I freaking LOVE how you draw everyone just so...soft; like I bet they all feel like felt and plush during hugs. Also: do you think Barnaby would ever do that full body wag that dogs with nubs/short tails do when they're super duper happy?

ty! i try my best!

i suspect Barnaby has too much self respect. he's a distinguished dog yk! he wears a tie!

Satan & Violins

I share a lot of similarities with Satan, even when before they canonized something about him; one of them being violinist!Satan😭 In spite of me having a mini identity crisis following the drop of his canon violinist card, i think it makes sense! heres why.

Disclaimer!

1. I have not picked up an instrument in years

2. This is purely bcuz my brain is so busy thinking abt Satan so its kinda rambly. . Pls bare w me T_T

3. THIS IS LONG IM SO SORRY

4. Not too used to tumblr writing just yet sorry if it's messy

(Uploaded on my twitter aswell :D)

The violin and its family, unlike other string instruments (ex. the guitar), doesnt have these little things (that i forgor the name of because im a bad musician) that separates every note. those little separating thingies are the reason why people who dont know shit about playing a key on guitar but memorize musical scales (me) is at least able to strum a simple one octave melody.

Obviously, the two come in with their one difficulty (i prefer the violin myself), but it's a little bit harder to pull that trick with the violin. As you can see, theres not exactly something to tell you where each note begins or where they end. Nothing to determine where is where. You simply have to memorize the placement and the distance between each note. You basically play the violin with Your Gut (1). We'll keep this in mind for now.

Moving on, let's talk about body posture.

Beginner violinist usually directlty face towards the strings when playing, as they aren't used to letting their 'gut' lead the show. However, more experienced players would find no need to do so. A quick glance at Satan's art could tell us he was at least above beginner level to be brave enough to face (us) instead.

When you're not facing your violin, you would usually lean your head towards it, resulting in your ear becoming the closest thing to it- here's a real life example:

Now, if there was anything my teacher warned me before starting violin, is that even without having your ear be the closest thing to it, the strings are already LOUD😭 so its even louder when you alr have ur ear on it. The violin is considered one of the most emotional instruments ever, their lower sound resemble what we use to express sadness in speech. Basically, what I'm trying to say is, you as a player are forced to feel what you're playing. Thus is also why you play the violin with Your Heart (2).

So, how does this tie into Satan? It's no secret that our handsome man is incredibly romantic, and to me if he ever wants to express something to us and making sure the message is clearly received, the equally emotional violin is his best bet! The violin allows Satan to play heartwrenching notes that would quickly be felt by the listener.

Lets get technical.

There's still another side of the violin, as there is another side to Satan. The way you stroke your bow matters, the way you angle it so you'll only hit the notes you want. (thankfully if you mess up, the violin is made to still sound graceful😂). Satan too, is quite the detail oriented person. He is tactical, analytical, observant, a man obsessed with striving to be the perfect one, etc etc. The need of preciseness of the violin is definitely right up his alley. The way you need everything to be correct to be rewarded for a beautiful sound. Idk exactly where I'm going with this but it's basically intelligence meets emotion kinda thing, do you see it too?!?!

In conclusion, the violin is a wonderful instrument that both requires great attention to detail yet is also incredibly emotional and heartfelt, an instrument that requires your gut and heart guide your play without abandoning technique. Satan, the incredibly smart yet fluffy softie, is quite literally made for this and I LOVE HIM for that RAAAAAAHHHH. im normal.

THATS IT RLLY im soooo sorry if it's incredibly messy please have a sugarry picture <3 ily

IM BACK AGAIN- I Hope you Write Angst, cause I’m sad and wanna read this in your amazing Drabble style.

Reader bringing up the courage to foolishly confess her feelings to captain price? He just flat out rejects her and tells her that’s unprofessional? Hell, you’ll get even more points if he switches her off the team 🤞🏻🥰 I want violence. Imagine how sad soap and Gaz would be? Price has to come up with An excuse on why she’s leaving? Reader has to come up with an excuse on why her and prices’ relationship went to shit? Hehe ⁉️🙃

Ok see my issue is that I can’t live with unhappy endings. So there’ll be a little added extra to this that you can completely ignore if you want it to be all angst!

So here we go…

He frowned at you. Just frowned. All harsh lines and previous softness gone. Not a word came out of his mouth. In fact, it was pressed into a thin line. He was unhappy. That much was clear.

Were you wrong in confessing your feelings to him? You’d always felt a vibe that maybe, just maybe, he felt the same. Was that all wishful thinking? Had you been projecting the whole time?

The answer was yes from what Price had said next.

Unprofessional. He’d called you unprofessional.

You were in shock and just left his office with not another word spoken, stumbling back with your mind racing before you bumped into Soap and Gaz and just had to fake it and put a brave face on.

They seemed suspicious but didn’t push.

The time ticked on by, you desperately tried to avoid Price (which was difficult considering he was your Captain) and he began criticising your every move. It was like you couldn’t do anything right anymore. He became overly analytical and it was irritating.

And then you were notified that you were being reassigned to a new team. Your heart shattered. Who knew it was so easy to fuck up your entire life with a single simple confession?

Soap and Gaz were rightfully devastated and had begged everybody with any kind of power to let you stay. It didn’t work. The decision was final. You were out.

When your two friends had asked you about why you were leaving you made up some excuse that they thought your skills would be better off elsewhere. It was a poor thing to say as Price’s account of the situation differed when they questioned him instead. He’d said that you weren’t cut out for the intensity of what this team had to do so you were reassigned to somewhere easier. They didn’t believe that either.

And when it got to saying your goodbyes to everyone, it was clear to the whole room that there was some weird tension between you and Price. The atmosphere was thick enough to be cut with a knife. Gaz and Soap had looked at you with puzzled looks but there was no time to explain, you were leaving.

And so you did. You were out. Gone. All because you’d told Price how you felt and he hadn’t liked it.

Extra:

It took three months before you got the call.

It was Price.

“I’m sorry. It couldn’t happen. Too risky. But… me too.”

hi new follower here and i absolutely love your blog! <3

i was wondering if you’re still talking about charts?? if so i’d be so grateful if you could do mine! thank you if so :)

hello and welcome! and im glad you love my blog!

im sorry that this took a while (and that it is super long). everything is under the read more (disclaimer: i only did the planets and their positions. im still learning about the asteroids and the degrees)

taurus sun (12 H): when taurus natives work, they work hard. they do it with a steadiness that may rarely be considered quick–rather it’s a dependable and steady effort that has its payoffs. security is immensely important to taurus. although hard-working, their comfort-loving nature sometimes makes them appear lazy. this is only because they separate work and leisure so well. when they work, they work hard, and when they play, they don’t really “play” as such…they relax. solar taureans like to own things (and sometimes people). a nice home, a piece of land (this can be modest), a paid-off car, a couple pets, maybe a solid business…in love and relationship, there is an earthy kind of possessiveness that may be considered jealousy by some, but there is actually quite a difference between being possessive and being jealous. taurus sun natives are rarely jealous and petty. they do, however, think of the people they love as theirs–it adds to their sense of security.

the sun in the twelfth house indicates a desire for perfection. these people usually do not get full recognition for their abilities and efforts, but they do not mind. they are satisfied with their simple, quiet life in solitude. if they become managers, they will do their job inconspicuously and with modesty. their services to other people are an area in which they are likely to achieve recognition and satisfaction. these people are usually interested in psychology and research of psychological phenomena. even though they may feel the need to interact with others, they often feel alienated even in the middle of a social event. it gives them the opportunity to observe, make sense of things and understand.

capricorn moon (9 H): people with this placement see safety in being useful to society and you look for justification in the outside world. they may underestimate what they want from themselves and for themselves. shyness may be accompanied by resentment of the fact that others ignore you. they shouldn't seek approval from the outside, it will not get rid of their doubt and it is harmful to them. they have to trust their inner values, otherwise, it may happen that they succumb to external pressures. the need to cope with adverse reality since childhood may give them the ability to "survive" difficult periods. their talent for business can bring them success but they may be missing some carefreeness.

the moon in the ninth house creates an understanding and imaginative mind. these people are great dreamers and thinkers who have novel ideas. their views are solid and sincere, but they change their minds easily. they have a variety of interests and hobbies; they like to lecture other people. the Moon gives these people inner self-determination, which gives them the energy to lead and direct those who lack the same degree of awareness.

