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Hii!! This is the first time I have ever reached out to someone in this community because I am very scared of being 'found out' and I find it hard to accept myself for what I like š But your account feels very safe, and ur art is so gorgeous bsjsbdj!!!. I read ur tips from a while ago about how to start an account and I would rlly like to share my art out there and connect with likeminded people, and present all my ocs to the world that I have hidden in a folder on my procreate HELP. If this isn't too personal of a question, do u have an tips on self acceptance when it comes to this niche?
Oh man, I totally feel you there, I'll do my best to help ya out!
I completely understand the struggle with self-acceptance with this niche, so many spaces both in the internet and real life have stigmatized this kind of niche and made it out to be something disgusting and perverted, and something to be ashamed about..
I struggled for years with myself, feeling guilty for being into these sorts of things, and for "tainting" my characters with these thoughts, and the occasional drawing I would make in a notebook and promptly rip out and hide somewhere out of shame-
It took me a long time to finally understand why I felt the way I did, and what specific things about this niche appealed to me.
The thing that has helped me the most with the self-acceptance aspect is having a sense of community. Whether it be with just one person, or with a small group, having other people with similar interests that you can talk to and feel comfortable with helps a ton.
Around the same time last year was when I started to get more comfortable with this niche. I joined the server of an artist who's chonky art I really liked, and I got to meet new people and explore that part of myself more. But the best thing for me was finding out that one of my closest friends was also into the same things I was. It was just such a huge sense of relief when I found out, and once I started talking with her about it and sharing ideas back and forth, it became a lot easier to talk about, and it helped me get a lot more comfortable engaging with these interests of mine. A few months later, I found another one of my friends also liked this stuff, and then a few more months later, I found even MORE of my already close friends were into this
I guess the universe was just on my side, I'm so fortunate to have such kind and understanding friends that I can share this stuff with, and explore my interests with
Without them, this account wouldn't exist, and I wouldn't be making this kind of art that I share here, so I will always be grateful for that.
The best advice I can offer you is to find that sense of safety and community, whether it just be one person or several
Joining servers of artists who's work you enjoy is always a good way to meet new people, as well as interacting with artists you admire or other people in the community!
It's never easy to start, and don't get me wrong, I still do struggle with this stuff on and off, but I promise you it does get easier. Try to be kind to yourself
Think of it this way. It's SUPER normalized in society to be into like. Buff guys, or big boobies or butts or whatever, right?? Well being attracted to fat can also be seen that way if you really think about it-
Not saying that fat people should always be objectified in that way but I'm just trying to put that into perspective-
Hopefully that makes sense lol
Also, I am so glad to hear that you can find comfort and a sense of safety in this blog, because that's exactly my intention to have a safe space for people to explore their interests without fear of outside judgement
It means the world to me that you like my art so much and that you felt comfortable asking a tough question like that. I hope my advice can bring you some hope and clarity involving your situation š
I sincerely wish you the best, anon, I hope you can find the confidence to share your art with the world someday! I'd love to hear your ideas and see what kind of stuff you put out there!
#softcitrus asks#niche blog#weight gain#I would've had this posted since last night but Tumblr decided to nerf the whole thing as I was putting the tags in#So I rewrote the whole thing š#Honestly I iked the first pass more but I really wanted to answer this one so here it is TTuTT#I was being totally serious btw#If you're the anon that sent this#I'd genuinely love to see your art#If you ever end up posting it please share it with me somehow cause I love supporting this community šš
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Kotoko and her connection to Danteās Infernoās Satan
Disclaimer: This is just about symbolism and I know how it sounds but I promise Iām not trying to imply anything or demonize her! I love Kotoko! Ive just been repeatedly noticing details about the parallel for several months now and I just really want to bring it up! This is just an analysis of the details MILGRAM has provided for it. Iām incredibly sorry if I make a mistake!
Kotoko has a lot of parallels to Danteās Inferno Satan, especially in relation to Es.
To make sure weāre all on the same page, Danteās Inferno is a Christian poem that outlines the 9 circles of hell. MILGRAM directly references Danteās Inferno by quoting it in all the t2 door arts.
āAbandon all hope, ye who enter.ā A quote derived from a sign at the gate of hell in the poem.
Each ring of Hell contains sinners with different levels of sins, and each ringās sin was meant to be worse the further inside you go. Ive seen a couple theories that each prisoner correlates with a specific ring of hell. (Ex: Haruka is ring 1, Limbo; Yuno is ring 2, lust; etc)
But Danteās Inferno only outlines 9 rings, what about our 10th prisoner, Kotoko?
While it could be that sheās again the āoutsiderā to the other prisoners, the last section of the 9th ring of Hell is significant because it is the center of Hell, containing Satan. So it could be reasonably argued that Kotoko correlates with it.
MILGRAM already has a TON of religious references. One that Iāve seen pointed out is how it seems the cover art of each novel is a reference to a famous Christian art piece.
The Es in each novel seems to be where Jesus relatively is. Remember that Jesus is both the son of God AND God. God gives sinners their judgements which sounds very similar to Es and how they're giving the prisoners (the human sinners) their verdicts.
Plus, the quote Milgram quotes is on the doors the prisoners are entering, and in Danteās inferno, itās on the gate of hell so you can compare or theorize that MILGRAM is a parallel to (or straight up is) purgatory. And Es, being the one who decides the verdict, parallels God.
