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selfaware-bungou-stray-dogs · 1 month

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Congratulations on 1k followers! Your works are amazing, and you deserve it!

Can you do SAGAU, Ranpo (60) with Nahida and Furina (if you don't do both, Nahida is okay)? Plus a child!Reader still recovering from the trauma/abuse prior to the appearance of the BSD cast.

Take care, and keep up your good work!

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Thank you :)

If you were not alone

Part V

Bungou stray dogs character: Self-Aware! Platonic! Ranpo Edogawa

Genshin Impact characters: Platonic! Nahida, Platonic! Furina. Aranaras. Melusines. Small Elynas Cameo.

Reader: Child! GN! Reader

Warning: English is my second language. Mentions of child abuse, terrible parents.

🕵🏻 Vanarana was quiet tonight. Araja was letting you two stay in his house. Ranpo was thinking about past few days, while you was trying to get dome sleep. You were whimpering in your sleep from time to time, so Ranpo gave you head pats, to ease your fear just for a moment. Ranpo let out a growl. This forsaken Teyvat did everything, to break you completely.

When almost a year ago, back in their old world, he and others learned, that you were a child, they were worried, that "their manga" will scare you. Oh, how they wish, that the manga's events would be the scariest thing in your life.

Ranpo had great memory. And he despised every memory about meeting with your "parents".

Ranpo hated, how, in the eyes of neighbors, they were a normal family. How no one would suspect, that they abuse their own flesh and blood.

Ranpo hated, how they couldn't just get rid of your parents, without raising a suspicion. Without having police on their back.

Ranpo still recall, how you looked when you first met. Scared, thin child, who were hiding behind the door, trembling, at the sight of adults arguing.

Ranpo still recall, when your parents asked for a tidy sum, when they realized that he and others are ready to do anything for you.

Ranpo had never seen such rotten people before. They literally traded you like a commodity...

Bless Karma for taking you and other kids outside, so you didn't witness that scene.

But Ranpo especially hated, the words, your "parents" said to them, after Fitzgerald paid and all of them were ready to leave with you.

"Last piece of advice. Don't expect anything from [Y/N]. Your job in making something out of them will a waste of time. Just bashed them with a shovel. Fertilizers are always will be useful."

In a two month they would prove their statement, when Chuuya and Verlaine would use their abilities to bury that "parents" alive.

🕵🏻 For a year Ranpo and others were taking care of you. They loved you, spoiled you, were kind towards you. They found you a therapist and support you. Small step by small step, you start recovering.

And Teyvat threw almost all of you progress away.

Nightmares, fear and tears have returned.

And Ranpo hated, that he can't completely take them away from you.

He wasn't powerful in terms of raw strength. He was genius and had Poe's book. You two can hide, you two can escape.

But this dumb religious fanatics were ruthless. They followed you and followed you two.

Sometimes, Ranpo wished, that Ayatsuji was with you two. Fellow detective was as protective over you, as every one of them, and "Another" would be a very useful in this world.

If wishes were horses...

There is no need in wishing for something.

Ranpo knew, that you need to return home as soon as possible. He must protect your little sibling.

🕵🏻 When you two reached Sumeru, Ranpo almost lost all hope. You two were hunted, and, despite having some helpers (whose help saved your lives), it doesn't change the fact, that powerful of this world hated you. They hated a child, Ranpo's little sibling.

They were trying to KILL a CHILD by the order of ANOTHER CHILD!

Ranpo's thought were interrupted by a jingle. A little sphere, that Nahida gave him, glow. Soon he heard Dendro Archon's voice.

"Ranpo? Is everything alright?"

Ranpo didn't recognize his voice, when he spat.

"[Y/N], before going to bed, asked if I can deduct, why they deserved to suffer."

Nahida wasn't answering for some time. When she spoke, her voice was soft.

"Ranpo... They are trying to find meaning in suffering. I think, for all their live, they heard, that bad things happens to bad people. And they knew, that they are good. So why..."

Nahida didn't finish the sentence. She doesn't need to.

Ranpo was quiet. He pet your head, when you whimpered in your sleep again.

Nahida spoke again.

"I asked Aranaras to help [Y/N] with nightmares... They will enter her dreams any moment now. Before that, let's discuss, what I have learned today about Alice's whereabouts."

🕵🏻 In Sumeru, Ranpo's hope bloomed again. Nahida was really helpful. And, thanks for Aranaras' help, your nightmares disappeared. Maybe, you two could peacefully stay in Sumeru, until Alice's next visit?

Ranpo hopped, that it would be the case.

This hopped disappeared in flames, that destroyed Vanarana.

🕵🏻 Merusea Village reminds you and Ranpo about Vanarana. Place, where some strange creatures lived, who were helping hiding you, and local (former) archon, who was helping them.

Ranpo was really grateful for that. Melusines were guarding you two, making sure, that you two are safe. Ranpo heard, how one melusine mentioned, that "father" also wanted to keep you safe.

Furina wasn't a master fighter, but something in her made you feel less afraid. She console you and bring sweets for you and Ranpo.

🕵🏻 Ranpo and Furina were eating their cakes, while you were playing with melusines. Ranpo can't help, but smile through tears. You looked happy. Furina spoke.

"I am glad, that [Y/N] are happy again. Even for a moment..."

Furina's gaze harden.

"And people are asking why I wish, that this creature on the Ivory Throne just rot away. For "The Holiness" sake, people lose every bit of empathy and mind."

Ranpo nodded.

"When we found a way to our world... Our friends might visit this place again. To have a small "talk" about kindness and kids..."

Furina nodded in return.

"Don't forget to punch someone of the Holy Guard for me."

🕵🏻 In a few days, Neuvillette found you. Dragon was ready to destroy the village. Melusines, he was found of. Furina, whose sacrifice saved Fontaine. Ranpo, who wanted to protect you. And you. A simple child, who already had enough violence in your life.

But, some power hold him down.

You were hiding. You wanted to protect Ranpo, Furina and melusines. You wanted to save Nahida and Aranaras.

You wanted to go home.

Your emotions and powers reached their peak.

And The Great Beast Elynas gave you all his powers, so you could reach Nahida's and Aranaras' prisons.

Portal was open.

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👘🗡️ Fukuzawa expect, that he will find you and Ranpo tied up in some criminals' lair.

Not in their barn, after small earthquake and surrounded by a bunch of vegetable things, faun people, kid with white hair and girl dressed in blue and with a top hat.

🕵🏻 There is a lot of work to do. Nahida, Aranaras, Furina and Melusines heed help adjusting to new world. You need even more support and kindness. But Ranpo wasn't afraid of it. He will help you. He will make sure, that his little sibling will never cry or suffer ever again.

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lnkedmyheart · 8 months

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Bsd misinfo i have seen. Mostly about skk.

Chuuya's bad haircut is cause Verlaine ripped it out in sb and it never grew out. Tiktok.

Asagiri wont make skk canon to respect the authors. Tiktok.

