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belog-grada-crna-princeza · 3 months

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Philosophy and spirituality >>>>>>> therapy and psychiatry.

Bc the first two support and encourage our individuality.

The second two are like: be yourself, but not like that.

#Philosophy #Spirituality #Therapy #Psychiatry #quarter life crisis #Maybe i am just 25 #Identity #Beloggradacrnaprinceza

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emry-stars-art · 10 days

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I remain as predictable as ever

#i was gonna say you might be able to guess the scene just from this #but theres actually like at LEAST three parts where people grab his face huh #and i love all of them #so maybe you can guess but only bc statistically theres like a 33 or 25% chance you get it #or. i am just that predictable #we'll find out #wip #aftg #tsc spoilers #tsc #the sunshine court #jean moreau #and to keep you guessing i will not tag the second set of hands 💕#hmm. this may be easier to guess than i thought now that i think of it lmao

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iamhereinthebg · 3 months

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Seeing Akane reacts so strongly seeing Kako being destroyed was already a big shot at my heart but Mirai and Akane protecting each other absolutely annihilated me in the last chapter.

Akane is a character who is really blunt about his opinion and stands his ground, he said right away in his introduction chapter how strongly he hates the clock keepers, and insists on how much he isn't like them.

In this new arc, he is forced to face this part of him he doesn't want to acknowledge since the beginning, he has been forced to do it a lot since the grim reaper arc (and I think it's really starting to get to him but this is for another day)

Aoi Akane, the human forced to be a supernatural who hates his contract and the clock keepers so much he wants nothing to do with them. But what does he do when fighting Tsukasa? He keeps the latter's attention on him so the threat can't get to Mirai.

Akane is mortal and human. The only mortal clock keepers and supernatural, and he still risks his life to protect Mirai. The yorishiro of the clock keepers yes, but mostly Mirai.

He shifts his attention from Tsukasa to her because he knows what she represents for the clock keepers and he waits for the moment to let her free, even if it results in him getting hurt.

Akane is the character of the cast who shows the most how he loves life, he definitely doesn't want to die. We can see it in how he defends himself, his last movement in this fight being one of protection (and fear). Something he has been doing more since coming back a second time from the far shore. Even if he doesn't want to die, he is still at his core a nice person. He is distressed at the idea of death, disappearing for good, no matter who it may concern in the end. Finding a way to protect Mirai (and the yorishiro) goes before his own safety.

And then Mirai gets the blow for him. She knows it means Tsukasa will get the yorishiro. Kako has been the mystery the most alarmed about the yorishiros being destroyed by Hanako. But Mirai, n°1, who knows how dangerous it is for another yorishiro to be destroyed for the land, sacrifices their seat number, herself and what is supposely the most important thing to them, for Akane.

Akane is a proactive character who rarely stops in his actions. Even when Aoi was "dead" he was activaly searching for a way to bring her back and when he learned she was gone he was quick to try to find a way to go where she was. When he stops, it's because he is physically unable to move. But here, even if he is still concsious and has Time's power he doesn't do anything, like he is the one being stopped in time, unable to move on from Mirai's body.

Mirai may be made of gears but it's been clear since the beginning that she has a real attachement to Akane. Wearing the name he gave her like a medal, jumping on him whenever she can, having a personality where she clearly has fun when he is present, and actually being the one noticing him on his first day at school.

And what does it mean after all for a yorishiro to be sacrified to protect something else? That maybe Akane is in the end more important than what the yorishiro represents for the clock keepers.

If this follows the pattern of a lot of mysteries it may mean that Mirai and Kako have strong regrets/resentment towards the story/person behind their yorishiro.

It's kind of beautiful in the end to see Mirai sacrifiying their past and future to focus on the one representing the present.