Also, her t2 VD is named āYONAH,ā which is the masculine version of the name Jonah. Not only does this relate to her themes of masculinity again, Jonah is a name that originates from Hebrew origins which means ādove.ā
It is also a reference to the book of Jonah. A main theme of this book is āJonah wants God to operate on his timeline [...] He wanted God to dole out punishment on his clock instead of according to God's plan. Yet God showed Jonah that in his infinite wisdom, he can't and will not be rushed.ā Which is pretty much exactly what happens in YONAH, and also once again compares Es to God.
Danteās Infernoās Satan was an angel, a splendid being, apparently the most perfect of God's creaturesā¦ an āAngel of light.ā We/Es deemed Kotoko innocent in t1. She had the highest innocent percentage in t1 too because a lot of people thought her murder was justified. You know, the most perfect of Godās creatures. The most perfect out of the prisoners.
āWe really can work together.ā
But then Satan tried to usurp God.
āIf you donāt have the strength on your own, let me take care of it. Es! I can do it in MILGRAM!ā
Kotoko wants to be the prison guard because Es isnāt capable in her eyes.
Satan was ultimately sent to Hell and punished as "the ultimate sinner" for his betrayal of trying to usurp God.
We are now punishing Kotoko for her attempts to judge the prisoners herself and āusurpā Es. It works even better now that she has the highest guilty percentage in all of MILGRAM so far as the āultimate sinner.ā
As a lot know, Fuuta also has tons of religious references too. (Ex. His VD is titled Baptism by Fire) By him also passing judgements onto people, you could say that he was trying to play God.
What is that saying about us, the audience, then? And our parallel/foil to Fuuta/Kotoko?
Danteās Inferno as a whole is very much based around the idea of āevil will be punished,ā which not only encapsulates Kotokoās ideals but MILGRAMās as well. It makes sense that MILGRAM says that Kotoko is a perfect parallel to the facility.
(I also wanna mention that there's something that could be said about the holy trinity in relation to Es + the audience + jackalope. For example, how Jesus is God in the flesh and Es is the audience "in the flesh," by acting as a personified version of us to interact with the "human sinnners" but I feel like I might be going into tinfoil hat territory.)
#edit: GIRL WTF THIS POST WAS A DRAFT I THOUGHT I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED SO I REWROTE THE WHOLE THING. BUT I JUST ACCIDENTALLY QUEUED IT??š#thisā¦. couldāve been worded much betterā¦ but too many people have seen this post now I canāt repost itš oopsā¦.#original tags:#this has been in my drafts for so many months nowš#itās been in my mind for even longer#but ive been really scared of posting this because I donāt want people to get the wrong idea#milgram#kotoko yuzuhira#milgram es#fuuta kajiyama
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I see you're including the rest of the bros in your au. Is that just for fun or did you change your mind and they'll become a part of your story? :)
Omg I'm breaking my silence Okay /J
YES brozone is officially a 100% part of the AU, the reason because I didn't want to include brozone at first it's because This AU started back around 2020 on IG, and I wanted to keep it like it was back then because The RBB AU timeline has been written SINCE THENš I just never posted the whole thing, and It didn't feel right to just change it because of band together.
(Also the first time I watched band together I wanted to strangle Brozone /j)
But āØnowāØ I rewrote it adding Brozone and Bam! The AU is fixed and we have an even more sad timeline that I can't wait to show you!!
(Also I'm totally going to use this question to say that Willow's and Rowan's ship name is Rillow because I never have an opportunity to say it)
Thank you for your question/gen because this helped me clarify so muchš
#Also when I saw JDs design he kind of gave me impostor syndrome about Willow's and Rowan's even when they were created years before ššš#there's going to be like ONE maybe TWO songs in this AU and that's it#dreamworks trolls#branch trolls#rbbtrolls#trolls comic#roots b4 branches trolls#trolls band together#trolls au#trolls world tour#poppy trolls#Rose Willow trolls#Rowan Basil trolls#trolls 3#dw trolls#baby branch#trolls branch#rillow trolls
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Just a small ramble about Cass, Wallpaper and my personal rewriting of hpma story so don't mind me. Might delete later. It's all my personal opinion tho so feel free to disagree with me.
As much as I defend Cassandra a lot (I'm afraid people from the server can confirm that) I would be lying if I said I can defend her bullying. Nothing against bully characters, I have a tendency to enjoy them (which is kinda weird given how I was bullied myself literally all my life and everywhere I go š) I genuinely don't like that part of Cassandra's character, I like her so much more outside the main story, like, don't get me started on how much I believe Y3 did her absolutely dirty and somewhat mischaracterized her (in my opinion that is) for sake of antagonizing her. And especially as someone who, unfortunately, happens to enjoy DanCass a lot, I do feel pretty iffy about that part of their canon dynamic.
I feel like Cass, as a bully, specifically in Y3, feels a bit overpowered. I understand why she wasn't punished in Y1, bc like, she almost got killed, but in Y3? I genuinely believe she'd work a lot better as a rival character, someone on equal grounds with the main cast, who just messes with us rather than bully, because her being a bully who gets away with pretty much everything creates a very unhealthy power dynamic and I'm not really a fan of that, especially given how it's clear our mc and Cassandra are friends or just enjoy each other's company enough, somewhat.
Which is kinda how I personally rewrote her dynamic with the cast and specifically Daniel: a rival character, who sometimes gets along with the main cast but often messes with them because she sees them as competition (which is how I feel they're portrayed in sidequests, Cass rarely, if ever, bullies the main gang, she's just mean to them or sometimes even actually kinda nice, in her own way, these sidequests being the main reason I love her sm). Yet because of her arrogance, she still judges people based on their family background, because for her, it's safe to assume you're going to be similar to those who raises you. And she just kinda takes things a bit too far in Y3 and the moment Daniel attacks her and McGonagall gives her a speech she's like "... Oh shit." and the realization that she really crossed the line for some petty rivalry hits her like a truck, which would initiate the whole redemption arc of hers.
