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so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.
first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.
it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.
and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.
you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.
and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.
your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.
in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.
in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.
so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.
you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.
once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.
and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"
you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?
hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!
you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.
we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?
#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck#good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen#im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3#writeblr#the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this''#and like also#''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist#i was <3 punctured <3 during mine#and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion''#so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3#she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh#ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance#i'd crash on the table#like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it#and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop!#and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just#woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes#she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room#from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing#and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying#and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap#with this terrible memory#i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like#that was too many liters#and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home#i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after#that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty#you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it#while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED#and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.
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#ofmd#our flag means death#ofmdedit#ofmdsource#ofmd gifs#ida.stuff#stede bonnet#ofmd 1x6#one of my fav scenes + line deliveries tbh#my brain goes “oop no there we go” at least once per hour#i have stede say “oop” in as many fics as i can#also... his slutty waist 💗
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#exposing myself here#do i mean writing or reading?#both.#btw i am in no way discrediting actual therapy if you can afford it i am begging you to go#i'm currently waiting for the state-paid one and in the meantime we cope#also sorry for the shit quality i did this on my phone and didn't expect more than 10 notes tbh i should've known better#good omens#ineffable husbands#crowley#aziraphale#staged#david tennant#michael sheen#good omens fanfic#good omens fandom#good omens fanfiction#good omens memes#good omens shitpost#ineffable fandom
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hey so friendly reminder
stede gives *full body* kisses
#I love it when actors just go full-body like that#because yes kisses with LOTS OF SPACE in between is a thing that happens!#but they're not the *only* kind#and there is a *very particular message* about a full-body one#especially on screen#and that message is#'somebody said we must live in two separate bodies - but my skin says it misses you -#and my blood remembers when it ran through both our veins -#and every part of me just wants to prove a motherfucker wrong - so let's kiss#and kiss -#until our bodies become one again -#and we can finally take a full deep breath of air#instead of the lonely half-measures that sustained us#for all the years it took to find our other halves again#(...which tbh is kind of a lot for one man's hip-to-hip full-dick action kiss to accomplish but like. I calls it like I sees it)#our flag means death#our flag means death s2 spoilers
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yk after rewatching the RWBY x Justice League thing i'm honestly kind of impressed with the commitment to put whiterose crumbs literally ANYWHERE but the main show.
like kudos to y'all for sticking to this.
anyways we are deprived and it's really cute all the same so i think we'll just take it yk.
#rwby#rwby x justice league#rwby x jl#ruby rose#weiss schnee#whiterose#white rose#i mean in all honesty#the whiterose drought is hitting HARD#so this isn't too bad#we will take our crumbs where we can yk#but no i am not going to shut up sorry#i find them adorable tbh#like look at that#someone pointed this out on another post of mine#but yes weiss also does the thing yang does while hugging someone#which is to cradle their head#10/10 we love it honestly#team rwby
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Supernatural was on so long in the hands of so many people with very differing views on the story they were telling that there is evidence in canon to support almost any interpretation.
#and thats why i cant get in circle jerking arguments with people who disagree with my opinions#neither of us are wrong or right we just have different parts that are compelling to us#and so im just going to ignore you or block you even!#we will never agree so why waste the energy!!#but this is also why i get annoyed at people (even if i agree with them) acting like this is the TRUE thing the show was telling us#because tbh often thats not the whole picture and i can understand why people see it from a different angle#and i mean all stories are like this but spn is particularly broad
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my opinion about the watcher news basically boils down to this:
watcher is screwing over a huge portion of its fanbase with this move considering how many people within it are teenagers who may not have access to streaming services, low-income adults who can't afford yet another streaming service (if any), and international fans who couldn't sign up for a US based streaming service even if they wanted to. it's okay to be angry about this, especially if you're one of those people who now can't support shows you loved or will be unable to see any of those shows going forward because of it.
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youtube's payout to creators has dwindled in recent years to the point that it is impossible to fund the kind of productions watcher makes purely through it, and in order to sustain a company of 40+ people they need a more stable source of income not reliant on ads from outside companies and patreon, which, in this case, means a pivot to streaming. it's okay to be upset that creators you like have to turn to such methods to continue funding their work, whether you have the means to support them through these avenues or not.
