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#i spend way too much time on here holy shit#i started like mid august#so thats....#*math noies*#around 141 days of having tumblr#THATS 35 POSTS A DAY WHAT THE FUCK#IS THAT RIGHT#ASJVSLKBJSLJDSL#NO WAY#hold up lets say i got it at the beginning of august#so liek...2.uh... carry the 1... 157 days#ok now divide...#31 POSTS A DAYSDJSFSKLDFJ#GIRLIE#I RB TOO MUCH#I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME ON HERE#.. or is it just enough >:)#wow#anywayas#whee#kiri’s ramblings
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Okay I finally am getting around to this post! It's the 'Fuck how can mob psycho help me in so many ways god damnit I hate and love this show' post!
Shigeo joining the body improvement club, and everything about this part of his story is so personal to me. I just have to talk about it.
So as we all know at the start of the story, Shigeo joins the body improvement club to impress Tsubomi. Thats it. Thats the goal. He also joins because he wants to get stronger and not rely on his psychic powers but really like...the main reason is to impress her.
And this isn't new. A character wanting to get fit, lose weight, change some physical part of themselves for a crush is SO common in stories that you barely notice it.
But what I love, what I ADORE is how this progresses and changes.
This gif from an amazing AMV by @thekagepro24 and it just UGH hits me so hard it is so perfect!!! I could watch this 5 second gif over and over and over again
I just am. I just am dying while running, I just am making progress, I just am enjoying this because I really like it.
This puts everything I feel into visuals (it's so gooooood watch the AMV!!! DO IIIIIIT)
So many times society tells us to change something about ourselves, or we tell ourselves to change for the appeal of others.
Lose weight so people think you're pretty.
Get fit so you can get into clothes that make you look hot.
Get swol to make a person think you're attractive.
You are the one and only you, this is your one and only body. So why are you working out, why do you WANT to get "swol" who are you trying to impress. Is it for yourself? A crush? Society?
I have battled with the above for so long. I come from an athletic background, and did a lot of sports growing up, but I have never been small. I have battled with weight my whole life and had my own shitty bouts with ED.
I have been in therapy, I have read books, I have watched videos, I've been in and out of PT for nearly 5 years because of a lower back and hip pain that NEVER went away.
I never figured out WHY i wanted to exercise. It just always was "To lose weight" because I couldn't get that goal out of my head for years and years and years.
But then I watched mob psycho 100.
And I started a new type of physical therapy.
And was it mp100 or was it the therapy finally working, who can say which did it—probably both—but one day I thought...
....maybe I should just go for a run...for 5-10 mins. Just to see how it feels. It went against all parts of my athlete brain (because 10 mins is too short to see "gains"....which is dumb but whatever)
I thought of Shigeo and how he basically passed out every time he ran for like 2 mins, but he got better. He had to start from 0, well...kinda like negative 5 really. But then he was doing so much not even a few months in!
35 pushups is so hard!!! You go my boi.
Shigeo started off doing it all for Tsubomi, for others, and even if he really wanted to do it to improve himself I think it was a secondary goal initially. Main goal was to impress someone. Secondary was to get stronger.
But then the marathon happened. And those goals SWITCHED! DURING THE RACE! just....man it hit me. It hit me hard. THAT WHOLE EPISODE IS JUST A LOT FOR ME GOD DAMN
He ran for her initially but he continued running for himself. He continued working at it because he wanted to and in the end, after everything, after confession arc, after all that
This scene!!! makes me cry happy tears!! look at how happy he is UGH IT JUST IS SO UGGGHHHHHHH
Anyway if you made it this far, know that everyones journey through their body improvement, mental improvement, emotional improvement is different. We all have to tackle it in the way that works for us.
It took me nearly 10 years to start again because of this beautiful anime connecting the right dots in my brain.
Every journey is different, but just keep fighting on and you'll figure it out!
#mp100#mob psycho 100#mp100 analyis...?#sorta?#more like a essay on personal life and mob psycho#not sure what to tag it as#but I just hope others can find the beauty in this part of the story#you don't have to lose weight to be healthy#you don't have to necessarily exercise in the same way as Mob#you don't even NEED to exercise in the way people expect you to#you just have to do what works for you!#it took me a long time to get here#body improvement club#FIGHT ON!
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2023 has come to a close so that means it's time for my year in review! i've been a gif maker on tumblr for more than two years now and this account keeps growing and getting so much love. im so grateful for all of my (jong)homies and mutuals that have let me get to this point and have fun along with it. like, i hit 1k and 2k followers in the same year! thats fucking rad!
i giffed a lot more this year than last and i think it's because i was finally able to get ps and vapoursynth near the end of 2022. my confidence soared as a result. not to get mushy, but this year on tumblr has been amazing because of that. :( this was the first full year i felt like a "real" and "competent" gif maker because i finally was using the tools that everyone else was using and i knew how to use them. thats a big thing for me, because for so long i struggled with figuring out how to download vs (and ps) (on mac btw) and i felt jealous that everyone else could do it so "easily." ps and vs are also really unintuitive if you dont know what youre doing so to basically brute force my way to success is something i want to pat myself on the back for. i did this. im insane. and now ive been properly expressing my insanity via gifs for over a year now that ive been so proud of! yippie!!!! as a result of my Trials and Tribulations, ive been thinking about creating tutorials for how to download ps, vs, and how to properly use ps to make gifs for those that dont even know where to begin now that i am a Seasoned user. bc i fucking get it. let me lend a hand.
but anyway.
some highights of this year that are worth mentioning:
i hit 1k followers in january! heres my 1k followers event posts
i hit 2k followers (!!!!!) in november!!!!!! heres my 2k followers event posts (so far)
i dabbled in combining ateez x (usually) alt/metal/rock songs now that i am a Confident and Certified Alternative Lady. here are those gif sets
still insane for jongho. also happy one year to biasing hongjoong. also happy almost three years of being an atiny.
i learned some new coloring tricks. i learned some new sharpening tricks. slayage all around!
