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thaunknowndreadhead · 2 years

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*an unrecognized change occurs in somebody else's tone or the way they look at me in a moment or conversation with me*

them: 👀😒😐😒😐🤨

Me in my mind: Ooohh ok,

them:…..

Me in my mind: WHATS GOING ON?! WHAT DID I DO NOW?! I recognize that terrible confused look from many people😩

Me on the inside: 🤯?

Me on the outside: 😐😌😐😌😐😶 (maybe😰)

Them:🚶‍♂️😒🚶‍♂️😒🚶‍♂️

Me in my mind: remain calm, they will eventually come back and explain what exactly it is that made them walk away and look back at me as if they just saw something confusing or that didn't make since to them, giving me context to there weird reaction. Is it me? Did I say or do something wrong???I couldn't have. I don't do things to deliberately offend people or screw with peoples minds. SO WHAT JUST HAPPENED??ARE THEY SUFFERING MENTALLY LIKE ME JUST DIFFERENTLY?? Are they suffering from the seemingly hereditary thing that has probably plagued our family. This thing that comes in many forms that are definitely under the umbrella of mental illness. I mean WHY NOT right? Your elders and the generation over them

Me still in my mind: [intrusive thought enters] >>"MAN is it scary to sit and actualize the fact that generational patterns occur and how I am noticing it in myself and it's scary and change for the better has NOT been easy AT ALL" [intrusive thought leaves as I sit alone talking to myself and talking in my mind]

Me still in my mind: But your elders and the generation over them and the generation over them and beyond, all suffered; and it was called slavery. But is that really effecting me and I or we as black people and we just don't know that it's affecting us. "black on black hate" ..maybe…Is it because I'm just a fck up? Could I really help or control my destiny or this destination??

Me STILL in my mind: [new intrusive thought enters]>>"How can a word, or words, (which I heard on the news) make you flinch in fear when you ACTUALLY here it. Like the word $uic1de (or any word they just used on the news to describe American suffrage, like substance abuse covid and other "plagues" of sort.[intrusive thought leaves as I sit alone still]

ME STILL in my mind: I wish my grand father would stop watching bad news all day especially with his heart condition. I wish the world would just treat eachother with love and these things wouldn't exist as much. Things like minor misunderstandings and/ or hatred. I love everybody.

Me outside my mind… or maybe I am out of MY mind because I don't recognize this hell of thoughts that's been going like this through my head for years but…yeah ((anyway)) Me outside my mind: 😶😑😐😐😑😐😑😐😑😐😑😶😑😐😑😐😑😑😑😐😬😐😑😐😑😐😑😪😔🥺😢😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😢😥😰😖😠😡🤯😭😭😭😭😭😭😭☹🙁😟🤧😕😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐☹☹☹🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁☹☹☹😟😟☹☹☹😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐

( the confusion continues to plague me constantly as new trying moments and situations occur more and more, while the old moments echoe eternally in my mind. I think it's called life..but is this how it was meant to be?????)

More thoughts after seeing a prayer on the prayer app: Dear God, I thank you that I can rejoice in all things because I know that what I go through in this body is merely temporary. Every pain, every sickness, and every infirmity are just signs of this fleshly body's weakness. But I am glad that a time is coming that this body will be done away with and I, and all your children, will take on a more glorious form. In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen (and I fully want this to be true)

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jisungsluv · 4 years

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(O_O)

#day rants #this might be a lil tmi...#but uhhh i have an official sugar daddy????#whos actually a close friend of mine????#like idk man hes had a crush on me for like over a year now and i told him I don't want a relationship #so now he just buys me things and gives me drugs and fcks me amd takes me where ever i wanna go #idkidk #its crazy??? i never thought it would happen tbh #its a whole new experience for me tbh #i dont wanna get too attached tho #like i hate relationships and i think they ruin everything and hes such a big part of our friend group i dont wanna ruin everything #such a predicament #he balances out the friend group so well.. me n him #its funny cause he really knows how to push my buttons and hes pissed me off so many times but now its like a complete 180 and hes different #but like still the same #idk man i really really dont know #im gonna d word overthinkinhlg about all this

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shieldofrohan · 3 years

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Jaehaerys the douchebag was the real surprise of Fire & Blood. From him creating the whole Targaryen exceptionalism bullshit so he could bang his sister. And then of course there is his horrible treatment of his daughters. The callouness with having one hundred men strip naked in front of the one who was mentally disabled was just "dad of year". And this is the best king?

Hello @eonweheraldodemanwe ,

You have no idea how much I hated that Fire and Blood book and Jayjay was one of the biggest reasons. That annoying piece of sh*t lived that long just to p*ss me off.

This book made me rooting for Maegor. He really should have killed idiot Aenys' whole brood to save all of us from misery.

I don't even want to talk about that book. Yes it tells that ALL Targs suck but Martin really put very problematic and disturbing ideas in that book which totally ruined the series for me.

Anyway... That idiot Jayjay and fake feminist Alysanne were so fcking annoying and selfish. They married despite of the political situation Westeros in because of Targs' desire to fck each other and I was like: WHY? Selfish weirdos used their nukes to shut people up and came up with that Exceptionalism bullsh*t to shut people up for longer. Their daughter Daenerys dying of shivers and our beloved Khaleesi now shitting on grass really proved that TaRGs aRe sPeciaL.

What really bothered me with that book was that it felt like a joke. Yes, to certain degree that book was satire but written as a Targ propaganda. So it had two aspects of it.

1- This a Targ POV, therefore a propaganda so don't let it fool you.

2- This is a satire about how in subtext Targs sucked.

But it was also obvious that Martin tried to give an example of his ideal/good king with characters like Jayjay. Even though he makes sure that Jayjay was also an a*shole, he gives the hints of him being a good king.

I think (!) Martin believes that a good ruler doesn't have to be a good man and this is fine... I don't believe this idea, but I can respect it.

My problem was those hints of a good king. Because they didn't feel developed naturally.

[Btw, Martin sees Jayjay as a good king, I didn't come up with that idea: source]

Martin's attempts to paint Jayjay and Alysanne as good king and queen were laughable.

I know that Martin prefers the peaceful kings.. the ones who don't fight etc.

OK. But I find this idea unrealistic. Not all wars are for money and fame. His idea of a king who only cares about improving economy and good harvest is a little utopic.

And I think he cheated a little when he tried to show that Jayjay was a king who chose peace over fighting. Because that little sh*t didn’t have to fight in the first place. Meagor suddenly dies, so does Septon Moon, Joffrey Doggett starts serving him with tears in his eyes (WHY?) and Faith Militan got disbanded because let's incest weirdos who think they are gods defend the Faith. Aaaaand now you have a kingdom without any defiance. Wow Jayjay... you worked too hard dude, go fck your sister for a while.

Martin was like: "Hey this bloodpurist weirdo loves reading and talks about tax policy... obviously best king ever!".

Him wasting pages for his tax policy was such a weak attempt to make his point about Aragorn's tax policy. Because I didn't care about Jayjay's kingship in the first place. Yes a lot of awful leaders in the history managed to come up with good economical or whatever policies but those people actually sucked in the long run so we don't remember them as good leaders, therefore awful people can't be good rulers imo. Sorry not sorry. When I read Jayjay's reign, I didn't consider him as a good king for a second.

And his sister wife was even worse. She was like I HAVE TO BE HIS QUEEN!! Why? Because. Yeah ALIEsanne, only you can be a good queen, you freak. Let's be disrespectful and selfish to Westeros' people.

She was like: "I ended that barbaric first night tradition (I wonder why Martin insisted on some "myth" about Middle Ages...) because look at the poor women who suffered because of barbaric Northern Lords (she works on this after her visit to North was so?????). What would Westeros do without some white imperialist bloodpurists who are more sophisticated than barbaric Westeros lords???"

And she got surprised when Valyrian lords were also into prima nocta but HEY, women in Dragonstone were happy about it because Valyrians were not some simple lords! They were GODS!!! Such a blessing! Because women love being used by "gods".

She was like: "Women can RULE too" But she usupers her sister's right. And Martin tries to paint her as a good queen because she let women speak. She believes she is superior!!! Who cares about her fake woke white feminism?!

ANYWAY. Both Jayjay and ALIEsanne were awful and I didn't read them as good king and queen. I think Martin's philosophy of "bad people can be good rulers" wasn't for me. Because I believe that a ruler who believes he/she is superior than normal people can't be a good ruler. Ofc, good ones makes mistakes too but were talking about: Bloodpurism, racism, nuclear weapons and imperialism here. These are not some normal human faults. These are the recipe for a really awful rulership.

Another yikes about that book was that all anti Targ people were AWFUL or they died while they were fcking a horse!?. Only perverts, mad people, sexist pigs and bigots were anti Targ during the whole book. And people of Westeros were ok with Targs... Yeah who wouldn't love some white people with nukes come to invade your land? This is some white American thing, I guess...

When people of Westeros killed some geckos because some old smelly mad man provoked them to do, they felt bad afterwards!?!??! Literally all book was a joke and you can't force it to make sense by only saying that this was written as a Targ propaganda because Martin CHOSE to write this way. And I can't unsee the problematic aspects... This book screamed: "AN OLD WHITE AMERICAN WROTE ME".

I love Martin, but I wish he didn't write this book at all. If I sound bitter about him lately, this book is the reason. I wasn't expecting sth this awful.

And the book wasn't even pleasing to read. It had no literary value. Just bunch of unnecessary information (like the Septa who wrote a naughty book) about annoying and awful people.

It lacked the aspects that made Asoiaf great like the psychological side of the characters or character developments and arcs and beautiful POVs...