Mori abused Dazai in the panels from 15 manga. Darkestjay. (He didn't he had strapped him down to stop him from hurting himself)

Mori is a pedophile and sa'd Yosano. Twitter. (He didnt, he psychologically and emotionally manipulated her)

Chuuya called Dazai by his first name in the high school au. (he didn't)

Dazai gave Chuuya the choker. (The choker's origins are unknown)

Dazai created beast universe. Lack of reading skills. (He went through existing universes)

Chuuya was partying to Dazai leaving. (Bro was irritated and drank an expensive wine ALONE).

Atsushi was supposed to be a girl and be Aku's love interest. Tiktok. (It was a what if scenario like skk leaving together, the love interest story was made up by fans)

Dazai kissed Sigma underwater. Darkestjay. (He didn't, nor did he buddy breathe cause sigma still doesnt have any air after. He mouthed no)

Sigma is 3. Bro landed in this universe 3 years ago. Its a fucking joke.

Dazai ignored his wounds because Chuuya's were deeper. (Dazai said chuuya's wounds were deeper than Verlaine's)

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yuugen-benni · 7 months

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Port Mafia members and their songs !

ADA version - DOA version - The Flags version

Chuuya: (Arabahaki's reference)

''I can't escape this hell So many times I've tried But I'm still caged inside Somebody get me through this nightmare I can't control myself So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one would ever change this animal I have become'' - Animal I have become by Three Days Grace

Paul Verlaine: (It's funny and sad to think that I chose this song thinking about the story between Rimbaud and Verlaine IRL)

''I'm sorry that I did this The blood is on my hands I stare at my reflection I don't know who I am Practice my confession In case I take the stand I'll say I learned my lesson I'll be a better man'' - If I killed someone for you by Alec Benjamin

Randou Rimbaud: (I would only put songs that are originally in English, but this song suits him a lot)

''And at every step I intertwine anger and reason Disillusionment, you brought it to my hand And it even burned But I'm always wearing a scarf to hide from this cold And a glove on my hand to hide from the cold What does your heart do'' - Cachecol by Kamaitachi

Akutagawa:

''Only care about myself 'Cause everyone's trying to hurt me Just leave me alone Just leave me alone Just leave me alone I just wanna be alone'' - Jealous by Eyedress

Higuchi:

''And I am the idiot with the painted face In the corner, taking up space But when he walks in, I am loved, I am loved'' - Me and My husband by Mitski

Tachihara:

''Bored, stoned, sitting in your basement All alone, cause your little conversations Got around, now look at what we all found out (look at what we, look at what we all found out) You have got a set of loose lips, twisting stories All because you're jealous Now I know exactly what you're all about And this is what you're all about Girl, you're such a backstabber'' - Backstabber by Kesha

Hirotsu:

''Old man, look at my life I'm a lot like you were Old man, look at my life Twenty four and there's so much more Live alone in a paradise That makes me think of two'' - Old man by Neil Young

BONUS:

Ango Sakaguchi: (I just could think about his special ability)

''Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me Then will you remember me in the same way as I remember you? Baby, we built this house on memories Take my picture now, shake it 'til you see it And when your fantasies become your legacy Promise me a place in your house of memories'' - House of memories by Panic! at disco

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spacexseven · 1 year

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Though, imagine if subordinate reader improves their talents as a member of the port mafia out of pure spite (and mostly because they want to be away from Dazai) and got promoted to a executive. I feel like Dazai would be pissed and try to sabotage reader in their missions but I don't know. What do you think?

hi! i was thinking about what if there's people in the port mafia willing to help subordinate darling? like verlaine, koyou...i think they would stand a chance against dazai, no?

okay so i'm combining these asks for a little alternate pathway :> while i doubt darling could become a executive that quickly, i think as long as they become more useful to the pm, they have a chance out ^^

cw: yandere themes, violence, kidnapping

dazai was surprisingly easy to distract.

all it took from your side was a few carefully staged conversations mentioning that you were scheduled to go out of the city with chuuya, just enough to spark the jealous fires that burned fiercely in dazai. and then, dazai—that fool, he didn't even bother to check before going on a furious hunt for the other executive. dazai may find sick satisfaction in constantly calling you stupid, but hiding your strengths was always in your survival plan.

while he was busy chasing a red herring, you got to work. you only had so much time before he caught up with chuuya and realized that you were always on base, after all, and it was vital you used this precious time alone well. thanks to your previous careful observation and planning, you were progressing pretty well. apart from the regular exercise, you found unexpected help from within the pm—koyou, who appeared at random like a guardian angel with softly whispered and valuable advice, the man in the basement, who always seemed amused at your predicament but was more than willing to teach you to take and give a good beating. all of that combined with your sheer resolve and desire for revenge got you very far—not that dazai had a clue.

it was even easier to deceive him, especially when he was so confident that he was always right. to dazai, you would forever appear helpless; a pathetic heap of bones and flesh dumped at his feet to use as he pleased. and you never proved him otherwise, if only because you knew the truth would not please dazai. there was someone else who needed to know about your abilities—someone who could take you away from under dazai's foot. you had long come to terms with the fact that you had to stay in the pm. unless a mysterious organization came to recruit you, or the underground of yokohama collapsed, it would be impossible to leave. but that didn't mean you had to suffer such humiliation the whole time you were there. all you needed was to prove that dazai would only hold you back, and you would be one step closer to freedom.

the moment mori acknowledges your efforts and you're reassigned somewhere else, however, is when you learned how petty dazai could be. it ranged from intentionally setting you up, interfering with your orders from higher up, to even selling you out to your targets—anything he could think of to scare you off this path and back into the familiarity of his shadow. but when your hatred for him ran deeper than your fear, none of his tricks worked. until he finally seemed to lose his patience, and you found yourself tied up painfully with only dazai in the room...

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cloudyyoimiya · 8 months

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Hiiii :)

First of all, it's nice that you are back. I hope you had fun with your friend!

Secondly, I saw your post about wanting more Verlaine requests, so could I please request something for him? Maybe reader comforting him when he gets homesick for France? Headcannons or a scenario prehaps? You can choose if yandere or not.

Take your time and make sure to stay hydrated (it's scorching hot where I am 🥵) and have a great day/night!

i’m sorry i got to this late!! it’s been hot where i live too… i hate the weather here. its horrendous. anyways, thank you for requesting! i had fun writing this <3

A Taste of Home; Paul Verlaine

Format; Headcanons and scenario

Genre; Fluff

Possible warnings; None

Word count; 1123

Little note; Translations are at the bottom :)

Unedited.

Verlaine never thought that he was one to miss France. So many bad things had happened to him in that country, an example of it being his creation. But sometimes when he did think about his somewhat good memories, he would miss the culture of his homeland. He also missed speaking French because learning English was hard enough, but Japanese? He was too proud of admit that he struggled speaking in both languages.

One time you brought up purchasing an expensive bottle of wine from France to Verlaine, but his facial expression alone showed you that he was longing to go back to his homeland. You felt bad that he was unable to travel back to France due to his current situation in the Port Mafia’s basement, so you thought that you’d try to bring his culture back to him.

