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vintage matchbooks from the arquives: canada's lgbtq2+ archives
#OBSESSED WITH THESE BTW. & felt so proud when i recognized bars/clubs by name :')#lgbt#gay#bisexual#gay bar#queer#vintage lgbt#vintage queer#vintage gay#lgbt history#queer history#gay history#vintage matchbooks#nudity#suggestive#ask me to tag further
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I'm looking for a fic and driving myself nuts about it. plz help
It's sbi with reader, completely family stuff, tech phil and wilbur are ghosts, tommy tubbo and reader are runaways (i think?), it's on Tumblr, older than a year, tommy tubbo and reader don't wanna leave bc they are happy there so they commit suicide so they can stay as ghosts
It's v angsty and I need to re-read it
#tw: suicide mention#sbi fanfic#sbi x reader#angst with a happy ending#i really hope i did this right if not then#ask me to tag further#yelling out into the void and hoping here
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Do you get the impression the live action is treating us like utter morons?? Like I thought that making it aimed at an older audience would open the doors for more subtle story telling, but no, they're just using monologues to tell us eveything! Like in the second episode Katara's like 'oh his power isn't that he's the avatar, it's that he ~connects~ to people'. Girl we're not idiots we can see that!! And the first episode with Aang's goddawful 'I don't want this responsibility' monologue
THIS, YES. The word that keeps coming to mind is definitely "subtlety". The show for literal children? Had it. The remake for adults? Not so much.
#This is literally Storytelling 101: Show Don't Tell#I'm sorry scriptwriters I know you were working before your union won minimal staffing in writers' rooms and decent pay and all that#but You Know What You Did#Also cgi artists plz unionize#A few more hours on Momo would have maybe taken him further out of the nightmare monkey puppet category#I know some people are reporting him as cute#But all I can see is a creature from the Magnus Archives#that thing is the skin of Momo being worn by something that doesn't quite move right underneath#And maybe it is looking for a better fit#Don't let it touch you adorable child actor Aang#avatar the last airbender#atla#natla#Anyone looking to block the live action posts I'll be tagging all of these with that natla tag going forward#But yeah not going to post about it much#I came I saw I deemed it not worth the hours of my life it asked#I can literally write a better Avatar AU than this#Anyway back to Toph beating up Blind Zuko!#*write write write"#(their big budget fanfic can't hurt me it can only introduce more fans to the original)
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TYPECAST: First Kanaphan edition
#first kanaphan#the eclipse#moonlight chicken#blacklist series#wolf series#only friends the series#not me the series#wake up ladies#my gifs#my edits#mine: first kanaphan#mine: typecast#userjamiec#tuserhidden#tuserrowan#tostrangers#idk if any usertags will work bc of how far down they are? but#should i use the edit tags instead of the show names?#i don't wanna use bl source or asian lgbtq~ tags bc they're not all bls#i don't fuckn no how to tag thisssss#i am in DISTRESS#i was about to say presented without further commentary but then i did my alt texts#sorry about that.#i lost my mind making this set btw#nobody's allowed to ask chiara about it#i have khaotung drafted but i have to go download a bunch of episodes to gif some of the characters#u better believe i have typecasts written for a bunch of these boys but lord knows if i'll ever do em#i didn't do kim because 1) i haven't watched the shipper and 2) i just have him described as 'dead' because i think i'm funny#i didn't do f4 or astrophile either bc i haven't watched them and don't intend to
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💥ITS BACK…! COMMISSION INFORMATION! 💥
Commission Information Doc!
Okay, cool, when done reading that (IN FULL, I UPDATE IT REGULARLY. Even returning commissioners should re-read the doc to note changes!!) Review the slot availability on my pinned post! It used to be here, but.
CATEGORY 1 HAS FOUR SLOTS that will cycle out relatively regularly (if things run smoothly).
CATEGORY 2 HAS TWO (LIMITED) SLOTS that will cycle only once in a while due to time constraints and wait times.
SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE, THANKS FOR THE PATIENCE. 💕
#my art#that might be too many slots but idk gotta start somewhere#ermmmm idk what to tag yet#LETS HOPE THAT LINK WORKS sometimes i mess that up#twstposting#kinda#twisted wonderland#(primarily but this extends further if anyone knows me)#if i get asked certain questions i will know who and who hasnt actually read the whole doc first
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and everything that's here is rising in tone and saturation
it's an aching, it's a violence, it's a longing to erase the separation
a companion piece to Cicadas, of sorts.
closeups under the cut:
#sleep token#sleep token art#sleep token fanart#sleep token vessel#sleep token him#bygone art#bygone beloved#eyestrain#eyestrain tw#ask to tag#this one took more time than i'd like to admit. i'm usually pretty quick with my art because i tend to get consumed by the process#but this time i was consumed by other things as well. i suppose it's good that i decided to take it slow#crywolf's new song (tenebrescence) inspired me to finish this. lyrics from it are also in the caption#also to stress it further this piece is connected to Cicadas in a way#same colors (in places) & composition inspired by page 1 & the theme is similar#Cicadas is about how every vessel is expendable and how there's always someone before and after and there always will be#this is about the change of a specific one. he was someone before and he will be someone after#and he'll be himself again. a different himself than he started as but himself nonetheless#it will be okay but it will be different but it will be okay#the intense feelings (good and bad) coming from your being someone else will go away but you will be okay and you will be you#ah fuck my eyes hurt
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I was joking a while back that the actor they have playing KDJ for the orv movie was too handsome for him and a friend who's read orv was like "KDJ is actually secretly attractive!!" And I just felt my soul leave my body right then
SIGHS...
Okay. Buckle in. I'm gonna finally actually address and explain and theorize about this whole...thing.
I'm not gonna cite any exact chapters cause it's like 11:30 and I've got an 8 hour drive in the morning but I'll at least make an approximate reference to where certain things are mentioned. Also, this post is just my personal interpretation for a good bit of it, but it's an interpretation I feel very solid about, so do with that what you will. Moving on to the meat of things:
There is one (1) instance in the web novel that I know of which describes specific features of Kim Dokja (especially ones other people notice). This takes place when members of KimCom are trying to make Kim Dokja presentable to give his speech at the Industrial Complex (after it's been plopped down on Earth). This is when they start really paying attention and focusing on Kim Dokja's appearance since they're putting makeup on him; I still don't think they can interpret his whole face, but they can accurately pick out and retain more features than usual. If I remember correctly they reference him having long eyelashes, smooth skin, and soft hair. These features can be viewed as (stereotypically) attractive.
Certain parts of the fandom have taken this scene and run with it at a very surface level, without realizing (or without acknowledging at the very least) that this scene is not about how Kim Dokja looks. This is, in part, due to not realizing or acknowledging why Kim Dokja's face is "censored" in the first place, and what that censoring actually means. I think it's also possible that some people are assuming the censorship works like a physical phenomena rather than an altered perception.
I'll address that last point first. The censorship of Kim Dokja's features is not something as simple as a physical phenomena. It's not a bar or scribble or mosaic over his face. If that were true it'd be very obvious to anyone looking at him that his face is hidden. But his face is not hidden to people. They can look at him and see a face. If they concentrate on his eyes, they can see where he's looking. They know when he's frowning or grinning. They see a face loud and clear. But what face are they seeing? Because it's not really his, whatever they're seeing.
No one quite agrees on what he really looks like. And if they try and think about what he looks like, they can't recall. Or if they do, it's vague, or different each time. We notice these little details throughout the series. Basically, Kim Dokja's face is cognitively obscured. Something - likely the Fourth Wall, though I can't recall if this is ever stated outright - is interfering with everyone's ability to perceive him properly. This culminated in him feeling off to others; and since they don't even realize this is happening, they surmise that he is "ugly."
Moving on to the other point about what the censorship means: To be blunt, the censorship of his face is an allegory for his disconnect from the "story" (aka: real life, and the real people at his side). The lifting - however slight - of this censorship represents him becoming more and more a part of the "story" (aka: less disconnected from the life he is living and the people at his side). The censorship's existence and lifting can represent other things - like dissociation or depersonalization or, if you want to get really meta, the fact that he is all of our faces at once - but that's how I'd sum up the main premise of it. (The Fourth Wall is a larger part of the dissociation allegory, but that's for another post).
So you see, them noticing his individual features isn't about the features. It's not about the features! It doesn't matter at all which features got listed. Because they could describe any features whatsoever and it would not change the entire point of the scene. Because the point isn't what he looks like. The point is that they can truly and clearly see these features. For the first time. They are seeing parts of him for the first time. Re-read that sentence multiple times, literally and metaphorically. What does it mean to see someone as they are?
This is an extremely significant turning point dressed up as a dress-up scene.
