Ok~ It's Confession time again~

If even ANY of these gorgeous men paid even a speck of attention to me - I would be an absolute MESS.

I would completely embarrass myself, or I'd run away or something and you wouldn't see me for DAYS.

Just DO NOT PERCEIVE ME PLEASE. />.<\

I'm ridiculous.

Also like; most of the time I feel like I'm pretty desperate to love, to touch, be loved and be touched up on, but sometimes even just the mere thought of it - of even being looked at, even being perceived is too much???

Like it's so overstimulating I actually want to run away and hide until they forget I even exist.

Does any of this make sense? 😩

Please tell I'm not alone in this weirdness that is currently me rn. />m<\???

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brb i'm gonna. uh. lock myself up and meow for a little.

the frills?? the thigh straps and even the choker being frilly i'm-

while i prefer the black one the frills just look so pretty on the white

bonus points for wrist straps like the thigh ones as well omg

if only i found the same set on a darker skin tone my brain would simply fry

THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING (2003) dir. Peter Jackson

it is tempting to assume btw that harry is "the most mentally ill man in the world!!!!" or whatever, but he's probably the average level of mentally ill for people in his situation. he isn't this uniquely monstrous wreck who abuses more substances than anyone else ever has. in martinaise alone you can meet like 5 people who are doing even worse than harry. kim says several times that he's seen much worse than day one harry and i BELIEVE him. i think harry wasn't immediately fired from the police after the unsolveable case bc this stuff is relatively normal for cops to do in precinct 41. disco elysium isn't pointing at harry and going "gawk at this uniquely awful man for no reason!! isn't he horrible in a clownish way!!" they're making a point abt the effects of capitalism and imperialism on the disenfranchised poor

Character celebrating a hard won victory not realizing they've been gravely injured? They end up being the first to realize something is wrong and quieting while their comrads continue celebrating, their cheers becoming farther away? The hand pressed to their body only to come back bloody? The face of their lover as they reach for them just before they blackout? Feed that to me indefinitely.

I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.

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An Unsexy Post About Censorship

Sooo...gumroad is shutting down NSFW content sales because of Stripe and Paypal. This is also why Wishtender has been down as well, if you weren't aware. And why Patreon is also cracking down on anything remotely kinky.

(If you're wondering why your favorite FICTIONAL sexual content isn't allowed on most platforms, it's payment processors.)

Please be extra kind to anyone who works with NSFW content right now, whether it be art, writing, audio, photos or video. Whether it be tasteful erotica, or the kinkiest BDSM porn you can think of, we're all in the crosshairs right now.

And, judging by trends from these past few years, this is only going to get worse.

Support NSFW creators where you can, whether by tipping or buying our content (where you still can) or just helping boost content on sites where algorithms want to drown us out.

Call representatives where you can and complain about payment processors acting as arbiters of what YOU are and aren't allowed to pay for and enjoy.

This may be about porn right now, but censorship of this caliber doesn't just stop with porn. Any transgressive (read: non-conservative) media is fair game.

Fight against it where you can. Support creators where you can.

Art is important. Reflections of our sexuality are important. We don't want a world where people aren't free to make or see the things they love and enjoy.

it’s just me and this essay by hanif abdurraqib against the world

Death spiral

Eliot receiving his Hanzo sword.

Leverage S03E14 The Ho Ho Ho Job.

Bonus:

Finished reading A Certain Song at the Edge of the Universe by @television-for-dinner and pretty much immediately started rereading it and i can't stop thinking of the chaos that is 3 Pete Whites in a room together

Hi @naffeclipse I'm very normal about your fic. Have some frantic midnight sketches as extra kudos along with some tag rambling :)

The thing that sucks sometimes about transition envy is that, I guess you almost expect yourself to "grow out" of it the more you transition. I used to feel so much envy, and it was something I hoped would stop once I transitioned medically, and while it's absolutely less frequent... man, when I experience transition envy, it's still just as bitter a cocktail as I remember. It can be hard to move past that, and almost... resent the other person/s, but what helped me is knowing that the person you're envying isn't specifically trying to make you, personally, feel like absolute shit. Just as you can't always help what you are envious about in other trans people, they can't help that they have traits or transition experiences or opportunities you do not have, you know? And absolutely, it sucks. But it's something that helped me because then it's a reminder that the world isn't Out To Get Me, you feel?

I think a lot of us can relate to the experience of transition envy, and it's shameful to admit to it, I suppose. It's hard to admit to envy in general, but it's important to not be judgemental about yourself. Your transition is as unique and beautiful and worthy as literally everyone else's and I hope you remember that forever

surgery anxieties aside, one thing i am looking forward to - aside from, y'know, not having tits - is the mandatory three weeks of recovery time. i can just see myself lying in bed with my little bullet journal in my lap like "well, i did exactly what i was supposed to do today, which was nothing. better get some sleep in preparation for another long day of doing nothing. i am a model patient."