But it's just my rewrite ig hehe
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what is your comfort media? like a book, show, movie, a race ect. (ps, i liked ur suggestions too!!)
amazing question, i've got a whole list anon!! i'll try to sort this into categories so it doesn't get too chaotic.
movies
die wilden hĆ¼hner (trilogy). i have seen these films countless times, i've laughed and cried at them countless times and they make me immeasurably happy. i rewatch them at least once a year. i can't put into words how much i love them. (the third one lacks a little bit of the magic of the first two, but it's still amazing.)
vorstadtkrokodile (trilogy). a very close second, i saw them for the first time in primary school and have rewatched them many times since. the theme song used to make me feel invincible and hannes was one of my first ever crushes (i think i already said this in a tag game some time ago). (the first one is definitely the best!! the third one especially kinda doesn't have the same feeling to it, but i still love them all.)
sherlock holmes movies (the ones with rdj and jude law). something about them just tickles my brain right and i could watch them on a loop.
shows
deadliest catch (reality tv). there's nothing inherently comforting about it, quite the opposite actually, but i was obsessed with this show as a kid and if i had the opportunity now, i'd still be watching it all the time. it's so fascinating to me and just the right amount of engaging to not be overwhelmed, but also not get bored. that being said, as with all things, i did get very attached to the people in the show and cried several times over the course of it when some of them passed away.
books
the gemstone trilogy by kerstin gier. my most reread books by a country mile. are they perfect? no. are they perfect to me? yes. i gobbled these up the first time around and they're my go-to remedy for a reading slump. the only thing i don't like is the ending š there is a movie trilogy that was made based on the books and they rewrote the ending, but it's still bad lol. (the second book, sapphire blue, is my favourite out of the three!)
youtube videos
the man, the myth, the legend, mike's mic. specifically, his appropriately unhinged recap of pretty little liars. top tier rewatch material. he's hilarious and i could listen to him speak for hours. have i ever watched pll? no. everything i know about it, i've learned from mister microphone and i'd like to keep it that way.
this performance of swan lake. i don't know anything about ballet and i'm not really that interested in it, but something about this is so soothing and relaxing to me. and, obviously, the music fucking slaps. tchaikovsky really ate with this.
honourable mentions
carlos sainz's interview on the 'p1 with matt & tommy' podcast has helped me fall asleep more times than i'll ever admit.
yakari was probably my favourite show as a child. it's been many years since i've last watched it and it would possibly bore or even annoy me now since it's tailored to small kids, but i can still recite a worrying amounts of episodes' content by memory.
from the bottom of my heart, i am sorry this got so long lmao. thanks for the ask, this was a really fun one!!
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details and blablah under the cut ā¤ļø
might have seen this little movie with a certain Charlie Hunnam in it? nothing big or fancy of course... *cough cough*
I am very much late to this party, ain't I?
so... I randomly discovered King Arthur, legend of the sword last year (june 2023) when I was looking for a movie to show my kids (junior high teacher here) before summer break.
and boy...
i am obsessed.
it's been almost a year now and it's not slowing down.
the hyperfixation really be hyperfixating this time.
i rewrote the whole freacking script... FOR FUN š
(it's the autism š¤·āāļø)
as a maladaptive daydreamer many stories came to my mind, many silly self-inserts with many silly cringy personalities, and some of them eventually turned into āØOCsāØ
two of these stories I have decided I will write and publish on ao3 and wattpad, and on this blog I shall detail my progress with snippets, blurbs, edits and whatnots. you are welcome ā¤ļø
I am well aware that the King Arthur fandom, if it ever existed (did you know there was supposed to be 6 movies??? š©), is probably dead and buried. But oh well, I'm in love with this movie and if no one actually reads my fics or likes my posts then so be it.
i'm just happy to share my silly stories ā¤ļø
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I will be working on 2 main projects:
ā¤ļø project 1, temporary-or-not title -> The King's Mage
a full rewrite of the movie adding my OC. as canon compliant as can be but the mage will be replaced with my OC with a full backstory which heavily impacts the plot.
tags: plot heavy, Arthur x ofc, strangers to slightly irritated partners to lovers, dual pov, 3rd person pov, semi canon-compliant
ā¤ļø project 2, temporary-or-not title -> The King's Bride
starts a few weeks after the end of the movie. A young princess is sent as a bride to Arthur in order to build an alliance between 2 kingdoms.
tags: Arthur x ofc, romance, so sweet it hurts your teeth, diabetes level fluffy fluff, innocent-pure-unexperienced-kinda-dumb ofc, maybe smut but not heavy nor the focus and would come late, strangers to lovers, forced marriage
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about the female OCs: All my fanfictions as of now had started as self-inself daydreaming. I have a maladaptive daydreaming and dissociative disorders and sometimes these stories become more than just silly little self insert scenes with my current obsession, and they start growing and growing until at some point the self-insert persona turns into a whole new original character.
Which is why the female main OCs are most of the time blondes with green eyes and fair skin, because as former self-inserts, they look like me. But their personalities and goals have developed so much that they no longer resemble mine. They have become their own. These characters I now think of as OCs and not avatars of myself.
ā I consider my work to not be self-insert for these reasons but i understand if some disagree.
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I will first focus on The King's Bride because it's less serious, more of a fun fluffy romance and requires less research and plot devices. But I will also continue working on The King's Mage on the side, just so you know, the latter one will take more time to get published.