But it shares one of Asoiaf's weak points: NO POV from anti Targ people. He failed to give a POV to people in Essos against Dany in main books and this created the DANY THE WHITE SAVIOUR. He makes the same mistake in this book too and I hated it... I wish he wrote this book from different perspectives in Westeros. But too late.

In conclusion: I HATED THAT BOOK. But at least it showed one thing clearly: ALL TARGS SUCK.

Thanks for the ask.

#mine #ask #answered #reply #asoiaf #anti targaryen #anti fire and blood #grrm critical #anti jaehaerys targaryen #anti house targaryen #anti daenerys #just to be safe

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levmada · 2 years

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lev i hope i’m doing this right even though the directions are easy as fck to understand XD this is a cute event so thank you for doing it!!

some context? levi’s in the forest with zeke, and it happens to hit valentine’s day when he’s still there. we’ve been together for about three years at this point. (idek what month it is in the manga during this time, and this letter does not match up to the manga at all, but it can be whatever right…? i rewatched that ep today and my heart cannot take it knowing what happens shortly after. i’m in need of a different reality;_;)

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my love,

it’s been half a month without you! can you believe that time is flying that fast? it’s the first time we’ve been far apart for this long all these years. i hope you’re doing well on your end and getting some sleep. i know you! i know how you are with your schedule. i have a gut feeling with zeke around, you must barely be getting an ounce of rest. just please keep yourself safe and stable. i hate that you’re with that “bearded shit” instead of being safe with me, as you refer to him. i’m sure your comrades must be keeping you great company though.

everything’s going fine on my end. eren’s still in his cell and he hasn’t said much. hange’s taking it too hard on themselves and they won’t listen when i tell them to take the smallest break. it really reminds me of you. sasha’s going out with niccolo pretty often, the marleyan cook? if you remember him. you had a gun to his head. i totally bet you remember the faces of the people you’ve threatened. it’s always going to be one of the most attractive things about you.

guess what? today’s valentine’s day! did you get the new tea sachets with this letter? i know you must be extra grumpy without it at hand. hopefully this helps you get through your days there. there should also be new ones that i wanted to surprise you with as a gift… mint, chamomile, lemongrass, raspberry and mango tea. tell me about them if you get to trying them. jean and mikasa recommended them. which ones do you like? try drinking the chamomile at night. it’s supposed to help you sleep even though i know you probably don’t want to.

if it isn’t obvious already… i really miss you, vi. i love you so damn much. please take good care of yourself, sweetheart. i really wish to be with you again. it’s so hard sleeping without being wrapped in your arms or… you know, our special long nights that put us both to sleep. lately i keeping thinking about the time you wanted me to try being on top. you never let me get off until you were the most satisfied, huh? i would say i’ll get you back for that but you’ll have me under you in seconds, won’t you?

once this war is over, you’re not allowed to go anywhere without me for longer than a week.

yours,

suki

by the way… you gave me an order before you left. i’ve been a good girl like you asked me to be, captain. don’t you think i deserve a reward when you’re back?

HI SUKI ! - i had a ton of fun with yours💖 pls a universe where everyone is as happy as possible (and also alive) :(( i love it. levi who's been stuck in a forest for 2 weeks (so far) without his partner of nearly 3 years?? - he would be in such an antsy mood but so sweet. i hope u like it :)

without a doubt, your song is bae by the front bottoms

Dear Suki,

At least for you, time has been moving at a reasonable pace. I’ve been camping for two weeks with a monkey breathing down my neck, and as such it’s felt like more or less an eternity. I’m not about to get used to missing you like hell, or constantly getting dirt underneath my fingernails.

The good news is that no one is that antsy yet—just on edge. I have good men doing most of the legwork out here, so don’t worry. I’ve had plenty of time to think about you when this bearded asshole decides he’s bored and starts reading aloud from his same shitty book.

As for Hange, they’ve started acting a lot like Erwin you-know-who these days; Onyankopon better be keeping an eye on them. I hope you’re not just sitting around staring at that idiot, Eren. You need someone to look after you too, to keep your head on straight. Sasha has that smarmy guy Niccolo, who yes, I remember. Does that really make me attractive?

Grumpy is one word for how I’ve been. I’ve bitched a lot so far, I realize, but maybe that’ll be a little added entertainment for you. The appeal of this whole assignment has definitely worn off for me, anyway—not that it had any to begin with. I look at my watch a lot, and ask about how you and Hange are when I get word back from the cities. You can probably guess the amount of sleep I’ve been getting, but enough about me.

The best we can ask for is to feel ‘fine’ right now. That means you’re safe. That’s one thing to be glad about, along with this tea—surprisingly none were ruined in the transport process. Finally, something that feels familiar. As usual, you’re a lifesaver… Thank you.

Mint is my favorite so far (yes, I’ve tried a couple already… bite me). If you really want my thoughts on each, I’ll do that. I shouldn’t take too much of your time, if you’re busy. As I said, the mint sachet is my favorite. It tastes ‘clean’, if that makes sense. It helps the rations go down easier, too.

The chamomile is good—too good. I didn’t think it’d make me so tired in the afternoon, and since you especially recommended it, I guess I got ahead of myself. And you’re right, I’m not a fan of the idea of completely letting my guard down for a few hours (regardless of how good the security is), but fine. You really want me to take care of myself, right?

Make sure you’re doing the same: sleeping, eating enough (and not just those sweets Hange hordes at HQ), bathing. I think I still have a bottle of that old shampoo you always liked in the back of the bathroom linen closet. You especially enjoyed attaching yourself to me when I used it, so I bought extras. You can gather why. Maybe it’ll help.

I’ve written a complete essay so far—of course, I miss you too.

It’s crazy, what you do to me. All you did was put a few sentences on a page, and you’ve left me with a real problem. I can’t stop thinking about our last night together. The sound of your voice in my ear (after how loud you got, how could I forget?) and your hands all over me. I can’t speak for my back right now, but there are still marks from your nails, all down my chest. So don’t be coy—clearly you enjoyed being on top.

I can’t decide—for next time—which way I want you. Every option riles me up so much I can hardly stand it, but you’ve been a good girl. I’ll let you decide this time. That’ll be your reward after I’ve licked you a couple of times, because it’s just as good for you as it is for me. You’ll be in for more than you think when we’re together again, sweetheart.

Wait for me.

Yours,

Levi

For my V-Day event: Pop a love letter to your favorite aot character into my inbox, and receive one back!

#Valentines Day 2022 #attack on titan #aot event #aot levi

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thr-333 · 4 years

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Mismatch- Part 22

Bio Dad Bruce Wayne Month

Hating LIla is apparently a family trait

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“Uh I hate this,” Chloe picks at her uniform like it's a disgusting growth.

“I think you look as nice as you always do,” Marion says cheerfully, turning around on his seat to look back at her and Kagami.

“Marion that is by far the worst you have ever insulted me,”

“It was a complement-” Marion doges her whack.

“Marinette! Hit your brother for me,” Chloe demands, standing up to try and reach him.

“It’s more gratifying if you do it yourself, trust me,” Marinette flicks through her phone, not bothering to look up, “I can pin your uniform to look more flattering if you like,”

“Nette you are the best!” Chloe hugs her from behind, awkward to be sure with the seat and all, yep that's the only reason, not Kagami's death glare that can be felt through the seat.

“Oh Marinette you can also pin mine,” Lila asks, as sweetly as acid, “Or weren't you going to offer the rest of the class?”

“No actually Lila she wasn't,” Marion sneers, ignoring Marinette trying to pull him back into the seat, “As I’ve made it quite clear none of you are our friends, so she isn’t obligated to do anything for you,”

“That’s so mean,” Lila sniffles, everyone is too busy feeling guilty to comfort her.

“Weren't you friends with MDC Lila?” Marion asks as sweetly as acid, “Why not try asking them?"

With that Marion turns back to his seat and starts scrolling through his phone, ignoring Lila's attempts at guilting. He gets a notification from Marinette.

I can speak for myself

U can nicely tell them no- I can tell them to fck off

That wasn't very nice

Im done with nice

Whats wrong?

Marion looks up seeing Marinette looking over him concerned, he sighs and texts back.

Nervous

Dont worry Bruce hasn't told them yet

Its going to be awkward

We’ll get through it- Pound it?

Marion looks back up, Marinette is smiling at him holding out her hand.

“Pound it,”

They pull up to the school, the grandiose of Wayne academy is nothing to sneeze at. Brick buildings, iron work, Marion has to force Marinette to put her sketchbook away. They are escorted around the campus by a student. They’ll be split up and put into a range of different classes to make the best out of their week there.

“3 o’clock,” Marinette bumps into him, Marion lets his gaze slide over, spotting Damian.

“Wasn't Lila saying on the way over here that she was great friends with him?”

“Mari don't,” Marinette hisses, tugging at his sleeve, “It’s weird enough without pulling him in to our grudge match,”

“Nothing bonds siblings more than a mutual hatred of Lila, exhibit A,” He points back and forth between them, “I’m going to do it,”

“Don't you dare-”

“Hey Damian!” Marion shouts, waving his hand for the entire hallway to turn and stare.

Damian turns around with a scowl, hardly lessening when he spots them.

“Marion, just what do you think you’re doing,” Kagami scolds, as Damian stalks over.

“Lila,” Marion smirks back, looking over to the girl who pales at an actual Wayne walking over, apparently she had actually decided to look up what they look like.

“Oh this is going to be good,” Chloe steps back, content to watch the show.

“Hey Dami,” Marion goes to sling an arm around his shoulder.

“Don’t call me Dami,” Damian sidesteps his attempt, preferring to stand closer to Marinette.

“How’s Cat-fred?” Marion smiles, getting Damian’s scowl to lessen slightly, so he smiles brighter.

