Blu-ray review: “I'll Sleep When I'm Dead” (2003)

“I’ll Sleep When I’m Dead” (2003) Drama Running Time: 102 minutes Written by: Trevor Preston Directed by: Mike Hodges Featuring: Clive Owen, Charlotte Rampling, Jonathan Rhys-Meyers and Malcolm McDowell Will: “Look at me. Look at what I’ve become. I sometimes don’t talk to another living soul for fucking days, weeks. I’m always on the move. I trust no one, nothing. And it’s got fuck-all to…

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Tues. Nov. 23, 2021: Goals Create New Goals

Tues. Nov. 23, 2021: Goals Create New Goals

image courtesy of Carla Luca de Tena via Unsplash.com Tuesday, November 23, 2021 Waning Moon Neptune, Chiron, Uranus Retrograde Sunny and cold It was a good weekend. I wrote about most of Friday on Friday, because the post went up so late. The afternoon was about client work, following up on information I had promised, etc. I did some percolating on this, that, and many others while on the…

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Họ Sẽ Yêu Tôi Khi Tôi Chết Diễn viên, đoàn làm phim và những người đã tham gia khác thảo luận về quá trình hỗn độn để sản xuất bộ phim cuối còn đang dang dở của Oron Welles: "Phía Bên Kia Làn Gió" (The Other Side of the Wind)

corner store (part i)

order 039, anon: large milk tea with taro balls for ptg's Changgu

warnings: mentions of killing, gunfire, smoking, suggestive content

summary: Changgu, your local corner store worker. oh, did i mention he works for the mafia?

barista 🥛's 💌: ty to monsta x for singlehandedly giving me enough motivation to write this shitE OKAY goodnight <3

[x]

ever since you moved out into an apartment of your own, you've had terrible nightmares. someone's always watching over you in your house and it always feels so real. but ever since you met a certain someone just below your apartment, everything faded away.

who knew the pretty boy in the black turtleneck who sold you crappy iced coffee at the local corner store was actually one of the most skilled killers in the city? you certainly didn't.

you garnered your crush for him privately, rushing down to the corner store every day of the week even if you didn't need anything.

i need a coffee right now.

i'm running low on shampoo.

i'm craving apples.

any excuse you came up with lead you to that pretty boy behind the counter

Changgu, his name tag read. his fluffy hair and delicate smile were enough to make you weak and have you holding onto the counter as he cashed you out. he made you melt.

"at 5:32am, police received a report from locals that gunshots were being fired. after arriving at the scene, they were met with dead bodies sprawled around the area. the bodies were identified as members of a local gang, and the group behind the crime are thought to be none other than the mafia.

the mafia often leaves a symbol behind when they commit crimes. it takes the form of a simple 'x'. if you see this symbol on anyone or in any location, please contact the local police at--"

"ah, how silly. crime is crime. it's always happening, right?" Changgu told you after switching off the old TV in the corner store.

he cashed out your items for you and placed them in a bag, sliding them towards you and wishing you well. you turned away from him after watching him roll up his sleeves and reach for a hidden pack of cigarettes just under the counter.

-

a few days pass and Changgu's replaced by someone else in the corner store. you ask the new person what happened to Changgu, and he replies saying he'll be back soon after taking care of some business. the newbie's nametag reads 'Hyunggu'.

-

"hey, someone was asking about you in the corner store today," Hyunggu tells Changgu as he checks the ammunition in his gun.

"ah, it must've been the regular. you did tell them i'd be back, right?" Changgu asked Hyunggu, scanning his friend's expression.

Hyunggu nodded and smirked, saying, "you've never cared about anyone like this before."

Changgu scoffs but knows Hyunggu hit the nail on the head. there's something about you that makes you so unforgettable in Changgu's mind.

-

when Changgu's back at the corner store, you race to the counter with empty hands.

"how've you been?" you ask.

he throws you the same, sweet smile he always does and tells you he's been just fine.

"not buying anything today?" he asks, raising his eyebrows at your empty hands.

"oh! no, uh... i just forgot to pick anything up--" you start to explain, but Changgu cuts you off.

"it's fine, i'm just playing! you don't have to buy anything if you don't want to. want a coffee, on the house?" he asks, already grabbing a cup before you can even agree.

he slides you the cup after he's done pouring it for you, watching you take a sip with a smile.

"how've you been, sweetie?" he asks.

"m-me, i--"

it's only then, when he slightly leans his head back and his bangs shift slightly that the deep bruise on his forehead is revealed. he knows, right away, that your cut-off sentence is because of his bruised skin.

"ah, don't worry about this, it's--"

he leans his neck away from you and the fabric of his turtleneck struggles to stay in place, reveal two thin, black lines that seem to be travelling towards each other.

X.

Changgu notices where your eyes are and he quickly pulls up his turtleneck, pretending to organize something under the counter.

"it's getting dark, you should probably head home," Changgu says, and you take that as your cue to leave. but you don't forget the mark you saw on his neck.

-

"what would it take to get you to remove that turtleneck?"

Changgu laughs hearing you speak the words that you didn't even realize the double meaning of until after you spoke.

"maybe in the right mood, back at my place," he flirts, and you shake your head at him, trying to hide your red-stained cheeks.

"you're hiding something," you say.

"everyone's hiding a lot of things," he retorts, scanning your snacks and adding up the total cost.

"no, i--"

"i can tell you more about it if you wait until the end of my shift tonight," Changgu cuts you off as he tightly grips the counter, the outline of his knuckles clearly showing.

he's holding on for dear life, trying to ground himself as he feels himself falling deeper for you.

"i'll go for a walk and come back later, then," you say, grabbing your snacks.

Changgu's cold hand reaches for your wrist.

"it's dark out, don't leave," he says.

"what do i do, then?" you ask, turning back to face him.

his eyes flit from side-to-side as he thinks, then he throws you a smile.

"keep me company? there's a chair here, behind me."

"your manager won't get mad?"

"the manager's my best friend; you met him before."

you throw him a confused look, and he tells you that Hyunggu is the manager of this corner store.

