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fumifooms · 4 months

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I feel we talk and speculate about post-canon Marchil. But what about pre-canon Marchil? They may not yet know much about each other's personal lives by the time the story starts. But from the start we could already see that they have some level of rapport and are able to bounce off each other quite well especially given that they see each other as the saner party members.

But we know its not how they started especially given Chilchucks disdain for elves, and the fact that the previous mage/sorcerer of their party supposedly almost broke the party up with their love agendas.

How do you think it played out from there and getting to the start of the manga?

Pre-canon and early Marcille & Chilchuck

Yes, very interesting topic!! There are a good few moments that are telling imo. I don't have any fun way to introduce it all so let's just go right into it, it's gonna be a long post though.

Pre-canon

We do see how they start out:

Like you said, Chil, like the other party members, was very hesitant at first on trusting her, that she’d be a good fit for the party etc, though he doesn’t seem to be taking it any worse than Shuro and Namari (which is interesting since Chil’s distrust of elves is more prominent).

The distrust of mages for their party specifically was due to their old one, implied to have stirred drama by being a marriage seeker with every man in the party yes. We don't know the details but it does paint a certain picture I suppose, I really hope The Adventurer's Bible 2 is gonna have new info or pages about the old party members... Doing an analysis of the party configurations pre-canon would be interesting too, for example there’s the buzzcut guy that’s implied to have betrayed Laios and it’s soo cryptic but intriguing and implied to be a significant moment for Laios, would be worth analyzing the crumbs of info we get in canon... But yes yes point is that's one side of the coin, which is eased when the party gets used to Marcille and she earns their trust by being friendly and nice, BUT there’s the other side of the coin to it where magic has been used to persecute half-foots historically, especially by elves, so there’s that bias that remains even for a good part of canon for Chilchuck, and it's stated the most explicitly when he and Marcille argue over dark magic in chapter 34.

To go back to the pictures above, the panel that shows Marcille "working hard to befriend everyone" contextualizes the extra comic in Chilchuck’s Adventurer’s Bible section(the third picture above) to be set during that time of integration into the party for her. We see they indeed had already their comedic dynamic schtick down by then… And I think that makes sense. Even at the start of canon Chil is still adamant about not making friends and keeping emotional distance, so though I’m sure he was much more standoffish and quiet at first I think going from "I don’t know you and I’ll avoid you" to "I’ll engage with you but I’m not gonna be friendly about it" isn't a big jump and it would happen naturally with time as they get somewhat acquainted.

Chilchuck does value having a good professional dynamic, so he wouldn’t want to be rude or shoot her down, and it’s also that will to help a coworker be efficient that gets him to go out shopping for a pouch with her and makes her able to bond with him on that occasion (Yes I do want to make a fanfic about it hehe. He doesn’t like to wait after people but still went with her for a pouch isn’t that sweet). Considering the way she acts with him in that extra comic, she was already very open and didn’t mind overcrowding him and seeming eager and whatnot. Imo she already looked favorably upon him from the get-go because he’s "a kid" and thus sweet and cute™️, but I still think especially with the added context of the pages on her perspective that she was extra trying to be friendly and encourage engaging with her. Even at their "on good terms for work but no actual relationship" stage at the beginning of canon, Marcille worked to get there and to have that good (decent) of a dynamic with Chil.

Although I don’t think it was especially hard either, I just think it took a while for people to acclimate to her. A lot of the prejudices in Dungeon Meshi are eased and challenged through exposure and contact, like getting a scared dog to see you as safe. "Oh, this guy isn’t so bad after all, guess there are good ones -> guess they have a point -> guess that maybe they’ve always had a point and were never all that evil" etc etc, it’s more nuanced and has variations but hopefully you see what I mean, how prejudices are tackled in Dunmeshi is a very interesting & layered topic for another day.

Ah yes there’s also the extra above in which Chil says how awkward it is to wait with Toshiro and Marcille for the others to arrive, and though it certainly could be mostly about how Toshiro and Marcille don’t get along and that's what makes the air tense, I do think it shows a good level of distance and disinterest between them. It’s often referred to in canon that, previous to canon events, they all truly just had a coworkers dynamic.

Even just hanging out outside of work for a drink was very uncommon. The closest thing to a friend Chilchuck would see someone as in the party would have been Namari I imagine, since it’s shown a few times that those two did go out to drink after work a couple times and got along well (as per the extras about it and some small canon moments).

I think it’s very central to their dynamic at that point that their relationship is professional. According to the timeline it’s been around 1/1.5 year that Marcille has joined Laios’ party at the beginning of canon, and since they dungeon dive regularly that’s a good amount of time to develop a dynamic with a coworker. So yes I think a good way to frame their relationship is that they’re two coworkers, who have been working together well for a while but never developed it into a proper friendship, either from lack of interest or failure to do it, like two cashiers sharing the same shift. They have a bond forged in forced proximity and casual familiarity accumulated over time, which does make their relationship a bit unique and interesting since they would have never become friends under regular circumstances. They're like that sweet & salty sandwich that you have to give a chance to, that'll surprise you and have complementary flavors if you try it out despite seeming disastrous.

