now i wanna see normal whitty meeting fun size whitty and see how they will react

heck idk how they'd act man idk anything about the lil guy lol

just staring weirdly or something I have no hecking clue

man. getting a little sick of being everyones 15th option for everything. when is it my turn to be someone's first choice :^[

hi! i'm sorry if this is vague, but is it okay if i ask for any general nsfw jeadcanons for mithrun? just a gn reader works! thank you so much!

general nsfw headcanons

꒰ includes ꒱ ⸻ mithrun.

꒰ warnings ꒱ ⸻ gn! reader, smut (semi-public/public sex, blowjobs, overstimulation, praise).

꒰ mimi's note ꒱ ⸻ thank you for the request!

mithrun has a very low sex drive, almost nonexistent, thanks to the goat demon

he particularly enjoys when you ride him or on top of him (is he a pillow princess? absolutely)

loves when you wrap those pretty lips around his cock and suck him off- and he'll ask you to do it literally anywhere (in a office? in a dungeon? in front of his fellow canaries? he can't be bothered to care where it is)

don't worry he will return the favor and go down on you whenever you want~

will accidentally fuck himself into overstimulation bc he literally forgets to stop himself- you'll have to pull off him so he doesn't start shooting blanks.

doesn't really keep himself well groomed down there- just bc he doesn't see a reason to, but if you want to trim him up you're free to do whatever you please

firm believer that mithrun is a whimper and heavy breather. isn't super noisy, but when he does make noise my goodness those whimpers are too good- also has pretty cute moans

mithrun's back is particularly sensitive, and if you trace along the battle scars he's gained throughout the years he'll be a goner

isn't too fond of pain, but does think it's nice when you leave bitemarks on him that he can see the next day. he'll walk out with them on display if you don't stop him to cover them up

praise him, he likes the way it makes him feel

will definitely praise you back- although it sounds more like he's reading from a script, a very monotonous robotic-like ramble of how good you feel

i can see him being willing to try anything his partner wants to- his only hard no's are mirror sex, degradation, and super heavy power dynamics.

claims he isn't a fan of quickies but will ask for one at least once a day once he's recovered some his sexual desires

is usually pretty tired afterwards, he used up a lot of energy! likes to take a bath with you afterwards (just make sure he doesn't fall asleep in the tub)

well, that's pretty much all i have atm so i hope you enjoyed!

꒰ ❀ ꒱ thank you for reading. have a wonderful day, darling!

ok so first things first, i loooove gatwa's doctor so much already. if nothing else, i love the masterclass in acting he's putting on, his expressiveness is so impressive. he brings a very fun energy to the role

the church on ruby road has me feeling a bit mixed as well. the plot was kind of meh, and i didn't like how in the alternate universe ruby's mum was just so mean without her. it didn't make sense. like what makes ruby so special, hm 🤨 what's this one white blond baby got that all the other babies in the world don't 🤨 i know the point was to show how much ruby meant to her mum, but like. there are other ways to do it than have a complete 180 in characterization.

i'm honestly not super interested in the mystery of ruby's parentage (which apparently seems like it will be a huge thing unless they're just making stuff up to fake us out, in which case, good on them). but i don't want it to be some big reveal i'm sorry 😩 especially not because if it is, people will bend over backwards to say how great storytelling it is when they'd never say that if moffat did a plot like this. i hadn't even considered the possibility really, when i'd first watched it, i thought it's just not that deep, but maybe i'm wrong. the people who are theorizing that ruby is rose and tentoo's daughter are sooo funny though like

ur only saying that because she's blond and we all know nobody on this show can be blond without being related to The Blond(tm) 🙄

that literally means they abandoned their kid. yes. such good parents 😫

i also feel like we didn't....really get to know ruby that well? i'll reserve judgement to give them more time obviously, and millie seems very green (not a judgement on her, and she and ncuti seem to have a lot of fun energy together) so there's still time and there's a lot of time in general for the stories to get going, and it had to do double duty as a christmas special and an intro episode for both new doctor and new companion so like, my feelings may also change with time. anyways those are my thots for now

yesss i was sold on gatwa very quickly i just hope he doesn't become 10th doctor rehash number 2345932853845 i am so tired. give him something new. also praying him and ruby don't have a romance angle there were a couple of moments in CORR i was like. GOD NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NOT AGAIN.

CORR plot being meh i agreeee but also xmas specials plot is a lot of times like a wafer and as someone who watched it quite roasted ngl i kinda appreciated it 😂

YEAH omhg tho with ruby disappearing and her mum (i want to say carla??) completely changing as a person??? i get that the point was supposed to be like one little change can make such an impact etc etc as well. but also i was just like. .... ok but what about the other kids wasnt good enuf ???? maybe i'm a cynic lol. but fr have another MORE kids on the wall bc she's trying to fill a gap she doesn't know is from what !!!! IMAGINE.... especially with it being sort of set up as a doctor/companions parallel oh my god

nooo oh my god i know what you mean about rubys parents i like that theyre setting it up as a counter to 13s "it doesn't matter i'm good as i am my past doesnt define me" etc. but i really want it to not be interesting. i want her parents to just be like. normal people who had to make a hard choice lol. oh my god. i just realised. we're gonna go thru a fucking rey star wars arc with her im gonna lose it byee... imagine she ends the series like "im ruby doctor" :) i would quit watching.

but yeah 100% it's gonna be a big thing. atm i dont care but i guess we'll see and hope they do something interesting with it.... prayers she's an alien tbf

rose and tentoo would be terrible parents tbf i said what i said.