#toilet bound hanako kun #mirai #aoi akane #this is just me being delulu and putting tons of images #some glimps on Akane's character there is SO MUCH strange stuff happening with him since he's back from the far shore he doesn't seem ok lo #I won't go into the 'yes but t's strange how much they don't care about the yorishiro'#'it's maybe because it's not the real one'#'Mirai may not be the one noticing him in chap 25' etc #just to focus on what we have for now even if I am wrong because I get to be delulu about them and I think it's great like this #not an analysis or something just my thoughts and some hcs tbh #I am weak for them #the three clock keepers #jibaku shonen hanako kun #jshk #tbhk #tbhk spoilers #jshk 110 #tbhk 110 #jibaku shounen hanako kun #ramblings #I don't wanna get my hopes too high tbh (I assume next chapter will be the Yugi twins)#but I really hope we will have some answers about his duty and the clock keepers at one point #if it's still relevant and not just something said for nothing before the joke that is chap 109 #I wrote this late for reasons too just wanted to post it before chap 111

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voiddemon · 29 days

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I have underestimated how long “Loop 2000” is in the grand scheme of things

#I pressed escape and it also made it so I’m just clicking on an image now #idk how far in I am soooo guess I’m on my phone for a little bit #rambles #for the next maybe. twenty minutes if you want me to see something @ me #according to my math it will be a little over 25 minutes

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codecicle · 4 months

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JUST ROLL WITH IT PROPAGANDA AND THE MAYBE SORTA KINDA PROMISE OF HIM STREAMING MORE THAN LIKE TWICE A YEAR LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOO

#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍#qsmp #qpurgatory 2 #heyyyy if you liked his streammssss and you like charlie slimecicleeee and also bebo and gribo maybe you should come watch jrwi #ooooooooo you wanna watch the absurdly powerful dnd podcast so badddddd #alright its 5:25 am and i just puked my guts up im going back to sleep now but this is fucking awesome news

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creacherkeeper · 5 months

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say what you will about gender, money, time, race, borders, or any other enforced social construct ... NOTHING in the world is more made up than citation styles

#grad school gang join me in group weeping #sorry dearest students at the writing center no i DONT remember which style needs a comma before the year and which doesnt #i dont care i dont care *weeping* it doesnt matter i dont wike it #let me just sit with you while you read my essays and then i will take your hand and gently lead you to my sources as friends. maybe more.#feeding you my sources from my cupped palms #makes a moodboard for all of my sources with images full stolen from pinterest #anyway i feel normal and fine #i am being so brave about this 25 page research paper

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forestgreenlesbian · 1 month

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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad #we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic #was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though #it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything #also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't #tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer #both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first #time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been #making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said #i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly #implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me #bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication #we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked #& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol #which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't #even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around #a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins #literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww #am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely #concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know

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citrushomie · 1 year

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assorted 25-ji doodles fueled by generous ko-fi donation -w-)✨

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thedreadvampy · 5 months

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The thing is I am definitely not happy or chill in the Immediate Sense lately but I am, big picture, so fucking happy with the person I am.

It's like. My brain was made by and for consistent trauma and since that trauma stopped about 5-7 years ago, it is incredible what the amount of resilience and cleverness and flexibility and thoughtfulness I developed to survive can do when it's not being all spent on surviving. like I had a hundred ton weight on me so I had to get REALLY STRONG to stay in the same place and not get 100% crushed, and when that weight came off I found I can use the strength it used to take to stand up and I can leap tall buildings in a single bound.

I was talking to my mum the other day and she said, "you've got the 'fuck it' energy at 30 that most women don't find until their fifties at least" and I'm like yeah man. Imagine how unstoppable I'll be in 20 years.