"i'd expect someone older to manage this place," you say, stepping behind the counter and sitting on a beanbag somewhere next to Changgu.

"people often expect older people to do a lot of things, but you'll be surprised to find out how many young people get all the dirty work done."

-

unsurprisingly, you end up in Changgu's bed, tracing the mark on his neck that was indeed an 'X', the mark of a mafia member. he turns his head to look at you, shifting from his back to his side and drowning his neck tattoo in his pillow.

"are you glad now you know?" he asks, his voice raspy.

"i'm just glad, point-blank glad," you respond and he smiles--that soft smile that first captured your heart.

"how could someone with a smile like yours and soft, fluffy hair be a killer?" you ask, running your fingers through his locks.

"maybe 'cause i made a deal with the devil and somehow ended up in this mess?"

the way you cock your head at him each time you're confused drives Changgu just a little insane. he has to squeeze his eyes shut to avoid kissing the life out of you.

"the nightmares you had, dear, they were real. since you moved here, someone's been keeping tabs on you 'cause you moved into the flat of a mafia enemy."

"Changgu... how do you know about my nightmares?" you ask.

"you don't remember telling me?" he asks.

you watch his bicep flex as he shifts his arm. you definitely don't remember...

"i just ran petty errands for the mafia before. Hyunggu told me to keep charge of this corner store for him and keep an eye on you to make sure the mafia didn't step out of line when watching you. they almost did a few times, but i made sure it never happened."

"Hyunggu told you?"

"he's a few levels above me in the mafia hierarchy."

"he's in the mafia?"

"yes, dear. is this too much? should i stop?" Changgu asks, cupping one of your cheeks in his hand. his touch is cool.

"no, it's okay. go ahead," you reassure.

"the mafia got mad at me for meddling in their business. i told them to stop being so nosy and meddling in your life, and they told me they would keep that promise if i joined as a hitman--"

"you're a hitman?"

"i'm sorry, am i making you anxious?" Changgu asks, a worried expression on his face.

"you became a hitman just to protect me? did i even know you back then?"

"you came by the corner store quite a bit," Changgu recalls, smiling fondly at the memory.

"you realize none of this makes sense, right?" you ask him.

Changgu nods, pulling you towards his chest.

"isn't it more beautiful because it's so chaotic?" he asks you and you can't help but agree.

what a mess you've gotten yourself into.

part ii

Solar System playlist

Look up!  It’s a bird! It’s a plane! It’s....the Solar System playlist.  Click play here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL-iHPcxymC18LD_V5saMr7QzWS1Q3VAU6 

What’s out there beyond our own planet? A mystery at every turn. Mercury to Pluto. The Sun and the Moon, even Phobos gets a mention here. So come by the Neptune Towers and enjoy this Solar System playlist.

