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ACOMAF reread thoughts
Quite a few things changed with this experience. Obviously, I’m reading with the awareness that it’s the mating bond. Even when Feyre didn’t have the awareness that it’s the mating bond, she was still aware that something connected them. Notably, Feyre didn’t have access to Rhys until after the snap. When she asked about it, Rhys explained the mating bond to her, taking advantage of her lack of knowledge, though it's understandable given his upbringing with ill-matched mated parents. I still think he should have told her sooner, especially when she started to feel guilt. However, SJM had established how mating bonds work in their world, and it seemed like a significant thing to fight against.
Miryam and Drakon still found their way back together after three years, and there will always be this understanding that one mate has for the other half, bringing up Lucien. I maintain that Lucien was forced between two loyalties - Feyre and Tamlin. In almost every scene with Lucien, his facial expressions showed disagreement with Tamlin, but Tamlin was a High Lord back to full power. This wasn’t the book 1 Tamlin with limited power that Lucien could easily defy. Even in book 2, Lucien had promised and delivered to see what he could do for Feyre. He brought her to the village, witnessed her powers, fought to get her to learn her powers, and even left her alone when he saw she was unwilling to go back.
There are many antis who say that Lucien should have done more, but what else could he have done? I doubt he was aware of the art room explosion because he was shocked when Tamlin did it again in ACOWAR. Lucien knows how important a High Lord's protection is, having suffered from the lack of one. The High Lord of summer told Feyre that he was required to tell Tamlin she was there. Rhys had a moment where he knew Tamlin was more loved by the courts than he was. So where could they go? How could Lucien sneak her to help when Tamlin was monitoring her every movement and dismissing Lucien’s counsel? Feyre felt the High Lord command when Rhys told her to put the shield up, not realizing that Lucien was on the receiving end of Tamlin’s. The High Lords are power. The only time Lucien fought against that was for his mate.
It still makes me mad that Feyre went full Batman on him rather than talk to him, but Feyre was angry, and I don’t blame her for that. Even if Lucien were to find a court that could harbor them, he wouldn’t know how to bring Feyre back to the despair she felt. Feyre recognized that Lucien had come to patch her up Under the Mountain, but it was only Rhys who knew how to keep her mind intact, which is the whole point of the book. Only Rhys could have helped her in the way she needed to be helped - not Lucien.
As for Feyre’s comment about Elain and Azriel, sorry, but Feyre sees how Cassian, Mor, and Amren all interact with each other. She assumed Elain wouldn’t be able to keep up with them. The contrast between Elain and Azriel and Elain and Lucien was so obvious to me. Elain saw Az for the first time and stiffened at the sight, and Feyre expected her to faint, trembling when she sat down. Elain stared at Lucien, ignoring Nesta. Just like how Feyre did when she first met Rhys and how Nesta did when she met Cassian.
Az and Mor's dynamics were subtler than I remembered. It's intriguing that the passages highlighted Mor's desire to act, countered by Az's protective refusal. This parallels Tamlin's protective approach to Feyre versus Rhys's trust in her abilities. This dynamic lends itself to a Gwynriel endgame, as Az trusts Gwyn's survival based on his training.
In essence, there's protection through distance and protection through empowerment.
A mate empowers.
#elucien#pro elucien#elain x lucien#gwynriel#pro gwynriel#azriel x gwyn#gwyn x azriel#acomaf reread#pro lucien#lucien vanserra
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"No. Amarantha had... camps for them. The nobles and favored faeries were allowed to dwell Under the Mountain. But if the people of a court weren't working to bring in goods and food, they were locked in camps in a network of tunnels beneath the Mountain. Thousands of them, crammed into chambers and tunnels with no light, no air. For fifty years." (acomaf ch. 3)
Imagine you're a citizen of the Spring Court, who went through all of this, suffered torment and imprisonment, only to be freed by a human girl. You find out that she's going to marry your High Lord, you're elated and happy that the curse breaker who freed you from your prison is there with you. After being trapped underground for fifty years, your High Lord only gives you three months to fix the economy of your town enough to pay a tax, but it's okay because Feyre Cursebreaker is there, and you should be grateful to be free, grateful to be able to pay this tax and support her.
