People seem to think that I am okay. But in reality I am not. I am a damaged good who has issues understanding my value in this world. I have thought of killing myself but that will not give me value. 24 hours after I die people will move on and will eventually forget.
I can’t seem to move forward or overcome this thought. I try to build my value through wealth in order for me to leave something for my children and be remembered that I prepared everything for them before I go.
Because I know I will be leaving soon enough the moment I start accepting the fact that my value will never mean anything until I am dead. People tend to remember everything you have done while you were alive the moment you die.
I just do hope that when I die I get to hear everything from somewhere what they can remember to share.
YES!!!! I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS QUESTION!!!! AAAAAAA
(Going with the age order because I'm indecisive and wanna love my kiddos equally)
(Also using colors because I'm extra)
BOKUTO
He/him boi (probably a demi boy but he doesn't know it)
He genuinely doesn't mind if you use different pronouns for him. He identifies with masc pronouns but honestly he doesn't care.
I have an AU where he's a trans boy I'll talk about that in a different post.
He loves all the terms. Fem, neutral, masc, any, and all. He knows it's different to be called pretty, or handsome, and they both make him happy.
Pan he is SO PAN!!!
KUROO
He/him/they
The token cis man (although I really really like intersex kuroo)
Bisexual icon!!
KENMA
They/them/he
Has used fem pronouns but isn't comfortable with strangers using them.
Nonbinary
They don't mind he/him Sometimes they prefer it more. But they/them is what they usually go with.
Ace spectrum and gay
AKAASHI
He/they
Also with a preference change.
Gener apathetic symbol (i will DIE on this hill)
Demi romantic (does not know or care about the orientation)
All of them are obviously polyamorous
Kenma and Keiji have this thing when at least one of them has a they/them preference at all times. They both made the other one so much more comfortable to say their preference.
Bokuto will probably realize he's not cis in his late 20s and is surprised that that's not the way everyone feels about their gender.
Your leo's right t+9. He's prettier. Space Leo's not happy about it tho.
@tmnt-iteration-compeition it's this thing where every time i draw tortlez leo i draw him with sharp ass eyeliner. (Example being the Halloween gift i drew where Leo's eyeliner is sharper than his sword)
So yeah uh... I guess the girlies would try to compete who has the prettiest eyeliner.
ALSO PLEASE VOTE FOR MY BELOVED TORTLEZ THEY'RE CURRENTLY BEHIND AND WE NEED TO TIE!!
I wasn't exactly around the day it aired and can't exactly talk about how it's been so long since then
But i want to use this awesome day to talk about my experience with 03 and how important it was in my journey
So back when i was around 5-6 , there was this new TV network that only played cartoon DUBBED IN MY LANGUAGE which was something every kid was so excited about becouse we could "turn on the tv and there'd always be a cartoon that we actually understood"
And every Tuesday night at 8:30 pm we'd watch the ninja turtles. And that was without a doubt the most popular cartoon for every kid around my age
My and two distant relatives fell in love with the show and it became our entire life.
Me and the girl chose a turtle to "marry" and we made the boy a girl turtle to "marry" and we kept playing pretend
Oh i was married to leo
We still have recordings of 6 year olds filming what we've learned to be a western style wedding through TV.
And Sometimes me and the boy played together we'd BE the turtles
Again i was always Leo
And as time passed i never stopped loving the show. After a while it was "too childish" and"too dumb" to love the show so I decided to hide my love for it but there were still slip ups when i got too excited and started to infodump about it.
Eventually i just stopped caring when i realized tmnt 03 is the reason i loved animation and story telling and why i wanted to make shows in the future
And embracing my love for the show and comfortably doodling them without fearing people seeing it. Liking fanarts and Reading fanfics led me to find the most incredible tmnt family i could have ever dreamed.
Thank you tmnt 03 for always being my comfort when i needed it I can't believe I've loved this show for so long and that i still watch my favorite childhood show. Little me would have been so proud knowing that
Anyways this was a little doodle i drew like a month ago but school literally fucked with my plans and my actual drawing is still a wip so i just turned this digital
Here's a tiny sneak peek at it (already finished don but I'll share it as a complete piece)
I'll work on it IF this stupid school lets me get my diploma
I just watched my adventures with superman season finally and i have some thought
Spoilers obviously
This episode frustrated me so much. Don't get me wrong it was incredible. The dad reveal that we were all waiting for DID NOT DISAPPOINT. They're no longer interns YIPPY
I LOVE martha so much she is incredible I just wanna give her a hug. Lois was AMAZING. Jimmy shjajsjs i love jimmy so much. My good boy Clark. Poor thing sksksk
But like
There were also elements that frustrated me SO SO MUCH
This may be a personal preference but i think the episode was too fast. I think it'd make more sense if it was two parts. So general could ACTUALLY understand what the fuck was happening SPECIALLY considering that he felt like superman wasn't the bay guy in the last episode.
I think it was fast as he didn't even realize WHY lois was protecting him. WHICH IS THE IMPORTANT PART OF HIS CHARACTER ARC.
I don't think it makes enough sense that he just ... Left. Like idk again this might be totally a personal preference thing (this show is a favorite of mine and saying these don't mean that I don't love it so so much) but it just felt too rushed imo
Anyways I can't wait to see what season 2 will give us. And also RICH JIMMY (I'd like to know how flame bird being sold to the planet actually works and who will be running it and how the profit thing works idk maybe I'm just too obsessed with flame bird)
Does vincent have a favorite dad
*Whispers* Don't worry I won't tell anyone if he does.
