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bkfics · 3 years

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VIII.

‘I’m glad that you four are finally reunited.’ Your mom says as you were all eating dinner.

‘yea me too mrs. L/N, and I’m really sorry for leaving Y/N back then, I was a fool. I’ll never make the same mistake again.’ Says Kiyoomi after feeding Kisara and then looking at your father.

Your father glare at him, but the nods. ‘Well… You better really not hurt and leave her again.’

Kiyoomi gulps ‘yessir!’.

You can’t help but laugh at them. When suddenly you remember a question you wanted to ask Kiyoomi. ‘Oh btw Yooms-‘ you stop midsentence after realizing that you called him with his old nickname, the one that only you were allowed to refer to him.

After blushing really hard, and seeing him giggling, you cough and then continue ‘hmm… I-I wanted to-to ask you how come you are here in Tokyo… Don’t you have practice?’

‘oh right. I forgot to tell you… mom actually got into a car accident’ he must have seen your and your parents’ shocked and worried expression ‘please don’t worry. It’s not serious, she’s in the hospital right now and the doctor said she’ll wake up in a few days, I went here to watch over her since my siblings and dad are busy at the moment. I’ll go back to Osaka once she’ll wake up and be stable again.’ He finishes with a slight smile to assure everyone not to worry.

‘Grandma? Hospital?’ You all turn to Kazuhiko who has a sad expression.

‘Is she okay? I wanna see her Okaasan…’

‘Baby… I don’t know if you can, ‘ma and ‘pa are pretty busy and so is your father..’ You tell him with a sad tone ‘and paparazzi are around…’ this time you turn to Kiyoomi.

‘Right… but they can come to the hospital if your parents can bring them, as long as we make an official statement first.. before they get the wrong idea and one of us will face danger.’ You nod at him, understanding and agreeing with him.

‘What if…’ your father starts speaking ‘you watch over the twins? You know, to get to know each other better and to explain everything to your family…’

‘That’s a really nice idea but..’ Kiyoomi says looking at the twins nervously.

‘Don’t worry, while Y/N is also here we’ll teach you the basics on how to take care of them, and if you’ll really need help we’re just one drive and call away. Really.’ Your mom says to him.

‘Ok I’ll try. Kisara, Kazuhiko, do you want to stay with me?’

They nod and yell a ‘YES!!’ making you all giggle from their cuteness.

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After eating and talking all together, you all decide that you should probably go with the twins and Kiyoomi, to teach him some necessity for the kids and to talk about the statement of you and the kids.

Arriving at the gate of the Sakusa’s house, no, I mean mansion, you try to catch your breathe and to not shed any tears. It’s been so long since you’ve been here, yes, you only saw it twice, but the people in here treated you like family, and you also did with them.

‘They missed you. I’m sure they aren’t gonna judge you.’ He assures you while holding your hand and looking straight in your eyes.

Exiting the car and giving the keys to one of their driver, he takes it while bowing and welcoming Kiyoomi with a smile, he was about to enter when he freeze, seeing you at the other side of the car with a little girl in your arms, and then seeing Kiyoomi also having a little boy in his. He turns to Kiyoomi with a confused expression and he just says that he’ll explain everything to everyone later. The driver nods and enter the car.

You four are now in front of the big door, and… some maid and bodyguards frozen in their spot with their mouth open, probably some recognizing you, and seeing new faces…

‘Ok hmm.. I know you all are confused right now.. that’s why I want you all to gather in the living room in five minutes, and I’ll explain everything.’

Entering the mansion and Kiyoomi guiding you to the living room, you can’t help but notice some whispers, but you also notice that some of them are waving and smiling at you.

In exactly five minutes, all the workers were in the living room, waiting for Kiyoomi’s explanation, while you and the twins were hiding behind his back.

‘Some of you might already have recognized Y/N, and for people that don’t, I’m pretty sure you already know who she is by hearing all of your whispers earlier. She’s my first love, but I was selfish and I still left her even tho I still love her. And after so many years I met her again a few weeks ago with two kids, I was scared and angry that I didn’t talk to her, but after finding some coincidences and equalities, I decided to confront her and just today I found out that those to kids’ he turn toward Kazuhiko and Kisara, taking their little hands delicately and letting the others see them ‘these two sweet kids are twins, the little boy Kazuhiko and the little girl Kisara, they’re my children.’

After a minute of silence and you panicking behind Kiyoomi’s back, you take a look in front, revealing your face to the crowd, you can see some shocked expressions, but most of them are smiling and they start clapping for you all. Kisara start clapping too while Kazuhiko runs behind your leg. And Kiyoomi continues his speech.

‘I know it might be too sudden and a shocking news, but it’s the truth, also… please, don’t say anything to my siblings and dad, not yet. I’ll tell them personally. Thank you all very much. Really.’

They all congratulate you and Kiyoomi and get to know a little about the twins, after talking about the statement and deciding that it will be posted after telling it to his family, you see that it was already late, so you put the twins to sleep while having Kiyoomi watching your every move and taking notes for himself, you two say goodnight to each other with him giving you a kiss on your cheek.

‘Sleep well, and don’t worry too much, I’ll explain everything to my family and take care of the twins, I promise to update you every second’ a laugh leave both of your mouths.

‘But for real tho. Relax, everything will be okay and in a flash we’ll be back to Osaka to you.’

‘Thank you Kiyoomi. I’m sorry I can’t go see aunty, but I hope she’ll wake up soon.’ You smile sincerely ‘you too, sleep well.’

‘Thanks, we’ll drive you to the station tomorrow morning.’

You nod and watch him go to his room, which is beside yours and the twins. And before he closes the door..

‘so.. Yooms hmm..’ He says teasing you while smirking and giving you a wink.

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the-lupine-sojourner · 5 years

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Love Conquers Amnesia [Amnesiac!Eijiro/Takara(OC)]

Hiya! I saw This video and couldn’t help thinking about KiriKara (my name for the ship. I can’t think of a better one, so if you can, leave it in a comment below!), and this is the result! Anyway, in writing it and trying to think of a realistic way for Kiri to lose his memory, I kinda veered from the video when I meant to practically quote it, but I also like this version, so here we are! Also, if you want more domestic KiriKara, send an Ask or message me and I’ll totally write it (as long as it’s not smut. Sorry!)!!

Real quick before I begin, @dailyojiromashirao is pretty much on my permanent MHA writing taglist, cus they’re always so sweet and supportive! Love you! And maybe @elite-guard-hardygal would enjoy this, too?? IDK. Feel free to ignore, lovey!

Now that that’s done, I will only this before we begin; I hope you all enjoy!

God Bless and Good Day!

~The Lupine Sojourner

(P.S: This guy is my headcanon/faceclaim for Adult!Eijiro, btw. I haven’t seen Bleach, but I know he’s a character in that show. This is the face Kiri makes when he sees his waifu but doesn’t remember her yet. She startles him with her beauty! XD)

Statistically, it was probably more shocking that it took so long for this to happen, given our profession.

But, it was still very shocking to get a call in the middle of a daytime patrol. “Are you Mrs. Takara Kirishima?” The person on the other end asks. I gulp.

“Yes, this is she. Who’s calling?” I ask as politely as I can.

“The receptionist at Sanno Hospital. I’m calling to report your husband’s admittance.” Instantly, my heart plummets into my toes, and the temperature seems to drop below freezing.

“O-oh...I...Is he..?”

“He’s in surgery. We’re still unsure precisely what happened, but more details are emerging the longer we have him. The doctors are very hopeful, however.” I can’t help but not feel comforted by those words. Something could always happen. It only took one wrong move, one instant, for everything to change.

“O-okay. I’ll be there in around thirty minutes. Thank you.” I say, then hang up. I race back to my agency. The one Kiri and I shared, like everything else. I rip off my headgear and toss it into the locker along with my belt, all while calling out the situation, before sprinting for my- -our- -car. We were supposed to drive home together and have a family movie night with our five-year-old son, Senshi.

This wasn’t supposed to happen! Kiri had an amazingly defensive Quirk. How could someone have hospitalized him?!

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“The story we’ve pieced together from the data we’ve collected is this;” the doctor explains when I arrive. “your husband was fighting an unknown villain, and somehow suffered trauma to the head, resulting in the loss of the fight, and…”

“What?” I press urgently. I needed to know!

“Well, with brain injuries...memories are the easiest to lose, we’ve found. It appears your body automatically purges memories first instead of the knowledge of how to breathe, for example. I’m sorry, Mrs. Kirishima, but there is a strong possibility that your husband won’t remember much when he wakes up.” I thank him for telling me absently, eyes peeking into the room, to Kiri laying still on the bed. “And we’re not sure when he’ll wake up. We hardly had to use anesthesia on him for the surgery; he was unconscious when he was admitted, but without any real indication that we could find as to why. I’m sorry.” I nod.

“Thanks for doing what you could, doc.” I murmur, walking slowly into the room. The man smiles sadly at me and leaves me to sit beside Kiri. His hair had to be combed down and messed around so they could run tests to see why he was still out cold, and the black hospital gown looked incredibly odd on him. His chest rose and fell rhythmically. It seemed to lull me into a doze, one I tried to fight without much luck.

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It’s only a few hours later that I wake up, and Kiri still isn’t awake. I hold in a groan and stand, stretching out my back and arms that were sore from sleeping in the chair.

I wasn’t planning on leaving til Kiri woke up and I could ascertain for myself his condition, so I watch him. His chest goes up and down and the heart rate monitor beeps incessantly as time creeps by. It was unknown how long I sat there before I started to fall asleep again. I shook myself. I wouldn’t fall asleep again until I saw Kiri awake.