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P.S. / Additionally, I'm of the opinion that Kim Dokja is not handsome, and he is not ugly. He is not pretty, and he is not ghastly. Not attractive, nor unattractive. Kim Dokja isn't any of these things. More importantly, Kim Dokja can't be any of these things. The entire point of Kim Dokja is that you cannot pick him out of a crowd; he is the crowd. He's a reader. He's the reader. Why does he need to be handsome? Why must he be pretty? Why is him being attractive necessary or relevant? He doesn't, he doesn't, it's not. He is someone deeply deeply loved and irreplaceable to those around him, and someone who cannot even begin to recognize or accept that unless it's through a love letter masquerading as a story he can read. He is the crowd, a reader, the reader. He's you, he's me. He's every single one of us.
#orv#orv analysis#orv meta#orv spoilers#mine#ask#there's also the meta that he is described with these (stereotypically) pretty features as they are about to try and 'sell' him to a crowd#which feels to me like a very pointed way to convey how 'beauty' is commodified. how audiences like 'attractive' characters more#note: made some edits to add in a couple of sentences my brain forgot in the moment so make sure u reblogged those if u do#tag edits for further commentary that isnt strictly relevant to the point i was making:#do i think that this face censorship was executed as well as it could have been? nah.#not that it was like. done Badly. it's followed through to a certain point. its established enough for me to make this post at least.#but i do think it is the one thing in the web novel that SS didn't capitalize on.#like. they still stuck the landing but it was not as picture perfect of an execution as the rest of the metaphorical stuff in orv#also. this (not the face censorship specifically but the 'hes just some guy' point of it all) is one of the big reasons i think that-#-visual adaptions of orv can never quite work. they can do the best that they can with that medium but a lot of nuance is lost-#-simply by virtue of it being a visual medium#i personally think the only way a visual medium could work would be one where they commit to the power move of not showing kdj's face#(until a certain point (of view) that is)#his face is always facing away or out of frame or hidden by someone or something else in the way#commit to the fucking allegory or simply perish
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finished ch 11 and now it's just permanently lodged in my brain... especially this scene so i had to draw something ahhh
AHHHHHHHHH BENTLEY SEX BENTLEY SEX BENTLEY SEX!!!!!!!!
i’m so so so obsessed with this, thank you!! that’s them that’s literally them!! ive been staring at this for 5 hours now. i am not going to be able to get work done today because all i’m going to care about is this art of them fucking pathetic style in the bentley. my crops are watered and the light has been turned ON
#AHHHHHHEUCIEKFKKEKFKEKKCKEKKCKRKFEKKEKXKKDE IM SO BLESSED#no pressure but again throwing this out there#i don’t like linking fanart from asks as i like to put it in the fan artists hands#and link directly to their account for further traffic to their blog#so i won’t link to this from the fic#but if anyone WANTS their art permanently attached to the fic - make a post and tag me!#which means if you want to send me art without fear that it’ll be posted somewhere - tumblr asks continue to be best for that!#in either case i appreciate this so much no matter what!!!!#hdwtotl
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*sliding a €20* what's it gonna take for a girl!nico edit 🫴
so like my aim was to do the current drivers but. i am SO easily persuaded ngl
#the song of the sirens [drawing girl!nico] pulling me further and further#to be fair its hundreds of times likelier that ill draw rosberg than hulkenberg. so at least theres that#but ill. try to prioritise him on my list👀#im basically almost out of drawings (all of these i posted were already made) so its free rein from now on#and that includes [pockets the €20] girl!nico#ask#blorbocedes#girl drivers tag
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that soft round brush is gonna kill me btw that shit you drew is SKSBSKSB sksbsksbsj ksKSBSJSBSMALQJSLAHSKWBDKSJ 😳😳😳😳😳🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥴🥴🥴🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣
Does this mean i succeeded in making him look.. um.. whats the word. grabbable
hehe
#sure you could use other words too. but. i shant say. anyway.#i will have to experiment more with the default brushes#also if anyone reads the tags#do you think that was a good body type for him?#buff but not super low body fat %#any suggestions for future adjustments? if not i'll keep drawin him like that#(do not expect anything detailed anytime soon though)#i know in game hes skinny but let me live.#i need to handful of [further comments redacted]#ask#asks#non voice post
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ooooh aaah my first anonymous hate mail!
now i know i said i'd post this sort of stuff publicly to shame the sender, but i'm faaaaiiirly sure this is a kid. so! i'm not gonna post it, or engage, and have in fact already deleted it, because i really really suspect it's a kid.