below the cut are my most popular and my personal fav posts from each month this year as well as the total number of gif posts made each month!
tagging mutuals to view and to also do their own 2023 year in review (only if u want! absolutely no pressure ❤️): @yunwooz @hwanswerland @miinsang @booskwan @wifehwa
JANUARY
most popular: hongjoong doing a handstand
my favorite: short hair jjongie comp set
total posts made: 39
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FEBRUARY
most popular: guerrilla era hong comp set
my favorite: also guerrilla era hong comp set!
total posts made: 13
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MARCH
most popular: cruella hair hong comp set
my favorite: red hair jjongie
total posts made: 23
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APRIL
most popular: driver yunho
my favorite: gorgeous brown-red long hair jjongie just standing there
total posts made: 31
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MAY
most popular: barefaced ot8 (top post of the year!)
my favorite: gorgeous brown-red long hair jjongie pt 2
total posts made: 35
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JUNE
most popular: hong says fuck
my favorite: sparkly jjong
total posts made: 37
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JULY
most popular: bouncy relay dance ot8
my favorite: guerrilla one year anniversary post
total posts made: 32
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AUGUST
most popular: thanxx woo
my favorite: hala hala jjong
total posts made: 19
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SEPTEMBER
most popular: gorgeous blond hong
my favorite: dune yeo
total posts made: 22
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JJONGTOBER
most popular: one day at a time san
my favorite: jjong according to the tags birthday post!
total posts made: 12
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HONGVEMBER
most popular: hong according to the tags birthday post!
my favorite: also hong according to the tags birthday post!
total posts made: 10
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DECEMBER
most popular: hong smirking and giggling
my favorite: halazia yeo comp set
total posts made: 20
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i hope that 2024 brings a lot of new opportunities for me. i'll be graduating from uni in this spring and will hopefully obtain a Big Girl Job. thanks for sticking with me, jonghomies. have a happy new year!
-- anne 🍎🐻
#applejh2023yr#ok to rb#in fact pls do rb i love hearing others' Thoughts#or just replying is fine too
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fredy dboer is always like "I dont understand why so many of my subscribers are pro israel!! i dont understand why so many of my subscribers think i'd be anti abortion! i dont understand why so many of my subscribers think i'd be anti trans people!!" and its like. my brother. at a certain point the projections people place onto you are a reflection of what you have trained them to expect. youre the guy who talks shit about leftists and identity politics. turns out most of the people who want to hear that and feed off of it are not marxists or whatever, they are conservatives. and with your critiques no matter how sincere they might be you might not actually be improving the left you might be comforting and entertaining a ton of conservatives!!
the same principle can be applied to me and the projections people make of me that i find frustrating, too. like. why do so many bland white hand wringing liberals come to me expecting them to sign off on their inaction and privileged comfort. well. because im a white academic who does fuck all and sometimes writes comforting bromides. thats my fault! i have had to notice that and let it actually sink in for me, and then take steps to alienate that portion of my audience as much as fucking possible. freddie does the alienating the people who deserve to be alienated bit, but i dont see as much of the self reflection or philosophical course correction on his part. i dont think he really contemplates that he might have been doing things all wrong. hes too outraged at the existence of mad pride disability justice twitter to question his impulse to lash out at the left, for one. he really feels like offended and harmed by the existence of people who are anti psychiatry.
some day he'll probably write a scathing take down of my perspective on neurodiversity and it will be like 35% correct, i just know it, and 65% poorly researched generalizations about what the disability justice movement even is based on a few low-note twitter posts. he can be so shrewd and he can also be so impulsive. i guess thats why i keep returning to the well, because i recognize myself in much of it. and because reading him helps me to mentally simulate what some of the critiques of my own work would be... and, i think maybe a little unlike him, i am all too comfortable contemplating that i'm completely fucking wrong and a dumbass
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I really gotta start posting 7 Sentence Sunday earlier in the day before half the people I would tag have already tagged me sdfghgfds thank you @anxieteandbiscuits @devirnis @rogerzsteven @alyxmastershipper @rewritetheending thats like a cumulative 35 sentences so here’s a chunk of hospital intrigue
Moore- Tyler. Tyler looks at him, and Eddie doesn’t really think the heartache in his eyes is fair. “Eddie.” He places an unbearable hand on Eddie’s arm.
“We went on one date,” Eddie snaps, stepping back. His shoulder collides with the wall he hadn’t realized was so close, an oddity in these sets of rooms he knows so well he could navigate through drunk and blindfolded. “You don’t owe me anything. It doesn’t matter.” He’d been kissed so sweetly on a doorstep on Saturday night and it only took til Tuesday to hear from Pat via a nurse in oncology who heard it from her paramedic buddy that Jones had resurfaced from whatever pit he’d sunk into (family medicine somewhere in Pasadena, apparently) and had kissed Moore stupid in the third floor cafeteria that has the only good sandwiches.
“I’m sorry-“
“It’s fine.” Eddie’s voice is sharp, pointy, words shaped like thumb tacks. “I’m happy for you, Tyler, glad it worked out. Wish you hadn’t wasted my time, but- it doesn't fucking matter. I’m glad you-“ Eddie cuts himself off, makes a frustrated little sound, presses his palms into his eyes. Deep breaths. He remembers that look on Jones’ face, still, remembers the lost way Tyler wandered around the place in the weeks after. He knows that on Saturday he looked into green eyes and imagined for just a moment that they were blue. Who the fuck is he to judge? “I don’t want to fight,” he says, spark gone like it was never there. “I don’t want to fight. I’m glad Jones isn’t dead somewhere. I’m- really, I am glad you got this. I’m glad you’re happy.”
When he pulls his hands back down to his sides Tyler still has that heartbreak look in his eyes. “You-“ he reaches out just a little, but stops before any contact is made. “You deserve to be happy, too, Eddie.”