So I stood again, deciding to leave briefly to get a cup of coffee and call people. Mainly Ma, Pa (what I call Mr. and Mrs. Kirishima) and Katsuki. They deserved to know what had happened.

It went about as well as expected. They were upset (Katsuki vowing to roast Kiri for being so sloppy as to let that villain get a hit on him), but promised to get here soon.

I then got my coffee and headed back to Kiri’s room, only to find him standing and gazing at the sunrise out of his window, his IV pole clutched beside him.

I gulp. Time to see what was what with him. I grin and walk over. “Beautiful, huh?” I ask, sipping the coffee. He flinches, jerking his head to look at me.

“Yea- -uh...did...did the doctors send you?” He asks, stunned, cheeks red. I blanch. Of course. Memory loss was a high probability, the doctor had said.

“N-no.” I murmur, gulping the coffee to avoid talking. How was I supposed to deal with this?! How long would this last?!

“Wow…” He breathes, taking me in and smiling. “You must be the prettiest woman in the whole world.” It’s almost like he wasn’t aware he was talking out loud. I blush. Even without memories of our marriage, he was attracted to me.

“Thanks.” I reply, chuckling. It then drops. “...Do you know my name?” I ask tentatively. Eijiro frowns, scanning me again.

“...I’m sorry, but no...should I?” I sigh. Of course he wouldn’t remember...

“Takara.” I reply. “It’s Takara Kirishima.” There. I’d kinda told him. He’d have to piece it together now. His eyes narrow in thought, then go wide.

“Are you my sister?” He asks. I snort.

“No. No, I’m not.”

“Cousin?” I smile.

“Not a cousin, either.”

“...Then...what?” He asks shyly. I roll my eyes.

“I’m your wife, dummy.” I chuckle, ruffling his hair. He blinks several times, then grabs my left hand. I slip the glove I hadn’t taken off and he stares at the simple sterling silver band around my ring finger.

“...We’re married?” He exclaims, staring at my face now. I grin proudly and nod.

“Yeah. For almost six years now.”

“Whoa, really?! How do I not remember that?! Man, I hit the jackpot!” I chuckle, scratching the back of my head, cheeks scarlet. Wow...

“The doctors aren’t really sure. You were admitted to the ER unconscious and had to go into a brief surgery to try and determine what happened. They still don’t know, but my guess is a Quirk’s to blame.” Kiri nods.

“I have one, too, right? A Quirk?” I nod.

“Yup. You can harden your body using your body’s carbon. Downside is you can’t do it forever.” He frowns, then grins happily.

“I think...I think I remember that!” He cries. “I use it to fight, don’t I?”

“Yup. You’re a hero. You help a lot of people at our agency.”

“Our agency?” Eijiro asks, head tilted. I grin.

“Yeah!” Just then, I hear the door open behind us. I glance over and see Katsuki glaring from the doorway, only halfway out of his costume, as well.

“Hey! Shitty Hair! Remember me?!” Kiri turns.

“...You know me?” He asks. Katsuki does a double-take, then scoffs.

“Right. Forgot. You let a villain hit you with some dumb memory loss Quirk. Your wife called me. I was closer than your parents are, but they’ll be here.”

“Oh. Thanks.” Kiri murmurs, looking at Katsuki’s outfit. “...Are you a hero, too?” Katsuki flinches in irritation, then deflates.

“Yeah. So’s your wife, dumbass.”

“Katsuki, thanks for coming, but don’t be mean.” I warn. I knew, however, that this was just Katsuki being Katsuki. He didn’t really mean it.

“Ground Zero, right? That’s...that’s your hero name?” Kiri suddenly asks, eyes lighting happily. Katsuki smirks.

“Finally, you remember something!” I roll my eyes.

“He remembered his Quirk and that he was a hero before you got here.” I point out.

“I don’t remember my hero name, though. Or yours, Takara. Sorry.” I wave that aside.

“No worries! You wanted to model your hero image after Crimson Riot, so you chose Red Riot as your hero name as an homage.” Eijiro’s eyes light up.

“Oh, right! He’s so manly and hardcore! What’s yours?” I chuckle and rub the back of my neck awkwardly. It always sounded weird when I explained it out loud.

“Well, I’ve always liked foxes and wolves, so I chose Kitsune as my hero name.”

“That’s awesome!” I laugh.

“You had that reaction the day we chose our hero names, too.” I reminisce fondly.

“Yeah, back when you two made dopey heart-eyes at each other in class and we all pretended we didn’t see and wanna puke.” Katsuki adds, scoffing and crossing his arms. His smirk betrays his happiness, though.

“Really?” Eijiro asks, eyeing me.

“We-well, it was more like I made the heart-eyes and then, ah- -do you recall something called the USJ incident? It happened almost nine years ago…” Eijiro frowns.

“I...I think so. We were in some huge building, right? Combat training?” I shake my head.

“No.” I grimace. Even now, the memory was painful, my ribs recalling that day easily. “We were supposed to be doing rescue training.” I murmur. “Then villains attacked. My mom nearly died. She was our teacher.” Eijiro frowns.

“Oh. Right. I was the one who found you, right? Against a fountain with a nearly collapsed ribcage?” I nod.

“Yeah. That was a tough week.” He nods.

“Ah, you babies got over it.” Katsuki muses. “If you ask me, that’s when you two nerds started liking each other and making everyone around you nauseous with your mushy attitude.” Eijiro then blushes and tilts his head, scratching the back of his neck.

“Uh...Takara, I’ve been meaning to ask...do we have kids?” I smile, pulling my phone out. I pull up a picture of Senshi at his fifth birthday (just a few weeks ago), sharp teeth on display as he grins at the camera.

“Yeah; a son, Senshi.” My hand goes to my stomach subtly. I’d planned to tell him the revelation I’d had this morning, the one still waiting on our bathroom sink. But not now. I’d wait til he had more memories to tell him, though. Eijiro stares at the picture for a long minute or two, gently taking my phone.

“He’s just like me…” He murmurs. I nod.

“Yeah.” His black hair came from his father, but the large brown eyes were from my side. It was adorable, and an instant recipe for success on his end when he gave me the infamous ‘puppy eyes’. “He’s a good kid.”

“Yeah, that brat’s alright.” Katsuki admits, scoffing a little. Surprisingly, Katsuki handled Senshi well. He wasn’t usually too forceful and angry with the kid. He’d really come a long way since our high school days, when he’d terrified any child that dared look at him wrong.

“I can’t believe we’re married and have a kid..” Eijiro murmurs thickly, and I notice tears on his cheeks. “How could I have forgotten you? I’m sorry, Takara...I’m so sorry…” I hug him, tears forming in my eyes.

“Eiji, it’s okay.” I murmur, rubbing his back as he clutches me. “It’s not your fault.”

“If I’d just taken care of that villain, none of this would’ve happened.” Eijiro sobs. I blink.

“So...you remember?” I ask, drawing back just enough to look him in the eye.

“Bits and pieces. The more we talked, the more I remembered. The picture of Senshi was like the final key.” He says. “That guy’s Quirk wasn’t affected by my Hardening, and it only took a touch for it to work.”

“Great, you remember, now stop dancing around each other and kiss already.” Katsuki grumbles before I can react. I laugh and hug Eijiro again. He’s blushing as we part a few moments later.

“...Can we?” He asks. “Can we kiss?” It was exactly what he’d said, the morning he’d confessed. We’d gone sunrise hiking and he’d asked that as we watched the dawn unfold. I smile and play with his hair, just like I had that morning.

“Of course you can.” I reply, continuing the reenactment, and he all but tackles me in elation, kissing me so eagerly, I’m pretty sure my lips are swollen and bruised.

“Oi! I know i told you to kiss, but come on! Knock it off!” Katsuki growls. I smile into the kiss and deepen it, knowing it would piss Katsuki off. Sure enough, he growls and is stalking over when Eiji pulls back to stick his tongue at Katsuki.

“Oh, lay off!” He replies. “You’re just jealous cus you’re still single.” Katsuki growls and grabs the front of Eiji’s hospital gown.

“What did you say?!” Katsuki growls.

“Oh, good; I see we were worried for nothing.” Comes the voice of my mother-in-law. I look behind Katsuki and wave.

“Hi, Ma!” I call. I generally call Mrs. Kirishima ‘Ma’ or ‘Mama’, and Mom...well, ‘mom’. “Turns out, Eiji got hit by a Quirk that knocks you out and gives you amnesia, but it’s nullified by showing the victim photos or talking about the missing memories, evidently. He remembers.”

Ma nods. “Thank goodness.” Eijiro hugs his parents.

“Hey, guys.”

“Hello, Eijiro.” Ma replies. Pa smiles and ruffles his son’s hair.

“Gave us quite a scare there, son.” He says. “But, of course, you pulled through!” Eijiro nods.

“Cus Kirishima men always win!” He says proudly, fist-pumping his dad. I roll my eyes. That was part of the reason Kiri was so upset in Middle School; his father encouraged bravery and manliness in his son and when Eijiro failed to act in that attack, it whacked his self-esteem.

But, over time, he’d become every inch a brave, manly hero. And an even better man to be married to. I side-hug him and squeeze his side reassuringly. “And the Kirishima women will always support their man.” I add, chuckling as Ma nods.

“Agreed. Knew I liked you when I met you, Kara.” I grin.

This was what we’d always have; a family to fall back on, no matter how bad or weird things get. Family is priority. Always.