Early canon

Their early dynamic is super interesting though!! Both see each other as capable, which I do think is the foundation of their relationship early on, since Marcille thought of him as a kid too closed off on himself and Chilchuck saw her as a somewhat annoying person (afaik) and an elf mage (both which make her more distrust-worthy for him) which doesn't make them very friends material at that point. But like I said, they do see each other as capable not only in their job but with their respective strenghts:

Early on we get the sense that they of course have worked with each other for a while and have a good grasp on the other’s character though, and what they say is insightful on how they think of the other. Above, the excerpt is when Laios and Chilchuck come back with the dead Kabru party’s wet food. "She’s right that wasn’t okay to do. Not good I didn’t catch that, that’s Marcille for you." implying he sees her as sort of the moral compass of the team, that she’s strict on such things but seemingly he values it instead of being offput by it. On her side she says how "he’s usually the most mature here." This is in the kakiage chapter so she still fully believes he's a kid at that point, so it's interesting to see that she still recognizes his maturity demeanor wise.

There is respect there, however how kneecapped or begrudging it is. I think the "you’re the next most normal person in the party after me and you have common sense thank god" dynamic was mostly forged right from the beginning of canon but not before that, since Laios while yes still having some of his questionable leadership previously (since his part was losing faith in him before Marcille joined) was more stoic and controlled, so 1) there is no great evil to band up against in the party, plus there were just more people, so 2) less reason or occasion to seek specifically each other out. But then without Toshiro and Namari they were the only person the other had when Laios started showing his interest in monsters and whatnot, the whole party dynamic got thrown upside down which made them gravitate towards each other more than they usually did. And then Senshi came into the picture but Marcille and Chilchuck had already traumabonded like kittens /j and Senshi turned out to also have an interest in monsters. I do feel like pre-canon they simply didn’t interact as much, more one-off moments and short shallow interactions and the occasional deeper, pleasant enough conversation than anything, so canon events is what really kickstarted it into something more than (acquaintance level emotional distance) coworkers.

And on that note, I think that the true shift in their relationship starts after the red dragon arc, when their goal becomes more convoluted and they’ll have to stick to each other’s side through truly thick and thin. It’s right after that Chilchuck gets a shift in character and motivation where he admits that he cares about them, and when the characters start being overall more vulnerable with each other.

I think about this page a ton for example.

"Still, that Marcille…" Maybe I should check out how the original phrased it, the ‘that’ does add a lot, but even without it there's a very impersonal feeling to it. Like they really are just starting to get accustomed to each other after all and sizing each other up, which isn’t all that wrong considering the context of finding something very important about her out that would shift everyone's perception of her, but it does definitely show distance imo, even with this being after the dragon arc at chapter 29. He thinks of her as silly and sketchy at that point as per the scene with Leed... It's rocky, it's rocky, but they do hash things out together and continue to respect each other's perspective and points, as seen for eample how they strategize together when they meet Shuro and Kabru's parties. And yes, that's super interesting!! The scene after his talk with Leed where he admits he cares about the party member is the point where Chilchuck stops pretending to only be in it for the money and he lets himself bond with the others more, so it makes sense to me that he'd have processed the whole "Marcille dark elf" thing and moved past it, but it does show a lot of trust in Marcille that even despite her dark magic show he goes to her for strategy talk and like, doesn't worry about her doing faux-pas and getting themselves killed or in jail unlike with Laios or Senshi which he feels the need to monitor lol.

I think the bicorn chapter is the chapter that truly cements them as having a relationship in its own right. He opened up about himself and let her in on personal aspects of his life, and that makes him finally ready to fully drop the wall of "coworkers only, no friends nope, our relationship starts and stops at when we enter and leave the dungeon". And of course by the end he's straight up saying he'll introduce her to his family lol <3

Conclusion

So yes overall they do seem to know each other the way longtime acquaintances would, and they have a good grasp on each other’s character, but their vision of each other is severely kneecapped by other factors, Marcille seeing him as a kid and him having a bias against elves and mages and also just optimistic nosy people lol. Chilchuck is only interested in working with her efficiently, without making friends, and besides him being a coworker whose skills are very needed Marcille is only interested in him in a gossip curiosity way and in a ‘Aww I should make an effort to include the kid in things, he should open up more!’ patronizing and infantilizing way. You can’t really bond as an equal with someone you think is a kid after all, so early on it’s more of a caring after attention/interest she has for him, and the process of her growing to see him as an adult is very slow and gradual. They're tough to feasibly work with in a shipping sense early on, like yes ok they have very funny chemistry but at what cost... But I sure do love slow burns and complicated people growing to love each other through learning about them through thick and thin and compromising to better themselves and make it work, so!!