gemini ascendent: very curious, very observant, and analytical. always looking to expand their social circles.  love asking questions and mingling with others. can appear as restless as gemini rising people have an air of impatience even though they do not mean it. gemini rising people often seek a certain amount of personal freedom and space. and they enjoy intellectual debates and exchanging ideas. from my personal observations, gemini rising people can either be 1. bubbly, changeable, talkative and a little quirky, or 2. quite witty and clever, cool and intellectual (presenting themselves in a less cheerful and changeable way).

taurus mercury (12 H): they may take their time to arrive at a decision, but they get there — they are actually quite decisive, even stubborn with their opinions. mercury in taurus may be slow to start a new project, but they see it through to the end. they may need to poke them to get them going, however. they have much common sense at their disposal. these people rely on their senses when it comes to processing information. smells, noises, and mood are all employed. their communication style may, at times, be slow and measured. they are quite deliberate in what they do. when it comes to learning, mercury in taurus natives prefer demonstrations, concrete answers, and basic concepts. these people learn best when they see real-world uses for the theories they’re trying to absorb. not that they wouldn’t be able to comprehend the abstract–they simply process information better when they can personalize it (what use is it to me?) and attach it to the practical world.

mercury in the twelfth house represents the subconscious mind. thinking of these people is influenced by their subconscious and past experiences. Their decisions are based on emotions instead of logical thinking. these people have a tendency to be secretive and they do not like to express their opinions, especially in the public. they lack self-confidence but they are good at hiding it. this position also suggests difficulties in learning new things and it is an obstacle to developing the potential of the person.

taurus venus (12 H): love for venus in taurus centers on the physical world and creature comforts — they revel in sensual surroundings. these people project themselves as solid and comfortable. they need a certain measure of predictability and dependability in their relationships. venus in taurus can be possessive in love, and they are threatened by fast-paced, high-energy situations in the context of relationships and love. these are sensual partners who require lots of “hands-on” expressions of love. their lovers may complain that venus in taurus can get a little too comfortable and settled. it’s true that they resist change in their relationships, but even when they seem stuck in a groove, however, they are constant partners.

venus in the twelfth house suggests secrecy and solitude. it points to the introspective aspect of character and the need to spend time alone. it creates socially withdrawn people who are a bit lonely and disappointed in their romantic relationships. they are very emotional but they can subconsciously control their emotions. this position usually creates a significant degree of compassion for oppressed people and all those who are in a bad position.

virgo mars (5 H): these people are productive, goal-oriented, practical people. although they can be a little scattered at times, simply because they are doing so many things at any give time, mars in virgo natives get things done, and quite well! they have a knack for handling a wide variety of tasks at once, and a tendency to take on perhaps too much at the same time. these natives are not particularly aggressive by nature. although they can be a little hard-nosed and critical at times, they rarely resort to pushing others around. these people are protective of their “system” of how to get things done. there is a perfectionist at the heart of all people with this position.

mars in fifth house natives are fun, romantic, active and creative. Also, courageous and always eager to take risks, they're often sure of themselves and look only to have as much fun as possible. Mars in this position suggests they love to love and pursue romantic relationships everywhere they go.

aquarius jupiter (10 H): jupiter in aquarius is most lucky when they’re allowed to break the rules. they need complete freedom to try out their creative ideas, for they often payout in the end. this placement isn’t afraid to take risks as they offer great rewards. they bring in good fortune through their inventive thought process. they are out to change the world for the better, and they reap the benefits of their humanitarian efforts.

jupiter in tenth house keeps luck on people’s side in most situations in life. it makes natives with this placement very lucky when it comes to their career. however, they can also count too much on their good fortune and end up reckless or too relaxed when the situation would require them to focus. these natives are usually very open to making new friends, self-confident, charming, and very convincing. people will love and honor them for all these traits. they give a lot of importance to social status and want to be as free as possible.

aries saturn (11 H): saturn in aries realizes there are times when even they are not ready to handle a situation with unknown consequences. it’s a struggle that causes conflict with other people, and they have a hard time controlling their temper. saturn in aries tends to look more closely at them and decide whether or not it is in their best interest to steamroll ahead. this person is not as much of a trailblazer as other planets in this sign, but that doesn’t mean they hold back all the time. the people tend to be more rational and thoughtful. this can be used to their advantage when they’re actively trying to get ahead in life. they can rely on their powers of persuasion to get their point across in a concise and effective manner to get what they want.

people born with saturn in the eleventh house in their birth chart have lots of acquaintances but no too many close friends and these are likely to be older than them. their oldest friendships will last a lifetime. they're drawn to people who are serious and have a purpose in life.

aquarius uranus (9 H): uranus in aquarius is in its own sign and it creates inventors and people who like to apply new, untested methods and procedures. they like to fight for moral values and they love freedom. they do not let their emotions and feelings to restrict them. they are open-minded and open to radical reforms. aquarius is known for its humanity, and uranus further strengthens these tendencies.

with uranus in the ninth house, these people believe in freedom of beliefs, religion, and liberty in your way of life. more than any other placement of uranus, this makes someone interested in the truth of the system. in fact, uranus revolutionizes and changes their worldview quite dramatically.

capricorn neptune (9 H): neptune in capricorn gets their drive and ambition. this helps them to come up with new ideas. for them, inspiration comes from logic, reason, and the practical uses of different theories to better society. as a conservative personality, neptune in capricorn doesn’t often get “struck” by creative thought. they develop their ideas more slowly and thoroughly, as they do everything else in their life. they would rather work on things at their own pace and in their way. they don’t like to work together with others when brainstorming. more times than not, they would rather sit by themselves in quiet reflection. they are often obsessed with status, so neptune in capricorn tends to focus on ways to increase their wealth and influence. they like power and are always thinking of new ways to acquire more.

a natal neptune in ninth house suggests a very strong faith in life. with neptune here, there is a strong connection with the divine. these people are strongly aligned with their higher self. many neptune in ninth house people are very religious.

sagittarius pluto (7 H): plutonian sagittarians are understanding and philosophical. personal transformation can occur especially through philosophical searching. pluto in this position strengthens their innate (not learned) religious consciousness and feeling. one can expect them to create a new spiritual or mystical direction, and attempts to merge existing religions and churches.

pluto in seventh house natives are connected to the concept of a good family, a close and loving atmosphere at home. relationships are especially emphasized here. after all, they want to fulfill their sense of belonging as well. if it’s affection and intense emotions that drive them, everything is good and the prospects for a long-standing relationship are blooming. this placement of pluto makes people crave deep emotions and display a sense of responsibility that is rarely seen, plus lead their lives by their own very specific values.

Hoodie Chapter 3

Shownu X Reader

Author’s Note: 

Special thanks to @xoktie on picsart for making this amazing edit for me!! Go check her stuff out if you have the chance, she never disappoints!!

Also ya’ll can re-blog, just please don’t re-post somewhere else! If you do, at least credit me (please and thank you)! Also, I’m so sorry about this bar scene. I’m 18 so I’ve never been in one, so the description of the server/customer dynamics and norms may be a little off lmao. Other than that, enjoy!!

Brief Recap:

You were dead tired from throwing yourself into your work by the time Minhyuk started packing up to leave.

“Are you coming out drinking with us tonight?”

You were half tempted to decline because of how exhausted you were, but you figured one beer wouldn’t hurt too much.

“Sure! Who else is going?”

“Hoseok, Kihyun Yoo and Hyungwon Chae from marketing, Jooheon Lee and Changkyun Im from the Analytics department. A bunch of girls from accounting are tagging along as well.”

... You had a feeling tonight was going to be interesting, but nothing could’ve prepared you for what was going to happen next. 

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You pulled into the parking lot of the bar. It was 8:00 pm on a Thursday, but the place was already packed. You spotted Minhyuk waving at you from the back and made your way over, skirting around the crowded dance floor in the process. 

“Look who finally made it!”

Minhyuk came over and put an arm around your shoulder sloppily, clearly already a few drinks in, and walked you to an empty seat at the table where the rest of the group was seated. As you sat down, you noticed that the pitcher on the table that was once full of beer was now being emptied into Jooheon’s glass.  You laughed and said in fake annoyance, “What, you didn’t save any of that for me?” Jooheon looked at you seriously for a second and then busted out in his best aegyo. You couldn’t help but laugh at his adorable pout. Huffing a sigh of defeat, you said, “Fine, I guess I’ll go order another pitcher for the table.” Everyone cheered at that and you left your friends, feeling like some sort of hero.