Time goes by and then one day you hear that your High Lord attacked her with his magic after she tried defending his sentries who you know served him during those fifty years, or even were trapped underground with you. You hear that she had visible bruises for days, and that Tamlin had whipped some of those same soldiers until their backs were raw.
Wouldn't you leave too?
The destruction of the spring court is not some war crime Feyre committed, it is the liberation and crying out of a people who were enslaved for fifty years, whose cries for help and change were disregarded for the sake of upholding tradition.
#anti tamlin#anti tamlin stans#pro feyre#pro Feyre Archeron#feyre curse breaker#acomaf#acomaf reread#pro high lady of the night court#high lady feyre#cauldron blessed#my posts
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For a moment, I hadn't been able to stop myself from comparing: Tamlin hadn't wanted to be High Lord. He resented being High Lord---and maybe . . . that was part of why the court had become what it was. But Rhysand, with a vision, with the will and desire and passion to do it . . . He'd built something.
(ACOMAF, p.g. 379)
Oh, F/eyre's inability to stick to the canon-truths. Yes, Tamlin resented being High Lord BECAUSE IT COST HIS ENTIRE FAMILY TO BECOME IT. It's not that he didn't want it, he had three older brothers who were more likely to get become High Lord and if he looked like he might be the Heir, his brothers would have killed him. None of this would make me eager to assume the role either. So much so that you could argue, he continued on his father's traditions (like the Tithe) to keep some semblance of stability because he had no training or education on how to be a High Lord (refer to my above reasons why).
Then, despite his reluctance and unpreparedness, the Spring fae respected him. F/eyre had to WORK HARD to undo his centuries of good leadership in order to turn them against him. She needed to fabricate emotions, and stories, and situations, and manipulations to turn them against him. The Spring Court was doing the best that it could with the untrained High Lord.
I'd even go so far as to say the gap between the lesser and high fae was smaller in Spring than the CANYONS between the two groups in every other court.
But I get it. There's only two ways to have the tallest building in the city: build yours higher or tear everyone else's down. And s/jm needed to tear Tamlin down, in every way possible, to build R/hys taller.
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some interesting things i've noted during my ACOTAR reread Pt. 4 (ACOMAF edition)
*SPOILER WARNING for those who haven’t completed the series*
So lost, Feyre found herself content with the idea of never becoming Tamlin’s equal, but deep inside she knew that wasn’t true. The signs of her sense of self going down hill are only beginning.
“You clearly don’t know Rhysand.” Casual language, no titles used. Shows a closeness between her and Rhys as she’s so easily defending him, one of the only times she’s assertive. She gives in to the whims of Tamlin and Ianthe on everything, but her will doesn't bend on her opinion of Rhys. At least in this instance.
Feyre hasn’t laughed in so long that she doesn’t remember the last time she did… how busy and self-absorbed is Tamlin that he hasn’t even noticed? Why isn't he more concerned about her mind?
I just imagine the Disney Enchanted wedding dress as Feyre’s wedding dress:
Bitch, Ianthe and the red petals! As mentioned earlier, Feyre has been giving in or complying with what everyone else wants. One of the few things she expressed for herself was "Not red." A firm statement with no room for compromise.
The kidnapping scene, itscomingitscoming. “As inescapable as the vow I was about to make”. The wording is so revealing of Feyre's true feelings after her describing her fear of feeling trapped, imprisoned. She’s not ready to get married. "Help me, help me, help me. Save me, please. Save me. Get me out. End this."
the night court was the most beautiful place Feyre had ever seen, straight from her thoughts. Just as Rhys was the most beautiful man she had ever seen!
Rhys: You look delicious today, Feyre darling~. This man has 1000% more rizz in his pinky finger than Tamlin has in his whole body. Love that his first time saying "Feyre, darling" in the book was when he was kidnapping her.
A new war is coming, from King Hybern. Rhys, the enemy, is the one who revealed this to Feyre. Not her fiance or her friends, the man who is seen as the enemy of those she loves.
Amarantha was an experiment, a test to see how long a territory could be kept. Hybern wants to reclaim the human lands.
Several untested high lords... ngl I forgot this piece of info in the later books. Broken courts with high priestesses angling for control like wolves around a carcass.