“He’s doing well,”

“Good good…” Marion shuffles, no longer able to look directly at him, “How’s the family?”

Marinette gives him a sideways look that clearly says ‘you did this to yourself’.

“Why are you asking?” Damian narrows his eyes, and Marion knows he fucked up.

Nette help please!

“I wanted to know when I can come over next for a rematch,” Marinette gracefully lets him off the hook.

“Evidently sparring at the manor is at risk of interruption,” Damian notes, deep in thought, “We should plan an alternative meeting space,”

“That sounds great,” Marinette smiles, catching Damian in between their grins.

Damian just nods and walks away, Marion smiles and waves.

“You’re an idiot,” Marinette punches him in the shoulder, getting him to lower his arm.

“We’ve established that, thanks,” Marion rubs his shoulder with a pout, “However look over there,”

Lila having an aneurysm, surrounded by the class berating her with questions.

“Worth it,” Marion grins, going for a subtle fist bump.

“Agreed,” Marinette returns the gesture.

“Lila why didn’t you say hi?”

“Why didn’t he say hi?”

“He must not have seen me,” Lila’s lip quivers in a practiced motion, “Marinette was standing in front of me,”

“Or were you hiding behind Marinette?” Marion calls over, actually voluntarily walking towards the beast.

“What?! Of course I wasn't!” Lila shouts, her glare sending him a clear warning, one he was fully prepared to ignore.

“Then why didn’t you just move?” Marion asks oh so innocently.

“I didn’t want to be rude,” Lila sounds shy but her face screams murder, as people hang around to eavesdrop on their conversation.

“Then you were doing it to be polite and complaining about Marinette is quite rude,” Marion has to hold back a smirk as he hears an ‘oh snap’ from his audience.

“I- you!-”

“That’s nice Lila,” Marinette interrupts, walking away like the badass she is, “How about we get to class,”

Marion goes to class, having the fortune to be lumped in with Lila. And yes he does mean fortune because while Lila is trying to brag and get the students under her thumb they are happily ignoring her, focusing instead on Marion’s tips for learning French. When Lila switches tactics saying she can speak Italian Marion switches over to fluent Italian, something he had learned from his Nona. He then breaks out his Mandarin, daring Lila to try and fake knowing a language.

Lila goes quite, just kidding you know that's not true. She starts to pull students aside whispering to them. Marion isn't sure if she is intentionally loud enough that he can hear her or if it’s just his enhanced hearing.

“He’s a bully, I know he’s just trying to act nice to get something out of you,” Lila warns a student who looks disgruntled to have basically been pulled into the corner away from the group.

“He’s a Wayne?” Ah so he’s heard the not-so rumour, “What could I possibly have that he doesn't?”

“He’s not a Wayne!” Lila snaps, before regaining her composure, “I actually know the Waynes,”

“... because they’re in your class?”

“No!” She stops her foot, “They made up that rumour! I know because I’m personal friends with all the Waynes,”

“Alright show a picture,” The guy shrugs, stuffing his hands in his pockets, Marion reminds himself to give them the award of ‘you’re smarter than everyone in my class, it's not much but it’s something!’.

“ What? ” Lila seethes, looking ready to tear his eyeballs out to have an excuse not to show him.

“All I’m saying is I’ve seen multiple pictures of them with the Waynes plus, I heard that they actually talked to Damian Wayne this morning!” He actually looks in awe at this fact.

“I would hardly call that a conversation,” Lila crosses her arms, looking to the side like a child.

“No you don't understand!” He employers making a wild hand gesture as if trying to show how amazing it is, “He’s the ice prince, if someone else calls his name or even tried to talk to him he would just ignore them, but he actually walked over and talked to them,”

“He saw me-”

“Look I don’t really care, this argument isn't worth having,” The guy puts up placating hands, the gesture having the exact opposite effect on Lila, “Marion seems cool, Wayne or not, so yeah,”

Marion tries not to smile as one by one Lila is shot down. Her anger rising so high Marion is sure she would have been akumatized three times over by now.

“Hey what's with Lila, she seems to have it out for you?” The first guy to talk to her whispers, turns out his name is James and was very confused when Marion gifted him a small paper trophy.

“Oh she does,” Marion shrugs, filling out the worksheet idly.

“Ok… why?” James presses, the small paper trophy sitting on his desk.

“Hmmm…” Marion leans back, tipping his seat, “It’s a paradox,”

“What is?”

“If I tell you the truth, you’ll probably think I’m lying and her accusations will seem more believable,” Marion reasons, looking up at the ceiling, “If I fake ignorance, you’ll probably just take her word for it, seems like a trap,”

“You’re taking this way too seriously,” James shakes his head, and Marion cracks a grin.

“Sorry, just happy to have some new friends,” His smile lessens, becoming melancholy, “It’s been awhile,”

“What? But you’re so,” James makes another one of his wild hand gestures, “ Nice ,”

Marion just shrugs, but some people notice how he quickly glances over at Lila talking with someone else. Any further questions are cut off by the bell.

“Well, seems that's our cue to leave, now tell me are American school lunches really as bad as I’m led to believe?”

“You poor little french boy,” James shake his head, “You have no idea the horrors you will face,”

“This is so much worse than I thought it would be,” Marion looks down at his tray in disgust, “This is a private school?”

“I told you so,” James shrugs, walking through the cafeteria to find a seat.

“Hold up a sec,” Marion says, spotting Damian, not talking but rather trying to ignore someone talking to him, “Dami!”

“Don’t call me Dami,” Damian pushes Marion off him this time, the person who was talking to him looks shocked that his arms aren’t broken.

He puts his tray on the table and grabs Damian's shoulders.

“I have an urgent problem,”

“Cheng-Dupain, from what I know of you that is a massive exaggeration,” Damian brushes him off again and Marion’s scared the other kid is having a heart attack, “Now stop bothering me, it can wait for later,”

“I didn’t take any pictures of Cat-fred!” Marion cries, flopping onto Damian, who doesn't bother pushing him off a third time.

“... Understandable,” Damian snatches Marion’s phone, letting Marion input the code over his shoulder, “This is an oversight on your part,”

“So you’ll send some to me?” Marion grins, using Damian’s head as an armrest as he watches him enter his number.

“Yes,” Damian passes Marion’s phone back and Marion grabs his food.

“Great, see you later!” Marion stands up, ruffling Damian's hair before leaving.

“What was that!?” He hears the other person shout as he walks away.

“What was that?!” James yells, and whoops the entire cafeteria is staring between him and Damian.

“Do you ever learn from your mistakes?” Marinette asks, materialising beside him.

“No?” Marion scoffs, putting his and on his hip, “Why would I?”

“Are you actually siblings?” James still looks in shock but at least he isn’t gaping and gasping for air anymore.

“Yes?” Of course they were siblings, they are twins? Is that not clear?

“God-fucken dammit Mari!” Marinette hisses, “That’s not what they meant!”

“Oh,” Marion says softly, totally not jumping as Damian materialises next to him.

“Cheng-Dupain, it was this absentminded nature that caused this rumour to get out of hand in the first place,”

“Yeah… you are going to have to be way more specific,” Marion looks around the whole cafeteria is still staring at them, trading whispers.

“No we are not related, that is a baseless rumour,” Damian glares at James, making him recoil.

“Right… baseless,” Marion mumbles, getting kicked in the shin by Marinette.

“Adopted then?” James foolishly asks.

“ No ,” and yep now James looks afraid for his life.

“Haha, you know you don’t have to seem so offended by that?” Marion slings his arm around Damian’s shoulder, silently rejoicing that he only gets a withered glare this time.

“Like I said,” Lila’s voice carries over the still quite cafeteria, “The Waynes were telling me how they hate that rumour, the meer idea they are connected to the twins is-”

“ Excuse me ,” Damian slams his hand down on the table, right next to Lila making her jump out of her skin, “But who are you, and why do you think you know anything about my family and what we think,”

“I just-”

“You presume you’re of enough importance to understand my feelings towards the matter?” Damian stands tall and looks down his nose at her, “You aren’t,”

“Lila,” Alya whispers to her as Damian walks away, “I think you should just let them sort it out, it’s a family matter,”

“Who is that?” Damian demands when he gets back to them, “And how do I destroy her?”

“Don’t worry about it Damian, she's just doing it to get attention,” Marinette explains calmly.

“Lila Rossi,” Marion has other plans, “She’s a Liar, provide proof she doesn't know your family or anyone for that matter and she will be destroyed,”

Damian gives a curt nod and walks away, back to his friend who is still gaping like the rest of the room.

“ Mari ,” Marinette smacks him.

“I merely shared my wisdom,” Marion stroke his invisible beard, “What he chooses to do with it is up to him,”

“Ugh, that was a long day,” Plagg groans, curling up in the middle of his pillow.

“Plagg you slept in my bag the whole time,” Marion flops onto his bed, and it wasn't over they had to go on patrol soon.

“Which is far more disruptive than a bed,” Plagg complains, letting Marion curl up next to him, “Not comfortable at all,”

“Speaking of not being comfortable…” Marinette trails off, sitting on the edge of his bed.

“Our brother insisting we aren’t related?” Marion curls around to look over at her.

“Very strange feeling,” Marinette nods, absentmindedly pulling her feet onto the bed.

“He yelled at Lila,” Marion smiles up at the ceiling.

“Does that make him an honorary Dupain-slash-Cheng?” Marinette smiles over at him.

“Yeah…” Marion’s grin drops, “... Or Dupain/Cheng/Wayne,”

“... You want to tell them?” Marinette asks in her horrible tone that reminds him of being back in Paris and trying to stifle emotions.

“I mean, yeah,” He sits up, crossing his legs, “They’re family right? I want to know them, do you?”