i'll address one part: about me not tagging my work.
like many other things in the ask, that's an outright lie. i actually do my best to tag comprehensively and liberally, and if you're hatescrolling my blog you already know my tag for the shipaganza in particular is this: 🎀💖
i have put this tag (again, it's 🎀💖) on every post related to the shipaganza. even the explicitly non-romantic, platonic ones (like bandee's and kirby's) and the what the heck is that? ones (like marx's) so that people can liberally avoid it for any number of reasons. i'm just doing this event for fun, and want it to be fun for people viewing the work as well!
i also make it clear regularly that earnest folks can ask me to tag anything in particular and i will do so. however, i cannot control what tags are used on a post once it leaves my blog, so i recommend that you use this handy feature
to make sure you never have to see any of my content ever again, no matter who else might reblog it onto your feed!
if that's not enough and you're still finding mentions of me on your timeline (such as when other people @ me), you can also apparently use "filtered post content" and just put my username in there. now i haven't tried that in particular, but it seems comprehensive as it searches the entire post for instances of a phrase. here are the instructions on how to do that.
anyway! i hope these steps successfully help you to never see my content or mentions of me ever again!
#the other very important aspect of blocking me if you don't like me is that i won't accidentally interact with one of YOUR pieces.#that would be uncomfortable and embarrassing for everybody! 👍#i will also say that i have turned off anonymous asks for a while to let this person chill out a bit as i'm not interested in engaging.#normal asks are still open and i'm sure i'll reopen anons eventually#i'm sorry to have to turn them off during the shipaganza in particular! i really love receiving your prompts!#(edit: apparently i can just turn reblogs off! so i did that! no worries.)#i don't want to risk drawing any further attention to the kid and it really only applies to my blog anyway!#should i tag this one anything? negativity? i didn't post the ask itself so it's probably okay but lmk!
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stop posting random anons and conversations with people idc about that shit post content
ok :(
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ta daaaa
(….also pls read the tags anon, they’re for you)
#nooo I won’t stop completely i’m sorry#i’m working on a thing rn but can’t work on it bc I don’t have my computer and my only way to further it rn is answering asks and aaaahhh#but also you can block the ‘hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit’ tag if you don’t want to see non-hall of fame posts#and I do have one hhof worthy/legendary post publish every morning#so yeah I get these asks often enough for me to say i’m sorry :/#and like I won’t stop completely#but yeah it’s too many i’m sorry#also I only post like 1% of the asks I get :/#so yeah#also this is the kind of ask that would lower my ego and make my stomach drop to thank you anon lol#*so#hellsite god complex#poof it’s gone#ty anon#ask#the hellsite answers#anonymous#hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit
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I love you for single handedly keeping the VLD fandom alive for us 💜💜💜. Keep doing what you’re doing
honestly i'm just certifiably insane like this isn't even voltron anymore. we are so far past canon voltron it's not even funny. we are now fully enveloped in the KCU (klanced cinematic universe) and you all are my captive audience
#ask#anonymous#every now and then someone likes my posts and i remember i'm not alone here#this isn't a blog at this point this is just my diary#once i start law school i think it's going to get even weirder because this'll be the one place i can be silly#I do forget this is a public platform though. like every now and then I’ll blackout in the tags cause I’ll get a little too sillayyyyyyy#and then I hit the post button without any further thought#and it’s not until someone reblogs and is like ‘good post. btw op you’re insane’ that I’m like omg I forgor you all were also here#this is not the internet to me as far as I’m concerned I’m at my kitchen table buttering toast and talking out loud
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hello i believe you asked to be reminded about petalpressed? that sounds very interesting do explain
Hello yes! okay so rundown of Petalpressed:
In general, Petalpressed is an AU template I created that focuses on flower symbolism. It's like a combo hanahaki and soulmate tattoos au, except only taking the best parts of both. So everybody has a "living" tattoo somewhere on their body of a plant (or plant-adjacent, it's very broad - so fungi, lichens, algae, etc also count). The plant, in some way, represents or symbolizes the individual, usually via flower language, though it's totally a personalized thing so you can get as funky with it as you want. It can be absolutely anywhere on their body (face/head, back, legs, etc), take up a completely random amount of space (tip of finger vs entire torso, etc), and it will change based on the state of the individual.
