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osamu-dazais-husband · 7 months

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Hello, I was wondering if you could do ciel x ftm! Reader, in wich Reader is very dysphoric about their big chest but also likes it a lot.

They get nervous and pick on their chest a lot and when Ciel asks if they want top surgery, reader breaks down because they don't know yet.

Like, they really want to but are also very scared.

Have a good day/night

This sounds so sweet, i struggle with this a lot too so i enjoyed writing about this so much!

Ciel Phantomhive with a big chested ftm reader!

Being transgender is hard enough, being transgender in the 1800's where you're held to a certain standard is even harder, it's almost impossible for you to feel comfortable in your body especially since you're forced to wear a damn big dress all the time.

Everywhere you went it felt like you were just hiding your true self from everyone, everywhere except for Ciel's manor, you had told your boyfriend that you were trans after you started to trust him with that information and he surprisingly reacted really well! He tried to make you as comfortable as possible and when you are at his manor you don't have to wear those damn dresses, you get to raid his closet and he even orders Sebastian to specially design and make clothes to your liking. Although, being in 1800's, binders or other methods of hiding your chest were not invented yet, part of you didn’t mind, a bigger part of you hated it, you didn’t fully feel comfortable with yourself.

One day you were hanging out in ciel’s manor, he thought you were both having a great conversation but that was then he saw you picking at your chest, again. He always hated it when you did that on the off chance you could hurt yourself and stops you immediately. He had enough of it though and asked if you wanted to have a surgery eventually to get your chest removed.

That made you snap, you never told ciel you actually liked your breasts and did not know if you wanted them off, you started crying, hard and in that moment ciel rushed over to your seat, kneeling to your level so he’s not hovering above you and wipes your tears, asking what’s wrong and ordering Sebastian to get water for you.

You broke down telling ciel how conflicted you were, you liked your breasts, you hated having to be called a girl in public and those breasts being one of the main reasons why. You didn’t know what you wanted to do! Were you going to regret it after it’s done? What if something happens!?

You started mumbling all possibilities that could happen in result of a surgery until ciel cut you off.

“You don’t have to get the surgery if you don’t want to, it’s your body and if you’re not comfortable with taking the risk then you shouldn’t, you are who you are and no matter what body parts you have the only person who can define you is you. If you want to go through with it, I’ll be with you every step of the way. If not, you’re still my boy”

Those words made you feel just a little safer

You didn’t need to know yet, you can just go at your own speed, if you don’t know about surgery, you know one thing, ciel cares about you enough to love you either way.

#black butler x reader #ciel phantomhive #ciel x reader #black butler x male reader #ciel x male reader #oneshot #black butler headcanons #black butler x trans reader #ciel x trans reader #ciel x ftm reader #black butler x ftm reader

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darl1ngd3ar3st · 2 years

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murdoc with a transmasc boyfriend headcanons

feelin a bit more comfy as a trans dude lately so why not provide this am I right

- will beat up anyone who misgenders or deadnames you

- even if they apologize or did it on accident he will start a riot

- he loves his boyfriend so much

- he calls you handsome all the time especially when you're dysphoric

- he helped you cut your hair and then russel yelled at him for not just taking you to get it done professionally

- whatever he did a good job and he was proud of how your hair turned out

- he did some research on where to find you a good binder and helped get your measurements

- didn't let you spend a penny on your binder he bought it himself

- he's kinda dumb but he definitely tries!!

- he went on r/askreddit and asked for advice about trans folks and all that

- he learned a lot on reddit surprisingly

- if you experience any torso pain he immediately makes you take off your binder

- he tries to provide you with dysphoria hoodies

- if you don't want the one he gets you he sprays it with some of his cologne and doesn't wash it after he wears it

- he buys you "manly" products even though he probably thinks putting genders on soaps and all that is a dumb capitalist concept

- if you're feeling dysphoric during sex he'll make you peg him or he'll say those dumb things porn actors say (ex. "your cock feels so good") bcuz it makes you smile

- he just wants to see you happy and there's almost nothing he wouldn't do to see you be comfortable in your skin