Feyre has a skill of catching the Suriel (always loved this detail), and she is the only hunter Rhys trusts
Feyre has the same signs that a high lord’s son might become his heir. Her powers could destroy her if she doesn’t learn to control them! This makes it so much worse that Tamlin isn't willing to teach her. He is harming her with his protection. Meanwhile, Rhys will teach her. The differences between the two males only grows.
"Tamlin won’t allow it." Like she needs his permission... Feyre also calls herself Tamlin’s subject. She doesn’t perceive herself as an equal. She's being brainwashed into submission. Rhys gets upset for her, "you are no one’s subject" as well as "Pretending you’re less than him, than Ianthe, than any of us." While Tampon expects her to accept a place below him, Rhys is pushing her to rise to her potential.
Rhys: “I know you, more than you realize.” HE DOES, HE REALLY DOES. he’s giving a voice to what she keeps pretending she’s not feeling, reminding her of the truth left and right. love him for that.
“Become a weapon.” Tamlin just wants her safe, guarded, and always inside. Rhys wants her to be capable and ready if (when) needed, he wants her strong.
Rhys placed Feyre in a room that was “so open”... because of her nightmares? so she’d always be able to have access to the sky, brightly lit by starlight? So she’d always know where she was when she woke?
AZRIEL WAS MENTIONED, AH!
Mor has control? of what? What games did they play and lose? Oh shit is it when Rhys went utm? what are they referring to!
Temple attacked, priestesses slain and trove looted. Def Hybern. What for?
Despite Feyre not being from the night court, and engaged to the high lord of spring, they are letting her hear the gruesome details of what is happening in theirs. They’re not shielding her from the truth like they do in spring.
“Great beautiful, brutal wings.” Rhys hates giving into his more beastly urges, but loves his wings, so it’s sweet that this is how she views him. Brutal, yes, but beautiful. She sees him as he is, past the monster he could be. He feels whole with the wings!
CASSIAN WAS ALSO MENTIONED. Apparently, he suspects it’s not Hybern but one of the Illyrian war bands as they “gleefully bowed to Amarantha.”
Winnowing~ no one had explained it to her before, she learns it from Rhys tho. Rare gift among the stronger fae. Without fail, what she should have been told by her friends, by her loved ones, she is instead being told by their enemy.
“Tamlin should know.” (this is about temples being attacked) that line sounded almost… betrayed. As if she’s realizing the severity of what is being kept from her. She does not like being shielded. It makes her feel, most likely, helpless. Powerless.
I know I'm shitting on him a lot, but I actually don't hate Tamlin. I understand every single one of his choices (doesn't mean I always understand his reactions, or even like either of them). We are told more than once why he's so suffocatingly overprotective and restrictive. The man is traumatized. Never again will he be powerless to protect his people, and he follows through (at first). I can respect that.
However, he is so blinded by his own issues, his own trauma, he has made himself incapable of truly helping Feyre. Over and over again, his choices reflect how he chooses to address his trauma over hers. There is no doubt he loves her or she loves him, but they are horribly mismatched for each other. If she had stayed, if Rhys never intervened, Tamlin would have destroyed her beyond repair. He almost did.
#acomaf#acomaf reread#acotar reread#feyre#feyre cursebreaker#feyre archeron#feyre acotar#feyre acomaf#tamlin acotar#tamlin#ianthe acotar#ianthe#lucien vanserra#lucien acotar#rhys acotar#rhysand#rhysand acotar#feyre darling
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"But Elain's cry - a warning. A warning to - to my right, now exposed, Tamlin ran for me. I hurled a knife at him, as hard as I could."
First of all: Feyre throwing a knife at Tamlin, love it.
Second of all: Elain is so scared. She's about to die and she warns Feyre about Tamlin 😭 if we don't get some Feyre and Elain bonding in Elains book I am gonna be mad
#acotar#a court of thorns and roses#acotar reread#Acomaf reread#feyre archeron#feyre#feyre cursebreaker#high lady of the night court#elain#elain archeron#archeron sisters#pro elain#anti tamlin#tamlin
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now sjm where is my novella about the love story between miryam and drakon
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Amren immediately asking where Feyre was when Rhys winnows in with a severely injured Cass and Az after the Hybern/cauldron incident breaks my fucking heart oh my god
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the king of hybern randomly dropping how handsome lucien is will never not be funny to me
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It's just bewildering how Sjm woke up one day and said I'll create the most heartwarming, heart wrenching, greatest love story to ever exist and wrote Feysand.