Okay rest including PJO-ification under the cut cause this got long:
For example, when the person is a baby their tattoo will appear as just a seed or bulb or whatever is applicable for that plant. The plant will also probably be semi-ambiguous at that point or change plant types as babies don't really have a ton of defining traits. By the time they start settling into being an individual they'll get a more clear plant and it will most likely stay that for the rest of their lives, unless they experience a major shift in their identity that would cause it to change. It also is unlikely to change locations on the body unless for the same reason. The plant will also reflect the person's physical or emotional state, such as wilting if they're very sick or upset, blooming if they're extremely happy, etc etc. Some people may also have generalized versus specific tattoos, such as general "roses" rather than "roses of a specific color" in which case their tattoo may change colors to match mood/plant language associated with that specific color of the plant/or just at random, depending on person.
The soulmate/hanahaki thing comes in when the person develops romantic feelings or enters a mutual romantic relationship (specific because i'm aroace so I like including normalization of not having a partner, even QPP - there's still leeway there though with how individuals categorize "romantic" and obviously it's a template so there's freedom to mess with it). If they have a crush they may start coughing up the plant or parts of the plant associated with that person, though it doesn't cause them any physical harm. Does the coughing-up-petals thing go away once the relationship is reciprocated or is it just a thing that Happens When You're In Love Sometimes At Random? Who knows. You decide. If they enter a mutual romantic relationship with someone, their partner's (or partners') plants or a part of their plants will appear beside their own, and will change depending on the state of the relationship or partner's physicality or emotions. If their relationship is going well, the plant may bloom, if it's going poorly it may wilt, etc, and same if the partner(s) are upset/sick/etc. If the relationship breaks off or is no longer reciprocated the secondary plant will disappear, and if it left a particularly strong impact on the individual, residual parts of the partner/partners' plant(s) may be left behind, such as leaves, seeds, or petals. It depends on the person/relationship if those remnants will ever go away or how long it may take.
"Plant compatibility" is totally a horoscope-type thing in this universe alongside stereotypes of types of plants, and that's where the "soulmate" concept comes in. It is up to discretion if it is actual soulmates or just coincidental, but in-universe there is an idea of "If you share an exact plant with somebody, you are soulmates." Again, re: horoscope thing, here it could totally just be a coincidental thing based on "If you share a plant that is meant to symbolize you, chances are you have similar personalities and so will get along." There may be people with the total opposite perspective - "Don't date someone with the same plant" because maybe having similar personalities means you'll totally clash. Those concepts probably co-exist in practicality. Lots of variety. Also totally up to customization if the plants have to be local to where the person's from or be from anywhere or how much you want to stretch the definition of "plant" or etc etc. Lots of fiddling options.
I do have a sideblog for it as a more generalized template - @petal-pressed. Since it's a template, it's meant to be applicable to any fandom and totally free to use, and I occasionally post prompts on that blog. And again, the template intentionally lots of room for fiddling and freedom.
Anyways the PJOification of all of this:
"What ships are this au" Whatever's funniest/most dramatic in the moment. Go wild. Make your own variations or whatever.
Everybody's plants: (subject to change)
Percy & Annabeth - Bluebells (They match) - Annabeth's on arm where she got stabbed, Percy on small of back.
Grover - False goat's beard, placement undecided
Piper - Anemone (plant not animal), placement undecided
Jason - Forget-me-nots, right forearm
Leo - Hydrangea, placement undecided
Hazel - Clover, possibly forearm
Frank - Undecided but Snapdragons maybe, possibly forearm
Reyna - Jonquil, possibly forearm
Nico - Dandelions, wrist
Will - Sunflowers, side of torso/back
Luke - Originally Lilacs on face, changes to Rhododendron and spreads to shoulder/armpit.
Thalia - Eastern White Pine, placement undecided
Calypso - Undecided but Hibiscus or Zinnia maybe, placement undecided
I have some other notes for other characters but theyre all very noncommittal
I made a lot of random moodboards for this au but since they were just for personal use I don't have the credits for the images and so will not post those. If people are interested I might take requests to make new ones though. They're quite fun for me to make.
And random doodles - The first one is an extremely old one that was just me fiddling with random designs + cameo Solangelo to show off how the plant tattoos might look
And then some more recent ones:
I usually do aro/ace Leo for these aus, so here's him pretending to cough up plants as if he had a crush ^
and some silly Jasico ^
Some other misc fun notes I had for random things:
"Is this canon-verse au or non-canon-verse?" you may be asking. The answer is. Depends. You decide. Again this is not a fully fledged singular au it's just me rotating a template in my brain and it happened to be formed around PJO initially.