He thinks they both flinch a little at the laugh that comes out of him. Loud, awful, mean. He’s not sure what he meant by it, as they stand there blinking at each other. Eddie doesn’t know what he deserves. No, he- he feels guilty, he is happy, Christopher is at home waiting for him and tomorrow they’re going to the zoo, he is happy. “I-“
“Eddie-“
Patricia comes up, doing the sort of not-run that means there is an emergency. “Firefighter, lightning strike, full cardiac arrest, they’re two minutes out.”
Tagging @eowon @buckactuallys @butchdiaz @burins @thewolvesof1998 @sibylsleaves @ anyone else who wants to share!
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6. something you did in bed youd love to do again?
hmm!! i’d love to get both my holes fingered at the same time again😳 it was So fun it felt crazy. i havent had the chance to do double pen using toys with someone else yet but i have done it myself and GOD it feels good
8. something you never did in bed and would love to do?
i’d love to do more bondage stuff!! i need to practice my ropework but i’d Love to play with a cutie whos helpless for me💕💕 or even be all tied up and squirmy myself and just have to take whats given 🥺
27. whats an article of clothing you would love to see your crush/partner in?
ouuughh i’d love to see my boyfriend in a suit! i know he’d look So dapper and stunning i’d just have to sit at his feet or in his lap all day. bonus points if theres lingerie under the suit
35. do you like to have rough sex? what so you like the most?
i LOVE rough sex i think it’s So fun!! it just depends how im doing energy wise. i Love play wrestling and pinning and struggling. i love getting bruised and manhandled. i always get a lil nervous being rough w my boyf bc i dont wanna hurt him but i absolutely would love to go crazy on him. but i do be having a kinda high pain tolerance and i just adore being grabbed and smacked and bit
40. what are your favorite pet names to be called during sex?
hmm!! i really like anything thats gender affirming, like pretty daddy, handsome boytoy, but have been dipping my toes into some petplay stuff and getting called puppy or mutt kinda makes me😳😳😳 but i also Looovvve any sort of possessive moniker if you put a my or mine before what ur gunna call me… im putty. i also love dumbification and like. praise/degradation combo i dont like Just being insulted. like calling me a pretty stupid boy or a brainless fuck toy
45. what would you love to roleplay as in bed?
oooohhh there are a few on my mind. i would love to try and be my boyfriends guard dog🥺 test the waters and see how it feels getting in that headspace. i’d love to do a kinda intox scene where (either me or the boy) are being encouraged to keep smoking or drinking at the other persons discretion. i also think it could be potentially fun to pretend to do like a blackmail/revenge porn kinda scene and it might help me work thru some past stuff, but we’d have to tread a lil more carefully
49. favorite thing to do when dominating?
Fucujkkk i Love taking care of my sub. i love being able to take my time and tease and wrow.. im absolutely a pleasure dom so i wanna know youre feeling good and its bc of me. i love reminding him hes mine in all sorts of ways!! i love worshipping him bc he deserves it
50. favorite thing to do when being dominated?
i LOVE getting marked up and i LOVE marking up my boyfriend :3 i love using his back like a scratching post and just feeling him💕💕💕i love to be helpless or like “put in my place” i love being told what to do. i’d love to put on a show and like try and “fight back” or resist but i like it so much its hard for me to even pretend
65. is there a kink/fetish you would like your partner to have? why?
hmm! idk i’d love to explore more cnc, Maybe petplay and perhaps some dom/sub dynamics w my boyfriend but fr fr he’s perfect and i love exploring and trying new things w him
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Vent post:
I've worked at my current job for 3 months now. I've gone above and beyond for this job to the point where there's a review on Google about me for the shop. I've been early to work every day, I get everything done, and I help every single person that comes in no matter how long it takes. Tuesday, I couldn't find a ride to work for the first time. My boss told me she could get me a ride to work, but it would pull out of one of my checks (didn't tell me which one). So I said no to that if it pulled from my recent check. Around 5 pm, she called me and said she would be pulling from the next check, and I said thats fine. I'm ready to go to work. She then told me she removed me from the schedule for the rest of the week... I lost 4 days of work. I'm pissed. She sent me my schedule for this week, and instead of my usual 35-38 hours, she cut me down to 25.5 for this week. Angry doesn't even cover how I feel. I hate this job, and since I don't have a new one lined up yet, I can't just quit even tho my fiance told me he doesn't want me working there. I don't know what to do, but my mental health has taken a hit, and I just want to scream and cry. Just because I couldn't find one ride she fucked me over. And what's worse is now I can't find a ride to work for the rest of this week....so I'm gonna have to walk 30 plus minutes to work and home....just fuck everything. I want to give up....
#actually borderline#actually bpd#bpd feels#bpd mood#bpd problems#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#depressing shit#living with ptsd#vent post#tw bpd vent#work suuuuucks#stress#life suuuuucks#this is my life#life is rough#living with borderline#i hate this#i hate everything#im done
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being cupioromantic sucks dick, and here’s why (says i, a cupioromantic)
Before ya’ll shout at me in the tags n shit: i am, myself, cupioromantic. I am saying this bc this is how i, personally feel abt being cupioromantic, and why its so goddamned depressing (at least for me).
Being cupioromantic, for me, is like a constant battle of wills, almost. It contradicts itself, over and over and over, even though i know- logically, that being cupioromantic isnt a contradiction. It just sucks ass.
for anyone who doesnt know: cupioromantic is (quoting google here btw) “describ[ing] a person who wants a romantic relationship, but does not feel romantic attraction”. Which, um, FUCKING SUCKS.
bc i aint never gonna have a partner. The fact im aegosexual (or js ace or acespec in more simple terms) js makes that harder, bc i aint never gonna have sex, least not voluntarily. So i cant feel for my partner romantically, which is what like 80% of the world is looking for in a partner, and i cant have sex either, bc i js dont feel that way for ppl. And i never will. (Refering to both sexual attraction & romantic attraction here btw).
so that takes out all my options. Bc i can love people, yes, but not in the way that (most, nearly all) ppl want. But i dont wanna be alone til the end of my days, so where does that leave me?
bc, sure, ill have friends & family & hopefully a cat or two bc, yes, i am a crazy cat person. I actually currently have a cat rn, actually. (His names Bear, hes a black cat & i love him w/ all my heart, but still, my point stands). But i want a partner.
i want someone to kiss, and cuddle, and hug, and love. But bc of what i am, a afab human-person thing whos only social life & interaction other then my parents is via online spaces bc due to my lifestyle i js dont have any other options, an aroace who cant like-like some1 like that and who doesnt want to have sex and doesnt feel sexually for irl people and who never will
i js. I cant have it. Unless i luck out & meet a fellow aro, or ace, or aroace out in the wild, which is- extremely unlikely, tbqh, i wont ever have it. And thats not even the worst part, bc being cupioromantic is, believe it or not, a double-fucking-edged sword.
