if it is sorry </3
i ship you with lance stroll!
— i’ve never pictured lance as the academic type per se, but i always get the sense he’s a bit of a dark horse when it comes to his talents outside of f1… i feel like he’d be super interested in all of the stuff you are, especially philosophy. once you guys start dating, i can picture him getting really into philosophy and history and reading to the point where he’s basically just feeding your own need for more knowledge (match made in heaven frrr)
— obviously the guy is loaded so he has no problem buying you whatever books you want. instead of being the kind of boyfriend that goes out and buys his girlfriend jewellery to show affection (bc his love language is DEFINITELY gift giving) he’ll buy you a ton of books instead 😭 i feel like you’ll get so used to it that every time you go out you leave a reading list on the table for him to look at, and when you get back he’ll have bought you EVERY SINGLE BOOK. even the really obscure ones, and you’re like how did he manage to find this at such short notice? 😭
— loads of your dates consist of either movie nights or trips to museums and exhibitions. you might do some more mindless lowkey stuff in-between, but lance will pretty much do whatever it is you want to do 😭 he’ll definitely surprise you with random trips to loads of interesting historical places. even if you only mention a particular place one time in passing, the next thing you know he’ll get you on his private jet and take you there for the weekend 🥹 it just shows he’s a really good listener too !! a bit like you, he just wants to commit everything about you to his memory 🤍
— i never thought i’d say this because i picture lance as being quite isolated a lot of the time, but he encourages you to get out more and stops you from retreating within yourself. he knows that you have no problem being alone with your thoughts, but he also wants you to get out and experience things with new people 🥹
— BUT on the other hand, you guys are definitely the judgy inside joke couple 😭 i mean in the sense that you tell each other everything. if you’re holding a grudge against someone for a particular reason, he knows exactly why and holds a grudge too 😭 basically you always tell each other your drama to the point where you’re essentially just sharing enemies. this unfortunate person will never know why but every time they come near you both you’ll automatically just fall silent and stare them down 😭 half the grid is scared of you both for this but it’s fine you’re iconic
— ps. i’m sorry this took so long! i’ve been mulling over this one for a while 😅
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[rushes down the steps to your office, coffee mugs in hand]
[tears open the door]
[stomps in]
[places coffee in front of you]
[steals your spare office chair]
[flomps down]
it's sharing goblin thoughts with squid time, because i'm incapable of keeping things to myself.
-to everyone else reading, fair warning, second chapters spoilers ahead.-
anyWAY-
[sips coffee]
that display war, right? so. you made me think. how mickey is small. and has black hair. like a raven. so what you did was basically awaken some deeply buried memories about a specific german children's story. so you gotta suffer them now.
this-
-is the little raven socke. yes. like the sock he's wearing. he's small. he's a raven. he's also a little know it all and always up to mischief. i won't ever be able to get that association out of my head and i'll pretend he was part of ian's display until the day i die, thanksokaybye.
tumblr (derogatory)! why am i just seeing this now?!?! shame on you.
but zero shame on nosho because this is EXCELLENT! look at this little dude! and his little sock and his books! cozied up in his little pillow pile. 🥺 we will definitely pretend this was on the shelf. no, not pretend. it was there. totally there. I saw it.
i wonder if this mischievous raven lives in our library. my kids might need to make a new friend…
#next time a giant ass terrifying crow is stalking my yard i’ll just toss it a book.#maybe that’s what they’re looking for all along.#second chapters#goblin of the field 🌾#goblin of my heart 💚
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Hi! i love all your theories and just had to ask about the death note kira game. i thought it was cool as hell and then i actually decided to watch a playthrough. (its not very serious considering the fact that L tried to cancel every one of Matsuda's relationships) what is your opinion on this masterpiece of a game?
First of all, thank you so much!
Unfortunely, I am here with a somewhat incomplete opinion, since I didn't manage to finish the game. As any other strategy game, it takes more time than just some combat game, and I posteponed it to when I am done with my university stuff.
The problem is that my laptop started giving me problems, and I thought it was because I had files or softwares that were either incompatible, had bugs or just running in the background using up my CPU, so I decided to delete everything that I am not using to avoid the irreversible from happening.
The emu I was using was the first to go, because while using it, I noticed that making the window bigger would duplicate just one frame of the game that I could not get rid of, telling me that, even though it was working, it has some problems. So with the emu, even the game file(s - because i downloaded others too) left.