“He seemed upset when they called us siblings,” Marinette turns to face him, the Kwamis watching their little meeting from the outside.

“He seemed more upset with Lila, said he was insulted by it,” Marion reasons, he feels like they’re back in Paris dressed as Ladybug and Chat Noir having three in the morning conversations on rooftops.

“It’s Lila, anything she says can piss someone off,” Marinette sighs, flopping back on the bed, destroying the illusion, “Tikki what do you think?”

“This is a decision you have to make on your own Marinette,” Tikki advises sagely.

“Tiiikkkiiiiii,” Marinette whines like a three year old

“Alright, I never had a family but I have the other Kwamis,” Tikki concedes, explaining to the twins giving her all their attention, “I am separated from Nooro and Dussu, and if family feels like them I do not want you to be separated,”

“What if they get mad?” Marinette asks, fidgeting.

“Then you’ll find a way to work through it,” Tikki smiles at them, “You’re Ladybug and Chat Noir, there isn’t anything you can’t do,”

“Just do it kid!” Plagg shouts, giving up on pretending to nap, “If it turns out bad at least you know!”

“Plagg!”

“What is it Sugar Cube?” Plagg asks sweetly, getting chased out the room moments later.

“So, we doing this?” Marion asks, after all their Kwamis have left.

“I guess so,” Marinette shugs, bringing out her phone, Marion holds her hand for comfort as they wait for the phone to ring.

“Hello?” Bruce picks up on the third ring.

“Hey Bruce,” Marion says, sounding strained even to himself.

“Marinette, Marion,” Bruce answers, pleasantly surprised, “Is everything alright?”

“How do you feel about telling everyone else?” Marion cuts straight to the chase, he can’t be bothered to run.

“... are you sure?” Marion can feel Marinette tension grow at the question, “I want to but they’ll all be surprised, it might ruin your trip,”

“We got sent to the hospital the first week being here,” Marion reasons, he should technically still be on bed rest.

“... That's true,”

“So?” He prompts after a too long pause.

“When do you want to tell them?”

“Tomorrow,” Marinette speaks up for the first time.

Well I guess that's that

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Mimi, i hope you are doing good. I don't think you have any haters, I am not supporting the rude anons but i actually tried to understand their comments as well.

I feel they don't hate you or your work so calling them haters may not be an appropriate word. I am not defending anyone but for once I tried to be in a neutral spot just to analyze the whole situation. What the anons tried to convey was not completely wrong but i guess it's just their way of conveying it was not right. Plus, i also feel this is not the same person, i am very sure they all are different people just having the same thought process. You are a very good writer, i just feel you are a lil impulsive (may be because you are a young blood), you need not address or defend every comment which ultimately affects you. Being someone who is atleast 10 years elder to you, i just want to say that 10 years later you are going to look back and laugh at yourself for being so impulsive and for actually giving a fck about all this. You are letting these comments get inside your brain. Big music artists get so much hate as well but that does not stop them from making music. You are on a big platform with 1M plus readers and everytime you have defended yourself it has actually backfired you. Try to keep calm and understand every asks, may be not everyone is actually aiming to write against you. We all are just bunch of readers waiting for an update of our fav FF, but now your readers are actually scared to even ask you about any update as it keeps bothering you, but what else are they suppose to expect from you?

Not everyone who says something negative is a hater right away. I've never said they are. I'm speaking more generally in my asks. You guys don't see all the messages in my inbox or are going through the same thing like I do, so for you most of these things could look totally different than they look to me. If someone sends you a dead threat, they are a hater. Or someone who always comes back to badmouthing you and your stories, is a hater. I can't believe some people are willing to go such a length over a story.

I don't think I'm impulsive, I think about things a lot before I speak about it publicly. I might seem to look like that to you, but I'm not. And even tho some things happening here make me sad and I do feel frustrated, as soon as I close the app and don't think about it I'm fine. I don't cry myself to sleep thinking about all of this and I'm fully convinced that if any of this will be too much for me, I'll simply just walk away. I'm not the one constantly talking about this, I always just explain myself but then it brings another wave of different kinds of responds. If something gets too much, I just ignore it but you don't see that. You all just see what I decide to publish.

I can assure you, I'm very much calm but also very honest. I'm not going to pretend I love it here when there are dozens of pressures from different sides all the time.

Like I said many times, I'm here to write and post stories. I'm no one's servant. I'm not going to sit back when people are being assholes or when there's something that's not comfortable for me on my own blog. It sounds selfish but it's true... this is my blog. Why should I shut my mouth for the sake of some people who upset me?

My words also always get twisted and I've said this before, but every time I admit something publicly people twist it. Like with the whole update thing. I said many times I don't mind readers asking about them but it also matters HOW they ask it. And if I obviously don't respond to x questions about updates, then it's because I don't want to. I also don't have a schedule, so most of the times I don't even know myself when I'm gonna update. But when someone asks me about update in an impolite way (if you scroll down, there's a perfect example of that) of course, I'm not gonna just sit here and smile. I also said I don't want readers to think that they've to be scared to tell me something just because I once talked about it, like the whole criticism thing. Just because it's criticism, doesn't mean it can't make me feel different emotions every time.

And this happens every time I'm being open and honest about something. Why do I always have to be someone who needs to change something? Why do I always have to just "ignore" things? No, if not something's right – let's talk about it. If someone doesn't like me or my work, they're free to leave. What do I have to do with anything when someone says they don't like me? And they come here on my blog to do that?

I think a lot of readers are used to world revolving around them because writers are always grateful for every each of them, and I'm so too. But guess what? World doesn't revolve around them. I'll listen to you and I'll try to have a conversation with you, but if I don't feel comfortable and know that conversation won't bring anything good and won't solve anything, I'll just walk away from it.

#ask: anon

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Hi is it okay if I rant? This may be lengthy. But If not feel free to delete this I don’t wanna put all my grievances on you bc I know how that may be annoying!

So lately I feel like a dumbass for being attracted to a guy who I know is a jerk. We literally met from arguing with each other and not getting along. We have mutual friends so we are around each other a lot and argue a lot in our groupchat and it’s a huge turn off bc we’re grown lmao and there’s no reason for him to constantly pick arguments w me or tease me like a childish boy. But he’s also said things that make it obvious he’s weirdly attracted to me too, like one of our biggest fights was because we were playing a confession drinking game w friends and he said “the girl I want to fck the most is also the most annoying girl I’ve ever met” and one of our friends was like he’s talking about YOU. It was a shitty thing to say like he says things like that and it was so childish and it started an argument that ruined the whole night. But he’s rude and our friends let him get away w being a dick but I don’t so I think that’s why we clash. I get called sensitive all the time for it. And just knowing that he annoys me seems to egg him on more so I mostly ignore him. he’s just a sarcastic asshole and always needs to be the center of attention. He’s not a terrible person but I just know he’s not my cup of tea.

But at the same time..I think he’s cute and really smart I always have and we have sexual tension. Like I can admit when a person is attractive even when I don’t like them. Anyways over the weekend there’s this festival a town near us has yearly and my friends and I went and rented a cabin and did some drinking. Oddly enough him and I got along and I wasn’t drunk I was just like tipsy but we were talking about stuff that’s been going on here in the US. So ig I should say I’m black and he’s asian so we were talking about some touchy topics with poc (we were 2 out of 3 of the only poc at the cabin and plus it’s already a pretty conservative racist state) and it came up bc of an incident at the bar where the bartenders ignored me and helped all the white ppl until my white guy friend said something and I didn’t even realize it was most likely race related like I’m just used to it but when we got back to the cabin he brought it up and asked if I was okay which really surprised me and lead to that whole conversation which made me look at him differently and kinda made him even more attractive. After that the whole night we just kinda hung out w each other and like clung to each other, were dancing together and just really touchy idk it was weird bc we hate each other so our friends noticed immediately 💀 but i didn’t care cus in the moment we got along really well for the first time. Soooo fast forward to get to the point, I kinda sorta let him eat me out in the restroom and kinda palmed him through his shorts 😭 I got really caught up and into it but when I realized I just made up some lie about being really tired and feeling sick

but that was 2 days ago on Saturday and now that I’m home I’ve been thinking about it and feeling bad like maybe I should’ve returned the favor for him and get him off too? But something in me stopped me. he hasn’t said anything bad about it he’s been very nice actually or just acting like nothing happened which I appreciate bc our friends kinda assume something did since we disappeared but thankfully he walked up to me the next day and promised he wouldn’t say anything unless I did. I haven’t decided to tell them yet bc I know how hypocritical it seems since I bash him all the time and also it’s not like I have to tell anyone. But he’s been cool lately, we’ve been texting outside of the groupchat which we’ve never done before but it’s been friendly and funny conversation and even talked on the phone last night (which for me is a big deal bc I hate phone calls). Anyways I’m kinda having regrets about it all just bc I think back to some of our past arguments or issues with one another and they’ve been bad before. But at the same time...he has really nice lips and is really good with his hands and mouth 😭 and like he’s not a bad person he’s just not my kinda person so maybe a hookup or two isn’t bad? But Idk how I feel about catching feelings for him. Like what would you do??

Oh my goodness this was lengthy lol

But I think if he’s changing then maybe it’s alright to see where this could go for you two, but if you think he’s still going to always act childishly and call you annoying and like you like a kid does, then maybe just try and do a hookup thing if you do want that

#asks

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assassinscreed-photomode · 3 years

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softish Spoilers for the final final chapter (Hunting Alfred)

😭

long, sorry. also I have an identity crisis at the end. Fuck england

Gods I hate that final final hunting king Aelfred quest, erasing that from my memory in 3 2 1...nope, everyone was just horribly injured, but survived and they all got everything they wanted, and lived full happy lives until the end of their days! Woo fiction!

