RIP in Malaysia, Nanamin S2

so i made myself sad with this one actually oopsies

mall toons belong to @8um8le 🙇

honestly , i feel like getting into lies of p somehow improved my mental health stuff , if only a little . like i finally have a game that i'm invested into ( which haven't happened to me in years ) , i'm trying to interact more with people ( even if my social anxiety is making me sick ) , i'm making more gifs and art that i actually like ( also yay for that art improvement ) and geppetto is here too i guess

Dropping my Undergu Empire OC before tomorrow, when it's revealed the whole empire was just those five weirdoes all along or something.

Anyways, her name is Caprikon and she's a recruiter and an instructor for the Undergu Empire's army.

She doesn't usually directly attack weaklings but, unlike Minoton, it's not out of some sense of honor or anything like that. She simply doesn't feel like they're worth going all out if they can't put up an interesting challenge.

Regardless, she finds amusing to humour them, pretending to be more on par with their abilities, just so she can watch them build themselves up and then inevitably crash once they get way too over their heads. This makes her appear kind and friendly, especially to younger recruits, even though she's usually condescending and deep down doesn't really respect them much.

When she finds strong opponents she's more than thrilled to actually throw hands herself though, and you know she actually respects someone when she doesn't hold herself back.

............ i want to come out.

guys that say they like talking to you but then ain't interested when you don't wanna be sexual? yeah, those dudes are going straight to hell lmao like yikes

So you may wonder

Hey tired

You made so many promises for propagandas

Why didn't you post a single one?

Wellp

I am not exactly in an alrighty ish mental state lmao (nothing bad or tragic or anything just used all my brain energy and I'm running low and can't actually function like a human being lol)

But more importantly

I made the decision to go get my nails done. And because i basically had no actual nails to work with i got poly gel nails annnnnd it's too long. I ACTUALLY CAN'T FUCKING DRAW.

Holding a pencil like i used to is actually not possible but I'm relearning so it'll be alright

But digital? Haha no way. I use my phone and finger for all the digital art you've seen. Guess what when you get long ass nails you can't use your fingertip to touch the screen.

Still haven't had my mental breakdown over this. But for now (the next 20 days) i gotta draw traditionally 90% of the time. Which is what I'm working on. As again, Holding a pencil the way I've been holding for the past like idk 14 years is actually not possible and a tad bit painful when i try to do it by force

I'm actually genuinely sorry for not posting the stuff i promised. Regardless of the results of the polls , I'll post all of them as soon as i can.

Right at this specific moment i have no creativity like none and I'm just trying to figure a way out to prepare for the last day of polls

If you still want something. Whether it's art ask or au questions or anything you'd like to tell me or ask me, my ask box is always open. I'll do my best to answer them. Especially the none art ones

Thanks for reading my rant.

I'll bounce back just gimme a lil bit of time and don't let me isolate myself please

craving the touch of teeth on skin

tagged by @denerims @florbelles @risingsh0t @leviiackrman @shellibisshe & @fenharel to do this quiz for some of my ocs – thank you all so much ily! ♡

tagging: @aartyom @aelyosos @brujah @calenhads @celticwoman @cultistbase @faarkas @girlbosselrond @narshadda @nocticulas @noonfaerie @nuclearstorms @reaperkiller @risingsh0t @shadowglens @steelport @stormveils @swordcoasts @voerman @windupcharibert @wrymbloods & anyone else who would like to do this! no pressure as always, and if you'd prefer i didn't tag you in these things, just let me know ♡

WHAT'S AT YOUR OC'S CORE?

— rippling sunset.

you're the nicest person i'll ever meet, probably. with an undying passion to protect those who can't protect themselves, you're energetic and bubbly to a fault. it's cute, watching you run around trying to tie up loose ends. i feel bad for you — out of everyone you know, you probably have some of the deepest trauma, more than anyone's aware of. this isn't something that you want attention for at all, and you'd really just rather forget it exists at all… even then, it seems like you can never escape it. i wish you a pleasant rest of your life, full of rippling sunsets and free of prying eyes.