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These two fics are not my top priorities at the moment. I am actively working on 3 other fics in 3 other fandoms. It's more of a side treat for myself since they just cannot leave my mind so whenever I feel like it I will make progress and show it here ā¤ļø
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I'm going to assume these projects will not attract many so I'm taking my time but if you are interested or excited somehow please do tell, it usually gives me a good boost if I know someone out there is expecting my work ā¤ļø
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I am currently working on 3 other wips in these fandoms: Hogwarts Legacy / Strangers Things / Rebel Moon
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You can find my subblogs for each of them where I post updates, snippets, edits and other bonus content:
ā¤ļø Hogwarts Legacy ā Everything Slytherin @slytherin-obsessed
ā¤ļø Stranger Things ā Everything Billy @billy-hargrove-obsessed
ā¤ļø Rebel Moon ā Everything Rebel Moon @rebel-moon-obsessed
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you can find two of my wips already being posted on ao3 and wattpad:
ā¤ļø Hogwarts Legacy ā ā¦ Beyond You Eyes ā¦ on ao3 and wattpad
ā¤ļø Stranger Things ā ā¦ Stranger Love ā¦ on ao3 and wattpad
ā¦ tiktok ā¦ ā I post updates, bonus content and other random things for all my fanfics, fandoms and all my c.ai bots.
ā¦ character ai ā¦ ā main account.
ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ charcter ai ā¦ ā french version.
ā¦ caard ā¦ ā all my links in one place.
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It's very embarassing that even Sirius and Remus knew that Snape was jealous of James' talent at Quidditch. I reckon James and Sirius never seriously targetted Snape before their fifth year, most likely the worst they had done was jeering at him. But they became more hostile to him after they realized that Snape was jealous of James when James became the "big Quidditch hero" and he began following them like a puppy trying to expose Remus' furry little problem. 7 years bullying = fandom invention
LMFAOOOOO
This entire ask is giving me second-hand embarrassment šš¤š¼
Aight, letās get to work:
It's very embarassing that even Sirius and Remus knew that Snape was jealous of James' talent at Quidditch.
1. Do you have any proof that Snape hated Jamesānot because he fucking assaulted himābut because he was ājealousā of Jamesās skills on a sport he canonically could not give a single shit about? Or your only āproofā is Remusāwho lied to Harry onetwothreefourfivefuckingthousand times about the whole Marauders šŖ Snape fiascoāsaying it once to Harry in PoA?
2. āItās very embarrassing that even Sirius and Remus knewā man you say that like Sirius, Remus, and James werenāt the closest of friends.šš
3. The only thing embarrassing is you genuinely believing that Severus fucking Snape who invented his own spells, rewrote the entire N.E.W.T.s Potions book to the point of surpassing his professors/the curriculum, had a thirst for the Dark Arts and mastered it, all at 16, would actually be jealous of some arrogant brat on a broom who could prance away into the forest with his stupid transfigured water goblets (no offence Professor McGonagall I luv your lessons). Is your already-minuscule brain addled, anon?
I reckon James and Sirius never seriously targetted Snape before their fifth year,
Youāa Snape-hating-Jim-Jam-worshipperāreckon that? Well, thatās enough proof for me! Totally not flat-out contradicted in canon.
most likely the worst they had done was jeering at him.
Really? Youāre really gonna read over SWM (assuming you can read) and think this only happened once?
Letās just ignore all of the hints in the text that were clearly trying to spell out that SWM was not the first time this happened. Letās ignore that the first thing Snape did was draw his wand and the speed in which he did so (āas though he were expecting an attackā anon, darling, who the fuck expects an attack if not attacked regularly?). Letās ignore the fact that Lupin frowned when James and Sirius merely turned to look at Snape, meaning he knows something badās going to happen, further suggesting this has happened before. Letās ignore the fact that the crowd looked āapprehensive, others entertainedā meaning they know shitās about to go down.
Is all this not enough evidence for your good-lil-doggie-self who sees Snape antisā idiotic posts and recite them to meāanonymously, at thatāin my inbox? The author herself plainly calls it ārelentless bullying,ā meaning it happened a lot over a long period of time. That, alone, contradicts your ENTIRE ask, anon.
And, even if what happened in SWM āonlyā happened onceā¦ā¦ā¦ how the fuck does it make what happened any less bad? Do you not realise that you sound a tad psychopathic? But, fortunately for you, anon, many more victim-blaming dunderheads in this fandom seem to share that same broken logic with you.
But they became more hostile to him after they realized that Snape was jealous of James when James became the "big Quidditch hero" and he began following them like a puppy
1. Proof? Do you have even the tiniest shred of proof to support your teeny widdle Snape-hating catechisms, of which Iāve assumed is the thousandth time youāve parroted these words?
2. You do realise that the timeline makes no sense right? Youāre saying that Snape being ājealous,ā the Marauders ābecoming more hostileā to him and Snape following them for a completely justified reason all happened a little before the werewolf prank? Iām certain it was said that James joined the Quidditch team in their second year (I think it was stated somewhere? In PS I think? Please correct me if Iām wrong), but didnāt Snape ābegin to follow them like a puppyā around the beginning of fifth year? Didnāt you claim earlier in your oh-so brainless ask that āthe worst they had done was jeering at himā before fifth year? Have you forgotten that the gap between the werewolf prankāwhich came firstāand SWM was 7 months apart? But in your ask you make it sound like they never really BULLIED (by the way, donāt go telling people what ārealā bullying is, all kinds of bullying are valid and hurtful) him before SWM. So, answer this, anon, what did the Marauders do to Snape in those entire 7 months that wasnāt to be considered āserious bullyingā but also made Snape extremely cautious and expectant of attacks in SWM? Whatās that I sense? Aha! Self-contradiction.