As you waited for the nice bartender to fill up your pitcher, you couldn’t help but overhear the loud conversation of the two girls sitting next to you.

“He’s so hot, right? Like, super manly hot!” 

The girl next to her leaned over and fake whispered, “Yes! He could scramble my eggs any day.”

Out of pure curiosity as to what this person would look like, you turned your head to find the poor soul that they were gawking at was actually Hyunwoo. He had just come through the door and was making his way toward your table of friends.

“Oh, God. Why is this happening? I’m not drunk enough to handle this.”

You turned back around and accepted the full pitcher of beer from the bartender. Tentatively, you made your way back to your friends and sat the pitcher on the table. Surprisingly, only Hoseok and Jooheon noticed your arrival. The rest of the group was busy peppering Hyunwoo with questions (including three girls from the accounting department who were practically throwing themselves at him).

One of the girls started giggling at something Hyunwoo said as another put a hand on his arm. Another one tossed her hair to the side and looked at him flirtatiously as she said, “So, I heard you went to X University. That’s a notorious party school, right? Were you a frat boy?”

You restrained yourself from letting out a groan at this superficial, and frankly vomit inducing, flirting.

Hyunwoo however, being a simple man, did not pick up on any of these flirtatious actions.

“Well, we were known for our partying, but it’s actually a really good school. I rushed a fraternity the summer of my sophomore year, but I found out I cared about our school’s dance club a lot more.” 

The girl who asked gave a bit of a disappointed look at hearing this and seemed to lose interest. After a stretch of silence, she got up and left with the lame excuse of needing to powder her nose. It was this point in the conversation, however, that you suddenly gained a lot more interest.

-------------------------------5 years earlier-----------------------------------

You had met Hyunwoo freshman year in your UNI100 class. You both happened to be the really quiet people sitting at the back of the class, hoping not to get called on. You never even looked twice at him until the day of your first dance club meeting. He was all shy smiles and sun kissed skin before the music started playing. He commanded the attention of the entire room the second he started moving. Each turn, glide, and hip thrust left the entire room hungry for more. When his powerful performance finally drew to a close, every single head was turned in his direction. His breathing was heavy and he was completely soaked with sweat as he made his way over to the side to sit and watch the others perform.

 You had joined the club begrudgingly at the persistent pestering of your best friends who were in it. You weren’t a good dancer like they were, so you opted for the more technical side of things and took on the job of setting up the sound system and coordinating everyone's songs as well as being everyone’s emotional support and cheerleader at competitions. When you saw Hyunwoo dance that day, it stirred something in you that you had never experienced before. He moved with such heartrendingly beautiful grace despite the amount of power and force put in his movements that you couldn’t help but be a little bit curious as to who this Hyunwoo was. 

You didn’t have the guts to talk to him after that practice, but one day in your UNI100 class he happened to forget his pencil and you were more than happy to oblige him. This got you both talking about the club, your majors, life in general, and the rest is history.

-----------------------Present--------------------------------------

Hoseok snapped in front of your face, drawing you out of your thoughts. 

“Earth to (y/n)! What’s up with you, today? You’ve been spacey since lunch.”

He scooted closer to you, feeling your forehead with the back of his hand saying, “You’re not catching a cold, are you? You know you don’t have to work so hard all of the time. It’s okay to take a break every once in a while.”

You huffed in slight annoyance at his fussing (even though you enjoyed it just a little) at swatted his hand away.

“I’m fine. It’s just been a long day of revisiting things from my past that I thought I had let go of.”

Subconsciously your eyes wandered over to Hyunwoo who was sat between Minhyuk and Kihyun acting as a sort of referee for the drinking game the two were playing. Hosek, being the astute observer he was, followed where you were looking and let out a slight gasp at the connection he made.

“That’s not-”

 “Yup.”

You took a sip of your beer and stared up at the ceiling, trying to hold back the tears that started to sting your eyes. You didn’t realize how much you had been holding in until now. Hoseok, picking up on your sudden mood change, suggested the two of you go on the dance floor and let go for a bit. You agreed with the condition you could take your beer with you,  seeing as you didn’t have a better idea. You weren’t going to let old history ruin your night, especially when you have a caring friend like Hoseok. You danced your heart out, forgetting about all of your problems for a while and threw yourself into the pulsing beat of the here and now. The night continued on, one beer turned to five, and you were stumbling over yourself and slurring your words when Hoseok and Minhyuk finally cut you off. 

“Are you good to drive Minhyuk? I’ve got room in my car if you need a ride.”

“That’s okay, I got an uber. They should be pulling up soon. See you at the office.”

Hoseok waved goodbye to him and turned to you.

“You are definitely in no shape to drive. I’m taking you home and I’ll come by tomorrow morning to pick you up for work so you’re not stranded.”

All you could get out was a strangled grunt in assent as he half-dragged/half-carried you toward the door. 

You had just made it to the front of the building before a familiar voice called out to the two of you. You turned around quickly and sloppily which didn’t help everything stop spinning. You clutched at Hoseok’s arm to keep from falling over and squinted to see Hyunwoo carrying a semi-passed out Kihyun on his back.

“Do either of you know where Kihyun and Jooheon live? They’re both passed out and won’t tell me their address, so I can’t take them home. Changkyun was supposed to be their DD but he bailed to hookup with some chick.”

Hoseok sighed a little and said, “I know where those two idiots live. I would give them a ride, but that’s in the complete opposite direction from (y/n)’s apartment and she’s in no shape to drive herself, let alone be left on her own here.”

“ I can drive her. I don’t have enough room in my car to fit those two in it anyway.”

They both looked at you, assessing your condition, when finally Hoseok said, “I don’t really know if I’m comfortable with that, we just met and all and you don’t know where she lives so-”

“It’s the same apartment on Dodd street, right? Number 7?”

Hoseok blinked, trying to come up with a better reason to refuse him when you spoke up and slurred out, “Just let him take me, ‘seokie  [hiccup]. How much worse can it get? I just want to go to bed~”

Hoseok stood there for a few more seconds before he sighed and said, “Alright, fine. But only because this situation couldn’t be helped because I can’t remember both of their literal addresses. (y/n), call me when you get in so I know you’re okay.”

You nodded your head, despite it feeling like lead, and walked out with the boys to the parking lot. Hyunwoo put Kihyun down in the passenger seat and buckled him in as Hoseok did the same to Jooheon in the backseat. They were both sleeping like babies, much like you wished you were.

Hyunwoo turned and looked directly at you (the first time all night, to your recollection) and asked, “Are you ready to go? I parked over there. Do you think you’ve got it, or do you need help.” 

You moved to protest, but your legs were a lot heavier and unsteadier than you remembered, so you stumbled into him instead. He caught and steadied you before he picked you up bridal style and carried you off to his car, saying something to Hoseok about leaving. As soon as your head hit the headrest, sleep consumed you. 

You didn’t wake up when he pulled up to your building, or when he somehow managed to carry you to the door of your apartment. You did, however, wake up long enough to dig your keys out of your purse to give to Hyunwoo, but slipped immediately back into that sweet blackness shortly thereafter.

You woke the next morning to the painfully loud ringing of your alarm clock. You slammed the off button and rolled over, sighing in annoyance and pain. Getting, up you shuffled quickly to the bathroom, a wave of nausea hitting you at the smell of breakfast being cooked in the kitchen. When you finished in the bathroom, you made your way to the kitchen, shielding your eyes from the painfully bright light that seemed to be everywhere. You were just about to chastise your roomate for cooking such smelly food when you have a major hangover when you realized it wasn’t Emma but Hyunwoo who was manning the stove.

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Wellness: A Villian!AU Coco Fic Part 10: Crashing Wave

Psychologist Malcom Kevgil is called upon by the Riveras to help with Miguels post-mortem development. He quickly learns however that this is moreso a trauma rehabilitation, and an untangling of lies and 90 year old mysteries.

He’s a smart man, but will compassion and an analytical mind win out against Family ties?

Emotions begin to crest..... 