It’d be interesting to have marchil (wether platonic or romantic) fancontent exploring their pre-canon relationship, especially if we were to try and have them learn to know each other more and form a deeper bond and all, but it literally took all of canon to get them there. It took them having to do a desperate emergency dungeon dive with initially only 3 party members, where they don’t have any choice but to spend a lot of time in almost only each other’s company and have to forgo the usual boundaries, when fighting for each other’s lives and learning things about each other like being a 'dark elf' or a 'father of three'. It took 57 chapters and a lie-detecting virtue-detecting monster for him to open up about his wife and family, and who knows how long it’d have taken without that monster or without it having attacked him, serving as evidence that he’d been lying about it. Who knows how long he’d have been fine lying, y’know?? And learning that he cheated on his wife made her esteem for him tank, it’d have made them more tense with each other if anything if the bicorn hadn't proven his lie wrong. Beause it's def implied too that Chilchuck would have said that lie if super pushed int otalking about his wife, which would have happen with or without a bicorn appearing in their path right then.

In the end it’s like how Laios said, thank you Falin for being eaten, and thank you everyone for being the gender that you are, because if any detail had been different the adventure either wouldn’t have happened or would have happened very differently (worse). Best marchil slow burn is canon real?!! Jk there’s so much that could be done with them both pre-canon, during canon and post-canon, but yeahh they’re such complex characters with a complex dynamic that making it both organic and IC would be so hard. I do like the take that he is attracted to her to some degree though, and I feel like Marcille has a general curiosity and interest in romance and maybe experiencing it herself, so I wouldn't say that spontaneous interest would be impossible, but the biggest obstacle is Chilchuck's wife situation tbh because the man is planning on staying faithful and celibate right up to at least divorce if not his grave lol.

Now I do want to write a canon divergent thing where Chil refused to try and tame the bicorn and the party kept on thinking he’d cheated on her and the new dynamic with Marcille though… Eventually she wants to understand him and ask about it, and it keeps getting worse, before it starts getting better because this time around exhaustion caught up to him and he didn’t need the bicorn to make him admit he hasn’t… The whole end thing of his arc would have to happen pretty differently man, whew, especially since he has a complex where he doesn’t see himself as a good man, not virtuous or moral, cowardly and selfish etc etc, so without having a monster with its objective monster senses going "ew you’re a virtuous husband I hate u" it’d have been harder for him to truly consider that maybe the situation isn’t quite as hopeless as he thought and he should at least try blablabla. But Marcille is the next best thing to a bicorn, she can psychoanalyze him and hype him up, I have faith I have faith. Most feasibly though I feel like pre-canon fics with them would be ficlets of moments in which they unexpectedly interacted and went the small extra mile of going beyond small talk and both try to connect a bit, learning to know each other just a bit more, piquing interest or curiosity or making them re-evaluate each other, that’d be fun.

Like you said it's not a topic that's often analyzed and all, so I ended up going all out and being somewhat rambly... Apologies apologies, hopefully this wasn't hard to follow along with, and was good food for thought and had good points! Maybe it feels a bit far from your initial question that was only about going from their first meeting to the start of canon, but I feel like only analyzing their early relationship in that scope and consider the first hurdle in them growing closer fully over and done with doesn't encapsulate the core of their issues with each other and how they deal with them and eventually overcome them. It took a lot of time and insistance and efforts and for their prejudices to be challenged and proven wrong many, many times for it to truly stick and for them to be truly comfortable and open with each other. Early marchil truly has traumabonded retail coworkers energy to me lol, speaking from experience and traumabonded being meant as an hyperbole.

#ask #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #spoilers #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #marcille donato #chilchuck tims #marchil #analysis #relationship analysis #i'd say scene analysis but not in depth enough for that #uhh yeah yeah these tags work that's the summary of it #fic brainstorming #pushing the retail metaphor but they've spent a good amount of their life working together that they'll always be linked in that way #And that makes them have a familiar rapport and an efficient dynamic. But like. If someone needs to go fill up the straw container or mop #the floors 2 dead 3 injured they are ready to argue and explode each other. And then the shift ends and it's see you again tomorrow!#'I can't stand them but thank god someone else here is capable' lmao these tags probably sound insane but I think the retail metaphor is fu

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shivunin · 9 months

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Hi, I just wondered what your favourite part of the Fenhawke romance was? Like, a scene/moment that really made you fall more in love with him? I love your writing so much!!

Oh, that is very kind of you to say! 💗I'm glad you enjoy the things I've written. I've really been enjoying writing for this ship, especially the past few months c:

As for your question...

