CAN A GIRL GET A BREAK OVER HERE?
Medical Discussions follow as well as journeys in Adulting.
Fair Warning may be unsuitable for any audience. No nudity or sex.
I've spent the last week in pain. It started in my hip. It was severe pain. It was so severe that I contemplated going to the ER. I used up my backup pain pills instead. That removes that option in the future. I have had this kind of pain before. I did go to the ER, and it wasn't helpful. Got a dx of "either kidney stone or ovarian cyst with severe abdominal pain causing nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea." No Shit Sherlock. Try telling me something I don't know. Or at least pick a dx. Is it kidney stones? Is it Ovarian cyst(s)? None of this either or crap. Sadly, testing showed both, but I couldn't have a bursting ovaring cyst and a painful kidney stone at the same time, right? For reference, that kidney stone was massive. The ER visit was in April. The post above was in June, so about 2 months to pass the kidney stone. (I hope this doesn't last that long!)
But the type of pain I had this week was similar to the pain I had experienced at that time. I have a history of those things as well as IBS. I also have EDS/HMS and tend to sublax that hip often. It started with just the pain. Severe though it was, I lived. But on top of that, I got the diarrhea. When the vomiting started on top of that, I was done for.
For four days I was in agony. I couldn't keep food down. Thank God for Water Ice and believe it or not Pumpkin Pudding. I bought some a while back and pumpkin is good for your stomach and it's not quite solid food. I even tried my good chicken soup and watched it come back up as fast as it went down.
It has finally settled a bit today. I managed to get some of my things done. These things I have been working on but putting off finishing for a while. I've gotten behind. I have errands that are tedious. I have to drive for an hour to get the car papers turned over, for instance.
To add to this wonderous mess, I just got outside for the first time since the earthquake,(Or I'm guessing that's what did it.) and my gutter and part of my roof are in the yard.
It's not structural but enough that it's going to cost me. Dummy me, I thought I could get the insurance to pay for it.
You know, that thing where you pay money to people on the off chance that, in case of disaster, they return you money to you plus some more.
They had no problem paying the roof last year or this year's additional damage caused by bad repairs of the previous repairs.
But no. If the damage was from an earthquake, it's not covered. According to the insurance, God( and His signs and wonders[Matthew 24:24-26 ] )is infallible and does not need insurance. It is not even available.
And to add insult to injury, they are dropping my current policy and bumping the price. In this case, twice isn't as nice. My agent said to look around and see if there was something else. When I came back with some quotes, I got told, a new company won't take the risk. So why tell me to go look for quotes?
Also, isn't that what an insurance agent is for? To price out policies and try to get you the best coverage and help you get money when you have legitimate claims?
It's unfair. I'm getting punished for Global Warming/Mother Nature's Temper Tantrum/Gaia's Menopause. Oh, and having an old house that wasn't kept in repair. Had I only known, I would have gone back and nagged both my parents until they fixed everything when they had money and broken things when they broke.
So I've been working through all this and getting some other stuff settled. One, being I need an estate account to cash the damn insurance check that is going to cause all the problems. I had a joint account with my Dad in case of an emergency like this.(I'm not the only one in the family who gets feelings about stuff like that.) I had been using that account, which worked fine for everything else. Setting up that account took a little bit. I got there just after the bank opened and left just about lunchtime. But I hadn't eaten at all. I had been too afraid to try. But I decided to give it a go for a late lunch.
So, while at the bank, there is a grocery across the street. I grabbed some stuff there for lunch; some things that I hoped would stay down. I saw some lovely steaks on extreme sale so I called my aunt to tell her about the sale.
I mentioned to her that I had picked up chicken for chicken salad, because I was still recovering from my stomach issues. The mere mention of my health lead to an interminable(I looked. 11 minutes. Really, only 11 minutes?!) rant about how let's see...