Crappy ending is crappy, but hope you liked the rest! XD

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reginasrandomthoughts · 5 years

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So I watched Crimes of Grindelwald...

...yesterday, opening night (in my country), after a long day, and all I got from it was confusion, a bit of anger and this water bottle:

(and yes, I doctored the image because, just like most of the film, it has dull, dakr colours. I hate it, thanks) Full spoilers beneath because I am just pissed (I think I will think about the positives separately).

So... let’s start with the ladies. Leta Lestrange.

I will only mention it in passing that here is another Slytherin character getting the shaft, because as much as it bothers me, this is not the point here. By my count there are three black characters named AND with speaking roles and Leta is one of them. (the other female chara is Seraphina Picquery who is gone after the first 4 minutes, the third is Leta’s half brother’s but we’ll talk about him later)

So anyway: her background story: Leta’s mother, a beautiful black woman of high aristocratic standing was coveted, Imperioed, abducted and raped by Corvus Lestrange, Leta’s father, and I think she died while giving birth to Leta. I think this is the point where someone should have talked to JK about slavery, because if this story is raising redflags for me, a white European, it must be obvious in the US. Gosh. Going on Leta’s father remarries goes on to have another child, that child needs to be taken to America bc Yusuf Karma, Leta’s half brother, swore an unbreakable vow to kill what’s dearest to Lestrange. So now roughly 10 year old Leta is on a boat to the US with a half-elf nanny and the baby that refuses to stop crying and she trades the baby off with another baby boy on the ship (she intended to do it just for a little while) and then the ship sinks and the baby brother drowns. (Sidenote: the switched away baby is Credence). The image of the sinking baby is Leta’s boggart (good luck making that funny). In Hogwarts she was a troublemaking outcast whose only friend was Newt, and as an adult she is described as someone who nobody in the wizarding world loves. Also, she has this thing with Newt where she is totally in love with him but for some reason she is going to marry his brother? She also works at the ministry that is portrayed as one of the bad guys and oh yea, she dies at the end after a fake-out “will she join Grindelwald?” moment. She supposedly dies to protect Newt (Theseus?? I don’t know, her last words are “I love you” and she is looking at where both of them are standing together, so we shall never know). By the way, remember the time Leta was described as a taker by Queenie? Apparently, her “being a taker” involves her thinking she doesn’t deserve to be loved by Newt because she thinks of herself as a monster. Also, apart from her backstory scenes she doesn’t do much regardless of how her backstory is kind of important for the central mystery of the film and how the final showdown takes place in the Lestrange tomb.

Now, next up is Nagini. Remember all the outrage caused by the sudden reveal that Voldemort’s snake used to be an Asian lady who turned into a snake against her own will? Remember how people brought up the submissive Asian woman trope in connection with that? It’s worse in the movie. After Credence and her escape from the circus where she is held she does nothing. She is just there to be Credence’s comfort blanket. She transforms into a snake twice: once in the circus and once when she is attacked but that doesn’t do much and Credence has to save her. (btw, I don’t blame her for it. If i knew that one day I won’t be able to turn back into a human I would, too, try to spend as much time as a human as possible.) Also, two more things: she and Credence are posed as this couple and we are supposed to be feeling bad for her when Credence goes with Grindelwald to find out about his past rather than build a future with her. But their relationship is already undermined by the fact that Dumbledore says (I think it’s him) that the obscurus grows in absence of companionship and friendship and if Credence were to get it, it would disappear and in the film, Credence still turns into an funky looking angry black smoke bomb so... REALLY hoping she gets a TON of development in subsequent movies.

Queenie... Queenie is portrayed as a date rapist here. There is no tiptoeing around it. She enchants Jacob (presumably with a love spell that incapacitates him to the point he cannot cut his own food up) so she can whisk him away so they can get married because Jacob didn’t want to take the risk of marrying her and her being taken to prison for it. Jacob asks her when she planned on releasing him, when they were married with five kids? And Queenie has no answer for it. You know who else did something like this in the HP universe? Merope Guant, the woman who gave birth to Voldemort. Not a company you wanna be in, since it is heavily implied that it was because of the love potion she used that Voldemort became what he was. Also, can we just point out that Jacob already loved Queenie and just wanted to protect her and Queenie’s reaction to this was to take his free will and his ability to disagree away from him? Queenie ends up joining Grindelwald to create a world where muggles can marry wizards, but Jacob calls her crazy for it and rejects her when she suggests that and she still goes! Her decision costs her the reason why she’s making that decision in the first place! What are you hoping for at this point, Queenie? Another enchantment?

I don’t really agree with this sudden shift in character, but oh well. Also, now apparently Queenie also has trouble with her legilimens abilities that can overwhelm her.Don’t know how I’m feeling about that, but how the fuck is a legilimens who can READ PEOPLE’S MINDS gets duped by the bad guys?

The other female characters I didn’t see enough of to have an opinion and TIna I mostly liked. She is finally showing bits of the badass auror she could be. Good luck competing with a ghost for Newt’s love though. She and Newt are portrayed as this “we are just getting together” couple but I always felt like Newt would ditch him if Leta wanted him back. Even though Tina is a way better fit. Liked their parallel scenes with the monkey-koi-kitten thingy.

Now onto the men.

Yusuf Karma. Yusuf swore an unbreakable to kill what is dearest to Lestrange after he abducted and raped his mother which resulted in his father going insane. He assumes that most precious son is Credence so he is just going after him and at more than one points he says something along the lines of “I have to do it, it’s either him or me”. This is not even the proper avenger philosophy because it is literally true, because if he doesn’t kill him the vow will kill Yusuf. Ofc, since a large part of the story is about sympathizing with Credence and wanting to save him Yusuf is portrayed as a villain for a lot of the time. Also, while I’m throwing stones, isn’t Yusuf’s mother the “woman in the fridge” trope? Put there to create angst for a male character? She isn’t even the one Leta is angsting over. It is literally just Yusuf (and his dad who is never shown).

Sidenote: Grindelwald has an Asian henchmen, who is so unimportant that I had to look up his name on Imdb (it’s Krall nolastname) who is the only one of Grindelwald’s followers who dies in the fire (fiendfire??) Grindelwald uses to test the loyalty of his followers. It was foreshadowed but I still don’t get how he betrayed Grindelwald because he wasn’t even on screen long enough to do so. It’s almost like he was only put there to die. BTW, I don’t even think there were any more notable Asian characters apart from him and Nagini. Good representation there JK.

The other male characters I didn’t have much of a problem with. Newt I liked, Jacob was okay but was better in the first film, Theseus was an asshole but the Leta angst worked and I came to like-pity him a bit, Credence I felt for... Surprisingly even Grindelwald worked. Even though he always looked like he was just about to fuck whoever he was talking to. I don’t know how I feel about Johnny Depp in the role, but at least it looked like he put in some work.

And now the plot.

So many fucking fake-outs. The whole plot is a fucking fake-out. So according to the plot Grindelwald is looking for Credence in Paris and Credence is looking for his birth parents and his true past. And there is this whole confusion because the half-elf servant of the Lestranges’ is the one who signed his adoption papers, and for a while it is thought that Credence is the lost Lestrange baby and Yusuf thus wants to kill him, but then Leta’s backstory is told and it turns out that this whole treasure hunt leading us on was pointless because it turns out that Credence is not a Lestrange and Leta has no idea who he is. At which point Grindelwald offers tot ell Credence who he is and Credence goes with him and BAMM, you’re Aurelius Dumbledore, Credence, Albus is your brother and wants you dead. HOW???!!! So I read up some theories here but here is the thing, none of the theories that were born so far manage to help this shit make sense. Like, okay, let’s see the flimsy proof for it: Albus Dumbledore says that when in dire need a phoenix will come to a Dumbledore ans Credence finds a little bird and at the end of the film that baby bird turns into a full fledged phoenix. Cool. But also, this scene ties Credence thematically to Newt, who also was shown nursing a baby bird (although a raven, which is the Lestrange emblem, so please @me any crazy theories about how that foreshadows that Credence is a Lestrange and how Newt will save him or how Credence is a Scamander or even ship things. all three would make more sense than Aurelius Dumbledore does) So, the first reaction from people seems to be “Grindelwald is lying to get Credence to go after Dumbledore” because we know that he thinks that Credence is the only one who could kill Dumbledore. I am leaning towards this but at the same time I REALLY hope it’s not true. Why? Because then this whole fucking movie is pointless. Credence’s arc throughout the series would just be this shit: Credence you are an unimportant squib, no actually you are a powerful obscurus, no actually you are the lost Lestrange baby, well actually you are Aurelius Dumbledore and then presumably, actually I lied I have no idea who you are, probably just a nobody who just happened to be strong. I can totally see it go this way, I feel like it will go this way, but can we just lay off the clichés please? Anyway, prime points supporting this conclusion apart from logic is: Grindelwald was looking for a much younger obscurus than Credence, a.k.a. he could not have been looking for a lost Dumbledore, Grindelwald knew about the Dumbledore family legend as well so he could have faked the phoenix (??), thematically this whole “your past is not as important as your future and it does not defy you” theme would play into this.

Now there are of course other theories, like “he truly is a Lestrange and the elf-lady had to die to hide that fact and the records were manipulated” but so were Leta’s memories then? Also, the elf-lady had to die so Credence would have no choice but to walk into Grindelwald’s trap for answers. My favourite one has to be “Credence has Ariana’s obscurus in him” simply because of the how? That goes against HP canon, that goes against obscurus lore and that goes against Fantastic Beasts timeline. So... yea, I hope it is true, because at least that would be interesting. If we gonna go crazy go full crazy.