3. ālike a puppyā damn, have some creativity please. At the very least add a āhopelessā or āpatheticā to the insult. Just try a little harder, will you? But then again, youāre a James stan. Theyāre the least creative people in the universeāeasily told by the plot-device character they stan.
4. Ahh, so obviously a teenage boy being jealous means they deserve to be almost mauled to death by a werewolf and sexually assaulted and choked (with soap). Yes, yes, how DARE he experience totally normal feelings from a teenager! He must be punished!
trying to expose Remus' furry little problem.
Tell me, anon, why would he go after him if the Marauders never āseriously bulliedā him? Why was he so willing to take such drastic measures? Why would he be so interested in them? Why would Sirius have the awful werewolf plan on just some student he didnāt have a history with and only mocked sometimes? Why would Snape deem it necessary to create spells for self-defence if they didnāt do much to him?
Maybeā¦ maybeā¦ just MAYBEā¦ it was because the bullying canonically started before that, and they bullied him too ding dang much to the point where he wanted them to be held accountable for their horrible behaviour so theyād get off his back. Yāknowā¦ itās not like it was literally spelled out for us (it was, I was being sarcastic. Making this clear for you as I think an idiot like you would actually believe Iām being serious).
[And honestly? Sirius doing that on some random student he only āharmlesslyā bullied from time to time rather than on a student he absolutely loathed makes him so much worse. If THAT is what he does to random students, you can only imagine what heād have done for someone he despised.]
7 years bullying = fandom invention
7 years bullying = literal canon.
It all started on the train, you tosspot. James heard that Snape wanted to be in Slytherin, and so he immediately picked on him. Itās painfully obvious that the bullying went on for years. Thatās putting aside the fact that the author of the story stated that this was the case.
Hate asks like this are both so irritating and hella entertaining. Itās just so amusing to see you guys contradict yourselves so bloody much. Anon, be a deer (š) and go preach your delusions to someone who actually gives a fuck. And be grateful, cause I wasted my precious time preparing thisā¦ all for a dimbo like you.
Have the type of day you deserve!
#anti james potter#anti sirius black#anti remus lupin#severus snape#pro snape#pro severus snape#snape#anti marauder stans#anti marauderfen#anti marauders stan#anti marauder fandom#anti marauders#professor severus snape#professor snape#anti snaters#harry potter#hp
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Bestie do u know anything about the alternate edge of tomorrow ending?? Mcquarrie rewrote it right?? ik he did that with a few movies n im pretty sure edge of tomorrow was one of them
yeah!!! i read about it a while ago but forgot what it entailed so i just googled it and itās pretty fucked up ngl š basically what happens is that one of the members of j squad kills an alpha in the louvre scene so the omega regains the power to reset the day and we see it reset the day before bill wakes up in the plane again and gives the same speech he already gave in the last loop and then it fades to black which is just soooo fucked up omg id be losing my mind š but honestly i like the ending we got, it wouldāve been so delicious if heād ended up sacrificing himself in the end or whatever some people mightāve wanted but i love the whole unsung hero thing and how his journey changed in such a way that he no longer knows the man he used to be but thatās the only man everyone around him has ever known and will ever know etc etcā¦
#this is word vomit but ugh i love this movie so goddamn much you guys#ask#reply#calkale#mutual#edge of tomorrow
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gtfo with that 'pretty white privilege shit'. i didn't see you having this much outrage over barb. remember her? also had 10 mins of screentime and everyone latched onto her too. the whole #justicefor barb thing. heck the duffers rewrote s2 so they could give her story closure
Except, Barb is different from chrissy and the actress never got invited at cons, or at least, not as much as grace š
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Fun Fax: OLM chapter 4
this chapter was SO FUN to write but that doesnt mean i didnt agonize over it! i totally rewrote the end of the first section like 3 times!
in one of those versions, i was actually gonna have a tiny subplot of kazuya LYING about why he came at all, trying to dodge letting jin know anything about ogre targeting him and why - and saying on the spot that he was showing up for jinās birthday. this was going to make jin conflicted, cause hey, dad cares a little maybe, but i decided to backtrack and just scrap that entirely cause i didnt know how or when that was gonna be resolved šdad cares enough to try to stop the demon from killing you your mom, really
in ANOTHER version jin just told kazuya that he needed to call lee, but that would logically make the scene end there when kaz was like āwell shit i do have his number dont iā or make him a MAJOR DICK by letting jin do all that while having the number the whole time sdhfjkds. i mean i wouldnt put it past him but jin might have throttled him so away it went
literally didnt know where the cellphone was until kazuya gave it to jin, i made that shit up
something i didnt realize i was doing, cause im so very dumb, is leading the reader on for ages and making yall probably think that jin was still trying to get in contact with heihachi sdhf??? how i missed that is beyond me, but hey, hopefully it made you sigh in relief or just go OH???
me trying to rationalize jinās conclusion that jun is dead even though theres no definitive physical evidence and just having to roll with that:
(6.5. tried to make it a lowkey spiritual thing for reasons we will explore later lol)
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Your writing is pretty good (and hot) despite never feeling the touch of a man lmao. Sometimes all it takes is a lil imagination and using all the previously read smut as a template of sorts.
Tho I have to say as someone who both has sex and has written smut the funniest thing to add in are lil tidbits of personal experiences without anyone knowing. I was in the middle of a fic and I just rewrote the entire pussyeating scene cus I learned how to eat someone out. Tho having the characters praise one another for my own techniques does feel like the obama giving himself a medal meme.
