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#a really really long time since ive had a good cry n hug session w someone.
scattered-winter · 9 months
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horrifying self recognition through the other aside this has been an actually not terrible start to The Family Gathering tbh
#my cousin who i havent really seen in a while came up to me and asked abt my pronouns because i came out to the fam a while ago#and he didnt really remember what id said (which. fair. its a big family w lots of things to remember)#and so he asked what my pronouns were and i told him and he promised that if he ever messed up i needed to make him#do like 5 or 10 pushups lmao#and ngl. its the sweetest thing anyone in this family has ever said to me abt that#everyone else has kinda just. moved on. and either forgotten that im not a girl or purposefully ignoring it.#and idk maybe i should stand up for myself a little more but ive been practically a doormat all my life#and idk. its hard using my voice and establishing boundaries when ive let ppl bulldoze over me for almost 20 years.#sigh. anyway.#im gonna be thinking about that all day tbh it was genuinely so sweet#and i am also being consumed by The Loneliness again <3#just. i want someone to just talk to about all this??? someone who isnt in my family because they all have stakes in it too?????#we're all grieving. i aint special.#i just want to talk to someone about it in person so they can hold my hand while i cry myself to sleep because ngl#thats what it looks like we're doing tonight#im just. tired of feeling alone in this enormous family where it seems like im the only odd man out#and also ykw the Not Having Any Irl Friends loneliness too. thats also pretty significant.#not saying my internet friends arent great i love yall so so so much but it has just been .#a really really long time since ive had a good cry n hug session w someone.#sigh. im tired i need to go to bed#winter speaks#personal
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morgansunflower · 3 years
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Wheel-bound 1/3
Batman/Bruce Wayne X Reader
Warnings :heavy angst, gun wounds, guns
Words: 1,105
Y/N is James 'Jim' Gordon's little sister. Wall they catch up a certain mad man ruins their day. Also Grayson is Robin.
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I went to see brother James at his house we sat on the couch. We both had finished our shifts at the station. It has been year's since we spent time together, well without having gun's or life-threatening situations. We sit on his couch.
"so how's my niece?" I ask having not seen her in a while
"she's at her mom's, I'll pick her up tomorrow"
I felt for my brother he ended up with a ugly divorce. He only sees Barbara 2 day's a week. I know he misses Barbara often. He may not be great at relationships, but he's a great father.
"Barbara's very lucky to have you as a father, Jim"
He softly smiled "humph I don't know about that, but anyway how are you? Last I heard you and Bruce were--" he stammered and cleared his throat
I'm a grown ass woman and my overprotective brother still can't handle believing that his dear little sister as had sex. I rolled my eye's
"he's been super busy with Gotham and Wayne enterprise" I say with a heavy sigh missing him "I haven't seen him in a long time"
"maybe it's good for you to have a break"
I snorted "you just like to think I'm still a innocent little girl who doesn't have se--"
"H-H-hey" he nervously laughed "let's not go there"
I heard the door knocking I laugh hitting his shoulder. I walk to the door and opened, Joker! I move my hand to grab my gun. He aimed his gun and fired before I could retaliate.
"Y/N!!" James yelled
I fell back onto the glass coffee table it shattered beneath me. A burning pain in my abdomen. I hear gunfire and my brother's struggling breath. I held my bleeding wound my tears falling in fear of my life and my brother's.
"J-Jim"
Joker, kneeled in front of my touching my cheek
"yes, cry to big brother" he laughed
Dick's P. O. V
At the cave after a training exercise, that M'gann put us in a telekinesis mission that we couldn't have possibly won. Though something added on to my trauma M'gann didn't know Y/N is confined to a wheelchair. I had used a mini robot bug to see and listen to the doctor's. They told Bruce there doing everything they can to save her. That's the last I heard that and she'd never walk again if she were to make it through this. It took everything in my power not to run and hug Y/N when I saw her(though it wasn't really her). I wanted to apologize say that I love her. After my therapy session with Black-Canary I didn't tell her about my only mother figure. I feel that horrible gut feeling I did when I lost my parent's. I walk to the kitchen Miss Martin cooking with a smile. Superboy, sitting on the couch. K-F and Artemis arguing like a married couple. Everything as it should be. So why am I not happy? I can't stop worrying about, Y/N. After my mom and dad died. Bruce, filled in the hole my dad left, in his own way. Y/N, she filled in my hole my mother left. She always cared for me, she disciplines me, she cooks with me, she makes me laugh, I make her laugh and she loves me. I need some space. I went to my bedroom in the cave. I plopped on the bed. I turn onto my side and held onto my pillow. I feel my tears fall.
-"who would like some brownies!" (M'gann)
She had us in a mental link. Great.
-"no thanks M'gann I can't stomach to eat right now"
-"you alright, Rob? (Wally)
-"I'm fine!"
-"you don't sound fine, you sound like hell" (Wally)
-"Wally, be nice" (Artemis)
-"do you want us to call Black-Canary?" (M'gann)
I huff taking a deep breath
-"I just want to go to sleep if you could unlink me. I'd like my thoughts to myself for a while please"
-"o-OK sleep well Boy Wonder" (M'gann)
Bruce's P. O. V
My heart aches seeing Y/N in so much pain. She's lost all feeling from the waist down, confining her to a wheelchair. With my adopted son in the waiting room. I stood in front of her. She was, hooked to a heart monitor, IV fluids and her abdomen bandaged. Wearing a hospital gown with a small blanket on her. I took my glove off. I gently put my knuckles on her soft face
"Y/N, can you hear me?" nothing please open your eye's "Y/N, it's me, it's Bruce"
She jolted her eye's open grabbing my hand, I could've moved away from her grip but I know she's scared. She gasped
"Bruce" her voice tired she grabbed me, I let her wrap her arms around me "he.. He took him Bruce, he took my brother" she cried with fear her anxiety causing her to hyperventilate
"Y/N, calm down" I say softly in hopes of calming my love down "take it easy, it's OK"
She let go her moving her grip to my cape. I cup her arm's as she cried
"what-w-what is he doing to my brother" she sobbed my heart drops
I kissed her she eased her breathing. I leaned on her head
"I promise you, Y/N I will find Jim"
She loosened her grip she touched my chest. She sniffed taking a deep breath.
"I love you"
I reach for her and I hold her hand kissing her knuckles. I usually did not respond when she says those three word's that warm my heart. I would usually show her affection small kisses, loving looks, though given the circumstances
"I love you, Darling"
Y/N's P. O. V
I sat on the wheelchair after a few hours of physical therapy. The doctor explained that I will likely be confined to a wheelchair for the rest of my life. I hear the door knocking
"come in" I say loud enough for whomever was there could hear
I saw, Barbara my 15 year old niece. She covered her face gasping. Tears falling down her face. I narrow my eyebrows hating seeing her so upset. She walked to me and held my hand. I gently rub her back she hugged me. I wrap my arm's around my niece
"oh, Babs we're going to find your dad I promise"
"I heard you were in surgery Bruce pr-promised me on the phone that you we're OK but I was so scared"
"oh, sweetheart it's gonna be OK"
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