Because Percy and Annabeth both have bluebells as their flower, when Percy disappears and loses his memory, both he and Annabeth can't tell if they have only their own flowers or the flowers of two people and it totally freaks them out.
Also because they share flowers, when Nico has his crush on Percy and is thus coughing up bluebells, people presume he has a crush on Annabeth because those are her flowers too. He's not having a great time.
One variant of the thoughts my friends and I brainstormed for Jason was that he and Reyna were dating before he disappeared, and when he lost his memory it also made Reyna's flowers disappear from his tattoo completely. It took longer for Jason's flowers to fade from Reyna's tattoo and she just got to watch Jason's flowers change depending on his state wherever he was until they disappeared too.
Nymphs are obviously pretty one-for-one with their plant. If they even have tattoos is up to you. Either way this does mean Lavinia is coughing up poison oak though so she's having a bit of a rough time. She thinks it's totally worth it though. The coughed-up plants don't really hurt you as bad as the actual plant might, if at all, so she's fine in general.
I had other thoughts too but i'm forgetting.
uhh anyways yeah i think that's about it. woo flower au.
#pjo#riordanverse#ask#spaceyaceylesbian#petalpressed#au#my art#ask to tag#yippee. this au is very fun to me#just cause you can mess around with a lot of stuff#i do have other doodles/designs of this au if anyone is curious to see those#but they're general random designs not pjo-specific#again this is basically me looking at both hanahaki and soulmate tattoo aus and going ''im going to take the fun parts of both of these''#''and just ditch the rest''#still plenty of angst potential if that's your jam but also way easier to keep it fluffy#also i only half-proofread this so if clarification or further detail is wanted on anything feel free to ask#i am always happy to talk petalpressed i think it's neat
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How do you think Sam will find out that Tara knows what her medication is for? How long do you think Tara can keep it a secret before eventually it slips. Then how do you think that conversation would go?
Previous.
Sam wakes up in the morning to find Tara asleep on the couch with her phone clutched in hand, and dried tearstains on her face. She wonders if she had a nightmare, she wonders why she didn't wake her up. (She wonders if Tara couldn't bear to be around her, if the nightmares were about her.)
She does her best to shake off the unwanted thoughts.
Over the coming days, Sam notices that Tara is quieter, more in her head, and watching her whenever she isn't. It makes Sam nervous, change has never bought anything good into her life, but the reminder of how pushing for answers only pushed Tara away keeps her swallowing the are you ok's and the you know you can talk to me's in her throat.
Tara spends two agonising weeks deliberating over how to ask Sam, whether to bring it up at all, when the choice is taken out of her hands.
She wakes up one day and reaches for her phone, only to find it missing. She was sure she had put it on the side table to charge last night, but a quick search behind it and under the bed proves fruitless.
When she leaves the bedroom, it's to the sight of Sam on the couch, leg bouncing, and Tara's phone in hand.
"Sam," Tara acknowledges warily, immediately on edge. "I was looking for that," she says, nodding towards the mobile in Sam's hand.
"I took it."
Sam looks agitated, eyes darting around the room.
"I can see that." Tara struggles to keep her tone even when all she wants is to demand to know what's going on, if Sam knows what she did.
She settles beside her sister on the couch and reaches out for her phone. Sam pulls it away and places it beside the tv remote on the coffee table, far out of Tara's reach.
Sam won't look at her.
Tara lips her licks, nervous. "Sam, can I have my phone please."
"No," she declares, hands clenching into fists in her lap.
"Why?"
When she doesn't respond, Tara asks again. "Sam, why can't I have my phone?"
She hears Sam take a shaky breath. Her next words chill Tara to the bone, filling her with dread.
"I don't want you to see."
Tara gasps, air choking in her throat. "See what, what happened?!" she wheezes out, clutching at her chest. "Did- did someone-"
Sam's head snaps up as she hears her sister's breathing change. "Shit, no! I'm sorry- wait, hold on." She runs from the room, smacking against the doorframe in her rush to enter the bedroom and grab Tara's inhaler.
Holding it to her mouth, Sam berates herself for being so stupid. What else was Tara supposed to think? Idiot. She cups Tara's cheek, stroking behind her ear idly as she calms down.
"I'm sorry," she whispers, disappointed in herself for worrying Tara like that. "I didn't mean to scare you."