#gorillaz #murdoc niccals #murdoc x male reader #murdoc niccals headcanons #transmasc reader #murdoc faust niccals

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rainbownixie · 2 years

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do you have any enby mike wheeler headcanons? asking for a friend

your friend is very nice! please tell him he's one of my favorite mutuals if you see him! <3

and i have SO MANY enby mike headcanons omg- btw they're still in the 80s here.

obviously the first one is that he HATES the name "michael". he hates hearing it and writing it and always asks for people to call him just mike. he doesn't have any issues with the party, but it's hard being at home because karen always uses his deadname.

he comes out to, surprisingly, max first. because she's also enby (she isn't actually like openly enby, she just is) and won't stop complaining about her name and clothes and the way she hates people seeing her as a girl. mike would probably hear that and say "but you... are a girl..." and then max would respond with "i can be whatever the fuck i want. no one should tell us how to feel about ourselves". and there's a long, long silence until mike says "i think i'm not a boy, either". and max understands.

he borrows clothes from nancy. not too feminine stuff yet, because he doesn't want to stand out much, but he likes stuff like her shirts and pants and coats. she doesn't find out until one day where she catches him trying on one of her dresses. and mike is scared and tries to lie about it, but ends up confessing that he doesn't know who he truly is. nancy helps him with his makeover and supports him <3

mike actually ends up not liking too much feminine stuff. it makes him feel like a girl, and he isn't a girl. but he also doesn't want people to think he's a boy, because he isn't one either. so he mixes shirts and clothes to be more androgynous. but none of that helps because, what he truly wants is for people to see him as just... mike. and not a boy.

he doesn't care about clothes much, but having long hair helps him. he doesn't look like a girl but he doesn't look like a boy either. it's perfect.

he ends up coming out one day to the party in one of their sleepovers. they are playing dnd (max and el included) and he, besides being the dm, is also playing as the paladin (which is truly hard bc he's doing two things at once and dms don't really do that but idk make it a npc or something it's just a hc). and he tells the party that mike the paladin is, indeed, not a boy. or a girl. and he looks at his friends, begging for them to understand what he means. they're all in silence at first, but then dustin keeps playing as if nothing happened and the others follow. will smiles at him from the other side of the table.

when he starts dating will, mike is scared of will leaving him for being like this. which is a dumb thought, and he knows that. but he can't help but to stop wearing nancy's stuff or talking about his struggles because he just... wants to ignore it in case will won't like him anymore. when will asks, mike tells him the truth and will comforts him and tells him that, no matter what, he will always love him. he's his partner, and will loves that about him.

on dysphoric days he pretends to be sick to not go to school, and always calls will because he doesn't want him to worry. will always goes to his house after class to spend time with him and tries to distract him.

dustin always corrects everyone (even parents) who refers to the party as "guys" with "party". he says it's because he wants to include both max and el, but mike knows he does that for him.

when they play videogames and lucas is the one choosing, he always chooses a game that doesn't make you choose gendered characters. he knows mike has a hard time with that.

will holds his hand in class without other people noticing (i still can't get over the fact that they seat next to each other- robin move on it's been years since s2-) every time mr.clarke says his name.

max and him bond over that! they start hanging out to complain about their struggles being enby and they end up actually not hating each other! they enjoy their time together, tbh. and mike always says "max" is way cooler than "maxine".

dustin comes up with the idea of using they/them for max and mike, and they love it! mike ends up using all pronouns (mostly they/them, tho) and max asks for the party to use he/they!

i love the idea of karen actually noticing mike hates being called michael, so she starts calling him just mike. she also notices the way he now dresses (he only gets to do it at home or hanging out with the party- although it isn't very feminine either but- y'know- he doesn't want to get bullied in school) and says nothing about it. she just smiles, and mike feels so so loved.

will always avoids gendered pet-names and names for mike!

i could keep going but this is long enough i think!!! thanks for the ask <3 yours are always the best ones!