Seriously, my delicate heart can’t take the whole trope of bringing in all these wonderful fantastic characters only for them to be used as pawns to sacrifice in the final chapters for the emotions.

I actually ended up skipping through a number of death scenes and similar because I was so desperate to get to the end. I don’t even know for sure how many of the characters died lmao......It really draws you in with those first few chapters, oh look how fun and interesting everyone is, here's a low stakes saga to get you started and then BAM dead dead dead.

I don’t know what it is.

I think because this game is set in my country, one that I have a complicated relationship with. Many of the regions I know and love, places I have not been able to go to or anywhere this year due to covid, I found myself feeling deeply emotional in regard to certain visual and regional aspects of it, and then that high emotional state would transfer onto the characters and story. It mainly manifested in me having deep deep empathy for our Eivor, so much that I felt I was hurting on her behalf. Especially in regards to Sigurd, all those visions, the shit that went down in Norway like girl ARE YOU OK? Someone hug her, please.

There were times I was playing this where I genuinely felt distressed and anxious on behalf of Eivor, mainly in regards to Sigurd’s sudden anger after Suthsexe, but that's a whole other thing. I tried to be perfect around him so he wouldn’t shout at me, which obviously didn’t work. which is literally what I learnt to do as a small child and have been working through now I’m an adult. Did Sigurd fuck with my mental health progress? Omg that’s kinda amazing lol. (though it did work out with him returning to Ravensthorpe with me because I didnt fck his wife and punch him in the face, so lesson.....learnt???)

AC games can be stressful because they chronicle somebody’s whole life from start to finish, and that can feel like a lot of pressure when you are playing through the game and growing very found of the character you are using.

It’s also a bittersweet ending because you know that historically.................y’know with Alfred and the Danes, it’s no fairy tale. Its a shitshow, the danes do not conquer england or leave, they slowly lost more and more land over the century and their culture just blurred in with all the others

That SHIT IS NOT OVER.

England’s history is so so ugly. I’m talking England specifically, not Britain. It’s hideous, truly. There has not been one age in England that hasn't be fraught, fractured and rotting. From when the Romans showed up and started killing off and kicking out the indigenous celtic people, to god damn last week.

Like, as an english person who has roots and ancestors deep in these regions from as far back as my family can tell, who am I meant to be rooting for in this story? Who are me? The Saxons? They shot up from germanic regions a few hundred years before, are they my people? The Vikings? Danes the like invaded and took the land, for...reasons? I suppose? I mean, I did grow up in a town names for a viking raid of the monastery there...?

Should I root for the celtic britons? Don’t get me wrong Rhodri was evil, but is he my people?

By the time england became england, where there any celts still there? All kicked out of killed off by invading forces. Should I be rooting for the Picts from Scotland and the Pagans from the West Country? Indigenous Celts, who stick out and stand out in Valhalla’s England but were once the only people there, do they count as me? Or whatever is left of Roman descendants? Am I all of them? Centuries later the French took over, sort of. It was all mixed together at that point, genetically, culturally.

What does it even mean to be english? It’s like an ancient version of america. We all came from somewhere else, or left. What counts as being from somewhere?

I mean, I kind of knew this history before, but this game has really cemented in me just how fucked up the concept of england is. The last 5 years or so, politically, has made me resent and hate england in many ways. Not britain, england. I couldn’t imagine myself loving it ever again. But I think I do, I think I understand what it is now, more than I did before.

A mish mash of fractured ancient cultures clashing together trying to resemble a country. Its a wound that may never truly heal, but that is what makes it different from its celtic neighbours . NOT BETTER but it just had a different and very ugly start in life. I always joke about needing to move to scotland, to escape. But I know I never will, I’ve always known. I can’t do it. When Ivarr was talking about Ubba in that drinking scene, saying he disagrees with what Ubba is doing and what his goals are but he CAN’T leave him, he’s his brother. Yeah, that’s kind of how I feel about this stupid ancient busted up land.

I just want Eivor to be happy. I’m reminded of an amazing post I saw here on tumbler years ago, it went something like: I feel like a lot of people fail to realise that for some, loving fictional characters is the closest thing they have to loving themselves. Self love, self compassion, it can be so, so hard. So when you see someone else on screen, someone you can relate to, you pour your heart and soul into loving them. You want to protect them and give them all the love you can’t quite convince yourself you deserve. And by doing that, maybe just maybe, they can bring you one step closer to loving yourself.

I feel like I’ve been trampled by a fucking horse. This started out as a joke post about head canons and turned into me delving into my life long relationship with national identity. All I’m going to do in Valhalla now is fish.

Wow, successful therapy session, thanks all

._.

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Reflecting Light - Chapter Twenty Nine.

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Chapter Twenty Nine

“Hey babe, how you doing?” Leah asked affectionately after Naz had opened her apartment door to her and Leanne, the two women stepping forward to jointly hug their heartbroken looking friend.

“I don’t know, sad seems to be the overriding emotion. He keeps telling me he only left to clear his head and think about the future, but I’m his wife! He should be doing this with me there, not shutting me out and making me feel like I’m the one he’s left!” Sadness very quickly gave way to the same exasperated anger they’d heard on the phone earlier that week, the day after he’d flown back to Texas.

She might have been upset, but the current of livid fury crackled through her strongly. Naz was never one to lose her temper, hating conflict and raised voices, so they got the measure loud and clear over just how angry she was with her husband at that moment.

“Have you spoken to him since he left?” Leanne asked as they walked into the lounge, taking seats on Naz’s sofa, the lady herself flopping down between them.

“Yes, a couple of times. It’s weird, though, almost like it isn’t him I’m talking to. He seems very distant, which makes me fearful that all this is him regretting our marriage and about to bail on it, on me. I do feel like he’s left me.

“I just don’t understand what spooked him so much, he was fine! He wouldn’t even explain it to me, not to begin with, at least. I had to wheedle it out of him, that he felt daunted by his life changing so drastically, both personally and professionally, enough to make him bolt back to Texas rather than sit and work it through with me!”

Both Leanne and Leah could feel the uncomfortable truth of the situation bubbling up in their throats, sharing concerned, uncomfortable looks, silently asking ‘do we broach the truth of it?’ to one another with their expressions.

“Sweetie, you don’t understand it because, and I hate to be the one to say this, you don’t know him nearly as well as you think you do. Yes, you guys spent a lot of time together over in Syria and yes, I am under no illusion that the love you share is very real. However, the fact remains that you’ve only known him for nine months and been with him just shy of six. You haven’t seen how he reacts to different struggles in your relationship, because you haven’t been together long enough for those to manifest yet,” Leah spoke, wincing inside.

To her surprise, though, Naz didn’t become emotional as she had feared. Quite the opposite. She accepted her words completely. “I know, this is something we both had to concede was right. We fell so deeply in love with one another, we just got swept up in it, carried away and while we do know each other well, we perhaps don’t know one another well enough to have gotten married. Or at least, we should have discussed our future in finer detail.”

She took a few big sips from her water bottle, deciding not to succumb to beer. She’d gotten drunk the night he left and had to face work with a stinking hangover. She wasn’t going to ruin her weekend by doing the same, although the urge was a tough one to fight.

“I really can’t believe he’s questioning it, though. I mean, what? Being away in active service for years on end, in a lower paying job and hardly ever seeing me is preferable to him than reaching for the amazing opportunity he’s being given and getting to be with me considerably more than the alternative?” she asked, sounding exasperated all over again.

“Nazzie, I think you need to remember that there’s two of you in this marriage. It can’t just be your way or the highway. You married him for better or worse and the worse in this scenario might mean that if you want your marriage to work, you move for him. Look, I know it all appeared to be going in the way you thought it would, him moving here, taking the job within the CIA, but just because it was your dream, it doesn’t mean it was his,” Leanne spoke gently, grasping her hand softly.

“But it’s the simplest way forward, though!” she protested, her friends shaking their heads.

“For you, it is,” Leah reminded her quietly, stroking her back when Naz rested her head down in her hands on her lap, sighing sadly. There was a fundamental truth not being spoken, her two friends loving her much too greatly to be so blunt when she was hurting. When Naz went to check on the food she was preparing for them, they discussed it quietly though.

“She’s not equipped to handle this properly, only having one real relationship before. We can’t really count Asim, that was puppy love when she was a kid still,” Leanne commented, Leah nodding.

“This is exactly what I’ve been thinking, that she lacks an emotional maturity in relationships to see things from his point of view too. This, compounded with the fact that them getting married quickly was always going to throw up some sort of issue sooner or later, is throwing her through something she just isn’t used to dealing with. I feel like a fucking hypocrite for thinking this though, when I was there cheering her news when she told us,” Leah sighed, waving her hands expressively before dropping them into her lap.

“Yeah, but when your best friend walks into a restaurant, tells you she got married and flashes you her beautiful diamond ring, you celebrate her happiness, you congratulate her, that’s what you do. You don’t sit and act like an asshole by listing all the ways in which you think she might have hurried into it and what problems you suspect will arise because of such speedy nuptials,” Leanne replied in whisper.

“True. We have to help her with it, though, assist her in viewing it a little less selfishly. I think that’s the only way it’ll make sense to her, that she has another person’s life she needs to consider now. I mean, he does as well in all of this, which can’t be discounted. Except Sy isn’t out problem.

“From the sound of it, they’re both being a little bit self-centred, but Naz is the one we have to help see things a little differently. I wish Kate was here too, she’s so good with this sort of thing, but no. She’s on a beach in Rio, getting a tan butt. Yeah, still envious.” She pouted, Leanne laughing softly. Hearing Naz leaving the kitchen they fell quiet again, coming back and sitting down with a huff.