Man, that's tough. I have a hard time picking one thing---I mean, *gestures to all the fic* you know? But I can narrow it down to a couple of scenes/elements:

The fact that a romanced Fenris still calls you "my friend" even after the act 2 romance scene. This is just...the bedrock of their relationship to me. Yes, that night went very poorly (understatement, I know), but at the core they are friends and he trusts Hawke in a way he's likely never had the cause or opportunity to trust someone before. I believe he never stopped loving Hawke, and it was a matter of laying those feelings out and understanding them one at a time. Romantic love not replacing platonic love or eclipsing it, but building or twining together is just... *chef's kiss* that's the good stuff.

The moment during the romance conversation in Act 3 when you can see Fenris go from hoping (painfully hoping!) that there is still some way he and Hawke can be together to actually believing it will happen. There is a shift in his body language that I could watch (and...have) over and over.

The element of choice? This is not going to be coherent, but the fact that he is learning for the first time what it means to have options and preferences, and he spends a lot of time exploring and understanding himself...and after all of that, the thing he keeps coming back to is Hawke. I think it's gorgeous. A song with refrains of pain or fear and choruses of decision and hope. He's loyal to a fault, in many ways, but understanding how much of himself exists to share and then still choosing to share it is just...man. I said this wasn't going to be coherent lol, so there you are. "If there is a future to be had..." like he doubts its existence but he's willing to chance it for Hawke. Man.

But, honestly? I've played DA2 a lot of times and never romanced another character, even though I've played through multiple romance storylines in each of the other games. I can't shake the Fenris romance. Every time I open a new playthrough, I tell myself that this is the time I'm going to romance Isabela, and every time Fenris rips that dude's heart out and I just......alright, yeah. Okay. Here we go again.

#and okay yeah one more thing actually #when he is like 🥺 at hawke after he kills danarius and hawke says he isn't alone #i know people joke about it but it's about the capacity for immense violence and aching tenderness #the parallel of meeting him when he rips some guy's heart out and him being finally free to make a life for himself after the same #it's about the cycles. the repeating story #and now he is truly not hunted anymore and he can make some kind of home #could i pull this into a more coherent analysis? probably yes #but here it is nonetheless #i *do* love him actually. he is just so very himself. unbending and harsh as it is sometimes he is always himself #long post #da2 #fenris #ask response #goodness this wound up longer than i'd expected #thank you for giving me an excuse to ramble anon 💗#i hate that the tl;dr of it all is just 'fenris being fenris' but. i am a simple woman

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kaidanalenkosprmanager · 1 month

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THE BEST OF PRIORITY: SUR'KESH

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, Lt. James Vega, EDI, and Urdnot Wrex With: Lt. Steve Cortez, Dr. Mordin Solus, Major Kirrahe, and Urdnot Bakara And a Special Guest Appearance by: Adm. Steven Hackett Alliance R&D has officially begun construction on the Prothean device. The team has dubbed it: "Project Crucible". We're throwing everybody who knows how to throw a hammer at it. This is gonna be the most ambitious undertaking in human history. I'm not saying it won't be a challenge- but we can do this, Shepard. You can do this. Never doubt that. Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)

+BONUS (the smirk™️)

#mira makes gifs ✨#sophie shepard #james vega #EDI #urdnot wrex #steve cortez #mordin solus #mass effect #mass effect 3 #me3 #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #i feel like i probably should have split the actually sur'kesh set in half like i did with mars #but i got lazy after i split out the normandy summit gifs and i wanted to keep the rest of the mission together lol #wrex having small conversation moments with james and EDI was everything to me #bc with both of them it felt like wrex passing on some of his old kid on the block knowledge to the new kids on the block and i just 🥺#like i didn't get it in the gif but the second part of that convo with james he says something like #'you're one of shep's new recruits? hang on kid- it's a hell of a ride!' and when i tell you i SOBBED #like the entire first half of this playthrough is soph taking her newer squadmates out to help her build the army for the reaper war #so running into all these old friends/teammates and hearing them share their wisdom with james and EDI as new recruits is everything to me!#also EDI and james look very cute in their armor (ESPECIALLY EDI IN HER HUNTER HOOD I LOVE HER YOUR HONOR)#i'm just gonna say wrex's little tongue out at the salarians in the background of padok's gif sent me so hard i had to include it LMAO #and i'd write something about the mordin cameo but the mordin cameo on tuchanka is better so i'll save my thoughts for that one #ig thanks for being wrex's inside man mordin you were real for that one #the real salarian homie of this mission was kirrahe and i love him (he's my favorite and i adore him thank you for coming to my TEDtalk) :)#and i will also say that i adore bakara and she's the highlight of this mission for me bc of the lines but also like???#her grabbing the shotgun from wrex to take out the cerberus troops is everything and his expression afterwards is *chef's kiss*#and SOPH'S LITTLE SMIRK LMAOOOOOOO i had to include it bc i saw it in the back and it sent me to the next dimension lol #and since i just use the tags to share all my annoying little thoughts on a final note:#i included the elevator bomb scene bc in soph's canon she gets injured during it for the shenko angst pre-coup bc i'm an angsty bitch :)

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whatudottu · 1 year

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Yo imagine instead of being small because Airachnid is vaguely a lady by human standards, what if she was built like a daddy longlegs spider and dwarfed bots after unfolding her copter blades?