LMAO THE OBAMA MEME š
thanks tho it it means alot ā¤ļø my biggest fear is that sound like a 13 year old on wattpad when i write smut.
i have to base everything off of what ive read and watched so i basically never write from experience which i hateeee.
i love it when people put really random descriptions in their work especially smutttt. itād be something so small that lowkey makes the whole scene better and i never to thatttt. cause Iāll try and kind be like ābro ion think anyone would actually do thatā š
but totally get you w that pussy eating thing. you deserve a medal fs bro ā
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For the headcanon thing: I'm not all the way done Rogue yet, so I could be wrong, but I have a feeling Shay never fully bought into Templar ideology. By outward appearances/records that made it into the database, sure, but anytime ideology comes up he gets a look on his face like he's just a touch skeptical. It would make sense, too, given it's established early on he questions things and that he feels responsible for backing the "wrong side" and aiding in what happened in Lisbon. If he didn't trust another ideology so easily after, even as he actively worked toward and for it, it would still be narratively consistent.
I haven't played rogue - my pc isn't good enough for it šš
mcs - main characters
But i don't think any of the main characters are fully immersed into their ideologies, most are assassins just purely because they believe in freedom and so does shay but shay felt betrayed by the assassins and then goes over to the other side (again i haven't played rogue but) it's sort of a plot hole because if shay wants people to be safe then why would he go to the templars? who are known for unnecessary kills and yk... not really having the people's safety in mind quite so much... the templars are mainly aiming for power which clearly doesn't really align with shay's beliefs. but anyways i think with shay, you're right he does question everything and i think it's more of a case of his guilt taking control of him - like he wants to undo what happened in lisbon, obviously he cant so by going against the assassins it's the closest he can do to 'make up for it'.
THIS GOT LONG LMAO - tl;dr - this isn't a headcanon this is unironically canon
back to my first statement of none of the mcs believing their ideologies, we see this right from the beginning. AltaĆÆr basically rewrote the ENTIRE creed because he realised that the assassins needed improvement, that the ideology of the creed needed to be altered. true love was not a weakness like Al-Mualim thought, it was in fact a driving factor in helping the assassins, what made Al-Mualim's betrayal more heart breaking was his greediness for power - just like a templar. he even says to al-mualim 'how could I regret the only life i've ever known?' he doesn't know anything else other than assassins vs templars because he was born into it and so by becoming the leader of the levantine brotherhood he automatically changed the creed to make it better, and actually end up returning its ideology back to the hidden ones - that's why he was so revolutionary because he improved it all with his codex, he'd only do that if he thought the creed wasn't truly good enough in the first place. i mean his ENTIRE FUCKING STORY IS ABOUT QUESTIONING THE CREED...
every mc assassin has broken a rule of the creed, maybe not specifically with it's 3 doctrines but in someway they did smth different for a better outcome, and we've all seen side characters go 'but that's not the way of the creed !!! we can't do that !!!' and the mc is like 'yeah go fuck urself'. i'd say connor is the most explicit when it comes to that because he was never in the fight in the first place, his whole aim was to kill charles lee/get revenge on the people who attacked his village - but even when he becomes a proper assassin, he still shows obvious signs he doesn't care for it - the most explicit time this happens (as far as I can remember off the top of my head) is in liberations when connor and aveline meet and she says 'connor, are you always certain of the means and the ways of the brotherhood' and connors like 'i... trust my own hands.' he clearly doesn't believe in the assassins entirely and aveline already had doubts, only to be confirmed by connor.
both jacob and evie continuously went against orders from higher ups (the biggest example of this - going to london to liberate it after they were told not to). ezio literally says not to follow him because you're meant to find your own path. and have you seen how TIRED he is by the end, especially in embers he wants nothing to do with the creed anymore, he was so tired of fighting for smth that was beyond him and for smth he would never get to see. he does obviously believe in the creed more than some but i believe that after ac2 and throughout ac3 and acr, the creed became more and more 'corrupted', moving away from liberated thinking to just fighting the templars because they're evil. bayek and aya made the hidden ones to defend people, but even with altaĆÆr's codex, we end up with less of an ideology and more of a movement. and i think just the fact that by the end, most of these assassins are just tired of this fight. a lot of them end up giving this feeling of 'i've had enough - i'm so tired' because they've spent their whole lives fighting and more people will just carry on fighting. and when that realisation hits, most of them have to fight to move on like ezio.
if you've read the wiki, you'll know that the ideology of liberated thinking and free will comes from adam and eve themselves, having fought against the isu to retain that. and i wouldn't say thats disappeared, i mean it is a reoccurring theme, but all the mcs of the games have this 'sudden realisation' of what the creed is trying to be and what it fails to be. the line between 'fighting for liberation' and 'stopping the templars' becomes blurred, and with that the creed becomes distorted, which a lot of the mcs knew which is why they never would 100% believe in the ideologies of whichever organisation they're with. and shay knew that. shay was just the only one to defect because the creed fucked up big time. ironically, despite liberation being the key word in all of this, once you're in this war, you can't escape it.
#i am such a nerd#i really pulled the quotes and evidence for this#assassin's creed#ac#zealousdetectivegladiator#ask
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Only for my followers my negative opinions about what we d0 in the shhadlws (spoilers about the season finale)
Warning this is a senseless ramble
I fucking hate it so much. I am travellong in holidays having fun and when i take a time to rest i remember it and im like. I cant fucking believe they did this to guillermo like fuck them so much. Fucking cowards. The last 2 seasons were nice but i hate they delete everything they did at the end of each season ššš like they regret moving the plot and making changes so much but if they stuck with them it would had been fine.... i was so fucking happy with vampire guillermo....guillermo was so fucking happy.... and then last minute like oh well we rewrote the lore so only guillermo can stop being a vampire lol. So both him and the guide are gonna be lesers to the others 5ever ok ok oi o kk k . Whats the point then whats the fucking point. Let the guide do her saw traps and mind games she is right and let guillermo be a vampire god damn it. And the whole thing they invented just for this season of the rule of not getting turn by other vampire and i was like. Ok i will believe this i accept it. But then it also doesnt matter much and nandor gets over it super quick so. Really all the show is just. Whats the point. Also it seems like the narrative is just punishing guillermo and it was always on the side of this poor dude but now is like it cant imagine a good outcome for this guy. Anyway dissapointed and angry and upset.