The few times ive tried to explain to my online friends what i want in a partner, ive constantly felt like im invalidating myself, and it fucking sucks. Bc what aro wants to kiss, and hug, and cuddle and what proper aro wants a romantic relationship??
i dont know how to explain it in words, tbqh, so ill do it via example.
so, fun fact! I only recently found out that im cupioromantic. Oh, i knew i was aro, certainly, but not cupioromantic bc i didnt know it was a thing. That like. Actually existed. (And by recently i mean last-fucking-night)
previously i hadnt thought abt it much tbqh. Then, my friend brought up the subject of love. I said, “i mean realistically no one will ever love me”. My friend responded w/ a gif that flashed the word “lie!” (LMFAO).
to summarise, what happened was i tried (and failed) to properly explain what i wanted in a partner w/o invalidating myself (and failed, im pretty sure). Then, my friend said “so cupioromantic?”
I looked it up, andddd went “oh. Oh fuck dear lord this is me. Well, im fucked.” Now i didnt say that, of course, but, yea, u get the gist of it lmao.
basically, the whole point of this example is that being cupioromantic and not invalidating urself bc u js dont think ur vaild is. Hard. Very very hard.
Now, i am in no way saying cupioromantic is not a vaild identity/romantic orientation, bc it completely is. This whole post is js me trying to deal w/ the fact i dont think im vaild when i know, logically that i am. My brain is js- having a hard time accepting that, ig.
ANYGAYS imma end this whole rant thingy now b4 this ends up being 2x longer then it already is. Gn ya’ll! (Yes i do know it is 7:35 am as i am writing this shut-)
#cupioromantic#aromantism#screaming incoherently into the void of tumblr#bc where else am i suppose to scream my woes at?#that sentence’s grammar hurts my brain btw#it is 7:06 am as i am writing this tag#god help me#WIAT HELP THATS AN ACTUAL TAG OML#internalised aphobia?? maybe?#it kinda seems that way to me but my brains only directing it on myself so uh idk tbh#CUPIOROMANTICS R VAILD ASF#my brain js think i specifically am not for some reason-
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instead of a big formal post im just going to continue to spit out random wrought lore when i feel like it :)
WROUGHT LORE DUMP HOORAY 🔒😈
• wrought killed his abusive parents when she was 7 to escape with her little sister but his sister got sick with something mundane like a cold and died anyways within the week. he has never fully processed or recovered from this.
• wrought doesn’t know how old he is <3 (its about 35 probably) but he has no clue he doesn’t know his birthday or anything i don’t think his parents celebrated it in the first place but also. the…brain damage from how she grew up plays a part
• pre-tadpole he was in an extremely toxic situationship and with a dragonborn named epitaph who was a Bad Person. wrought wasn’t good either but in comparison to epitaph she’s an angel lmao. toxic butch on butch violence yay :)
• he LOOOOOVES lying its her favorite pastime :) think shawn spencer from psych type lying. like ridiculous levels of tomfoolery and shenanigans >:)
• he’s EERILY good at mimicking/changing his voice. she used a completely different voice from his actual voice around the companions until one day he just dropped it and everyone was like “DID ANYONE REALIZE THAT WASN’T HIS VOICE?!?!”
• continuing from the last 2 points wrought doesn’t understand how to be a Person unless she’s mimicking it for most of his life. wyll is key in him understand who He is and how to like. be okay with Feeling!!! [my brother’s ocs are also MAJOR factors, one of them and wrought were roommates before the epitaph incident when wrought got too…unsettling and scared him off but they reconnect and are like siblings :’)]
• for some in game mechanic/play lore a BIG defining thing was he let astarion kill him when drinking his blood. wrought SOMEHOW hasn’t died after living so stupid and dangerously (and being yknow homeless. yay urchin bg) and basically has no fear of death now as long as its weird and for a bit or something. just very curious and unfazed by the whole deal and thought it would be cool to see what would happen if a vampire drank all his blood. wasn’t even mad @ astarion the next day which i think freaked astarion out a bit because well. thats weird wrought!!!!
• wyll is wrought’s first REAL relationship he’s NEVER had these feelings!!!! he slept with people all the time (milfs mostly bc they are obsessed with her 😌) whether for fun or mostly to get info/steal from people lmao…the closest to a “relationship” was epitaph which was bad and fucked up in every way and wouldve gotten wrought killed if epitaph hadn’t just happened to die
• besides wyll, wrought’s best friend is astarion and they are VERY codependent and sooo fucking weird together they make me want to cry <3
• need to talk more about just wyllwrought but they are t4t. this is essential. <3 <3
• most importantly wrought has a giant dick. <3
#YAAAAAAAY WROUGHT LORE :D my big pink weird freak :’)#wrought#e#btw came up with the parent murder before i knew the durge plot LMAO#can you tell ive never had ocs before idk what im doing but wroooouuuught
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NSFW asks
I want all the answers🌚(you can skip any if you want)
Okey love ✨️, Yk na you're a bad bitvh?? 😂 ,
1: Kitchen Counter, Couch, or on top of the dryer?
You in kitchen counter.
2: Your last sexual encounter: Good or Bad and why:
Bad , because i didn't feel that connection b/w us , maybe it was bcz she wasn't my girlfriend nor i love her.