YEAH i know what you mean i feel like that about gatwa too i think its hard making the first intro for both an xmas special because it has to be kinda silly and rompy so you cant rlly get too into the grit of the characters?? still reserving judgement on them both, but its taken me a while to warm up to like. everyone in dr who since bill--- wait i take that back i loved bel in flux from like her first scene but she's not a doc or companion.

negative and whiny ramble under the cut, please ignore if you're not comfortable with that!!

ugh ok i really fucking hate talking about my feelings or being negative in general but i've kinda been feeling like this for a while so i feel like i need to just put it out there so i can go back to being happy lmao

highkey I kinda feel like I spend so much time focusing/putting effort into this fandom but idk really if anyone cares about my presence or me in general and it's kinda discouraging. I'm not saying that to ask for sympathy/validation, but rather to express that I'm probs going to only write if someone sends me a request for a while cos putting all this effort into coming up with ideas/writing fics on my own is not really vibing atm, honestly the past few weeks everyday i've just been staring at a blank doc when i get home from work lmao

even though i've mentioned being busy, I kinda have a decent amount of free time to work on fics or chat but it kinda feels like no one really cares, and my perspective is why would I put effort into something if no one cares ya know? bc of that i tend to favor doing or participating in things where i feel more appreciated or seen, like I'd rather focus my energy into other goals or people that do care. whenever I take time to write fics I'm actively pushing those people away or putting less time into other goals i want to achieve in order to do so, and while I do enjoy writing very much there's no need for me to post it on this blog or interact in this fandom if no one cares. if people don't like my work then that's fine, but also there's not really any point in me posting fics or taking time to write if people don't really find my stuff interesting.

i feel really bad for saying this, but sometimes i kinda feel like people only really care about me/what i have to say when im cheering them on or supporting them & their work. of course i genuinely mean all of the things i say when i do that and i dont want people to think i expect the same energy from them because i dont, but when the only response i get from people is related to me doing that it kinda feels like people only care about me being their cheerleader. i've tried telling myself that it's okay to be treated that way bc i do want to encourage everyone, i think everyone in this fandom makes amazing things and has fantastic ideas!! but i think at this point its starting to get to me bc i just don't really feel valued or like people care about the stuff i put out. and if thats the case then i should probably just stick to sending people compliments and reblogging everyone else's work as opposed to putting effort into a space where i am not wanted, bc im tired of constantly feeling like i have to put more and more effort in, berating myself for not being friendly enough or not being positive enough or being too annoying or mean, and then i go back to my coping mechanism of trying to bury all of my negative emotions and be a happy little robot friend to everyone (which i have been trying very hard to not do this past year or so bc it honestly ruined my life)

that being said, as I said earlier I'll write stuff if people send requests but I'm probably not going to post any original fics for a while. I have some stuff I've been wanting to write and a lot of wips so I might come back or post some stuff even if no one sends me any requests, but if i just disappear/ghost then this is probably why haha

TW: ✨spicy✨ thoughts ahead 👀 you’ve been warned 😌

Belle. belle. bElLe. BELLE.

what. RIGHT. do you have. to make me malfunction like this??????

WASHOUT???? I am. Just. I cannot okay.

The lifting their chin with your forefinger???? The caging them to a wall???? The making them suck on your thumb????? ✨magnificent✨

Isagi is actually a babygirl. My man’s acts like he’s all that and then some on the field but we all know he’s eager to get home and whining for you at the end of the day. Like TELL me that this man doesn’t love being degraded and put in his place. UGH.

AND RIN!!??? He hates losing so much but yet here he is, flustered and desperate in front of you. And he was so so so determined to win too, awwww poor baby. I just KNEW jealousy was gonna play a factor into his cause come on now, Rin gets so jealous so easily and it’s the cutest thing ever. Almost cuter than him in a crop top.

BACHIRA. BACHIRA. BACHIRA. First of all. Your first Bachira fic was amazing and definitely worth the wait. But seriously. Baby thought he was gonna get away with teasing you all week? Sweetie, there are consequences to your actions you know? THE WAY HE WAS SO OBEDIENT AND GOOD. UGH. I can literally SEE him smirking up at you with your thumb in his mouth, all hard and desperate, while in his knees. The messing clay hands makes it even more fun. Toki is an interesting nickname, I’ve never heard it before. What’s it mean? OH!!! And have you ever seen that kind of fanart with a ship where it’s a two part?? Where one is talking to their friends while the other it talking to theirs?? And it’s a light shading to highlight the handprints on their bodies??? Which are also the others signature color??? UGH THAT BUT WITH YOU AND BACHIRA. PLS I CAN SEE IT NOW. Have I mentioned that Bachira is my favorite?

How are you btw?? How’s the other blog coming along? Uni still tiring? Are you taking breaks 🤨?? Eating 🤨?? Drinking water 🤨?? Don’t forget to take care of yourself love 😤😤. (I saw all of this with aggressive concern and affection btw).

As for me, Im doing pretty good. I’ve got midterms and final exams coming up. Ive Gita a few assignments to do tonight but nothing too hard, just kinda long. But winter break is almost here so Im really excited for that. Im currently craving fresh bread atm. Specifically with broccoli and cheese soup 🥹🥹. Anyways. I hope you’re taking care of yourself!!! (pls take care of yourself 😭❤️) *sending aggressive virtual hugs*

- ✨ anon

forgot to include in my last basket but like Belle 😭😭😭. you’re turning me so dominant. in THAT way. what am i supposed to do now huh 😭😭😭. all this dom energy and no pretty boys to take it out on 🥹🥹🥹. i blame you (lovingly). take responsibility (affectionately). - ✨ anon

I um (°ー°〃) ... i don't regret it (kiss it better slowed and reverb made me do it and its my fav song now) and i had a panicky moment cause washout wasn't showing up in the tags - turns out if i use links it doesn't show up in the main tag- smh tumblr. you had 1 job. just. 1 job.

Giving back character analysis of how i see the boys-

Rin got two fingers shoved down his throat ( ᵘ ᵕ ᵘ )... hes lucky i didn't make it three

Isagi (sub leaning switch) is babygirl material. On the field he plays mean and rough, but when you're in charge? You can make him whimper. He is very shy when it comes to being in bed and on some days he just doesn't care (you'll see that when the other version is out) coming to terms with subby 'sagi; he is so innocent and cute, he will get turned on from the simple things you do.

Thigh fucking is his fav cause he whines and moans, begging you to let him cum.

Rin (dom leaning switch) - i have already decided on a nickname for him (sequel to my tears your comfort) but i'm caught between the two- so i gotta toss a coin to see which one we're rolling with. You wanna incite a reaction from this guy? Make him jealous. It's actually surprising that despite doing meditation and yoga, his patience snaps like a twig when he sees you dancing with another man despite knowing that you're loyal to him.

Rin wears designer clothes, but if we think abt him wearing a fishnet vest under a crop top for a second... time to fuck his brains out

He subbed his way through this one if you get it you get it Bachira (sub leaning switch fite moi) This is the first time I introduced him properly on the blog and poor baby ended up getting punished. He can already pull off a pretty good ahegao face for a start, so... convince me that he isn't a sub leaning switch. And YES! I know that image of handprints over each other- Bachira's would be orangey/ red and your's is white/gray , Bachi got less on us tho- there is more of it on him. I gave so much of a spoiler away for my tears, your comfort for Bachira and his edition of your words my hurt is not even out yet smh.