Last but not least there were a few elements that mildly annoyed me. Like Yusuf having a weird eye parasite, which I read as a fake-out as to why he needed to kill Credence, but which went nowhere. The “Newt has an assistant at home who is in love with him went nowhere. And the best of all, Grindelwald is going to be brought down because a fucking niffler stole his fucking jewelry that binds him and Dumbledore to not fight each other. What the fuck is up with that.

Also, I just remembered it, which is a shame, but Grindelwald was campaigning for a wizard take-over by showing the future a.k.a. World War II to his followers, including the atom bomb, and saying this is what will happen if the muggles are allowed to rule themselves. CAN JK ROWLING PLEASE NOT LEAN INTO THE WORLD WAR II AND NAZI REFERENCES FOR ONCE??? Just once, look at the real world parallels JK and walk away! Fuck.

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mafia! Jeonghan

anon requested: “ I hope I understood the FAQ's right, and if not I am very sorry, please ignore this! I wanted to request a mafia-boss! Jeonghan scenario (the bullet list ones) where he randomly meets the reader who isn't involved in that life. And while he tried to not involve her, he can't seem to stay away from her. I just want to read about sexy daddy-ish jeonghan hahhaha. I really enjoy your scenarios btw. Especially the harry potter ones! Thank you guys for the hard work💕 “ and “ hi hello! i love mafia/spy/assassin au's and i was wondering if you could do a mafia jeonghan? thanks :) ! ♡♡ “

Admin note: S O R R Y this took so long, I’ve never had such difficulty writing anything like this before and I hit a block with this one. Tysm for the kind words though bb ^~^ (btw I connected this to Joshua’s mafia au and the reader in Joshua’s au is y/n’s friend, f/n, in this story :D)

Yoon Jeonghan had not felt safe in a long time

when you’re breaking the law

things like safety aren’t a commodity one can afford

but luckily

Yoon Jeonghan was no average criminal

when he first started out

he was the best forger of fake ids and passports in the city

he started from the darkest pits of the system

and from the bottom, there’s nowhere to go but up

that’s what made the svt mafia gang incredibly efficient

the high level bosses may have had plenty of employees under them

but all the business was attended to personally

Seungcheol manning weapons deals

Joshua holding deals negotiations

Jeonghan planning the jobs

when Seungcheol walked into Jeonghan’s little shop for fake official docs

asking for a new ID, back before everything started

Jeonghan didn’t know who he was dealing with

but he found out after

a mafia’s son, of a group that died

when he readily agreed to help Seungcheol

they ended up going into business together

and thus the svt gang was born

Joshua joined soon after along with all the others

but Jeonghan felt like they were more than just coworkers

and relying on other people for survival made him feel safer

Jeonghan’s primary job is planning jobs for the gang

making sure that there are at least fifty backup plans

and there’s no way anyone can mess up

he loves watching everything happen under his direction

like a conductor revels at the intricacy of the harmonies in the orchestra under his direction

and how he pulls all the strings

making everything fall perfectly in place

each move carefully planned in his head

but the real thrill

he loves the feeling of going out for a job the most

blood rushing

the feeling of power as he steadily aims a gun

and hits his target

the money that came with it all

the adrenaline

it kept his mind calm

pushed aside the fears he had

it kept his heart racing

better than beer and soju at the bar

it’s interesting building your empire up from the ground up

but it’s dangerous

this Jeonghan knew

svt’s success was met with resistance from other gangs

and the law enforcement of the city was finally catching on

but his plans made svt one of the most notorious mafia groups of history

their name was feared

but sometimes things don’t go as planned

you can’t account for every possibility

that was how Joshua went missing after the last job

it had been pretty simple too

a new group had been acting reckless in their territory

getting the police’s attention

and Joshua had been sent to warn them about the consequences of messing not only with the law enforcement

but with svt in their home turf

and then

Shua disappeared

just gone

the whole group tearing apart the city to try to find him

Jeonghan tearing up everything to find him

Jeonghan wasn’t taking it well

he kept blaming himself for the missing team member

you don’t mess with one of them and get away with it

so when he got a lead one night

the name of your friend, f/n

he went out to investigate himself

he was so desperate and out of it he didn’t pay attention to the possibility of it being a trap

and that’s how he got a bullet to the leg

and came crashing through the door to your convenience store

and whether he wanted to or not

crashing into your life

that brings it around to you

you’d like to think you led a very average and normal life

but now

you weren’t sure about anything

especially after meeting Jeonghan

living in the city is difficult

especially since you had to for university

a broke college student trying to make enough money to pay for tuition and finish your degree

anything for a better life

you had always needed to take care of yourself

after all you didn’t have anyone else to help you

it’d be working eight hour shifts on the weekends

and then writing your research paper for English at night

it didn’t leave a lot of free time for anything

you got jobs where you could find them

and quit old jobs when you found better paying ones

the convenience store clerk job may not have been in the safest neighborhood

but it paid decently and you could do statistics homework during break

oh and free snacks

one night you got a text from the owner asking you to take the graveyard shift

since the person just quit

you’d be paid overtime

which was exactly what you needed

guess it was going to be potato chips and coffee cans for dinner

the owner kept acting suspicious though

but money was money

so there you were

midnightish, raiding a can of pringles

trying not to fall asleep

when a loud bang made you jump

you look outside the window

you hear another loud bang

”What-”

you run low to the ground and over to the door, flicking off the lights as you go

and turn the bolt on the door before running back to the counter

sitting under it, wrapping your arms around your knees

heart beating fast

this wasn’t the safest of neighborhoods

you knew that too

you’re never taking the graveyard shift again

”I could have been sipping hot cocoa and watching my favorite show right now” you think to yourself, trying to calm your unsteady heartbeat

a loud crash rang out behind you

glass shattering as the door to the store was broken

holding in your scream, you hold your breath

maybe they wouldn’t notice you

was it someone trying to rob the store?

you hear a string of curses

it doesn’t sound like some masked robber trying to kill you?

if anything the voice was gentle but strained

it sounded like they were hurt

slowly

you peek behind the counter

a man

he’s wearing dark clothes

his brown hair neatly styled

he falls on the ground and you gasp as you finally see what’s wrong

blood

blood clearly smearing the floors you had mopped not too long ago

pooling faster than you thought possible

he starts crawling over to an aisle

you freeze unsure what to do

you should call the police

but what if they don’t get here in time

and you had a gut feeling

a pit sinking in your stomach as you realize it could be a bullet wound

and before you can properly think about the situation

you quickly run out from behind the counter to the toiletries section and watch as he looks up weakly at you

eyes misty

in a panic you try talking to him

anything to keep him conscious

”I really can’t have you dying in my store, I need to get my paycheck not a homicide investigation.” you whisper, freaking out finally

the gash on his leg made you almost hurl

”God I regret not listening to my mom and becoming a doctor.” you wanted to scream

reaching quickly you grab gauze from the aisle and some disinfectant

”Hey! Hey sir?” you ask him

you place the bandages on the ground as he attempts to hold himself up

he looks at you, reaching for your arm

gasping

he grunts in pain

”God what the actual-” you apply pressure on the gauze on the wound on his leg

you scream

tears starting to form at the corners of your eyes

panic at the idea you really wouldn’t be able to save his life

something about the way he looked at you

you must really be his last chance

you hold onto the pressure on his leg as you reach for your phone

you call 911

“911, what’s your emergency?”

“I- have- there’s someone bleeding-”

“I need you to calm down-”

you watch as the injured man grabs your phone

a string of choice words said through his teeth as he hangs up

“Are you crazy?” you ask him, “You’re going to die, I’m not a doctor!”

he types in a phone number and brings it up to his ear before saying one word

“Help.”

the line cuts and he lays his head down on the ground

eyes looking around in panic and pain

you keep pressure on his injury to try to stop the blood

you can’t just leave him here

you wrap the wound with the remaining bandages, wincing whenever he winces with pain

honestly you’re not functioning correctly

you feel a pressure on your arm as he grabs you and pulls you down on the ground

“What-”

he holds up his hand, grimacing, and says, “Quiet.”

his voice is soft as you both take cover behind the shelves of the store

voices can be heard from outside

“You definitely hit him.”

“He crashed into the window look.”

“Let’s just hurry up and finish. The cops might show soon.”

“I’ve waited a while to take down Jeonghan. Tonight is a good night.”

your eyes widen as you stare at the guy with the bullet in his leg

his name must be Jeonghan…

he stared blankly in the direction of the voices and kept still

“Is there another exit?” Jeonghan finally whispers to you

“Yea the back door…”

“I think it’s time to go then.”

Jeonghan attempts to get up and almost immediately falls due to his leg

you can already hear approaching footsteps

whoever those people were

you had a good feeling, they weren’t friendly

Jeonghan’s face had gone pale, sweat dripping from his forehead at the strain of trying to walk with a bullet wound

briskly, you take his arm and drape it around your shoulder and help support him as you both walk quietly towards the back of the store, keeping low to the ground

you unlock the back employee door and stumble outside with Jeonghan still being supported by you as you walk into the back alleyway, laying him gently on the ground before fumbling for your car keys

“We need to get you to a hospital-” you start saying, turning back to Jeonghan

the point of a gun enters your vision as soon as you turn

freezing mid sentence, you look at the owner of the gun

another guy, maybe about the same age you would guess to Jeonghan stood in front of you

his black hair framing his face

his stare was cold, calculating

without taking his eyes off of you, he bends down, keeping the gun trained on you as he examines Jeonghan

“Hannie, you alright?”

