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#I wanted this to be a tarot card but I don’t know enough to chose the right one
gammawilson · 5 months
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Ava, barbarian, mother, crone.
I finished watching episode 8 of burrows end today. It was a lot. Ava’s strength and tenacity are admirable, but I never want to be that cold, especially to my family.
Say your ‘I’m sorry’s and ‘I love you’s, they are so important, to you an others.
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neevblanc · 12 days
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„curious” ♡
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a/n —hey all! hope ur doin' well, drink water if you haven't! have this as a treat. it's 2k and some more but i cant be bothered to check for specifics. (p.s sorry if the tarot aspects of this are wonky! i did my best to research and i pulled reference from my sister's experience with tarot cards/reading.)
૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡
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Dazai Osamu x GN!reader
Tags— 22/ada dazai, flirting?, pre-slash, don't question why reader's given a key, reader works under ango but he's also they're dad figure, it's a whole thing, mentions of sskk though not explicitly platonic or romantic, take that as you wish, dazai's infuriating habit of burying feelings and then one day he'll die
CW/TW— dazai. (/j, none i can think of.)
note — reader's ability in this is based on one that my friend chose for our self-ship au. "Teacher of Truth by Saneatsu Mushanokoji: The user can employ tarot cards to gain insight into the past, current, and possible future situations. The user needs to know what each of the cards mean in order to properly interpret what they say." it's from a post on tumblr, but I couldn't find it for the life of me! i'll credit if i can. anyway, it's been tweaked a little so i'm here to explain. in this, reader can choose to use their ability during a reading or not, but the tarot cards are always personal to them. people they know will sometimes show in the cards if they're important to them.
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The next time Dazai sees you, it’s well before the ADA opens for the day. He’d admittedly had a rough night—sleep evaded him like always, and he hadn’t had dinner because of his own laziness. His futon was impossibly comfy. How was he meant to part with its loving warmth?
The Door to the agency creaks open, the sound not unlike the groan of the cafe floorboards only steps away. One of Dazai’s favorite activities was purposely seeking out the creaky floorboards and dancing on them so loud Kunikida would have to berate him, of course. He was intimately familiar with the annoying sounds this old building could make.
The office is darker than during working hours, but he notices the meager amount of lights still switched on. Distantly, he knows Kunikida would’ve blown a gasket about the electric bill if he had found them still on. He takes a step into the room-
Something rustles. Downstairs, an old radio plays a song he does not recognize. Pigeons flutter and coo from outside the window.
Somebody was in the agency, and had it been any of his fellow detectives, he’d have known.
“Hmmm, what’s this,” he mutters absently, volume low enough to alert whoever it was had decided to trespass.
”Dazai-san?” a soft voice calls, and Dazai pauses for a moment. A short, hollow sound follows—cards shuffling. He bites the inside of his cheek. How curious.
”Last I checked, you don’t clock in with the rest of us measly agents. Surely Ango’s fuming by now?” He hums, stepping into view of you. you’re sat at Atsushi’s desk, bag perched on top of Atsushi’s empty report trays. Dazai almost smirks at the sight— silly Atsushi, always rushing to complete everything in a timely manner. One day, he’d get him to turn them in later, hopefully months later- like he did.
”Hm, no. I clocked in earlier, but Ango wanted me over here early. Something about a mission I have to hand over to Fukuzawa-dono. I got a key from him last time, so I just let myself in.” you explained. Dazai pulled his own chair out and collapsed into it, peering down at what your hands were busying themselves with.
He realizes they’re tarot cards. Thick and sturdy under your fingers, you set them up neatly in front of yourself. The backs are a matte purple, decorated with silver details that glint as the sunrise light hits them for just a fraction of a second. The illustrations seem to flicker with movement, almost like snapshots of time shifting through an old camera, frame after frame.
”What’s got you so busy?” he asks, exaggeratingly leaning over to look at the cards. You laugh and smile, expression wobbly. He notes the change. You briefly shake out the bracelet laying on your wrist, almost nervously. You lay the last card on the desk’s surface. Atsushi’s cute cat clock ticks from where it’s placed near his report trays.
“I do readings for the day early in the morning, just in case. Sometimes, I don’t even use my ability.” You explain, keeping your voice low so as not to break the morning peace. Dazai glances at the cat clock. Soon, the secretaries and Kunikida will clock in and begin their work day. He focuses back on you and grins, intrigued.
“Anxious, then? I guess the ability to see the future will do that to ‘ya.” Dazai sighed, crossing his legs and resting his chin on his hand. He was content to watch you finish setting the cards down in a formation he admittedly did not understand.
” What does that one mean?” he says, pointing to one of the cards. Its flickering surface shows a woman with mint-colored hair pulled up into a bun. Behind her, there’s a black mass, and she seems to be standing in a graveyard. There are two Xs at the top of the card. You redirect your attention to the card he’s hovering his finger over and smile.
”That’s Judgment—renewal, reflection, awakening, or reckoning. For a personal reading, it would mean going through a period of self-evaluation or maybe even trying to understand the people around you and your situation more.” You explain, seemingly done with the spread and setting down the other cards nearby. Dazai purses his lips.
”Sounds gloomy. Lame!” He huffs, upset by his choice. you gasp and narrow your eyes.
”Don’t call them lame! You’ll piss them off, Dazai.” You hiss, smacking him on the arm. Dazai grins and leans closer, smile growing coy.
”Really now? And how exactly does one do that?” Dazai prods. You stick your tongue out and cross your arms.
“Not telling. Now shut up and let me do my reading.” You grumble, eyes flicking over the cards. Dazai whines and throws himself forward, almost shoving you off of Atsushi’s chair.
”Dude!” You yelp, hands scrambling to grasp his coat as he rights himself. Dazai grabs you by the shoulders and shakes, intent on being the biggest possible nuisance.
”That’s boring! Do your reading laterrrr; it won’t matter, right? Ne- do a reading for me! I wanna know my future,” He begs, grinning. You blink and scowl, pushing him away.
”First off, it would matter. Doing a reading later would be a completely different outcome. Just wait. All I have to do is interpret these. I’ll do yours after.” You grumble, adjusting their sleeves and settling back into the chair. Dazai harrumphs but settles into his own chair to watch you silently read the cards.
You focus back on the cards, and Dazai settles himself by watching you idly. You’re dressed in what you always wear to work, but it’s casual enough to know doubt have been breaking the dress code had you not been working under Ango for so long.  There’s a small scrunch to your nose as you focus on your task, and Dazai can spot how you run your tongue over your teeth in thought. Dazai looks away pointedly. Taking a few breaths, he forcibly clears his mind. How odd.
”Okay, done.” You hum, straightening and starting to pick up the cards. He shifts so his whole body is faced toward you. You take gentle care of the cards, putting them back into the deck.
”Why do they flicker like that? You aren’t using your ability,” he asks, curious about the shifting images on the cards. You shrug.
”Don’t know. It happens no matter what deck I use, though I prefer using this one. The images just shift into the same ones most of the time, though some have changed over time.” You explain, shuffling the cards. Dazai reaches out and hovers over your hand before poking the back of it gently. You let him despite knowing the outcome.
The images on the cards still lying on the table flicker, completely uninterrupted, even as Dazai feels the shiver of his ability eating away at yours. He hums and pulls away. He hadn’t been paying attention when he jostled you earlier, but you were right- they were unaffected.
”Strange, but not unheard of. Some ability effects aren’t considered active enough for my ability to erase.” Dazai says, allowing you to continue. you finish and present him with the deck, pulling away when he goes to take them.
”Don’t be mean to them. They’ll be mean to you. You can’t even think anything negative; they’ll know. You’re gonna cut the deck in 3, okay? We’ll do a simple reading.” you explain, and only once Dazai agrees (crosses his heart and hopes to die!) is he gently handed the cards.
”What do you want to read? We can focus on love, or money, or your career, things like that.” You say. Dazai ponders for a moment before sniffing, mouth settled into a pompous pout.
”I want to know if someone will finally be interested in a double suicide with me.” He huffs. You scoff.
”You’re insane. Okay, so love. Think about that while you cut them.” You nod, giving him the go-ahead. He runs his fingers over the well-loved edges and slots his thumbs through the deck where it feels right, setting the individual cuts down on the desk before them. He tries to take it as seriously as possible, though thinking about love has always made him squirm and itch beneath his skin.
You reach over once he’s done and clear your throat, carefully picking the top cards on each deck and laying them out in front of him. On the left, the first card flipped is a wheel, seemingly in the sky and surrounded by clouds. The clouds float by calmly, though Dazai can’t find anything particularly personal to you the way some of the other cards would show.
It’s made a little more difficult considering the card’s orientation- upside down.
You hum at it before moving on. The card in the middle is revealed, and this one piques his interest. He grins a little at the image. Two figures hold goblets in their hands, strings of power rising from the cups and meeting above their heads to form a Yin and Yang sign. The figures are startingly familiar- one dark-haired, the other light-haired. Accents in their hair match each other, silver and black clashing and melding nicely. This one’s facing right-side up. The image flickers to show the energy that swirls around, occasionally circling their respective holders.