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I recently sent you a message about having a reading marathon, and you wanted to know which of the stories was my favorite, but it's so difficult to choose just one! I love "A kiss, a Cake, a Flight and a Heart Attack", especially the idea of the reader not being a morning person and Charles having to deal with it š
"Home is..." series is also sooo good, calling me single in so many ways but hey, at least they're adorable ā¤ļø As for the naughty ones, I really like the Ferrari suit trilogy (if I can call it like that haha), such a great idea and it's written beautifully :) "Newfound Jealousy" is also very interesting, something a bit different but still very hot š„ And then "Driving Lessons" is just super cute and ends up really nicely, ah it's impossible to pick just one good story out of so many!
I hope you're gonna get your writing flow back soon, and obviously some free time to be able to write some more beautiful stories!
Hope you're having a great day/night as well ā¤ļø
Oh my god you donāt even know what this means to meš«¶š»ā¤ļø
Iāll let you in on a little secret tho. I personally cannot read the suit trilogy thing without cringing uncontrollably now cause i feel like i was doing too much with itš¤£ (the titles I picked for them too? š)
And when iām honestly so surprised from the love on āa kiss, a cake, a flight and a heart attackā cause I didnāt expect it even though i spend like a whole month on it and deleted and rewrote so many different scenesšš
Right now, Iām finishing up my last semester at university so hopefully iāll have more free time soon. I have requests from back in October that i still need to write (sorry istgš) and i have a few things planned š so donāt worry, iām not going anywhere š«¶š»ā¤ļø (f1 and ferrari are holding me hostage too so thereās that as well)
My asks are always open if you wanna chat or even message me. I hope you have an amazing day/night and thank you sooo much for this ask iām actually smiling like an idiotā¤ļøā¤ļø
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I'm normally too shy to send asks, even anonymously, and this is the first time I've ever spent so much time on one but girl... I. Am. SCREAMING!!! AHHH HOW CAN HE BE LIKE THIS??? š š MC has EVERY right to be livid!!! The anguish I felt when I was reading how Taehyung was reacting to MC š¢ GAH, OF ONLY HE KNEW HOW MC REACTED WHEN SHE FIRST HEARD OF THE NEWS šš
I remember seeing an excerpt you shared with us a while back showing JK on his knees asking MC for forgiveness and I really thought we were finally going to see that when things were getting heated. I'm not sure if you've completely scrapped the idea because I do remember you saying that you had to rewrite the whole chapter but honestly the direction you took with the chapter was definitely the better option otherwise it just would have been too easy šš Maybe we get to see grovelling JK in a future update??? And it would probably feel SO much sweeter when he finally gets on his knees for her ahskdkfkjsh I'm so excited to see it!!
Missy, you did such a spectacular job on this chapter like you always do, I even had the guts to finally send an ask showing my love and support for you šš The fact that you went and rewrote the whole chapter as opposed to posting it when you felt it wasn't good enough (it will always be good enough for us) just shows how much heart and soul you put into your works.
While I'm still here (so sorry for the long ass ask š), the next time you stumble upon a rude anon pestering you for updates, you just take your sweet time and take even longer to post the next one š. Pamper yourself with the things you enjoy and, I know it's easier said than done, try not to let those haters get to you. They probably have nothing better to do with in their than to just sit there and harass writers for updates. Anyone who tries to make you feel obligated to post new chapters on demand are FAKE, your true fans will know and accept that art such as yours will always take a lot of time to finish š¤. Us real ones will always be here waiting PATIENTLY and APPRECIATIVELY for the updates that you so generously take time out of your day to grace us with. Best of luck to you working on your book and, just remember, you owe us readers nothing when it is you who provides us with so much š.
From, a shy but passionately appreciative, anon š.
Awwwh I canāt thank you enough for taking the time to write me such a sweet message I canāt thank you enough for all the kind words!
As for your question that exerpt while it unfortunately got sacked from the chapter, it is definitely not gone permanently! Just pushed further back because I couldnāt have Jungkook groveling so soon! I really wanted the push-pull dynamic between them both to still be lingering. So having him cave so fast just didnāt feel right to do! Doesnāt mean he wonāt be soon though š¤ so youāre definitely right, it will be much sweeter when we get to it! ļæ¼
Iām also happy to see someone sticking up for my girl MC haha I feel like she doesnāt catch much of a break with the readers š¤£ because while Jungkook is definitely valid on some things I feel also feel like MC is also valid on other things. Like what she did was unjustifiably stupid, she had the right to know what was going on, and an even bigger right to be mad as hell about it when she did find out! Even more so at her husband (who had good reason but this aināt about him rn š)
Once again I canāt thank you enough for your kind words and encouragement along with understanding! After an unfortunate incident at work last week Iām definitely beginning to have a whole new level of gratitude towards people who are kind and chose to be kind to me. Take care anon and please donāt ever hesitate to send more asks if you feel inclined too I would love to hear from you again!! š„¹š«¶š¤
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Feeling a little tender at the moment, what would happen after the first time Boba made you accidentally cry?