3: A fictional person that you think would be good in bed:
Aann, emma mackey (from sex eduction) and lili Reinhart (riverdale)
4: Something that never fails to make you horny:
when girls say first what's want in bed.
5: Where is one place you would never have sex:
public place
6: Weirdest thing that ever made you horny:
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7: How are you after a really good f$%k?
That feel was amazing actually, boosted my mood :))
8: Have you ever got so wet/hard in the night that you wake up wanting some sexual activity?
yess , but I didn't have my partner.
9: Tell me your wettest dream?
shhhhhhh
10: Top or bottom?
Girls on the top
11: What body attracts you the most, men or women?
women ( I'm straight)
12: Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Nope never,
13: Home alone and you’re bored. What do you do?
Sleep 😭
14: Something that you have hidden in your room that you don’t want anyone to find:
My money and my dairy
15: Weirdest nickname a significant other has ever called you:
no one gave me Weirdest nickname but some ppl didn't pronounce my name correctly.
16: Are you a touchy feel person?
Yess fucking yess
17: If you were/are a lesbian, would you go for the women/girls who act like men, or the ones who act like girls?
Not valid for me.
18: Does a massage get you wet/hard?
i never goes for massage.
19: Is it ever okay to not use a condom:
Depends on my girl.
20: If there’s one place a girl should touch you to make you instantly horny, where is that?
when she kiss my neck
21: Has a girl even touched you or discreetly groped you while clubbing or in a crowded place?
nope
22: Ever left the house without wearing any underwear?
Yess
23: What do you wear when you go to bed?
pajama
24: Biggest turn on: when someone tell me what she wants.
25: Worst possible time to get horny:
when i was in meeting 😭
26: Do you like it when your sexual partner moans:
Fucking yess
27: Worst sexual idea you ever had:
try BDSM
28: How much fapping is too much fapping:
more than 3 times in a week.
29: Best sexual complement you ever got:
Ahhaann, So once a girl told me that you're good in licking and you give to priorities girls , its makes you a gentleman. 😌
30: What do you think you and/or the opposite sex looks the sexiest in?
31: Have you ever been called a tease?
Yess 😐
32: Fill in the blanks: “If they ____________, we are ****in”
33: What your favorite part of your body:
My hair 😌
34: Love (>,<, or =) Sex For those of us who don’t remember our math thats “greater than, less than, or equal to]
love >>>> sex
35: What do you wear to bed?
Pajama
36: When was the last time you masturbated:
3 days ago
37: Do you have any nude/masturbating pictures/video of yourself?
Nope , i never film.
38: Have/would you ever have sex outside?
nope.
39: Have/would you ever masturbate at work?
Nope
40: Have/would you ever have sex on a plane?
Fucking No 😭 ( but it's one my fantasy)
41: What is one song you’d like to have sex to?
often by the weekend or I'll choose from my playlist.
42: Has anyone ever posted nude pictures of you online?
nope i never clicked
43: How do you feel about tattoos on someone you are interested in?
44: Does size really matter to you?
45: Is there anything you do on the internet that you would not like your significant other to see?
46: Do you own any sex toys? (what is it? (how long have you had it?)
47: Would you give your significant other access to your internet history?
yess , i have nothing to hide.
48: Would you be offended if your significant other suggested you get plastic surgery?
49: Would you rather be a pornstar or a prostitute?
50: Who gave you your last kiss? Did it mean anything?
A friend .
51: Do you like to have phone sex?
yupp, but i get bored easily .
52: Do you feel comfortable going “commando”?
53: Would you have a problem with going down on someone if they hadn’t shaved their pubic hair?
yupp, i don't wanna eat hairs💀
54: Booty or Boobs?
Boobs always 🤌🏻🫠🥺
55: If you had a penis, what would you name it?
56: Have you ever been on an official date?
Yess
57: Have you ever cheated on someone? (Why?)
Nope
58: Have you had sex with someone of the same sex?
nope,
59: Have you had sex with more than one person simultaneously?
nope
60: Have you ever been to a strip club?
61: Name one naughty act you have done in a public place?
62: Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
Morning and night.
63: Shower or bath while having sex?
Shower
64: Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
65: Love or Money?
Money
66: Have you been caught having sex?
Nope
67: Does anyone have naughty pics of you?
nope
68: Do you like wild sex or romantic sex?
According to my mood.
69: Do you consider hair pulling sexy?
yess, but if my girl dont want it. i wont force.
70: What should a guy first do when about to have sex with you?
71: Something that will never fail to get you horny?
When girls talk dirty.
72: Favourite sexual things a guy/girl does to you thats not sex?
Kissing eachother
73: What do you wear to seduce the opposite sex?
seduce her w my words and action.
74: Have you ever paid for sex?
never
75: Do you like kissing in public?
I don't have sharam but if she's not comfortable, i won't do.
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opening up comms
absolutely nothing urgent so dont worry im just opening them cuz i feel like it. i want to save for a future trip im planning
i have quite some tuition cash on my bank account but i feel like im gonna have to save some of it because everything is extremely fucking expensive nowadays so uh. in the meantime if i can make some money off my art i may as well do it since im basically drawing every goddamn day of my life and everytime i draw i feel in PEACE with myself.
details below:
ILLUSTRATIONS:
pictured above are touhou/pokemon illustrations but i promise i can draw more than that. anime, furry art... basically, you name it, i can do it (except for mechas and robots and shit). i would very much prefer to do sfw art though. im very good with impressionist backgrounds. ive also done realistic portraits before and... i dont really know how to feel about them so ill just let you judge by yourself
basically my prices for each tier are:
manga style (monochrome) w/ shading: $15
color w/ minimal shading: $20
color w/ elaborate shading: $25
color w/ elaborate shading and realistic background: $40
extras:
busts and half body drawings: +0$
full body drawings: +$5
any additional characters on the picture: +$10
MUSIC:
here are some examples of what i can make:
https://66clown.bandcamp.com/track/--13
https://66clown.bandcamp.com/track/ephemeral-faith
https://66clown.bandcamp.com/track/--23
(ignore my other bandcamp albums theyre old and i dont like them and ive even changed DAWs and VSTs)
https://soundcloud.com/intelligencecasino/disgrace
https://soundcloud.com/intelligencecasino/volatile-environment
https://soundcloud.com/intelligencecasino/godmodeed7ba470-8e54-465e-825c-99712043e01c
https://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm40167104
i can work with pretty much any genre. jazz, metal, alt rock, dnb... i specialize in disco and deep house though. you can hire me to compose the soundtrack for your videogame, tracks for albums, twitch intros/background songs, etc. i have a bunch of vocaloid voicebanks too so i can also use them if you want; no extra charge.