“I miss him.” she sighed sadly, her friends being quick with the cuddles to comfort her. Meanwhile, down in Texas…

“I was told you were down here! What are the odds, man? I had no idea you were back! Where’s Naz?” Calvin asked, taking a seat beside Sy at their local bar just off the Fort Hood base.

“Back in Virginia,” he sighed, sinking a shot and calling for another.

“Dude, you alright? Because I’m kinda sensing that all isn’t as well as I was led to believe it was just a couple of weeks ago,” he commented, asking the bartender for a draft beer.

“We’re having some issues right now,” he revealed, concise as ever when something was bugging him. Calvin knew this behaviour of old, knowing his friend as well as he did. Sy often internalised everything, he did it as part and parcel of his job all the time, taking the pressures and never showing a crack in his outer shell. He also knew how to wheedle it out of him, though. There were few people in his life Sy would ever really open up to, Calvin just so happened to be one of them.

“Do I have to get a cattle prod? Pliers? Drag that shit out with a grappling hook? Just tell me, so I know which section of the hardwear store I gotta hit,” he told him, Sy finally smiling, laughing softly through his nose.

“My future with Naz is a little rocky at present, mainly because I think it’s just hit me recently that for the first time in my life, I acted with my heart instead of my damn head. I married her without us really discussing what the future held. She assumed I’d take the CIA job on offer and move up to Virginia to be with her, which I guess she had every right to. I didn’t confirm it, but also I didn’t deny it either, but now, see, I’m not so sure I actually want to,” he revealed, Calvin taking a sip of his beer.

“Two more of those, my friend,” he began, pointing at Sy’s empty shot glass, the bartender swiftly moving to put a fresh one down and refill both glasses. Calvin then sunk it, made a motion for another and downed that too before he continued.

“Is your bitch ass crazy? You get offered the job of Paramilitary Operations Officer, a fucking golden god position for anyone in the armed forces to move into, especially since you know they usually only ask people in ranks of Major and above, like Liz was.

“So yeah there’s that, your beautiful young wife too, who you’d be lucky enough to work and travel with, meaning you’d no longer be like us and have to miss our ole’ ladies like crazy, and your white ass is back here in a dark bar unsure of what to do? What the fuck is with that?” Calvin yelled, half the bar turning to witness his tirade.

“Cal, it isn’t that simple,” Sy began, being cut up again, Calvin nearly spraying him in beer in his rush to speak.

“Not that simple? Your stupid ass is married to Princess fucking Jasmine and you’re questioning wanting to spend most of your time with her or a bunch of sweaty Texans in whichever asshole region of the Middle East they send us to next? Im’a ‘bout to kick your sorry ass from one side of this bar to the other, see if I can knock a little common sense into you, bro!” he continued, Sy entertained by his Princess Jasmine comment.

“So, what you’re trying to tell me is that you think I should take it?” he joked, Calvin thumping him in the arm.

“I’ll chase you into that damned headquarters building myself if I have to,” he threatened playfully.

“I don’t know, man. I really don’t. I mean, I have all the fucking confidence in myself I need to do the job, I’m just unsure if I want it. I like what I have,” he shrugged, Calvin shaking his head.

“You’re gonna choose complacency over the CIA and your marriage? Wait, hold up. If you want to remain in the military, you could just internally transfer to a base in Virginia, surely?” he then spoke, surprised that the idea hadn’t hit him before.

“Hmm. Maybe,” he replied, nodding.

“Look, bro. All joking and aghast commentary aside, I can’t tell you to take that job. You have to do what you feel is right for you at the end of it all. You and your wife. Her life needs to factor into your decision making just as much as yours does,” Calvin explained, nodding happily when a song by Otis Reading came onto the jukebox.

“Yeah, I know.” Sy clammed up again at that point, Calvin deciding not to press him further on the subject. Instead, they spoke of other topics, Calvin realising right now that Sy might need a drinking buddy more than he needed a solution to a problem that was between him and Naz to work out.

#captain syverson #captain syverson smut #captain syverson fanfiction #captain syverson fanfic #captain syverson fic #captain syverson x oc #captain syverson x ofc #reflectinglightchaptertwentynine #henry cavill #henry cavill smut #henry cavill fanfic #henry cavill fanfiction #henry cavill fic #syverson smut #syverson fanfiction #syverson fanfic #syverson fic #syverson x oc #syverson x ofc

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1, 5, 7, 11, 12, 17, 19, 20, 22, 23 for the meta ask please and thank youuuuuu <333

Oh, oh boi. Aight ok let’s go-

1: Tell us about your current project(s) – what’s it about, how’s progress, what do you love most about it?

Well my only current project is the tree wip (aka the moonlight dance). It’s about a girl named Selma that fcks up big time as a teen and angers a forest spirit. She ends up having to run away and hide in an industrial city, basically trying to just ignore the issue. I’m just going to link the wip page here...

Right now the biggest progress I’ve made is actually naming it, which only took me about 3 years...heh. I’m still on my first draft because I’ve started over a lot...and I’ve also realized that I need to take a big look at my outline and actually fill it in. So far I’ve been throwing all of my ideas at the wall waiting for something to stick, and I think I’m ready to structure it now. Finally. (Also one of my assignments in my current course is to write an outline of a story so uh...that’s perfect).

What do I love most about it? Uuuuuh I take a lot of inspiration from old Nordic folklore, which imo is super fun.

5: What character that you’re writing do you most identify with?

The mc for sure. We don’t have the same personality at all but I’ve used a lot of my own experience with mental health to depict her struggles. Not all of it is taken from my own life, but a lot is, especially the general feelings. It’s not exactly a fun thing to identify with but I’m glad I get to use that experience for something.

Another thing that is kinda inspired by myself is how her worldview gets flipped on the head. Growing up I, like many others, adopted the views of people around me and didn’t question them much until I got into my later teen years (which you were there for lol), which is a change Selma also has to go through.

7: What do you think are the characteristics of your personal writing style? Would others agree?

I think I have a very descriptive writing style, I also love using metaphors. I know you have pointed out how I like describing a lot so I guess that’s something not only I notice. Other than that I have no clue. I know I have a weird way of writing sometimes though, hopefully not in a bad way.

11: What do you envy in other writers?

Their ability to actually like...sit down and write. My biggest struggle is focusing on it for longer than 5 minutes. I know a lot of writers joke about how it’s difficult to get writing done, but to me it’s like...different? Like I actually, literally can’t write a damn word. So ye please hand over some of that writing juice. Mom says it’s my turn.

12: Do you want your writing to be famous?

I guess? I think so...eventually. I want it to be famous for the right reasons though. But for now I just want to get the damn thing done and get it published, and hopefully people will like it. I don’t really let myself hope for much.

17: Do you think readers perceive your work - or you - differently to you? What do you think would surprise your readers about your writing or your motivations?

This is a really difficult question. I have no idea how people will interpret or perceive this story. I have messages that I want to be read in it but it’s always possible that a reader will find something completely different. I also have no idea what would be surprising...

Tbh I don’t know. I can’t answer this question sorry bro.

19: Is there something you always find yourself repeating in your writing? (favourite verb, something you describe ‘too often’, trope you can’t get enough of?)

Fields. I like describing fields. Idk why. Also roads made of sand? I know I use “sand dancing in the sunlight” or something close to it a lot. And...shadows dancing...damn I like describing things as dancing huh...Oh god I even named the story the moonlight dance oh god I’m just now realizing this.

It’s just a big ol dance partaaaaaaaaay

Also sarcasm and bad jokes. Most of my characters make em.

20: Tell us the meta about your writing that you really want to ramble to people about (symbolism you’ve included, character or relationship development that you love, hidden references, callbacks or clues for future scenes?)

Uuuhm damn I¨m actually gonna have to think for a bit. I don’t really like explaining symbolism because to me it’s kinda important that the reader is the one that finds it. In the end once those words are in a book it’s no longer in my control. But I have used a lot of it, mostly when it comes to nature vs industrialization. That’s all I’ll say about that.

What I do wanna say is that Selma’s journey as a whole is something I care about a lot. The whole thing is about redemption and growing as a person, and also about dealing with your inner struggles and letting people in. It’s not a unique concept but it’s one I adore; the fact that people can change to be better. And the most important part of this journey is that Selma herself is the one that has to take the first step, and to be the one who wants the change. She goes from running away to confronting her wrongdoings and issues.

22: Do you reread your old works? How do you feel about them?

It happens, but not often. Usually I do it when I want a good laugh and look back at how forcefully straight I made my stories to be lol. I don’t hate them, since I have great memories from writing them. (I mean I never would have met you bro unless I started that blog <3 ;P) I also wouldn’t have grown as a writer, and I love seeing how much I’ve learned and changed. I had a lot of fun writing those stories so I can’t hate them.

Though something I can and will hate is how I refused to make my text smaller and oh god...i always made it bold. why. why me. “Lol I have a hard time reading since I have glasses” nah bitch that ain’t it just stop. Make the text normal.

Basically all the chapters were written like this x3 in size. All of it. It was HELL!!!

23: What’s the story idea you’ve had in your head for the longest?

Hmmm tbh I think the moonlight dance is up there at this point. I don’t really keep ideas unless I actively work on them. Other than that I think our old thing with gods and stuff has stayed with me the longest. Idk something about that city just stuck with me.

Phew well that’s it. Thanks bro for askin. I needed a reason to think about this story a bit.