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if the early reactions to this move are any indication, watcher will probably not get the fan buy-in they anticipated and in all likelihood the new streaming site will either fail within a year or two because it isn't making enough money and take the company with it or they'll be bought out by a larger company and have their shows archived or deleted for tax purposes like what's happened to roosterteeth. it is okay to be scared by that potential future and seek to preserve as much content as you can before that happens.
are all statements that can and should coexist
#watcher#hello all i will post this to vent and then go back to organizing my sideblog's queue like i intended to do today#me gazing tearfully at my substitute + nikola art from two years ago like fuck we didn't know how good we had it huh#i'm glad they've confirmed they're not archiving or deleting their yt channels but enough damage has been done by the confusion#(tho tbh i do not trust them not to go back on this if it it means pushing more traffic to the new site if it starts failing)#and i'm absolutely archiving as much of the puppet history stuff as i can bc it's such a comfort show for me#jfc they really have dropped the ball on this
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the tiny, inside the walls, hyping themself up: It’s totally fine. Everything I’ve seen from this human shows that they’re kind, level headed, and normal. There’s utterly nothing wrong with this human, and I can totally befriend them! I shouldn’t be scared at all!
the tiny: *peeks out hole in the bathroom wall, looking up at the giant before them*
the giant, in front of the bathroom sink, obliviously doing their nightly routine: *removes their dentures*
the tiny, has no concept of what dentures are, who just saw this behemoth remove all the bones and flesh from its own mouth in one swift pull, without a flinch of pain: what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck
#g/t#giant tiny#teeth tw#slight body horror tw#i feel like that warrants a tag#anyways I MIGHT HAVE TO GET DENTURES. FUCKIN WHAT#IM TWENTY FIVE#tbh i knew i needed them. but still. got that news today. fuckin nuts#anyways. sorry to ramble abt my irl life. but if i told any of my irl friends i was getting dentures id be roasted#not in a mean way. but there was a denture related incident at the place we all worked years ago. and they would be making parallels so fast#plus i think itll be fun to tell no one and then yank em out at a party as a surprise#can u even yank dentures. idk. ill find out tho!#again sorry for rambling i just love to ramble actually#(also absolutely no shame against ppl w dentures! teeth r incredibly important to self esteem tbh and dentures r a wonderful aid to have)#(like man im gonna smile so much after. chew w both sides of my mouth)#GO BRUSH UR TEETH BTW
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Do you ship any of the turtles with anyone? or do you ship anything in rise at all?
(This ended up being a lot longer an answer than I intended hoo boy sorry about that)
Hmmm, I’m not too big a shipper tbh! Especially since I really enjoy canon interactions backing my ships, so it’s hard for me to actively like any that don’t really have that going for them. There’s plenty that I see around that I think are cute, but that’s usually the extent of my thought process for them.
For ships I more actively have, I guess I like AprilxSunita! They’re very very cute and I think they have some huge meet cute energy in their first episode together, and their chemistry is genuinely adorable (plus them being featured means more April screentime which is ALWAYS a good thing.)
I also think AprilxCasey (and when I say Casey I mean our OG girl) is really good, as I’m a sucker for enemies to lovers, and I think they have a lot in common and just bounce off each other very well (not to mention this ship in other iterations of TMNT has a loooooot going for it.)
Keeping the chain going, I think RaphxCasey (again, OG Casey) is also one with a tonnnnn of potential. They have a lot of common characteristics, and considering Raph’s whole thing with Franken-Foot, I really think there’s a lot of room there for a relationship to develop. Plus, like AprilxCasey, Raph and Casey tend to have a close relationship throughout the iterations of TMNT and it would be great to see that more with these two, even if not romantically.
Actually going back to enemies to lovers, I unironically think there’s a ton going for DonniexKendra. I know a lot of people hate this ship, but I don’t and I actually think it could very easily work whether in a love-hate way or a slow burn way. There’s a lot to like here and honestly they’re good together! Kendra is legit Donnie’s type too haha (cute, but mean.)
Lastly, SplinterxDraxum is good…when done right. I really like when people take it and don’t undermine the very real trauma that Splinter has gone through. As I’ve stated a lot, I love me some enemies to lovers, so I can see the potential here. Plus lbr Draxum was down BAD for Lou Jitsu when he first saw him haha.
