May 27, 2023 the day max verstappen complimented charles' outfit live
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semi-heavy adhd vent tw 🫢🫢
personally of the opinion that the worst thing about adhd is the subtlety. we joke abt how obvious and silly it is but its barely visible 95% of the time.
& u spend your whole life not knowing if the mental struggle you have doing basic shit is what everyone deals with or if something's wrong. even when you KNOW you have adhd and even have it TREATED you STILL don't know if you're having a normal amount of obstacles.
i've been on meds for two years now and i just spent a whole fucking summer semester not sure if i was having adhd burnout or if my meds weren't working or if i was actually just being lazy. i think its all three, but who knows! and now i have a final tomorrow that i have to pass and i dont know if i can because i could barely fucking do any work all semester.
this happens like every year/semester but this one particularly stings cause it was supposed to be really good this time!! lots of free time, one class to worry about, the best nd-friendly note-taking system i've ever used, lots of flexibility, and friends to spend time with. it was even a science class!! chem, not bio, but better than non-science, right? but apparently, the only way i can ever stay motivated and on the ball is if im chained to a super-stressful and merciless schedule. so i have to choose between my long-term success and my mental health!!
i don't envy neurotypicals for the weird fucking ways they operate sometimes but good lord fucking jesus it sounds nice to be able to do things. i feel like a loaded gun with a busted trigger; i have all these amazing ideas and well-thought-out schedules and all the passion and desperation to follow through, but my brain and body just. won't. do it.
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Tag Game
Post your lockscreen, last song you listened to, last saved photo, and last photo taken!
Thanks for the tag @mystical-salamander !
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cw health talk (tags too)
well. blood tests will be back monday because of the stupid holiday making it a long weekend from thursday on aughhh. going back to the doc tomorrow to get sth else checked and hopefully get a doc's notice for the week because my ass is NOT able to go to work like this
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Step 1: wonder why the fuck the person who allegedly wants to buy your house isn't in a hurry to get the paperwork sorted
Step 2: wonder why the fuck the lender you're trying to buy a repo house off isn't in a hurry to get the paperwork sorted
Step 3: consider whether you can speed up one process or the other and remind yourself, yet again, that you can't!
Step 4: contemplate, with horror, what might happen if the lender DOES get back to you about your dream house before you have made any progress on selling your old house.
Step 5: drink too much coffee and search miserably to the verb in a 14-line sentence that seems to consist entirely of adjectives. You're tired and broke and you'll be tired and broken even if you get this work done.
Step 6: try not to think too hard about how you're living with your parents again in your mid-thirties and how it's all just so you can be down the road when mortality strikes. It's nice not having to do your own laundry, after all.
Step 7: wonder why you feel like bursting into tears whenever Midge Maisel does as you rewatch season 1. Remember when you first watched it? Just before you moved to the only place you managed to live in for longer than eighteen months since your childhood home. Wouldn't it be nice if you could buy the house you want and stay there for a little while? Oh no - don't start making plans! You can't make plans. No counting chickens before they've hatched.
Step 8: stare at the unread message notifications from six different direct messaging apps and wonder what on earth you have to say to anyone. There's no news!!! There's never any news!!! You're just here, going slowly mad while you wait.
Step 9: sleep TERRIBLY. Why was that? You normally have no trouble sleeping!
Step 10: good morning, let's do all that again shall we? Haha great.
Look at this little dude though! That's nice, isn't it?
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woke up in the middle of the night feeling weird and flushed in the chest (back) again (but only on the left side this time?) and, combined with the fact that I was paranoid my heartbeat was going too fast all night when I was trying to fall asleep and now again upon waking up (tho I couldn't actually tell and this is something tbf I'm constantly concerned of and often like ends up being a cause of sleep anxiety/inability to get to sleep lol), it reminded me of that time I had that bad reaction to those anxiety meds last year and I can't decide if I'm just freaking myself out again or should actually be concerned???
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