there's a 70% chance i won't be on the same bus as him

i dont think that byler needs to have had been planned since the beginning for it to still be happening

"can I say that? can I say I love your laugh?

"I don't know. I mean, I guess yes. sure."

— carrie soto x bowe huntley

crashes ur board meeting n drags u out by the collar but its fine bc youre the one always saying shit like "im looking for people i can use" ok lol. get used idiot

If you became super rich and could design your own house, but could only add THREE unnecessary/random/expensive home additions (like how people will have bowling alleys, movie theatres, closets with museums of shoes, car display rooms, spa rooms, wine cellars, etc. in their mansions) - what three would you choose?

i just found the cutest cat photo in an old used book i’ve had forever … this happens a lot lol i’d say cat pics are the second most common thing i find after just regular bookmarks

hello good morning beautiful friends!

forgor to put something really expensive and cool on my wishlist for my weirdly money-having relatives that forget we exist unless they’re buying christmas presents (we don’t even do christmas lmao) or trying to convert us to christianity (we’re too cynical for religion lmao. it just doesn’t stick) so for christmas i got 10 usb drives. yippee. i’m going to keep 10 copies of my tumblr blog and all the fanfic i’ve saved and all the things i’ve totally legally downloaded so that i can keep them around the house and on my body at all times

Worked out the chapter titles for part one of book one today. Love that for me.

carrie white does not like violence ! she hates the paintings her mother has of all the sacrifices, the hell burrning, anything grotesque and depicting people suffering ! her favorite painting in their whole house is one of a lamb sleeping on a hill, the only thing seemingly at peace amongst her whole life.

she has thoughts of violence and internally wishes she could harm others- but what victim of severe abuse and bullying wouldn't ! carrie's mother treats her with such rage, it's no wonder she wants to share that same rage with the people harming her at school- it's what she was taught. however, she doesn't know if she is allowed to feel such a way, if she's allowed to even hate the people around her, because her mother shoots down every attempt of support/advice/comfort seeking with a curt dismissal or bible verse that may or may not even apply. she tells her they hurt her and her mother says suffering is good for the soul then moves on- but they still hurt her. her mother will not protect her, so she has to learn to protect herself. in the end, she is horrified by what had happened, what she did to all those kids at prom, because just like the stones that rained on her home as a small child, she was pressed and pushed and shoved until her own brain couldn't handle it anymore. she had every chance to enact revenge on her peers at any moment, she could've found chris hargensen herself and done away with her, but she didn't. she tried to get along with them until the very end, because she always hated those paintings of god's burning wrath.

her whole life, from her contraception to her birth to her adolescence to her death, has just been shame and violence. it's really no wonder why she prefers the painted lamb that manages to sleep in a world she feels terrorized and trapped in.

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I watched The Lord of the Rings with my friends today and I’m really enjoying it. We only watched the first two since we didn’t have enough time to watch the last one since it was four hours LMAO. I’m really enjoying the characters and the worldbuilding, if anyone has read the books do you recommend?

literally such a ridiculous amount of exhaustion and stress in my body rn like this is a jokeeeee

I saw that you like red wall(I've only watched the animated series), and I was wondering if you've also seen the secret of nimh?

Hell yeah I have! It's one of my favorite Don Bluth films, right next to the original Land Before Time.

Did you know the book and movie are two vastly different experiences?

The Book:

The Movie:

It helps that the book has no magical elements at all and is just showing the lives of rats with human intelligence--and of course Mrs Frisby and her sick son, Timothy.

Did you know that the original book was actually written and published in response to real life treatment of rats? Specifically, an experiment by John Calhoun from a real life research facility called National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH)? The experiment is on overpopulation and how it affects the health and mentality of animals, with rats and mice natural being a general stand-in for humans. The results are actually horrific.

TL;DR: When space and available mates become scarce, animals stop reproducing and become depressed because they can't travel to find new mates and fulfill their purpose in life. No brainer, right?

Though... The research might be more applicable to studying potential problems from colonizing other planets that require us to create spaces for our species to survive. Humans tend to be one of the most adaptable species on the planet, even more adaptable than rodents since they have to evolve to fit the environments and humans just make machines that supplant evolution entirely, so the research might not be as helpful as we might like. Just another reason to can it entirely.

I have a question for you! <3 Have you ever heard of this book series?

If you really like the Secret of Nimh movie, I highly recommend checking this out. And if you really like Redwall and want something more grown-up and sci-fi, check out the book: Mrs. Frisby and the Rats of Nimh.

I can happily report that the Redwall series and the books are extremely similar, though Brian tends to add paragraphs of food descriptions. Where are they getting the milk, Brian?? Who are they milking!? Why are they baking things that need eggs, Brian?? Birds are people, too!

In the Redwall book, there's a lot of continuity weirdness. Scourge shows up in a giant horse-drawn carriage containing thousands of rats when later books have no horses and also the carriages are more badger-sized. It's an awesome image, though, so I can't complain. It's a real shame they didn't make a dark movie about it.

I caution you about some of the things Brian writes. He rarely has good "verminbeast" characters (and those usually are simpletons) and even characters that should be considered good are treated by the narrative as evil (Outcast of Redwall is a whiplash of emotions, let me tell you, and Triss and Taggerung are both basically Mary/Gary-stus respectively.) And some tropes are extremely repetitive. A lot of the villains are cartoonishly evil to an almost hilarious degree--even as a kid I was laughing at Gabool the Wild and his absolutely insane obsession with a bell.

I would recommend Martin the Warrior and the sequel Mossflower, Mariel of Redwall and the sequel Bellmaker, Marlfox (for the chaotic fox family), Pearls of Lutra (for the nuance in the cats), The Long Patrol (for the bunnies and actual nuance), and of course Redwall and the sequel Mattimeo for the best Basil Stag Hare moments. Outcast of Redwall is my personal fav, but my boy Veil was done dirty at the end there.

And if you like to read a story and universe similar to Redwall but is more linear and focused on one small cast, there's the Mistmantle Chronicles.

I am missing one book in the series so I can't say if it's all good. I find the lack of descriptors boring. These books are hard to find so I would just start looking for pdfs. Who knows? You might like the series better than I did.

The nice thing about living five minutes away from work is that if i ever forget something its not the end of the world i just drive home during lunch and pick it up ^_^ i wish our public transport/cities in the US prioritized this over the strange suburban sprawl we seem dedicated to

well, the problem of having had a huge box of books for donation in the garage for 2 years but nowhere to donate them to has handily been solved by the fact that that stupidly long period of rain a few of weeks ago kind of flooded the floor where they were kept and like 90% of them have mould now :/ 

not how i’d have liked this to end (i hate chucking books) but it’s not like i can Not chuck them now