#tree wip #ask #asks #ask game #time to write and suffer #eff #time-to-write-and-suffer

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b-p-d-g-h-o-s-t · 4 years

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I am again gonna vent about how much I hate the mental health system

As a teenager I was forced to go to counseling and not explained why and I was forced on medication when I dint want it all while being abused

I couldn't open up about the abuse because I didn't want to get taken away from my home

As a young adult when going again I was naive and stupid and decided to give counseling a chance,I was placed with a student and I genuinely did like her but at the time my dad was dying and I didn't know how to verbally communicate well,eventually I went into crisis and tried reaching her she said she'd see me then I got a call saying it wasn't possible,I had to wait days despite my crisis,when I went to see her she acted normal and then halfway through the session said she was no longer gonna see me,I broke down and felt defenseless,she told me to wait and called the woman who would be seeing me,she coldly came in the room and saw me crying,she said she didn't have time for it and they left the room and called back up,they then forced me to be hospitalize,no one believed me but one guy who worked there,turns out they lied to protect themselves and she claimed she got scared of me and that I was aggressive,I was so heavily depressed after that and still stupidly saw the other counselor who very rudely kicked me out of the agency and took me out of individual counseling without me knowing,till this day I am not allowed there.

My second experience was with the help of a friend who always had the habit of leaving me and there no longer in my life,I was so uncomfortable with being alone that I asked my friend to come to sessions with me,but turns out my counselor ended up liking my friend more and I noticed,and I asked him to contact my first counselor because I missed her,he did and i found out the truth then,my pain ruined our relationship and when he left me i tried to od and when i told him he said really your trying to get hospitalize,I told the agency but I was ghosted and till this day he had a job at the same agency which I found out when I had a case manager that they also didn't like me and held the past against me,I was trying to get services with them again after a few years and it blew up in my face,I lost my best friend and counselor after that,my friend upped and left again.

After that down the line after a hospitalization I was referred to an agency that was the same race as me,I was judged and discriminated against in the interview,they said I needed to go back to the hospital and dint know if they could help me or not,I was placed with a much older counselor but I don't think she was that experienced,during the time I saw her my mother's health worsened, I feel like she was just bs me and I saw her for almost a year,I did my thing again because I just wanted to feel like someone gave a dam,she got mad at my text and made it seemed like I cursed at her,to my surprise my sessions stopped,straight up abandoned and the agency got tired of me messaging so they sent me a message saying that they value there clients and therapist and that they would no longer offer me service,I regret nothing I said to them because at that point I had bad experiences under my belt and alot of emotional pain because I know that I was wronged because of them I went into crisis and back to the hospital and that's when I really got fucked because for the first time ever,a person who worked there got very close to me and convinced me to do ect

That's another story

After that

I got a case manager again,I had a few in the past who did nothing for me and this once was really friendly,she promised that she really cared and wanted to help repeatedly and knew and understood my history and explained this to the new agency, they said they would try to help and give me specific special counseling,I guess with my problems I got to attached,she was my only and favorite person,it got to be to much so she distanced herself and it hurt me so badly and I lashed our and she left me over text,I contacted my new counselor and informed her,when she saw me she explained it was my bpd and that she wouldn't be seeing me anymore,another blow but I handled it well because she al least gave me an explanation,it was all work related.after that I saw another counselor and we never made a connection and I wasn't benefiting from it,she texted me trying to schedule and stated she had other clients out of the blue and we ended right there.

I was trying to handle it differently than the past but I was disappointed again

I also forgot to mention that the social worker I had wasn't so good either,she thought I had demons and told me her boss thought so as well,she also would give me gifts,gave me and my family some foods and gave me a bible,she was bipolar and claimed that reading the bible changed her life.

😭💔

What sucks is that most people are only interested in hearing about positive experiences and I feel like if I was privileged or had money or had popularity people would at least know about my story

But there are barely any safe places for me to vent about my experiences and most people simply do not give a single fck

I will never have justice

They get away with it because they have power and I'm just a so called you know damaged individual

These things happened to me

I was hurt

And I was wronged by people who get advertised as saints and angels and I feel helpless because whose gonna believe me

Certainly none of the hospitals or agencies that have ruined my rep for there own benefit

I can't even believe the fuckery that my life is and I'm pretty certain that there are people out there who adore the system and want people like me to not say anything

#im legit traumatize #major depression #mentally ill #bpd #anxious #personal #psychiatry #therapy #bad experience #no one listens #i have a voice

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mrf34r4rch1ve · 4 years

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OKAY BUT IS ESMAIL REALLY OUT HERE GONNA SAY THERE’S A SEPARATE UNIVERSE WHERE MR ISNT AN ALTER AND HE IS THERE PHYSICALLY? BC DARLENE JUST FUCKING SPOKE DIRECTLY TO MR UP AGAINST THE CAR holy shit

And this is obviously the dickhead MR that shot Elliot in the head and yells grandeur because he’s being a dick RIGHT NOW

SO LIKE MAYBE THAT DAMN DOUBLE MR THEORY IS CORRECT AND I MIGHT BE ANGRY IF THATS THE CASE

also sidenote MR in TWO scarves? Honey. Honey bear,,pick one you nerd

Okay so it is our MR, he just got testy bc he’s concerned about this obsession. I don’t want him getting shut out ei t he r

I’m just sitting here like THIS CANT BE AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE WHERE HE HAS A MOTHER AND A FATHER AND A LITTLE BROTHER AND DARLENE AND HES DOING THIS SHIT I won’t allow it. If he’s suddenly going to say it’s all been Alternate Universe shit and not DID......

“A nice BAD. place to live.” Lmao

Ah yes, Whiterose’s signature move. Knocking down Christmas trees.

The E in E Corp has a sun in it but it looks like a fracture. Better not be an AU e or I’mma be angry fjdjf

Ok wtf too easy don’t hug me I’m scared

MOTHERFUCKING SANDWICH GUY I HATE HIM SO MUCH FJDJJFD

This also appears to be a commercial free ep I don’t get that but wow sandwich man spoke

DIGGING this afterhours song, this is the shit mr likes to listen and sing along to // eg: TAKE A DRIVE WHERE YOUR MIND CAN CEASE TO FEEL what an Irving mood

BITCH THATS QWERTY

B I T C H DONT HURT THAT FISH ESMAIL I H8 U

That’s the book MR was reading when he pushed Elliot off the pier I think. I don’t like this.

THATS THE SAFE DEPOSIT BOX I JUST AUDIBLY SAID BITCH AT MY TV FIVE TIMES IN A ROW

Sitting at the edge of his chair like a band geek d’you think Elliot’s mother made him learn an instrument

She has a point and she is also captivating.

Elliot’s speech making me fucking cry Rami this is some next level shit.

Please put the gun down I don’t want this I don’t want another universe I don’t want

Don’t leave MR don’t leave us don’t do this I don’t like this

LEAVE ME HERE IN THE FIRST FUCKING EPISODE AND NOW DONT LEAVE ME HERE FUCK FUCJ

Oh my god what the fuck is happening

Holy fuck what the fuck

Is this au elliot what the fuck

ITS DEFINITELY AN ALDERSON LOOP THING THIS IS GOING TO HAPPEN OVER AND OVER AGAIN ISNT IT I AM SO GOING TO CRY

And this is why he forgot Darlene the first time because he had just hopped into that shithole loop I don’t like this I d

Oh my god his father. My heart hurts I am going to vomit

WHAT ARE YOU SAYING SOMETHING IS DARLENES FAULT AND IF HE. Go d dsmssns I feel sick

And his LOGO IS FUCKING BEST BUY HOW DO WE CONTEND WITH THIS IS THIS THE NEW CANON WHAT IS GOING ON WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WHAT DO WE DO

They are going to try and get rid of me again and I need you to not let them. I will always be here for you.

And all safe is barely different hfhdhd hs f

AND IN THIS UNIVERSE HE STILL LIVES IN AND COMMUTES FROM WASHINGTON TOWNSHIP?

And Stella b was the chick he was .. and ROSE and Deus group and

He has a fucking satchel

I still don’t know what to do with this information. which. iteration do I write.?

HOLY SHIT HES GIDEON? SO WHERE IS GIDEON?

THAT MEANS THIS ELLIOT IS GOING TO DIE WHEN ANOTHER FSOCIETY EMERGES.

It’s Tyrell it’s Tyrell it’s Tyrell oh my God.

And he looks like Gideon with his glasses and stubble and light blue pLAID BUTTON UP—

E Corp. always on your side. Fck oFF

Great. Now fucking Angela is the one who’s sick.

SO ITS ANGELA’S DAD WHO’s SICK AND ELLIOT’s MOTHER??

ISNT THIS SHAYLA’S FAVORITE SONG OR SOMETHING I KNOW IVE HEARD IT BEFORE

But this isn’t. He . But. He.

#mr robot s4 #ooc [ txt ] don’t do drugs kiddos

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hoe-imaginess · 5 years

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a lot wowwie

I’m okay! Trying to catch up with life while I get ready to go back to school, trying to find work, trying to stay healthy and happy!

@fckmeroger-ina THANK YOU!!!

for the record like 8 years ago I was the biggest Queen stan I remember scouring the internet for Queen fanfiction and there was none so I had to write my own I was all alone and now… Queen hoes everywhere… 2011 me is screaming. Fck me too Roger

Oh god I didn’t even see this I’ll write it and get it out tomorrow!

You’re very welcome!! Post-partum issues are very difficult and I’ve seen it first-hand. I know it might make those sort of headcanons angstier than people expect them or want them to be but it’s reality! And I think it’s interesting to write how our favs would handle very real situations like that. I appreciate this message <3

Message me privately and I can tell you more! In general, it’s a fun way to get a few bucks, and if you have time for it I would definitely do it! Just make sure you’re specific with your rules and emphasize them so there’s no miscommunication

OKay honestly his height doesn’t make sense no way he’s as short as the data books list him. 5′9? Excuse me? Have you seen how tall he and Hashi are next to Minato? Hashi and Tobi are almost the same height and Hashi is 6 feet+??? It’s not adding up here. What IS the truth.