-I'm doing it to myself
-I'm taking too many medicines
-I'm overdosing on Vitamins
-My stomach problems are caused by my medicines
-My medicines are counteracting with each other
-You're going to die early
-J*s*s F**king Chr*st Jay, why you are doing this to yourself
-You are as bad as **** with that habit of yours.[Not drugs but a stress induced tick. At the moment she yelled this, she figured out that I was doing it for psychological reasons rather than psychological ones. It's the first time it's connected for her. She's not big on the "touchy feely" and therapy type stuff but it gets a temporary reprive. ]
Now, that's a lot to shove into 11 minutes. The time includes the regular conversation, BEFORE she started in on me. I also may have blocked a few things because at some point, I just hold the phone away from my ear and say Uh-huh every few seconds.
She also offered to "help me" by accompanying me to the doctor's so she could continue this conversation in the presence of a medical professional who(by her reckoning) would agree with her and immediately stop prescribing the medications she herself prescribed. I told her that would not be necessary (I refrained from screaming AW, HELL NAW!). I also neglected to tell her when my appointment was.
I have important things to ask about at my doctor's appointment. Things that are more consequential than my aunt's need to control every aspect of my life.(Ha! She used to say my Dad was super controlling! He never tried to brow beat me into attending one of my doctor's appointment! Although I did attend his, mostly do to his memory not being the best and him not being able to drive.)
But there are many things I need to discuss and I don't need my appointment hijacked by my aunt. For instance, I would like to discuss how much Prozac I can safely take and if Xanax (as needed) is an option. I may be having some stress issues right now. I have a whole page full of things to discuss in a 15-minute appointment.
I wonder why I'm so stressed lately????
I need money too. Not that my Dr can help with that. I also need a vacation. I realize the insanity of that statement, but I need the R&R. My R isn't so restful, and my R isn't at all relaxing. It's more like S&S: Stressed and Subluxing.
Okay.
Rant over.
I just needed to get that out of my system.
Someone save me from the hand of Irony.
I spoke too soon.Before I got a chance to post this, I almost threw up again. I stopped myself. Fun. I'm not sure what would have come up besides liquid. I haven't eaten anything besides that chicken salad sandwich from lunch... and that was about 8 hours ago.
That could be part of the problem, lack of food. It did get better when I took a swig of sugary drink. I've always tended towards low blood sugar, and not eating is not helping. Also, a bit of a migraine is starting from a lack of caffeine because coffee doesn't set well when my stomach is upset, but I drink regular amounts of triple caffeinated cold brew to get to sleep. Odd, but it works.
I have the doctor's tomorrow. She'll have plenty of puzzles to figure out.
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Where can I find Free Palestine protests and Ceasefire protests?
A super international and continually updated list of actions can be found at Samidoun: Palestinian Prisoner Solidarity Network's:
Calendar of Resistance for Palestine 2024
They list events by date, then alphabetically by country, then by city - and it's common for them to have dozens of actions listed for a single date, especially on the weekends.
The United States especially often has 40+ events on a single day, especially on the weekends.
Events are posted with links to the event info posted by whoever's hosting the vast majority of the time.
Look blow the read-more for a list of many of the countries that have been on this protest calendar, in alphabetical order, since I know so many websites/lists of actions are country-specific
*Obviously this isn't the only good source of listings for protest events - there are many others. This is by far the biggest/most international roundup I've found, though, so I started with this. If you know another good place for finding ceasefire protests/events, please feel free to add it in the notes, bc I'm planning to put a bigger roundup together once I find enough other sites
Countries that Samidoun has listed/does list protests for include (in alphabetical order):
North America:
United States
Canada
Mexico
Puerto Rico (listed separately in anti-colonial solidarity)
Hawai'i (listed separately in anti-colonial solidarity)
Europe:
Austria
Belgium
Bulgaria
Denmark
England
Finland
France
Germany
Greece
Hungary
Iceland
Ireland
Italy
Netherlands
Norway
Portugal
Romania
Scotland
Serbia
Spain
Sweden
Switzerland
Wales
SWANA Region (Southwest Asia/North Africa)*:
Bahrain
Iraq
Jordan
Kuwait
Lebanon
Palestine
Tunisia
Turkiye (Turkey)
*Samidoun notes that "We know that these events are mainly international and that the Arab people are marching everywhere for Palestine – we will be honored to add more Arab events whenever we are informed!"
