1/30/24 ;; 12:42 AM ☆
vent.
what are we doing here? no like actually, what the fuck are any of us doing here? what, pray tell, is the fucking point? what is going to stop me from stabbing myself in the fucking throat and bleeding out. no one is awake. no one will know until the morning. what is the fucking point. something is very wrong with my brain right now and the only way i can fuckimg describe it is shrimp emotions. i feel fucking insane. every day is a living hell. i'm just expected to keep living and subjecting myself to the fucking agony that is breathing. and for what? can anyone give me an actual real answer that won't make me fucking scoff or roll my eyes?
like. fucking god. i don't know. i might be dissociating. i had a VOD going and suddenly got an ad for fucking. something or other i don't even know. but i saw this guy talking about how he wanted to give his kids a chance for the future and i thought he was fucking disgusting. i don't know why. he's probably pretty nice in real life. but i looked at him and he made me fucking sick and hearing him talk aboit giving his kids a future made me feel fuckiing sick and i dknt know why
and now im freaking out and i dont know whta to do like how do you just casuallys ay "hey i saw an ad that made me lose my grip on reality and now im thinking aboit killing muself?" like yiu csnt just do that theres no good way to do that without making yourself look like a fucking piece of shit
i wanna try and ct myself again i dknt know . maybe it'll work this time mayne it'll make me feel better. i haven't sropped thinkinf about it since the other day. i dont know i dont mnow i dont know. i miss 🎸 and i kinda miss 👁 honestly at least if 👁 was here he'd be abke to make me focus on how miserable he is instesd of how miserable i am
everyday is a living fucking hell and im trapped in a populace of fucking morons. i m going to tear my fucking hair out. i need to have my fucking teeth knocked out. i need to get stabbed multiple times in the chest and die for a little while possibly forever. whats the fucking point. whats the fucking point. please kill me
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WHY DID HE BOOP HER NOSE WHY!!!!! THE FUCKING NERVE OF THIS GUY!!!!!!!
THATS WHTA IM SAYINGGGGGGGGGG he really thought he could rejoin society and act like nothing changed between him and poppy........ even if you dont think they actually had a thing between them (ik one of the directors said no but are you fucking kidding me. she had a framed photo of him surrounded by hearts that was then replaced with branch) he was still being cute and playful and innocent with her, as if he wasnt responsible for her going grey MONTHS ago! as if he didnt try and get her and everyone she loves, cares about, even knows tangentially killed!
i know i know KIDS SHOW obviously, but as an adult viewer, he reads as (best case scenario) an emotionally manipulative boyfriend who is worming his way back into his exes life until she takes him back. he is slimy, and disgusting, and borderline scary with how well he can play the role of someone harmless and innocent. its so fucked.
anyway i am literally obsessed with croppy im sorry
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Okay, personal thoughts on dragons rising under the cut. Spoilers ahead!
I didn't care too much about Wildfyre going into part 2. she was cool but not really a character I was fully invested in. That is, until her and Kai went on their little quest/mission to get the dragon energy core. They were so Sweet! I loved how Kai had to be the responsible one and how Wildfyre had to learn how to thikn before she acted. They're a really good dynamic and I their relationship growing during this season felt very natrual and good!
Zane! also not one of my favorite characters. But him speaking to a broom with Pixal's photo taped to it got to me okay? I do wonder now where she is.
Mr. Frohicky (idk how to spell things, i've been up all night. give me a break lol) I did Not expect him to return after the crossroads episode back in part 1. He's actually grown on me a lot. It's still kinda weird bc the tone of this show is just a Bit different than previous Ninjago. But it's not bad and I wouldn't hate seeing more of him in the future
Lloyd. God he got so much character develepment this season but especially in part 2! From him trying to do everything on his own to upkeep the Monastary and then finally excepting help, to getting much better at teaching the new ninja. I really loved all the scenes with him an Arin and how their relationship has gone from Arin being a fanboy, to genuine respect and friendship. 10/10
Speaking of Lloyd. What on Earth was all that stuff he saw Again when he acted as the conduit again? I really hope we get more info on those vision in the next season. That's the one big mystery that they havn't really touched on
last lloyd thing, mayeb it's just the angst lover in me, but I really hope there's some kind of conequence to him acting as the conduit. Maybe it starts really draining him or maybe it just makes accessing his power a little harder. I hope they explain it or at least like, mention it.
I'm actually kinda glad they didn't go the whole route of having Nya distrust the Djinn guy who'se name i can't remember lol. It was a nice expectation subversion. Bc my first thought was that he was gonna be evil/ have heard that *she* was the one who tecnically destroyed Djinnjago. I really like that they helped him the way they did and the lesson it taught Sora
Speaking of Sora. I love her. I still fully belive that her power is creation but if it is just 'tech power' i really like how they're handling it. LIke we all Knew it was never Ryu's power she was using but the moment *she* figured that out still felt genuine and deserved because we saw her go through the process of realizing whta was holding her back. 10/10. no notes
Freaking COLE! So him and Lloyd are tied as my favorite charaters bc yee. But holy shit even tho it was 5 am when i got to his episode and i was exhausted. I sat up on the couch and just lost my shit. One, he's still so good at finding people in trouble/captured and deciding he's their protecter. I love him so much. and two. was it just me or was that whole episode so freaking queer coded it isnt funny? Like, even more so than his true potential episode back in S1.
Shipping aside, I really like how on par with his character his episodes were. Even tho they were short and I really crave more about him, they did a good job of leaving just enough questions to keep us interested while also showing us the important parts. Plys the new ability rock monster thing is cool
in that same vein. what the fuck does 'the earth is screaming' mean? hello that shits terrifying? My theory atm is that its' the realms fighting the merge bc it's like unnatural or something. but idk. i would have liked to hear more about that
Zane's car!!!! I own that set and holy fuck it did not dissapoint! At first i was kinda bummed it didn't do Actual spinjitzu, at least I don't think so. But him spinning wildy and saying 'this is adequate' or whatever, is so freaking funny! also it's super fast and looks epic. no notes lol
and Jay! we see him! I'm not really a big jay fan but I am curious what theyr'e gonna do with him next season
and finally, i Really liked all the references to past seasons/events! Even if it wasn't in your face, it was still really nice to be able to see all the pices of the past sprinkled throughout. It was also funny to see Sora being surprised Lloyd is the FSM's grandson. 10/10
If i think of more I'll make another post lol
god i need to re watch the season already
i have SO many thoughts. HOw am i supposed to go to work later and be an adult while ive got these little plastic ninja running through my head at full speed
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