So for the nickname in Meguru's case... I really wanted it to be 'Harry' - cause harry POTTER (ik you get it- Bachira is the least creative when it comes to nicknames) and for me, I don't see names as a way of categorizing gender? but i thought some people wouldn't like being called Harry so i played safe and used toki instead which is the japanese word for pottery. or i was thinking abt keeping the nickname as 'nendo' which means clay as well- but Harry clicked... (might change the nickname to that when i release your words my hurt + sequel bachira edition)

ik bachira was your fav- i put it first for a reason (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و

coming to the part of establishing the reader as the dominant one in washout... it was purely self indulgent and i'm gonna let myself a little loose and say that i'm not a submissive person is a dom/ major dom minor sub and since i've writing a sub reader for too long, my patience snapped and... uh yeah dom came out.

(and i like the fact that we're making people dominant here)

I'm doing alright! Uni is going great, i was late to class by twenty minutes and had a girlboss moment with answering questions (yes i am THAT girl) forgot to take my gloves today and i had to wash out the dirt again (these books are too old like 1940s old) i finished drinking over 2 bottles of water - i don't know how many gallons it was but i knew i needed it cause staying hydrated is important

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I actually ate more than usual today- lasagna, ice cream (gave me a sore throat- very smart isabelle. just had to eat something cold in cold weather when yk its not good for you), fries and chocolates. sausage and rice too but we won't talk abt that

as for the other blog...yk the drill moot; crying abt oliver and becoming mutuals with people who are active on my main blog and interact with me (∩˃o˂∩)♡

Oof exams! Good luck with that- and take it easy okay? *thinking if i should make a set of hcs for stuff like this* broccoli and cheese soup T-T (wants to have soup too) i hope you have your meal and savor it.

And yea i'm taking care! *busy watching moomin*

*sending back hugs*

Not quite the same but I'm going through something similar with a friend (someone i haven't known for that long but we became very close very quickly).

She is recently divorced after over 20 years and has a lot of issues but she's terrified of being alone so she's chatting to every guy online who takes an interest, going on dates within days then moaning when they're not right. Goes back to "right, no men, I'm focusing on work and the girls and me!". Then a day later, she's back at it. It's exhausting and really self centred as it's all she goes on about. She's met someone now, likes him, had several dates and video calls. Then apologised for not being around much for me, not enough hours etc. Day later: "what if no one ever loves me again??". I didn't know if she'd dumped him, he'd turned out to be a twat or what but I couldn't do it so just said "look I'm really struggling myself at the moment, I'm sorry but I'm not in the headspace to help you with this". Not a lie, I've been genuinely struggling. But I could not take any more lengthy chats of giving her advice and comforting her, only for her to ignore it as before. Turns out nothing major had happened, she was just a bit anxious about a new relationship, which I get. But god, is it tiring.

this is legit EXACTLY how i've been feeling about it. like we are all in our 20s, she deserves to go out and have fun and sleep around, i fully understand. but we used to have conversations about books we liked and things we watched and our interests and hobbies and whatever else. now i fully dread opening messages from her because it's always some variation of "there is a man". and yes, same, she goes on dates with them, sometimes they go well, sometimes they don't but she always finds something to complain about and i have often gotten calls from her at like 11:30 after a date to complain which i genuinely hate. but i can't just ignore the calls because what if she's in genuine need of help...

anyway, i've tried pointedly changing the topic. i've tried showing very little interest. the pettiest thing i have done until now is replying to a "i'm texting a man" text with "when are you not". idk if that doesn't get the message across then what will (ik ik direct conversation but we also work together and i don't want to make things awkward)

and like you said, i'm not doing great atm, i don't have the energy to care about bad dates and random men. it is so so exhausting.

I need to rant and idk it my friends don't know about my family life so I can't rant to them.

emotional abuse tw

So I usually (it is my job although it's never been aaid it is my job and I don't get any thanks for it) I clean the kitchen daily. It is astonishing, how much dirt 3 ppl in 1 day make. I am usually busy for 2h. Today I didn't do the kitchen. I did it yesterday very carefully and today was the first day in a month when it wasn't too dark to pain smth. Our appartment has almost no windows so I usually don't pain all winter.

I wanted to do it afterwards but decided to go swimming, for my chronic pain, and do it afterwards. My mom came home before I went swimming and I heard her... Being angry. Like, making food angry, throwing forks around, you know that kind of stuff probably. So I didn't leave my room and went swimming when she took a nap.

I just returned and apparently my mom didn't only throw stuff around but also put every piece of dirt that was in the kitchen, be it food leftovers, plastic, my preparations for dinner, together into the sink. And left. And now I am here with a sink full of combined, stinky dirt and no food preparation.

And I am so stupid stupid stupid, I knew it, I was stressed all day that I dared to pain instead of clean. But I was so happy that it was light enough (and I did all my other chores).

The last time I skipped the kitchen, 4 years ago, she throw all the dirt and trash she could find into my bed so I guess it could be worse.

I am so tired of this bad atmosphere all the time, this silent anger, and this passive aggressive bullshit all the time. I have to behave every fucking day and I hate the second she returns from work, my day kinda ends there because I am not allowed to use my pc nor to leave my room (not forbidden but she will take her chance and yell at me, 100% of the time).

And on the other hand idk how serious to take this bc she has chronic pain too and is changing her meds atm and in a lot of pain but still... Normal people wouldn't do this, no matter in how much pain they are!

Oh I am soooo sick of this bullshit, I just want some peace and silence, seriously.

Off to clean the sink now...

Hi anon,

I'm so sorry to hear about what you've been dealing with.

It's incredibly unfair for her to put that kind of responsibility on you. It's unbalanced and disregards your needs, your time and energy, and your chronic pain. The fact that she has chronic pain too is surprising, because you'd think that she'd have the empathy to recognize how putting that much work on you can be. It would make sense for her to have some compassion and understanding towards the fact that if she doesn't want to take care of these chores, then maybe she has some insight into how you might feel about it as well.