i charge $5 per minute, starting at $10. for example, if you want a 30-second song that would be $10; if youd like a 3-minute song, itd be $25; $35 for 5-minute songs... i will also be sending you WIPs along the way so you can hear what im working on and give me som feedback on how you’d like it to sound.
and thats pretty much it. not posting any payment methods here; ill send you a p*y-p*l link after im done. send me a private message if you would like to contact me. thank you. “God Bless”
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fuck this weather
why is everything moving even slower than before today? im currently typing this in a dinosaur aged laptop belonging to my sis sitting at home with god knows what's the weather out there now, 35 degrees? and alternating between needing to sweat and also not overheating myself. i seem to remember that my sis describes me as being a carnivorous plant, i need water and moisture if not i just die which literally happened to me 2 days ago. temperature shot to 39.3 and i was delusional. body aching too much to get on my feet to wash up and head down to our family doctor, was in a half dazed mood the whole day, the bloody meds making my tongue all numb and all food tasting bland. well glad all thats over.
today is the last day of my so called medical leave and gotta return to being a cog in the machine of capitalism? economic growth? whatever it is, its the thing that gives me money so i can spend it however i like and on whoever i like. i just realised my last post was early april this year and it always feels like a whole year has passed since i last written in here. at least its still a consistent thing for me. no matter how infrequently i write. i still got opinions and stuffs to say, maybe not to humans but online. because this space is not meant for anyone but myself. so no judgements, no stonewalling, nothing, just peace and quiet, exactly how i want things to be.
my job is chaotic now, so different from the previous one but the time passes really quickly and im learning new shit which is all good. colleagues are pretty good as well, no mind games and management is old school/traditional which is fine by me. still not very sure about working under a female boss but time will tell. man once this week passes, it will be 3 weeks im in this new company, time sure passes quickly. the rest of my life is pretty much the same really. i miss hanging out with my group of 5, me included. can be totally myself with them, all of us feel the same way. minus the smoking and hard liquor. i think my 3 cups of soju bomb was my max till i flatlined. man at least it was in their home and not some pub or strangers home. glad to always have them, need to catch up soon like for real. for real.
why am i talking like im a homie? pretty soon i will be saying bruh to everyone and hierarchies be absent. i dunno i mean i read about this new generation now called generation Alpha? like how weird is that? i thought the alphabets thing was already weird enough but now we have alpha? said it came from being ipad babies, born and raised using ipads. sounds privileged and kinda sad though tbh to have ur whole world shaped using electronics without being able to use ur 5 senses to discover the world around you. damn im glad i was born a millenial, if i have a kid next time, wouldnt know if i am raising an alien or a child anymore. they be all smarter than us and taking over all our jobs in no time is what im saying.
guess thats all i have to say for now. peace out, love this community.
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ATHLETICS TRACKING - 5/9/23
Subtitile: HEY I USED TO MAKE POSTS ABOUT THIS
hi! its been a bit. i dont think ive made any posts about this particular subject on this particular blog. not the long form effort posts like these, at least. there have been some fairly major developments here so i figured it was as good a time as any to log them here. and maybe get into the rhythm of writing regularly about this again? dont get your hopes up. but maybe more regularly than Not At All. anyways!
so thanks to having a job i have a gym membership now! that means i can lift Actual Weight instead of being trapped at 40lbs due that being all my at-home dumbbells can do. its nice! i've been progressing through my 5x5 workout without any real trouble so far. except for my overhead press. i literally cannot even begin to finish my 5 sets there, at the suggested introductory weight of 45lbs. its kinda baffling, i wish i knew why exactly i had that one hurdle. but i was barely making 5x5 on 40lbs either so, naturally 45 would be tougher! i should probably deload down to, idk, 35 or something and work my way back up but man. cmon! lets frickin go!
the rest of my numbers (which ill list down below) are doing well. i think, at least. steady gains (though they are "newbie gains") through and through, if i stay consistent on em ill be squattin 100 byyyyyy monday after next. which would be pretty cool! i guess! i havent encountered any real hurdles yet (apart from the OP i just mentioned) so its hard to get motivated by goals. im in this for like, the thrill of the lift. again: i guess!
cardio has been fine, though due to workin out preshift i dopnt have time to just like, run forever on that. maybe i only go in early for weights n leave cardio for after? maybe i cardio by running around the block at home then bus in to work like usual? maybe i just crank the speed and hope for the best? ok i did try that last one and it fucked my knee up just a bit lol. ultimately cardio is a supplement to the weight training for me so, afaik, its more important to have that elevated heart rate sustained for longer and longer periods of time than to be trying to make a like 8 minute mile. ill keep at it for now, probably try to ramp the speed up a lil more slowly than I did but as far length of workout i kinda dunno what to do. im still kinda entranced by the treadmill i now have access to so, probably keep on that for a while longer.
as far my body numbers go, theyre more or less unchanged from where I was when i started doing all this like, a year ago. which is part of Why im not so motivated by goals n such. but thats of course still on me. havent had my diet right, wayyyyy too many breaks n off days, no ability for actual Progression until just now. hopin i can start to turn this dang machine into some fucking muscle soon. i think i can! maybe! AUGH!
NUMBERS
SQUAT - 70
BENCH - 60
ROW - 80 (pulled my back just a lil on this last time, lol.)