#feysand#pro feysand#feyre and rhysand#pro feyre archeron#pro rhysand#gosh i love them#i reread acomaf religiously it's not funny#feysand my beloved
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In ACOMAF, SJM consistently uses jasmine as a scent associated with the Night Court. However, in ACOSF, she introduces a distinction for Elain, adding honey to the jasmine, creating a scent reminiscent of spring. This subtle detail might indicate that even Elain's scent invokes another court, emphasizing her mismatch with the Night Court.
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Rhysand stans have chapter 54 memorized likes it’s the goddamn bible which is why it’s impossible to have a genuine discussion with them about rhys’s character.No I’m not asking you to recite rhys’s 20 page retconning monologue Im asking you if you think it was ok for him to treat feyre the way he did UTM.Please try forming your own thoughts and using your own words 🤗.
#I just reread chapter 54 and i actually started seeing red#acotar#a court of thorns and roses#acomaf#anti rhysand#sjm critical#rhysand critical
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Nesta snarled softly, "What are you looking at?"
Cassians brows rose---little amusement to be found. "Someone who let their youngest sister risk her life every day in the woods while she did nothing. Someone who let a fourteen-year-old child go out into the forest, so close to the wall."
(ACOMAF, p.g. 255)
Little known fact about me, I have a sister. We're both married. Our husbands get along swimmingly and there's this...unspoken rule in our family. If siblings argue or fight or disagree, the spouses don't get involved. And I'm sure a lot of families have this unspoken rule because siblings fight and make up all the time. This unspoken rule exists, and gets re-implied, because occasionally a spouse will insert themselves into an argument and the siblings ALWAYS turn around and attack the spouse together for getting involved.
So when I say this scene GRINDED my gears, understand that I am not exaggerating. Like it makes me cringe so hard, my bones might snap.
This conversation had NOTHING to do with Cassian. He didn't even know that all the food F/eyre brought home, NESTA COOKED so that they could eat it. She complained but she chopped the wood that kept them warm.
And to make this scene even more mind numbing is that F/eyre just sat there and let him talk to her sister that way.
If someone threw the worst years of our life in my sister's face, in a backhanded attempt to defend me, I would skin him alive. No one gets to talk to my sister that way, except me.
#acomaf reread#anti cassian#anti ic#anti rhys#anti rhysand#pro nesta#pro healthy siblings#what the hell kind of sister is this
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some interesting things i've noted during my ACOTAR reread Pt. 3 (ACOMAF edition)
*SPOILER WARNING for those who haven’t completed the series*
Oddly enough, the audio is split up into 8 chapters. I know for a fact they read up to chapter 32, so I guess it’s four chapters per section? Anyways, I’m on the first part of the dramatized adaptation. And here’s just what I’ve noted. Again.
“Maybe I'd always been broken and dark inside.”
eye in her palm, watching her like a cat
Rhys, in the end, hadn't been an enemy. she especially hadn't felt like his enemy. She hasn't told anyone about their final meeting under the mountain. !!!
Trapped in the manor, she is surrounded by luxury and money and still not satisfied. Tamlin should have done something… more and noticed her turmoil sooner. I understand Timtam is also traumatized by Amarantha, but that is not an excuse to ignore her issues. If he loved her right, he would have been helping her. Instead, he was too consumed by his issues to look past how she was a comfort to him and escape from reality to him. Meanwhile, he was just another reminder, and enforcer, of a new life thrust upon her. Her heart is still human, she can’t simply forget the dark things she had done to survive.
Lucien is lying, too overprotective Tamlin underestimates her, telling her to just go paint like he expects her to be some obedient wife. He seems to think he will tame her, the half-wild beast now turned high fae.