You looked up how to make French cuisine and French pastries. It was hard at first, but after enough practice while Verlaine wasn’t around, you eventually got the hang of it. Hopefully a taste of home would do him some good.

You also started to learn a little bit of French. Sometimes you could see how he struggled to form sentences that weren’t in his native tongue, so you thought that it would be a pleasant surprise for him to be able to speak comfortably in French.

Though you would have to admit, learning French was hard. The grammar is much different than how it is in English, and the way you pronounce certain letters gave you a little bit of trouble. Honestly, it’s surprising how your boyfriend didn’t hear you cursing late at night because you couldn’t figure out how to say certain words.

By the time you set up your little surprise, you didn’t know how to speak French fluently, but you knew enough to hold up a small conversation.

…

You couldn’t help but be nervous as you finished up the final meal preparations. Recently, Verlaine has been showing signs of missing his homeland, France. For anyone else it would be hard to pick up on these signs because your boyfriend was rather stoic, but for you, it was quite clear to you.

You felt bad that he was unable to travel back to France due to his current situation with the mafia, but there wasn’t much you could do besides having him leave the mafia’s basement for a day or so.

As you were setting up the dinner table, you heard a knock on the door to your apartment. You quickly finished putting down the dining utensils and rushed to the door, straightening out your outfit as you did so. You then opened the door and looked up at Verlaine, offering him a small smile.

“Hello, my dear,” you said as you opened your door fully. “Come in, come in!”

Verlaine gave you a small smile of his own and entered your apartment. He then took out of the bouquet of roses that he was hiding behind his back and offered them to you. “Here, I got these for you.”

“Oh! They’re beautiful!” You exclaimed as you took the bouquet from his hands. You then took a small sniff of the roses and chuckled. “And they smell good too. Thank you, Paul.”

Verlaine simply nodded and he took off his coat. He placed it onto your coat rack then looked down at you, an awkward smile adorned his features. Despite all of the times he had bought you flowers, he was always scared of accidently messing up and getting you flowers you didn’t like.

Your boyfriend cleared his throat then started to speak gently. “I’m glad you like them. Anyways, you said you called me over for a date, right? What exactly will we be doing, chérie?”

“Ah, I just prepared some dinner is all,” you spoke as you went into the kitchen. You set down the roses onto your counter, then pulled out a vase from one of your many cabinets. “I think you’ll like it! I tried pretty hard to make it perfect.”

Verlaine walked behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist, resting his chin onto your shoulder. He silently watched as you prepared the roses of the vase. He was happy that you put so much care into the flowers, oddly enough.

“When was the last time you had coq au vin?” You suddenly asked as you put water into the vase.

Verlaine paused for a little bit, thinking. When he answered, he seemed a little bit unsure. “I’d have to say a few years ago. Why do you ask?”

“I made it for our dinner tonight,” you stated while putting the roses into the vase. You then gently took Verlaine’s arms off of you and walked over to the dining table. “I hope you like it! It took a little bit of trial and error, but I think it tastes good.”

Verlaine followed you and watched as you placed the vase of roses in the center of the dining room table. “You made coq au vin?”

“I did indeed. I noticed how you were starting to miss France, so that was the least I could do since I can’t physically bring you back to France.”

Your boyfriend let out a small chuckle and wrapped his arms around you once more, nuzzling into your neck. He was never one to show affection first, so this act was a pleasant surprise to you. You smiled as you hugged him back, content with the affection that Verlaine was showing.

“Je t'aime,” Verlaine murmured into your neck.

“Je t'aime aussi,” you said before you giggled.

Verlaine looked at you and quirked an eyebrow. “Tu parle Français?”

“Oui, mais seulement un peu,” you said with a smile. “Is my pronunciation okay?”

“It’s good for a beginner,” Verlaine chuckled. “Did you really do all of this for me? I find that hard to believe, chérie.”

“I really did do this all for you… I knew it’s not all that much, but it’s the thought that counts, right?”

“The thought very much counts,” Verlaine spoke as he kissed your cheek. “You’re adorable, chérie. Thank you.”

“Don’t mention it. Just think of it as showing you how much I love you.”

Verlaine nodded and stopped hugging you with a genuine smile on his face. “Then I shall think of it that way.”

“Good! Now, the food might be getting cold. C’mon, let’s go eat before I have to go throw it in the microwave to reheat it,” you giggled.

“Alright, alright. Let’s go eat then.” Verlaine gave you another kiss, but this time on your lips. “I love you, my dear. Thank you again for doing all of this for me.”

Translations;

Chérie—Dear

Je t’aime (aussi)—I love you (too)

Tu parle Français?—You speak French?

Oui, mais seulement un peu—Yes, but only a little

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tiredlilguy · 3 months

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hiiiiiii :)

I hope you’re doing well, and don’t have too much stress right now <3

Do you know those little, heart-shaped charms for necklaces, where you can put a photo inside? Could I please request (whatever format you’re comfortable with) getting one of those, with Verlaine? I’m not sure if you write for multiple characters, but if you do, could I add pianomann or Lippmann? Anyway, take your time

bye!

a/n: hello! i apologize that this took so long ;;w;; as you can see, i'm on hiatus, as well as dealing with other stuff from college- thank you so much for ur patience! i hope you enjoy! :DDD (also this request is fucking adorable- i had to do it first AS;DLKFJ;ALSDKFJ)

pairing: Verlaine, Pianoman, Lippmann X GN!Reader (separately) cw: a little sad in Verlaine's, half-proofread desc: you gifted your partner a heart locket with a photo of you inside.

Verlaine:

Receives the necklace pre-SB

It wasn’t originally his idea to wear a piece of jewelry like a necklace in the first place, let alone one that had a picture of you in it

Of course, he was fond of you, but his mind never crossed physically carrying or wearing something that reminded him of you (it was partially for your own safety as well, as he didn’t want to burden you with the consequences of being close with an assassin)

At first, he grimaced at the necklace when you handed it to him, until you opened up the locket, revealing a small image of you (to which he let out a soft sigh, dropping his expression, before placing it in his pocket)

You honestly thought he just never wore it at all, as you recall his reaction to the hat that Rimbaud gave him, but unbeknownst to you, he kept it in his pocket for a while until he eventually chose to put it on one day because it kept slipping out

He wears it underneath his clothes, so you definitely can’t tell if he’s wearing it or not (he doesn’t take it off because he loves you he doesn’t like the sensation of the cold metal after taking it off/putting it on)

Didn’t really appreciate the gift, and just wore it on him, until one day, he stripped off to shower himself in the PM basement and heard a rattling coming from his neck

He looked down, fingers gently brushing over the locket that laid over his heart

His eyes traveled towards it as he opened it, staring at the small image of you smiling with a faint blush on your cheeks

He closes the locket with a soft sigh, similar to one he’d give you whenever you showed him a romantic gesture

Now he finds himself wondering if you’re going to come back for him (or if he’ll find himself coming back to you)

Pianoman:

Gifted you a locket before you gave him one: snuck up behind you and placed the locket around your neck before fastening it and placing a kiss on your hair

it was his idea to make a locket for you with a picture of him, so he was happy to see you reciprocate the gesture with the same gift

Upon receiving it, he still had the same gentle smile, but with a sparkle in his eyes as he looked at the gift, reaching for your hand and leaving a kiss on the back of it

“ Thank you, my sweet.”