I'm not sure that having a conversation about this with her would be effective, but unless you've tried already, it might be helpful to talk to her about making a compromise and evenly balancing these chores. This shouldn't have to be your burden to carry - others, especially your mom, should be willing to help lighten your load.

You are seen and heard.

I hope I could help. Please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

🍕🍔🥩🍣🦪🍤🍺🌮Kidnapped food-posting quotes n shiz PART 2🌯🦑🦐🐟🦀🍗🍪🍫🍰

Part 2!!! TRIGGER WARNING; Sharky doing self neglect stuff here. Plz take care of yourself if you find yourself struggling with that. You're important and you matter. 💙💚💙💚💙 --------------------------------

(We see Sharky caving in and driving Kristy to get some food, Kristy very tired and not feeling good since she's been doing a fuckton of magic shit. She's tired and hungry and wants food…Sharky's not really happy about breaking out of his self neglect stuff but he's alot less happy seeing Kristy hurting so he puts himself aside to take care of her…)

Kristy:(in pain, sick and tired, her tone is very drained)Fuck…….God this fucking hurts, ughhhhh…

Sharky:(having experience with this stuff, we see him dig out a water bottle from the backseat and hand it to Kristy, keeping his eyes on the road)Here, i know it's not food but it'll help somewhat, take the hunger pains away a bit…

Kristy:(taking the water bottle and opening it, talking)Is this what you really do all the time?? You manage to deal with this for days??

Sharky:(nervous but he answers, being honest with his tuskuda as she drinks water)Uh…Yeah…Kinda. But uhhhh, i am pretty used to it. You kinda learn how to cope with the hunger and stuff after a while…(anxious laughs)……Not gonna lie but it honestly feels good sometimes to just starve and i don't know how far into the hole that kinda stuff is but i know it's……Probably not good…

Kristy:(anxious but she doesn't have the energy to fight him on that, tired but clearly not thrilled hearing that)……This is why we keep dragging you to Pink Fin, this shits really gonna fucking hurt you long-term…I don't want you getting an eating disorder or something…

Sharky:(looking over at her, shifting to her, caring)Yeah, i know, i know but…Look, not about me right now. Did the water help at least a bit?

Kristy:(she nods, continues to drink, sick still)Yeah, kinda but i still feel like…Nauseous…And i do still have some energy to worry so now i'm just worrying i'm gonna throw up water everywhere…

Sharky:(caring, trying his best)That feeling is probably just hunger. I know i've dealt with that before, the sick feeling goes away whenever you eat a bit as…Counterproductive as that sounds but yeah…Just try and hang tight ok? We'll get ya some food and you'll feel better.

Kristy:(looking over)I'll feel better if you eat too. Cuz i haven't seen you eat today which is usually a bad sign and i'm now just…Scared and anxious after hearing that…I care about you, i want to help you out of this hole, not watch you fall farther down it.

Sharky:(his hands tighten on the wheel, we see the uncomfort on his face…But he looks over at Kristy and sees the anxiety on her face and that breaks him singlehandedly, sighs)…….Ok, ok. I will.

Kristy:(lightens up a bit, relieved)Thank you…(cheerful as she can be being sick)I love you with everything i have and you deserve to love yourself too. And that means taking care of yourself. --------------------------------

(We see Sharky in bed sick…He's basically got the flu or something but either way, Kristy's trying to help…Sharky atm can't sleep well and he hasn't been eating anything except the meds he's been given…And Kristy ain't too pleased with that so she tries to help.)

Kristy:(caringly, trying to help)…Hey, i know what could maybe help you get some sleep! Hold up, lemme grab it! (She teleports out of the room.)

Sharky:(coughing, annoyed, rolling his eyes)…Lemme guess, it's food isn't it?

Kristy:(teleports back in, holding like 2 treys of food, happy)I made some food for you!!!

Sharky:(annoyed, sick)…How'd you do that that fast?

Kristy:(cheery)I mighta made all of this earlier with Amber's help…She wanted me to make sure you ate something too heh…

Sharky:(sighs, covering up more in his blanket)Course she did…

Kristy:(putting the treys carefully down on the desk, showing him what she's got for him)We tried to make some of your fave stuff…So Amber made you some fried fish and shrimp, i made you some chicken nachos, i got you a bag of those shrimp chips you love and to top it all off, Amber made some chocolate cake and i cut a nice big slice for ya for dessert!

Sharky:(unphased, he tries to ignore it)……Meh, pass…

Kristy:(a bit hurt by this but not surprised)…Dude, are you serious? You're sick though…

Sharky:(coughing, tired)I don't wanna eat right now, i wanna sleep…I'll do it later…

Kristy:(sighs)No you won't. You're gonna let all this go to waste unless me or Max or somebody else eats it…

Sharky:(shrugging)Oh well, so be it…

Kristy:(caring, trying to reason)…Look, you really do need to eat since you're sick…You need energy to fight this off…

Sharky:(annoyed)I'm fine, i'm not gonna die from this, god…(coughing again harshly)Besides, i've been taking medicine, it's fine. Just need a few days…

Kristy:(worried)…Medicine can only do so much though, you really should eat some dude…

Sharky:(annoyed)I said no.

Kristy:(not giving up, trying to sway him)The meds also aren't helping you sleep really are they? And that's cuz you're hungry i'm sure…And i mean, hey, you say it alot yourself, you sleep much better on a full stomach then an empty one…

Sharky:(annoyed, trying to shove the problem under the rug)Well that sucks cuz i'm gonna sleep on an empty one, not interested.

Kristy:(pushing still)You say that but you've been tossing and turning for like 3 hours now so how's that workin out for ya? (Grabbing the fried fish/shrimp plate, caring)Cmon, what's the harm in just a little bit? You get something tasty, you fill your tum up some and it'll help you fight this crap off faster so you can feel better, what's the downside?