This particular version of the AU has been written and developed by @im-fairly-whitty [Click here to read!]

Rating: Gen (subject to change depending) \ Warnings: None \ Word Count: 849 // Masterpost Link

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Miguel was so, so tired 

And today, that was meant literally.

He hadn’t gone to therapy, but there had been a party. A Dia De los Muertos pre-party. His first one here since… everything.

Mama Imelda had explained to him that they were throwing the party today, so that they could go over the bridge tomorrow. A mention of the bridge caused a lump to form in Miguel’s nonexistent throat, but he reminded himself that he was loved, and pushed away the anxiety. A tip from Doctor Kevgil.

”Sometimes, Miguel, you’ll be anxious, and you’ll forget something simple, but important. So it helps to tell yourself some simple, important things” The doctor explained a few weeks prior “I am valued, I am loved, I am a person with feelings. I deserve to be happy- things like that” 

It had been one of the doctors most helpful tips.

And tomorrow would be the day. He’d get to see his family again.

He could still feel the anxiousness seeping into his bones.

It would be fine, right? Totally fine.

It had been totally fine

Completely fine

Beyond fine, really

It almost made him… angry.

The entire time they were visiting his living family, there was silence. No conversation, no nothing. No one argued, or cried, or anything

It nearly drove Miguel mad, because the living family was crying.

His mother and father has set up an ofrenda for him, separate from the rest of the family.

His sister had been born. Her name was Socorro. And while Miguel didn’t think much of babies, he had decided, while she was reaching for his photo and giggling at the flowers surrounding his ofrenda, that she was definitely the best baby ever.

But… perhaps the worst part of all of this… was that it didn’t have to be this way.

It hit him all at once as he heard his father tell little Socorro about her “amazing big brother, Miguel” who would have “absolutely loved you, so, so much”

Because he did, he did absolutely love her so, so much

And he could have been there

He should have been there

…. And they’d never said sorry.

That was what he thought really bothered him about the whole thing. There was no changing the fact that he was dead. But… maybe if Papa Hector had said sorry. Really, really meant it, too.

But Papa Hector would never say sorry. Not really.

And Miguel knew it was because he wasn’t sorry. He did what he thought was right, even though it was wrong.

The boy covered his head with a pillow, trembling at the thoughts running through his head.

Whenever he had racing thoughts, the doctors 5 step calm down always helped, but he struggled to remember the process and order. He struggled to process most of his thoughts. It was all just racing, racing, *racing*.

“He’ll never say he’s sorry”

“He’ll never admit it was wrong”

“Papa Hector is selfish”

“You’ll never be happy until he admits what he did was wrong” 

Miguel paused at that particular thought.

It was something he’d thought about before, but that he’d pushed away because.. Well, he didn’t think it  was possible. But Doctor Malcom had told him that problems with other people have to be solved on both sides if you still want to know the person.

“It’s like this” Malcom had started “Let’s say you and I get in an argument about…. Say, ice cream flavors. I think you’re wrong in thinking that Vanilla is the best flavor. I say strawberry is”

“Strawberry is gross”

Malcom snorted “Not the point, nino”

“Sorry”

“Nothing to be sorry for” Malcom placated “Now, in order for us to still be friends. We have to accept that we have different opinions”

Miguel nodded, following along

“But If I say that it’s okay that you don’t like Strawberry, but don’t actually think so, then we haven’t actually resolved the problem. Me apologizing for saying that you’re dumb for something that you like Vanilla isn’t sincere, because I wasn’t honest”

“But… how will i know you’re honest?” Miguel asked, brow furrowed

“Well, that can be hand to tell. But the important part is that I follow through on that apology and never say you’re dumb. But… sometimes it can be really obvious when someone is insincere. Wanna know an easy way to tell?”

Miguel nodded, almost looking too eager.

“ If that person can look you in the eye every time but when he says sorry, its not sincere” Malcom explained “If they can look you in the eye at any other time, but not when they’re trying to be honest with you? They’re not being honest”

Miguel mulled over those words for days after, and it was hitting him in waves yet again.

Paps Hector almost never made eye contact. He did it with almost everyone else.. But not him.

Miguel could feel himself trembling slightly.

He shut his eyes, he willed the thoughts away

But one lingered, almost taunting

“You won’t be happy till he means it”

Hi!! This for a match up for Haikyuu!! I’m a ENFJ who’s a short (also packin’ that thicc thighs & ass) gay boy. I’m a Virgo who’s a hard worker (most my classes are honors/AP) but also procrastinate. People tell me I have a very calm & trusting vibe so people always come to me when they need help or have a secret. I enjoy writing & traveling. I’m pretty dorky & nerdy as in I love learning random new things & am involved with my school’s mock government & model un programs. [PT 1]

People also say I’m very funny & I highly enjoy memes & am overall very witty. I suffer from ocd, depression, & anxiety but do what I can to be my best. I enjoy affection (especially cuddling). I’m a very supportive person & love being my friend’s hype man. Oh & I love Disney movies & Bruno Mars lmao. If you need more, just message me (I hope I covered everything lol). Thank you so much!! I’m so excited!! [PT 2-final part]

Ok firST OFF IM SO SORRY FOR DOING THIS SO LATE TUT ples forgive me TUT I hope you like it !!!

You are an extrovert, outgoing, you plan ahead, you look at the future possibilities and focus on the social side of things. You are also loyal, kind, hardworking and analytical, hence your involvement in the mock government and model UN programs!!! You seek connection with others, you ponder over “what if” scenarios, seek for the best alternative that will make the majority of the people happy- this is achieved through your ability to gather your experiences, insights and research to form like a plan, that will ultimately be the catalyst to action. People look up to you and admire you for your qualities, you are an amazing and empathetic leader who considers things thoroughly. HOWEVER!!! You are pretty self-critical, you work too hard and you push yourself too much, which is tiring and you wear yourself out.  

I SHIP YOU WITH !!!

Terushima Yuuji

Terushima is childish, energetic, persistent and he loves to play around. He can come off as non-committal or someone who doesn’t take anything seriously. But in reality, he’s just a bit distracted all the time. He takes pride in his non-committal attitude but like he’d need someone who knows how to reel his ass in when he’s too playful or going out of hand. He may pout and whine alot, but he appreciates you when you reel his ass in. As mentioned, he appears as non- committal and plays around like its no one’s business, but when he falls in love, he falls in deep, and he’d love someone like you - his polar opposite to be with him. People say polar opposites don’t really work but I think it takes someone like Terushima to work a polar opposites relationship.

It is canon that Terushima is a smart boy, and he’s in one of the best classes in his school, he’d look like a dumb jock but he might be good at roasting people, but you’d serve it right back at him hot and toasty, and he’d just fall in love with you because of that hot comeback. ALSO we all know he’s a total slob so like he really looks up to you when you work hard, and he loves looking at you study or when you tell him about random facts or like ideas you would potentially propose to the mock government/ UN programs. Terushima is also a pretty spontaneous guy (considering his reputation), he’d absolutely love it if you invited him to one of your trips- he knows how to party so like, both of you would have lots of fun!!!

Terushima might be playful and loud, but he can be observant and quiet when he needs to. He would do his best to act as your rock when you need him, he’d hold your hand tightly or just be with you when you need him when you’re anxious, or feeling under the weather. I don’t know much about OCD, but he’d do some research beforehand so he’d know what to do/ or what not to do or say. Terushima is a very touchy- feely person and wouldn’t be afraid to show affection. I reckon PDA is something you would expect in a relationship with Terushima. NOT ONLY THAT, Terushima loves to rest so if he catches you being too hard on yourself/ working too hard and is in need of a break he would do ANYTHING to get your attention and lure you to bed so you can get your well deserved break. He would also just drag you somewhere spontaneously, maybe when you have a writer’s block?? He would bring you on small and fun dates, be it a small restaurant he found online, or a pretty garden during spring, he’d make sure you get to relax and also probably provide new ideas for you! He’d provide wacky and weird scenarios and you’d just go along and plot with him!!!

I think both of you would try to make time for each other and also disney movie marathon is a must!! He absolutely adores you when you sing along to the disney songs. He’d take candid photos of you snuggling up next to him and watching Disney movies. The relationship would be a very fun, sometimes loud and loving relationship!