The last one flicks onto the wooden desk with a hollow sound. The image is soft, not unlike the first one with the blue sky. A sun takes up the upper half, rays pronounced against the sky. Ttheire’s a little kid in the illustration, their beaming face scrunched up in happiness. There’s a flag clutched in one hand, with the other gripping onto the mane of the white horse they’re perched upon. Sunflowers frame them, peaking over the illustrated garden wall behind them.
It’s an endlessly endearing picture, and from the smile, he has a feeling he knows who it is. Like the last one, it’s right-side up.
You settle your chin against your palm, leaning on the table with a hum.
”That’s….a really nice reading, actually.” You move to point at the cards. Dazai sits patiently with his hands on his lap. Nothing more fascinating than seeing someone in their element, he supposed.
”That first one is The Wheel of Fortune. Upside down, it’s a little darker. It represents your past,” you pause, looking at him for a moment. “I think for you, it’s focused on the feeling of helplessness—lack of power or control…like you had love but couldn’t control how and when you lost it,” you say, your voice soft. Dazai fights to ignore the discomfort building in his throat.
”Well, what can I say? My dark past haunts me,” he bemoans, and you huff a soft laugh. You move on to the next card- the cups. You look a little embarrassed by this one.
”This one is the present. Two cups represent…well, partnership. More specifically, the realization of a new partnership. This one can be pretty romantic. I guess you’ve got something to look forward to soon,” you say, pointedly ignoring the images of his two kohais. He grins, sparing you of the teasing. He didn’t know how well you even knew Akutagawa- but it was amusing to see everyone could see what those two denied vehemently.
”The last one is the future. You got The Sun, which is actually really sweet.” Through your embarrassment, Dazai watches a sweet smile grow on your face. He matches it easily.
“It means joy and success, for you in particular. It means…whatever or whoever your two cups is for, you’ll be very happy together.” You say, and Dazai sighs wistfully.
”Maybe someone will finally want to commit suicide with me! This news might keep me alive a day longer just yet,” Dazai coos. You groan and take a deep breath, seemingly ignoring him as you duck your head down and then start to put the cards back.
”You better hope you didn’t piss this deck off, Dazai.” you huff, glaring. Dazai pouts, cradling his face in his hands.
“What?! I followed all your rules; I would never,” he whines. You flip him off and busily tuck the cards into a soft leather pouch. He lets his hands drop and watches for a moment.
”Thanks for the reading,” Dazai says, his voice back to normal. You glance at him and smile.
”Yeah, no problem. It’s nice to read without my ability once in a while,” you admit, expression soft. He grins. Something stirs in his chest.
”You can read me whenever you want, lovely.” He purrs jokingly. You startle, flushing. You glare and kick him with your foot.
”Don’t say shit like that,” you mutter. Dazai whines out a laugh, having settled on teasing you until he could see the smoke coming out your ears.
Before he could continue, the door creaks open, and the overhead lights flick on. Multiple people come shuffling in, and Dazai can hear Kunikida conversing lowly with Fukuzawa. The secretaries also file in, chattering contently amongst themselves. Fukuzawa and Kunkida pause only to greet them both. you wave politely, and Dazai salutes them both.
you blink your eyes to adjust to the light now flooding the room. Dazai huffs and stands with a groan.
”Alright, I’ve got five minutes to get out of here. You’ll be going in to see Shachou, right?” He asks, stretching. you stand and nod, giving him a look.
”Where are you going?” you ask, picking up your bag. He groans at the way his back pops as he rights himself from his stretching.
”Home. I only came here 'cause I was bored. But in the long run, it’ll be a lot funnier if Kunikida’s mad all morning when I don’t show up~” He snickers. you shake your head, a smile pulling at your mouth.
“You’re so lame. See you, then.” You sighed, heading down the hall Kunikida and Fukuzawa had disappeared down.
”And yet you love me. ‘Till we meet again,” he calls, pointedly ignoring the yell you let out.
”Whatever!” you yelped, and Dazai let the agency door click closed behind him.
He grins. Curious indeed.
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note — can you tell i love brothers! atsushi and dazai? also, the woman in Judgement is Mizuki Tsujimura, who I headcanon is pretty good friends with reader in this one. :) please let me know if there are any pronoun inconsistencies! this was originally written with she/her pronouns, and i did my best to fix it to match the gender neutral style i like to use for tumblr stuffs.
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sefinaa · 5 months
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Something you need to know about yourself that is blocking your manifestations + advice (PART 2)
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Not a tarot card reading, only based on my intuition.
Author’s note,
Remember, no one can take away our manifestations that rightfully belong to us. You are worthy of your manifestations and deserve to blossom in your desired way.
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Pile 4:
Intuition is your key
This is a vague pile as everyone who is reading this pile is confused not on manifestation as a whole, but on the piles they are reading or seeing. I hear some of you watch many tarot card readings on YouTube, some of you, use Tumblr and Instagram for them, some of you use TikTok and the rest are either Facebook, twitter or WhatsApp (from a friend).
I am hearing some of the piles you are reading aren’t aligning with your higher self and the manifestation you want, as my intuition says, “the piles you are picking isn’t something you need, if they are not aligned with your desires, then you are not following your intuition when choosing.’’
The path we follow can stem from our heart, mind, or intuition, which path will you take?
My intuition tells me you need to pick all three piles, a majority of you either listen to your heart and some of you are very logical people who could not care enough for emotions. And yet all of you are not listening to your intuition. Yes, you chose this pile, and you got a reading fit for you, but that’s not all what intuition is focused on.
Our intuition is what saves us in the end and makes the best decisions for us. without your intuition, how can you know what works best for you? Everyone has intuition, so do not complain and make excuses that you don’t have it, you do, and it is your choice whether or not you want to follow it or listen to it. And some of you don’t even believe in it.. or even believe you have it.
Here is the best advice I can give. For the people who always follow their heart, expand your horizon and open your heart to that inner voice who means well and is always right at the end. Yes, you know exactly what voice I am speaking of, that you always shoo away.
Now for the logical ones, understand not everything can be logical. Manifestation isn’t even based on logic; it is more of a spiritual thing. If you focus on logic your whole life, you will lose the experience of your life and lose the excitement, passion and fun that this life has to offer. I hear a few of you think this world sucks and what I am saying is baloney, but that is not true. The world only sucks in your perspective because you believe it so. If you felt connected to pile 5, read that as well as it is similar to my advice for you. If you start to believe that life is good then it will be good, but this is based on emotions and your feelings, so stop blocking them out because you don’t want to be hurt. Everyone always gets hurt but they learn a lesson from it, that’s how life is at the end of the day. Attuning that fear won’t help you achieve your goal and you’re only making it worse for yourself. Start to believe in a positive belief system to go back on the right path of your manifestations.
Now for all of you, focus on your intuition on your journey, this isn’t advice, it is a must. I hear it will save one of your lives and for the rest of you, it will make everything on your journey easier.
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Pile 5:
Self sabotage
Why are you self sabotaging yourself from your manifestations you deserve? What can you seek from this outcome? Do you honestly think you’re not worthy of the things you deserve? Do you honestly think this is okay? Because it is not. We are all worthy of our desires and I truly believe those who have done bad in the past and learned to be better deserve them the same. Even those who are bad, and they manifest for something that is good, it can truly change them for the better, that’s how life works. So, who’s to say you don’t deserve it?!
Some of you don’t even realize you’re sabotaging yourself and then you’re complaining about it to whomever you believe.. when in reality you need to fix the inner issue.
How do I fix this? You deal with your inner thoughts instead of pushing them away. You can meditate on this issue and if you have trouble with it then look on YouTube for guided meditations that suit your taste. Some of you are questioning why meditation and I’ll tell you why. Meditation is one of the most powerful tools you can do for yourself for improvement or to calm the mind, so why wouldn’t you want to do this and help yourself?
Another thing you can do is notice the small things you do to sabotage yourself. For example, not being able to control your impulsive thoughts and acting on it. That’s a sabotage move. Yes, you calmed the thought, sure, but then what? More comes to you and you’re letting those thoughts win. Have you heard of the quote, ‘’your thoughts create your reality.’’ This is true. If you focus on a mindset that revolves on sabotaging yourself, then you’re creating a reality for yourself around that mindset thus causing a stall in your manifestations.
If you’re struggling to change your mindset, then start saying affirmations to yourself. It doesn’t matter if you don’t believe them at that moment, you say them daily and it will change your mindset. And if you don’t want to do it daily each day, then you can say that one affirmation so much in one sitting until you believe it and then let it go, and act on it. Act on that affirmation you started to believe, and your 3D will alter into the 4D.
Sweetheart, manifestation is that incredibly easy. You can think of it as those easy games you play. You want something? You got it. You come from a mindset of negativity? No problem, work a little bit on it and then bam, you got that mindset.
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Pile 6:
Our childhood shaped us
Who told you, you cannot have doubts when manifesting and affirming? Whoever said that was not educated on manifestation. You can have doubts, everyone has it, even those who were starting the journey. Our doubts come from our childhood, how our environment shaped us and made us the person we are today. 95% of you dealt with a hard childhood, parents splitting apart, constantly fighting, many of you are orphans, and some of you dealt with a parent death.. all of this painful occurrence shapes up and our mind, but.. it is our responsibility to shape us into someone we want.
Now, let me ask you two questions. Do you want to understand how to fix the issue and take responsibility for what they have done to you, or do you want to blame everything in the world for your issues, and sulk into depression and/or your anxiety?