So, long story short. Never finished it, I was probably at the beginning of the third act.
I did right some opinions while playing it, so I am going to share those:
Aizawa saying that he trausted L made me laugh, 'cause that would never happen before Aizawa's gateway. It was feeding into my love for them, but it felt ooc.
L was hot as always.
And him saying, "Light is Kira. [...] I'm L. Trust me on this." Literally, top ten favourite lines.
I loved how L was messing with Matsuda and how everybody was seriously concerned about L's health and his eating habits.
Last thing, the explanation was rather confusing (basically, I was Matsuda) and I didn't get to have a hold of it, and master it. I think I did one match in which I won, which is quite embarrassing, but not surprising, because I cannot understand the rules when they are explained like that and I don't have the possibility to ask questions.
In fact, let's say, that's my weakness. Tutorials are not for me. I need to explore the game myself, figure the mechanics and then check the rules only when I fail.
Something that vomits all on me like that is not helping at all. Even when I play HSR or genshin, they have their little tutorials at the beginning of minigames or dialogues that explain what to do, and I don't remember reading any of them, unless strictly necessary because I failed.
Recent example, I needed to remember where the biggest piles of leaves were and then hit the boxes that would appear on them. I didn't know that, and I kept trying first to blow away all the leaves, then only the biggest pile, and then just the smaller ones, until I told myself that I needed to read the dialogue of the aranana.
Tutorials are my sworn emenies.
So, that made it harder for me to engage too much with the game, while I still had it.
I don't know if I'll try again. I might, because I love death note, but the future is uncertain. For now, I'll just hope my laptop doesn't decide to die on me lol
Edit: I wrote this a month and half ago and it stayed in my drafts, while I hoped that I would play it again. I did not lmao. I found out what the problem was with my pc (I had to update my drivers manually, because windows would not tell me to do that and I had over an year old drivers - it still stutters some times, probably because i have 30 things open at once) but then HSR took a toll on my life. i mentioned the game here and it was the week in which i started to get into it, since then i've been playing the game each day for 46 days.
So, I am sorry for being unable to give you an in-depth review of the game.
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The truth part 3
Blood: *is stressed out about wat he did to his aunt twilight and solar* oh shit it been centuries and i can't seem to figure out the memory spell ahhh *smashes his spell table* god damnit!!!!!
Glass: *knocks on blood door* dad u ok?
DG: momma wats wrong with uncle blood?
Blood: *open his door*
Glass: holy fuck dad u look terrible
Blood: thanks wats up sweetie?
Glass: i wanna help u gain aunt twilight memories back along with solors too
Blood: i know i need ur help with this i still didn't unlock gods full power but i need ur help glass but i need sleep first *he then upper cutted hisself passing out*
DG: did he?
Glass: yes he must've been really tired *walks in her dad room looking at his research* hmmm might need my husband for this too
DG: *flies to her mom looking at her uncles research* wat is this mom?
Glass: forbidden spells and languages *she thinked to herself why her dad is going beyond this power*
DG: *she saw her mom shiver* momma r u ok?
Glass: yeah sweetie im fine
*blood sat up quickly yelling passing out again*
Glass: we should go sweetie
DG: ok mom *teleports away*
Glass: *shes sighed* wat r u doing dad?
Blood: I'll basically have to sacrifice myself to get their memory back
Glass: w-w-w-wat? Why?
Blood: Because I've tried everything, the forbidden spells r my last change.........
Glass: b-but? H-how will u get back?
Blood: *he chuckled* i don't think i can come back after this.......
Glass: *she started crying* dad plz their must be another way
Blood: if u have something better plz share glass
Glass: i need time dad plz
Blood: i don't have time the blood moon is coming it's getting hard to control my blood lust glass that's why i must do this to save my family and friends.......
Glass: *she cried more hugging her dad* d-d-dad plz this realm will end if u leave us
Blood: *he looked away trying not to cry* i understand glass but it's the only way........
Glass: no there has to be another way..........
Blood: goodbye glass u'll know before the rest that i may gone i love u sweetie *he kissed his daughter forehead for the last time then teleporting away*
Glass: *she looked up crying* I'll bring u back dad i-i promise......
Twilight eclipse: blood? wats up?
Blood: *he busted open both twilight and solar head open doing three forbidden spells*
*flash of light appeared everywhere twilight and solar go there memory back*
Twilight eclipse: blood wat happened? wat did u do?