Threaded the chain of the locket to a small loop on the inside of his vest’s left chest pocket (so that it’s closer to his heart); neatly tucked in the pocket so that it doesn’t fall out

When he’s alone, he’ll open up the locket to look at the small picture of you; it leaves a small smile on his face as he continues to do his work diligently (in short: he has a “this is who I’m doing it for” moment)

The necklace is a little stained by how often he touches it; will brush his fingers over the metal when he’s about to go on a mission/goes into work

He doesn’t give me the vibe that he kisses the locket, but he definitely likes to feel it beneath his bare fingers (he will take off his gloves to feel the metal, it calms him down)

At the end of work, he takes it out of his vest and usually puts it on a tray by his nightstand, but sometimes you’ll find him holding it in his hand as he’s falling asleep

His heart flutters whenever he notices you fidgeting with the locket he gave you

Lippmann:

since this man is EVERYWHERE, literally running around doing work from place to place you decided to gift him something that reminded him of you

He happily accepted the gift with a gentle smile and placed it around his neck

“ Does it look good on me, darling?” You nod. “ Good, now I’ll be able to take you with me everywhere.”

I was going to say that he carries it in a pocket or something, but similar to Verlaine, he wears it underneath his clothes, making sure that it’s close to his chest

Doesn’t take it off unless he absolutely needs to, and when he does, he places it back in it’s box, making sure it’s tucked safely away

If someone happens to spot the necklace that he’s wearing (say a costume assistant/one of the flags) he’s such a bragger-

“ Oh this? My darling gave it to me. The locket has such a beautiful picture or them. Aren’t they so sweet? Gifting me such a lovely reminder of them.”

[insert romantic sigh from Lippmann, and Chuuya rolling his eyes and silently gagging]

He does not shut up about it and you- he loves you too much

Before every mission, performance, meeting, etc. he’ll pull out the locket, placing a soft kiss on the metal before tucking it back under his shirt

If he has some down time and is reading a book, if he’s not with you, his hand will pull out the necklace from his neck and wrap it around his fingers as he often holds your hand as he reads with his other hand

[thanks for reading until the end! thank you to anon for requesting once again >:D i'm still on hiatus, but i'm writing little by little when i find the motivation- if you'd like to support me further, feel free to leave a tip on my kofi or send me a comm! <3]

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verlaines-corner-archive · 1 year

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Verlaine. Verlaines arms. Just. Arms. His. I want him to choke me , I want to claw at his forearms and see them bleed. See the muscles flex as he uses his ability or punches smth, bite into it.

Pull off his gloves and kiss his fingers , he wants to pull away, he killed so many with those hands , he thinks you shouldn't touch smth so. Vile , but they're soft with how he takes care of them. Holding pinkies with him when you see him zone out in public, bad thoughts again. Just ground him with the smallest touch. Feel hid arms wrap around you whole in a hug , hold you tight , as if you were going to leave. Are they hot, are they cold to touch, bigger than yours or more slender?

Thoughts?

First of all:

☆ Verlaine’s arms are so fucking strong I just know it. Despite his build Paul is an absolute powerhouse of physical strength and his arms absolutely reflect that. Big and you can see the way his muscles move whenever he does anything and god he could probably lift you up with one hand even without his ability. And he is such a cunt about it all too, especially during sex. He’s using his strength to his advantage to hold you down or maybe yeah choke you (though he’s a little hesitant to do this, especially at first).

☆ On a more tender note however, he is incredibly gentle when touching you in general. Paul is all too aware of just how dangerous he is, how a singular touch from him could kill you within seconds, and though he's all but mastered his ability I think there is a constant hesitation in every single touch, a fear of accidently loosing control [not that he would, of course, but Paul is anything if not full of self doubt].

☆ Which is also very worth mentioning, by the by. While Verlaine has a very odd relationship with pride [to put it politely] and he firmly believes that his touch taints you. Not because he's an assassin or killer, but because he simply isn't human. Lines of code don't deserve such gentle touches and he fails to believe he could give them either. He's, as you said, vile, wholly undeserving and incapable of either giving or receiving love.

☆ Which is very very wrong, of course, but the process to showing him that requires a lot of patience. Hand kisses [or hand touches in general] are an excellent way to start though. Like you said they're grounding, tethering him to the moment and reminding him that there is someone who cares for him.

☆ Verlaine is constantly alone I think, there's really no changing this, no getting rid of the isolation that comes with being, well, a program, but your touches help lessen it. Feeling your fingers on his, seeing the way you kiss the small scars littering his hands, the way you reach out for him almost unthinkingly while walking together, it all builds up over time and it results in a feeling of almost peace. There'll always the an urge to pull away, but it becomes miniscule over time.

☆ Paul's love of you starts to cause him to love himself, because if you can touch him with such gentleness and fondness then maybe there really is something there worth it all, and it manifests in his touch first. No longer hesitant, he places his hands on your body with confidence and reverence and with enough time it leads to him fully accepting your own affections too. Paul simply has to learn to properly give before that can happen, but your touch and love inspires him to - at the very least - try.

☆ Appearance wise, Verlaine's hands look strong, sturdy. Never seen shaking or anything like that, they move with purpose and grace, elegant like a bowstring and just as strong. His hands are veiny and rather big, though slightly slender in shape. Paul's fingers are long and skilled, with filed down nails and he often wears clear nail polish. There are also undoubtably several scars on them too, though for the most part they're very small, with the most notable one being a scar that goes from between his ring/middle finger and down the back of his hand, extending to his elbow. Other features worth mentioning are a mole on his right wrist and small burn scare on his right pointer finger [he says it's from something cool but he accidently touch the kettle while it was boiling]. Temperature wise his hands are very warm and nice.

#✧ library shelves ✧#darling noodles ♡#happy bday again verlaine hehe #bsd #bsd x reader #bungo stray dogs x reader #bungo stray dogs #verlaine x reader #bsd verlaine #paul verlaine

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snailsgoingdowntown · 11 months

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Tw: toxic relationships, paranoia, implied murder, obsessive/possessive thoughts/behaviors, blood.

Bsd port mafia (- Mori, - verlaine, - kouyou, - Q, etc)

MINORS AND AGELESS BLOGS DNI

This blogs interacts with/contains/creates dark content, Dni if you are uncomfortable with that.

Gin is the only one with decent decisions in this ngl.