If you want to fix this, then keep reading, and if you’re annoyed with my bluntness, then leave, fix the issue, and come back, because you will be needing this either way.
I want you every night to say these affirmations, these are based on my intuition.
“I am the person I want to be; I am the person who deserves all of the best in the world. I do not deserve any negativity in my life, and I truly believe I deserve good as love, abundance, wealth and my manifestations ARE my birthright and no one can change my mind. No one can change my belief because I decided I will have an easy life and thus I do have an easy life. it is done, thank you.’’
I want you to say this every night when you go to bed because this is when your subconscious mind is opening a doorway to you with easy access, and your conscious mind is ‘’going to bed.’’
You will not allow yourself to have any doubts and you will ignore these, do you understand? They’re a waste of your time and your beautiful energy, and you truly deserve the best for being an amazing soul.
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blonditarot · 1 month
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Changbin’s future spouse
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As usual an answer that I want is not exactly the answer that the tarot gives me. I wanted to know what kind of a person they are but I received a clue of who they might be based on their future relationship with Changbin.
I chose the middle pic cause that how he will be standing with flowers begging for their forgiveness.
I got two vibes from them. Let’s start with the first one. They are optimistic. They believe they can leave the world better by sharing what they have. They will be loyal to Changbin, they’ll see him as a reward that they got for their effort. Once they meet him they will be sure they want that one. They will want him to start a family with, to get old with. They’d everything to make him happy and make him feel safe. This is a huge emphasis on his idol life, they want to create a space where he can hide and heal his wounds, take care of him after a long day of work,
However their relationship will not be as they want it to be. At first they will accept his lifestyle, they will offer him all their love, they will take all the burdens on themselves so that Changbin can rest a bit. They’ll plan all the fun dates so he can focus on his career. That is until it will become a problem. At the time they meet they will want to create a family (home), but Changbin at the same time won’t want the same things.
It will create chaos between them. It will break them apart. At least for a while. By that I mean they will leave his ass cause they will realize they deserve better. I’m sorry for his future spouse, because while they will lock their heart from receiving love, Changbin won’t care about what happened. He will be focused on his career and idol life. I don’t think that he won’t live them but he will be indifferent to them being hurt. Because while they wanted something more he knew he just wanted something casual,
It won’t be until years later that he realizes what he missed, that the person that was standing in front of him was everything he could dream about. Their beauty, their kindness, how they treated him. Like he has never met somebody like them. He will pursue them again. At this point he will be mature enough for marriage, he might become scared that it is too late to win them back. They will still hold a grudge towards him and have their heart closed. Now they will be the one that is focused on their careers. But the hierophant is also the card of getting married so it may end with him getting a ring after he gets his karma back.
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nightingaleflow · 2 years
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Oh! Open requests?! How about Mizukage Chojuro taking gender neutral reader on a date at a "mall" or whatever they got to shop in like in Boruto. Maybe he gets talked into, or suggests, a love reading with tarot cards (I blame the Arcana visual novel for this).
Ohhh honey how did you know that Tarot readings are my weakness
But of course, absolutely. It's time for Chojuro to have some love. Also, did I give Kirigakure a Tropical Smoothie Cafe? Yes, yes I did.
Word count: 1.3k CW: Brief mention of violence/assassination
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A Fortunate Outing
You waited in front of the enormous fountain at the mall’s entrance. You found the sound soothing as water cascaded down to the pool below, but your hands still fidgeted with the fabric of your sweater. Had you dressed up enough? Was it too much? This was supposed to be just a casual first date, hence why you were at the mall. But there was such a thing as too casual, especially when your date was the actual Mizukage.
“There you are, y/n!”
Your head turned, and you smiled as you saw Chojuro walk through the doors. To your relief, he was also dressed casually in a basic blue sweater and dark pants. He still had that headset, but you’d long since gotten used to it. 
He walked straight to you and gave you a warm hug, which you gladly returned. As you pulled apart, you became aware of probing eyes from passersby. Chojuro followed your gaze, then immediately offered you his arm. “Don’t worry about them,” he said, his tone comforting. “This afternoon is about us.”
You accepted the arm, and the two of you set off.
“How was your day?” you asked.
Chojuro shrugged. “Same ambergris, different day,” he replied. “Obviously, I can't go into anything too specific, but there are some negotiations that aren’t going as smoothly as I’d hoped.”
You let out a sympathetic noise. “I’m sorry. I hope I’m not taking too much time away from that.”
Chojuro shook his head. “No need to apologize,” he said. “It won’t get solved in a day, and besides, I wanted to spend time with you today.”
You glowed at his comment. “I’m glad, I was really looking forward to this.”
The two of you made a stop at the food court. Most of the restaurants had an abundance of oily foods, which Chojuro disliked, so you two chose smoothies from the tropical smoothie place instead. Yours was star fruit and mango, his was strawberry and lime, and both tasted heavenly.
You window shopped at a clothing boutique, marveling at the grey coat perfectly modeled by the mannequin. Chojuro politely dealt with civilians and shinobi alike coming up to greet him, giving them a courteous hello before returning his attention to you. You did wish you could have him all to yourself, but it was a small price to pay for being with him at all.
You then spotted a curious little shop advertising fortune telling. You tugged at Chojuro’s arm. “Can we go in there?”
He looked at the shop, then back at you. “I didn’t know you were into that sort of thing.”
You shrugged. “I just think it would be fun.” You gave him your best puppy dog eyes. “Please?”
He shook his head with a chuckle. “Now, how could I say no when you look so cute?”
He led you inside the store. The shelves along the walls held crystal balls, decks of tarot cards, pendulums, and mirrors. A table near the entrance was covered with a rich purple cloth decorated with moons, with a small sign advertising a sale on tarot readings with the shop owner. A pleasant scent - sandalwood, you thought - rose from the incense burner in the corner. 
“I bid you welcome,” a melodic voice said.
You and Chojuro turned to see an older woman sitting at the back of the store. She was at a table identical to the one at the front with a deck of tarot cards by her right hand. She smiled at you. “My name is Mirai,” she said. “Have you come to learn your fortunes?”
You glanced at Chojuro, silently checking if he was still ok with this. He nodded at you, then you both sat across from Mirai.
She began shuffling the cards. “It’s always so nice to see such beautiful young people together. It really takes me back.” She glanced between you. “We can do a more general reading of course, but I can also do a love reading, if you’d like.”
Your heart quickened as your grip on Chojuro’s arm tightened.
“A love reading, please,” Chojuro said.
You blushed as he smirked at you. Were you really that easy to read?
“A love reading it is,” Mirai said. She put the deck back together, then offered it to you. “Please cut the deck into three piles.”
You did as she requested. She then had Chojuro put the three piles together in whichever order he chose. Finally, Mirai took the deck back and set three cards down in front of you.
“We’re doing a simple three card spread,” she explained. “From my left, these cards represent your shared past, present, and future. First, your past.”
Mirai turned the first card over, making a sympathetic noise as she revealed the Three of Swords. “The Three of Swords is not a happy card,” she said. “It represents sorrow and heartbreak. If it’s in this position, it makes me think that the beginning of your story wasn’t a happy one. Am I correct?”
You felt Chojuro stiffen. You stroked his arm reassuringly, willing yourself not to think too much about those dark days when the Blood Mist faction had attempted to assassinate him. “You could say that,” you allowed.
Mirai smiled. “You do not have to share any secrets with me,” she reassured both of you. “I’m merely interpreting what the cards are telling us.” She then flipped over the next card, the one that represented the present. “Ah, The Fool!” she said, looking pleased.
Chojuro looked slightly offended. “The deck is calling us fools?”
You couldn’t help but chuckle at how cute he looked when indignant.
“No, not at all, Lord Mizukage,” Mei reassured him. “The Fool represents new beginnings. This leads me to believe that your relationship is fairly new, am I correct?”
You and Chojuro nodded as matching pink blushes hit your cheeks.
“Then that means that whatever happened in your pasts, you were able to move past them and make a fresh start,” Mirai said with a warm smile. “Now the future is full of possibilities and opportunities. That’s not to say there won’t still be difficulties ahead, but if you work together, you can overcome them, just as you did in your pasts.” She laid her hand on the third card. “And speaking of your future…”
She turned the card over.
“Oh, the Ten of Cups,” she said, practically purring as she said the name.
“Is that good?” you asked.
“It’s very, very good,” Mirai said. “The Ten of Cups doesn’t just represent love. It represents harmonious and blissful love.” She smiled at you two. “This is quite possibly the best card to have in a love reading, because it means nothing but good things in your romantic future.”
You glowed at the thought, thinking of all the joys that could lay ahead for you two. When you looked at Chojuro, his eyes were misty as he looked at something unseen ahead.
You thanked Mirai for her time and paid her for her services. Then the two of you left her store, each of you quietly lost in thought.
After a minute, you decided to break the silence. “That was fun,” you said.
He nodded. “That first card was rather eerie.” 
“It was,” you agreed. You studied him closely. “Are you ok?”
He nodded. “My scars from back then no longer trouble me, mental or physical.” He then lifted your hand. “I also wouldn’t have met you if I hadn’t gotten them, so I consider it a fair exchange in the end.”
Your skin buzzed as he tenderly pressed his lips to your fingers. “Chojuro,” you breathed.