OVERHEAD - 45 (cant even finish this weight lol)
DEADLIFT - 105
CARDIO - 4.5mph(?), 45min
WEIGHT - 160
BODYFAT - 24%
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I posted 6,045 times in 2022
That's 1,170 more posts than 2021!
702 posts created (12%)
5,343 posts reblogged (88%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@everythingfox
@dean-winchesters-bacon
@fandom-hoarder
@almondchalice
@that-gay-jedi
I tagged 2,255 of my posts in 2022
#thasmin - 63 posts
#fanart - 54 posts
#merlin - 51 posts
#anti jared hate - 46 posts
#lmao - 46 posts
#obikin - 41 posts
#anti jensen hate - 41 posts
#merthur - 38 posts
#fave - 35 posts
#anti destiel - 26 posts
Longest Tag: 139 characters
#this is why ily guys because you put into words so beautifully exactly what i feel about merthur and these heartbreakingly beautiful scenes
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
25 notes - Posted April 8, 2022
#4
I'm fucking tired man and am not here for hate
I can dislike something someone has done or said
But still fundamentally they're important to me
And more importantly they're important to Jared
I'm not here to fight his battles
I'll certainly defend when I can but he and Jensen's friendship is their business
Some people have been in too deep and this is a reality check that nobody and no relationship is perfect
But they clearly have something special and are bonded for life
You're not a better person if you're hateful to Jensen nor if all you do is defend Jared constantly
I think some people clearly love drama and tbh it's really immature
None of us are in this friendship all we can do is support and love the people we do
NOBODY IS PERFECT and everyone makes mistakes
I'm not thrilled about this but I'm so done at seeing shitty stuff on my dash from people who clearly couldn't wait for another chance to drag Jensen
Some things are just not that deep people and imo this has been blown out of all proportion
30 notes - Posted January 18, 2022
#3
Saw a really good post (I can't find it now) about all the bullshit surrounding Jensen and the prequel drama basically fans taking a measured and supportive response to it instead of blindly hating and turning Jensen into some sort of supervillain. Jared would be proud and not of those who spend all their time smashing Jensen down (or anyone tbh) and pretending they're better fans of Jared for it. He would be appalled at the way some people talk about Jensen and hating him certainly doesn't make you a better fan in fact it makes you worse because it goes against everything Jared has taught me. They are grown men they have dealt with this grow the fuck up
36 notes - Posted February 19, 2022
#2
Someone on Tumblr: Elrond may not be perfect
Me: Let me stop you there
37 notes - Posted October 11, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
Merlin 10th Anniversary of the Finale Christmas Eve 2012
I want to celebrate (and cry) about the show I miss so much and celebrate the 10th anniversary of the finale with the immortal Merlin Fandom. Basically, I’d love to, from now until Christmas, celebrate it being a decade since our beloved show ended and wanted to put together just a casual thing for everyone who is interested.
Guidelines:
1. Create something for Merlin, gifs, art, fic, writing, fanvids, anything that shows your positivity and love for the show and characters
2. It can be about Merlin in general but extra cookies for things dedicated to Merthur and the ‘Diamond of the Day’ Finale
3. Pro-Ship friendly (but no ship hate) Pro-character friendly (but no character hate)
3. Please tag me and use the #merlin10 so I can reblog your posts/creations
4. Open from now until Christmas
Thats it! Even if you just wanna make a post about why you love Merlin thats fine too! I just really wanna celebrate with you guys and don’t wanna step on the toes of the other amazing Merlin weeks going on the rest of the year. This is just a casual ily and miss Merlin thing and you’re all welcome to take part <3
161 notes - Posted November 5, 2022
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I posted 1,444 times in 2022
845 posts created (59%)
599 posts reblogged (41%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@stregoniconiconii
@steveharrington
@lesbianrobin
@sawasawako
@crookedtidalwaves
I tagged 678 of my posts in 2022
#stranger things - 131 posts
#stobin - 53 posts
#platonic stobin - 48 posts
#twilight saga - 47 posts
#spn - 22 posts
#codependent stobin - 21 posts
#pjo - 16 posts
#stobin cat agenda - 15 posts
#<333 - 11 posts
#steve harrington - 11 posts
Longest Tag: 138 characters
#both aware that monsters exist and that the other knows about it and yet still it seems they didn't speak to each other until spring break
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
everyone jokes about kissing the homies goodnight until it’s steve and robin
nah but fr and they’d kiss the homies goodnight every night too wouldn’t miss a bed time ever
35 notes - Posted October 31, 2022
#4
still putting robin in a guest room by season 4 doesn’t make sense. They’re calling steve’s bed “the bed” robin has permanently taken over the left bedside table. Steve is constantly getting on to her about leaving her (empty) glass of water there all day. sometimes Steve puts a hand under his pillow and gets poked by the earring robin spent the last week looking for.
exactlyyyy like thats one of those details that i get tripped up on bc it’s like what do you mean….you place a wall between stobin? a whole wall? sacrilege…like maybe u have ur reasons but why
42 notes - Posted December 5, 2022
#3
actual codependent things I think robin and steve could do because they’re kinda fucked up and traumatised:
this is actually already canon: Steve being self-sacrificing, always putting himself in danger if it means robin (and the others) will be safe. Steve making sure the Russians were focused on torturing him and not robin, being the one to swim down to Watergate instead of anyone else.