#red said #i don't know that i can express this clearly but it's the most encouraging thing in my life #my mum's always been proud of me but just lately she seems to actually really admire me #like she's genuinely impressed. she thinks I've surpassed her. i don't necessarily agree but it's a really nice quiet joy.#anyway like this sounds super up myself and it kind of is.#but also it's part of realising just how heavy the weight I've been carrying around with me for 25 years was #like not to be ridiculous but i have realised again this week. that it isn't that everyone's been raped that much and doesn't talk about it #i just have been raped an Unusually Consistent Amount. i have spoken to a lot of people who have had much more horrifying things happen.#I'm not sure I've talked to more than a couple of people who've had a similar level of total consistency of abuse from all angles #and the one is not heavier or harder to bear that the other. but. i think i spent most of my life listening to people's awful experiences #and going ok well nothing i went through looked that bad so it's microtrauma #obviously microtraumas build up but still.#then the older i get and the more i have these conversations the more I notice that stuff which to me is a microtrauma #is a lot of people's defining trauma. and they're reacting appropriately which means i am SO SEVERELY UNDERREACTING #told my friend the other day about a time someone who i still like and respect was having sex with me when i paralocated my hip #and then just kept getting really annoyed with me for not being ready to have sex again while i was literally crying with pain #until i caved and just tried to find the last painful position #and my friend was like pal what the fuck that's horrific #and i was like i mean no that's normal I've had sex with like maybe 3 or 4 people in my life who i haven't had similar stuff with #like i am genuinely thrown when i am allowed to say no to sex and have it be the end of the conversation. and not end up having sex #out of guilt or out of physical coercion or through physical rape. and i have had sex with probably like 40 people at this stage?#and I'm not sure it's as many as 4 i haven't had that experience with tbh #so like. I'm slowly coming to terms with the idea #that i may have actually been doing a hell of a lot of heavy lifting.#like i developed a sense of self that can survive being constantly crushed and at this stage is fucking diamond.

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adhdtsukasa · 3 days

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this is not supposed to be a serious thought (i think), just an observation i made while looping donketsu, but:

so, we have niigo and wxs, right? their event trailers were both at some point including jewels, gemstones or stuff like that — forgive me, i'm not a jewel person, but even if they're not exactly the same, they both fall into the similiar category. (more more jump also had a jem/gewel/things like these set in step by step, but they were not really assigned them [afaik. i didn't watch the teammate mv] nor they appeared in the trailer)

(forgive me for adding the unfixed wxs ver i just think it's still funny)

for wxs it's donketsu, the song for curtain call and for niigo it's tricologe, the song for depths of despair. while these (i'll just call them gems for short alright) in fact are mentioned in tricologe and are even on its cover, there are no mentions of them in donketsu, they're just here to reference the set i guess. still! it's the trailer that matters.

i'm not gonna analyze the position of the gems here, it has been already done back and forth during waiting for curtain call and during waiting for depths of despair probably too, but the surroundings of the gems is important here: wxs gems are still vivid in shiny, yet they are in a dark place, with an hourglass behind (or next to?) them. niigo gems are rather... dull, but they're surrounded by light colors, with something that can be thought of as a broken glass behind them (ik it's not. but i like to interpret it as such). hourglass, a symbol of a time passing. broken glass, a symbol of a new opportunity.

the events where the gems were used are during events on pretty much opposite sides. curtain call is talking about the fear of separation, of having to part ways, of an approaching ending. and depths of despair is talking about the very beginning of niigo. there is no fear, there is a slight hope. slight, because they're still at the very bottom of despair, but a hope nonetheless — for kanade to save someone, for mafuyu to be saved.

rui in curtain call knows that his bond with wxs is coming to an end. kanade in depths of despair knows that her bond with niigo is only getting started.

gems for separation and ending, gems for closeness and beginning.

well, i don't have an conclusion for this. i just wanted to talk about it because i think it's pretty cool. take this as you wish.

#i am starting to be a tumblr user in the wrong year i shouldve been here in 2022 and thriving when the donketsu trailer dropped #or maybe not idk. i was pretty stupid in 2022 tbh #it just sucks that i have all these thoughts two years later LMAOO #project sekai #pjsk #prsk #ri says things the tag #wonderlands x showtime #nightcord at 25 #rui kamishiro #kanade yoisaki #tagging them bc these are their events #also take it with a grain of salt ive watched depths of despair a... long time ago #and im not rlly a niigo analyst....