SOLAR SYSTEM

001 Amorphis - Far From The Sun 002 The Beatles - here comes the sun   003 Swans - Song For The Sun 004 Mastodon - Once More 'Round The SunStiff Little Fingers 005 Soundgarden - Black Hole Sun 006 Isaac Hayes - Driving In The Sun 007 Tom Petty - dark of the sun 008 DREAMTIME - Sun 009 Circus Diablo - Red Sun Rising 010 Tiamat - The Sun Also Rises 011 Covenant - Bringer of the sixth sun 012 Agoraphobic Nosebleed - hung from the rising sun 013 Alice in Chains - When the Sun Rose Again 014 Lindemann - Children Of The Sun 015 Paradise Lost - Return to the Sun 016 Popol Vuh - Morning Sun 017 Spiritual Beggars - Blood Of The Sun 018 Queens Of The Stone Age - My God Is The Sun 019 TREMENTINA - Kisses in your eyes (Almost Reach The Sun ) 020 Voivod - Divine Sun 021 Blues Pills - Little Sun 022 Neurosis - Enemy of the Sun 023 Extol - Behold The Sun 024 Septic Flesh - Infernal Sun 025 Lamb of God - Straight For The Sun 026 Ensemble Economique - Red For The Sun 027 Black Sabbath - Under The Sun 028 Jesu - Opiate Sun 029 Orchid - Into the Sun 030 The Young Gods - Kissing The Sun 031 Iron Maiden - brighter than a thousand suns 032 Swans - I Am the Sun 033 Therion - Son Of The Sun 034 Sun Ra - Sun song 035 Pink Floyd - eclipse 036 Mike Patton - Eclipse Of The Sun 037 Bonnie Tyler - Total eclipse of the heart 038 God Is An Astronaut - First Day Of Sun 039 Elton John - Don’t let the sun go down on me 040 Eddie Fisher - Sunrise, Sunset 041 Hopscotch Songs - The Planets of our Solar System Song 042 Michael Schenker Group - Blood Of The Sun 043 Iron Maiden - total eclipse 044 Solefald - Sun I Call 045 Man or Astro-Man? - Antimatter Man 046 Kreator - when the sun burns 047 Creedence Clearwater Revival - bad moon rising 048 George Harrison - beware the darkness 049 Heretoir - To Follow The Sun 050 Cat Stevens - Moonshadow 051 Hypocrisy - Adjusting the Sun 052 Rush - Between Sun & Moon 053 Manfred Mann - blinded by the light 054 Sevendust - Black Out The Sun 055 Sunbeam Sound Machine - Real Life 056 Bill Withers - Ain’t no sunshine 057  Gwar - They Swallowed the Sun 058 Katatonia - Ghost Of The Sun 059 The Beatles - I’ll follow the sun 060 Sammy Hagar - little eclipse/sunshine 061 Stevie Wonder - you are the sunshine of my life 062 Pink Floyd - fat old sun 063 Sun Ra - Sunology 064 Mystic Sunship - out there 065 Cream - sunshine of my love 066 Diesto - High As The Sun 067 Sunwølf -  SOlar 068 Kyuss - Molten Universe 069 Moonspell - Shadow sun 070 Neurosis - A Sun That Never Sets 071 Therion - An Arrow From The Sun 072 Candlemass - The Killing Of The Sun 073 Xandria - Kill The Sun 074 Morgoth - Drowning Sun 075 Primordial - Wield Lightning to Split the Sun 076 Lake of Tears -When My Sun Comes Down 077 Jackie DeShannon - Where Does The Sun Go 078 Peter Criss - Down With The Sun 079 Walker Brothers - The Sun Ain't Gonna Shine Anymore 080 Devin Townsend - Midnight Sun 081 Sigh - Midnight Sun 082 Black Label Society -  Dark Side of the Sun 083 AMORPHIS - Moon and sun 084 Cynic - Moon Heart Sun Head 085 Sun Ra - Planet Earth 086 David Lynch - Sun Can't Be Seen No More Sarah No More 087 Opeth - Moon Above, Sun Below 088 The Eternal - A Quiet Death of The Sun 089 High On Fire - The Sunless Years 090 The Jimi Hendrix Experience - Third Stone From The Sun 091 Bruce Dickinson - Navigate The Seas of The Sun 092 Voivod - Mercury 093 Melechesh - Of Mercury And Mercury 094 Gustav Holst - Mercury, the Winged Messenger 095 Clutch - Mercury 096 Soilwork - Mercury shadow 097 Satyricon - Mental Mercury 098 Moonspell - Moon in mercury 099 Poisonblack - Mercury Falling 100 Alejandro Jodorowsky, Ronald Frangipane & Don Cherry - Venus (Vond) 101 Boney M - Nightflight to Venus 102 Red Hot Chili Peppers - Subway To Venus Nihal Chahdi 103 The Nefilim - Venus Decomposing 104 Electric Wizard -Venus In Furs 105 Popol Vuh -  Venus Principle 106 Bananarama - Venus Venus Mosquera 107  Apocalyptica -  The Shadow of Venus 108 Archgoat - Sodomator Of The Doomed Venus 109 Ordo Rosarius Equilibrio - Phosphorus Ascending Anthem of Venus 110 Gustav Holst - Venus, the Bringer of Peace 111 Billy Idol - Venus 112 Boyd Rice - Between Venus and Mars 113  Dee D. Jackson - Venus, the goddess of love 114 Therion - Dark Venus Persephone 115 T-Rex - Venus loons 116 Television - Venus 117 Paul McCartney and Wings - Venus and Mars & Rock Show - 118  Theatre of Tragedy - Venus 119 David Bowie - Space oddity 120 The Byrds - Spaceman 121 To-Mera - Earthbound 122 Borknagar -  Inherit the Earth 123 Devin Townsend - Earth 124 William Shatner - Planet Earth 125 Clutch -  Earth Rocker  Jen Rocker 126 DEVO - Planet Earth 127 Misfits - Earth AD 128 Les Baxter - Earth light 129 Louis and Bebe Barron - Come Back to Earth with Me 130 Tristania - Tender Trip on Earth 131  Joseph Arthur & The Lonely Astronauts -  Lonely Astronaut 132 Voivod - Target Earth 133 Samael -  Son of Earth 134 Billy Preston - Space race 135 Alice Cooper - Last Man On Earth 136 Agalloch -  ...and the Great Cold Death of the Earth 137 Deep Purple - space truckin 138 Steve Miller Band  - space cowboy 139 Crowbar -  Liquid Sky And Cold Black Earth 140 Jesu - Mother Earth 141 Devin Townsend - Earth Day 142 Animals as Leaders -  Earth Departure 143 Amorphis -  Enchanted by the Moon 144 Goatsnake -  House of the Moon 145 Elton John - Rocket man 146 Cramps -  Rock On The Moon 147 The Stranglers - Rok It To The Moon (Bonus Track) 148 Frank Sinitra - fly me to the moon 149 Blood Ceremony - Drawing Down the Moon 150 Elvis Presley - flaming star 151 Les Baxter - The other side of the moon 152 In Flames -  Moonshield 153 Ozzy Ozbourne - bark at the moon 154 Fields Of The Nephilim - Moonchild 155 Iron Maiden - Moonchild 156 Blue Oyster Cult - stairway to the stars 157 Voivod -Moonbeam Rider 158 The Black Crowes -Black Moon Creeping 159 Grand Magus - Silver Moon 160 AC DC - next to the moon Craig Norman 161 Manilla Road - fires on Mars James Daniel danke 162 Alejandro Jodorowsky, Ronald Frangipane & Don Cherry - Marz (Esla) 163 Entombed A.D. - Down To Mars To Ride 164 Grateful Daed - dark star 165 Orange Goblin -  Return To Mars 166 Ascension of the Watchers - Mars becoming 167 Styx - come sail away 168 Faith No More - Woodpecker From Mars 169 Kreator -  Mars Mantra 170 The Misfits -  Mars Attacks 171 Gustav Holst - Mars, the Bringer of War 172 Judas Priest - invader 173 Electric Wizard - Priestess Of Mars 174 Queen - Flash Gordon 175 Stone Temple Pilots - First Kiss On Mars 176 Hoodoo Gurus - mars needs guitars 177 War Of The Worlds ~  The Eve of the War 179 Noble Jackals, Penny Dreadfuls and the Systematic Dehumanization of Cool -  Mars Needs Women 180 Alice Cooper - Might As Well Be On Mars 181 Total Recall Jerry Goldsmith - First Dream (Total Recall) 182 Laibach -Mars On River Drina 183 Lantlôs - Neige de Mars 184 The Misfits -  Teenagers From Mars 185 Voivod -  Phobos 186  2001_ A Space Odyssey Theme Song (Also sprach Zarathustra) 187 Covenant -  Planetary black elements 188 Killing Joke -  Asteroid 189 Kyuss - Asteroid 190 Alejandro Jodorowsky, Ronald Frangipane & Don Cherry - Jupiter (Clen) 191 Blues Pills -  Jupiter 192 Samael -  Jupiterian Vibe 193 Earth Wind & Fire - Jupiter 194 Tumbleweed - Jupiter  Aje Morris 195  The Cure - Jupiter Crash 196 Devin Townsend -  Jupiter 197 Gustav Holst - Jupiter, the Bringer of Jollity 198  Celestial Season - Jupiter 199 KATAKLYSM - EMBRACING EUROPA 200 David Bowie - I Took A Trip On a Gemini Spaceship 201 Isao Tomita - Space Fantasy 202 The Misfits -  Lost in Space 203 Gwar - Lust In Space 204 Alejandro Jodorowsky, Ronald Frangipane & Don Cherry - Saturn (Sal) 205 Älgarnas Trädgård - Rings Of Saturn 206 Electric Wizard - Saturn Dethroned 207 Les Baxter - [ Saturday night on saturn 208 While Heaven Wept -  Saturn And Sacrifice 209 Ash Pool -  On The Rings Of Saturn Adam And Eve Conceive Cain 210 Scott Kelly -  Saturn's Eye 211 Gustav Holst - Saturn, the Bringer of Old Age Ximenenes Y. Zeroth 212 Samael -  Born Under Saturn 213 The Devil's Blood -Everlasting Saturnalia 214 Stevie Wonder - Saturn 215 Circle - Saturnus Reality 216  R.E.M. -  Saturn Return 217  The B-52's - There's A Moon In The Sky (Called The Moon) 218  Fu Manchu - Saturn III 219 National Geographic Space Kit - The Eerie Sounds Of Saturn 220  AYREON - To the Solar System 221 Voivod -  Meteor 222 Alejandro Jodorowsky, Ronald Frangipane & Don Cherry - Uranus (Berg) 223  Klaatu- Anus Of Uranus 224 Arcturus -  Kinetic 225 Gustav Holst -  Uranus, the Magician 226  Cathedral - Suicide Asteroid 227  Movie Moment - Contact (First Contact) OST 228 Alejandro Jodorowsky, Ronald Frangipane & Don Cherry - Neptune (Axon) 229 Lisa Gerrard - Neptune 230 Neptune Towers - To Cold Void Desolation 231 Fu Manchu - Neptune's Convoy 232 Altar of Plagues -  Neptune Is Dead 233 Lenny Breau -  Neptune 234 Gustav Holst - Neptune, the Mystic 235  Darkthrone - Neptune Towers. 236 Neptune Sounds - Celestial Love Songs (NASA Voyager Recordings) 237  Jimi Hendrix - Valleys Of Neptune 238 Vista Chino -  Planets 1 & 2 239  DEATH - Vacant Planets 240 Black Sabbath - Planet Caravan 241 ZZ Top -  Planet of Women 242 Alejandro Jodorowsky, Ronald Frangipane & Don Cherry - Pluto (Lute) 243 Alchemist - Brumal - A View From Pluto 244 B 52s - Hallucinating Pluto 245 Charlie Hunter - Astronaut Love Triangle 246 YES - Arriving by UFO 247 Ramones - Zero Zero UFO 248  Jefferson Airplane - Have you seen the saucers 249 saxon - watching the sky 250 Devin Townsend -  Planet smasher 666 Voivod - Moonbeam Rider Hit play: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL-iHPcxymC18LD_V5saMr7QzWS1Q3VAU6