Things Terushima likes:

When you sing along to Disney songs

Hot comebacks

When you sit on his lap

When you lean on him

When you come to his volleyball matches

When you feed him his favourite sausage bread

Lazy weekends

Walks!!

Breaks with him

Travelling with you

I also ship you with (more under the cut)

Akaashi Keiji

Keiji is calm, collected, indifferent and very analytical. He’s also very blunt, smart, humble and cheeky. He wouldn’t talk a lot and most likely be an introvert, but he will make YOU talk. He loves to plot with you, listen to you talk about weird facts, and will help you with your proposals when you are preparing for an upcoming UN model event or a school event. If you ever need advice, or like an unbiased opinion, Akaashi would be glad to help out. Like you, Akaashi is also a very hard worker but he knows his limits. He would also know your limit. He’d make sure you get plenty of rest and make sure that you’re constantly taking a break when you study. He’d also be there for you when you need it. He won’t be the affectionate boyfriend, he’d probably choose to sit next to you quietly, reading a book, but he’s open for hugs, kisses or hand holding but you’d need to initiate it. However, because Akaashi is very observant he’d detect your mood and think about what he should do so he can support and comfort you. He’d be polite and careful about boundaries and would be very careful not to do or say something that might make you feel uneasy.

As mentioned, Akaashi is cheeky, blunt and smart, and would provide you with both witty comments and comebacks, you’d find both of you engaged in a quiet, friendly and witty banter sometimes. He loves it though!!! He might provoke you a little sometimes, and even tease you with his poker face, but he’d make sure he’d still be respectful about it and wouldn’t say anything that might offend you. He’s very careful with these things. ALSO Akaashi is probably a huge bookworm and he’d absolutely love it if you let him read things you write. Be it a simple poem, or a random passage you’ve written because you were inspired, he would read it and provide insightful comments and thoughts. Akaashi would also give you book recommendations and would be very happy if both of you got to discuss about the book.

I feel like Akaashi would be the type of boyfriend who calls his lover at night before they sleep. He calls frequently during exam periods, so you’d take a break when you’re over the phone. Akaashi would also bring food over for you when he thinks you’re not eating enough. He’d take care of you and your parents would absolutely love him. He would plan dates with you every once in a while and even make plans for roadtrips because he loves you and wants you to share that passion you have with him. He’d be very thankful and happy if you turned up to watch him play during his volleyball matches. If you bought like a small treat for him and give him a hug after the match, he’d blush like crazy, the volleyball team will tease yall for being “young love” but it’s all good because everyone is happy!! It’s a very calming and respectful relationship.

Morisuke Yaku

Yaku is funny, responsible, short tempered, straightforward, honest and confident. He also has his maternal side and loves to look out for people. Yaku is super underrated, and definitely deserves more love. This is a king who is respected by everyone!!! We love King Yaku!!! Anyways!! Yaku would be attracted to how hard working you are, and obviously how hard you push yourself. This in return triggers his maternal side, urging him to care for you and make sure you’re taking frequent breaks and all. He’d also prepare small snacks for you when you go to a model program or when you’re busy running the school council. Knowing Yaku, he’s probably involved in the school council somehow, and he’d always look out for you and trying to help you with your responsibilities. He won’t be a big fan of spontaneous things, and would plan everything thoroughly, be it a date or a trip! Not only that, it is canon that Yaku is a sass king and would serve you all kinds of comebacks ranging from funny to witty to hot roast, and he will NEVER fail to surprise and impress you with his comebacks. He’d be okay about PDA, if you initiate it in public, he’d gladly reciprocate, he initiates affection mostly in private though.

ALSO Yaku may be a big fan of Disney movies too and would always be up to binge with you or even discuss about plots. He’d also be a big fan of your writing and would always encourage you to write more; sometimes he’d give you ideas, hoping to inspire you. He loves it when you smile and enjoy doing something you love, he enjoys watching you relax. He would also love it if you’d talk to him about your day or trivial things. I feel like Yaku would also look for random facts to share with you, and you’d share random facts with each other, it might be a daily routine to share random facts with each other!!!!

Sugawara Koushi

Cute dates- cafes, amusement parks

Cheeky grins

Lunchboxes

PDA

Suga’s amazing 6th sense and him giving you amazing advice

Binge reading manga together

Lazy weekends

Ramen nights

Movie marathons + takeout

Lots of cuddles !!!  

I hope you like it !!! >///

Hey! :) How would RFA (V+Saeran) react if MC says something really hurtful, because she is stressed out? How would she make it up to them? Sorry for my bad englisch haha :D

Your English is fine :)  Also I finally learned how to use keep reading tabs! Here goes:

Zen:

MC would be stressing, and in trying to cheer her up, Zen would end up being narcissistic 

Saying things like “MC, you have no reason to be stressed out with a handsome guy like me around ;)”

After one too many comments like this, MC would be pushed over the edge

“No wonder your parents hated you.”

It was barely audible, muttered through clenched teeth

But Zen heard it as clear as day

His face just falls, and his hands fall to his sides.

He doesn’t cry often, but his eyes start to water

He walks away silently

Mc just puts her head in her hands, thinking “I can’t deal with this right now”

Once MC calms done and realizes the impact of her words, she goes to apologize, only to find Zen gone

MC checks everywhere in the house, and discovers Zen’s bike is gone as well.

She calls him, but he left his phone at home

Eventually MC falls asleep on the couch out of pure exhaustion 

When she wakes up, she checks the bedroom and finds Zen wrapped in blankets, asleep.

She makes one of the cheesy jars filled with “100 reasons I love you”

She makes his favorite breakfast and gently wakes him up

She presents the gift and the breakfast to him, along with an apology

When MC starts crying, Zen can’t take it anymore

He instantly forgives her

But is still woken up to breakfast in bed and small gifts for at least a week

Yoosung:

He’s already a pretty sensitive guy

So when MC says something about him never trying or making an effort at anything, about him being a failure and that she has to do everything

It really gets to him

He turns into a mess

He starts to cry almost immediately

He runs to his room and throws himself on his bed

He’s not even mad at you, he’s just distraught because he thinks your words hold some truth

Cries himself to sleep, cocooned in blankets

He avoids you, not wanting to be a burden

He stops playing LOLOL

He tries to start studying, but his mind keeps wandering back to your words

When you come to his room with his favorite meal and a handwritten card, he starts to get all choked up

Tells you he’s sorry and that he’s trying to be better

You tell hm he has nothing to be sorry about, you were just stressed out and those hurtful words slipped out

You tell him how wonderful he is, and that your words had no truth to them

He starts to cry in relief and hugs you tightly 

All is forgiven and a cuddling session begins~

Jaehee:

Both of you were stressed about the cafe not doing so well lately

She suggested maybe you work a few extra hours and help out a bit more

Although she said it with good intentions, it ticked you off

You grumbled something about how she was better as nothing but a simple assistant

This hurt her feelings quite a bit, but she didn’t show it

“Ok MC.”

She just walked away, grabbed a cup of coffee, and popped in a Zen disc

She sat on the couch with her back towards you

After awhile, you tried to apologize

“Jaehee, I’m sorry. That wasn’t kind.”

No response came, so you continued on with your apology.

Still no response

You sighed and went to sit next to her

Only to find her eyes watering, tears threatening to fall

Jaehee rarely cried

You hugged her tightly, and didn’t let go for a long time

You held her as you both drifted to sleep

In the morning, you woke up before her and made coffee and breakfast for her, and made sure to help out more with the cafe

707:

You were stressed out, and Seven being Seven, kept making jokes and being goofy

He was trying to cheer you up and relieve some of your stress, but it only ended up irritating you

You just weren’t in the mood for his jokes, and it finally got to be too much for you to handle

“This is why Saeran hates you.” You grumble through gritted teeth

Of course you didn’t mean it, but through your blinding irritation, it slipped out

He stops whatever he’s doing, stops mid joke

His eyes start to water and his chest feels heavy

He whispers an inaudible “I know.”

And he leaves

He takes one of his cars and leaves before you can try to stop him.