Chuuya is paranoid, not knowing if it's okay to trust you. He's constantly on the look out, hand on your waist, grip almost a little too tight, eyes roaming everywhere to make sure no one from work sees him. Sees the two of you. It's frustrating for you, the details about his job so vague, so out of focus whenever he's with you. You would be fine with that, but you're not, not when he dances around the subject, buying your affections with gifts rather than quality time together. It's almost funny, how he thinks money can make up for a week of silence, unable to tell if it really was a business meeting or an affair. He wants your trust, and you give it to him, but trying to earn his is tedious, especially when he gulps and looks away, turning to look at you again, a shaky smile on his face. You've never seen that temper of his before, not until you happen to be at the wrong place at the wrong time, gun pulled out and blood splattered, that you blocked his number and changed yours.

Akutagawa is obsessive and clueless. He wants to own you, control is something he just needs to have. He resents you, cursing you for making him fall harder than the stars, and you try to understand this, with every sweet smile you give him and as much space he needs. You listen, you stay, you give him time to sort everything out. But it gets harder and harder, his affections cold and harsh, only able to insult you lightly, but it hurts regardless. Akutagawa is aware of it, but doesn't quite understand, and he tries, but it's all in vain, with that temper of his and how clueless he is with relationships, unable to keep a balanced and healthy one with you, seeing you as something to own rather than to date. So, he tries his best not to give chase when you finally snap and leave him alone in the alleyway.

Tachihara is confused and torn. He's not sure which 'version' of him he should show you, or if he would be capable of keeping a relationship. Your relationship starts out normally enough, but when he keeps disappearing and reappearing with an apology on his lips every few days. It gets harder and harder to trust him, cooking meals for two only for one to be there, and the more timid his nature gets, the harder your suspicions get. It's only when you come across him half dead in front of your door that you finally say goodbye, patching him up for the first and last time.

Gin is... Secretive. She's silent and elegant, graceful with her movements. She doesn't cause trouble, nor does she start arguments. Quality time is her service, and you can't help but swoon over her. However, it gets worrism when she doesn't talk at all, avoiding anything that could lead to an argument. Her job? No answer. Her hobbies? Barely any. Can you meet her brother? She stays silent, saying no after a pause, and doesn't elaborate further. It comes to a surprise when she's the one who breaks it off, unable to keep secrets any longer, and it's a mutual agreement to never meet again, and to keep lips shut.

Higuchi is a failure with relationships, too obsessive even. She clings on like you're her life support, fussing over you and sometimes barely leaving you alone. She blows your phone up with text messages and voice mails, only to go completely silent for the following days. It worries you, it annoys you, and you're left to ponder if you should end it all right then and there. She shows up at your doorstep, out of breath, and you let her in. The cycle repeats, and when she finally starts to calm down with her antics, that's when you end it, bloodied clothes spawn across her room. She doesn't give chase.

Joke(ster):

The lemon guy is too crazy to even call a friend, so thus you leave him alone. It's for the best once the lemon bombs drop in the empty parking lot for shit and giggles (kajii)

#bsd #chuuya reader #gin akutagawa #motojirou kajii #tachihara michizou #bsd akutagawa #yandere bsd #bsd x reader #chuuya nakahara #chuuya x reader #akutagawa bsd #akutagawa x reader #higuchi ichiyo

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the-last-f2p · 3 months

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Yandere Kunikida domino effect

Hey guys :P This is silly but

TW: Obsessiveness, kidnapping

Kunikida is the type of yandere to plan every single aspect of your and his life together like if Dazai looks a bit too forward in his schedule he'll see creepy shit like me and Y/N get married TヘT And then after throwing Dazai in the mix, he would totally bully Kunikida for it. Dazai can't just be like call the police he ,despite me also mischacterising him sometimes as the skrunkly, is mentally fucked. So he just decides to pretend to be attachted to you. But of course it back fires and now he can't go two seconds without you So obviously Atsushi is going to get invovled since that's his mentor lol. And he's just trying his hardest to get Dazai to focus on anything that isn't you. I mean he was aware Dazai was doing it as a way to annoy Kunikida but now.. Atsushi's not so so sure. And then Akutagawa see's Dazai clinging onto you with the "If you leave me I will kill myself" mentality and immediatly thinks okay Dazai-san likes this person so if I study them for every waking he'll like me. Thus Akutagawa starts stalking you. Atsushi and Higuchi soon follow Akutagawa's footstep as well. Chuuya soon meets you as he thought Dazai was alone and came to fight him and he thinks it's love at first sight so now he's started the 'Make Y/N join the port mafia' movement. And Gin joins solely to see why Akutagawa is making a huge fuss about you. She see's after a couple of weeks and is now fully commited to the movement . Tachihara is confused to say the least but he won't even think about you for a little while. And you know what? Fuck it. Throw Verlaine in the mix he comes out of hiding and joins the MYJTPF (Make Y/N join the port mafia). Now we circle back to the ADA where fights between Kunikida and Dazai have broke out and now there are two sides. A) Dazai should back off Kunikida Kenji Katai Yosano B) Kunikida should back off Dazai Atsushi Kyouka Junichiro and Naomi Ranpo and Fukuzawa remain indifferent. Ranpo deduced that none of them have a healthly liking to you long ago anyway. Kyouka and Kenji are so confused. Why is everyone fighting over this? I guess I'll go on this side because my friends are agreeing with this dude. But after two hours hiding in the break room with you while Kunikida is ripping Dazai apart they're both like parent? Paarent.. And Kenji moves to team B because fun dad over strict. Even if Kyouka and Kenji are your biggest supporters you're kind of limited to what you can talk to them about because y'know child so you start to confide in Yosano and BOOM yandere. Don't ask how there's still things I'm figuring out. Most of the ADA -Katai and Ranpo are yandere. Mori is now sat there wondering where the hell did all my employees go. As soon as they figure out you're the root of the problem but not really but technically no victim blaming here guys. Mori decides to just kidnap you and use you as leverage for Dazai re-joining the mafia

Distingushied readers, this is the phenomanon that I shall call the Yandere Kunkida domino effect.

#does this count as a brainrot? Cause it's long enough to be a fic lol #yandere bsd #yandere #yandex #yande.re

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plinko-mori · 8 months

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why do you hate dazai?

I was waiting for this ask (thank you so much) and before it some things you must know before reading my reasons:

I kin both Mori AND Kunikida so the reasons will be more personal than logical

I hate the character, not the fans

I don't hate the fans until they start acting toxic and sending death threats just because I don't have the same taste of them

I understand Mori's character, not Dazai's character... They are similar, not the same so I don't have all the answers and explanations of Dazai's attitude, so if you say something like "You don't understand Dazai that's why you are saying those thing" is completely understandable, but that doesn't stop me to dislike him a lot

My intention is not for everybody to hate Dazai. You can still live and love him, I don't mind, I don't care if you do or not that will not make me think bad things of people or something

And now some of the reasons that maybe later I will add more!