The Chair's Must See Movies 2018

The Chair’s Must See Movies 2018

This is NOT a 10 best list.  Frankly, this year one would be hard pressed to talk about the best, as in:

We’ve got THE BEST MOVIES.

It would sound too much like that doll-haired huckster on TV shouting, with far too much certainty, things like:

I’ve got the best people…

I’ve got the best brain….

I’ve got the best words…

(Note to self:  Whenever someone has been reduced to telling you about their

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BnHA Chapter 039: Deku VS Todoroki 2 - Flashback Boogaloo

Previously on BnHA: Todoroki and Izuku began their one on one! Todoroki blasted ice attacks at Deku and Deku broke up each one with mini One for All finger smashes. Todoroki’s right side slowly froze up, but meanwhile Deku went through all five fingers on his right hand and then proceeded to blow up his entire fucking left arm. You’d think this would have been the end of it, but no, this motherfucker then went and busted out another smash through his already-mangled right hand. Rather than going into shock at this point like a normal person, Deku fucking screamed at Todoroki to use his full power, because apparently he wants to die in the most spectacular way possible. I don’t even know.

Today on BnHA: Everyone just sits back and watches while Deku destroys his own body in his crazed attempts to get Shouto to use his left side. It’s not fun. Then Shouto starts having flashbacks to his horrifying past. This is even less fun. Basically no one is having a good time here. But eventually something in Shouto clicks when Deku yells at him that his power is his own. And then Shouto finally fires up his left side. So that part at least is fun, but the rest of it has me needing some damn blood pressure medication you guys.

(As always, all comments not marked with an ETA are my unspoiled reactions from my first readthrough of this chapter. I’ve read up through chapter 91 now, so any ETAs will reflect that.)

oh my god literally the first panel is a baby Shouto POV of his mom

I don’t know if I’m ready for this chapter guys

“when did I forget what came after that?” oh my god. is it so bad his mind blocked the memory for self-preservation reasons or something

Todoroki is really mad that Deku would suggest something so absurd as him using his full power. I assume Deku is going to tell him something similar to the “you’re not your dad” thing that he already said to Endeavor earlier

seriously Shouto, you can use your full power and still piss your dad off

now he’s really mad and he’s charging right at Deku

that’s maybe not the best plan

meanwhile Bakugou is watching intently and it’s so cute I have to post the panel

you go ahead and take your notes kiddo. you’re gonna need ‘em if you end up having to battle him yourself

now that they’re up close Deku is using the microwave trick again!