They hate to see a girlboss winning 😞😔

#airachnid #tfp airachnid #breakdown #tfp breakdown #he's here for size comparison #transformers #tfp #maccadam #fanart #you'd think that with how i would consider breakdown to be one of my favourites in tfp #the others being all corpses too like skyquake dreadwing and canonically in rid15 predaking too #that i'd probably hate airachnid because she killed him and buried the gays #heh- nah #i WILL say tho- she was underutilised and was only explored as a tool for arcee (and breakdown's death following budget cuts)#i wanted to try out making her a daddy longlegs because i've been thinking about blackarachnia recently (thank you BETCs)#and because ba is a black widow/redback what if airachnid was specifically another spider #and yes daddy longlegs (spiders) are spiders- daddy longlegs are harvestmen and there's a cranefly named daddy longlegs too #there's A FEW different types of daddy longlegs spiders that are at least named spiders but i went with the classic #after having to clarify what i wanted (if you double the length of helicopter blades can you make a daddy longlegs) with my guys #i went ahead and gave airachnid a spider mode to fear #breaky's here because airachnid i think comes up to his hips so don't worry she's not hunting him (yet :) )#can you believe this is the first time drawing airachnid?

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14dayswithyou · 2 years

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DISCLAIMER: This is for all my 14DWY Fans who are sleeping on just how dangerous Ren is. LOL

I think it’s so funny how we all simp and are COMPLETELY whipped by ren.

He’a so cute, hot and has the sexiest habits. We’re in love right? We know he’d never hurt us and he’ll go to different lengths to please us.

He would steal thousands of dollars and give it to us, buy us whatever we wanted.

But then BOOM. It clicks for me that after seeing Sigh talk about how that’s the point and how he’s actually like dark web red room murder bad—it dawns on me that yeah…that IS the point.

I love to pick apart character studies and try to really understand the character. And Ren is just a great case.

We are literally getting PLAYED. He calculated every last little detail. He knows the type of men we like, and literally altered his personality to be like that. We joke about his Haruko personality and how submissive and cute it is but I don’t think we realize enough that he did that JUST so we would feel easy around him and fall in love. And we did. We literally played right into his hand.

Some of us know, some of us don’t care and some of us don’t REALLY understand just how far ren has Gone.

He’s dedicated his ENTIRE life to you (since elementary) just because you made a promise to marry him when you were like 9. Then here we are 20 or older and he’s still infatuated.

He has mentally diluted hisself into thinking that you are the only person that he could possibly fall in love with. He has been obsessed you for over a decade ( or decades).

Another thing people aren’t really paying attention to is that Ren, can—will and most likely HAS murdered. we can’t forget this. Ren doesn’t mentally have the capacity to care about anyone except for the MC. If he needed to kill a homeless man, skin him alive and sell him for cash or something he would do it.

Ren is so cute and a pink sub hottie ➡️ Ren is an darker styled man who is a murderer and will dominate you.

Ren loves and cherishes MC ➡️ Ren is probably clinically delusional and has fantasized taking you all for himself because of a promise you made as a child.

Ren is so Strong ➡️ Ren has worked out solely to make sure he’d win and successfully murder his opponent in an altercation should the time come. He’s not necessarily muscularly sound for you.

Ren is so protective and always worried about MC ➡️ Ren is stalking you in the comfort of your own home. He is constantly watching you and sneaking in your apartment. You have zero privacy 24/7. He will kill anyone that finds out or is potentially romantically attracted to you. (I.e your childhood best friend or your mother that you love could all be brutally murdered if they were in Rens way.)

He’s hot and you’d love a man that’d “kill for you” until you realize that he’d kill your family, friends and anyone who even gets in his way. (What about their kids? Brothers? Or sisters? Someone is probably grieving over that person that Ren killed.)

Is it sinking in now? How are you going to feel when you cant have a life and have to tip toe around your lover because he will murder anyone that isn’t him or you. Ren is a psychotic, depressed, sociopath who is obsessed with you. He’s not just a Yandere. He’s…. a threat.

Don’t sleep on ren. 👁👁

✦゜ANSWERED: *louder than everyone else* THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The way you perceive Ren is so hot!!!! *chefs kiss*!!!!!! Shiro I love your mind!!!!!!!! This is literally how I've wanted Ren to be perceived as a yandere, and I'm honestly amazed at how spot on you got! >.< Like? [REDACTED] puts in all this effort to seem like your dream guy/ideal boyfriend — when in reality — he's hiding things that are far too sinister and disturbing to be described.