Sharky:(insecure, sick still)…Weight gain. That'd be the downside. And that's a pretty big one. I don't care, i'm not gonna eat…(coughs, annoyed)Just let me starve, it's fine…Doesn't matter…

Kristy:(irritated)No, not gonna do that, part cuz i care and part cuz me and Amber didn't spend time making all this for you to reject it. I'm not leaving you alone til you eat some…

Sharky:(getting fed up, sitting up annoyed)…Fuckin, fine, god, ok, ok, ok, just…Quit, god…

Kristy:(brushing that off as him not feeling good but points it out)Eating some also will probably make ya feel alot less grumpy cuz wowwww you are pretty irritable today…

Sharky:(letting Kristy put the treys down, annoyed as he sniffles, rubbing his snout with the back of his hand)Yeah, i'm sorry, i don't feel good…My nose is clogged as hell, my throat hurts, my chest hurts, not too happy, not gonna lie…

Kristy:(cheery)Nothing some food won't fix! Go on, eat some dude. It's really good, you'll love it…

Sharky:(grabbing a fork, cutting at the fried fish)Ok, ok, fine… - (Cut to a small bit later, Sharky's ate like every crumb of food and obviously does feel kinda better)

Kristy:(amused, moving the stuff off of him)So you feel better?

Sharky:(laying down, sick still but he's a bit less grouchy, arm around his body)Yeahhhhhh, yeah i do…Man, guess you weren't wrong, i do feel alot sleepier now…

Kristy:(caring, sitting on the edge of his bunk)Yeah, i figured a full belly would do you good…I know that'll put you out like a light heheheh…

Sharky:(flipping over, getting cozy)Guess i'll try and get some sleeps now…Hopefully it'll work this time…(coughing)It'd be nice if i could feel a bit better cuz i still feel like shit…My chest feels like it's full of shit…Ehhhhhhh…

Kristy:(caring, kisses his forehead carefully)Well ima let you sleep then okey? (Plops his phone up on his pillow)Here, just text me if ya need anything ok?

Sharky:(tired but asks)…Maybe another blanket. I'm kinda cold, it'd be nice…

Kristy:(amused)Got one in mind?

Sharky:(nods, sleepy)That green quilt in the hall closet'd be nice and heavy…I'd like that one…And that red fleece blanket…

Kristy:(caring)You got it!!! I'll getcha those super quick!!! --------------------------------

(Aquarium shit again lol)

(We see Sharky and Kristy looking at fish, Yeah, you know where it's going, leave me alone lmao.)

Kristy:(she looks over at Sharky, happy)What do you think about the fish Sharky?

Sharky:(we see him laserfocused on some of them, drooling a bit)…….Sushi…

Kristy:(annoyed, shoves him a bit, kinda snapping him out of it)Cmon, are you serious?

Sharky:(wiping his mouth off with his jacket sleeve, amused, still looking at them)I mean……….Sushi…Really nice fresh tasty sushi, wish i had some soy sauce, holy hell…

Kristy:(annoyed)You do this literally every. Single. Time…Everytime!!!!

Sharky:(just kinda gazes at her, shrugs)I mean, you're the one insistent on dragging me here with like no warning, you know what's gonna happen.

Kristy:(annoyed)I do tell you ahead of time though!!!

Sharky:(a bit annoyed too)No, you…Don't actually. And then you get mad whenever my instincts flare up like i have any control over that. I dunno, maybe…Warn me ahead of time so i can eat before we go and i don't have to deal with the instinct issues maybe?

Kristy:(sighs, annoyed)I swear i do tell you though…

Sharky:(trying to reason)Maybe like…Double check next time then? Triple check maybe? I dun-(a fish catches his eye)…Oh wow, that one looks REALLY tasty, oh shit… --------------------------------

(We see Sharky and Kristy walk into and sit down at a sushi bar)

Sharky:(a bit confused)Uhhh, we here for a reason or?

Kristy:(looking at him, inhales and exhales a breath then speaks)So the thing i didn't tell you is that we need to go to the aquarium after this…BUT before we did, iiiiiii figured i'd try and maybe get you some food before we went…

Sharky:(understanding a bit, thinking)So you're wanting me to eat before we go so my instincts are in check and whatnot?

Kristy:(nods, grins)Yep! And don't worry about any of the money or any of that crap, this is all you can eat so i hope you're hungry.

Sharky:(perking up some at the sound of all this, smirks a bit)I'd say i am honestly so…Liking the way you're thinking Kris Kris…

~ (We cut to a bit later after they both eat. Kristy's only had a few plates while we see Sharky's had quite a few, Sharky now a bit out of it…)

Kristy:(amused, rubbing his shoulder some)You alright dude?

Sharky:(his head and arms down on the table, he's obviously had wayyyyy more then enough, a bit sick)…….Fuck…

Kristy:(kindly)You have enough to eat?

Sharky:(sick still)…….I literally feel like my stomach is gonna explode…

Kristy:(laughing a bit)Well i hope that doesn't happen dude! Legit, you alright? Need a minute? You good? (Grabs his drink, offering it to him)Here, maybe drink a bit of water yeah?

Sharky:(he sits up, you can tell he doesn't feel as good now, he takes Kristy up on that offer and drinks some before letting a breath out)…God…Yeah, i guess i was alot hungrier then i thought i was…Sushi was way too good honestly…Jesus…

Kristy:(smirks)So…?

Sharky:(recovering some)So what?

Kristy:(smirking)So if we go to the aquarium now, you think you can control yourself?

Sharky:(groans, sick)Yeah, i can't eat another bite…I'm stuffed…Don't have any room for dessert either so…Yeah, fishes are safe…

Kristy:(grinning, hyped)Perfect!!! That's what i wanted to hear!!!

Sharky:(sick)Can it wait a few minutes though? God, i think i need a few, i don't feel good… --------------------------------

Do not let this sharkboi near your fish tank, he will wreck that shit and by that, i mean he will eat every goddamn fish in there if he skipped a meal or two which he probably has cuz self neglect, poor boyo

Dis what i got for now tho lol xd

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biTCH WE NEVER HAVE TIME FOR SHIT-

*deep breath* okay I'm just tired

Eeeeeee......

Ramblings below the cut, just about job stuff lmao

There's so much we would love to catch up on, but we never have the time because we're always working or recuperating to do it all again the next day.

And we're still trying to find a good work schedule balance. We love both our jobs dearly, and if we had to prioritize one, it would be the restaurant even though we're constantly pouring a lot of energy into the coffeeshop.

And both places have more rigid type schedules that don't align for us to be able to stagger them reasonably 😭

And the coffee place recently asked if we were still interested in taking up more shifts, since we had stated during the hiring process that it *might* be a possibility later down the line, but its no longer in the cards for us.