BUT HE’S STILL USING HIS RIGHT ARM. WHAT GOOD IS THE MICROWAVE TRICK IF THE ARM’S ALREADY FUCKED UP

PLEASE DON’T PUNCH HIM WITH A CLOSED FIST WITH YOUR BROKEN HAND, I MAY ACTUALLY FAINT OH MY GOD

I HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW DEKU!!!!!!

has Horikoshi ever broken any of his bones?!! COME BACK AND WRITE THIS SCENE AGAIN AFTER YOU’VE BROKEN A BONE, ASSHOLE. COME BACK AND TELL ME THAT HE CAN FUCKING DO THAT AND NOT FALL DOWN SOBBING AFTERWARDS

the only possible explanation I can come up with is that he’s somehow completely hopped up on the adrenaline of it all and isn’t actually feeling the full pain just yet

but he SHOULD be, because that’s the body’s way of telling him, “DON’T FUCKING PUNCH ANYONE WITH THIS HAND YOU COLOSSALLY STUPID FUCK!!!”

anyway, Todoroki is FLYING ACROSS THE RING, but DEKU SHOULD BE FUCKING DEAD AND NOW I’M JUST MAD, DAMN IT

whoever wins this match has to fight either Shiozaki or Iida next, depending on who wins their match (probably Iida). and then after that, either Bakugou or Tokoyami (probably Bakugou). but I don’t know if either of these guys will actually be up for that at this rate

I can’t believe it, but Todoroki actually doesn’t look too good. just use your stupid left side already, Shouto

JESUS CHRIST CAN WE GET AN ACTUAL RESPONSIBLE ADULT OUT HERE??? ANYONE?? AIZAWA????

he’s agreeing with my hypothesis that Deku is so hopped up on adrenaline that he’s not feeling the full pain of what he’s doing to his body. and he’s already done so much damage that it can’t all be fixed in a single healing session. that’s what I’ve been fucking saying

should they stop the match? ABSOLUTELY. will they stop the match?? FUCKING WHAT DO YOU THINK

fucking hell, even Aizawa and All Might are just watching in awed admiration

SUPERHEROES ARE THE FUCKING WORST

Deku’s gonna be in the hospital for a fucking month and ALL OF THIS IS ON YOU SADISTIC FUCKS

ARE YOU NOT ENTERTAIIIIINED

oh my god finally

YOU SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN ABLE TO MAKE A FIST IN THE FIRST PLACE. BUT OKAY. YEESHHH

now he’s... biting... his thumb...

aaand that’s another smash

this is fucking horrifying. I’m not enjoying this at all, not even gonna pretend. it’s just absurd to me at this point that they would let this keep dragging out. I hope this inspires a series of rule changes to future sports festivals to lessen the risk of children doing irreversible damage to their bodies all for the sake of a fucking exhibition match

Shouto asks why Deku is going this far and Deku says he’s “just trying to meet expectations”

All Might you need to sit down with this boy after this and explain where he’s supposed to draw the line in this regard. like, when you did the plus ultra thing? that was for a good cause! sacrificing yourself to save other people’s lives! but he’s just doing it because he has something to prove and it’s the dumbest fucking thing, ugh

sorry guys, I might be bitching about this the entire chapter if this keeps up

“I want to be a smiling, dependable, cool hero!” Deku fucking shrieks

then you might want to step back about twenty feet and take a good long look at what you’re doing so far to accomplish those goals, Deku. because right now, “smiling” and “dependable” are not the words that come to mind

OH MY GOD!!!

BABY SHOUTO WITH NO SCAR!!!

RED ALERT. GOT MY BOX OF TISSUES OUT. ICE CREAM IN THE FREEZER AND ASMR PLAYLIST CUED UP ON YOUTUBE IF I NEED SOMETHING TO CALM ME DOWN AFTER THIS SHIT

Deku says he can’t begin to imagine what Shouto’s experiences have been like or how fierce his determination must be, but...

oh my god more flashbacks oh my god oh my god

(ETA: adding this note a couple years after the fact to warn people reading these recaps for the first time that my initial reaction to the full Shouto backstory was kind of intense. I really blew up at Rei in particular because without getting into any detail, that scene hit close to home for me in regard to some experiences I had while growing up. so I kind of projected a bit without meaning to. anyway, please see here for the “part 2″ version of this post, and fwiw Rei is now one of my favorite characters.)

THIS CHAPTER IS MAKING ME SO FUCKING ANGRY I’M GONNA FUCKING HULK OUT. SHIT. FUCKING SHIT

SHOUTO’S SCREAMING AT DEKU TO SHUT UP AND I FUCKING AGREE. YOU JUST SAID YOURSELF THAT YOU DON’T KNOW THE HALF OF WHAT HE’S BEEN THROUGH AND NOW’S REALLY NOT THE TIME TO START FUCKING PREACHING AT HIM OVER WHETHER OR NOT HE’S SERIOUS ABOUT HIS GOAL

NOW BABY SHOUTO IS HUGGIN’ HIS MOM AND SAYING THAT HE HATES DADDY AND DOESN’T WANT TO BE LIKE HIM

BECAUSE HIS DADDY “BULLIES” HIS MOMMY OH MY GOD

HE KEEPS REPEATING THAT HE DOESN’T WANT TO BE LIKE THAT

WHY DID WE HAVE TO HAVE THIS STUPID FLASHBACK. I WANNA GO HOME

I KNOW IT’S MY FAULT!! I ASKED FOR ANGST!! I KNOW!! I’M SORRY! I NEVER LEARN SOBB

SHOUTO’S MOM IS PATTING HIS HEAD GENTLY

DEKU IS SCREAMING AT SHOUTO AGAIN. STOP SCREAMING AT HIM!!!

BABY SHOUTO IS LOOKING AT THE WINDOW AT SOME KIDS PLAYING

-- THOSE ARE HIS BROTHERS?????!

AND HIS DAD SAYS NOT TO LOOK AT THEM, “THEY BELONG TO A DIFFERENT WORLD THAN YOU”

JESUS CHRIST. DID ENDEAVOR JUST WAKE UP ONE DAY AND DECIDE TO BE THE WORST??? JUST LIKE, THE WORST EVER? SINCE HE COULDN’T BE THE BEST, HE DECIDED TO BE THE WORST?!

LIKE, IF I HAD A GUN WITH TWO BULLETS AND WAS TRAPPED IN A ROOM WITH ENDEAVOR, MINETA, AND THE SKYPE VILLAIN, I WOULD SHOOT ENDEAVOR TWICE AND THEN PISTOL WHIP HIS DYING ASS UNTIL IT STOPPED TWITCHING??