He has zero apathy for anyone other than the subject of his obsession, and he's not averse to doing unspeakably morbid and/or morally dubious things in order to get what he wants. And if he wants you, then there's nothing that can stand in his way.

He's desperate and willing enough to alter everything about himself in order to gain your affections, and he's more than capable of keeping up the facade if it means having you all to himself. He's been doing it for ten years already, so what's ten more?

He feels nothing when he murders and tortures people, nor does he cringe at the sight of blood and gore. At most, he might find it troublesome with how long it takes to drain the life out of someone, or if the blood gets all over his clothes — but when it comes to the wellbeing of his victims, nothing matters to him.

He knows his way around a fight and can deal devastating blows with a sledgehammer — but he can deal just as much damage from the comfort of his own home so long as he has a phone or a laptop at hand. Nothing is safe from his keen eyes, and it'd be a mistake to brush aside his hacking abilities.

Ren/[REDACTED] not some timid, pushover yandere who "probably doesn't know how to defend himself"; he's a deeply disturbed individual with an innate desire to get what he wants — no matter how gruesome or time-consuming it may be.

#i am kissing you gently (with consent)!!!!!!!!#thank you so much for writing this; i'm genuinely impressed!#i'd say so much more here but i should probably go to sleep hjsjgdjs #💌 — answered.#💖 — about ren.#ren introspection tag pending #queued post #to be tagged later

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lightasthesun · 29 days

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just wanted to thank everyone that's been encouraging me or offering some kind of support the last few times I talked about getting a cane... because I went and got one today and I didn't think it would make that much of a difference. I underestimated how much it would change for me.

So thank you <33

#got a prescription from my GP last week and gathered my nerves together to get one today #thankfully we have a health care supply store only ten minutes away on foot #I'd planend on getting an anatomical one as prescribed by my GP and it was comfortable and id probably have chosen it too but #then the lady there told me to try the derby handle instead and honestly that was even better plus i can use it on both sides #its sleek and black for now because i can barely bear the thought of anyone seeing me using a cane in our small town in the first place #but once im comfortable..#anyway we went to a shop across the street afterwards because my besties mum needed to get some things and I didn't wanna go home by myself #and tbh i preferred the thought of going into our small city centre with somebody i trusted and felt comfortable around the first time aroun #long story short im super suprised by the difference it's making 😬 i mean ofc i didn't just get the cane on a fluke #but it was like 'well let's try it out it may help and people keep saying it's for stability and chronic pain too so why not'#yeah so apparently i did need it #i felt so much better #there were several instances where i noticed the cane kept me from stumbling or swaying or missing a step #it felt good #so thank you all

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eightyuh · 2 months

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Idk anything about Calico, but I love her. Is she as sassy as she looks?

Genuinely? This is probably what you can expect:

#ask #WICK'S END #calico #oc #under night in birth #vatista #THANK YOU haha !!! im rlly excited to share her w u all -- i rlly like her!!! <3 #someone asked me yesterday which character i'd like to be and honestly probably calico but like i couldnt say that lol #vatista is my main btw lollll i am very rusty here

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killerchickadee · 8 months

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I feel like it's a little cringey to say "Yeah Good Omens helped me figure out my gender identity" but like. It gave me the concept of being able to look like *gender* and use that gender's pronouns and be mostly cool with being perceived as that gender, but not actually be that gender.

Like occasionally I might feel a little bit like a girl (but never like a woman) but most of the time I'm agender, and I think there's a lot of pressure in the queer community to present a certain way or use different pronouns if you're anywhere on that spectrum. And it's totally awesome that that works for a lot of people. But I always kind of felt like if I'm cool looking like a girl and using she/her then I couldn't claim any kind of gender fuckery.

But Crowley and Aziraphale both (usually) look like men and use male pronouns but aren't actually men? Oh cool, I can do that? Good to know.

#i mean i certainly don't look like a FEMININE girl but i do wear makeup and all that #people just think I'm a tomboy or a punk and I've always been ok with that #as long as I'm not being sexualized i don't care how people perceive me #but if gender was a buffet I'd take a tiny bite of girl and say yeah no thank you to a full serving #good omens #my hatred of the word woman has always been a ??? to me like i am SO uncomfortable being called a woman #i don't identify as a man but I'm even cool with being called that #just the word woman makes me feel gross #so that's some kind of hangup i have #unfortunately I'm Old so that's probably how a lot of people perceive me #can't win 'em all i guess

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naruto-is-baby · 15 days

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your top 15 favourite tv shows can say a lot about your personality

Tagged by @kuhakukage

Let's go besties :

1. Courage the Cowardly Dog

2. Danny Phantom

3. Teen Titans

4. Teen Wolf

5. Inuyasha

7. Tokyo Ghoul

8. Shen He Ling/Word of Honor

9. Australia's next top model

10. Brooklyn 99

11. How to get away with murder

No tags all the besties can come list their favourite shows so i can get some good tv show recs thank yew.