— fractured glass.

no amount of orchestrated class is ever going to hide the fact that you're doomed to be alone. you're a puppet, you're a weapon, but most importantly? you're a fraud. your facade isn't malicious, but that doesn't change a thing. everything in your life is in your control now, and you chose to let yourself become stiff and distant. you're guilty of everything you blame yourself for, and your misfortune is the fault of nobody but yourself. your selfish nature forges you into a man-made monster, so quick to blame and so desperate to escape consequence. i hope that you can become someone you’re proud of soon.

— acerbic wit.

you're a mentor — an old scarred wolf, an injured soldier, a disgraced paladin. your teachings read as shamelessly pretentious, speaking in rhymes and biting down hard into anyone stupid enough to make the wrong move. this isn't your first life, nor your second, nor your sixth — you'll make the most of your time shackled to this world, no matter how many loops it takes to get it right. with every defeat, you reincarnate; a little smarter, a little quicker, crueler and nastier. will you choose to be brutal, equalizing, that final strike in the face of your enemies? will you go soft, become tender and domesticated? the choice is yours. it's not like i can stop you.

— silent admission.

in tarot, the fool is numbered 0 – the number of unlimited potential. as the protagonist, he is ever present and therefore needs no number as well as no introduction. the world revolves around you in ways that i can't begin to describe, though you'd shrug it off if i were to begin to explain. i need you to know that time is running out. if you want to get this done, you need to start now. sloth is your greatest enemy in this world, and you can only run so far from the opposition when you start with such a disadvantage. keep your head high, yeah? the kid you were is still in there somewhere. you need to show him that it was worth it.

@poaeise asked: ❝ it takes a moment for his words to register, but once they do, rachel tilts her head.  eyes meeting his. '' this ? oh, it's an iphone. looks like a lot going on, i know. but it's not as complicated as it seems. here. take a look.'' / heard u wanted the rabbit man to have tech sjflksjdlk. ❞ ( random indulgent ask <3 )

He had been watching attentively, the growing curiosity over everything else giving rise to the question. Once, he had been all too familiar with the newest technology, constantly searching for ways to implement it into his own work. In another life, he could have done more than build animatronics. Technology had long sense passed him by, however, if the item—the "phone"—in Rachel's hand was anything to judge by.

She indulged him—more than he expected given their history—and he took two heavy steps closer. Any other time the movement might have been threatening, but his eyes were trained on the device. He took it with all the care he could manage given his predicament, a faint clicking accompanying the movement of his eyes searching the screen. "This. . . isn't a phone. It's a computer." Once upon a time he had experimented with microprocessor-like chips in his animatronics. He couldn't even fathom what powered this device. The fingers on his free hand twitched. He wanted to open it, catch the exposed ends of endoskeleton under the seams and pull it open. He had always learned best by taking apart and putting back together. He imagined that even starting to do that wouldn't go over well. He resisted. Barely. "I could've created. . . so much more with this. . . technology." His words were rasped out mostly to himself. He finally pressed one of his remaining intact fingers to a tile on the screen, the jaw of the suit twitching when it loaded up. Fascinating. "Tell me how it works."

// Vent

First lesson today in person and I burst into tears in the middle of it bc I couldn't answer the teachers questions 😭

Had to hype myself up with Jumping Jack's to get back into the classroom after bawling my eyes out in the bathroom 🫠

What a lame start to the semester !!!

0/10 would not recommend

help my friend who i worked with and was very close with for like a number of years invited me to her wedding but didn't give me a plus one and we have like Zero mutual friends i could link up with there and i do NOT have the nerve to go to a whole wedding alone but i also don't know what excuse to give bc "i can't go to your big wedding due to my anxious nature" sounds like a stupid excuse. but also who expects people to show up to a wedding ALONE like what the fuck

Starting ffxv, watching the intro sequence: this is gonna be so fun, I can't wait to go on a fun road trip with my new friends! I love this song cover and it's really funny with it playing over them bitching and pushing the car. I've never played a final fantasy game before, so I don't know what to expect, but everything looks so cool and fun!

60 hours later, watching the end credits:

loneliness resulting from childhood neglect and a complicated, codependent relationship with your classical music and arts loving father who's had a traumatizing life and a deep sadness in him will have you doing insane things like genuinely relating to hannibal lecter.

btw sorry for the influx of negative posts but this is. literally a life defining moment for me and i'm scared shitless so <3 i'll calm down in a week i just need to be dramatic first

just watched barbie brb i'm gonna cry the whole night (the tags has some spoilers there ig)