i am very much aware this was obvious to everyone but me but i just realized Lyctorhood is specifically a metaphor for relationship that ended without closure. not just unexpectedly, not just violently, but without a proper closure. you make yourself a mausoleum, you get changed by only the memory of them, you collect every scraps and pieces they might have left being, because you didn't get proper closure and you're obsessing over the buts and ifs and what could have been if you just did something different. could it be avoided? could it have gone differently?

this refusal to forget, this not having moved on even with literally thousands of years on the line, remind me of how you can't get proper closure and suddenly you are sure this pain will be perpetual, sure you'll never see a world not tainted by their absence.

You don’t know me

Oh this is about Death isn't it-!?/lh

Hey, you hit me with "Phantom of the Bwahpera simp", I'm taking you down with me!/lh

I actually wrote something today and it felt good. I haven't wrote anything creative in a long time. Maybe this one will actually see the light of day even if it isn't going to be that great.

adding onto my tags, i feel like the mansion is like the windows screensaver maze

you have a beautiful mind

I have so many Narvin/Romana thoughts during Time War 2: Assassins.

Especially when Romana finally finds the bridge Narvin won't cross.

just had a genius idea might spend all night drawing it completely inadequately 

well have you considered that maybe the unstoppable force is in love with the immovable object

"people show their true colours in life threatening situations" no, they show you what they act like when they're mortally terrified, an emotion notorious for literally turning your entire brain off to the point where people who go into those situations as a profession need to be literally trained on how to not have that happen

guy who says "FUCK!" to every minor inconvenience x guy who says "oopsie daisies" to earth shattering catastrophes

This is the funniest way you could've put it

The best piece of advice I ever got was not meant as advice, but as an edict. If I was going to threaten people as a joke, it had to be so far out of proportion with what happened that it would be obvious I was joking. This changed how I expressed frustration with others. It then changed how I expressed frustration with myself.

Not “I’m going to hit you” but “I am going to buy a tuna sub from the gas station and hide it under the seat of your car”

Not “I’m going to kill myself” but “I am going to walk into the desert and let the scarabs take me”

The other side then happened. When I mess something up, instead of saying it’s bad and perpetuating negative thoughts, swing hard the other way.

Not “this art is terrible” but “this shall be framed and mounted on the wall in my museum exhibition as testament to the suffering I had to overcome”

Have been doing this since high school. It was my drama teacher who asked me to please stop scaring the actors. The other half of the edict was that I had to say it in a polite tone, and end it with either please or thank you.

Life changing. 10/10 Mr Muëller. Highly reccomend.

do *you* think with your dick?

I think with my packer