He smiled at his name on your lips. “We still have plenty of daylight left,” he said. 
You nodded, glancing at the bright blue sky through the skylights. “What else would you like to do?” you asked.
“It doesn’t really matter,” he said, his dark eyes meeting yours. “As long as I can spend the time with you, I couldn’t be happier.”
You couldn’t agree more.
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Hi baby!! I thought I might join in your tarot game if that’s okay. If not, feel free to ignore!!
My initials are PRLP (I have two first names and two last names).
Some facts about me that may help you connect with me, other than what you may already know:
- I was a dancer for 13 years and my favourite dance style is hip hop
- My 3 all-time favourite anime characters are L Lawliet, Saiki Kusuo and Ash Lynx
- My main love language is physical touch
- I have two younger siblings
- My favourite place to be ever in the world is the forest!!! I find it extremely calming, especially when it’s a little bit cold and wet. It’s the best.
I hope that’s enough for you to connect with me and stuff, and please let me know if I did something wrong here. Again, you don’t have to do mine if you don’t want to. Thank you so much!!! I love you honey!!! <33
GIRL. I adore how you KNOW that I don't need any of this in order to connect with your energy given that I'm ALREADY wayyy too accustomed to it, and yet you typed an ask this big merely to abide by the guidelines (btw I already know all these facts about you except the dance one lmao). LOVE YOU MORE PR <3. It's ALWAYSSS a pleasure to have you participate in my games except when you start with your 'feel free to ignore' nuisance. Anyways, you know the drill about feedback and everything, right? Just leave it in the comments!
  ˚୨୧⋆。˚ ⋆ The Tarot cards that you remind me of are...Death and Queen of Pentacles. (Yea two cards, couldn't pick 1)
Weird thing to say but the death is actually one of my favourite cards. And From what I've deduced about you so far, I know you're super diligent and you have a rare quality of rising above anything and anybody that may have dragged you down (yes, you do, don't argue with me). You know what needs to be done and you do it gracefully. I chose this card for you because a) it was a no brainer for me, you're literally getting better at everything recently, b) regardless of anything and everything that you face, you tend to transition yourself into someone wiser and stronger, no matter it happened in what aspect of your life, and c) you're changing for better! I'm not sure how you keep the same level of excitement and optimism every time you emerge from something but that truly inspires me at times. And above all of this, you remain approachable, kind and generous which is why I also chose Queen of pentacles for you. Suit of pentacles represents the element of earth which you already have plenty lmfao but anyway, I chose the queen of this suit for you because you this motherly, independent and sensible vibe to you. You exude comfort at time and you're literally full of resources and super humble. Your ability to strive for developing a safe and secure environment for everyone (esp your siblings), being protective about them and wanting their best but at the same time also working on yourself and getting independent and being grounded makes me think you're not just queen of this suit but a queen at everything else as well.
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xsadcorebenji · 11 months
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watching
one of these youtube tarot pick a card readings again
pass some of the lonely times
dedicated for “what’s next in love for singles only”
chose a pile and person already skewers me with “you’ve been single for a long time”
ouch, mentions how the concept of that is subjective and mentions that some people don’t consider five years a long time
and christ i wish i knew what that felt like
proceeds to discuss someone i’ll meet and it’ll just be a natural friendship
and it was too painful for me to continue watching
i’m still crying over it
i’m so emotionally exhausted
i just miss school in general all the murky friendships that resolve itself one way or another
or other moments of time just talking someone once was enough
the eagerness of anyone wanting to talk to me regularly where does it all go
is an organic friendship even possible in the most self-focused social climate i’ve ever seen?
silly hopes and nonstarters non happenings
dead on arrival before i even utter a syllable
perish the thought
no matter what conclusion
i wanted the one we remain friends or become friends regardless of everything
but in the end i’m left yearning
looking at the skies for signs
and if weather permits
it’s been grey clouds all weekend and i miss the streaks of sunlight
the lonely
feel like
going back to school
just because i miss the structural apparatus in which we would have to simply socialize or exist in the peripheral of another
and either way
a means to teach again possibly
or at least try to rebuild those connections for fine arts galleries
double my student loan debt or nothing
a yearning for anyone who wants to get to know me
or want to know me
all this moments of discovery of similar interests and wants in life
cold air invites a frigid blade that cuts through you and the gaping wound seems to sear yet it hardens as a callous while it would freeze
no need to cauterize
it’s dead dead
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Hiiiiiiii I would like to get a reading about my future spouse? Anything you deem as important can be within the reading (looks, personality, where we meet, where they are from, what line of work they are in) Thank you!! -🧘🌹
Hi! I’ll see what they let me see. Let’s begin.
I’m getting there may be more meaning in why you chose those emojis than you know, perhaps you and your FS like to do yoga together or this is the person who buys you roses just because. That’s very cute, aww, something about the color red so to me that means passion, action, excitement, I think this person will bring out this dead part of you you deactivated
Hello my darling, my love, so you just had to ask about me, huh? ;) I know I know, I create obsession, just my charm (they are very playful and teasing, they wanted to talk to so quickly to you I had to hurry up my last thought) I have so much planned for you! I can’t wait. We’re gonna do all the romantic things I’ve always wanted to do for someone but it never felt safe enough, it always felt like they might make fun of me or not get the gesture, but not you. That’s what I love about you. I can be all the versions of myself and you understand. You’re my best friend (this is a tim McGraw song too). I hope you feel safe to show me all your spots, from the beginning because you are bold and courageous and brave and I really see you that way. You diminish yourself too much, my love! Romeo, Romeo, where for art thou, Romeo? Right here! Duh. We’re gonna have a lot of fun together because I’m finally ready for something exciting, I’ve had it all before and I always wanted more. Soon, I’ll connect soon, pay attention to how you feel, to your dreams because they hold tons of meanings. Sleep, don’t sleep, you need to be more consistent with self care! Tsk tsk (autocorrected to tan so maybe go on vacation) Just kidding :) I love you. It’ll all be okay. You’ll see.
Maybe you both feel at peace together, like the kinda of peace you find in yoga. That came up as I was shuffling the cards. I’m also getting they like to do grand gestures are “tres romantique” ooo maybe something with French, they are French, take you to France, you meet in Paris.
Work your light oracle
Dance with life—do something to change your energy
Travel? Maybe you need to branch out, are you holding yourself back from experiences that make life worth living and why do you say no to yourself, treat yourself like a dream lover would so that when they come to your door you know what you deserve, I see you wearing red and dancing with your FS, very romantic
Yes— Just say yes
I think you may be hesitant and nervous about the person in your life, but just say yes, give them a chance, whirlwind it may move quicker than you expect, but when you trust, let yourself jump.
Druid Craft Tarot (I wanted one for clarity)
Death, in reverse—avoidance or fear of change; weariness, stagnation, pessimism, depression
Life often seems so threatening that we feel we must cling on to those few rocks of stability, even if deep down we know it’s time to move on. Fear may be ruling your life, and fatigue and depression may result, you may feel your life is stuck in some way, the more unconscious your resistance to change, the more likely you are to experience inertia and lethargy.
Lol! Yeah back to the reading right before this. Idk why but it seems like you both may be experiencing the same thing, I keep seeing how those two energies seem to overlap in these two and I’m not sure why, but maybe you need to look at their reading because there is a message there for you too! Odd.
Are you afraid you won’t find love? I think you need to go within to change this energy up, to figure out how to dance with life. This FS wants to bring this to you more but you need to find it within yourself first. Maybe you need to get into yoga or become a certified teacher! Maybe buy yourself roses in the meantime. I’m hearing some song reference 1,000 roses but don’t know what it is.
Hope this helps! Look to the reading before this because your energy seems to be going through something similar. Maybe you two anons have a connection of some sort or similar frequencies. Soul family? Idk. That’s kinda cute to think maybe my blog could facilitate people meeting who are meant to.
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Just Googled Daily Horoscope?
Then You’re In The Right Place
Hey! I’m David William Psychic Medium and I just want to say it’s great to meet you.
If you’re reading this then you’ve been searching the internet looking for a daily accurate horoscope or horoscope daily and that means you’re looking for a sign from the universe. This Is It!
Psychic / Clairvoyant Reading vs Horoscope Daily or Daily Horoscopes
Did you know daily horoscopes are produced in one of two ways? They’re either written by a person sitting in an office who’s job is to write generic and generalised articles on your star sign such as:
Virgo’s (Accurate Horoscope UK) - Don't be surprised if things don't go exactly according to plan today. Unexpected events are likely to pop up and disturb the course of action. Realise that these disruptions have a place in your life and that they're occurring for a reason. You might not understand exactly how or why, but that's OK. You don't need to know. Welcome these new energies into your life.
Or Gemini (Accurate Daily Horoscope) - You may not feel like you're clicking with anything today. For any kind of resolution, adjustments are needed, either by you or by the people you're dealing with. Your emotions may feel tied to the ground while your mind wants to take off into the stratosphere. Dilemmas between whether to take action or stay passive could leave you paralysed. Just go with the flow.
But these days most horoscopes including the daily horoscopes you’ve been reading are generated by a computer software program such as Kepler, Astro Gold and Sirius. Not very personal. Is it?
Are you willing to risk your future on a rando who gets paid for writing random stuff about your star sign or bet your destiny on a generic generated computer program?
