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the mighty nein - critical role

this is a place where i don't feel alone. this is a place where i feel at home.

wizard of both ways

i was commissioned by @achinga to draw vash and milly! they're so silly :)

sorry i dont really like the shadow is silvers dad theory/headcanon/whatever and part of the reason for it is that people keep presenting it as an actual thing that could be possible even though it makes no sense and all "evidence" people use to back it up is easily disputed

Hii! What is your favorite ship in WTTT? And what are your hcs for this ship? Thank you ☺️

Hiii, I am so sorry that this is so late, I really wanted to answer it earlier but I had to sleep to go skating and then I couldn't really think of headcanons for the ships that I think are cute.

BUT I do sorta have ships, like ColoVada is really cute and I can get behind it, same with CaliYork, it's real cute and I will read stuff for it. I also like JerseyVada mainly because of the casino/gambling rivalry that existed back in the day.

Unfortunately I don't really have any headcanons which was the main reason this took so long like I said, I didn't want this ask to just float in the void for a long time. So really sorry :/

(PS: I actually have done headcanons for ColoVada, this also has CaliFlo headcanons as well :D)

your honor, they stim!

their relationship means everything to me

not pictured: breathless by kitty tsui, s/he by minnie bruce pratt, stone butch blues by leslie feinberg, miss major speaks, the persistent desire. most of these i've picked up on and off since june, since most of them are anthologies & i was rereading SBB.

stand out books for me this year were fluids, to be devoured, and minor detail.

fluids & to be devoured hugely inspired me, they kicked off me getting back into reading in general and inspired a lot of my personal writing this year.

otherwise im kinda disappointed in most of the books here... this was my first year really reading this much in a long, long time, and most of what i read were novellas. and i stepped into a new genre, so i was really feeling things out and trying to find my niche. i'm hoping i'll be able to branch out some more with all of the new authors i've been eyeing and i'll find something that will really stick with me.

one thing i just do not fucking get is the difference between "regulating emotions" and "suppressing emotions" i cannot get my head around how those are different. like if im sad and then i go "well im not going to be sad anymore" that's "dissociating" and "suppressing healthy emotions" but if im sad and im like "well im going to cry until i actually pass out" that's "not healthy" and it's BAD to suppress emotions but it's ALSO BAD to get super upset so WHAT IS THE SECRET THIRD THING cuz i do not fucking get it. "feel your feelings But not that way that's not healthy feel your feelings but less than that" ???????

@ those tf2 server related tags: the lazypurple silly servers still exist. and if you want a silly-adjacent server that still has killing/pvp enabled then they also have a "TDM" server where objectives are disabled so you really just get to dick around

i figured his servers would still be around, although i don't think i ever had personally played on his servers before. i think i've seen some videos of them in the past though.

the two servers i use to hang around in through 2012-2016 were mostly just... hang-out servers? the term i refer to them as is "hub servers", similar to like... hub levels in platformers. one was a big city server where i met a good ammount of my friends on, the other was a server with maps the server owner created, which is also the server that hosted one of my maps. they had some sourcemods in common like the jetpack plugin.

im not sure if i could personally experience the vibes of those servers in the same way these days. granted anytime i play tf2 these days, it's usually to play casual, haven't touched any community servers in a long time.

got sad and put Don't Forget Who You Are on shuffle. im no longer sad nor happy but a secret third option-

ARENT TADPOLES,,,like, a solid dark green color,,

wait are eels even green i uhm apologies late night rambling

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I thought that tadpoles were translucent and turn color when they get bigger like eels do. But Imma be honest, I only know as much as I do about morays because I hyperfixate hard and idk much about frogs.

When I get really interested in something I become google for it aksdalkjsdkl

Saw a dead fox today... It's haunting me

Having lost my cat, my uncle, my great grandmother, my grandma's best friend (& one of the people who helped raise me), AND my dad all within the span of 9 months,

I have little sympathy for people who use deaths as an excuse to be an asshole. I get it, it sucks. Get the fuck over it. Your grief is not an excuse to treat others like shit. What the fuck.

guys what if i want to make my own apollo justice game.