Asia:
Bangladesh
India
Indonesia
Japan
Malaysia
Maldives
Pakistan
South Korea
Africa:
Kenya
Mauritius
Nigeria
South Africa
Tanzania
Tunisia
*Duplicating North African countries (well, Tunisia) here from the SWANA list btw
South America:
Brazil
Colombia
Chile
Peru
Venezuela
Australia and Oceania:
Aotearoa (New Zealand)
Australia
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No bc Satoru has this whole hallucination-dream-limbo sequence where he’s talking to Suguru about how he wanted to give Sukuna his all to get through to him and show him how he understood his loneliness only to have Suguru go “…you’re making me jealous.”
As an author, what Gege did here is genius because that is such a loaded statement to make in response to Satoru processing his fight with Sukuna. It can mean so many different things and we, the audience, are free to interpret exactly how Suguru meant it.
On one hand, you can say he said he was jealous because he wanted to be the one Satoru fought with all his might. He wanted to be as strong as Satoru, to match him in prowess, and hearing that Sukuna was the one to do it instead made him jealous.
On the other hand, you can say that he said he was jealous because Satoru recognized that Sukuna was lonely and wanted to get through to him, something that he was too late to recognize in Suguru when he was descending into madness, and that in turn made Suguru jealous because it was as if Satoru was saying “I recognized the loneliness in him and wanted to do something about it” when he failed to do that same thing with Suguru.
I personally interpret it the second way more (the first one is very valid, but I just see things the second way), because of the next lines.
He made Suguru cry. While laughing. Once again, holy shit is that such a loaded scene. What did Suguru’s tears mean? We have never seen him cry before. Not when Riko died, not at any point when he was losing his mind, not even when he died by Satoru’s hand. So why, when Satoru said he wished Suguru was there to wish him luck before he fought, did he finally get brought to such strong emotion that he cried?
Was it because he was happy to hear that Satoru still thought of him, even in his final moments?
Was it because after all these years, Satoru never thought ill of him and pictured him there beside him, and he was relieved?
Was it because he regretted making the choices he did that led to him not being there by Satoru’s side?
Or, in a very indirect way, was it an admission of love from Satoru that made Suguru happy?
I wonder that, because of these panels from Chapter 238:
Kashimo asked Sukuna, “if you’re so satisfied being alone, why did you refuse to die and turn yourself into cursed fingers?”
Sukuna’s response is, “Love is worthless. I’ve never needed anyone to satisfy me.”
Which is a directly opposing statement to the one that Satoru had just made to Suguru.
Sukuna: I only have to worry about myself and I get to do as I please. I am satisfied by myself. I don’t need love.
Satoru: I worried about everyone else my entire life and I was controlled by the society. I was not satisfied, but I would have been if you had been there with me, Suguru.
That. Is. Powerful. Those panels imply that love is what made Satoru weak. He did not feel complete because he didn’t have Suguru. He had all of the power in the world, he had status, he had students that depended on him, other friends even, and he still was not satisfied because Suguru wasn’t there.
Sukuna on the other hand recognized how detrimental love was because of what it did to people, how it made them weak, and he decided he didn’t need it.
Those panels were such an indirect-direct conversation between Satoru and Suguru.
Essentially, they were saying:
Suguru: You fought with all of your might and I wish that you recognized my loneliness so that I could have been there with you
Satoru: I was at the peak of my power and I had the weight of the world on my shoulders, and I was allowed to go all-out to fight yet I just wanted you to be there with me
It’s just. Ugh. They’re saying they want each other in the most infuriatingly roundabout way.
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