*blood looked up too his aunt and solar saying*
Blood: *coughs up white blood* w-welcome ho-ome *he slowly disappeared into nothing saying* look after my family save them nomatter wa..... *disappeared*
Twilight eclipse: did he just? H-he did no my nephew!!!!! *she broke down crying as solar confronted her* don't twi we'll find him.......
Glass: *teleports in front of twilight and solar*
*twilight and solar was shocked seeing a pony skeleton*
Glass: i hope ur happy......aunty my dad is gone
Twilight eclipse: glass im sorry i didn't know the cost
Glass: of course not *she started crying* i hope ur finally happy twilight hope u two rot in hell for wat u done to my family
Twilight eclipse: glass plz don't say that we'll find him I promise
Glass: u have a three day my dad isn't back my husband takes ur souls and i kill ur kids
Twilight eclipse: glass plz don't do this.......
Glass: three days good luck assholes *teleports away*
Twilight eclipse: twi r we gonna die? I-i....don't know....... we gotta try something twi. Those were forbidden spell made by god solar were screwed.......
Surprise jr: hello aunty. solar.
Twilight eclipse: hi satan. Huh satan?
Surprise jr: so ur memory is really back huh twi?
Twilight eclipse: yes nephew but at wat cost.......
Surprise jr: yes it's very terrible my brother did the forbidden spells but it was the only way u understand
Twilight eclipse: we also have three days too
Surprise jr: i know my retired death is going to enjoy killing u two hahahah but this realm is unstable now u actually have three days till this realm scatters and disappears
Twilight eclipse: huh? *they were shocked* wat the realm will disappear?
Surprise jr: Yes, my brother was keeping the realms in peace till his kindness took control. *He tried not to cry* but i can help
Twilight eclipse: really how? Yeah how?
Surprise jr: ill make a deal with u two *he summoned a contract*
Twilight eclipse: deal. No deal *Twilight slapped solar hard* wats the price nephew?
Surprise jr: u know me so well aunty sign then i will take wat i want and leave then my brother will be back
Twilight eclipse: *solar signed in blood but Twilight didn't want too* twi U ok? Yeah im scared.... *in fear twilight signed in blood*
*the contract disappears*
Surprise jr: *he used his devil magic taking two organs from solar and twilight* goodbye *he disappeared to hell*
*blood then appeared collapsing on the ground*
Blood: Ugh, where am i?......
Twilight eclipse: it's really him he's back. But at wat cost for us twi?
"Blood got up a little dazed, wobbling, but Twilight and solar helped blood back to his castle when they got there glass was waiting for them"
Glass: very good aunty and bitch boy "she was still mad at them for wat her dad did to save them" ur lucky my uncle saved ur asses
"Solar looked at glass saying"
Twilight eclipse: u know about that? Babe, stop, don't hurt ur brain here glass ur dad is back
Blood: *he teleported to his room, going to sleep*
@asktwilighteclipse
#ponyville#mlp#the ultimate pie family#death#glass#blood#dead god#twilight eclipse#realms#unstable#sacrifice
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Now that we know he's going to DIE (by God or by me) Let's talk about it.
Let's be CLEAR, I do NOT need to explain myself. BUT I think it's necessary to share as I KNOW God will deal with it and I'll get a REPLACEMENT.
There's ALWAYS a method to my madness. So let's discuss it all and then LET IT GO.
SO let's begin with declaring ASSERTIVELY that, If God, G-O-D forces me to be with him, I WILL KILL HIM. Violently and unapologetically.
WHY?
Because I made clear what NOT to do with the consequence of death if he fucks up or disobey these boundaries.
WHY DEATH? WHY SO HARSH?
Because GOD, G-O-D guaranteed him to be "THE PERFECT" guy. As in EVERYTHING I would want and does NOT have what I don't want (I will make a post on that as promised soon). So because God guaranteed a MAN who has FREE WILL, will be the BEST husband. A HUMAN who has FREE WILL. A MAN who can freely disobey GOD. A human who can FREELY do as he wants whenever. If God going to have me set SO MANY BOUNDARIES and walk me into SO MUCH SACRI-FUCKING-FICE and problems for that fucker. God must know something I DON'T.