He speeds, and doesn’t drive with any caution

You stay awake all night, worrying about him

He comes home at around three in the morning

You rush to him as soon as he opens the door and embrace him

You whisper and apology over and over again 

After a few minutes, he returns your embrace, and wraps you in his arms

He starts to cry while you gently stroke his hair

You pull him into bed and hold him until he falls asleep

You wake up early and let him sleep

You make him all of his favorite foods, and write reasons you love him on sticky notes and put them all over the house

He’s still a little down throughout the day

But he keeps insisting you don’t have to do this

despite his protests, you try as hard as you can to make it up to him

At night, You tell him he means the world to both you and Saeran

He tells you he forgives you as you cuddle in bed, drifting off to sleep

Jumin:

Jumin as a hard time being sympathetic sometimes, and is often overly analytical 

He’s really just trying to ease the stress and show you that there’s nothing to be stressed bout

He always tries his best to be perfect for you

So when you yell at him for being an emotionless robot, it stings

Ironically, he chooses not to show that it affects him

Tries to carry on as he normally would, but you can tell he’s being more distant and colder than he usually is.

Looks up how to show his emotions on wikihow

You finally apologize the next day

You tell him you know that he feels quite deeply inside, and that your words held no truth and were only said out of momentary anger, falsely directed at him

Jumin smiles and forgives you, and tells you he’ll take more of an effort to be sympathetic

The next day, there are lots and lots of new ties laid out on his bed as an apology, similar to the way he lays out new things he buys you 

Happy boy

V:

He tries to help you feel less stressed

His intentions are pure, but his actions do not have the desired effect

He hovers over you, constantly asking if he can do anything to help

He comes off as really clingy, and in your stressed state, it bothers you

You mutter something about Rika

That you see why she left him

And how its pathetic that he can’t even get over her

You regret the words as soon as you see his expression

His eyebrows are knit and his eyes as glossed with tears

His voice trembles as his whispers an apology

He says nothing more as he walks out of the room

You feel so terrible for what you said

You want to apologize, but where do you even begin after saying something like that?

You know he was only trying to help

An hour or so after the incident

You sheepishly creep to V’s bedroom door

His door is cracked open, and you stop immediately seeing his position

He is sitting on the edge of the bed, his back turned to you

You can see his shoulders shake with each muffled sob

Your heart aches when you see the picture he holds in his hand

A picture of you, carefully encased in a frame

After a moment, you silently crawl onto the bed and wrap your arms around him

You both sink down onto the soft covers

You choke out a soft apology

“Im sorry, V…”

“I know.”

He holds you tighter

You stay there until you both fall asleep

When you wake up, its almost as if nothing ever even happened

Until you realize all the traces of Rika have disappeared 

The last photos, trinkets, everything

In their place is only a note

“Moving on. You’re the only one I love.” -V

Despite the things you said, after the whole thing was over, V seemed more at peace and was on the path to forgiving himself.

There is no Saeran because I haven't played his route yet. I haven't played V’s route either, but I wrote this before his route was even out, which just tells you how long my damn hiatus was. mega oof.

Hi all, I recently wrote this post about how Drip screwed over its most loyal customers and I thought perhaps /r/Entrepreneur would get value out of my lessons learned.----If you’re not familiar, Drip is email marketing software that’s pretty heavy on the marketing automation front. I won’t do them the courtesy of a link, so you’ll have to Google them if you want to check it out.They’ve been around since 2012 or so, founded by someone I trusted, but he sold the business to Leadpages a few years ago, and it’s been going downhill ever since.I’ve been using them for years as the backbone of two “side” businesses: IndieHive, which covers this website for freelancers and the related products and services that I sell, and Everleads, a curated lead generation site for freelance designers and developers.In 2016 and 2017, I really dug deep into Drip. I built out dozens of interconnected workflows to carefully shepherd my subscribers through various funnels and sequences with duplicate emails or annoying content that’s not relevant to them. I integrated my web front-end with their APIs so that I could customize the site for subscribers. I wrote bridging scripts to connect it to Mixpanel for analytics, and I used Zapier to hook Drip up to even more services. It was the heart of my entire business, and it was awesome.But throughout 2018, things started to go awry.I kept experiencing glitches in the workflows where people would get stuck on workflow steps that should be instant, like “remove tag”. Or people would end one workflow and start another, but not have any of the data that the first workflow had set. There were honestly dozens of these little glitches, but individually they were minor.Also troubling: deliverability started to slip. Not precipitously, and I can’t prove that it wasn’t just my emails, but I have heard from others that they were having issues with getting their emails into people’s inboxes in 2018.But the most egregious thing for all of this was that support was basically no help at all. I probably opened two dozen support requests in 2018 and I’m not sure they actually resolved a single one. We’d spend hours going back and forth so they could even understand the problem. Then they’d almost always say one of two things:“For a workaround, just insert a number of delays between steps in your workflows so that the system doesn’t get confused!” So all my workflows had little 5 minute delay steps to try and make sure things worked correctly. Which they still didn’t. Wtf.Or they’d just say they need to escalate to the developers and then I’d get an email weeks or months later from some random support engineer letting me know they were still looking into why the most basic functions of their software don’t work right. Awesome.Alarmed by this, I repeatedly researched alternatives throughout 2018, but nothing seemed worth going through the pain of migration and the risk of just having similar issues somewhere else. So I kept resolving to be patient with Drip and hope (pray) that they were hard at work at undoing whatever architectural disaster had led us here.And then…In early January 2019, while I was on a relaxing cruise with my wife for our 15th anniversary, I got an email from Drip:https://ryanwaggoner.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/02/drip-bullshit-pricing-email-2.pngSo basically: “Hey, we’re raising our prices in 12 days! You can keep your current price if you switch to an annual plan!”And if you read it carefully, there’s something pretty important missing from this email.It doesn’t say what the new pricing is**. Seriously wtf.**So I emailed to ask. They responded the next day (so now I have 11 days) to reveal they were doubling my monthly price.Drip raised my price from $184 / month to $368 / month with 12 days notice.That’s just about the worst way imaginable to treat your oldest and most loyal customers.And it was the last straw for me.Now, to be clear, I completely understand wanting to grow a company in a new direction, or thinking that you need to raise prices to reflect more value.But you don’t do it when your platform is half-broken, you don’t do it with 12 days notice, and you grandfather in existing customers, at least for long enough for them to migrate. Also, you tell them the price when you tell them that prices are rising.It’s hard to imagine how Drip could have been more disrespectful to their customer base than what they did here.So as of last month, I switched all my subscribers to ConvertKit and ActiveCampaign for Everleads and IndieHive, respectively. That’s thousands of dollars that Drip won’t be getting from me. I managed to get both setups completely migrated off just before their billing renewal dates, in one case with literal minutes to spare.It was a pain and required some late nights but it was worth it to deny them another penny.I’m not alone in feeling upset about this. Twitter was ablaze for weeks with people who were angry and bailing for greener, more respectful pastures. I’ve taken a sick joy in watching a lot of people migrate off Drip with much larger lists than mine.I also cancelled Leadpages in favor of Instapage. I was already unhappy with Leadpages, mainly because it feels pretty clunky and dated, they aren’t very responsive to user feedback, and they’re still missing some pretty basic things (like being able to pass form data to the thank you page. Seriously?).Side note: I was going to link to the Leadpages idea portal, but they apparently shut it down. Makes sense, since it was filled with hundreds of good ideas with many, many customer votes that had been ignored for years.Regardless, even if Leadpages was awesome, they own Drip and I won’t give another penny to such an unethical company that treats its customers so poorly.And this migration was a huge pain (which is what they were counting on), partly because of how complex my Drip setups were, but also because ConvertKit and ActiveCampaign are both pretty different from each other and from Drip. On the surface, they all do some of the same things, but once you dig in, things diverge, which made the migration especially painful.Drip is complicated. Stupidly so. In fact, it’s so complicated that there are a number of problems using it:It doesn’t really work. I mean, it does like 99% of the time, but that last 1% means that some of your subscribers are going to have a bad time. And it’s not just that their emails won’t show up. They might just get stuck in a workflow, or skip some emails in a sequence, or get things at the wrong times, or lose data, etc. And since this happens randomly, the number of subscribers who experience it accumulates over time.The customer support reps don’t really know how it works, because it’s too complicated. So you end up spending hours writing up descriptions of the problem and putting together screencasts to show how things don’t seem to be working, and the only response you get is that they’ll have to ask the developers.It encourages you to setup really fancy complex automations which, even if they did work, are way beyond what you actually need. Just imagine: you can do anything! You can track everything! You can have an unlimited number of tags and fields! Track and automate all the things!Your setup can end up being really brittle and deeply tied to the Drip architecture, which is a problem if you want to migrate off. And it’s hard to expand and modify over time without breaking all kinds of things for your subscribers who are in those automations.The setup is hard to document. It’s easy to end up with a large collection of documents and spreadsheets and screencasts to try and explain not only what you did, but why you did it.It’s hard to audit and debug when things go wrong. And things will go wrong. It’s hard to tell exactly what’s happening with your subscribers, where things went off the rails, and how to get it back on track without screwing things up further.In the end, Drip for me felt like a really shitty programming language. Technically possible to do almost anything, but so painful that in the end you wish you hadn’t bothered.By contrast, ConvertKit is simple. And yes, I think it’s too simple in places. I think there are some genuine gaps in the functionality that makes it a little too hard to get done the things you want.But I’m also aware of the fact that I’m coming from Drip and a really convoluted setup, so being forced to simplify is probably a good thing.And ActiveCampaign is not simple, but it’s powerful in a bunch of ways that Drip should have been. Additionally, it has the distinction of actually being, you know, functional. Crazy, I know.Also, ActiveCampaign apparently is more open to feedback than Drip. I posted a Twitter thread listing some things that I like about it and Jason VandeBoom, the founder of ActiveCampaign, setup a call with me to go over some of my feedback. And ActiveCampaign isn’t a tiny company; they have hundreds of employees and are much larger than Drip. It meant a lot to me that Jason would just jump on the phone with a random customer to see how they could improve.Meanwhile Drip’s emails aren’t even signed by an actual person. During this whole debacle, I don’t think anyone from Drip actually responded to anyone’s tweets or complaints. A couple days after the initial announcement when things were blowing up on Twitter, they sent this out another email that was basically "sorry, not sorry"Just like their price increase, all of their corporate communication just screams “We don’t care about you. Go away.”So I did.I’m actually really glad that I dropped Drip, after all that. Partly because of how much better ConvertKit and ActiveCampaign are as tools, but mostly because it taught me a lesson about how you need to be careful when you’re a small company about who you integrate with, because while your interests may align now, that could change at any point.But this rant has gone on long enough, so I’ll save that point for a future post.Disclaimer: just in case Drip decides to sue me (which would be so on-brand for them at this point), ALL the descriptions of Drip’s functionality, failings, and communications is to the best of my recollection and should not be taken as a literal word-for-word account.----Happy to answer any questions about my experience with Drip, ConvertKit, or ActiveCampaign. Would also love to hear anyone else's experiences with any of those (or others you'd recommend in the space of email-based marketing automation).Original post: https://ryanwaggoner.com/drip-pricing-review/