“Cheol, yea- I’m fine.”

“How about Shua, did you meet f/n?”

“It wasn’t her, got attacked.” Jeonghan stares at you, “She didn’t do it Cheol, stop pointing the gun at her.”

you watch in confusion as Cheol lowers his weapon slowly, still staring at you and helps Jeonghan up to his feet

wait

f/n?

“How do you know f/n?” you blurt out without thinking

“How do you know f/n?” Jeonghan asks you, steadying himself against Cheol

“She’s my missing friend, I haven’t seen her since last-”

“Last Tuesday?” Jeonghan finishes your statement

“Yea, how did you-” you stutter

the night’s events finally running their course on you after the adrenaline wore off

“Cheol,” Jeonghan asks his friend turning, “What about the guys outside?”

“I had Wonwoo take care of them, but we couldn’t find you so that’s why I came looking myself. We don’t really need to lose someone else.” Seungcheol said, bitterness lacing his words

you slowly back away from their conversation, hoping this is all some really weird dream and that you did not run into the people you think you just did

“What about the girl? If she knows f/n, she could help-” Cheol asks

“No it’s too dangerous, let’s just go back and figure out a new plan.”

“Alright we have to take care of that bullet wound anyway.”

“Call Mingyu about clean up.”

“Thought of that already.”

you didn’t know what to make of anything they said but you watched as they turn to face you

you were pretty sure now

the mob

you had run into the freaking mafia

just your damn luck

“Thank you.” Jeonghan said quietly

and then you felt someone come up behind you

before you could turn and run

a cloth was forcibly pushed up to your face

the smell of chloroform filling your nose

as the world faded to black

when you came to

you were laying on your couch at home

was it all… a dream?

looking down at your clothes, you realized you were wearing the same clothes as last night

and there were still blood stains

definitely not a dream

how were you home then?

the last thing you remembered was

him

Jeonghan

thoughts of Jeonghan resurfaced in your memory

did he survive?

was he ok?

the way his pale face reflected the yellow light of the city at night

the way he had said “thank you” right before you blacked out

who was he?

you recalled that he had used your phone to call someone

Cheol? Was that his name?

reaching for your phone, you called the most recent number

“This number no longer exists. For additional services please press 1…”

you quickly set down your phone

how were you home?

what happened?

a few weeks had passed since that night

considering the store owner had come back to clean floors and a glass door in perfect condition which had earned you a pay raise

did not help your memory

you could have sworn the door shattered

you spent the past few weeks going insane, thinking maybe the whole night was some wacky tripped up on sleep deprivation and convenience store gummy bears hallucination

how else was the door perfectly fine, the floors bloodless?

could you have imagined the whole thing?

your bloodstained shirt from that night hanging on the laundry hamper begged to differ

you were scared to tell anyone though

because who would believe you?

paranoia plagued you everywhere

it always felt as though there was someone, out there, watching you

sending chills up your spine

you didn’t feel safe

and one night your fears were confirmed

you had been walking home

when all of a sudden your phone rang

“Y/n”

that voice

it was

“It’s Jeonghan. We met on… unfortunate circumstances a few weeks ago.”

you took a shaky breath

“Why-”

“Listen carefully.” he said

“Ok?”

“It seems that a hit has been ordered.”

“A hit?”

“Yes. Someone wants you dead.”

your blood ran cold

freezing in your tracks, you looked up and down the empty street

it’s nighttime

no one’s around

“I have good reason to believe that me meeting you did not do you any favors.”

“I didn’t do anything!!!” you yelled

your voice echoed across the street

“Y/n, there’s some people following you. I need you to keep walking until the street corner. Can you do that?”

“Why would I trust you?” you said hysteria rising

“Because I don’t want to kill you, and they do. See the difference?”

“I really don’t.” you snapped

but you can feel your feet take on lives of their own

as you walked forward

the street corner was still quite far away

you picked up your pace

was it just you or

could you hear footsteps…?

you broke into a run

and Jeonghan’s call to you cut

faster

they were faster

you felt yourself being yanked backwards

a cold blade being pressed against you

as you felt a sharp pain slicing into you

burning your side

setting your nerves on fire

you collapsed onto the ground

phone sliding through your fingers

a dark figure stood above you

“Thanks for making my job easy sweetheart.” the man chuckled

“You should know to mind your own business next time.” he growled

your vision blurred as you laid on the cold concrete

the street lights dimming with each passing second

so this was how you die

a tear ran down your cheek as the man dropped the knife

it fell with a clang as a loud gunshot echoed in your ear

maybe you were imagining things in your dying moments

but you swore you saw the face of an angel

Jeonghan calmly lowered his gun

and bent over to pick you up carefully in his arms

looking down at you, he placed you gently in a nearby car

“Don’t die on me yet, y/n.”

and then the world faded to black

you woke up in an unfamiliar hotel room

your side wrapped in bandages neatly

“The cut wasn’t too deep, you should be ok.”

your eyes met Jeonghan’s

he stood, arms crossed at the door

leaning, casually against the wall

“You were lucky.”

you heard a bit of an edge in his voice

and anger

he slowly walked towards the bed

“What-what happened?” you asked

“It seems someone found out you helped me escape that night.” he said, sitting on the sofa placed at the foot of your bed

“And they don’t take well to anyone messing up their plans.” Jeonghan gave a hollow laugh

“So I was attacked?”

“No, you were supposed to die.” Jeonghan said playing with the buttons on his suit

He got up and walked right up to where you were laying in bed

And stared down directly into your eyes

“But you didn’t die.” he tilted his head before giving you a dazzling smile

“Which means…?” you asked

“Which means there will be plenty more people after you, wanting blood.” he said

“But…” he began, “I’m not letting that happen.”

“Why don’t you just let them kill me?” you scoffed, “Probably would save you a lot of trouble.”

“I could, but you see y/n, I take everything very personally. Attack me, fine, fine. But attack someone because of me. Well, let’s just say you chose the wrong person to mess with.”

He walked slowly back to the door of the hotel room

“I’ll be back later to check up on you. For now, the best medicine for for a knife injury is sleep.”

“I thought it was pain killers.” you groaned

“Yea but the pain killers I have aren’t for you, babe.” he winked, “Plus I want to get to know you better.”

and then he left

you spent several days recovering

and although you had the choice to leave at any time

Jeonghan made that very clear when he visited you everyday

it was suggested that you’d be safer under their watch

at least for a bit

Jeonghan did make it a bit better

he brought movies and take out

not something you’d expect of him

not that you expected anything

he’s the freaking mafia after all

and you’d both just sit around

watching shows

being lazy

not getting up except to get food

and strangely

he seemed

chill?

the way he talked to you was casual

but he didn’t seem bad

at least not to you

you observed more than you probably should have those few days with Jeonghan

you saw him get frustrated countless times on the phone

sighing and running his fingers through his hair

“No.... Get the- look there better not be a target on her head anymore or... I don’t really care how you do it-”

“Any leads? No I’m going to stay here for a bit, lay low and hopefully get this issue resolved. It’s dangerous for y/n...”

he might have thought you were sleeping away on pain killers for your injuries

but you heard it all

you saw how he sometimes sat

frozen in his chair

head resting on his hands

you could see how desperation seemed to roll off him

how scary he could be when he wanted to be

talking to the random men that met him in the eating area of the hotel room

you peeking out through the opening of your door

finally you decided to ask

“Jeonghan?”

he looked up carefully from the schematics laying on the dining room table in the hotel room

he tried hiding it from you but you knew

“What’s up y/n?”

“I’m not clueless you know.” you sighed, “I know who you are and what you do. And I’m telling you, I’m terrified.”

you suck in a quick breath before sitting down next to him

“Terrified of me?” he asked guarding his expression

awkward silence passed between the two of you

you weren’t scared of him

but for him

that weird inexplicable little tick in the side of your chest

if he had wanted you dead

you would be and it’d be simple too

he wouldn’t and didn’t need to save you that night

he was clearly dangerous

and you being out of the way would have helped him

but now you’re the liability

he spent days waiting here for you to heal

making sure you felt safe

and that no one else would come after you

and now

you were scared for him

“T-Tell me what’s going on...” you stammered, clearing your throat

“With what?” he said dodging

“What happened that I’m still here, and that you- you’re upset... What is it?”

he turned to face you with his whole body

faces a foot apart

“I live a dangerous life, y/n. It’d be in your best interest to not get involved.”

“Like it or not I’ve been involved. I almost died.”

“I know, and that’s why I’m sorry. Why you’re still here, why I’m trying my everything to make sure no one ever hurts you again.” he gritted his teeth as he answered, shaking slightly

“On the Tuesday your friend went missing, my friend also went missing.” he told you

“Joshua?” you had heard the name countless times but never understood where he fit into everything

“Yea. My best lead is that your friend, f/n, was someone Joshua knew a long time ago, but she’s missing also.”

you thought about this new information

it was true f/n had transferred not too long ago to your school

she had been quiet though and the reason you two were friends was because of a class project

“I’ve been looking through the whole city but I can’t find Joshua or f/n. It’s not anything I’ve ever experienced before.” he clenched his fist

“So...?”