#enby mike my beloved #i was projecting yes #idc idc he's just like me fr #i mean i'm genderfluid but still #he's too gender to be cis #mike wheeler ilysm #mike wheeler #byler

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genderqueerdykes · 1 year

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Tbh I also have extreme height dysphoria, I’m 5’5 which for AFAB standards is tall/above average but obviously for guys not so much and it’s hard to use the “it’s just Asian genes” excuse when my younger brother is over 6 ft. Tbh I don’t know if it’s gender dysphoria or dysmorphia at this point but whatever the cause I’m planning to get limb lengthening surgery as soon as I can afford it (I have researched it extensively and am prepared for worst case scenarios and even though it will get me to 5’11 at most that’s better than nothing) and I’ve considered getting boots with discreet height boosters and just telling people I’m that height instead (I have a pair of boots that make me 5’7 but I would like higher ones but I refuse to wear heels because I’m masc as fuck and they’re too obvious). Anyway idk how to cope with shit other than asking (forcefully) that people never refer to my height as anything but tall

oh my goodness, I don't blame you for feeling dysphoric, especially if you have a brother who's over 6 ft, my dad was over 6 ft and i think that's where a lot of my dysphoria comes from, tbh. whenever you have a guy in your life who's super tall it's frustrating, no matter how many other guys you see at varying heights, you're still like. what the fuck why am i not taller. i know sooooo many trans guys who are just so uncomfortable at their current heights and like i said, other transmascs give me shit for it, but even 5' 8" feels short when you're used to being around cis guys who are over 6'. one of the transmascs i met irl recently went "you want to be TALLER?? you're already HUGE" and i was just like. You Don't Understand I Need To Be Taller

i haven't heard much about limb lengthening surgery, it sounds like you've done your research, i just hope you're able to stay safe. if anyone else knows about this feel free to chime in, like i said i haven't heard anything about it.

i hope you're able to get some boots that help, if you're alternative, platform boots are a bit more androgynous than straight up heels. there are also a lot of men's boots with surprisingly tall heels, i hope you're able to find something that helps for the time being, i literally cherish any and all height advantages i can get from shoes, lol. i'm glad that you understand as well, i just hope you can ease the dysphoria. feel free to come back at any point, we're here for you, take care

#asks #answers #dysphoria #height

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lanawinterscigarettes · 3 years

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Can you make a fix similar to your Kit one for Tate?

I'm assuming you mean my transmasc headcanons, considering that's the only other thing I've written lol. Apologies in advance if this is too similar to my Kit one <3

Tate Langdon dating someone who's transmasc

Warnings: slight transphobia, Constance Langdon, sexual innuendo, talk of violence/murder (it's Tate, what do you expect)

-He first saw you when you moved into the Murder House with your parents

-For the first couple of weeks, he doesn't iniate contact and just watched you from the shadows (the little creep)

-He'll surprisingly hold back, not wanting to potentially scare you off like he did with Violet

-Your first meeting will probably be in your yard, where he introduces himself as your neighbor who lives next door

-You googled the history behind the Murder House before you moved in, so you're able to sniff out his bullshit

-"Hi I'm Tate, I live next door"

-"How can you live next door if you're dead?"

-"..."

-"You're good"

-You instantly became friends, bonding over your similar taste in music and views on life

-Hanging out with each other all the time

-Until he starts distancing himself from you, that is

-You wonder if it has something to do with you until one night when you find him crying in the basement

-When you ask him what's wrong, he confesses to you that he's bisexual

-He then talks about his traumatic childhood, and how his mother would also scold him for looking at boys the same way he looked at girls

-This caused him to spiral into a pit of self hatred, which only got worse leading up to the events before his death

-You wipe away the tears running down his cheeks before pulling him into a tight hug

-"Aw Tate, why didn't you just tell me in the first place?"

-"Because I was worried you would leave me"

-"I could never leave you"

-Your relationship got much more personal after that

-You tell him you're trans shortly after you begin dating

-"Hey Tate, can I tell you something?"

-"Sure babe, what's up?"

-"I'm trans"

-"...could you elaborate?"

-"I'm a guy, but I was born in a girl's body"

-"Oh. I'm sorry about that"

-His indifference to your confession causes you to start crying

-"Do you still love me?"