Truth.

So I'm pretty sure no one is gonna read this... but i just feel like i have no close friends to tell. I go to work and am taking classes to get a degree, and i just feel like the people who i was hanging out with before just... This is so stupid but they don't talk to me anymore, and i feel like it's my fault. I'm sorry I'm annoying. I'm sorry im not good in social situations like parties. I'm awkward. I'm clutzy. I'm a nerd. I'm not hot, I'm no genius. I don't have other friends. I'm not sure i have any at all. I just want someone who i consider my friend to care about me like i do for them, but instead everyone just uses me for their convenience.

Am i just that bad? Am i that annoying? I'm sorry. I don't mean to be. I don't want to be. If i am, tell me. I can work on it. I will try, even if it's hard.

You don't have to avoid me. If you don't like being around me anymore, please... please just tell me. I'd rather know than be caught in this damned limbo where i don't know what i did to make you hate me. Where i still say hi to you and you look at me and awkwardly smile, then shuffle away.

I want to tell the truth. I want people to know, not because i like telling, but i feel like i can now. I used to cut myself. Only one person knew that until now and that was me. I'm sorry, mom, if that hurts you, or makes you feel dissapointed in me. Yes, i cut myself on purpose before. One time i even did it to get out of going to school when i was a freshman. I lied to you and the nurse at school. I told you i had tried to cut open an orange with a non-serrated knife. As if i was dumb enough to do that. No. The truth is, i was hurting, i was tired of feeling so alone, i looked at my hand that morning, and wanted to know if it bleeds as much as it does in the movies. So i cut it, on purpose, right where there were lines in my palm already. I know how that sounds. It sounds like I'm in need of a straight jacket, but it really wad that simple. It was a cold, analytical thought that i acted on in an impulsive moment. I didn't bleed very much, if you're wondering. So, yeah, i did that. But mostly, i hid in my sister's and my bathroom and cried as i cut my wrist open with a razor blade. And sometimes, i still want to. I want to so bad, just to let the pain out physically. I can't tell you how many times I've thought of it, of how I've looked at my razors. Or envisioned what that red line would look like on my skin.

But I'm scared to. I promise I'm not suicidal. I don't want to kill myself, or hurt anyone else either. I just want to let out what i feel. Ask anyone who has cut before, and they will tell you that the impulse never really leaves you.

I know no one really cares. They, at best, will say I'm doing it -cutting or speaking about it- for attention. That I'm pretending or acting out. I HATE getting attention from stuff like this. I don't want you to walk up to me and say you read this and feel sorry for me. It makes me not want to post it at all. Ask mom. I don't like attention. What i want is I want you to treat me like you want to be treated. I want you not to lie to my face and tell me in a simpering little voice that "no one hates you", and then laugh at the poor little thing that cries and tells it to the world.

My tears aren't a joke. My pain is not made up and if you could just see it. If you could see what i feel. If you could understand, then i guess i wouldn't be writing all this.

I'm sure lots of you will look at this. Most won't get past the first paragraph before they scoff and scroll past. And, no that's not me "feeling sorry for myself". It's true, and I'm ashamed to say I've done it, too. But the ones that are reading this, you'll laugh at me. You'll judge me. I have maybe three or four people who will genuinely care about me here and tell me they actually want to be around for more than just sympathy.

I stared writing this with absolutely no will for it to be seen by family or coworkers i have on social media, but I'm done. I'm tired. I'm crying right this minute on my couch because i just watched a bunch of videos of 'friends' that won't even bother texting me to say "hey, sorry i missed you since you're working today, but i hope you have a good day!" Hell, even just, "hey, how are you?" Every so often would be more than nothing.

Look, i get it. I know i don't matter. I'm not fun. I know that. I'm not pretty enough. I'm not convenient anymore. I'm too wierd, too strange to be someone's friend for long. I wish i could write people off so easily, like some people do.

Think about how you treat people. Think about how you value your friends. Do they know how much you care? No one i know knew how i felt before i wrote it and posted this. No one, because i've never told them. Because i don't want to be looked down at for being so weak and pathetic as to share how i really feel in the media. Because i feel like i always always have to be strong. To not tell people what i still deal with every single day while smiling and pretending not to.

Good night.

Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons On How To Draw)

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Nairaland Forum / Science/Technology / Art, Graphics & Video / Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) (117177 Views) Oscar Ukonu: The Nigerian Who Can Draw Everything With Pen / How To Draw A Minion... / How To Draw A Detailed Smiley Face Using Adobe Illustrator (1) (2) (3) (4) (0) (1) (2) (3) (4) (5) (6) (7) (8) (9) ... (21) (Reply) (Go Down)Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Onegai(f): 3:22pm On Nov 08, 2013 femzi007: dis is my pencil drawing of burna boy.used 2B pencil without grid.he retweeted it on twitter

Great job! There may be a few tweaks needed here and there, but this is good. Welldone. Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Onegai(f): 3:27pm On Nov 08, 2013 For everyone, saturday 16th November, at Muri Okunola park, from 12pm next week. There's also formal lessons at Cafe Maison, Lekki or you could contact me on [email protected].

Now, let's get back to the drawing! For the benefit of those learning, could we NOT post any images of drawings which are NOT part of the challenges posted here? If you wanna show off your drawings, please create a separate thread. Thanks, guys. Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by adexsimply(m): 3:39pm On Nov 08, 2013 *sighs* Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by jumzzy448: 3:57pm On Nov 08, 2013 I'm highly impressed that this is actually coming from a female. Op, keep up the good work. Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by femzi007(m): 4:11pm On Nov 08, 2013 didnt learn drawing in a day,nd am stl learnin sef ..and OP am sorry i deviated ppu's attention wit my pix.. Ure doing a gr8 job,nd i jx luv art..more grease 2 ur elbow..do continue Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Goldenheart(m): 4:43pm On Nov 08, 2013 One thing about drawing is, there will always be something to criticize on.... Where in lagos is the art class taking place?!