A/N: ..... ooo anon.... OOO ANON..... you come into this house and say this to me? buckle up.
my first boba request!! and LORD do i love that bounty hunter! šš„°šš though, for as much as i adore him, it was surprisingly difficult to write him?? like i wrote and rewrote a bunch, but i just couldnāt settle on how i wanted him to act/speak in a full story. š hope you donāt mind this is also in headcanon format. šš
thatās kinda sorta why it took me a bit longer to get this out for yāall. š
thank you, and i hope you enjoy! šš
Bobaās a Big Meanieā¢ and makes you cry (and how he rectifies this atrocity) headcanons
Letās be honest, in general, Boba is not a āniceā guy. That doesnāt necessarily make him a bad man, but it does mean he has the tendency to be pretty tone deaf to the feelings of others. Combined with him having a mean streak, and his propensity to sometimes laugh at the expense of others (though it does depend on who it is), Boba can play the role ofĀ ābullyā a bit too well.
Boba also has a pretty intimidating temper, all too enhanced by his physically commandeering demeanor. He doesnāt get actively/visibly angry often, like genuinely furious, however if the right buttons are pressed, and the right strings pulled, he will snap. And an angry Boba is a scary, dangerous Boba.Ā
If weāre talking about the very first time he ever makes you cry, it definitely happens pre-relationship, when the two of you are not fully acquainted with one another. Itās during that period of time when the two of you are still āgetting to knowā each other, learning each otherās personalities, behaviors, and whatnot. At the time, you and Boba had a basic understanding of each other, but mostly he stayed out of your way and you stayed out of his.
Most likely, he makes you cry during an argument. Taking into account all of the factors above, you and Boba probably butt heads on some sort of issue, like safety or security or over the occasional ethical/moral dilemma, and when it doesnāt look like youāreĀ giving up the fight anytime soon, Boba gets more irritated by the second. Youāre the only person brave enough to stick it to him, to full out tell him heās wrong, or an idiot (or both), and that really ticks him off. Boba doesnāt like to lose arguments as much as he doesnāt like to lose fights. He expects you to keel over and, however begrudgingly, suck it up all while he demands respect he thinks heās entitled to. But you donāt let up, not this time.
So Boba kinda sorta really blows up on you. At some point in arguing, something you say probably flips the switch and Boba just saysĀ āFuck thisā and lets loose. The switch from his semi-calm demeanor to one that is absolutely terrifying is honestly kinda impressive, but very scary all the same. Boba gets full in your face, all looming and big, and just rips into you. Heās speaking in that sort of half-yell, half-growl, strained tone that really does shake you due to itās intensity and the deadly ferocity thatās laced in it. Boba also grips your arms in an almost painful vice grip, all but forcing you to look directly at him, controlling you.Ā
Honestly, Boba just gets plain nasty to you. He absolutely loses most of his decorum and starts cussing you out, saying really rude, insensitive things to you. He says some pretty terrible shit, intermingling petty schoolyard insults with genuine threats, like threatening your life either indirectly or directly. And Boba seeks to cut deep, where it hurts, so he does use some of your darkest, most delicate secrets against you. And for as much as Bobaās bite hurts, his bark can be a wholeĀ lot worse.
Though itās honestly less about what he actually says to you that makes you cry. Sure, a particular line probably is the catalyst, but itās more so the chaotic, emotional, angry hurricane that Boba puts you through that finally does it. When you start crying, depending on the type of person you are, Boba either uses that against you and mocks you, or he lets up slightly, somewhat shocked to be seeing you cry. In the end though, your tears do eventually make his anger cool to a simmer and even though heās still pissed, Boba lets you go, physically that is.
He sets a distance between you and him, either watching you sob in front of him or watching you run off to get away from him, all depends on you. Boba doesnāt pursue you either way, preferring to act coldly indifferent before turning on his heel and walking away. He tells himself that he doesnāt feel guilty, but he does. He feels bad and is pissed that he does.
So for a while, you donāt see him. Boba keeps a pretty wide berth from you and occupies his time either working on something or off ship hunting a bounty. The cool down period is pretty long, because Boba is stubborn and guilty, and it makes the whole dynamic between the two of you surprisingly heavy and awkward.
How itās all resolved kinda depends. Like if youāre more stubborn than he is, and Boba approaches you, he offers you a bit of a non-apology. Like you can tell heās sorry, but he doesnāt really say the words. Itās the best youāll get from him if you wait it out, but there is a level of sincerity that you feel. However, if youāre the first to break the silence between you and Boba, to approach and apologize for something that youĀ had said, he apologizes more directly. Heāll actually say sorry for making you cry, and might tell you he doesnāt enjoy seeing you in tears. Either way, his apology is clipped, awkward, and more than a bit gruff because Bobaās not much of a tender person, but he truly does mean it. Boba may not be nice, but he is honest.
In fact, a little while later and kinda out of the blue, Boba may gift you something to solidify the apology. Be it a new blaster, or your favorite perfume or cosmetic, or something you wanted that you off-handedly mentioned once, he gets it for you. Boba doesnāt give it to you directly, only leaves it in a place that you frequent, where he knows youāll find it. He hopes it mends whatever hurt may be left over from the argument, hopes that you forgive him. Boba doesnāt expect you to thank him for the gift, in fact he kinda wants it to be a sneaky one and done type thing, but if you do, he wonāt mind, heāll just silently reply with a nod of his head.
Fortunately, the apology (however explicit or implicit) and the gift do their job, and the transgression is forgiven and healed, considering you donāt leave him for another. Boba is privately thankful for this, and for you.
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