Or would you rather be guided by me a psychic medium and tarot card reader who can tune into your energy and vibration to help remove the blocks you’re experiencing in your life right now, as well as giving you the clarity you deserve?
It doesn’t matter where you are in the world, if I can hear your voice I can read for you and that gives us the liberty to be able to work together because energy knows no bounds not limited by distance.
Over the last 25 years I’ve been fortunate enough to read for “A” list celebrities, Rock Stars and even a the occasional client with royal blood (Hush! Hush!) And I’d love to work with you.
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All you’ve got to do is pick the psychic reading you want, chose a time and date that suits and decide how we’re going to connect and viola clarity will be winging it’s way into your life in no time.
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Pick a card reading for the collective.
I told you that I want to post other content, not just celeb readings.
Because I enjoyed the last few months here and I love to share and discuss your opinions I made pick a card reading for the collective as a thank you for being here and chatting with me and trust me with your opinions and time.
For now, I only will post the piles face down, the disclaimer and the how it works part, please read that carefully! 
How does it work?
I designed this as a September reading. It’s very important to understand this is not a what will happen, what you should do reading. This is a little guidance, a little reminder, assurance for the month of September.
At this moment I only post the piles, face down. Take your time, chose one, if you want to you can meditate on them before you pick a pile. After a while, I will update and reblog this post with the piles and the reading itself. This post also will be pinned.
You will get 2 tarot cards and an oracle card.
Before you jump into the reading I ask you to look at them carefully, try to use your intuition first. Just spend a little time with the pictures.
If your pile does not resonate with you, don’t worry, could happen, maybe next time. 
This is the first pick a card I did so it is not a long one and I am anxious and excited about it, so feedbacks are appreciated even later in time during September.
I hope you will enjoy this.
DISCLAIMER: 
This is a general reading it won’t resonate with every one of you. Tarot should not dictate your life. This reading is for confirmation, it is not telling you what you should do. You have free will, your determination and choices will decide the outcome not a pick a card reading on Tumblr. Be responsible, accountable, this reading is a guide only. 
Tarot reading is subject to interpretation and should not be taken as absolute. A tarot reading is never 100% accurate. All tarot readings given by me are for entertainment purposes only.  A tarot reading does not replace professional medical/legal/business opinion and advice. It will not force you to follow a particular course of action, or attempt to exert any form of control over your free-will and common sense. The contents of a tarot reading are not legally binding. Any decisions made, or actions taken by you as a result of your tarot reading are your sole responsibility and have not been forced upon you, by me, your tarot reader. I assume no legal liability for any damages, losses, or other consequences of any client decisions, subsequent to, or based on, my tarot readings. Please use your own common sense and judgment at all times. It is only with the complete understanding and acceptance of the above that your reading will take place.
The piles. 1-2-3 left to right.
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Self-care is important, don’t forget it. Maybe you feel some tasks are a burden on you. Maybe you have a project at its final stage and you are working so hard, you forget your mental wellbeing. Don’t forget to relax, reclaim your energy. Maybe you even have lost your original goal, why you started it at the first place, so take time. Protect yourself from negativity. Maybe you are thinking about organising your home, your possessions or moving to a new apartment. This could be very stressful. Having a rest is important because we are living in cycles. Your next one only can be strong and fruitful if you take time to heal and rest. Especially if you expected way too much from yourself or from your body.
With the Judgment rx it could mean you wrongly judged a situation, a person or you have this fixation to be fair and judged fairly so you should let go of this, because not every situation will be fair. It could mean you criticize yourself heavily. You are hard on yourself if you make a misstep. Forgiveness, self-acceptance is really important. Judgment rx could mean you have some legal case going on and maybe the outcome won’t be the one you expected it. If you are making decisions, be sure, you are fair and don’t have any prejudice.
I hope you enjoyed it, be blessed
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This knight is an analytical one. He is slow and observant. It is suggested you to be detailed and logical. The woman on the 4 of Swords is in hibernation, waiting for the summer to bloom. I think these 2 cards want to let you know that no matter if something is slow it doesn’t mean it won’t happen. Rest, before making the next step and accept if you cannot control something. Maybe you have to review your progress in a certain area and realise how far you have become. Maybe you are so ambitious you want progress as soon as possible but many times this is not the way and you have to remind yourself of this. 
Everything will happen at the right time. Release the fear, like when you are meditating. Acknowledge those thoughts and let them go. Embrace the small miracles in your life. This knight is also stubborn and traditionalist, maybe you have to put that thought to an intellectual rest a little bit and just watched the miracles happen. 
I hope you enjoyed it, be blessed
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I think you are questioning yourself lately a lot. Am I enough? Are my skills, my knowledge valuable? Probably your self worth is not the highest lately. But you are, you are worthy. Maybe you are already on the part to rise yourself and confidence and this is a reminder and assurance that you are on the right part. Maybe you are thinking about asking for a pay raise or spend bigger money on things that make you feel worthy. New makeup, hair, wardrobe etc. Especially the Empress card suggest that. Treat yourself, reconnect with your feminine side, enjoy creative things, music, movie, dance, paint something. Maybe you are thinking about going to the countryside, go hiking, connect with mother nature. Spend quality time with yourself and your loved ones.
9 ofPrx could mean you are too dependent on others, on their opinion or financially. Or you are hanging on the idea that you have to earn more and more money and that’s why you feel disconnected from the natural side of yourself. If you are about to start something new or waiting for some sign maybe this will the time for you. I also got a very direct message that if you are kinda afraid of some medical exams, and you don’t “answer this call”, don’t be afraid. Just go, especially if this is overdue already. 
I hope you enjoyed it, be blessed
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shadamyheadcanons · 3 years
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Headcanon #229
Amy paced back and forth in her kitchen one evening, shooting nervous glances over at the cake she’d just finished decorating.
I was really hoping I’d be calmer by the time I was done frosting it, but...
Amy turned her back to the cake and stayed put. Her foot tapped at a maddening pace.
I have nothing to worry about. Shadow’s a great guy! It’s not like he’s going to...to turn his back on me!
Amy snorted and tried to shake it off. I’m being ridiculous. It’s not as if he’s going to think I want to see other people, or...
Her palms itched the way they always did when she wanted to check her tarot cards, but she’d done a reading earlier, and it came out fine. It should have made her feel better.
Amy glanced back at the cake and bit her lip. But he could still get the wrong impression, couldn’t he? Some people judge us pretty badly...the stereotypes are... Amy’s eyes shot open wide. Wait--he’s from a different time! What if he doesn’t even know what it means?! How did I not think of--
“Amy?”
“SHADOW!” Amy yelped, jumping a foot in the air out of surprise. “I mean...” She cleared her throat and forced a tight smile onto her face. “Welcome home!”
Shadow didn’t smile back. He crossed the room to pull her close, then gently tipped her chin up to fix her with his concerned gaze. “What’s wrong?”
Amy stayed rigid for a moment, then relaxed in his arms and let out a deep breath. She turned and gestured toward the table. Confused, Shadow looked past her.
On the table sat a small, rainbow-colored cake. Amy’s frosting calligraphy, though a little shaky from nerves, was still unmistakable as it spelled out “I’m pansexual!” in swooping cursive letters.
“Huh.”
Shadow’s noncommittal noise came after a few seconds. Amy gingerly peeked up at him. When he didn’t speak further, she dared to ask, “Do...you know what that means...?”
Shadow scratched his chin. “That’s the one where you love all genders, right?”
Amy nodded slowly. “So...?”
Shadow’s frown of contemplation melted into a genuine smile. “It’s fitting, don’t you think?”
Relief flooded through Amy, only to be replaced with confusion. “Fitting how?”
Shadow cupped her cheeks. “Amy Rose, you have more love in you than anyone I’ve ever met. Of course you’re not limited by something like gender.”
Amy’s heart melted. “Shadow, I...” She trailed off and giggled. “I don’t think that’s how it works!”
Shadow shrugged. “Maybe not, but it’s still true.” He waited for her giggles to die down before pressing a lingering kiss to her lips. “I love you, Amy Rose. All of you.”
Amy’s heart leapt. She hugged him tightly enough to make him wince. “I love you, Shadow. Thank you!”
They stood there for a moment longer, just holding each other and enjoying the moment. Then, Shadow made a soft noise akin to a ‘hmph.’ Amy pulled back to check on him. “What’s wrong?”
She was met with a smug smile. “Oh, it’s nothing. Just that now we know for sure that Professor Gerald was successful.”
She narrowed her eyes. “What do you mean?”
Shadow chuckled under his breath and let go of her. “Well, you see...” He started pacing around her, blatantly looking her up and down. “A girl like you could have anyone she wanted,” he drawled, smirking in spite of her skeptical stare, “and you have infinite choices in front of you,” he continued, nodding to the cake, “buuuut...you still chose me over all of them, which means...” Amy’s eyes bugged out in realization. His smirk widened.
“I really am the ultimate life form!”
His laughter rang out over her affectionate groan at the joke. “Shadow!”
His chuckles died down as he promptly lifted her up and carried her to the table so he could sit down in a chair and lay her sideways on his lap. She couldn’t help but laugh in response. He slid the chair up to the table and dragged the cake closer to them, grinning as he did so. There were no plates or utensils nearby, so he smirked at her and swiped a finger into the frosting.