“So, I’m going to keep looking, even if it kills me, I need to find Joshua.”

you hesitantly reached for his hand

trying to comfort him

“You’ll find him.” you tried reassuring him

“I’m going to find him. I’m not going to lose anyone else important to me.”

he looked at you

because you were important to him

and he was just figuring that out

“So until I figure out who’s after you, you’ll stay with me right?”

you’re stunned

you should have said no

you should have run very far away

this person is dangerous

this whole thing was dangerous

but

he saved you that night

he tried protecting you the same way you blindly protected him that night he was shot

“I’ll stay.”

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View 2 replies john hng It is not about who the man Donald Trump is but the work he did - " promises made promises kept " that is so " Remarkable " Economy and Jobs are his Strength & Pillar of - Making America Great Again. None can Challenge him on that track record. Not by Chance or Miracle. But through sheer hard work.He persevered through with Drive & Determination, while fighting against all odds at every corners. Yet within a short period of time, he turned the economy around. Marvelous. What a Great Leader. Whether you love or hate him. He is the living proof. He let's his work do the talking. He is really Gutsy.

Neville Bennett FOX NEWS is afraid to speak an show anything positive about the President Some of them is quivering to say the good things he has done.

Puttentane Same CRUSH the Trumproach & MAGAts in 2020, America ! The game is up, Fox Faux News.

Tom fair Thats scary, bernie is truly dangerous, bibian is a silly fool but bernie could do some serious damage

Randy Carlisle It doesn’t matter what the massively leftist media says anymore. They’ve been doctoring the poles for decades, just look at the Hillary poles from the last election1

Robert balibrera we have Donald Trump as president and those who are trying to run for president we called Fredo's

skipjack johnson Im from the future and trump wins 2020.

Smart Ass I did google the poll and Eric is right.

irish podboss That's what leberals do is hide the TRUTH! Typical behavior

oliver 11 the fake media claims President Trump isn't popular which is not so. He is doing what the rest won't. Why? because the rest is involved in crime and he is upsetting it.

REPLY Angela McGowan At 1:26 pm Eastern TRUMP HAD 97% of those who "voted" !

REPLY Meta M Republicans are easily distracted and Democrats know it. Now Fredo Fredo Fredo. Not Epstein. All Trump's successes are not hammered on continuously. Just defensive on what Dems are doing to them.

Sleep Cube Eric needs to get on TV more. He's a bit neurotic but practice will make him better. You can see the donald in some of his behavior. Could be president in the future if he learns to tone down the feminine tone. Seems to have a good head on his shoulders.

Harold Sny Butthead needs Beavis for some answers!!

Mary Nelson I live in California and we are Burdened with taxes and regulations

REPLY Nameless DON'T FLY THOSE PLANES OVERSEAS, JUST PUT IT IN TRUMP'S POCKETS. AMERICA FIRST..BWHAHA

REPLY kwik440 Wow, what a great man, Eric Is so intelligent.. Great job Mr. Trump : )

John Doe Of course the legacy media is journalism malpractice .

REPLY Free Irish/Mexican American Girl I'm starting to think that some of these loony liberal news outlets should be considered an enemy of the state

REPLY earl paul Big surprise. Media ignores any and everything that will convey Trump in a positive light.

David Harness I am really sure the US farmers appreciate the corn analogy!

REPLY Dawn Witmer The Media AND the dumboRATS are hilarious! TRUMP 2020 by a LANDSLIDE WIN !!!

REPLY NBA Flag DEPLORABLES: success is measured by kernels. 😆😆

REPLY J W The US citizens should understand by now that the MSM is in bed with the left and always have been.

REPLY XtremeZone "Men and women need to get dirty again." I like how she thinks....

William Lubak it’s true, the democrats are no longer the party of Kennedy. It’s also true that the Republicans are no longer the party of Reagan. Both parties are a disgrace.

Pristine MONTANA SMART JUST LIKE HIS DAD!

Charlett Delmars Eric Trump is right you cant find it. so sad

Soph M

Unbelievable! Joe Biden can hardly speak or be understood anymore lol Trump we are forever grateful , yes !!!!!

Gavin Beets Trump 2020 ! God Bless him

Sandra Martinez Nice ti see you eric trump blessing🙏❤

Allan Towler The level of propaganda used by the Democratic party is directly proportional to the bank account at the UN.

Trace Conrad If California fall's in the ocean, don't blame it on President Trump, it will really be San Andreas Fault, ☮️ World

REPLY Yush Bhattarai There's so much anger out here.. Can't we just respectfully disagree with other folks instead of demonizing them for being wrong!

plowisonutube Eric is very talented!

Nob Wings Donald is the Man!(with eggs)...YEAH!

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seme-aru · 7 years

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This is gonna be a long post so read it or don't So during my spring break I went to canada with 2 of my "friends" from hs and it was a good trip for the most part until haha I got injured. So I was staying in vancouver but on the last full day of my trip we went to Victoria. So victoria is about 5 hours from where I was staying, 2 hours to the ferry, 2 hours on the ferry, and then another hour to Victoria Anyway skipping to the actual part of the story. While I was in victoria I fell on an escalator and the sharp edge of the escalator ripped through my skin. When this happened I rushed to a restroom as fast as I could and gave friend 1 my stuff to hold. So in the restroom I was trying to get the blood to stop and it wouldn't so I asked some woman to help me. She ended up getting first aid for me and later asked if I was with anyone. I told her I was and gave her the description of my friend She comes back and GUESS WHO WASN'T THERE. NOT MY FRIEND BECAUSE SHE FUCKING LEFT. So I'm there in the restroom getting first aid and crying because looking at the injury literally made me burst into tears. But the first aid guy told me "I think I did a good job cleaning it up so when u go back to America u should go to the hospital if u think you're gonna get an infection" oh btw that was some shit advice, just go to the hospital Anyway after about 20min in the restroom I leave and find that friend one isn't fucking there but friend 2 is. So when I see him I ask where the fk she was, and you know what he tells me??? That she went to the fucking RESTROOM AND WHEN SHE HEARD SOMEONE WAS GETTING FIRST AID SHE DECIDED TO GO TO ANOTHER RESTROOM BECAUSE YOU KNOW SHE REALLY HAD TO PEE. And I was pissed off and told him "You know I WAS THE ONE GETTING FIRST AID" he says "yea I guessed but she said she really needed to use the restroom" So yea i was fucking pissed off but then omg it gets better, for some fucking reason they decided to sit on high chairs when I literally can't even bend my knee or let it relax without wanting to cry. Anyway so friend 2 asks if I'm hungry and tells me I should eat something. As if I DIDN'T JUST HAVE A TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE. Anyway I'm just so annoyed that I decide to sit at a different table so I can actually let my leg lay on something instead of hanging in air. And he later comes over to ask if I want him to sit with me and I say no. Later I hear shuffling around me but no one speaks to me. I find out that one of them PUT MY STUFF NEXT TO ME. I'M LITERALLY CRYING TO MYSELF AND FOR SOME REASON THEY THINK THE BEST THING THEY SHOULD DO IS LEAVE MY STUFF NEXT TO ME WHEN THEY COULD EASILY HAVE HELD ON TO IT. anyway so we have to get back to vancouver so we had to take the bus to the ferry, ferry to vancouver, then a bus to the train, another bus after the train and then walk up a 10min hill While on the bus for some reason friend 1 thinks that EVERY FUCKING STOP IS OUR STOP. OUR STOP IS LITERALLY THE LAST STOP AND THE LAST STOP IS A FUCKING FERRY PORT AKA THERE'S A FUCKING BOAT THERE. And her excuse was that "it's dark I can't see" Anyway while on the ferry I'm using a wheel chair because I just can't fucking walk. Anyway while on the ferry friend 2 asks if I want anything from the cafe and I pause to think about it and before I even say anything friend 1 says "I'd be down for a coffee" like ???????? And friend 2 just says "u know I was asking her (aka me)" AND YOU KNOW WHAT SHE FUCKING SAYS??? "I mean I knew u were asking her but she didn't answer and I'm down for a coffee" But wow it still gets better. While on the ferry my gauze starts bleeding through so im certain it's a lot more serious than what the first aid guy told me. So I go to the first aid on the ferry BY MYSELF because the friend 2 is in the restroom and friend 1 has to watch our stuff. However I do tell them to come find me (haha guess who never fking came) Anyway the first aid office was a fucking horrible experience. The guy didn't try to help me at all and the only thing he did do was give me a lecture on the importance of travel insurance and essentially told me I was stupid for not getting it. Anyway I have to go back to my friends but they aren't whee I thought they were and I started wheeling myself around the ferry. After awhile friend 1 finally finds me and tells me I should've checked my phone BECAUSE THEY MOVED. AND DO YOU KNOW WHY THEY MOVED? BECAUSE FRIEND 2 WANTED TO TAKE A FUCKING NAP so anyway after we get off the ferry we had to get to the train and we had to take the elevator up to the platform and they have the fucking audacity to tell me "at least we get to ride an elevator cause your injured" LIKE WHAY THE ACTUAL FUCK???????? okay so next part we get off the train and we have to find the bus stop. But guess what it's 2 blocks away and they can't fucking navigate. Anyway so we finally get to the bus stop and I just can't. If we take the bus we have to walk up a hill and I just can't do that so I want to take a taxi. But u know what the bitch says??? I CAN GIVE YOU A PIGGY BACK RIDE I'M NOT WORRIED ABOUT YOUR WEIGHT OR ANYTHING BUT IT MIGHT MAKE UR KNEE WORSE. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK??? Anyway I'm fucking adamant about getting a taxi but there weren't many stopping on the street we were on. So I told them to ask a person and guess what, they literally argue who should be the one to ask. Him: but you're a white girl, u seem less threatening (btw this kid is a little Mexican boy like u are not threatening) her: yea but I'm so awkward LIKE IF IT WAS EITHER ONE OF THEM WHO WAS INJURED I WOULD TALK TO SOMEONE IN A FUCKING INSTANT NO FUCKING DEBATING LIKE WHAT THE FUCK. anyway so friend 2 ends up asking the guy but it was useless cause the taxi service wasn't answering. Anyway I see a taxi stopping and ppl leaving so I tell her to go tell the taxi driver to come...however she tells him the wrong street and we have to walk 2 blocks oh and btw the taxi isn't even there and she says "omg I feel so bad for the taxi driver cause he's losing business" and I'm literally limping to get to this taxi that's not even there and she doesn't even ask if I'm okay. Anyway once in a taxi (I found another taxi because those two are fucking useless) she tells the driver the wrong address. THE WRONG ADDRESS. Ok so once back at the bnb the place is a mess but I just can't, I want to pack my stuff and go to sleep because I just fucking can't deal with them. Oh but guess who makes me clean up the next morning??? Yea, them. Anyway so im just going to fast forward to the airport. While I'm at the airport the gauze is bleeding through again and it's been about 15 hours so I know it's definitely a lot more serious than I originally thought if the bleeding isn't stopping this many hours in. So I get paramedics and they tell me I should go to a hospital in canada but it's also going to be 800 JUST TO SEE A DOCTOR and an additional couple hundred for the actual medical help, the taxi to and from the hospital, and the hotel I would have to book so I decided to just go home Anyway in the actual airport the guy asks me to buy his breakfast (and everything else for that matter because he lost his wallet and had no money) and then tells me "I'm so hungry cause I didn't eat breakfast " guess what. I asked him to make breakfast but he said he didn't want one cause he didn't want to do dishes (Oh btw I had to do their dishes when I woke up) Anyway so the girl was flying out to somewhere else so she left first. And she was snapchatting me COMPLAINING ABOUT HER DAY. and when I told her I had to go to the hospital she responds "That sucks. " Anyway once i landed I check my phone and GUESS WHO TOLD ME SHE WAS HAVING THE WORST TRAVEL DAY OF HER LIFE BECAUSE SHE HAD TO WAIT IN A LONG LINE??? THE STUPID BITCH so anyway I was pissed off and it took me 2 hours to even get home and once I was home my parents took me to the hospital (while also telling me that the reason I fell with because I'm fat and that my fatness caused me to be unbalanced) So continuing with the story I go to the hospital and I got staples in my knee to keep my wound from opening up again. After I go to the pharmacy and I'm home friend 2 messages me asking if I'm okay and how my hospital visit was But guess who doesn't even try to contact me or ask me how I'm doing? You guessed it. So I'm just mad and really unhappy so I decide to mute my notifications on my hs group chat so I just don't have to see her or talk to her. Oh but guess what she emails me telling me how shes coming down to where I live and that she wants to hang out. And I don't respond and after 2 weeks of me ignoring her she messages me saying "wya" In a span of 2 weeks she hasn't once asked me how I was doing Anyway I get fed up with her and her complete disregard for my wellbeing AT ALL so I unfriend her on fb and untagged myself from all the canada posts she's making. Guess what she does? SHE REFRIENDED ME AND POSTED NEW PICTURES OF ME, OBVIOUSLY NOT GETTING THE POINT so I don't accept it and a couple of days later I decide to just leave the gc because I muted it anyway so what's the point of staying in it when I dont want to associate myself with her at all anymore Guess what? She messages me the next day harassing me saying she deserves an explanation. And I just don't respond because there's nothing to say. She doesn't even realize what she did wrong and I just can't with her. If you don't understand what you did wrong u never deserved my friendship in the first place. But lol IT STILL GETS BETTER. the next day she messages me telling me that it's unfair for me to be excluded in the group chat and that I shouldn't lose my hs friends because of it. Like what?? I don't understand how she thinks my friendship with them is over because I left a group chat. Additionally she tells me that we should behave like mature adults and not fight in the group chat. Guess what? I did not once bring it up to the group. Even when they asked I didn't say why because I honestly don't care if they want to be friends with her. Because I'm actually a mature adult. If she starts talking shit about me to the group I really don't care. If they really don't understand that I have my reasons and take her side then we shouldn't be friends at all either. She also sends an additional msg telling me that she's sorry that I think she's a bad friend and that she doesn't understand why I think that way. In that message there was no "I'm sorry I was a bad friend" it was a "idk what your problem is because I'm a good friend" additionally, she isn't reflecting at all and can't even fathom the possibility that she did something wrong. So yea but haven't responded and I won't respond because I don't need that in my life. This was a really long post started crying again and I'm tired so im going to sleep. Good night