LMAO She hated the bright dresses (chosen by Ianthe) and wanted pants and knives. the only thing she chose for herself was something given to her by Lucien, the dagger and the belt. being armed feels safe. Worse yet, the wedding dress?? Neither Feyre nor Tamlin liked it, but Tamlin pushed for it since Ianthe was the one who wanted it. He is not looking out for Feyre’s best interests. What was once a chill vibe for a romance is going downhill so fast now that Soldier Boy has to properly play high lord.
Ianthe is the childhood friend of Tam! Ngl, if I didn’t know what I know, I never would have suspected her.
nothing she does or has is by her choice. dawn pink gown? Interesting because this is Elain’s theme. I doubt SJM did that for any specific reason as she tends to let her characters guide her writing, and Elain wasn’t there yet. If anything, Nesta was mentioned most between the two.
various stages of the moon cycle tattoo on her forehead, and teal eyes (uh-oh? Is it a coincidence that Gwyn and Ianthe have teal eyes?)
Priestesses recorded fae history, high priestesses were respected much the same as a high lord (and their offspring the same)
Ianthe is obsessed with Lucien. It’s so gross knowing what I know. Crying.
Tam kept a space away from her, but never used it? Or maybe it’s more that he’s invading her space because, again, she is his comfort.
DAMN, forgot the smut happened so early on
Ivory skin > feyre, golden skin > tamlin, sunkissed gold of Lucien's skin (his skin tone was never mentioned before..)
look of pity from Lucien and yet he still does nothing… this is so frustrating.
Omg, Tam’s growl sounded like the echo-y growl from Dune!
Wait a minute, she hates feeling trapped or spaces too enclosed for her liking. Damnit. Damnit Tamlin (because of what he will do in a future chapter).
#acomaf#acomaf reread#acotar reread#tamlin acotar#tamlin#feyre acomaf#feyre#feyre cursebreaker#feyre archeron#feyre acotar#lucien vanserra#lucien acotar#rhysand acotar#rhys acotar#rhysand#rhys#ianthe#ianthe acotar
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I remained in the center of the foyer as I asked carefully, “Why don’t you want me to see that?”
“Because you’ve only started to look at me like I’m not a monster, and I can’t stomach the idea of anything you see tomorrow, being beneath that mountain, putting you back into that place where I found you.” Beneath that mountain— underground. Yes, I’d forgotten that. Forgotten I’d see the court that Amarantha had modeled her own after, that I’d be trapped beneath the earth … But with Cassian, and Azriel, and Mor. With … him. I waited for the panic, the cold sweat. Neither came. “Let me help. In whatever way I can.”
Acomaf, Chapter 41
I LOVE THEM OKAY
#acotar#a court of thorns and roses#acomaf#Acomaf reread#feyre archeron#feyre#feyre cursebreaker#high lady of the night court#high lady feyre#feyre darling#rhysand#rhys#feysand#high lord rhysand#rhysand archeron#rhys acotar#high lord of the night court#inner circle
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listen its not that tamlin locking feyre in a manor is ‘not a big deal’. its that sjm parallels tamlin and rhysand way too much for rhysand to be a viable, healthy option for feyre.
rhys put a whole city under a lockdown so severe people forgot about its existence (and from what the wiki says, the city was kept hidden for centuries even before, for the safety of its citizens) but tamlin locking feyre in a manor, so she wouldn’t follow him into an unsafe situation was crossing a line?
#finally resuming my reread of acomaf and thinking about feyquin-done-right aus in my head to get through it#at the risk of getting ‘too deep’ about the faerie smu t books its stupid to assume everyone would be on board with being locked in#velaris for 50 years#you’re telling me no one had doubts the half-fae HL could keep them protected? (ps. this is where you bring in doubts about his#illyrian bloodline sarah)#especially when the illyrians started joining amarantha’s side (bc they were following their HL’s example)#you’re telling me mor cassian and azriel were okay with rhysand suffering amarantha alone? (this is where you could’ve shown the strong#bond/ties within the IC sarah especially if azriel and his shadow powers and his spying came into play sarah)#this is why its taking me so long to finish reading acomaf i read one chapter and can’t resist writing a long rant about it#anti acomaf#anti feysand#anti sjm
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“He’s a murderer” okay yes but what if he were ALSO my very special babygirl
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