Amy gasped, scandalized. “No!” She frantically yanked his wrist away. As he hadn’t been expecting it, though, she pulled it back too far, and his finger grazed her cheek, leaving a stripe of rainbow frosting behind. She yelped in surprise.
For his part, Shadow just stared for a moment, then swiftly leaned forward to lick the frosting off her cheek. She squeaked and shivered. He sat back and smiled playfully. She crossed her arms and matched his look with a grumpy pout. “Shadow the hedgehog, don’t you dare ruin that cake! I worked all day on it!”
Shadow opened his eyes wider, intrigued. “That’s the only problem?”
Amy side-eyed him. “Yeah. Why?”
Shadow’s gaze flicked back to the table, and his face lit up when he spotted the frosting pipette she’d been using.
Amy’s eyes narrowed when he picked it up and turned back to her. “And what are you planning to do with that?”
Shadow looked her up and down and licked his lips. A devilish smirk spread across his face. “Art.”
Amy cocked her head in confusion, but then her face flushed.
“Sh-shadow!”
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kittysmemestorage · 2 years
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Shane Koyczan Poetry into Starters // Part 7
Moving these from Lulu to here so that it’s just easier to find when needed. Hope you enjoy them; they contain feels.
Remember to specify for multi muse blogs!
When I Was A Kid
“If you’re not careful, someday someone is gonna break your heart.”
“I’ve gotten shot down so many times that I get altitude sickness just from standing up for myself.”
“It’s time to start putting childish things away.”
“Fuck you! This is Skeletor!”
“I’ll never make it anywhere if I keep running away.”
“Do you wanna be a man..?”
“I want to register a retirements saving plan that will keep me long enough in candy to make old age sweet.”
“Others are less likely to argue if they are as tired as I am.”
“I was always drawn towards moonlight.”
“You must set your days according to sun light.”
“If I shut my eyes, even for an instance, I’ll miss out on something amazing.”
“All of this getting ahead bullshit will end soon.”
“You made it!”
“I saved up nickels and dimes, hoping that my first date would be you.”
“I probably should have just said something,,, but I was just a chicken shit.”
“When I was a kid, I did some stupid shit.”
“It’s like your heart, it doesn’t matter where you hide it. Lovers are like little kids lifting up rocks looking for an insect.. they will find that shit.”
“There is no winning any race against yourself, slow down.”
“Every weed is a flower just trying to make shit work.”
“Every jerk that you encounter is just someone who forgot that it’s okay to need a hug.”
“You just seem to laugh a little bit louder.. smile a little bit longer.”
“Don’t worry about me, I got more.”
“I rock the slumber party, come nap with me. First one to fall asleep loses.”
“I know we never meant to turn our hearts into garbage bins.. it was an accident.”
“I know the headlines about us giving up was just a misprint, and really just really bad reporting.”
“You need to start letting things go.”
“I’m in the habit of throwing everything away.”
Tarot
“The fool loves completely.”
“This is not work, this is necessary.”
“Someone has to put a positive spin on the term arms dealer..”
“You are cordially invited here, right now.”
“Test my commitment if you must, I will never let you go.”
“I won’t keep you forever.”
“I’ll be yours until you say so.”
“I don’t know how to hold on.”
“I plan on surprising even death by leaving early.”
“I can’t stand the sameness..”
“I don’t care about your simple questions.”
“I don’t know how to stop.”
“The tiny kindnesses are just pretend.”
“I’m making way for your something better that has come along.”
“Silly creature, love is for humans.”
“I wish you to have an unrelenting happiness.”
“My love does not end.”
“If only you could feel what I felt when I held you.”
“The truth about this race you’ve been running..? The only finish line is death.”
“”We need to celebrate the awful for the beautiful contrast.”
“Here I am.. breaking myself open and offering you my chest because this is the only gift worth giving.”
“The hardest part of living is watching what people will do with your trust.”
“There are people who will split you in two just to make you feel what they feel.”
“You just manipulate my trust and use it to hurt others and pit them against each other.. only for your amusement..”
“The risk of finding one honest connection is worth the hurt.”
“Guess it wasn’t in the cards..”
“It wasn’t in the dice, either. It wasn’t in the dominoes. God I don’t believe in knows it wasn’t in the air. It was in the atmosphere.. it was everywhere all at once.”
“It was so beautiful that I question if it even existed.”
“You can’t have hope until you’re willing to admit that there are times when the only honest answer is I don’t know.”
“I am swimming through the mess I made..”
“I stood still when you asked me to move so I could prove that the only thing that belongs to us are the choices we chose.”
“We lose everything by risking nothing.”
“You just pretend away your pain as if you are somehow above it.”
“You can’t just bare what is necessary.. you must love it.”
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nctzanne · 3 years
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[Smut, a tiny bit of fluff]
• Ten x Reader (fm)
requests closed ♡
-You are gay, aren’t you? I mean, by the way you look at Johnny, it’s pretty obvious- You speak nonchalant, fixing your eyes on the random yaoi movie you both are watching.
-I prefer calling myself bisexual- Ten answers with no amusement- I still don’t know how it’s to have sex with a girl-
-That’s why i thought you were gay- He laughs under his breath. You turn your sight to him, just to admire his delicate face traits. Indeed, Johnny was lucky.
Being friends with Ten was something... peculiar. He is a mystery, in every possible way. When you think you know him, suddenly he appears with a personality totally different from what he chose to show you. In those 5 years of knowing eachother, Ten always had something new to uncover about him, making you feel refreshed. There was no way you could be bored with him, everything felt new, funny, dangerous. He helped you to skip your first class, to get an A on maths, how to get drunk without puking, and how to freestyle dance. You just don’t imagine your life without him.
And now, that you both live together, everything got even better. Nights reading tarot cards, laughing at some Tik Toks, and even you both escaped to make a friendship tattoo: A little butterfly under your boob and under his chest. 
Some people would say that you both look like a couple, but there is no way Ten have ever felt that way with you. Oh, but if you talk about your personal feelings...
-Uhm, __, do i have something in my face or..?- Ten whispers so suddenly you snap out of your thoughts. One side of his face is iluminated by the different colors of the sunset that it’s occuring outside your balcony window. He looks so pretty like this, how can he even be real?
-Yeah, some uglyness over there- You try to play it cool, throwing a pillow towards him, positioning it on his lap so you can rest a bit over your heavy thoughts.
He doesn’t seem to complain, and starts playing with your hair. It feels so nice to be around him, he is your comfy zone, your safe space.
-I really want to know- he mumbles.
You freeze.
-Know? What do you wanna know?- For some reason, you don’t want to look at him.
-How it’s to have sex with a woman- he sounds so damn secure about himself, like those words didn’t afect you at all. But he’s wrong, your heart speeds up a little bit, trying to figure out where this conversation was heading to. No, there is no possible way that...
-I’ve been thinking about this a long time ago, you know- his voice goes deeper this time- I know so much about sex with men, but so little with girls. I really want to try how I develop during the act- What the fuck is he talking about?
-Ten, what the f...- he grabs you by your back so you sit up and face him. You are only centimeters away from your nose to rub his.
-I want to know... ___, please let me find out- he almost sound like begging. You hold your breath trying to conect the last neurons that are functioning so you convince yourself that you are not dreaming. You can’t help but look at his lips,just waiting for his sign...
There is no movement at all, not his, not yours. The only thing you can hear is your own heartbeat buzzing on your ears, his warm hands on the sides of your cheeks, his eyes piercing your thoughts.
-Just kiss me already- Your voice trembles, almost like if you are unsure. Actually, you are, there is no way this could end in a good way.
But all of that fades away when he connects his lips with yours. For a few seconds, it’s only that, just your lips touching. But it’s enough to make your mind go fuzzy, fireworks erupting on your lower belly, feeling like this moment should’ve happened so many years ago. When you interwined your fingers while walking on the park, or when he comforted you when you broke up with Kun. But no matter how awkward this moment was, it is everything you needed.
You don’t know how longer it takes for you to experimentally open your mouth a little bit, just to lick his lower lip, tasting the waters. He moves away quickly, leaving your mouth hanging open. You think you messed something up, but before you can apologize about taking things too fast he grabs you violently by the nape of your head, so he can start to kiss you messily.
Everything is tongue, saliva and teeth. There is no control, at all. His tongue works majestically inside your wet cavity, exploring every inch of it, like he was marking your mouth as his. You let him lead everything, you just melt under his ministrations, trying to fight his tongue only to earn a deep growl from his throat. 
He grabs your hips giving you a sign to sit on his lap and you do, gasping as soon as you feel his hard clothed member against you. He janks your hair just to have your neck fully display to him, so he can start marking you up. It first starts as tongue kisses, but slowly he sucks mercyless every inch of your neck and collarbones.
-Ten, i have dance classes tomorrow- you try to stay as rational as posible, running your fingers through his dark black locks- Dont mark me up-
He looks up to you, mouth full of saliva, eyes glistening -You are acting as if you aren't mine-
It felt like somebody totally different from Ten was talking to you now. When you said that he always had something new about himself to show, you weren't kidding. His voice was always sweet as a candy cane, but now you can swear he can cut a rock with a whisper. You shiver, not knowing what its going to happen at all.