And I have to tell them that and it's just conversation that I can have I just am running our of the energy to

And as I'm typing this up right now I'm realizing just how much of a mental strain all the work has been putting on us. Like fuck. And we're trying to play a very careful balancing game with our availability to each place because if we're any less availability for either place then there's a good chance that they'll give the "we appreciate what you've done, but we need someone who can work these specific shifts". And that's more so for the restaurant, which I really don't want to leave because we love it and prefer it, it's just atm it doesn't give us all the hours we need.

And while trying to be as flexible as possible for the coffeeshop, I'm still heavily restrictive on the shifts I'm available for because if I give any more it would interfere too much with the restaurant.

We need both jobs, and we love both jobs, and one or the other would not be able to solely support us enough financially. We are at the barest minimum availability for each one atm but it might not be enough and we can't take on any more without taking from the other and I'm just tired of working 6-7 days a week😭

It would work out more if one or both of them weren't rigid in their shifts, but neither are able to do that.

But, hopefully there's a way from it. We just have to make sure everything falls right and make sure the proper prep for it is done.

The grandkids at the restaurant, most of em are leaving soon ish so we may be able to pick up evenings at the restaurant, and combining that with maybe opening Alice's small business, we might be able to make enough money to drop the coffeeshop down the line. Give our notice.

If we had more time in the day/week, it's not something we would worry about, but we already have a brain that consistently has us losing time or having to spend so much time recuperating from the amount we work that we can't do much else 😭😭😭

Hello Noelle ♥️♥️ How are you doing?

I'm stopping by here to say that I'm doing okay and I hope you're doing good too. Sorry for the absence :') I'm facing a very overwhelming phase in my studies rn and I don't have the energy to go online atm ㅠㅠ

But I just want to say that I've done my proposal defense and the assessor was very impressed with my knowledge on my study (Considering I'm doing a thesis about blood glucose and that assessor is like an expert in this field, receiving such compliments made me feel very appreciated :'))

How are you doing? Is your job treating you well? Are you sleeping well? Are you enjoying your coffee every morning? I wish I can run over to your house and hang out together physically. Or just enjoy our time together by baking cookies or just watching any movies 😂 Giving you virtual hugs from afar

Here's a picture of Nemo sleeping to make your day. She's currently 6-7 months old now 💕 She's a very good girl (with occasional playful bites here and there sometimes). She likes to cuddle and enjoy playing with anything she can bite on 😂

Han 🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I'm so happy to hear from you!!! Sorry, it took me so long to respond. I constantly feel tired and overwhelmed and am much slower than I used to be 😞

I'm sorry you're overwhelmed. Don't apologize for taking time for yourself. I know you're dealing with a lot, and I wish you the best with your studies. I hope you're able to take care of yourself the best you can and have a support system you can rely on. I wish I could make sure you're getting enough to eat, drink, and sleep, and be there to give you a hug and make you strawberry milk when you're having a rough time.

That's wonderful 🥹 I'm so proud of you!!! You should feel appreciated and proud of yourself. You've come so far and are doing an amazing job! I'm sure you put a lot of time and effort into your work and it paid off in the end.

I'd love to hear more about you and your days when you have the time! I enjoy getting updates from you 🥰

I'm doing all right, thank you! Work is going well. It doesn't pay well, but it's the first time I don't feel like a complete outsider lol. And being around books inspires me to write and work on my own projects. I've been dealing with a lot of fatigue lately that is getting in the way. I'm not sure if it's purely mental or physical or both. I plan to see a doctor at some point. Other than that, I am enjoying my coffee every day and playing as much Obey Me and Geshin Impact as I can. Still simping over Levi 24/7 🤣

I also joined a collab for Levi's birthday and have been writing a piece for that, which feels nice!

Omg, I wish we could hang out too 😭 I'd give you the biggest hug!!! I wish I could give you one right now! Chilling out and enjoying each other's company sounds so nice. I'd love to make cookies and watch a movie ❤️

Aw, Nemo is still so precious 🥹 Look at the cute face!!! Now everyone can see Nemo and melt from how adorable she is. I'm so glad she's doing well, and that you two have each other. Feel free to send pictures of Nemo whenever you want. She's too cute for words!!!

Thank you for stopping by! It truly made my day to hear from you. I miss and love you 💕

I also used to think like this that why people are ready to pay for readings, if they are getting it in free. After observing i realise that some have their fav readers and if they need guidance at any moment they can ask for paid reading bcz not every time free readings are available. And some prefer detailed readings so they opt for paid ones. That's what I think, there may be other reasons too

Ofc, this could be. Thanks for sharing! But it all depends on each reader's choices and way of working and managing energies and all, as we're all different. I don't know how other readers work, what they do or anything, and that's not cause I don't respect them, at all... it's just that I do me, and that is more than enough for me atm. I can talk only from my pov, as I honestly cannot and don't want to judge anyone's job and plans here. I'm not here for that and I don't even care doing that as I truly believe in free will and doing what you think is right to do, both as querents and readers: we all have our own reasons and outsiders shouldn't have a word on that.

But to make my pov clearer, here my explanation on how I personally work as for now (especially for the many newcomers):

I try to be as detailed as I can everytime and getting money wouldn't change the level of details and effort I put in. If I can only get a few words, it means you (or me) are supposed to know only those few words and nothing can change it. Getting paid COULD possibly only change the number of questions one is able to ask me for, but again this too is something that depends mostly on my energy (when I open free personal readings, I generally ask to receive only 1 question for person, to be able to read for more people, jsyk). This (asking for more than 1 question) could be solved: 1) by waiting for when I really have a top energy level (which I am working to reach for); OR 2) through exchange readings or similar (e.g. astrology x tarots exchange) -again I'm talking for myself only, don't get offended or anything!! It's my personal point of view.

As I mentioned, I open free readings anytime I can. When they're closed it means I am not in a good place to offer them, to be accurate as I'd like to be, and to respect my querents as I'd like to. Being paid wouldn't change anything in my energy. If I am tired, overwhelmed or such, I cannot give you my best and you'd have to wait for me to get better anyway. To give others something good and accurate, I need to give to myself first: to let myself heal, recharge, be in a calm environment for as long as I need to (how long? It depends). My cup needs to be full. And this also cause sometimes the people I read for have very out of control/overwhelming energies, and when I am not in a good place, it may get harder for me to control them. You can imagine what may happen inside of someone when mixing two different "stressed" energies. Remember I prefer to use clairs first when doing personal readings (in particular): this makes the connection deeper and more tiring than the one I channel through tarots (but it's also what makes everything more accurate, and I got this from feedbacks too). If I am in a good place, I can control things better, have better boundaries and recover more easily after each reading. Not to mention my Guides are the first ones "consistently suggesting" me to not read if I don't feel well or something is wrong, or to just stick with tarots, which I ofc appreciate a lot. I do also believe that sometimes there're reasons for us not getting an immediate answer about something (or being able to get a reading when we want to, much like manifestations -you know how much I believe in fate). Also, I would rather that you made sure that I am a good reader for you first (this means my pacs resonate as well and you like my energy), and getting a few free readings (keep into consideration sometimes accuracy may decrease anyway for different reasons) are a good way to understand that.

