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saoirse-is-studying · 7 years

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16.04.2017

*literally my longest post so far*

so, i have been missing for like 2 weeks , so sorry for that, but i got my reasons.

the Very Important AssignmentTM was due last week and and in the early days heading to the due date, i literally woke up at 6am just to write things down in microsoft word, then go to school at 8am till the guards kick me and my friends out (at 6pm ish). return home just to do the said assignment until 12am.

then, when the due date was approaching closer, i woke up, two or three times each night, because i was that worried. some of my teammates arent contributing enough to the assignment because 1. they dont care, or 2. they dont know what to do... so i had to do most of it.

it got so bad, i woke up at 3am, couldnt fall back to sleep, so i just went to the computer to do the group work.

it goes like this for almost 2 weeks. even on the due date itself, i woke up at 5am and submit the assignment at 11pm because some of them literally started their assignment on the due date itself when we were given like 10 weeks to do them and those ppl underestimated the amount of work (theyre so goddamn lazy, im definitely hexing them). i had to threaten those particular ppl just so they will send me their incomplete work.

it was so heartbreaking... to reread my individual work, and seeing so many mistakes. i remember our tutor said not many people got As for this subject... like only 3 out of 60 students. a lot of my seniors got B’s. looking at my mistakes, i thought to myself, “there goes my chance to even get a B”. yup, i did that bad.

even after this assignment was long done, my body took time to readjust itself to my former sleeping pattern. i kept waking up in the early morning, sometimes at 3 or 4, and forced myself back go back to sleep.

i sleep and sleep and sleep until monday, i got back to school to meet up with friends and we went to watch Beauty and the Beast, which is incredible, and I understand why some of my friends went to watch it more than once. then we ate three different desserts and just enjoyed ourselves. i am so glad for my friends or else i would have been so down.

on tuesday, i went back to school. although there are no classes, i plan 2 do some self study, but i was still sleepy and tired and demotivated and dispirited. so i let myself relax, spent time away from tumblr, away from studyblr and almost anything study-related. i watched spirited away, pinned stuff on pinterest, listened to songs (BatB soundtrack) and danced alone in my room.

some of my friends literally bounced back in 3 days after the assignment and i have zero idea of how they do it. they tried to find internships, or revise for the final examination. i felt terrible looking at them, because i was putting off a lot of things and it made me feel inadequate. because all of them are having the same problem as i have (uncooperative team members) but i seem to be the only one weak enough to be affected by it.

i constantly reminded myself that each individual is special, and we all have our ways of recuperating, and its ok if im progressing a little slower.

now, i finally have the energy to write here and to update u guys about what happened when i was away.

i dont think i can forgive the ppl who barely did anything for the group assignment, but i will learn from this, i cant simply trust anyone when it comes to a group project.

my plan now is to revise to the final exams. even if i cant get A for the assignment, i can try my best for the other subjects. as demotivated i am now, i cannot postpone anything any longer.

thank you so much for reading till the end and all the best if u have anything due.

#100 days of productivity #studyblr #saoirse speaks #long rambling #a lot of grammar errors even tho english is my 1st language but idc

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