NOW SHOUTO IS WALKING BY THE KITCHEN AND IT LOOKS LIKE HE’S ALREADY CRYING FROM SOMETHING (ABUSE, PROBABLY!!) AND HE’S OVERHEARING HIS MOM TALKING ON THE PHONE AND SHE’S SAYING THAT SHE CAN’T TAKE IT AND SOMETIMES THE LOOKS AT SHOUTO AND HIS LEFT SIDE AND HATES WHAT SHE SEES

WHAT A FUCKING THING FOR YOUR CHILD TO OVERHEAR!! AND I SEE A KETTLE ON THE STOVE! SHOULD I BE PREPARING MYSELF TO PUNCH MY COMPUTER SCREEN

SHE SAYS SHE CAN’T RAISE HIM ANYMORE

HE’S LOOKING UP AT HER WITH WIDE EYES

SHE’S LOOKING AT HIM LIKE... I CAN’T EVEN DESCRIBE IT. I DON’T WANT TO DESCRIBE IT OR POST IT

AND THE NEXT PANEL AFTER THAT IS HIM WITH A BANDAGE OVER HIS LEFT EYE

I HOPE SHE FUCKING WENT TO JAIL FOR FUCKING LIFE. MAN, I DON’T EVEN CARE. I HAVE ALL THE SYMPATHY FOR HER, RIGHT UP UNTIL SHE (A) LEFT HERSELF AND SHOUTO IN THAT SITUATION RATHER THAN TRYING TO REMOVE HIM FROM IT, AND THEN (B) FUCKING MAIMED HER OWN FUCKING CHILD, WHO LITERALLY HAD NO ONE ELSE EXCEPT FOR HER

I HATE THIS!!! I HATE ALL OF THIS!!!! I HATE THAT I AGREE WITH ENDEAVOR’S DECISION! I HATE THAT SHE ENDED UP PAYING FOR HIS GARBAGE BEHAVIOR! AND I HATE THAT SHOUTO IS NOW STUCK WITH HIM ALL ALONE!

AND IT SEEMS LIKE SOMETHING IN SHOUTO JUST SNAPPED FROM THAT POINT ON AND HE BECAME DETERMINED TO DEFY HIM

BACK TO THE FIGHT OMG

DEKU IS GOING FULL SHOUNEN JESUS

OH MY GOD AND IT FLASHES BACK TO BABY SHOUTO AGAIN

AND HE’S WATCHING A VIDEO, AND IT’S AN INTERVIEW WITH FUCKING ALL MIGHT

HE SAYS QUIRKS ARE PASSED FROM PARENT TO CHILD, BUT IT’S NOT JUST THAT AND “ONE MUST RECOGNIZE AND APPRECIATE ONESELF”

FUUUUUUUUUUCK

HE LOOKS SO HAPPY AND RELIEVED AND IT LOOKS LIKE HE HAS THE SAME BABY BOY CRUSH ON ALL MIGHT THAT BABY DEKU HAD

I’M JUST SO MAD AND UPSET THAT THIS WOMAN COULD HURT THIS CHILD, KNOWING FULL WELL HOW DIFFERENT HE WAS FROM HIS FATHER, HOW MUCH HE DIDN’T WANT TO BE LIKE HIM, AND HOW MUCH THE MERE THOUGHT OF IT HURT HIM

OH MY GOD AND NOW PRESENT-DAY TODOROKI LOOKS LIKE HE WANTS TO CRY

PROBABLY WHEN THE SAME WOMAN WHO SHOWED YOU THAT VIDEO LOST HER MIND AND POURED SCALDING WATER ON YOUR FACE

WELP

I just want to press pause for a sec and let you guys know that I’ve been listening to my “fight music” playlist during my readthrough of this chapter, and this scene was absolutely perfectly timed. got to this point RIGHT when I read that panel. I got so fucking fired up lol

so finally Todoroki has gotten over his stupid insistence on not using his left side! yay! I think Deku could have picked a better sort of therapy than this, personally, but hey! anyways, are you happy now dude?

you know what, forget I asked. no one cares about you

I’m just happy for this little guy:

THAT WEIRD SMILE AT THE END I CAN’T I’M FUCKING DEAD. HE LOOKS SO HAPPY AND DORKY

ALSO, WAY TO BLOW ANY CHANCE THAT BAKUGOU OR ANYONE ELSE HAD OF DEFEATING HIM LOL. MIGHT AS WELL JUST WRAP UP THIS COMPETITION NOW

(ETA: well I mean. it would’ve been true if this breakthrough had actually stuck lol)

well, Deku, you did it. you can pass out now

BONUS: 

Kouda’s pure, sweet face is all the ASMR I need after this chapter that fucked up my emotions in every possible way!

gotta tell you guys, I liked his design from the start. but this?

this just seals the deal. he is in fact the best character in the whole series. THIS WHOLE TIME IT WAS KOUDA, who the fuck would have ever thought

random quotes by youtube’s dan and phil .  pt. 1 always feel free to change pronouns!

001.   ❛  hello   ,  internet   .   ❜ 

002.   ❛  it’s in the motherfuckin’ bagging area  !    ❜

003.   ❛  just  .   .   .   just leave   .  ❜

004.   ❛  i’’m about as intimidating as a butterfly  .  ❜

005.   ❛  fight me  ,  you ceramic bitch  .  ❜

006.  ❛   normaliness leads to sadness  .  ❜

007.   ❛   i'm the living embodiment of “it could be worse”  .   ❜

008.   ❛   let’s get the heckity heck out of here  .    ❜

009.   ❛   it’s good to be strange  .  ❜

010.   ❛  voldemort’s pretty fit  ,   to be honest  .  ❜

011.   ❛   i would bang voldemort   .    ❜

012.   ❛   life is so much better when you spend it all online  !  ❜

013.   ❛   you are an independent mind in this universe  .  ❜

014.   ❛   i have no idea what i’m doing with my life  .  ❜

015.   ❛   jesus fuck  .  ❜

016.   ❛   holy mother of rectangles  .    ❜

017.   ❛   ready for satan to fuck me up the ass .  ❜

018.   ❛   does she want to give me the babies  ?  ❜

019.   ❛   i’m just a humble trashcan trying to roll my way through life  .  ❜

020.   ❛   i did not have a best friend for the first eighteen years of my life .  ❜