#bear with me it'll take me some more years to reach 15 tv shows probably #cz im a hater i like watching shows just to analyze and criticise the hell out of them until they disintegrate inside my brain #so u can imagine the kind of stress i am under when i try to list shows I like when i cant even remember what i watched #these are the shows that I'd actually rewatch #i don't usually like to rewatch stuff because i feel like my head will explode if im not seeing new things #ok but now that i think about it what DOES it say about my personality #only 2 of the shows on this list are from my adult life lmao #fried braincell things #for HTGAWM i love Annalise Keating. viola Davis is IT she's the icon she IS the moment i love her.#amd also my girl Michaela pratt got me through college i am her she is me (academically)#b99 is beautiful perfect amazing i love it #on that note Andre braugher we miss you thank you for all that you did #i also love Gina and was annoyed asf when she was taken out of the show #currently im watching the vampire diaries and shit is not hitting im gonna be honest #I'm currently watching 3 series and reading 2 books at once so u can imagine why my brain is fried

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simonsquest · 2 months

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Simon/Selena + stitching? :>

Simon returns home from a late-night hunt badly injured. He tries to sew his wounds closed himself. Selena helps him instead. CW: Graphic and detailed descriptions of wounds & blood

Simon enters his home after a hunt—quietly, as to not disturb Selena who could be sleeping within. He shuts the wooden door behind him before leaning against it, breathing steadily to himself as he comes down from the adrenaline high of combat. He tries to raise his right hand to wipe the damp and cooled blood from his face, but the pain is beginning to set in: it hurts too much to move, now. He promptly stills his arm.

Instead, Simon tries to move off of the door, beginning his search for the tools he needs to tend to his wounds.

Selena emerges from their bedroom to meet him, candleholder in hand. Ah, he disturbed her sleep with his entry.

“Forgive me for disturbing you.” Simon offers what he can of an apologetic smile, concealing his growing pain. Even in darkness, Selena can plainly see he’s injured. She approaches him, using the candle’s glow to aid in her visibility as she studies him.

She gasps softly to herself, remarking the shine of blood in the light. He’s absolutely covered in it. It is not unusual for Simon to return home injured after fighting creatures of the night, but this is vastly different than what Selena would expect to see.

“Is this blood yours? Let me look at you.” Selena inquires, inching closer.

Simon wouldn’t dream of exposing her to such gore. He steels himself, not quite knowing how to tell her no, but he tries:

“I’ll tend to my injuries. Please don’t concern yourself.”

Not desiring to be studied any longer, Simon brushes past her and into their bedroom. He begins rummaging for items in his things, promptly retrieving rags, disinfectant, needles, thread, and scissors.

As adrenaline washes away, Simon grits his teeth as his injuries announce themselves with a burning sensation. He breathes, quietly, in an attempt to ground himself before turning to exit—

Selena obstructs his path. He meets her gaze—her face conveys growing concern—does he look that bad?

Simon catches a glimpse of himself in their bedroom mirror. He’s beginning to understand her worry: he didn’t realize just how much blood masked his skin and matted his hair to his face.

Selena sets down the candle holder on the nearest surface and approaches Simon, taking the items from his hands, and setting them down as well.

Her attention returns to her husband: she scans his body, noting his torn leathers, and the blood that pools from them.

Without a moment’s hesitation, she’s reaching her hands out to unfasten his armour, starting from the clasps on his breastplate.

Simon moves to still her hands with his—oh, they’re filthy. He doesn’t want to dirty her.

“I can do it.” Simon mumbles, doing what he can to conceal his pain as he moves to unfasten his leathers by himself. Respecting his boundaries, Selena only watches as he tries.

But there’s a slowness to his movements, and she can plainly see that even undressing was taxing on him. Her mind races to examine his form—the obvious topical injuries were one thing, but she wondered if muscle had been cut, or if he has sprained or broken anything.

Simon frowns at her intense scrutiny, not making eye contact as he peels the tarnished leather off of his body, revealing his torso. The skin beneath is soaked with blood—fresh and weeping in some areas, and dried and oxygenated in others. It is a gruesome sight, and Simon does what he can to hide away from Selena’s prying eyes.

Instead, Simon collects his tools, and the candle, before moving into the foreroom. There, he retrieves the wash bucket, already full of well water. He seats himself at their dining room table and gets to work on pressing cloth against the cuts he can reach.

Much to his dismay, Selena has followed after him, though still a respectable distance away.