Im right there 1 Like Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Onegai(f): 4:48pm On Nov 08, 2013 For everyone, saturday 16th November, at Muri Okunola park, from 12pm next week. There's also formal lessons at Cafe Maison, Lekki or you could contact me on [email protected].

Can we all work on our control hands a bit? It's like driving a car. Get a sheet of paper and cover it with scribbles, vertical lines and horizontal lines, they way you probably used to draw as a child. All these exercises are meant to relax you so you don't start telling yourself "I can't draw, this is too hard". it's s not. You just need some practise. Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by prof800(m): 5:04pm On Nov 08, 2013 Goldenheart: One thing about drawing is, there will always be something to criticize on....

EXACTLY! I like this statement. 1 Like Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Feraz(m): 6:56pm On Nov 08, 2013 Davijunson: @poster, tnks for bringin this thread up....i love art a lot esp drawin...buh since i entered sch, i avnt had d tym to draw again n it had a negative effect on ma drawings....i really need someone to giv me some lessons on drawin as i av neva attended any art class before...(i'm a science student studyin elect engine)....pls inbox me on ma mail...i'd be happy to hear frm yu.... Edited - Likewise me...didn't draw throughout secondary school except biology drawings and all those ish...while in the University, during drawing class, I decided rather than allow the paper waste, why not I try drawing randomly...this is one of 'em...

Redmosquito, I see you... Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Ardedaryor(m): 7:04pm On Nov 08, 2013 Intrestingly u'myoozing Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by prof800(m): 7:07pm On Nov 08, 2013 @feraz... You this my naruto/anime guy...ehn ..? why did you remove that sketch na..? :-/ Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Feraz(m): 7:11pm On Nov 08, 2013 prof800: @feraz... You this my naruto/anime guy...ehn ..? why did you remove that sketch na..? :-/ lol...you see am? Na mistake oh before I see say she sound warning...but I'm quite impressed with her....though one of it is my profile picture...

Pls, who knows how much a good sketchbook goes for and where it can be gotten? Onegai: For everyone, saturday 16th November, at Muri Okunola park, from 12pm next week. There's also formal lessons at Cafe Maison, Lekki or you could contact me on [email protected].

Now, let's get back to the drawing! For the benefit of those learning, could we NOT post any images of drawings which are NOT part of the challenges posted here? If you wanna show off your drawings, please create a separate thread. Thanks, guys.

Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by ugsams(m): 7:32pm On Nov 08, 2013 Thanks op this will add value to my knowledge Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by newacca: 7:43pm On Nov 08, 2013 I love the Art world. Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by sleekp1: 7:57pm On Nov 08, 2013 Great work, thanks @op. Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Nobody: 8:23pm On Nov 08, 2013 I really need to hone my drawing skills.Nice thread op.Would try to draw along with u tomorrow. Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Nobody: 8:26pm On Nov 08, 2013 femzi007: dis is my pencil drawing of burna boy.used 2B pencil without grid.he retweeted it on twitter u be badoo o!nice work! Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by lirusehn: 9:05pm On Nov 08, 2013 NICE FOLKZ b like *i must commend her* knwin fully it calls for no commendation and here is mine Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Onegai(f): 9:29pm On Nov 08, 2013 Feraz: Edited - Likewise me...didn't draw throughout secondary school except biology drawings and all those ish...while in the University, during drawing class, I decided rather than allow the paper waste, why not I try drawing randomly...this is one of 'em...

Who knows how much a sketchbook goes for and where I can get it? Thanks...

Redmosquito, I see you...

Hey, you could go to Artworld and buy a sketchpad for like N1,000. Or some shops in VI sell for N500. But you get limited sheets in that sketchpad (like 30). What I can do, is for those coming for the Drawing class, is buy you sheets of paper, A1 size, at N7/sheet. Most art students divide those sheets into half or more sizes and make their own sketchpads with hardbacks or a plywood or masonite board backing, for support. Not only can you add more sheets to that sketchpad, it's reusable and will cost you much less than a pre-made one and can take over 200 sheets. So it lasts longer. Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Nobody: 9:30pm On Nov 08, 2013 am not too late onegai, you doing a great job...following wish I was in lag 1 Like Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by tolam4skywd(m): 9:38pm On Nov 08, 2013 Great job @ op... Also wish I stay in lag but all d same I can still learn smtn 4rm diz thread... Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by tolam4skywd(m): 10:00pm On Nov 08, 2013 Oga boss @ op.. Shey month try?? Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Onegai(f): 10:12pm On Nov 08, 2013 tolam4skywd: Oga boss @ op.. Shey month try??

there's no image attached, dear. Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Onegai(f): 10:29pm On Nov 08, 2013 How's it going so far? Do you believe that the world is full of shapes? Not yet? Okay.

Scientists (people who have more time and better facilities on their hands than the average Naija person, sadly) have discovered that every child has a good sense of Drawing and Perspective, but around the primary school learning age, over half of them begin to lose their ability to draw well. They realised that loss in Drawing ability coincided (big word for jammed) with when children began to learn the words of things around them. They theorised that as children grew up and used the more analytical part of their brain, the visioning part of the brain slowed down.

In plain english, the more you think, the less you see. Simple. Look at driving a car and talking on the phone, your brain CAN'T do two simultaneous, opposite things at the same time. Most drivers react well to sudden difference on the road: their foot hits the brakepad without them looking. Because driving is mostly instinct. Same with drawing, same with playing musical instruments. Those are movements based on instinct. You've done it so much, your brain can do it without you looking. Shey una remember that trick we all play on NL, "if you this read correctly, you read it wrong". That's instinct, your mind has filled in the gap for you, so you don't have to read the sentence.

That's why you cannot draw a hand properly unless you've been drawing for a while or I tell you to draw shapes. Because the minute you look at your hand to draw, your brain fills your mind with an image of what it THINKS the hand looks like, you draw that, and then go "ah ah, but this is not how my hand was, I can't draw".

I'm going to prove this to you, with our next drawing challenge. Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Onegai(f): 10:36pm On Nov 08, 2013 CHALLENGE 2: Ladies and gentlemen, please draw the following image the way it is posted, upside down. DO NOT ROTATE IT TO THE RIGHT ORIENTATION, just use your eye, measure a rectangle box and use that as the borders of your drawing, look at the picture, notice the chair is touching a particular point at the border of the picture, on your paper, locate that point, draw the chair. Continue to do so for all parts of the image.

If the scientists are right, (and they are), you will draw that picture I posted better than if it was upright in the nomal position. I presented this challenge to my mum, who has never drawn in her life, and she did well. You should have seen her laugh. So please, no erasings (I left my own mistakes for you all to see), take your time, take 30 minutes and carefully do it the way I described, and for your own sakes, don't rotate the picture to what you expect a picture to be, draw it upside down. Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by tolam4skywd(m): 10:38pm On Nov 08, 2013 Onegai:

there's no image attached, dear. it says d file z larger dan 200kb, so it didnt upload Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by yorex2011: 10:44pm On Nov 08, 2013 wow...nice thread... 2 Likes 1 Share Re: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Onegai(f): 10:47pm On Nov 08, 2013 You will draw any picture upside well, because your analytical part of your brain DOES NOT understand what it seeing, and therefore cannot tell you "that is a woman in buba sitting down". Because it isn't telling you what to see, the visional or sensory side of your brain takes over and you see shapes and you draw shapes. Shapes are not scary to draw, everybody drew shapes as a child and your brain remembers how easy and relaxed that time was, sees clearly and you draw. Now, if I had said "let's draw a woman", a lot of us would have sweated in fear.

If you don't do the drawing upside down, that's your own method. However, this upside-down method has far repercussions. You wanna learn how to paint well (and not what I see here, that people call paintings), do it upside-down and eventually, you'll understand the concept behind the exercises that seemingly don't make sense. 2 Likes 1 ShareRe: Let's Draw! A Hand (Lessons on how to draw) by Onegai(f): 10:48pm On Nov 08, 2013 yorex2011: wow...nice thread....havent drawn anything in a long while.....anyways i no pencil around..lemme draw myself when i was younger..

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