021.   ❛   motherfucking crocodiles  .  ❜

022.   ❛   why aren’t you in my bed  ?  ❜

023.   ❛   daddy is the best  !  ❜

024.   ❛   stop calling yourself daddy  ,   it’s disturbing  .  ❜

025.   ❛   turns out it’s actually quite nice out there  !  there’s this stuff called trees  .  .  .  and grass  !  ❜

026.   ❛  try throwing a snowball at me now  ,  kid   !  ❜

027.   ❛  i am not posh   ,  i’m just articulate  . ❜

028.   ❛   one day   ,   they’ll be dead  .  ❜

029.   ❛    okay  ,  fine  ,  whatever  ,   i’ll join in  ,  too  .  ❜

030.   ❛   someone peed in the sink once at university  .  ❜

031.   ❛  lookin’ hot  ,  i’d smash that nose  .  ❜

032.   ❛  sand  .  .  .   fuck off  . ❜ 

033.   ❛    it’s so important to know you should be happy and proud of who you are  .  ❜

034.   ❛   what the fuck even is my sexuality  ?  ❜

035.   ❛   i’ve been embarrassing myself since birth  .  ❜

036.   ❛    i’m sure there’s some ladies out there who find you attractive  .  ❜

037.   ❛   turns out my life is just a long series of events where i have made myself look stupid  .  ❜

038.   ❛   can you please get murdered on a different road  ?  ❜

039.   ❛   why are you crying on the floor  ?  ❜

040.   ❛   my innocence has been completely soiled  .  ❜

041.   ❛   lather yourself up  .  ❜

042.   ❛   what’s your favorite beyonce  ?  ❜

043.   ❛   i like to think there’s a baby being born rather than a death  .  ❜ 

044.   ❛   you are better than toast  .  ❜

045.   ❛   would you rather date rebecca black or fall off the moon  ?  ❜

046.   ❛   you should be grateful i saved our lives  .  ❜

047.   ❛   quick  !  say something inspirational  !  ❜

048.   ❛   everyone is beautiful  .  ❜

049.   ❛   good eyes  .  they’re a good shade of brown  .  ❜

050.   ❛   this is the most fun i’ve ever had  .  ❜

WWW Wednesday: November 8th, 2023

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039 -- a scenario in which the league forces Tokasu to kill one of his peers. :3c IM SORRY

oh dear what is lq gonna let kumi get into now | accepting.

“ Ah- Himidora-sama, you got the signal too-? I couldn’t seem to locate anything around here... ”

The internships were...something interesting, alright. She’d been spending hers with her cousin, as she just couldn’t be alone normally. It was mandatory by the rules the detectives had given her. However, she couldn’t just stand by and let something potentially fatal occur- any signal she got could be a cry for help. And so, she ended up separating from Mamoru.

The signal had lead her to a dead end, however. Deep in the bad area of town, one where villains would thrive- but not once did she THINK it could be some sort of trap. One targeting her specifically. 

Then, one of the upperclassmen showed up- naturally, she’d assumed he’d also gotten the signal. However, a feeling of unease settled in her stomach as she saw Tokasu get closer, not saying a w o r d as he backed her into a corner. 

“ ...H-Himidora-sama, a-are you oka- ”

And then, there was a searing heat on her shoulder as she was practically forced against the wall, a warmth v e r y close to her face. She didn’t even realize she’d shut her eyes when she flinched, but now it was very, very obvious considering HER MASK WAS MELTING while still on her face. It was even dripping down by her eyes, meeting her skin with an intense heat- b u r n i n g her face.

She let out a shrill scream as the melting plastic made her skin BUBBLE- ultimately blinding her. She tried to take it off as quick as she could before it could completely melt, only to be met by an even more intense heat. She could literally feel her arm catching F I R E, and her other arm she couldn’t even FEEL with how long his other hand had been on it. He might have burned through her muscles with the time.

“ H-Himidora- S-STOP IT, P L E A S E - ! ! ! ”

Her cries only seemed to get louder and more pathetic as the heat intensified- this time no longer around her face, but around her chest. In front of her heart. The fire spreading across her hero uniform was bad enough, but this was actually scaring her and exhausting too much of her energy. Still somewhat blinded, she had to force herself to turn human as to not slam onto the ground, in a coma right then and there. 

“ St-Stop, p-please- it h u r t s - ”

The stress and panic of it all was actually making her nauseous- she couldn’t feel either of her arms now. She wanted to v o m i t.

That was when she felt something p r e s s against her chest, against the spot right by her heart- and that’s when everything went white. In a second, the flames burned right through her skin, right through her muscle and fat- and made direct contact with her organs. The smell of it was just a w f u l - but she didn’t get to experience it as her heart was literally b u r n e d. 

The tracker in her leg let off a signal the moment the pulse had stopped as she fell limp, getting a shock similar to that of a defibrillator from the tiny device. It was the last ditch attempt to try and keep Scrawl’s target alive- and the moment it hadn’t worked, it’s creator had already sent something to retrieve the body.

Seemingly not even a minute afterwards, a loud growl could be heard above the dead body as the sunlight that could have gone through was blocked. Black, sticky drool dripped down from above as the centipede-like creature circled around the two, mainly taking a focus in the girl- acting as if it were something important. One of it’s eyes shifted to glare RIGHT at Tokasu, and with a sick crack, it- it SPOKE.

“ ＹｏＵ ｈＵＲｔ ｏＵｒ ＳｉＢＬｉＮＧ．ｙＯｕ ａＲｅ Ｅ ｎＥＭｙ. ”

Hesitantly, the creature grabbed the body with it’s own mouth, seemingly resistant to all traces of the heat left on it as it slithered it’s way out of the area, not at all caring about attacking this clear m u r d e r e r. The charred taste made it gag a bit- but that was the least of its worries. It just wanted it’s sister to be better.

