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alyssaswrld999 · 1 year

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Masterlist:

Series:

Why Me? (The Walking Dead)

Being A Henderson is complicated (Stranger Things)

The Walking Dead:

Daryl Dixon:

Argument and some makeup treatment

Argument and makeup treatment part 2

What's Got Your Panties In a Twist Sunshine?

Negan:

Meeting the Man

Rick Grimes:

Why Do You Have To Be So Handsome?

Carl Grimes :

(Nothing yet)

Shane Walsh:

(Nothing yet)

Merle Dixon:

Suck it Dixon

Paul "Jesus" Rovia:

(Nothing yet)

Alden:

(Nothing yet)

Horror Characters:

Thomas Hewitt (Leatherface):

A Little Disagreement

Jason Voorhees:

(Nothing yet)

Michael Myers:

(Nothing yet)

Freddy Kruger:

(Nothing yet)

Chucky/Charles Lee Ray:

(Nothing yet)

Bubba Sawyer (Leatherface):

(Nothing yet)

Ghostface (Billy & Stu):

(Nothing yet)

Pennywise:

(Nothing yet)

IT Franchise (2017 Film):

Bill Denbrough:

You have a cute face

Ben Hanscom:

(Nothing yet)

Beverly Marsh:

(Nothing yet)

Richie Toizer:

(Nothing yet)

Mike Hanlon:

(Nothing yet)

Eddie Kaspbrak:

(Nothing yet)

Stanley Uris:

(Nothing yet)

Henry Bowers:

(Nothing yet)

Belch Huggins:

(Nothing yet)

Victor Criss:

(Nothing yet)

Patrick Hockstetter:

(Nothing yet)

Riverdale:

Archie Andrews:

(Nothing yet)

Betty Cooper:

(Nothing yet)

Veronica Lodge:

(Nothing yet)

Jughead Jones:

A Long Lost Friend

Cheryl Blossom:

(Nothing yet)

F.P. Jones:

(Nothing yet)

Toni Topaz:

(Nothing yet)

Fangs Fogarty:

(Nothing yet)

Sweetpea:

(Nothing yet)

Shameless:

Frank Gallagher:

(Nothing yet)

Fiona Gallagher:

(Nothing yet)

Lip Gallagher:

(Nothing yet)

Debbie Gallagher:

(Nothing yet)

Ian Gallagher:

(Nothing yet)

Carl Gallagher:

(Nothing yet)

Mickey Milcovich:

(Nothing yet)

Jimmy/Steve:

(Nothing yet)

The Boondock Saints:

Murphy Macmanus:

(Nothing yet)

Connor Macmanus:

(Nothing yet)

Supernatural:

Sam Winchester:

Drunk Love

I'm Broken And I Don't Want To Be Sammy

Dean Winchester:

Why Do You Hate Me So Much?

Castiel:

(Nothing yet)

Crowley:

(Nothing yet)

Stranger Things:

Joyce Byers:

(Nothing yet)

Jim Hopper:

(Nothing yet)

Mike Wheeler:

(Nothing yet)

Eleven/Jane Hopper:

(Nothing yet)

Dustin Henderson:

(Nothing yet)

Lucas Sinclair:

(Nothing yet)

Nancy Wheeler:

(Nothing yet)

Jonathan Byers:

(Nothing yet)

Will Byers:

(Nothing yet)

Steve Harrington:

(Nothing yet)

Max Mayfield:

(Nothing yet)

Billy Hargrove:

(Nothing yet)

Robin Buckley:

(Nothing yet)

Vecna/Henry/One:

(Nothing yet)

Eddie Munson:

Being A Henderson is complicated

The Vampire Diaries/The Originals:

Damon Salvatore:

Hello Strangers

Stefan Salvatore:

Hello Strangers

Tyler Lockwood:

(Nothing yet)

Caroline Forbes:

(Nothing yet)

Bonnie Bennett:

(Nothing yet)

Enzo:

(Nothing yet)

Klaus Mikaelson:

(Nothing yet)

Elijah Mikaelson:

(Nothing yet)

Kol Mikaelson:

(Nothing yet)

Hailey:

(Nothing yet)

Elena Gilbert:

(Nothing yet)

Jeremy Gilbert:

(Nothing yet)

Helluva Boss/Hazbin Hotel:

Blitzo:

(Nothing yet)

Stolas:

(Nothing yet)

Striker:

(Nothing yet)

Millie:

(Nothing yet)

Moxxie:

(Nothing yet)

Loona:

(Nothing yet)

Alastor:

(Nothing yet)

Charlie:

(Nothing yet)

Angel Dust:

(Nothing yet)

Lucifer:

(Nothing yet)

Husk:

(Nothing yet)

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tobeloved3000 · 7 years

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I had a really rough week. Like, a really rough week. I watched all seven seasons of Shameless in 5 days. Literally, in five 24 hour periods I watched Shameless in its current entirety. If I hadn’t had work it would have been less. Twice I stayed up for 36+ hours. I did two 24 hour stretches. I slept until 4:30 pm today because I was so exhausted my body finally forced me to. I love the show and it was completely addicting and the characters are amazing. So, watching to show was not why my week was rough. No, finding things out about myself while I watched the show. That’s what sucked.

Read at your own risk. this is 1,448 words of my whining about my life.

I’ve always been terrible about putting my thoughts into words and this post will probably not be any different. Half of the time I don’t even know how to put my thoughts into thoughts. I’m going to try though because I need to get things out. So here we go.