1) His childish and irresponsibility behavior I personally find it extremely annoying

2) His bad behavior towards Ryonosuke Akutagawa after he (Dazai) left the Mafia [the call scene were he tricks Akutagawa, breaking his heart metaphorically speaking, because I can't say a lot about PM Dazai lol]

3) Beast Dazai (the same canon Dazai, but the one who chose to act) sacrificed the whole Port Mafia for Oda, leaving the Port Mafia alone, as garbage, probably in that world PM will disappear or be extremely chaotic just because of him

4) Treating Chuuya as garbage and "playing" with Chuuya's self-esteem by doing all those comments and insults

5) Insulting Chuuya's clothes, hair and motorcycle: Influence of his big brother Verlaine that made him know more of his past + the motorcycle was from a dear friend that died in front of him

6) Letting The Flags die on purpose knowing he could stop Verlaine in other ways + he only did it to hurt Chuuya

7) How he annoys Kunikida and fucking tortures him psychologically speaking

8) Dazai is canonically evil and would do horrible things, Mori tried to give him a lesson about doing those horrible things but ignoring completely his emotions... And Dazai betrayed Mori, stabbed him emotionally on the back and left

9) He was extremely bad to Verlaine

10) How he made Ango had an accident and sent him to the hospital

11) Teaming up with Fyodor and do evil things together almost destroying the world kinda?

12) How he annoys and "plays" with Sigma

13) I feel bad about Yumeno (Q) being locked up-

14) He didn't let Mori help him or save him

15) He is and was always a BULLY

16) His dialogue in Stormbringer that he had with Hirotsu (this is a translation from a Spanish version I read): "I want to see Chuuya suffer like a human" like that's his motivation????

17) Like Mori, he reminds me of my younger me

#bsd dazai #bsd mori #plinko mori #bsd stormbringer #bsd stormbringer spoilers #bsd mori kinnie #plinko mori asks

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ivoryratdoggerythethird · 3 months

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hot take (? maybe? i don't fully know what the general stance is on this) but i don't think chuuya would've left the mafia with dazai

not because their bond is shallow (sike, fyodor) but because i think chuuya found his grip in the mafia by the time the dark era rolls around. he entered the mafia because of dazai yeah but they both have lives outside of each other still. after everything that happens in fifteen, koyou being in the mafia, and also just chuuya's unwavering loyalty - which he swore to mori, however unfortunately but it's still the truth - i think he would've let dazai go alone.

but there's that other thing though; his bond with dazai. his very significant bond with dazai. that's why i think he would've let dazai go; as long as dazai isn't leaving because of something he did, or plotting to like, burn the mafia down, i don't think he would've been particularly bothered beyond the 'dealing with traitors' business but honestly lets be real if you're important enough in the mafia, being a traitor or threat or enemy means jackshit (tachihara, verlaine, chuuya, even dazai is literally invited back by mori lmao).

i can see chuuya just tsk-ing and waving him off like "you probably have an escape route planned so i'm not even gonna bother pursuing you, won't give you the satisfaction of dying quickly either, you do you bastard, imma go celebrate with wine now, don't die i'm still gonna kill you someday, see ya." or like. you know. some rough approximation of that.

i think if dazai actually told him, considering what i know of his character thus far, chuuya would've helped him leave or, at least, rolled his eyes and looked the other way and do essentially a scripted song and dance of hunting him down with everyone, including mori, knowing full well that a) dazai won't be found unless he doesn't want to be, and b) the only person remotely capable of finding him would just punch him in the face then let him go again

skk would probably just keep up their usual bickering nonsense via randomly breaking into each others places (i.e. dazai because he's now broke and chuuya exclusively breathes designer air) and even if they don't interact for long periods, they would easily slide back into their dynamics whenever they do, as it is in canon except they'd likely manage to be even more in-tune and annoying with each other.

(also the ADA would know about the mysterious rich redhead whose number is listed as "dazai's dog" to call up when dazai is up to his shenanigans so he can come over and kick discipline into him. guessing who the hell he is another one of their mysteries and they know it ties in with dazai's old job, just not how. ranpo cackles everytime he shows up. he and kunikida meet up for lunch to bitch about dazai.)

tl;dr, imo skk could've been skk for the missing four years with chuuya still being an executive and dazai stiill being a detective if only mister cyclops there chose communication over blowing a car up, because i do believe chuuya would've let everything play out the same as in canon except he and dazai wouldn't be cut off the whole time

#first bsd post waw and it's absurdly long as usual #my post #the sigma show #soukoku #dazai osamu #nakahara chuuya #bungou stray dogs #i fully respect and love the “skk pack up their shit and fuck off to the agency together flipping mori off over their shoulders” but #from what i know about stormbringer as well (which i will read soom hopefully even though i've been spoiled to hell)#chuuya suffered so much and finally found a place for himself in the mafia #even when verlaine tried to take him away and all the friends he lost #feels sort of like a “what was it all for if he just leaves?” kinda deal #maybe my opinion will change if i read stormbringer myself idk maybe he fr doesn't want to be in the mafia #we shall see i suppose #i think he'd rather keep the respect he earned in the mafia and stay loyal to his boss #but also loyal to his partner; just not as obviously #they're double black they'd make it work #ANYWYAY i just love chuuya and want him to be happy #with his fancy wine and clothes and relationship with both koyou and his mackerel

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pinkisacreativecolour · 15 days

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Okay okay okay. This post is going to be mentioning so much murder and death and also a lil bit of existential horror and just plain old horror but yk. With the concept I’m about to speak into this world it’s bound to happen. It’s also crack taken seriously. So. High school au.

Tha basic facts:

Chuuya lives with Verlaine

The Flags and Chuuya are friends and have been for a year

Dazai got taken from Mori’s care when the old boss died so he’s in a foster home with atsushi rn. They live with the Izumi’s.

Oda’s with Fukuzawa. Ranpo and Yasano too.

The Ada are a detective group outside of school. It’s literally just made of high schoolers and middle schoolers. They are the best in Yokohama. The people think the police are a joke.

. The flags are a youth club that Pianoman managed to establish with the old principle. They do basically whatever they want with the promise of doing shit for the school when they graduate. The old fuck dies (murdered by Mori), and when said worlds worst high-school doctor takes over, he tries to disband the club after they couldn’t get Chuuya to start living on campus. Verlaine said no. Mori wants to make Verlaine , + Chuuya when he graduates, work for him.

The flags aren’t really sure what to do and Chuuya can’t move onto campus without permission and so. They decide to try and summon the spirit of the old principle to get him to tell Mori to leave them alone without him realising it was them. Chuuya says it’s a stupid idea. Albatross says it’ll be fine. What’s the worst that can happen?

Instead they manage to summon the ancient horror Arahabaki.

A lotttttt of psychedelic shit happens. Arahabaki wants at least one soul in exchange for the other’s freedom. Chuuya sacrifices himself and the rest of the flags are left reeling. Albatross yells at the Ancient horror god that there has to be something they can do to get their friend back.

Arahabaki says it wants 100 souls in exchange for Chuuya’s. In thirty days. The flags have to kill them all before delivering the bodies to Arahabaki as proof.

… what the fuck.

Arahabaki: this town is too peaceful. I want chaos. And souls. And blood.

