Listen I love Halsin being the narrative character comforter in fic, but I need more where he is the comfortee either in turn, or entirely. Just for a bit.

here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud!!

✷(print shop)✷

i just think that. Aaron starts going to night practices sometimes. not to practice but just to sit with Andrew.

my food diary to keep track of what particular foods cause me distress is more scientific than Stanford Pines' Journals

Reading A Strange and Stubborn Endurance and on the one hand I think it does some things too fast but on the other I’ve read 100 pages this morning and I want to keep reading even though I have other things to do. So.

I’m super duper behind with replying to my asks and messages! so sorry about that, darlings. I think for tomorrow I’ll try to be online just a tiny bit less, but I’ll be back on saturday the latest and will try to get back to you all then.

remember to take care of yourself, to drink your water and eat your snacks, and to show yourself the kindness that you show others. you’re deserving of all the love that you put out there. 💗

Something that makes reading TOA so devastating is how fucking much Apollo feels about Everything. There’s so MUCH. Like I don’t even know how to describe it to you if you haven’t read the books yourself. He has so many complicated thoughts and emotions about just about everything and he cares about everything so much and there is just SO MUCH going on in his head. And yet none of it ever reaches his mouth!!

He almost never says what he’s feeling. What little comes out of his mouth about his thoughts barely even scratches the surface of what he actually means. Like he’ll be having a long ass monologue about how incredible someone is, showing a deep understanding of them as a person and empathizing with them so hard you’d almost think it’s projection but it’s not he’s legitimately just mind melding with this random person he met like a week ago and he’s thinking the softest, kindest thoughts about them like he knows they’re fucking incredible - and what comes out of his mouth is just like, “you’re a wonderful friend :)” AND ITS LIKE. THERES SO MUCH MORE UNDER THE SURFACE. the sheer admiration and adoration he has for everyone around him……… UGHHH!!! But he never VOICES ANY OF IT!!!!!! He never tells anyone about what Zeus did to him……. He never tells anyone except the reader about his realization that Zeus is abusive…. He never even tells commodus about how much he adored him, not then and not now… he refuses to tell anyone when he’s in pain or tries to justify the things he does when he actually had Decent Reasons for why he did something… I’m. I’M. AUGH. AHHHHH

HE DOESN’T EVEN TELL US ALL OF HIS THOUGHTS IS THE THING. THERES EVEN MORE THAT HE IS NOT TELLING US!!!!! THE FUCKING OCEAN OF FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS HE HAS ABOUT EVERYTHING IS THE CLIFF NOTES VERSION. I AM IN DISTRESS.

And YET…. Even what slips out of his mouth is so fucking devastating it is SO devastating. He’s so fucking kind and gentle with Harley and Meg and and other younger Demis and his kids… he’ll act like an obstinate idiot and then turn around say something that drags the core of the person he’s talking to into the light like nail on the fucking HEAD like he reached into their soul and gave them the words to express something that they were struggling to say aloud or that they didn’t even realize about themself. Around the 2nd book he starts putting voice to some of his feelings and thoughts about others and even that tiny fucking sliver is overwhelming to the people he’s talking to bc he’s SO. AUGHHHH

Do you like to listen to music while reading? If yes, can you recommend some of your fav songs?

oh i wish i could but unfortunately music while reading is literally THE worst possible thing for me, truly...as it is i can barely read on public transport (or even outdoors sometimes) because there's just way too much going on for me to concentrate and i am in perpetual awe of people who can. anyone who does though please feel free to share your faves for anon!!

2023 reads / storygraph

Hamra and the Jungle of Memories

middle grade fantasy, red riding hood reimagining

a girl frustrated to be taking care of her nagging grandparents while her parents are away in the city during the pandemic, who recklessly goes out into the forest and ignores the rules, taking a jambu fruit without asking

a weretiger demands payment for her crimes, and the two of them and her best friend go on a magical quest to set things right

List of random headcanons I made because I genuinely love how Doug and Elaine Thomas were tied to Bruce’s early years as Batman and think that more supporting cast should be tangentially connected to one another:

Thomas Wayne, despite being a surgeon and therefore NOT in charge of delivering babies, has delivered exactly one child. A miss Crystal Brown who decided she didn’t give a damn if he was a surgeon, she was coming out now.

The reason Willis had Shiva in his contacts is because they’re actually half-siblings. There is no real angst behind it, their dad was just a ho. They were pretty sure they had dozens of siblings out there but never got around to searching for them before their lives fell apart.

Just like her son Tim imprinted on Dick Grayson, Janet Drake had a massive crush on Jim Gordon.

Talia met William Cobb once. His decision to steal his son and send him to the Haly’s to create a lineage of talons specifically to spite the Crownes helped Talia decide to pretend to have a miscarriage to avoid a similar situation happening with Damian and the al Ghuls. The irony of what happens later is not lost on her.

Catherine used to live in the border between Burnley and Park Row and had babysat for the Montoyas a few times.

I keep loads of basic supplies in my car because there are so many homeless people in my city. I'm leaving the gym, and this dude stops and asks for a light. While I'm handing him my lighter, he asks if I have any water. I say I only have Gatorade right now, and move to my trunk and tell him he's welcome to anything he needs back there. He picks up some soap, sniffs it, and says, "This is all garbage. Nobody wants this," and left. And, like, I'm not sure if I need to rethink what I'm stocking my car with or if he was just an asshole.

I’m really happy rottmnt basically took over the tmnt tag in the past 2ish? Months but *heavy sigh*

I’m not that delusional *proceeds to look away from 90% of rottmnt Leo and Donnie scenarios cuz I don’t think good enough for them*

So when my driving instructor inevitably asks me what I want to do this lesson, is it okay to ask him to just drive me around for two hours whilst I have a little nap?

Realizing why I’ve been so damn tired all day every day lately its bc I’m not spending time in bed awake. Like I’ll be at the desk or resting anywhere else all day but sitting is still energy to hold myself up. Gotta remember to set aside an hour or 5 to just lay in bed and actually during waking hours

today has almost managed to redeem this entire year-to-date holy shit

hello, I am just here to wish the best person on tumblr a very happy day :D

*_*

I really don't know what i have done to deserve this lovely comment, but you have truly brightened up my day with your kind words.

Thank you, anon. I hope you have had a lovely day as well.❤️🩷