Because I had to SACRIFICE and more for this so called supposed person who is supposed to be everything I ever dreamed. HOWEVER, ALL HE HAS DONE towards me is be a FUCKING ASSHOLE.
So it's either something wrong in translation, or he chose to take a different path than God's. I am NOT taking SHIT I did NOT want and could see from the FUCKING START to suffer. God did NOT show me a troubled marriage. He did NOT show me an asshole. In fact, the way God painted him, did not show all this fuckery. So, it must be the guy's fault and choice to be a fucking ASSHOLE. If God is guaranteeing him, it must be at the risk of death.
PLUS God keeps insisting it's the guy and his mother who truly want it all. As in those shits want the marriage/relationship. Something I have been letting go and walked away from 2019.
Let's be CLEAR: If I have to kill him because God force me to be with him. I will do so publicly. I will make it known publicly. As I said, right after doing so, I will call his mother to come pick him/his body up. Accepting whatever she wants to do about it. If police comes, I will admit to them in DETAILS what I did. Which is most likely cut his dick off and watch him bleed then stab him up. Then whatever happens I accept it. However, please MARK THESE WORDS, I will NOT go to prison for it. Why? God. God has revealed that the worst I'll experience is ALREADY DONE (locked up in a psych ward, hospital & a nursing home). So NO PRISON if I kill that bitch.
Anyway the story.
OK let's go into depth about it
So I met him in 2019. As shared here:
The truth is I didn't know and I didn't realize I was falling until it was too late. As I wrote in poetry here:
(These are just a FEW, trust me I have FAR too many more; UNFORTUNATELY. I write when emotionally overwhelmed.)
In 2019, he did a lot of physical things that played with my emotions and I wrote about it:
In fact, I knew he was a bad decision in the first place:
Then I gave him 10 questions to try and make sure I made a sound and good decision to date him. So that to not make this decision centered around just feelings. It had to make sense, well to me. As I shared in this:
I don't date based on feelings only, because feelings won't matter or won't fix things when you are in the hard times of marriage. Plus I date for the goal of marriage. So, if I can't see that goal, I walk away. Hence the necessity of the 10 questions or the fact that the union would make sense. I wanted it to make sense first.
As you know he failed at even doing just that BASIC THING.
So I was going to move on. BUT MY feelings. In fact I tried to give him a chance again in December of that year:
BUT NO:
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Hi TT.
I'm the anon who reached out to share my truth with you. I just wanted to say a big big thank you for replying to me with so much consideration and compassion. I really needed that.
I took your advice regarding my friends and privately confided in one friend who I thought would be supportive. And the friend basically told me that I can be who I want to be when it's just the two of us but if I ever decided to come out then this friend would never publicly support me because it's too risky.
I felt extremely hurt and sad and angry. But I also weirdly understand. I mean why would anyone risk their life just to stand by me.
This incident just solidified my belief that I can never be myself around the people I currently have in my life. And even the friend who was fine with me being queer made it seem like it was something shameful and wrong and it makes them a bigger person for accepting me as I am. And to top it all of they basically said they'd throw me under the bus if there was ever a chance of this becoming common knowledge.
I'm working towards financial independence but I cant actually tell my family that I'll be gone for good because they'd never let me go. They'd emotionally blackmail me into staying. I just know it. So I have a plan to leave without letting them know I'm not coming back.
Hopefully I'll eventually be able to be who I really am and have people in my life who support me.
I'm sorry for talking about my life so much. It's just that for now. This is the only place I can just be myself.
Thanks again for all your support. It really means a lot to me.
Hi anon,
I've been thinking about you and hoping you have been doing well, so thanks for writing back!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so sorry your friend (whom obviously you trusted more than the others in the group) reacted this way. You're right in recognizing the reaction as being more about THEM seeing themselves as such a "tolerant" person, than actually accepting and supporting YOU. But it is what it is; now you know. It always sucks when a friendship undergoes something like this (God knows I have mourned the demise of friendships and found them more heartbreaking than romantic breakups) but at least it clears things up about whether this person is a true ride or die. You will slowly recover from this, as you realize you deserve much better. Like SOOOOOOO much better. Good friendships make you THRIVE, they bring out the best in you, and that's what I would want for you. A circle that encourages you to achieve whatever you put your mind to, and is there to support you through the sucky parts of life. Basically, just lets you be YOU, and adds a feeling of joy and security and stability to your life.