So now. A group of 17-19 year olds have to try and kill 100 people in 30 days without getting caught. With an ancient horror haunting them with their currently dead friend’s body and voice. One of them has to tell Verlaine. And Adam. No one wants to tell Dazai. Exams are in exactly 36 days.

I call it How to Kill 100 people in 30 days. The title font looks like a romcom

#cjs rambling #bsd #bsd the flags #bsd flags #bsd chuuya #bsd verlaine #bsd dazai #murder mention tw #death mention #how to kill 100 people in 30 days #long post

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alana93mugi · 4 months

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Akutagawa Gin like chuuya-san, he took her brother under his wing when dazai-san left them, he will bring her either lemon water or natural water with a towel and a bento box rich in proteine when he went to visit Verlaine-shishō while he was training her , he would share music with them and would make them foods and invite them to eat at her home with higuchi he was accomplice in her project to have her brother eat more and he wouldn't hesitate to use his executive privilege.

While he could be grumpy about it and trie to hide it , he care about them both but he isn't overwhelming about it .

She was also grateful for dazai-san and while she didn't dislike him and if asked could even admit to liking him but unlike chuuya-san, she can't say that she approved of him , a part of her have never forgiven him how he treated her brother, even if like chuuya-san say he had his reason for that but this was her brother the most important person in her life and she had to learn how to treat his wound because he refused to see a doctor for the wound that dazai-san make him , even if it wasn't good for his already weakened health because he refused to have dazai-san learn about what he called his weakness.

Her brother idoloze him but still even after he left to join the " light" leaving behind the ones that he brought into the " dark" he still Haven't apologized to her brother.

The worst in all that is that he's her brother first love not that he ever stopped liking him , a part of him would always love dazai-san no matter what but he started to move on with chuuya-san both found love and healing with each others.

She was so happy for her brother for both of them really , the two of them were close but none of them crossed the line then dazai-san came back and it was like he never left.

She said nothing, she only watched and bid her time, she didn't know how to though about shin soukoku at first especially because her brother was hurt because of the difference in how dazai-san treat them which she doesn't like but she was grateful for how he helped her brother who was doing better thanks to him ( and a part of her was grateful for how he helped kyouka.)

But while she patiently waited for dazai-san to make a move on chuuya-san ( or on anyone else, she always noticed his chemistry with chuuya-san like her brother he was his first love and she though that dazai-san loved him back but she could be wrong) but when he never did , she decided to make her move but what really convinced her was the event with the decay of the angel her brother she nearly lost her brother at least he and tachihara we're healed which she was thankful for brams -san and the agency doctor but it make her realize even more how precious time was .

It's why with help from others like kouyou-san and Verlaine-shishō she tried to set them up they are happy together and It's good for them both , she's really glad but dazai-san quickly caught on which didn't surprise her he have always been possessive of chuuya-san,but she realized while he desperately tried to stop this budding romance, that it wasn't just childish possessiveness, he was truly in love with chuuya-san.

When her brother realized it too she knew that he expected chuuya-san to take him back and that he would be left alone by the two peoples that he ever loved but to everyone surprise chuuya-san make it clear that he won't ever leave her brother, it was either he try with him or he won't have him.

While she can't say that she's happy about this development, she could see how happy her brother is to finally have a chance with dazai-san and dazai-san really try his hardest to make it up to her brother, she helped them make research on polyamory and she can see that this new relationship make all of them happy.

And she love the opportunity to take photos of this trio while they cuddle together, she let out a soft smile, eyes bright, she's really proud of her brother

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silverbladexyz · 1 year

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Hi! I just had this random thought because I have been simping over 16! Chuuya (it’s the ponytail) I know you’ve been asking for Flags request, but like, what if, and hear me out, the reader is a part of the flags before him and ends up being the one that brings Chu into the group or requests that Mori assigns him to it (I haven’t read Stormbringer, just seen spoilers which I don’t mind so I don’t know how Chuuya ends up with them) but when he finds the Flags all dead, the reader is also exposed to the deaths of the others since they didn’t show up in time for Verlaine to kill them as well and over the little time Chuuya had with the flags, he quickly fell in love with the reader and they end up being there for Chu whenever he needs it (since we all know being around Dazai, Verlaine, and Mori got exhausting after a while) so eventually the two fall for each other, but the reader ends up being killed during the Dragonhead Conflict by Shibusawa when they have off because their ability is a tad bit strong. It’s called the Core of Reality and it allows the reader to alter any aspect of reality they know about except death. Once someone dies, the reader can’t use their ability to revive them.

Idk why but I’m just feeling Chuuya angst today. If you don’t want to write this, go ahead and discard it. Your health and wellbeing comes first after all, especially during these times of illness and frigid cold.

My poor boy Chuuya... you're a genius for coming up with this idea.

The image does not belong to me. It belongs to it's original owner.

TW: Death, blood, angst. Stormbringer and Dead Apple spoilers below. I tried my best with this songfic.

No time to die

"And this is Nakahara Chuuya. From today onwards, he is now a member of the Flags."

You looked curiously at the boy standing behind Pianoman. He was of short stature, with ginger hair and blue eyes and a slightly temperamental look on his face. He looked to be around your age; if not, slightly older. You had approached him first.

“So you’re Nakahara Chuuya... I’m Y/N L/N. Welcome to our group!”

I should've known

I'd leave alone

A year had passed when Chuuya had joined the Flags. His easily-angered personality had made him the target of Albatross’s teases, yet he still managed to get along well with everybody. His temper had slightly put you off at the start, but over time, you came to see that he wasn’t that bad of a person you thought him to be.

While you still weren’t that big of a fan of his mood-swings (as you called them), with your calm and caring nature, you quickly managed to befriend Chuuya. You weren’t someone who set him off on purpose, and you never teased him; something that was refreshing for him. He was a lot calmer around you, something which the Flags noticed and definitely teased you two about, but Chuuya had always retorted that you two were ‘just friends’.

However, you didn’t mind at that time. There was almost no space for romance in the dangerous life of a mafioso; even friendships were dangerous. You were glad to have befriended the Jewel King, since he did prove himself to be quite loyal and trustworthy to you and the Flags, and he had saved your life quite a couple of times too.

But all good things come to an end eventually.

Just goes to show

That the blood you bleed is just the blood you owe

You didn’t know what you were doing. You had smelt the blood inside the pool hall; and instinct told you that it was not the blood of an enemy. Immediately, you used your ability to place you in front of the entrance, and you desperately slammed the door open, running in to see what had happened and if you could save anyone.

But it was too late.

Your throat hurt. A high-pitched scream resonated in the hall. A scream full of devastation and hopelessness, of one who had just lost everything yet who could’ve stopped it. A scream of pain, sorrow, darkness. Of a storm that had just been brewed.

It was only when Chuuya went into the hall and ran to your side did you realise that you were the one who was screaming.

We were a pair

But I saw you there

“Y/N. Stay back. It’s too risky if you come with me.” You bit your lip as you faced Chuuya defiantly, standing in front of him with your fists clenched.