Shameless is amazing. The reason I spent every second I could the past 5 days watching this show is because I wanted to be a part of it. Not the creating of or anything (though I would literally do anything to be on it or to meet the cast at the very least.), but I wanted their lives. I have watched a lot of tv and loved a lot of fictional characters lives but never like this. I want to live their lives.

My life isn’t terrible. I live in a decent house, I have a car, I know that I will always have something to eat, I have clothes, so yeah, not a terrible life. I’m bored though. I’m alone. I’m bored. I’m not living. I know that the shit parts of their lives are truly shit. I’ve never had to scrounge my house in order to find a money to pay a bill. I’ve never had to ask my siblings to pitch in to pay for groceries so that we could eat. I’ve never worried that my dad’s going to go on a bender and not come home for days. I’ve never been abandoned by my mom. I would never want that and I would never wish any of that on anyone. I want to be what the Gallagher kids became despite their home life. I want to be resourceful like Fiona, a genius like Lip, in love like Ian, caring like Debbie, determined like Carl, and just generally awesome like Liam.

I’m a boring person. All I do with my life is go to work and come home. I don’t go out. I don’t meet people. Every single person I know (locally, excluding internet friends) I know either through work, church, school. I haven’t been in going on 2 years now, church is church, and my social anxiety makes it hard for me to reach out to people at work and if I’m reached out to accept it. I love all of my coworkers and I have some really great friends there, but my shitty brain makes me think that I have to leave work friends at work. I had a coworker say that we need to grab a drink sometime (not a date, just drinks, she’s married with two kids) and I completely shut it down and made excuses. I would love to go out with coworkers and have drinks and laughs and just have a good time but my stupid fucking anxiety won't let me. I don’t know how to live. That’s what Shameless showed me. These people have a shitty life. They live in the literal hood but they know how to live. They know how to go out and have a good time. They know how to stay in and have a good time. They just know how to have a good time. I want that in my life.

I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of coming home to my parents. I love my parents and I am sososososososo thankful that I have them to come home to. But I’m 24. I’m 24 and I don’t even have the prospect of a prospect for a boyfriend. Everyone in this show (save Liam) has had multiple relationships. They weren’t all great and quite frankly the only relationship that I really give two shits about is Gallavich because they are fucking perfect. All of Fiona’s relationships started awesome and each of them I thought ‘Hey, maybe this one will be good’ and then everything gets fucked up and I stop caring. Mandy was the only good relationship Lip had in my opinion. She was the best one for him. I loved the concept of Bonnie and Carl and I think its crap that they dropped the ball on her. Debbie just totally fucked up her life with her relationships (and don’t even get me started on the whole Matt thing). I need someone who loves me the way that Mickey loves Ian. I need it more than anything. I know it took Mickey time to warm up but I mean, he was raised a certain way and it takes time to change. But now. Now Mickey is the best thing that has ever happened to Ian. Mickey was there through everything. Mickey was there for Ian through his diagnosis and to bring him back. Mickey saved Ian. I want a Mickey Milkovich.

I want a family. I want kids of my own. I want to find my Mickey Milcovich and have our own little Gallaghers. I love the sibling relationships that they have and I hope beyond hope that my children will be as strong and supportive of each other as the Gallaghers are. I hope that this level of loyalty can be achieved without me and my husband becoming dead beats and living in poverty. I’m a Hufflepuff and our identifying factor is loyalty. I’m a loyalty junkie. Anytime the kids team up against people (typically Frank, the current instance I’m picturing was after Monica’s dad left and Frank was trying to find the crack Debs hid and started attacking her.) I start crying. That happens in just about any movie or show when people bond together but there’s just something about this one that’s different. I want people that are that loyal to me. I’m beyond grateful that I’ve never needed my brother to prove that he would kick someone’s ass for me but it would be nice to know for sure. I hope my kids would never have to prove their loyalty in that way either but I hope they can find other ways where they wouldn’t have to even question it. I still question it. I love my brother and I know he loves me so I don’t think I have anything to worry about but still.

I need to stop falling for people I have no chance with. I need to fucking stop falling for famous people. Fucking Cameron Monaghan. I first fell for him in Gotham. Jerome was my favorite character on the show despite him being absolutely insane. Then, when I first started seeing things about Shameless and Gallavich and I realized that my Jerome had the same actor as Ian I was hooked. I have a history of falling for famous people, most notably Michael Clifford. I know it’s not healthy and it’s ridiculous to fall this hard for someone you’ve never met and probably will never meet and you know your heart will break when you see they are in a relationship. I can never help myself though. It’s ridiculous how filled with happiness and love I am anytime that Ian would come on screen. I don’t even know Cameron. There’s no way of knowing if we’d even be compatible and yet I cannot stop myself from wishing that I was with him. I just want to be with him all the time. It’s seriously unhealthy.

I want a different life but I’m too fucking chicken to make a new life for myself. I’m too fucking chicken to go out there and find my Mickey Milkovich. I’m too scared to go out and live. I’m too scared. I’d rather sit in my room and hardly move for 5 days and fantasize about this life than actually go out there and have fun. I’m pathetic. This show in all its amazingness helped me realize how fucking pathetic and useless I am. I know that that revelation should make me want to go out and change my life and motivate me to do something to change my circumstance because I’m the only one who can but I’m just too damn scared to.

I know this was long but even in all of these words I don;t think I fully described how much this damn show now means to me. I don’t htink any words ever could.

#personal

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