Okay, done with the blabbing. :)

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18. How often do you forget stuff because “I don’t need to write it down, I’ll remember” syndrome? 14. Do you make faces to help you describe expressions as you write?

thanks sweet!

18. How often do you forget stuff because of “I don’t need to write it down, I’ll remember” syndrome?

this is a great question, but the problem is it's very hard to remember how often you're forgetting things 😅😂🤕

i think it kind of depends on the story and its length/complexity, and the planning ~process? 🤔

i don't tend to write things down till im working on the story, which is probs a bad system and probs leads to forgetting stuff, but if it does, i don't remember so oh well! 🤷🏼‍♀️ and also i think i do tend to remember/work it out again in order to make things make sense? 👀

when i'm coming to work on something i will usually make a bunch of notes, but how wide-ranging that is will probs depend on how long the story is? or at least how long i think it will be.... sometimes im very wrong lol. 😅😅😅

like with the thing im working on atm, i didnt really write copious notes, more like a ~scene list and a ~theme list -- i have kiiiinda updated them as ive gone, but i don't think ive necessarily done a stellar job of remembering to add new thoughts to it, and i probably shouldve taken more care of the page...i think im suffering more from ~"i don't need to use a new page, writing sporadic notes in increasingly tiny illegible writing which has literally ripped the page from the notebook is working out just fiiiiine" syndrome. 😨

but also.... im writing from the pov of a character who's drunk, old, tired, stupid, occasionally high (and not good at it), traumatised etc etc etc, so i think baffled abt how much forgetting one might be doing energy is very useful to put there, ha 👀👀👀🙏

14. Do you make faces to help you describe expressions as you write?

one million times yes lolllllllllllll

writey asks

Hi! I'm so excited for this page! Could you do a tarot reading for me? I'm super confused about my studies. This is my third year in uni and I feel so unmotivated, but I don't know if it is because of the career itself (aka I don't really like it) or it's just isolation and it's all in my head. In my first year I was feeling 💯 but now I feel like stuck?

If it helps, I'm turning 21 this year and I'm studying international relations. My name starts with an F.

hi hello!!!

okay so first card, two of swords in reverse which is 10000% about confusion. it's like having to make a decision and you're blindfolded. eight of cups suggests looking at your surroundings and reflect a bit which it's what you're doing now. it's about movement, leaving everything behind and doing something else and new. it could also mean changes in studies and employment. I do see it more of as your desire tho. che card doesn't necessarily mean you need to do that, but it means more the fact that that's what you would want. your secret desire.

in fact afterwards there's the page of wands in reverse which is all about "talking much but not doing anything" to change the situation.

every card here is a bit troublesome. ace of cups reversed means one sided love, in a career reading it could mean that you're trying hard but you feel like you're just "talking to a wall", meaning the career is not loving you back. judgment in reverse, you're afraid of self examination. something's blocking you from that. perhaps fear and anxiety. this card in reverse could also mean that you're doing what's expected of you and not what you really should be doing or want to do. you're doubting yourself and your intuition. I think you're afraid of the future. two of wands in reverse is the answer of the judgment. it legit means difficulty choosing a path. so in this moment you feel like you can't have success. ten of wands, you're very very burdened. it's hard atm and you feel like you have the whole world on your shoulders. you need help.

this card is the bridge with the other good cards I have though. all of this so far has been your current energy and your deep thoughts. it's bad and you're tired. but this card here means also that the job is hard but you don't have to give up. you will have success if you keep pushing just a little bit.

four of wands in reverse is good in this spread. it means that you can celebrate soon. you're actually on the path to success even if you might not notice it right now. you're insecure and don't recognize just how well you're actually doing atm given your circumstances. this also suggests recovery from a bad situation so it means you'll soon overcome this feeling of heaviness. pleasure is coming your way soon.

then you literally got the emperor and the justice. so so powerful. the emperor is about organization and plans. he's rigid and suggests looking inside for answers. paired with justice, I get the feeling of needing to do the right thing even if it looks hard.

tl;dr: from my understanding of all of this, you should keep doing what you're doing at the moment. you're feeling blocked rn because you're very exhausted. you would just want to rest a bit and not deal with all this shit. you're tempted to give up but it can be worse. I see great success and satisfaction coming your way if you just push a little bit. you can take your time to finish the studies but I do see it as a good path for you. if the studies are coming to an end soon, you've already done so much. if you change paths now you might regret it. you feel like you don't like the studies anymore because it's been very very hard and keep doing stuff you don't like makes you start to hate it. it's normal. I see the need for you to talk about this with someone you trust. family or friends. if you have someone with emperor vibe in your life, masculine energy that protects you, not necessarily a man, but someone with nurturing powerful qualities, then talk to them. they can give you the strength to push forward.

I did a clearing card to see if the career that comes your way after these studies is the right one and I got seven of swords in reverse which means that you might not have a career regarding your studies afterwards. I think you should finish the studies but then you'll take risks and work something different.

and the second card is three of cups. which means abundance and happiness. so much happiness. fulfillment. celebration. I understand this as the path you're now doesn't feel right because you won't do what you expect to be doing after finishing your studies, but this path is necessary to get whatever good is coming your way afterwards. the message is, take a break if you need to, take care of yourself, but keep going. afterwards/after graduation you'll find great fulfillment. you don't have to be afraid of what's coming. it's going to be alright and you'll understand later on what was all of this difficulty needed for

it can like "oh I'm doing international relations now so it means I'll work this which I can already tell I'll hate" but it's actually going to be "thanks to the skills I got from this degree now I can do this amazing unexpected job I never thought about before". things will change the way you want them to change. you'll be very very happy.