“It’s risky either way if I go with you or stay! There’s no doubt I’m a target on Verlaine’s list, and he’s going to make it happen with or without your presence! Besides, my ability can actually help you-”

“I don’t care how powerful or useful your ability is! Just stay! The Mafia will protect you, and besides, it’s me that Verlaine wants. I was the one who caused all of these problems. And I have to be the one to solve them. The Flags were enough; I can’t let you or anybody else die because of me!” You frowned and stepped forward.

“Doesn’t mean that you can’t accept help from other people! Verlaine will simply murder everyone in the Mafia with no remorse to get to me, and you know how my ability is useless against death! Besides, we’re the Mafia. We have each others’ backs and we’ll make whoever hurt us pay tenfold!”

“...” You and Chuuya stood there, glaring at each other, neither side giving in.

It was a long time before Chuuya finally clicked his tongue.

“...Fine. You can come along. But don’t you dare cause any trouble or die on me. Because I’ll be the one to kill Verlaine.”

Too much to bear

It had been a few weeks since the King of Assassins incident.

You sat next to Chuuya in a bar. It was quiet; you two were the only customers there, and there was a comfortable yet agonising silence between you and Chuuya. You took a few sips from your drink, but Chuuya didn’t move at all.

“What’s wrong? You’ve been quite silent... is there something on your mind that’s bothering you?” Chuuya didn’t answer immediately. He stared forward at his drink, his eyes vacant, yet his expression was unreadable. You knew what he was thinking of.

His dry chuckle caught your attention.

“...It’s ironic, isn’t it?”

You blinked, yet you said nothing.

“Almost everything bad that happens in my life is all because of me. The Sheep betrayed me because of my arrogance and incompetent ability to be a good leader for them. My existence was the reason why the Flags were killed. It’s as if it’s my punishment; a cruel game to see how long I can last for before I’m gone as well.”

“...” You were silent for a while.

Chuuya felt something warm on his hand, and he looked at it to see your hand tenderly caressing his. His gaze went to your face, and he saw your eyes filled with care and... something else.

“... I won’t lie to you. Nearly everything bad that happened to you was somewhat because of you.” Chuuya’s expression was unreadable, yet he felt your fingers start to gently trace soothing circles on the back of his hand.

“That is how life is like. It’s how we choose to respond to it is what truly determines who we are. Whenever life knocks us down, we get back up again. No matter how painful the situation is, no matter how impossible it seems to bounce back, life finds a way. It hurts a lot; it always does, but it will get better in the end.” Your fingers delicately traced the small, dark spot on his wrist.

“But I’ll be here for you. I know it’s hard to promise that I’ll always be by your side since death is always around the corner... but I’ll never willingly leave you. And that’s a promise.”

The bar was silent for a while. You could tell that he was feeling much calmer; although he was still slightly vulnerable, your presence alone had soothed him. You continued tracing circles on the back of his hand, your gentle touch having no sign of ending.

It was in that moment that Chuuya felt something else spark within him.

Something that would eventually be called... ‘love’.

You were my life but life is far away from fair.

The Dragon’s Head Incident. The bloodiest 88 days in the history of Yokohama.

The Port Mafia suffered heavy losses; some because of rival groups and accidents, but most were because of the mysterious ability user named the ‘White Giraffe’. Whenever he struck, there was a thick fog, so thick that nothing can be seen through it. After it disappeared, everybody was dead.

And the White Giraffe himself would be gone alongside the fog.

It had grown to the point that the Boss, Mori Ougai, had no choice but to send one of his strongest subordinates to investigate and possibly end this whole blood-stained carnage.

And so you found yourself, face to face, with the ability user that was responsible for all of this.

In a battle that you had lost in the first place.

Was I stupid to love you?

Was I reckless to help?

Your ability, ‘The Core of Reality’, appeared and stepped in front of you. It tilted it’s head as it looked at you, and you knew nothing could help you prevent your fate. Nothing at all.

Was it obvious to everybody else?

“...H-hey! Y/N!!!”

Chuuya’s voice, tinged with raw emotion, alongside his hands that grabbed you and turned your body over, desperately trying to see any remainder of life in you. But it was too late. He knew it himself, yet he refused to think that you were dead.

“W-wake up! You’re fine! So just please wake up!”

That I’ve fallen for a lie

Your body, broken and torn in so many places that it was unrecognisable, yet Chuuya still recognised it as you. His shaking hands held you, clutching you to his chest, not wanting to let go. The ache in his heart was familiar, yet it was never as strong as before until this.

You were never on my side

Rage. That was all what Chuuya felt.

A deepening, bubbling feeling that made him desire the blood of the White Giraffe. He wanted to kill him; crush him with gravity in the most painful way possible. He didn’t care whether Mori would get angry or not, or if he would die because of his recklessness. Chuuya just needed to kill him; give the ability user the death that he deserved.

All for you.

Fool me once, fool me twice

Chuuya stood in front of your grave, a few flowers in his hand. It was a place where only the richest could afford; there was no speck of dust on your tombstone, or anything that looked the slightest bit out of place. His eyes cast over the words etched onto the cold stone, so familiar to him yet still so foreign at the same time.

Setting the flowers beside your headstone, he sat down like he always did every single time he visited you.

“... I haven’t visited you in a while. The roses I brought last week have just become to wilt. That’s probably the longest time I have been gone for.”

The flowers around your grave were always fresh; as if it was a vain attempt to bring some life somehow in this place tinged with the afterglow of death. They bloomed brightly before wilting a week later, as if they too had joined the unfortunate souls in the afterlife. Yet the ones around your grave were always joined by newer ones just as the old ones had nearly started wilting.

Are you death or paradise?

Chuuya started off by telling you about his day. How he managed to take down an enemy organisation alongside the Black Lizard, and how he finished his paperwork just on time so that Mori wouldn’t get mad. It was as if you were still there with him; your precious laughter and reassuring voice replying him in an imaginary conversation.

It’s when he recounts the memories together with you and the Flags which makes his voice have the slightest hint of a crack.

Now you’ll never see me cry

Rain started to pour down from the sky. It was only a light drizzle at first, so slight it was barely noticeable. Yet in a few minutes, it had turned into a storm; with heavy droplets pelting down on everything it landed on. Chuuya was soaked; yet he didn’t pay the rain much mind.

Liquid was flowing down Chuuya’s cheeks. Whether it was the rain, or tears, or both, he didn’t care. The only thing that he was aware of was the ache in his heart; the same old ache that never faded away since the day you left him.

Chuuya slowly stood up. Casting one last glance at your headstone, he slowly turned around and left, his heavy footsteps making temporary indentations on the rain-soaked ground before they were covered up immediately. The flowers around your grave seemed to soak the rain in, doing their best to still bloom their brightest.

He would come back in a week or so. But Chuuya wouldn’t be able to join you anytime soon in the afterlife, no matter how much he missed you, or how much he longed for your touch.

Because there’s just no time to die.

So uhhh... there’s no excuses as to why I took this long to finish this request ;-;

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