See this is why Madara likes the data book stats

LMAO depends on the situation. He would either think “that’s what you get” or he would have an existential crisis about it. No in between.

THE TRUTH!!! Don’t make me write a fic about it, I been wanting to…

what episode of the Twilight Zone are you living in just wondering

Hmmm I like so many. Enemy to lovers, arranged marriage, reluctant co-workers/partners, SO MANY

I don’t think it’ll make much of a difference tbh he would probably think that he could see them in his dream after his plan is done

honestly I’m tryna work up the motivation to post the next few chapters I fuckin loveeee fwb tropes

Thank you so much!!!!!

very… interesting

Hmmm probably. Bnha is good about backstories for their villains, but Overhaul also may just be one of those inherently bad guys? Probably has a lot to do with his quirk, too. I get his sense of past trauma via his quirk

thank you ahhhh <3

And Tobirama tries not to play favorites but he can’t help it ok because his nice daughter just makes his day and his defiant daughter makes him want to tear his hair out

thank you so muchhhhh I’m happy it’s finally over because I loved it and hated it. But I do love that you guys loved it <3

it is known

I think I have a few more in my inbox yes!

He definitely wouldn’t. So you have to have a solo date with that thicc dick sorry

BOTH NAILED IT

LMAOOOOOO I love this so much ily

both true

She doesn’t understand my obsession with Tobirama she’s a Minato hoe. A Minahoe, if you will

This!!!!!!

Honestly I have horrible writer’s block and not many ways to get around it. I usually go back to stuff I’ve written that I actually like (personal stuff and not really stuff I post) and it motivates me to do more?

Shisui is like… dating the job. But yeah Tobirama is married and has 3 kids with the job

It’s disgusting right I love it <3

I think he definitely is! He’s very devoted to his life as a shinobi and to the village. He just gives me those vibes

I love vampire Uchiha ok one of my favorite AUs

Honestly it overflows

Hmmmmm All Might for sure (not like he has trouble getting it up but he can’t have sex for too long) and Itachi?? Possibly. He can’t really get kinky or hot and wild. It’s too much on his condition to work himself up too much

He for sure on that Gaara shit BUT he does get a lil out of hand ngl

(hahaha out of hand I’m so fucking FUNNY)

(actually it’s really sad if you think about it)

hey sorry for the late reply!!! Unfortunately I don’t promote OCs on this blog for the purpose of keeping my stories and fics pretty vague and up for audience interpretation. Some other blogs might be able to help you out though! And I know there are a lot of Kakashi-specific imagines blogs out there!

idk what this means. but I agree

<3 <3 <3

thank you I’ll be there and say a few words

we love subtle savage Hashi…

i HOPE IT DID!!!!

ty ty ty <3 well it was finished so I hope you liked it!

I will take fries with that uchiha shake

Don’t ever send me something like this agAIN

MADARA IS FRANK ALREADY I HATE IT

BUT Hashirama is Charlie for sure and Tobirama is Dennis THE SERIAL KILLER PART HAHA. A mix of Dee and Dennis AND Mac tbh

this is why all Uchiha are uncut the penis match the outfit

He really… REALLY does

Wow I can’t believe myself either

Honestly Tobirama being good with kids is a BIG mood and canon you can’t tell me otherwise

Im sorry ): is it that you click the link and it doesn’t work? Or that you can’t see it?

They definitely aren’t shhhh don’t tell them

I don’t know how to take this and respond so just know this is wild and I understand

this is the TRUTH

Tobirama did what he had to do… but… you still right

I have some Tobirama, Hashirama, Madara (so yeah lol) and I also get a few Bleach every once in a while, HxH, and occasionally bnha!

LOL this would be funny

Lmaoooo this would be a mess tbh

Ima keep it real with you I didn’t understand this 100% but I think I get what you’re saying and I agree yes

Weren’t they like??? 10?? Maybe??

Honestly the founders timeline is REALLY REALLY messed up thanks Kishi

I wouldn’t doubt that Hashi and Tobi were a year apart, maybe two years at the most. And yeah I can see the fight at the Valley happening in their 30s

Lmao I don’t know anything about Dragon Ball I was just talking about the hair

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shawn and i had a rly good conversation today about tommy livestreaming that turned into a mess set in our Self Indulgent Headcanon Verse

wixkaplan: y is tommy definitely one of those people who livestreams everything they do

mutantxagenda: He severely overestimates how interesting he/his commentary is like everyone who livestreams things

wixkaplan: tommy posts hours of footage of just him fuckig. sitting around eating cereal he's like "people LOVE ME" but half the audience is there bc he keeps accidentally getting family drama in the background

mutantxagenda: In that house I wager it’s more than half the time

wixkaplan: rictor makes an (unintentional) appearance and people lose their shit

mutantxagenda: Pietro would hate everything about that Not that he isn’t used to people having opinions about him, but stull Still*

wixkaplan: the suspicion is not helped when tommy's looking at the chat stream like "yes i know im very beautiful. 'who is-' oh, thats-" and billy goes TOMMYNO

mutantxagenda: There’s a sudden loud noise as billy knocks him out of his chair. The camera shows the ceiling for 45 solid seconds as they whisperfight just off screen

wixkaplan: the chat is going fucking batshit

mutantxagenda: Someone pay us to direct a marvel show

wixkaplan: tommy pops back up like "why are you guys freaking out he does this every day" @marvel: pls

mutantxagenda: Someone sees Rictor in the background walking into what they know is Pietro’s Room bc tommy has constantly pointed it out and said “we don’t go there, simba”

wixkaplan: FCK someones like THAT GUY WAS IN XFACTOR HES GAY and ppl are arguing over if they could possibly be right

mutantxagenda: Billy is literally sweating

wixkaplan: billy's like THIS IS FINE, IT'S NOTHING, IT'S FINE chat: WHY HE LOOK LIKE THAT billy: 😨

mutantxagenda: Tommy is just like “THIS ISNT ABOUT PETE’S B-“ the screen goes black

wixkaplan: tommy doesn't stream again for three days

mutantxagenda: three seconds later tommy has sent a flurry of tweets @billy calling him 950 different names for hexing his camera

wixkaplan: hey guys. petey broke my phone so i had to get a new one. here i am"

mutantxagenda: LOL

wixkaplan: everyone's like coming up with conspiracy theories as to Why They Are Being So Shady billy's like "guys!!! really it's fine!!! nothing is going on it's fine!!!!"

mutantxagenda: Buzzfeed has an article the next day: Quicksilver, To Twink or not to Twink?

wixkaplan: @wiccan: i don't know why people are so obsessed with this we aren't hiding anything!!! everything is normal and good and fine they have a poll asking if ppl think pietro tops or not

mutantxagenda: The article is just a list of shady things from Tommy’s livestreams and one of Rictor’s regulars at the club who says he saw Pietro there several times LOL I feel like the poll would be 80/20 leaning hard toward no

wixkaplan: pietro would be so mad about that WHAT. why would they POSSIBLY - NO, I WON'T CALM DOWN

mutantxagenda: Billy tries frantically to tell him it doesn’t matter. “THEN WHY IS IT A QUESTION”

wixkaplan: billy has never been so stressed in his life not even when the world was getting fucking eaten by parasites rictor just thinks it's kinda funny but he tries to avoid saying so bc he knows how pissy pietro is already

mutantxagenda: Rictor is a fast learner

wixkaplan: he's like "clearly they don't know what they're talking about" but he has to do the hand over his face thing so he looks marginally less amused

mutantxagenda: Wanda is just like “I really don’t understand why this is so upsetting” and Pietro can’t explain but that makes him more mad Erik suddenly turns around from the armchair no one knew he was sitting in and says “Pietro believes it’s emasculating” then goes back to his book

wixkaplan: tommy posts a two minute video of pietro spluttering angrily while everyone stares at him

mutantxagenda: Erik is like hermione when she had the time turner and everyone was always like WHEN DID YOU GET HERE freaking out

wixkaplan: he gets like two million views in the first twenty minutes

mutantxagenda: tommy is just “I’M ACCEPTING SPONSORS” off to the side He keeps trying to get converse to send him free shoes

wixkaplan: billy's just sitting in the corner like 😨 buzzfeed article posted 15 minutes later: QUICKSILVER BOTTOMING CONFIRMED????

mutantxagenda: Pietro starts demanding to know where the buzzfeed offices are tommy is like “what’re you gonna do, fuck Rictor for proof?”

wixkaplan: rictor's like "please don't"

mutantxagenda: “You could release a sex tape everyone does that now”

wixkaplan: he's come to the realization that pietro's family knows WAY TOO MUCH ABOUT THEIR SEX LIFE and he's just sitting there like :|

mutantxagenda: Billy is like TOMMYSHUTUPIMBEGGINGYOU For a canonically distant and repressed family the headcanon Maximoffs are VERY close

wixkaplan: listen none of them can do middle ground

mutantxagenda: Very valid

wixkaplan: they record a video of pietro talking directly to the camera/buzzfeed but keep having to restart bc he starts making threats and billy's like PLEASE YOU CAN'T SAY THAT THEY WILL CALL THE POLICE "YOU THINK I'M AFRAID OF THE POLICE?"

mutantxagenda: Erik just chuckles in the background and billy gets a chill up his spine “The police won’t come here, William.”

wixkaplan: rictor's like 'what the fuck did i get myself into. what have i done.'

mutantxagenda: Someone has def asked him multiple times if the dick is rly that good To put up with all the rest of it

wixkaplan: "..." "..............................." "......................i'm not answering that"

#gav talks #qr verse #qr #this is just some crack ass shit ok #but it was really good so

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