-"Of course I do! I just wasn't sure how to react when you told me, please don't cry"

-He starts to cry too as he gives you a hug, not wanting you to feel alone

-Even though he accepts you, he doesn't understand everything that has to do with being trans (mostly since he died in the 90s) so you have to explain a lot of it to him

-"So a binder is something trans guys like yourself wear in order to flatten their chest and help them feel more comfortable in their body?"

-"Exactly! And it's important to not wear it for over than 8 hours, or you could cause serious damage to the muscle tissue in your breast, which can make it difficult or even impossible to have top surgery in the future"

-"Good to know! ....what's top surgery?"

-Like I said, you're going to have to explain it to him, but don't worry, you have a very enthusiastic student

-He probably goes on your laptop when you're not looking and orders a bunch of gay merch off of Amazon, which can come with complications involving your parents, especially if you're not out yet

-He promises to make it up to you later (in more ways than one 😏)

-Speaking of your parents, if you do come out and they don't accept you, the Murder House is going to end up having some more additions to it, courtesy of your lovely little Tater Tot

-That goes for everyone else who misdgenders you on purpose (*cough* Constance *cough*)

-And if he's around to see it happen? Let's just say she's going to have an appointment with a bullet come next Halloween

-On days where you're feeling especially dysphoric, he'll pop in some horror films and curl up next to you in order to distract you from it

-Tate tries to comfort you to the best of his ability, though sometimes it tends to backfire

-"I know how hard it is for you"

-"Actually it's not, that's the problem"

-"What do you mean-OH"

-For your anniversary he paints you a rose (like with Violet) in the color of the trans flag

-Making each other mixtapes, his including Nirvana songs and "Sweater Weather" by the Neighborhood

-Staying up late together talking about societal norms and the toxicity of gender roles when you can't sleep

-If you want top surgery, he'll hold off on killing you until you get it so you don't have to feel dysphoria in the afterlife

-He'll also protect you from the other ghosts so you won't have a premature death

-Honestly, he's the best ghost boyfriend you could ever have

#american horror story #ahs #ahs murder house #ahs imagine #ahs x reader #american horror story imagine #tate langdon #tate langdon x reader #tate langdon imagine #ahs murder house imagine #transmasc reader #tate langdon x transmasc reader #tate langdon x male reader #tater tot x reader

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soupiie-stories · 2 years

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Helo :D Could I request slashers with transfem s/o?

hiya ! of course you can, here ya go :) ( i wrote them all as if they were accepting... some of the slashers are probably more.. conservative... )

Michael Myers

he treats you the same as anyone else

doesn't really ask specifically to learn, you end up telling him about stuff as it comes up

if you feel dysphoric, he tries his best to help you even though he's not the most educated

lets you wear his clothes because they make you feel small

makes sure people pay for making you feel bad

if ya know what i mean

may involve a little murder

Bo Sinclair

he is a little very lost on what that means

you will need to teach him things and terms

loves your body how it is

once he's more knowledgeable about things and who you are, he will be very protective over you

if anyone says anything bad to you, they'll get the shit knocked out of them

if lester and vincent question anything, bo will make sure to teach him everything he's learned

Vincent Sinclair

loves to see you wear all of his clothes

he thinks that you look adorable in his cardigan

he's the most knowledgeable of the slashers surprisingly

makes sure that you always feel nice

knows what being judged is like with his face and all

helps you make wax things when you're not feeling well ( he thinks that it'll help you keep your mind off of it )

Lester Sinclair

oh boy

lester is um... more on the conservative side

he has no clue what transfem means

you try to tell him about stuff but he does not really grasp it

he's accepting kind of but he has a long way to go

you tell him your pronouns and he is so confused as to what that means

Brahms Heelshire

he was raised in a more... proper and conservative household

like the "we don't associate with those kinds of people" people

he wants to learn and will be a very good student

loves you no matter what

he's honestly just glad he has a nanny

lets you wear his cardigan we loves boys with cardigans

I hope you like this, i tried my best and made it moreso of how the slashers would be learning wise. Thank you for the request btw :)

taglist : @1amhangout @hooterhorror @clearlynox @anxietydoll18

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forbidding-souda · 3 years

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if you're comfortable with it could I get some trans!reader (preferably transmasc or gender neutral but I don't mind :)) headcanons with Souda, Gundham, Fuyuhiko, Sakura and Nagito? I hope it's not too many it's fine if you only pick a few !! thank you