There’s a very deep gash along his upper right pectoral - still open and weeping fresh blood. It is a troublesome place for an injury: it affects the articulation in Simon’s dominant arm. As he presses the cloth to soak up the blood, he resolves he must take care of this wound, first.

Placing his right arm onto the table, Simon mops up the blood by pressing the cloth against the wound. Then pressing into it—firm. He does what he can to conceal his grimace, the only remnant of his pain is in the form of a slow exhale through his nose, and the tightening of his fist.

Selena only watches with building concern. She wants to help, but hesitates to overstep the boundaries established by their still impersonal relationship. All she can do is watch as Simon moves to prepare a needle and thread.

Selena notes his lack of dexterity in his right hand as he struggles to do this task. She resolves she cannot stand by and watch anymore. She approaches him before pulling up a chair by his side.

Simon looks at her through his curtain of stained hair, features hard as he continues to stifle his pain.

Her face is so full of unease. Simon loathes that he has this affect on her. It would be simpler if she was sleeping soundly when he returned…

Selena’s lithe fingers slide atop of his hand for a moment before she takes the thread and needle from him. Despite the darkness, she threads it expertly, and sets it back down on the table. She reaches for a rag and the bottle of disinfectant, next.

“Can you move your arm from the table, please?” Selena asks, and with a soft, resigned sigh, Simon does, granting her access to the wound as he turns to face her in his seat. His left arm instead rests upon the table.

Selena leans in, cupping the wound with the cloth before she saturates it with the liquid.

Simon jolts unexpectedly, startling her. He looks away, gritting his teeth as the stinging of disinfectant sears down his arm and across chest.

“I know. I’m sorry.” Selena whispers, genuine, as she presses the cloth deep into his wound. She soaks up the fluids before setting the rag down, collecting the threaded needle. Selena takes a moment to saturate the needle and thread in disinfectant before setting the bottle down to join the rag on the table.

She inches closer, closing the distance between them. Simon shifts so she can get closer still as she readies to puncture his skin.

One hand sliding onto his shoulder, she offers him a silent look. Simon nods in reply, closing his eyes as he braces for the inevitable piercing that follows.

Dutifully, Selena pierces the needle through his skin on either end of the gash, starting at the top. Simon breathes steadily, trying not to focus on it as she continues. Instead, he collects another rag and dampens it with water from the wash bucket. He wipes the blood from his face at last.

Now that the adrenaline has subsided, he ached all over. Certainly not the worst pain he has experienced, but it was still wildly unpleasant. And absurdly embarrassing. Simon is supposed to become the hero of the realm—the battle-hardened man who can endure any hardship, any pain. He breathes, trying to remind himself to avoid showing weakness in front of his newly-wed wife. It would only worsen things if she were to question his strength.

Selena is silent as she continues her task, pulling thread taut to close the wound. Simon grimaces, moving to catch the rag in hand between his teeth as Selena pierces the wound again. His jaw tightens.

Another unpleasant tug. Another puncture. Again. Each puncture is underlined; the pain building. Simon sucks air through his teeth, brows knit, as he processes it.

“Are you well?” Selena asks, quiet.

Simon nods, concealing his face in the cloth in his left hand.

“Shall we pause?” She tries, soft.

“No, I’m fine.” Simon lies.

Selena continues her task, but Simon can feel how her thumb rubs against him. A small, comforting gesture.

Simon does what he can to focus on anything other than the task. He tries to focus on Selena’s soft hands, her careful breath between them as she gives him all of her focus as time crawls on.

How fortunate that his wife is skilled in these matters, and does not appear to be repulsed by the sight of blood and gaping wounds.

Simon is pulled from his thoughts with another tug of the thread, further down his chest. He twitches involuntarily, grimacing.

Selena’s movements slow. Simon can feel the thread moving in a different way. He looks down to see Selena tying the thread closed at the end of the wound. Her fingers are stained with his blood. Simon frowns at the sight of it as Selena cuts away the loose thread end before pressing the cloth against the dribbling, sewn wound.

Selena looks up to meet his eyes. She is evidently tired, but she does what she can to conceal it.

Simon softens at the sight of her. He hands her the rag he’s been clutching onto. Selena takes it, cleaning her hands of his blood.

“Thank you.” Simon expresses as she does, voice so quiet between them. Timidly, the fingertips of Simon’s right hand—still lacking adequate dexterity—land upon Selena’s knee.

Selena slows, noting the small gesture. Boldly, she moves to close the distance between them. Simon readily cradles her cheek with his left hand as they lean in to share a chaste, gentle kiss.

They part, and Selena lingers for a moment, connecting their foreheads.

Spouses cherish the quiet moment, eyes closed, before they have to move onto the next injury.

#for context i'd probably say this is pre-CV1 and they're recently married #this was a great prompt thank you very much #akumajou dracula #castlevania #simon belmont #selena belmont #haunted castle #selena (haunted castle)#selena (castlevania)#my writing

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