I think robin puts off applying to college because she doesn’t want to leave Steve behind in hawkins. this is her own version of self sacrifice: she’s sacrificing her happiness and freedom by choosing to stay in hawkins. she probably feels guilty when she does start sending out applications.
also kinda canon: a little too involved in each other’s romantic relationships. Steve trying to figure out if vickie likes girls through her film choices and where she pauses comes to mind.
a more toxic way this can manifest: trying to protect each other from heartbreak by trying to prevent conflict. icing out romantic interests that they don’t like, stepping into their arguments to try and sort them out for them. very “it’s you and me, me and you, and your friend Steve” energy, but not that cute.
maybe more but these are definitely the main ways it shows up in their relationship
46 notes - Posted September 1, 2022
#2
the reason why steddie fucks so hard is because it’s browneyes4browneyes
61 notes - Posted June 18, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
I was thinking about the head canon of Steve being Italian, through his mom because Harrington is like super Irish, and I have some ideas
first off, I don’t think Steve can speak Italian super fluently. I think his mom was first generation and she worked really hard to sound American and so she didn’t really speak it at home. Steve only heard Italian when his mom was on a long distance phone call with her family back home or when she got homesick and listened to an Italian language radio station. Steve loved hanging out with his mom though, and he loved listening in on her conversations because I know my boy is a little gossip, so he picked up on understanding the language fairly well, but never really got the hang of speaking it
until, when he was like 10 years old and they went to Italy for the summer. his nonna, who he had literally only talked to on the phone, was dying and she wanted her daughter to come back home. she and Steve go together, his dad comes for a couple weeks but then has to go back to work, and they’re there for months, fully immersed. he even spends a month at school with his cousins, who he gets along with pretty well. that’s not to say it was easy at first, definitely not
Steve probably spent the first few weeks there quiet as a mouse just listening to everyone speak. everyone thought he was just a dumb American, chastising his mother for not teaching him their language, teasing him because they thought he couldn’t understand. but they all get surprised when he speaks up when one of his aunts is going in on his mom and he calls her out in actually pretty good Italian. after that, he gets included more, his cousins discover that he’s actually pretty funny besides being American. he still gets teased because his accent needs some serious work, but by the time his Nonna dies and his dad is flying down for the funeral and to take them back to America, he feels pretty damn Italian
he half hopes that he and his mom could stay here, where he has family he actually gets a long with, but his dad’s kinda mad at how native they’ve gone while he’s been gone. now he’s the odd one out and he doesn’t like it. he brings them back to hawkins and issues an Italian ban because he doesn't like not knowing what his wife and son are talking about. and then news about the affair breaks out
see, while Steve and his mom were in Italy, hanging out with family, looking after a sick old lady, and preparing for a funeral, mr harrington was getting dirty with his secretary. so now his mom is paranoid that it will happen again if he gets out of her sights so she ends up going with him on a bunch of business trips. leaving poor Steve alone. and without the practice Steve’s Italian skills go downhill until high school and he starts taking a second language
not many people choose to take Italian, more going for French or Spanish, so it’s a small class. he thought it would be easy for him, since he already knew Italian even if he was out of practice, but this wasn’t the regional Italian his mom and her family spoke, this was The Official Italian Language. so it’s not as easy as he thought it would be but he actually manages to pick it up pretty quickly. yes, Italian is one of his best classes. yes, his accent is still pretty bad
anyway I don't think Steve keeps it a secret that he’s actually pretty good at Italian but not many people know. most of the kids in hawkins are barely passing Spanish or French, the few that are good at languages don’t think of him as someone good at languages so they don’t bother him. it’s not until robin claims she can speak Italian fluently that it even comes up
basically I think Steve and robin gossip in Italian bc they love that only they know what they’re saying. Steve teaches her some of the regional dialect he grew up on, she goes holy shit this means that we can hit up Sicily on our Europe trip and Steve’s very happy about that (because yay best friends trip and also he can visit his family again!)
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of course u would find the most evil questions on this list :)
18. Do you have a WIP that you keep telling yourself you’ll eventually get back to, but deep down you know that’s probably a lie?
once upon a time i started a multichap thats 65% drarry, 35% ginsy, and 100% a hot fucking mess, and while i love the concept of that fic and really want to get back to it one day, i just don't see it actually happening. what i think is possible is that i'll scrap it entirely and start from scratch with a much more focused and simplified outline, but i think its current iteration has kicked the bucket. it will forever be the one who go away.
37. Give an update on your current WIP - if you don’t have one, give a sneak peek to a title or idea that you have and would like to write.
i have just recently passed 80k on my current multichap WIP and think i'm about 2/3rds of the way done. i have cried many big fat tears in my alpha's dms. it's going fine. It's going fine. It's Going Fine. i'll probably finish it. 75% chance.
30. Post a snippet from your current WIP without context - no more than 300 words.
bc i have banned myself from opening my Big WIP scrivener file while i talk myself out of deleting it, have the last 300-ish words i wrote on my yacht steward!Draco Malfoy fic.
A good Chief Stew can anticipate a charter guest’s wishes an hour before it even occurs to them, maintain communications between all departments on the yacht, and put out fires with a smile on their face. They can also sneak away when their Second Stew is on the verge of a complete and total psychological breakdown.
Draco is in the laundry room when Pansy's voice comes over the radio, staring at all of the bright white crew uniforms making sudsy loops over and over in a washing machine and thinking absently of how this must be what the insides of his brain looks like right now. “Draco, Draco, Pansy,” her voice buzzes, so sweetly he suspects a guest is standing right next to her.
Draco can feel the ship lurching slightly beneath him as the yacht undocks from the port and sets off into open water. There goes his last chance to run off the dock.
“Draco, Draco, Pansy.”
All of those uniforms seem so happy in there. They probably never have to be confronted with their worst nightmare on a Sunday afternoon.
Pansy’s voice is picking up sweetness, which means she’s rapidly becoming furious. “Draco, Draco, Pansy,” her voice buzzes again. “Would you please meet me in the Master to assist me in unpacking guest rooms at your earliest convenience?”
Draco’s mouth is too dry to swallow, let alone speak. If Pansy is unpacking rooms, Potter and the guests are likely all out on the decks, hopefully having their second or third round of drinks served to them by the Third Stew, who probably wants to kill Draco for disappearing during peak service. Voices chatter in the salon as Draco climbs the spiral stairs to the Master. He doesn’t dare to look.
#harry just showed up on the boat and draco is not happy#he's having a little moment#it's fine tho#they're gonna fuck in the crew cabins in a few chapters#ask
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