-My dear pup- what... is that... a nickname? A pool starts to grow on your panties, and you are afraid you will wet his jeans as well- Do you think i don't know how i make you feel only by looking at you? By touching you?- he lays back on the sofa where you both at, just so he can admire your fucked up state, he is loving how wrecked you are by him- Why do you think i dont fuck any other girls, huh? Because I know how to drive you insane, i know how you masturbate with your filthy vibrator everynight you see me without a t-shirt, wishing that pleasure was given by me- your mouth opens in surprise, and you suddenly want to be swallowed by the couch and just disappear. It seems that he notices- The only girl i want to pleasure my whole life is you, because you are the only one who can make me feel this- he grabs your wrist so your hand touches his dick over his pants.
You are absolutely clueless of everything. So many things happening so fast. He heard you masturbating? He masturbates himself thinking about you? Is it now even the time to wonder about those things?
Almost on queue, he kisses your lips softly, caressing your hair -Let me make you feel good, pup. I want to try everything with you, only you-
A loud moan breaks the ice between you two. You look at eachother trying to figure out where the sound is coming, until you both face the TV. Right, the Yaoi movie. The scene is so fucking explicit you couldn't help by sigh, and that doesn't slip out of Ten.
-You like watching that, don't you?- he turns you around, so now that your back is pressed against his chest. He opens up your legs and in a blink of an eye has his hands roaming the waistband of your pajama pants. -You are so filthy, what if that was me and Johnny? Would you rather watch that?- you moan not only because of the scene you just imagine, but also that his fingers start to ghost against your wet folds- Or do you prefer me fucking you, making a mess out of you?- he teases you, rubbing gently but never putting enough pressure, he only rubs your pussy lips.
You open up your legs in desesperate attempt to make him touch you more, but he just takes his time. You are not watching the movie at all, your mind wandering about all the things you can try with him.
Finally, his index finger rubs your clit slowly in a up and down motion. You hate the fact that you are too vocal when it comes to sex, but it seems that for him it tastes like glory. Using two fingers now, he decides to rub your now hard and too sensitive nub in different ways, but when he starts to do it in circles is when you close your eyes and moan his name loudly.
-Okay, that's how you like it then- and you dont notice when he starts to pick up his pace. You are so close, so damn close due to all the dirty talking, but you don't want it to end.
-Ten please, i don't want to cum yet- you rest the back of your head on his shoulder, eyes rolling back. You can hear the sounds that come down from your wetness, and it seems that he tries in all best ways possible to make those sounds louder and louder.
-Who says you have permission to cum anyways, pup?- he whispers in your ear. His eyes are fixed in how his fingers are working on you, at the same time he is listening carefully how his name slips out of your tongue everytime he slows down. 
-Ten ‘m so close, please- You don’t know what are you begging for. Your legs tremble trying to hold your orgasm but you feel like you are going to explode.
-I love when you call me by my nickname, but sometimes i think you forget about my real name- He stops his actions, making you groan in disapproval, but he hush you while introducing his fingers on your mouth. You don’t want to admit it, but you truly love your own taste. 
You suck clean his fingers, swirling your tongue around them, while trying to look at him in the eyes, though it was kinda difficult due to the position he is. He bites his lips, humming in agreement, he likes what you are doing.
-I want to hear how you scream my name while i make you cum- He starts to rub your clit again, but 10x faster. He looks like an expert rubbing you, it feels so damn good, it’s impossible that he is a “girl virgin”.- Say it-
-Chittaphon...- You feel so embarrased, and don’t know why, but you choose to let go and get consumed by pleasure. You feel it, that tight knot begging for release, your hands holding on dear life by his arm muscles, hearing his grunts on your left ear, even the year of his piercings on your cheek makes you burn and get closer and closer.
-Chittaphon im cumming- you warn him with voice cracked, you can’t hold it any longer. 
-That’s it pup, let go, cum for me- He whispers and licks your earlobe. And that’s all that takes for you to disappear from earth, being sucked in by the orgasm that is washing you. You chant his name over and over again, your inner walls clenching around nothing, the climax seems to last for hours. You feel your clit throbbing, thighs full of your own liquids, and you black out.
-____, baby, it’s okay- He hears that you are whimpering, destroyed by pleasure.- Don’t move, let me clean you up- 
In a matter of minutes, you start to get conscious, eyelashes batting fast trying to recognize where you are. The aroma of Ten invades you and suddenly you feel calm, you are in his bed, covered, with a white t-shirt and nothing else below that. He is laying besides you, hugging you by your waist, caressing your skin with his thumb.
-Hey, you woke up. I was worried, i thought i knocked you out or something- He smiles, clearly proud of the mess he just made. You slap his shoulder, letting a little laugh slip out of your mouth.
-Sorry-
-About what?-
-I just passed out... i didn’t even suck you off- You legit feel embarassed.
-Ah, ____, i wanted it this way. It was perfect, trust me- He pecks your lips, worried that maybe you won’t believe him- This is what i asked for-
You feel your heart full. Of blood maybe, but it’s a metaphor to explain how complete this man makes you.
-So, are you bisexual or not- You try to change the subject, laying on your side so you can face him. You still don’t get used to the idea that probably, probably you both like eachother. He laughs outloud, with his perfect teeth on display, and then he bites his lip.
-Im ___sexual, for sure-
You don’t know what it’s going to happen before this. But that’s Ten’s essence, he is a complete mystery. And that’s why you are madly in love with him.
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hi hello i suffer from a terrible ailment called I Keep Acquiring New Tarot Decks Even Though I Am A Tarot Newbie.... so i figured i could do a little writeup about my decks if anyone is interested in that :’) basically i started doing tarot in 2019 because i couldn’t get a hold of a therapist (i was put on a year long waitlist WAHOO) so i basically. self-medicated with tarot readings hahaha. i had a friend who gave me a lot of really good advice and had done some readings for me before who felt immensely comforting. the way i read them is like... it allows you to confront your situation and your emotions through a new angle, but you gotta be brave enough to do it - or ask someone to do it for you. it can be a really intense but also cathartic experience. it’s not for everyone! but i like it. i still consider myself a novice and still learning so i am not in ANY way trying to paint myself as a Knowledgabl Tarot Witch - in a perfect timeline that’s who i wish i was, but i’m ultimately just some guy with a solid appreciation for art and personal growth.
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ANYWAY... onto my DECKS (the tumblr post will probably squish the quality outta my photos so i’m gonna link the URLs for Full View)
Children of Litha by Alexandria Huntington
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i consider this my main and first deck (i am NOT counting the official homestuck deck i bought as a teen just because i wanted to look at the art. no offense to the homestuck deck i’m just not gonna use fandom decks)! i picked it out but my Tarot Friend gifted it to me... i think it’s a very good starter deck for me personally, and it’s the deck i’ve bonded with and used the most. i even put a fancy sticker on the box as part of the bonding process. i always feel so bad for all of my other decks because i haven’t been able to dedicate as much time for them as i have this one... so it’s definitely the deck i go to for the most accurate readings for myself. Vibes and Thematic Coherence: the art in this is so beautiful and elegant. the symbolism more or less draws on the classic smith-waite deck, but redrawn for its theme. i like that it has a very consistent imagery! out of the major arcana, the fool is the only fully human character - every other character is part animal in some way or other. then the suit of swords depicts birds, winged insects and the air element, coins depict ungulates and equines and earth, wands has felines and canines and fiery imagery, and cups has fish and creatures of and in the sea. the court cards have humans. the suit symbols are always depicted consistently, as white silhouettes. there are also two extra cards: the all and the void. Pamphlet: the reason i think this was a good starter deck is because both because the art feels very intuitive about what it depicts (to me, at least), the descriptions in the pamphlet describe what is happening and why the artist chose this motif for this card. it has honestly helped me remember the meanings a lot, because i’ll be reading the other decks and be like “oh that’s the octopus card i know what the octopus card is about”. there are also little poems next to the main descriptions that work as a pretty solid tl;dr for the core meanings. i also like that the court cards are referred to in the sense of like... a knight is “a young person with masculine energy” rather than “a young man”. it feels more fluid and vibe-y about gender than traditional decks ya feel. on a range from Abstract to Directness this one feels like it sits pretty comfortable in the middle, maybe leaning on Abstractness. it has always given me gentle instructions and advice.
Cardfeel: the cards are very smooth and nice with gold edges. the cards are not NOT solid, but i wish they had been a little thicker because i’m always afraid i’m going to accidentally damage them - but that’s probably a feeling i have about most of my possessions tbh!! i think they’re a good size, too, at least for my small hands. they’re more on the long/slender side so they are good for me to shuffle. i also like the box, it’s a hard flip box with a magnet. i think u can’t go wrong with that. this is the deck i’ve travelled with the most (did u know hotel beds are the best tarot reading spaces. for some reason they just Work). The Spacious Tarot by Annie Ruygt and Carrie Mallon
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this is one i really like a lot and want to use more! i absolutely adore the concept of it, but it’s a little harder for me to read than the Litha one. Vibes and Thematic Coherence: this one is like!!! it’s about the open space and the quietness. the vibes are IMMACULATE. the cards aren’t filled to the brim with happenstance and symbolism, but they each feel like a little refuge. very meditative. i also like that the court cards are not gendered at all - there is no page, knight, queen and king, but rather child, explorer, guardian and elder. i am really into that, especially as steps of mastery of their suit. i do think that this deck is probably easier to read if you’re more experienced with tarot meanings and symbolisms, because the illustrations aren’t necessarily that intuitive. Pamphlet: i haven’t read through this one very much, but i think it’s more on the abstract side of the Abstract to Direct scale. it might just feel like that because it describes what the card symbolizes without drawing much on what the card depicts - it is generally a pretty abstract and meditative deck. i like it for what it is! but it’s harder for me to read than my main Litha deck. Cardfeel: there’s something about the cardfeel i wish was different. they’re perfectly ok cards, they’re smooth and not too thin, but i still wish they had had more heft or something. while the cards fit very well into my hands i think maybe they could’ve been Larger to emphasize their motifs of openness and space. or texture. or gilded edges. i really don’t know what i want. the box however is very good and easy to open and use!! never underestimate a good box.