I think that’s the extent to what I actively like? Everything else usually falls into “aw cute” or “ehhh not for me thanks”. And before you ask YES leosagi is cute and I’ll read fics with it if the premise is appealing, but I’m afraid I need some canon interactions to establish base character dynamics before I actively ship it alas.😔 Super cute though, no hate to it or any of the other CanonxCharacter-they’ve-never-met ships, I genuinely think people should just have fun! And for what it’s worth I really do wish we got a Usagi and Leo interaction in Rise like we have in other iterations.:(
So yeah. Overall, I have a few ships I enjoy, but I fall much more in the “prefer to keep everyone to themselves and make the focus family and friendship” category.
#non au ask#can you tell I’m an enemies to lovers person yet 💀#I had a dream once that the Fox yokai working for big mama was a teenage employee and he and Leo had a cute thing going on does that count#(the bellhop guy we see often with Big Mama)#that dream had like all of big mama’s employees basically be her adopted children#including frida#(Big Mama’s assistant)#AND Gus#(the guard dog)#so like she was literally big MAMA lol#pretty interesting story tbh too bad it ended when I woke up and I forgot a good 70% of it#lol this is also enemies to lovers I just realized-#but yeah overall I’m mostly a friendship or family platonic dynamics person#pfft of the ones I listed only AprilxSunita was not enemies to lovers wait 😭#nah but like I’m not really a big shipper tbh#I tend to fast forward through romance plots in shows that don’t focus on romance#and I tend to avoid romance genres in general most of the time#no hate at allll it’s just not typically for me y’know?#I was reallyyyyy scared to post this because people can get MEAN about ships 💀
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2012 Malaysian Grand Prix - Sebastian Vettel & Fernando Alonso
#it is like always palable shock whenever i notice how significant their height dif is#by significant i mean theyre both small to me so seeing that seb is actually noticeably taller is so ?????????#logically i know hes taller but still. it doesnt feel right#it just is not noticeable usually bcs theyre both often around taller men so to see proof of it breaks me#okay about these. they seemed pretty friendly with each other in early 2012 ngl 🥺#its one thing being friendly when youre on a podium or something bcs its courtesy even if theres tension imo#but them walking together randomly hehehehe 🤭🤭🤭#i wonder what they were talking about. i think they were prob going to the drivers meeting tbh#aaahh also there were other pics(but imago watermark ugh) and theyre just walking so close...pressed shoulder to shoulder#EEEEEEEEE seb always looks so pleased and happy and giggly to be talking to him#every day a catie in your area gets taken over by looking through vettonso pics. it is truly an epidemic.#you can only save her by talking to her about vettonso. ...might make it worse though.#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#vettonso#f1#formula 1#formula one#we do a little bit of f1#2012 malaysian gp#I LOVE MALAYSIAN GP SO MUCH BRING IT BACK ALL MY FAV PICS ARE FROM SEPANG AAAGAHHHH
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i dont think that byler needs to have had been planned since the beginning for it to still be happening
#now truthfully do i know if byler has always been planned?? im not the duffers so i dont know. maybe#although…#i dont know#will was always supposed to be gay per the pitch book#and thats carried through in s1#but mike was supposed to have a birthmark and joyce was supposed to be a tough long island mom#things change#el being dead in the original draft doesnt really mean anything cause well shes still here#tbh i can imagine the duffs going into s1 without byler really in mind but then later realizing that it could work#based on how it was already written#‘hey. wouldnt it be funny if we put mike and will together instead of mike and el’#i dont think that byler or gay mike contradicts what we see in s1. i just dont know if blyer or gay mike was always on their mind#in those early stages of the show#in s2 i could see this however#like how monica and chandler werent always gonna be together#and then they end the show together#byler is still happening as hinted by everything up to this point#that wouldnt change if it were not in fact realized at conception#same thing with el likely not dying just because she was originally planned to
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new TSATS prediction based entirely off the interview from the UK Rick Riordan newsletter
#pjo#nico di angelo#riordanverse#tsats#the sun and the star#this isnt spoilers this is just a silly#i do find it funny whenever people say Nico is Catholic though cause we dont have any actual indication of that other than he's From Italy#he doesnt have catholic guilt he has internalized homophobia. those are different things#listen his mom was a clear-sighted mortal who had TWO children with the god of the underworld who also was implied to help raise said kids#nico ain't catholic. this boy has never been to CCD. < source: i went to CCD /neg#however im already taking TSATS as fanon so i will laugh if Nico is randomly confirmed catholic#now Will? Will i could see. Will raised catholic? yes. Nico raised catholic? no.