Hey dx. Hope you're well. I don't know if you remember this ask, but I'm the anon who asked a few months ago about supporting a friend in med school with depression and finding it a bit much. A lot has happened since then. She's sadly left med school and has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Currently she doesn't really have stable periods and is either high or low. I got kind of ok with having boundaries with texting etc/meet-ups only when actually able to. Part 1

Part 2. Anon supporting friend here. Recently she’s been high and has been messaging me nearly all day every day/asking if I’m there if I take time to reply/constantly updating me on what she’s doing/sending me all her family pictures. I’m finding it really stressful and overwhelming, tried turning off my notifications yesterday but still keeps going. My own anxiety is flaring up and I’m stressed hugely with workload.

Part 3. Anon supporting friend. I’ve told her I take time to reply because I’m stressed/overwhelmed and yet the messages keep coming. I know she’s hypomanic/manic so she probably sees things in a different perspective atm and forgets that it’s too much. I’m wondering whether it’s worth asking her to please message a little less as I find it overwhelming to get so many messages each day, or whether it will just not work as she isn’t in her right mind. Part 4. She has got professional help in place. She’s fallen out with her other friends because they don’t message her when she’s low etc/her best friend has distanced herself from her because she doesn’t know what to say. I don’t want to not be friends but I need to work something out! I’m trying to remember she’s ill but I’m starting to feel unwell too. Any advice?! PS. I know this is an extremely long ask and that you’re very busy, so please take your time if you need            

Hey, I’m glad to hear from you again. I’m so sorry for my late reply; I rread your ask at the time, and thought about it a lot. But I had to take some time to process my own life problems and mental health, and I couldn’t really give most of my asks the time or energy they deserved, so I had to leave them until they could. Which is kind of the theme of this ask, ironically. But I hope late is better than never.  Thank you for your message at the end of your ask, it’s very much appreciated :) I’m so sorry that your friend’s going through a rough time, and that you are, too. I’m so sorry to hear that she left med school; bipolar is a truly difficult illness, she has been on a really tough journey.  I’m glad she has professional support; that’s always a huge deal because the right treatment and support can revolutionise people’s lives. I’ve seen it, and though I don’t think the way we treat mental health is perfect, I do think we can do so much good by acknowledging mental illness and treating it properly. And taking people seriously. I’m glad to hear you started to work out some boundaries that worked for you; it’s tough, but it’s good to hear that you made some progress, even if it doesn’t always work out as  well as you hope, it’s still progress. You’re right to put your own wellbeing first; it’s hard for us to support others if we’re being brought to a mental breakdown ourselves. It’s a hard lesson for us to learn, but you can’t serve others with a broken/empty cup. I think it’s a really fair idea to turn off notifications to avoid overloading yourself. She can keep going; thats OK. You can’t control your friend’s mania, or how ‘full on’ they are; perhaps not even they can. Unfortunately, that’s part of the illness. And it seems you understand that well, deep inside. She might process things differently, and I think you’re an excellent friend for doing your best to support them, and understand what they are going through. I’m putting this under a cut because it’s long.

Everyone reacts differently to being told the truth, so only you will know how they might respond. Sometimes we can just tell people ‘sorry, I’m not feeling well so I might not respond much’. Sometimes we invent excused to be kind or because we aren’t ready to talk about the entire story; in my view, in personal* settings, it’s OK to tell white lies not to hurt people sometimes. I’ve told friends I’ve been sick or oncall when I couldn’t attend events because I was physically exhausted or not feeling well, because I really cared about seeing them but didn’t want them to think I was not coming because I was not bothered. However, with close friends I’m honest, and the vast majority of the time, if I say I’m oncall, it’s because I’m actually oncall. I don’t like fibbing, and I don’t like hurting people’s feelings, so it’s a fine line, but I’d rather feel a bit guilty than make others feel bad. It might be OK if you tell her that you sometimes need time to reply because you are overwhelmed; have you ever discussed your own mental health issues with them? Do they get that you get really anxious or overwhelmed? It might depend on how much insight they have into their own state right now, and perhaps it’d be difficult for them to moderate how they act, or how they feel about it.  However, if you find yourself having to take quite a bit of time to yourself, don’t feel shy to just tell them “I’m not ignoring, you, I just wasn’t feeling well and had to take a break, I’m listening now”. Or you could say “I care about all your messages, and I always read them all, but sometimes I can’t reply to them all at once because I’m busy/overwhelmed/tired/unable to process it all”. If they get upset because you haven’t replied, it might help to reassure them that you do care (because this is, deep down, what they fear”, and that you care about their wellbeing, but that other issues in your life have been stressing you out, too. And that you just didn’t want to bother them with your stress, so needed to take some time out. There are ways of discussing it that don’t outright lay the blame on them, or make out that they are the cause of your problems, when it’s not true, and therefore avoids making them feel guilty for things outside of their control. Something can be not the cause of our problems/stress and still be overwhelming, and if you’re able to be honest with them, I think that’s a good way to put it across.  As well as the idea that in order to be truly there for them, and have enough energy and time to be able to support them, sometiems you need to take time out to process the other things in your life. Work, uni, family, love life, etc, whatever it is. Telling someone “I have a lot of thigns in life that are stressing me out, and draining my energy, and sometimes I need to take some time out to process/fix them, and rest before I can chill with you and help you, and be happy with you, because otherwise I’d spend my time with you stressed and miserable and might make you feel worse” makes sense. I can’t say if that would work for your friend, but I feel a lot of people would understand that. In the end, I am sure they care about you, too. But because of their own illness and issues, deep down they are probably terrified of losing you too. They know that their illness can make things harder for them, harder for those around them, and they probably feel really bad about that; we all beat ourselves up over stuff like that. Reminding them that you care, and want to be there, and want to be strong and rested so you don’t bring them down with your own problems is actually a kindness to them. I remember publishing a similar ask/anwer/post by someone else who answered a similar question, because it reminded me of you and your ask. I hope you saw that, it might be tagged under my #mental health and medicine tag. You come across as a supportive, loving friend who is doing their best, please don’t feel guilty if you have to put yourself first. I hope you and your friend take the time you need to heal. * In professional settings, we’re bound by the rules of probity. We don’t lie in medicine. TBH my parents raised us to NEVER LIE, which makes working in medicine easier because I’m a terrible gulty fibber who likes to follow all the rules and who doesn’t even like parking in the wrong place, much less anything exciting.