Please vote for nameless au so we can tie
Vinny never had a favorite dad. All of them were different and cared so much about him in different ways. But it was so obvious that they all loved him unimaginably and so did he. The amount of love he has for each of them is more than her knowledge of words can describe and she doesn't have a favorite because she can't even compare them.
BUT
That's not what y'all are here for.
Although vinny never had a favorite, she always had one that she was the closest with. The most comfy and felt the best to be around. But it depends on which part of her life you're asking
New born and later, baby vinny was without a doubt the closest to leo. He monitored her every second, fearing she's gonna die. Not leaving her alone for a second.
During the time she was the tiniest, he made a baby wrap with his mask to keep her close and later it just became the norm to do daily tasks while carrying her.
He was the first dad vinny named. He's her "bawa" and he did cry for a good hour and half after that interaction, realizing that she's the most precious thing in his life and he doesn't know how to keep her safe forever.
Toddler vinny and raph are best friends. Vinny is filled with energy and curiosity and although they all spend time with her, try to teach her different things, and just make her giggle; Raph surprisingly (to no one but himself) is the best one with kids. He would spend hours playing with blocks and hair clips and go collect more for her every late night so he can surprise her in the morning. Although vinny loves them the same, she prefers to play with raph because he's the cool dad who has secretly taken her to ride on a motorcycle but she can't ever tell leo or they're both dead.
Ever since vinny started school (yes he goes to school thank you online education!) Mikey and vinny got a lot closer. Legally, there should be a guardian who moderates their education and mikey had so much fun helping. He always wanted to go to school and tho he knew a LOT of stuff (thanks to splinter and donny taking education VERY seriously) he has so much fun learning history and science and it makes him incredibly happy.
Vinny's papa is a very important person in their class and the kids love him. No one knows they're a turtle and an axolotl. But they love them and respect that they won't show their faces
Arts and crafts are their favorite and they love making craft together. This specific doodle is from when they made a gift for one of Vinny's classmates for his birthday.
DONNIE HOWEVER gets the angsty teenager. You can't raise a kid away from society and not get an angsty chaotic teenager who decides to trust humans and be cool and gets emotionally DESTROYED by horrible people.
She doesn't want his dads to know about her. She's distant she doesn't want them to know what she's doing. And donny is no doubt the chilleset papa. Leo is going crazy trying to mother hen her to make sure she doesn't do anything stupid. Raph is over protective and wants to fight her negative emotions, her bad feelings, and anyone she talks to. Mikey keeps trying to bond with his little kid and struggles to let go of that closeness.
Donny however knows how to be supportive and keep his distance. To be extra careful of their boundaries and the same time not let her distance herself.
This specific doodle is set after the first time vinny revealed himself to some of his human "friends" and they started hurting him, throwing stuff at him, and calling him mean things. After they left he took his shell cell and called donny, even tho he was supposed to be home and already asleep. Not saying a word just calling and then texting please pick me up.
Donny was there 8 minutes later. Helping her in the car. They had a quiet car ride. No words exchanged. When they came back home and started walking towards their own room donny looked at her with a smile "i love you vinny! I love you and I'm proud of you." He said. "I'm always proud of you and you are the most important thing in my life. I'm so glad i was blessed with you." And then, he starts walking away. She immediately runs to him, hugging him and started sobbing.
"I'm never trusting anyone ever again!" She sobbed trying to catch her breath. "I know honey. I know." He responded in a sad, bitter tone. Did he agree with her? Not exactly. Trusting would be much much harder but not impossible. That's not what she needed to hear tho. He'd help her process and heal later. Right now, he didn't know how bad the situation was, how hurt she was physically. But he knew his feelings were absolutely wrecked. And the best he could do was to support her.
Thank you so much for reading this and thanks for supporting nameless au. There's still time to vote for me so i can tie with big sis leo.
But regardless I'm grateful for you guys. Before this competition i was very insecure about my AUs thinking no one would like them. Specially an oc adoption au? I only shared with a few close friends
But now i have people who actually care for this au. Who care for vinny. Who enjoy my brain coming up with random shit.
I get asks, i made friends and I'm so happy to be in this place. Regardless of winning or loosing or getting a tie, I'm so happy to have come so far.
Hey @turtle-tot-tournament here's my biggest propaganda in hope for a tie. I'm so happy to be in this competition and I'm so grateful for having the most awsome poll master. Being a poll master myself, i can see how hard you've worked and i appreciate you so so much <3
So it has come to my attention that I'm ✨ Specially interested✨™ in Bokuakakuroken
It has been more than a year long hyperfocous and i just NEED to find people to talk about it with.
So I'm here to ask you to please send me asks about them. The tag is literally dead here and i want to revive it everywhere. I am soooooo close to starting a tiktok series just about them but tumblr asks is my first step
She and Mikey and april go and get them once in a while (this is def not because I've been talking about slushies to a friend and kinda crave them so much even tho i had some on monday)
Best flavors are the red and orange mixed no doubt the sweet and sour and the cold icy texture just make the most perfect snack
@turtle-tot-tournament sorry for spamming you lol get some propaganda juice