You don't have to tell your family you're going anywhere for good. (It's not realistic to think that you can cut things off that cleanly with them anyway.) You frame it as a better "work" or "life" opportunity and put some distance between yourselves. I am glad to hear that you have a plan and I wish you all the luck on it!
Feel free to drop into my inbox whenever you feel like talking. I may not have all the answers/solutions but I can always listen, and send you lots of huggy gifs. You will always have my love and support and best wishes!!!!
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[Happiness Is A Choice, But Life Is A B***h...]
I suppose I should begin this post by sharing with you guys about how I feel at the moment.
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"How could anyone love Him? What did you just tell me yourself about the world? Don't you see, everybody hates God now. It's not that God is dead in the twentieth century. It's that everybody hates Him! At least I think so."
~Anne Rice
Whatever you read about me hating God and everything, you're reading it right. And I have my reasons. I'm sure some of you actually know how it feels when your prayers appear to have been ignored, right? Well, not exactly in my case since I don't usually pray to God, but I had the feeling that he may have done this (all the bad things that have happened to me) deliberately out of desperation, even though I never asked for such a thing. That would make me question his goodwill. After all, he is supposed to make a person's life better, not worse. Putting a person in numerous (difficult) trials without a way out is like trying to make a person commit suicide.
Going deeper into the misotheism, I don't think I'll ever settle things with God, even if he had better plans or intentions for me. Well, I don't mean to sound harsh, but putting me into this kind of misery doesn't make him holy. He is notorious for giving me (and some people) a whole lot of unwanted burdens in life, not to mention that he is putting me in a tight spot with no means to get out. See? All he does is make people suffer.
And so, my mind's already made up. I'll try my best not to make it sound blasphemous, but I'm going to say this once and for all: God is not my savior. He is the primary cause of my sadness, misery, and depression. He should've stayed dead for good. It's not like anyone would appreciate his help, anyway. He's f***ing useless. He deserves a middle finger for that. If ever I see God in person, then I'll make sure to say it straight to his face.
That's it. I ain't gonna settle things with God, even if I die through whatever means. I don't want my body to be blessed and I don't need a damn requiem mass. I am so done with this life, I want to go somewhere else.
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I guess I must've spoken too soon about how 2024 will be a great year. We're not even done with this f***ing water rabbit just yet, but I fear that the dragon might bring an even greater catastrophe than the ones we've experienced so far. Yeah, the worst things in my life happened in 2000, the year of the f***king dragon.
Just to tame my tongue a little, I don't think there is really such a thing as a lucky year, even if it happens to be the horse (I was born in 1990, which is the Year Of The Metal Horse).
I must be pretty unlucky being born into a dysfunctional family, no thanks to God. He must be enjoying himself seeing unfortunate people and unhappy families getting f***ed up really hard. So much for being a "God", huh?
Whatever. I hope that this year will turn out to be different from the previous "Year of the Dragons" that I've encountered so far. I just want to make sure that this year will be kind to me. Otherwise, I'll definitely going to kill myself. Now that I think about it, maybe I'll treat it as an ultimatum to God to prove that he isn't really useless after all. Maybe I'll get him to undo the damage he caused during the pandemic.
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Happiness is not just a choice, but a basic right. After all, would you rather stay lonely all the time even if you don't want to?
This world is pretty hopeless. My life is hopeless. I don't think I'll ever get to enjoy my life the same way ever again.
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Mentality on Life and changing it with Buddhism
When I was younger, I always used to think that life was a breeze- I had a comfortable childhood.
When I grew older and found out the realities of having a job, the realities of getting older , inflation, capitalism, plagues, wars, etc, it brought me down so much.
I also worried about funding myself for the rest of my life, having healthcare always, worrying about saving enough for retirement.
Worrying about parents aging, worrying about new health issues.
Accepting the reality that life was cold and cruel and difficult.
These realities made me anxious and so that was yet another thing I had to deal with. And life is so much harder when you're neurodivergent.
I used to not want to die, ever, but now I'm thankful that with the loss of this mortal coil, I won't be tormented by my mind anymore, that I won't have to worry about anything, or that I won't be depressed anymore.
I won't have to worry about having to fund myself and thinking about how I'll survive and make sure I have enough.
But I hate that. I hate that I see life maybe not as a punishment, but a burden, basically. That my main goal in life is just gritting my teeth and getting through it, and being relieved when it's over.