Tarot of the Divine by Yoshi Toshitani
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this is a deck i Had To Get because i knew the artist was working on it and i was always Planning To... it is not a deck i use very often but i absolutey adore it. you can also get it with an accompanying fairytale book, i thought i had ordered that but i was Wronge. Vibes and Thematic Coherency: it depicts motifs and characters from stories, myths, and fairytales from a vast variety of cultures. it’s AMAZING. the art is so clean and crisp and i was VERY EXCITED to find a card drawing on a sami story (page of coins)! i don’t have a lot to say except that yoshi yoshitani has done some incredible work on this. Pamphlet: while i do not have the Fairytale Book edition, the pamphlet is really super nice because it shows pictures of the cards, lists what story it depicts and where the story is from, gives a short description for how this scene or character embodies the card. it then lists some of the Card Characteristics beneath. very simple but very nice. i really like pamphlets that explain Why the artist picked the motifs they did - for me personally it really helps me connect to the deck and their symbols. it’s probably more on the Direct side of the scale thanks to this. Cardfeel: these are textured!! they feel like the playing card deck my grandmother has, which feels apt to me. textures make the cards feel solid to me. they’re also a very nice size to hold. the edges are not guilded, but with the white frames it looks good and nice. the box is nice but also Large, possibly to fit with the book? might not be ideal for travel, but there’s nothing stopping you from getting a different box or pouch.
The Star Spinner Tarot by Trung Le Nguyen
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my most recent deck... i KNEW about the artist and the deck from before, but wasn’t PLANNING to get it, but then i saw it in the comic book store and i wasn’t able to pass it by. no regrets, it’s a wonderful deck. Vibes and Thematic Coherence: absolutely lovely art and style. it’s another deck drawing on fairytale themed motifs. i’m loving the use of colors and circles. it also has four different cards for the Lovers so you can choose which one(s) speak to you the most, something i think is just wonderful. i think the only thing i found a little... odd? was that the suit of Wands looks kinda same-y, which isn’t a bad thing, but it was the only suit that looked that way to me. they’re still very very nice. ALSO THE BACK OF THE CARDS ARE SHINY. I JUST THINK THAT’S VERY LOVELY. as a Physical Product these are chef’s kiss. Pamphlet: on the Abstract to Directness scale, these are VERY DIRECT. the pamphlet doesn’t say a lot about why the cards depict what they do, but go straight into card meaning, and in a very unambiguous way. i think it can both work very well, leaving you little room to avoid your feelings, but it also has a higher margin to miss completely. for being such a cutesy deck full of fairies the pamphlet is definitely giving you a smack at the side of your head. i haven’t used this deck a lot yet due to its newness, but i definitely want to try it out more to see what it does to me.
Cardfeel: out of all of my decks i think this has the best cardfeel... the cards feel really solid, and have a very good size that feel just right for them. like i sort of fell in love with the deck when i actually started shuffling it and browsing the cards. buying cards - especially on the internet - can be a gamble because you Can’t Know The Cardfeel. with decks like the Spacious Tarot i got a little dissappointed, but this one was a very pleasant surprise. also the box is very good and look like a work of art. The Fyodor Pavlov Tarot
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honestly one of my new favourite decks that i ABSOLUTELY am going to use more and become more familiar with. also a deck that i knew the artist was working on, and supported the kickstarter the moment it was announced. my deck also came with two Magician cards and i don’t know why. extra wizard for me??? Vibes and Thematic Coherence: the look and feel of this deck is Immaculate. it looks very classical and traditional (and absolutely gorgeous), it is grounded in the classical smith-waite imagery but Expands Upon It, draws on the diversity of human culture and experiences... also loving the energy of “THIS CARD IS TRANS NOW AND THERE’S NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT” many cards have (most famously the Lovers, but i don’t want to post pics of any of the cards depicting nudity or risqué themes on tumblr). i absolutely adore the knight of coins card (THE HORSE IS HIS FRIEND AND SERVICE ANIMAL!!). it’s just Really Very Good. also the backside has pretty Shiny stars and i like it. Pamphlet: i really like this one. it is a deeply personal pamphlet, where fyodor pavlov directly discusses his relationship to the cards and why he chose the motifs he did. it feels really grounded in the world we live in, and also such a vulnerable thing to share with us all. it’s on the Direct side of the scale without necessarily telling you “the card is definitely this one thing”. my only wish is that it was easier to navigate at a glance. Cardfeel: THEY ARE TEXTURED!!! these cards are definitely long and slender and benefit someone with larger hands than mine, but i still like them a lot. i do wish they had been a smidge heavier just so i wouldn’t worry so much about damaging them... but i don’t want to be ungrateful. the deck and the box are wonderfully crafted. The Botanica Tarot by Kevin Jay Stanton
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oh boy did i support the kickstarter for this one... i had actually bought the major arcana when it was the only version available, and then the artist decided to make a full deck. it’s an absolute work of art. Vibes and Thematic Coherence: oh boy oh boy does it serve vibes and thematic coherence. it’s Plants all the way down, OBVIOUSLY, but also like... every card in the minor arcana depicts their suit in its own way. like the range of coins/currency from various times and cultures?? AMAZING. looking at the art of this deck is a DELIGHT. every card manages to be beautiful and interesting despite there not being a single living creature depicted on any of them. i WILL say they, same as the spacious tarot, are not the most intuitive to read if you’re not super familiar with either the Plants or the meanings of the cards. Pamphlet: you can fit so much plant knowledge in this one. i got a version of the deck with a beautiful little book, but there’s also a small pamphlet that follows the deck itself (which i admittedly have not looked too closely at yet). there’s descriptions for why this specific plant has been chosen for each card, and then some Card Meaning Keywords. so definitely on the Abstract side of my imaginary tarot pamphlet scale, because you mostly have plant symbolism to go on. i haven’t done a lot of readings with this deck, i’ll be honest - but it’s a beautiful treasure that i adore. Cardfeel: they’re Smoothe and Guilded edges. they can feel a little wide for my hands, but not so much that i cannot shuffle. i think maybe a smidge of texture wouldve been good with this deck since it would fit the look of the painted art. i also did get like... a big kickstarter reward version of this deck. it came in a tin box with extra treasures and a cloth and pins... the actual card box itself is beautiful to look at, but i have to say that the one i got is VERY HARD TO OPEN. i might transfer the cards into a pouch if i want to be reading them more often. IKEA deck
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yes this is a meme deck and i don’t really use it but I WANTED TO SHARE... i think the major arcana is very cool and funny, but i was dissappointed to find that the suit cards are just “ikea part but Multiple Times”. it also does not come with a pamphlet. also yes yes it’s funny that the names of the cards are spelled in a “silly ikea word language” BUT IKEA NAMES ARE JUST SWEDISH....... IT’S NOT A SECRET LANGUAGE IT’S JUST SWEDISH............ it’s a funny deck to have and it doesn’t take up much space so eh! shrugs!!! The Lubanko Tarot by Emily Lubanko
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another kickstarter deck... it’s gorgeous but there is a chance i might gift it to someone else. not because i regret getting it or don’t like it, but because i already have so many decks that speak to me, while this one gives me vibes of serving someone else better. does that make any sense? i admittedly haven’t looked at the pamplet so much so i think i’m going to skip that description for this one. Vibes and Thematic Coherency: the MOVEMENT and the COLORS... it’s Capturing Feelings in a really good way. i mean. i got it for the vibes and it’s serving vibes. Cardfeel: Smoothe Cards. shiny silver edges, like a slippery fish in a rapid river. it feels good and right for this deck. also good box. i know most of these decks have Good Box, it’s just the botanica one that let me down by being difficult. The Oriens Tarot by AmbiSun
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i don’t have this deck anymore, i gifted it to my boyfriend... i found these pics on my twitter. it’s one of the first decks i supported on kickstarter and it’s VERY pretty, and it has HOLOGRAPHIC RAINBOW EDGES HOT DAMN. it’s another one of those instances where i Yearned for it and then found that it didn’t fit me as well as i had hoped. tarot is just one of those things where you have to find what Works for you. at this time the children of litha was working so well for me and i really liked the depiction of animals in it, i wasn’t able to connect to another animal deck in the same way... and it was before my tarot collection snowballed into what i have now. C’EST LA VIE ... i don’t have a smith-waite deck. i’m a fake tarot fan. i am however familiarizing myself by following Jessica Dore on twitter and subscribing to her monthly newsletters. i really love how she talks about these cards and how she interprets them.
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