Kazuichi Souda, Gundham Tanaka, Fuyuhiko Kuzuryuu, Sakura Oogami, and Nagito Komaeda with transmasc S/O

plz I had a dream where I was playing Lorelei in the new Loki series but I was a deaf man like xx what anyways

currently listening to: dehumanized by sodom

-Mod Souda

KAZUICHI SOUDA

✔ If wearing beanies makes you feel better, there's an 100% chance he'll make you wear his whenever you're being extra cautious about passing. ✔ It looks cute anyway. He loves to match. ✔ Being next to Souda in public will help you if you're going for the androgynous look. He's eccentric in all definitions of the word. If anything, people will be too confused to assume either of your genders. ✔ If you have long hair, seeing him really makes you feel better about not cutting it short like most boys. He seems confident in his non-boyish appearance. ✔ He does a lot of things that stereotypically girls will do. Things like painting his nails, or the way he takes off shirts. He often sits with his legs crossed and brushes his hair behind his ears. ✔ Watching him amazed you. It's inspiring how he doesn't let the threat of appearing feminine stop him from being a boy.

GUNDHAM TANAKA

♥ You would have to explain to him what it means, of course. ♥ But he doesn't think it's weird at all. ♥ If anything, it makes him think you're a being beyond human. ♥ He considers you his Dark God by his side. ♥ "The demon king." There's no way to convince him that you're a human. ♥ He is very uncomfortable being seen naked, so both of you get changed in opposite rooms. Which helps a lot when you are being dysphoric. There's really only one situation where Gundham would see you naked - or half-naked - on purpose. ♥ That situation makes him flustered to even think about it. ♥ If you wear makeup, you pass surprisingly better when you're out with Gundham while doing so.

FUYUHIKO KUZURYUU

୭ The chance of you being misgendered on purpose is very very very scarce. ୭ To be fair, when you're out with him, people hardly even look your way enough to access what you socially present as. ୭ He is completely fine with it, too, by the way. He can sympathize with how it feels to be a man degraded for being feminine. ୭ If anything, after you came out to him, he started to like your presence more. It comforted him that you both could understand each other at such a minimal level. ୭ He brings home dozens of clothes each day for you to try on. All different styles and all different accessories.

SAKURA OOGAMI

❁ Her world is very much different from yours. ❁ So when you came out to her, you were surprised that she knew what you meant. You didn't have to explain to her anything further. ❁ She's very open to criticism, so if she does anything that makes you uncomfortable, you feel oddly... secure enough to inform her. ❁ You like wearing her clothes to sleep. They don't fit you, but that's what makes them comfortable. ❁ She can refrain from talking about her favorite feminine things with you, up until the moment you ask about them, and then she lights up and gets way too excited about the different shades of nail polish she's collected.

NAGITO KOMAEDA

▼ He understands that it's not something to comment on more than he understands what it is. ▼ Usually, he feels free to pick at people regarding their certain traits. ▼ You didn't even have to tell him to not bring it up. There was something in your voice when you came out to him that made him realize that it was a serious thing to you. ▼ He asks you questions a lot. ▼ He's curious about how your life is different than his. ▼ And if it involves you being more comfortable wearing his sweater, or you being soothed by brushing his hair in the morning, he is more than comfortable sharing his belongings with you. ▼ There's also a passion that he gets towards scaring off people that are rude to you. ▼ "Nagito, put the gun away!"

#kazuichi souda #sdr2 kazuichi #kazuichi soda imagines #gundham tanaka #gundham tanaka danganronpa #gundham tanaka x reader #fuyuhiko kuzuryuu #fuyuhiko kuzuryu x reader #sakura ogami #sakura ogami x reader #nagito komeada x reader #nagito komaeda

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