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streetcornertwoam · 7 years

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currently watching some different videos of hannah hart and right now watching a livestream thing she did for her book buffering, where she was signing copies and answering questions...fun stuff

ANYWAY...

so...it’s nearing the end of the video, and she read this question from a girl named becca (i’m assuming spelling lmao) from aurora, IL (which if you happen to know anything about me...I live in IL...and that’s only a few hrs away from me) so initially that was like really like ‘oh fun!’

but then...she read then question...

i’m gonna paraphrase it ‘cause i’ve had to pause the video and like...stop for a minute ‘cause shit got real fucking Quick lmao

basically just ‘what advice would you give to someone who has just come to terms with the fact that they’re bisexual and unsure if they’ll ever be able to come out’

like...Holy Fuck

it’s...too real right now lmao

admittedly I probably would have reacted this way regardless of where they live...but the fact that it’s somewhere so fucking near me is just like O.O

...and I mean like...I guess I’d say I’m ‘out’ like on here...but that’s different, ‘cause...no one really knows me on here (or talks to me lbr haha) so y’know...it is different

and like...I still kinda...pause when I’m talking aloud to myself and saying it

I mean...it’s not even been a year since I started thinking ‘i...might be bisexual’

I wish I could remember when the thought like first permeated my head, but I know it was sometime last yr...and probably in like...April-May

...and like the second it came up, I was like ‘DEAL WITH THIS ANOTHER DAY’

and just ignored it basically...and then like every few weeks, it’d kinda pop back up again...and then finally sometime during the summer...I was like...ok...let’s...look at my life and the facts and...think about this

and it still took me a few weeks, thinking about it off and on...but then after actually asking the advice of someone on here (anonymously of course lmao)...that...definitely helped

i still thought about it, but after that...i did feel more confident in saying it and knowing it to be true about myself

like...i’m 26 right now, and in a few weeks i’ll be 27...

it’s hard to change a perception you’ve held of yourself for so goddamn long, but...fuck i was so in denial about things

just a few weeks ago i was thinking about something and i was like ‘christ you should have realized when you were still in fucking high school dude’

but y’know...there were always guys...and y’know...ahaha...i definitely was never popular, i wasn’t and still wouldn’t consider myself an attractive person

so i mean...even the few guys that i went to HS with that i would maybe find attractive were all assholes anyway, so that totally ruined it

and i dated guys...i kissed...a lot of guys lol...like...just a lot

y’know and my last day of HS i started dating this guy i’d known like...since i was fucking 5 dude

and he was the first (and unfortunately so far only) person i’ve had sex with

and we dated for like... 3 1/2 yrs and then...long story short, he became a fucking ass and we broke up

(that’s not really what happened...i was terrible too...i was...yea i was a bad girlfriend...in the...manipulative way i guess i’d say now...i hate saying that...i hate knowing that i was like that...but...he wasn’t great either...we should have broken up long before we did...and i think that was a huge issue for us...but he still did some Fucked Up shit...and it’s been...4 yrs now??? and like...I still can’t think about him or anything without just...yea...i’m still not over it...i’m over him, but the situation? it’s all just so fucked...so like...probably not everything he did was entirely his fault...but...y’know...there were just...he lied about things...a lot...they were little things....but....they were lies nonetheless...and then when i’d days...weeks later find out the truth i’d obviously be Pissed...and then it’d be a big fight, and y’know i’m ‘overreacting’ and ‘this is why i didn’t tell you’ and blah blah blah’ LIKE NO OK...SO...for like...i don’t know...a week or two before I turned 21 I didn’t hear from him AT ALL...like...I had no fucking idea where he was...what he was doing...if we were still together...fucking Nothing...expected to hear from him on my birthday...Nothing...i was obviously initially pissed but I got hella fucking wasted and then it was whatever... and then like...i don’t know...another week or something went by...(i might be remembering this wrong...maybe it was like...a bit before my bday i didn’t...whatever anyway) basically i didn’t hear from him at all for like...2 weeks or some crazy shit and then one night I’m sitting in my room watching Torchwood (yea you bet I fucking remember this...it was the ep where Tosh and Jack go back in time and they meet the real Jack Harkness just fuck my shit up) anyway so I’m watching that and I hear the doorbell ring...and I just instantly Know. I don’t get up, I just keep watching the show...and then I hear a knock at my door...I don’t answer. Knocks keep coming....still don’t answer...(my door is locked but i don’t have a lock on my door...the way the knob is if you like...push it in and turn it it locks) so there’s a tiny little hole on the other side that you can push a very small screwdriver (or the stick of a dum-dum sucker lmao) into and you can unlock the door...so after a few minutes my door opens this way...and it’s Fucking Him...I just...like straight up ignored him and kept watching my show ‘cause like...you don’t talk to me for WEEKS...and then just show the fuck up?? fuck you (at this point we’d been dating for not even 3 yrs) anyway...eventually i have to pause the show and y’know what he fucking tells me? what he’s been doing? before we even started dating he had planned on going into the marines...like he signed some shit saying he was interesting or whatthefuckever i don’t remember what it was anymore...so keep in mind that was like..3 yrs ago almost....says...’so you remember when i was gonna go in the marines’ etc etc etc..basically...they like...got in contact with him (after all this fucking time????) and said that he was now recruited or whatever (i honestly don’t remember what he said...christ it’s been 4-5 yrs now) so he had been in Missouri doing training something or other...and like...i’m immediately fucking Suspicious...and he’s wearing a fucking marines t-shirt and has a lanyard like that’s Proof...and just...eventually it got ‘worked out’ and then it was just like...this thing that was gonna be happening...he was gonna in the next few months be leaving to go do that...and like...there’s even more to the story than just this...but...it’s such a fucking lie right??? but i was so goddamn desperate to keep him...like...that was my problem...i’d had boyfriends before, and like..only one that i would even say was vaguely as serious (and not even really ‘cause y’know...i was like 12 but...the feelings...and it was only for a few months but at the time...that was the most real) anyway...so y’know...first real serious honest to god we’re gonna get married boyfriend...first person i’d ever had sex with...huge thing....huge moment in my life...and...i didn’t want to lose this person...i put up with the most ridiculous shit ‘cause i didn’t want to be fucking alone...i ruined one of the best friendships i ever had ‘cause i never spent time with her...and just...would spend it with him...or wouldn’t hang out just in case i could ever see him (his parents were fucking...omg the actual worst) just..just...so much Bullshit