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fromthedeskofcripslock · 1 year

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So I’m rewatching BTVS, and as alway I am no fan of Buffy/Riley. This time around, though, I’m struck by just how ridiculous the writers’ set up is regarding Riley’s insecurity about their relationship. (especially about the crying with Angel/not crying with him in 5x08 Shadow). OF COURSE Buffy can’t break down in the hospital. The writers have created a character/the character has developed into a woman who is completely different to what she was in S1 (or even S3) Angel-times. She’s 20 (so young, yes, but compared to SIXTEEN?!) She’s an older sister as of this season. She’s legally in charge of the care of their mother. She does have to be the adult in the situation. And Riley should appreciate that difference between teen!Buffy and s5!buffy.

I am no fan of Riley’s, and I DO find their relationship perfunctory in many ways, but much of what Riley is perceiving (and what it feels like the writers want us as the audience to perceive) as lack of attachment to him compared to Angel is literally just the difference between a teenager’s all-consuming love affair and an adult’s relationship. It would be unhealthy (and I’m not touching the literally decades of Bangel-debates here) for Buffy to be at 20 what she was at 16. Riley should know that. Or at least, the WRITERS ought to know that, but the way things are written (and the way the season-arc goes) it’s as if we’re meant to agree with Riley in his logic.

#maybe I’m just noticing this because I’m 25 not 16 myself anymore #but this is such a glaringly jarring experience I have to comment #also am trying to get more engaged with putting down my own thoughts about meta so I figured I’d make a stab at it #btvs #buffy meta #btvs s5 #riley finn #Buffy 5x08

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vitasexualiiis · 7 months

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my very sexy curse of liking the most radioactive ships in a fandom

#i wish there was a way to tell tumblr to automatically block accounts who block one of your sideblogs!#i am glad people are just flat-out blocking me instead of interacting! still sucks though!#its not even a “YOU don't like ME???” kind of thing #like im cool w ppl just not liking me because they just don't like me! whatever! we don't have to be friends!#but it's a constant reminder of just how CONSERVATIVE queer fandom has gotten in the last decade???#20+ year age gaps were just de rigueur and now people are like #“UHMM...A 32 Y/O CAN'T DATE A 25 Y/O WHATS WRONG WITH YOU THAT'S LITERALLY ABUSE???”#vita.txt #i hate it here and i wish BSD wasn't what the idiot autistic goblin who lives in my brain wanted!#is this going to be why i finally learn japanese? maybe #at least they aren't sending death threats over ship drama from what I can tell (:#to have your main interest in life (fandom) suddenly be full of people who aren't shy to say they want you dead is like...super fun!

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aria0fgold · 1 month

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So that's... the power of Luocha e1... I get it now. I am now a lil less salty from losing my 75/25.

#aria rants #was doing the new world 9 of su without geppie (very nervously too cuz im not used to not having a shielder)#but am like. well i have luocha e2 so maaaaaybe itll be fine? still nervous cuz the last boss of world 9 is the smth unto death #and i just KNOW im gonna have a hard time with that thing. well... turns out i didnt... luocha e1 is so good actually #i had ratio. himeko. bronya (oh yea and her lc i got FROM THE 75/25 LOST. i think that contributed too actually). and luocha #my ratio is decently built but still weaker than my argenti thats so far my strongest in su (esp g&g with the erudition path)#took elation path. got to the last boss with pretty okay blessings. it didnt stand a chance... it didnt actually get much of a turn...#first time i got to do that with an su boss ngl! i never got to kill em fast enough but i managed now! yippee!!! maybe losing that #75/25 wasnt so bad after all. my bronya is stronger with her buffs (i dont... i dont have any other buffer than her...) and my #luocha can finally give buffs AND shield! my team is looking pretty good. (yea since my luck is bad i couldnt get ruan mei and sparkle)#i think ratio's banner was during ruan mei's banner? and i had to get his lc (i needed him to be strong for imaginary dps)#and i couldnt try for sparkle much cuz i was planning on going for aven (which as you can see. my plans went terribly with luocha rerun)#im still gonna try for aven cuz i need another shielder than geppie and aven's kit seems to be the right fit for my ratio #back to the saving board...... hsr rng i hate you but also i cant hate you enough cuz tbf my team DID get stronger a bit...

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