I don't want to live like that. I only have a finite time on this earth, and I'm going to die no matter what my mentality in life was.
I'd rather it be something positive. Of course i know intellectually that I'm fortunate. Of course I'm awed when I see a sunset or nature, and I'm happy when I'm listening to music or have the sunshine on my face.
However, I'm more worried about what's coming next instead of being happy in the present moment, which is something I need to fix.
- We suffer more in imagination than in reality.
- Understand that you have privilege
- Things work out in the end.
- You're going to die in the end, so no need to worry that much or take life that seriously.
- Be OK with uncertainty. Life would be boring if it was all in our control and we knew exactly what would happen.
As the Buddha said, life is suffering. However, true happiness (in this lifetime at least) relies on :
Buddhism says that happiness is a state of mind that is cultivated through mental discipline and compassion. Happiness is not dependent on external objects or circumstances, but on inner peace and wisdom. Happiness is one of the factors of enlightenment, and it is achieved by understanding the true nature of reality and freeing oneself from attachment and aversion. Happiness is also inclusive of all beings, and it is enhanced by cherishing others and wishing them well
Happiness in Buddhism is not a temporary emotion that comes and goes, but a lasting peace that transcends the ups and downs of life.
I've realized that happiness originates in the mind, not on external factors. It's about how still and calm you are in yourself, no matter what's happening around you. Like being the eye of the storm.
Some key signs of happiness include:
Feeling like you are living the life you wanted
Going with the flow and a willingness to take life as it comes
Feeling that the conditions of your life are good
Enjoying positive, healthy relationships with other people
Feeling that you have accomplished (or will accomplish) what you want in life
Feeling satisfied with your life
Feeling positive more than negative
Being open to new ideas and experiences
Practicing self-care and treating yourself with kindness and compassion
Experiencing gratitude
Feeling that you are living life with a sense of meaning and purpose
Wanting to share your happiness and joy with others
Is open to learning new things
Is high in humility and patience
Smiles and laughs readily
Goes with the flow
Practices compassion
Is often grateful
Exercises self-care
Enjoys healthy relationships
Is happy for other people
Gives and receives without torment
Lives with meaning and purpose
Does not feel entitled and has fewer expectations
Is not spiteful or insulting
Does not hold grudges
Does not register small annoyances
Does not angst over yesterday and tomorrow
Does not play games
Is not a martyr or victim
Is not stingy with their happiness
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Happiness is not the result of bouncing from one joy to the next; researchers find that achieving happiness typically involves times of considerable discomfort. Genetic makeup, life circumstances, achievements, marital status, social relationships, even your neighbors—all influence how happy you are. Or can be. So do individual ways of thinking and expressing feelings. Research shows that much of happiness is under personal control.
Regularly indulging in small pleasures, getting absorbed in challenging activities, setting and meeting goals, maintaining close social ties, and finding purpose beyond oneself all increase life satisfaction. It isn't happiness per se that promotes well-being, it’s the actual pursuit that’s key.
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Humans, however, are excellent at adapting to new circumstances, which means that people will habituate to their new relationship or wealth, return to a baseline level of happiness, and seek out the next milestone. Fortunately, the same principle applies to setbacks—we are resilient and will most likely find happiness again.
Regarding finances specifically, research shows that the sweet spot for yearly income is between $60,000 and $95,000 a year, not a million-dollar salary. Earnings above $95,000 do not equate to increased well-being; a person earning $150,000 a year will not necessarily be as happy as a person earning a lot less.
The type of thoughts below exemplify these misconceptions about happiness:
"I’ll be happy when I’m rich and successful."
"I’ll be happy when I’m married to the right person."
"Landing my dream job will make me happy."
"I can’t be happy when my relationship has fallen apart."
"I will never recover from this diagnosis."
"The best years of my life are over."
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Experience happiness in the present moment, because that's all we have. Then, happiness is not something that happens to us, as a means of acquiring something, but it's something that we specifically take time out for.
It's not something that someone will give to us.
It's not something that will be given by us to a deity (at least in this life).
Suffering may be internal and external to us, but lasting mental happiness regardless of circumstances is only internal, after achieving basic needs. Only internal.
In addition to the article “What Is Happiness?” by Kendra Cherry already mentioned, “What Is Happiness?” on Psychology Today, and Psychology of Happiness on Psychologist World may also be found useful to read together with this article.
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