All it was sent to do was retrieve a target- not to engage in combat. And it would perform that duty as it’s mother commanded.

Warren Zevon - Warren Zevon

Warren Zevon – Warren Zevon

Cavolo, Warren Zevon… ma perché la gente non lo conosce quasi affatto? Cioè già il nome dovrebbe essere come miele per le mosche: uorrenzivon. È ‘na cosa grande, cazzo! Il suo omonimo album è anche il secondo ed è considerato un secondo inizio, avvenuto all’incirca a 7 anni dal debutto nel mercato discografico dopo l’avventura al Greenwich Village. Per l’occasione Warren prepara l’artiglieria…

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NaPoWriMo 2019 Poem 2: A Reminder

NaPoWriMo 2019 Poem 2: A Reminder

By Daniel Paiz (photo credits to earmilk.com)

If you’re a Hip-Hop fan and you’ve been paying attention to the news, then you know LA rapper Nipsey Hussle was shot outside his own store and later died at the hospital on March 31st. The 33-year old rapper, entrepreneur, community organizer, father, and dope person had been working to create multiple opportunities for people in his community, as…

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They’ll Love Me When I’m Dead!

They’ll Love Me When I’m Dead!

DATELINE: New Orson Welles Documentary

 Three Amigos, More or Less!

If Orson Welles spoke this epitaph, then he was prescient. However, when Peter Bogdanovich reports this at the documentary’s start, his long-time girlfriend Oja Kodar refutes it. They’ll Love Me When I’m Dead is so on target. Alan Cumming narrates among the powerful voices.

Who knows? It is a juicy start to the recent Netflix…

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  Una finestra sul sogno di eternità di Orson Welles

Presentato fuori concorso a Venezia, They’ll love me when I’m dead esce, con la regia di Morgan Neville, proprio in concomitanza all’uscita del film The other side of the moon, l’ultimo lavoro di Orson Welles, di cui racconta interminable making.

Attraverso interviste, immagini di repertorio, spezzoni e le stesse parole di Welles, questo documentario si fa riconoscere subito per il gioiellino che è. Ponendo le premesse per capire la vicenda artistica di Orson Welles, They’ll love me when I’m dead coinvolge anche lo spettatore più inesperto senza dare per scontato nessuna informazione. Dopo un esilio autoinflitto in Europa in seguito alle cocenti delusioni ricevute da Hollywood, il regista fece ritorno in America deciso a dare vita a quello che sarebbe stato un masterpiece, il capolavoro capace di annullare quella che egli definiva la maledizione di Citizen Kane. Per tutta la sua vita eglì subì l’ombra del film che lo consacrò come uno dei più grandi registi di Hollywood ma anche uno dei più dimenticati.

Alla ricerca dunque di un riscatto, mise mano a quello che si prospettò subito come un progetto bizzarro e ambizioso e che lo impegnò con le riprese dal 1970 al 1976 e con continui editing fino alla sua morte, nel 1986. Il documentario di Neville rende giustizia al grande genio di Welles e non manca di fare luce sulla straordinaria determinazione che addirittura portò il regista a mentire allo Scià iraniano pur di raccogliere i fondi per la produzione di The other side of the wind. Quella per i soldi era una vera e proprio ossessione per Orson Welles.

Durante una conferenza stampa, alla domanda su quali fossero i momenti più importanti della sua vita in relazione alla sua produzione artistica, egli non si sottrasse dall’ammettere, con una certa imbarazzata ironia, che di certo ha grande peso sapere di avere il conto in banca pieno. Ma quella di Welles non era avidità quanto dedizione assoluta, come appare benissimo da questo documentario, alla sua visione artistica, alla necessità di superare sè stesso. Autoritario come pochi, Orson Welles pretendeva dalla sua troupe anche l’impossibile e non per questo fu meno amato. Moltissime, infatti, le testimonianze di chi lavorò fianco a fianco con il regista e di quanto quella che era iniziata come uan collaborazione artistica andò a trasformarsi in profonda stima reciproca. John Huston, Peter Bogdanovich sono solo alcuni dei nomi annoverati in questo illuminate ritratto.

The other side of the wind, che oggi è disponibile sulla piattaforma Netflix, è la visionaria ambizione di Welles a raccontare il cinema stesso, il suo amore per la macchina da presa ma soprattutto la sua passione per la narrazione, una narrazione che nella visione dell’artista pone le sue basi sull’improvvisazione, sugli incidenti di scena ma anche sul perfezionismo. Welles girò questa pellicola per 6 anni, spesso senza uno script, disorientando non di rado i suoi attori ma restando fedele alla sua causa, quella di tornare ad Hollywood trionfante.

Guardate They’ll love me when I’m dead se amate Orson Welles, ma guardatelo soprattutto se amate il cinema perchè è nel ritratto della disperata determinazione a realizzare l’opera d’arte che trapela la grandezza di Orson, l’uomo e di Welles, il regista. Guardatelo come guardereste fuori da una finestra che si affaccia su un passato luminosissimo, un po’ in bianco e nero e un po’ a colori.

  REGIA: Morgan Neville

PAESE: USA

DURATA: 98 Min

DISTRIBUZIONE: Netflix

  (Recensione) They’ll love me when I’m dead. Documentario Netflix su Orson Welles Una finestra sul sogno di eternità di Orson Welles Presentato fuori concorso a Venezia, They'll love me when I'm dead…

Entertainment Essentials: November 2, 2018

CREDIT: Focus Features; Netflix; Amazon

Every Friday, NewsCult Entertainment Editor Jeffrey Malone recommends the entertainment essentials of the week – at least three, often more, and usually at least one cinematic and at least one televisual, but it could be ANY combination.

1. Movie: Boy Erased (Limited Theatrically) – Boy Erasedis based on Garrard Conley’s 2016 memoir of the same name about…

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