#in my brain Nico was raised with like. his parents having mixers in their parlor room with Maria's socialite friends and misc chthonic gods#like. Nico's babysitter growing up was Menoites (herdsman of the cattle of the underworld) type situation#seriously though i can only think of 3 details that would vaguely imply Nico is raised catholic and that are:#one instance of him helping Percy pick out a christmas gift for Annabeth (though everything in that short story was ooc tbh)#(and also Nico didnt actually ever imply he specifically was celebrating christmas)#two: Percy describing the situation in Sword of Hades as ''spending christmas in the underworld'' (nico is just kind of there)#and thirdly again: Nico's just from Venice#like. did he go to a religious school growing up? possibly! doesnt mean he was that religion though just means his school was#and even then we actually dont know if he wasn't homeschooled before moving to america#in which case yeah figures the like 3 months he spent in Westover would teach him random outdated stuff#they needed to send him to a sketchy school cause the di angelos dont have any records and if their material is outdated#then that's less likely to mess with Bianca and Nico's wiped memories#but demographically speaking its entirely likely that the entire larger di Angelo family arent christian anyways#everybody with misc varied headcanons about the demographics of the di angelo family i give u a little kiss on the forehead#''but what about Nico learning the wrong version of that one myth'' see again: could have learned it at Westover#and also. tbh far more likely that it was a 1930s thing than a religious thing#cause if we're talking staunch catholocism i dont think they'd be teaching him much greek mythology at all#anyways this has been: im far too amused by the phrases 'that boy has never been to CCD' and ''Nico has Become Catholic'
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✂️💇🏻♀️💇🏻 (pizza for sizing lmao)
#visage#yall can rb if we are friends#friends meaning mutuals btw#its a bit shorter than ideal but i hate getting my hair cut so i prefer just cutting a bit shorter than i really would like and go longer in#between appointments tbh#irl my roots are so bad i edited this to be postable lmao but i’n dying my hair this week so it’s all good
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Feeling a certain way about that latest bsd interview concerning Akutagawa and the treatment he suffered
(that way is bad.)
#I was concerned about this kind of thing tbh trying to think of how this whole dynamic could narratively go forward#I’m not encouraged that he’ll ever be called out now.#listen. the orphanage director thing I was fine with. It’s fine to cry over someone who hurt you#it’s fine to have learned things from abusers. guy was the only ‘parental’ figure atsushi ever had even if he sucked#and that it was dazai saying all this introduces a layer of uncertainty also#was uncomfortable with aya having ‘learned’ from her abusive father (but you know fair I guess we still pick up on#and recall things in stressful moments. you can still learn from people who treat you horribly and it doesn’t mean you owe them shit)#but this makes me very uneasy and I’m uh. not happy. if this shit keeps up I just. :/#won’t main tag this rn#storyrambles
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This is what's gonna happen in the new episode a rat told me so in my dreams
Yeah so they're all gay actually, Lagoona and Draculaura are going to hold hands and Dracula will have his own bi awakening in a few years.
#what do you mean that's not actually going to happen#idk what you're talking about#btw after this they totally go on a date; mhm#and Draculaura's parents got divorced because her mom is a lesbian. if you couldn't tell#you can rip dracugoona out of my cold; dead hands#tbh I don't really like making rushed things like this#but I don't have the time for something more detailed so crappy sketches are what you're getting#I used no references#whatever#gotta work past my own perfectionism yada yada#well at least I had fun#we amuse ourselves around here.#monster high#monster high g3#dracugoona#lagoona blue#draculaura#rätposting#rät's art shenanigans
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Tbh... I don't think TOH should get a pass for it's shoddy plot just because some of the stuff that happens within the plot invokes an emotional response in people.
First of all, people react to concepts with varying degrees of emotional intensity based on what they like and/or their life experiences. Secondly, you can still create resonate moments with a good plot lmao.
There is no reason TOH should get a pass for making Belos a non threat for most of Season 1 just because people think x, y, z moment is wholesome or whatever.
#toh critical#i really hate this weird trend where people think story structure should be disregarded just because they happened to like an idea#and i guess there is an argument to be had that we shouldn't care about story structure because most people aren't even#aware of it when they start reading or watching something. Like they left everything they learned in literature class after they#graduated high school or college.#but it's like... then why do ppl go online to read negative analyses of their favorite piece of literature or media lmao#because people who write analyses care about story structure and it's important to them. so.#oh right and you know. just because most people aren't aware of story structure doesn't mean you shouldn't write a good story#that's like saying ''well since people don't care about music theory that means I can make a song without using music theory'' like???#very bizarre tbh
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