Her sister rests a hand on the back of Sam's wrist. "I just want to know what's going on, Sam," Tara responds, tired eyes looking up at her.
Sam closes her eyes and rips the bandaid off. "My therapy file got leaked online."
"Oh shit!" Tara exclaims, jumping to her feet and wrapping her arms around her. "Are you ok?"
Sam buries her face in Tara's hair. "I'm sorry I took your phone, I panicked."
Tara doesn't miss the way Sam dodges the question, she just squeezes her sister tighter, ignoring the way it makes her injuries ache. She feels immeasurably guilty for the lie when she says "I won't read anything you don't want me to."
"No," Sam sniffs, pulling backwards. "You should read it. Everyone else will- has. It's better you know, so you're prepared."
Sam hands her her phone back and sits back on the couch, spine straight and body stiff. Waiting, expecting. It hurts Tara to see Sam so anxious, so scared for Tara to read what's waiting for her online.
Biting her lip, Tara makes a decision and climbs into Sam's lap, forcing her backwards.
"What are you doing?" Sam mutters as Tara makes herself comfortable, resting her head on Sam's shoulder. This, she thinks, as Sam relaxes beneath her, arms wrapping around her from behind.
Tara unlocks her phone.
#/mp#ask box#Scream#Sam Carpenter#Tara Carpenter#don't ask me who leaked it maybe they set it up to auto send out or something. i do not have further answers on that lol.#anyway these girls ain't telling the other shit willingly. they're too scared of losing the other.#they're both ride or die but the other doesn't even understand that yet#ANYWAY i actually hate this. i feel like it's low quality but i can't explain why.#this too me like 4 hours to write. eugh.#my writing tag
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Just curious since you write alot of very long one shots. What do you consider a long fic because I remember reading Euclidean line for the first time without checking how long it was because I was looking for a bed time story and wanted to read a oneshot so I could get to sleep quickly. And I end up finishing the fic 2 hours later because I couldn't stop reading it. And I remember thinking, "THAT WAS A ONESHOT???" By the end because I'm used to oneshots being like 1k-10k words.
first of all, oh my god, i'm so sorry scream. this keeps happening to people
soooo. for me i have a couple of different categories of fics that i keep in mind when i go to work on something, and i have a different answer for each of them.
very short one shots - one scene i want to get out of my head. think this mikey fic or this idw donnie fic. these are usually between 1-5k, which for me feels very very short. i don't write a lot of them, because part of what i enjoy writing the most is the progression that happens over time and that's not really... possible at this length. properly, to me. these feel long to me when they start bleeding into... ->
short one shots - think the donnie sex pollen fic, the donnie camping fic, or the blurple villain au fic here. these are 5-20k, which still feels pretty short to me. it's enough for one "proper" scene, or a few short scenes. and these start feeling long when they bleed into... ->
proper one-shots - a la leo wants a baby and of course the aforementioned euclidean line. these are anything 20k+ that are contained in one single chapter. the sweet spot for me is around 30k; that's when things start feeling like i can put enough flavor without dragging an idea out beyond its utility, though sometimes, that idea does carry it further than that. a one-shot starts feeling "long" probably when i hit the 40k mark. that's when i reassess if it should actually be a proper chapter fic, or if it functions better as a one-shot. for euclidean line, because the theme of that fic was the contiguous floaty feeling you get when you're lost in something you love, it felt inappropriate to me to break that into chapters, which are very disruptive to the flow of reading. as you've noted, these are my favorite things to write!
chaptered fics - just symphony........ for now. these vary widely to me. (well. i guess technically we do it together is a chaptered fic... but really it was originally conceptualized as a one-shot; i wrote it as such, and split it up later. i was experimenting with breaking my one-shots into shorter chapters, and i really don't like it. so. yeah. desceros lore for you.) as for these... i think they feel "long" to me when i get about to the 130-150k mark. that's when i see how long it takes me to scroll through the document to find little details and i'm like jesus christ this is absurd. most of my chaptered fics finish out i think somewhere around the 150-200k mark, and the longest thing i've ever finished was right at 300k. just to put it into context i suppose!
#ask tag#there's a hint of overlap around the end of short and the beginning of proper... like... i consider the tea fic a proper one-shot.#(18k) but to me. leo wants a baby feels short (20k). so.#it... probably also has something to do with the number of scenes in it... this requires further analysis.#fascinating question! thank you so much!!
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