sorry that’s just all one big long fucking pile of shit right there lmao...if anyone actually reads that then...good on ya, but also im super sorry

so...then at the beginning of 2012...i’m single...and i was a fucking mess...like...he left (btw...not to join the marines...he just...like fucking left the state so y’know...super legit dude) and...i’m still not sure if it’s just...a coincidence or whatever, but like...immediately after that I got So Fucking Sick

like...i had the worst ear ache...like i was crying it hurt so bad, so finally had to go to the doctor...yea the ear infection i thought i had? turns out it was like a fucking terrible case of strep...like Awful...but my throat didn’t even hurt...it was just my ear...so that happened...

and for like...months i didn’t leave the house really...i mostly stayed in my room, i like...barely talked to my parents...it was...hard

and then summer came, and i went to the swim and golf club that my parents own (and which is now closed and i wish they could sell it) and i started hanging out there again...and i made new friends...and it was honestly? like the best summer...it was...so fucking great

there was this lifeguard...and he was just so cute, and I had the Biggest crush on him...but he was like 5-6 yrs younger than me lmao

like...I was so fucking pathetic...you could see the goddamn hearts in my eyes

and one of the reasons that i’m bringing this up is ‘cause...that first summer then...there was this girl that was also a lifeguard that I had ‘known’ sorta ‘cause she had grown up coming to the pool and had been friends with my sister and knew my mom and they were all really close and whatever...but i never really hung out up there so i didn’t know her...anyway...she had like...just come out to everyone as gay...it was a huge... (she was also like...a few yrs younger than me) and anyway...we eventually became like...Really Good friends

like...we talked a lot, and y’know...just hung out and shit...and...hahaha...i remember this one time...she said to me she’d like to just once take me out on a date...like...just a really nice proper date, and blah blah blah...and asked what my mom would think and i kinda laughed and said she probably wouldn’t care and asked if i would and i said ‘yea i definitely would we should!’ and it was just like...we were Cracking Up (we did that a lot....we both had super loud obnoxious laughs) and like...I was seriously really excited about this idea??? like i remember telling TJ (that was the cute lifeguard) Elaina (that’s the gay lifeguard lmao) is gonna take me on a date! like...I had HUGE smile...and he kinda got wide eyed and was like ‘uhh...what?’ and I was like ‘no no no...just...’ and tried to explain it in such a way that was like...basically i was pulling the ‘no homo’ bullshit...

and i mean even looking back now, I didn’t have a thing for her...I really enjoyed her company, and I thought she was funny and fun to be around, but like...it was never like secret gay crush shit. but the fact that i was So Excited and interested about a girl taking me on a date??? like...fucking Hello Self

and then I got engaged to a few of the lifeguards lmao

...one of which happened to be another girl who I was like...kinda intimated by ‘cause she was just...like real quiet and I didn’t think she’d like me...and then we just started talking one day and got on really well

like...she made me a duct tape ring and everything...i think i still have it somewhere...and again...i don’t think i ever was like ‘fuck i think i really like her’ (but that could be ‘cause like everyone knew that TJ had had a Thing for her for a long time...so it was like...Awkward for me lmao) but she was really nice and very pretty

y’know...i’ve done this a lot throughout my life...which (i think?) it’s a fairly normal thing...but...y’know been ‘engaged’ or ‘married’ to different friends of mine that were girls y’know...and i just...never thought into that much or anything...and i don’t know if that’s ‘cause there really was never any sort of attraction or just because i was just so in denial about things that i just...didn’t let myself think about it...i really don’t know

the first time that i can remember thinking about another girl that i ‘knew’ i was like...18-19...and it was when i was really involved on twitter lol...and i made lots of new friends all over the world and it was honestly one of the best times of my life

...and i remember...lmao...’cause our initial bonding thing was over craig ferguson, and that’s how i was introduced into fanfiction and all that stuff...and i eventually wrote some (absolutely Dreadful) fics...and anyway...one of them...AHAHAHAHHA christ this is embarrassing...

one of them...I uh...wrote about me and this friend of mine...and uh...well...anyone remember the movie Hot Tub Time Machine? yea basically...that’s where i got my idea...we got into a hot tub...went back in time...to...sometime in craig’s past (i fucking wish this wasn’t true...but it so embarrassingly is) and uh...we had sex...the three of us...

....yeaaaaaaa

and like...it was...mainly just...basically we didn’t do much sexual things to/with each other...but we...did kiss at least i remember...and...something else, i can’t remember what lmao...and like...i remember being So Embarrassed writing this thing (she knew all about this btw...i mean I fucking posted it for everyone to see on the website they created for him...i think it’s all still up and if I wanted to i could go and find it but I’m definitely Not doing that) and like...I don’t honestly even know how or WHY i was like ‘I should write about you and I going back in time and having a threesome with Craig Ferguson’ like...i could have made it just me...or just...anyone else...but the fact that it was fucking self insert....with another girl...who was a good friend of mine at the time...

OH YOU KNOW WHAT...I...might have decided to do it ‘cause...ahahhah...she ended up in a dream of mine...her and Craig...and...did we kiss? fuck I don’t remember, but I remember her and Craig in the dream...and kisses were exchanged but I don’t remember with who or whatever...it’s been so many years...anyway

and y’know...she was (still is) a very pretty lady...she was a couple yrs older than me...and we talked a lot about real things...and she gave me advice on things...and, lol...she actually taught me some German words and stuff (she was German herself) and uh...she would like...help me learn how to say things correctly...we never got real far or anything, but it was fun...and I think I was probably...a little bit attracted to her...yea

but...y’know I was again...18-19...I had a boyfriend...it was...there was a lot of New Things

...actually by the time this all happened I was probably at least 20...but still

and then I eventually after a few yrs...was able to be like ‘oh this celebrity lady is really pretty’

‘cause oh yea...i also was that person that was like ‘i can’t say if another girl is pretty/cute/hot/whatever ‘cause that’s gay’ so...sorry about that lmao

and i eventually got over that...and then i was more comfortable with saying so and so is really pretty

and then...Billie Piper happened...oh that beautiful lady

and then it was ‘oh i have a girl crush on billie haha’

and then karen gillan with those ‘legs that go on for miles’ that’s an actual thing I used to say about her All The Fucking Time

i shit you fucking not

but nope...still just a total hetero girl crush....

and there have been various and many others...

(i’m skipping A LOT of other little things that are like ‘dude...you’re at least a bit attracted to girls...you’ve watched videos on youtube of girls hardcore making out and gotten off to it...you were like 15 then dude...accept it’)

so...there’s that

...and loads of other things

wow this...really went off the rails lmao

if anyone fucking reads this whole thing you deserve a goddamn medal ‘cause holy shit is a fuckton of embarrassing shit

but...i honestly feel better getting it off my chest

...i still don’t know if/when i’ll be able to totally come out to my family/people i know in RL as bi but i hope that the day does eventually come...

i had thought the other day about how...i really maybe should wait til my grandma passes ‘cause...well, there’s lot of stuff there (she’s great and i love her so much but she’s very much a church lady and gays go to hell and she’s still sure that my uncle who was gay is there and it’s upsetting to her and etc)

but like...i hate to have to hide this from her, but...i don’t know it’s hard and confusing

which is another reason why I’d like to as I said the other day get a tattoo of a violet on like the inside of my forearm...just..a little something for me that i can look at and know...and then...eventually work on telling people

(funny how i was thinking last yr during coming out month and all that stuff like ‘oh maybe i can do this next yr’ HA! good joke self...that...probably won’t happen)

so yea...anyway it’s probably time that i finally wrap this shit up

seriously if any of you read this...well fucking done, i’m sorry i’m such a mess and type like shit

#personal #this one is fucking long #like...i really went off on a tangent #that was...not what i meant to do #sexuality #...that's mainly what it's about #or rather that's what started the whole thing lmao #i can't believe i'm gonna post this with the potential thought of people reading it #wow self

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